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🎙️ star-crossed lovers 【 薄幸な恋人 】 ⛦

summ✩ry Forbidden sparks fly between you and Enhypen’s main dancer upon dorming together, but what happens when your bandmate threatens to expose this reckless romance?

p✩iring idol!niki x popstar!reader ✩ EPISODE 1

genre band au, fluff, secret romance cw swearing, slightly suggestive, mild bullying, kissing, girl drama, reader is younger than Niki wc 4.5k

"Where were you last night?” Haerin asked with a whisper, removing the tape-seal from her container of apple slices.

It was early in the morning when you, your bandmates, and the Enhypen members got up for breakfast in the Hybe cafeteria.

Getting up early proved to be a challenge, especially considering your late night adventures with Niki and unbreakable inability to sleep in beds that aren't yours.

You couldn't help but wonder how much better you would've slept if Niki stayed next to you-

"W-what are you talking about, Rinnie?" You stuttered unintentionally, taking a sip from the coffee you prayed would help you get through another busy day in Korea.

"Don't play dumb, ____. You know what I saw," she sighed, meeting your nervous eyes, "You really shouldn't be disobeying the curfew rule, not to mention how dangerous sneaking around a foreign country is."

"I appreciate your concern, Haerin, but I promise, you have nothing to worry about," you said with a smile, "I just wanted to get some extra practice time in, that's all."

The sound of approaching footsteps cut your conversation short, the Enhypen boys and your bandmates finally joining you two at the table.

"Ooo, are you guys telling secrets? I wanna hear," Jade cheered, placing her food tray on the table.

Apparently you and Haerin looked a lot more suspicious than intended, but then again, two girls whispering always looked a little fishy.

“Hehe, no secrets over here!” Haerin covered, shoving her mouth with apples to avoid anymore questions.

"Riiiight," Jungwon smirked, revealing his soft dimples, "Anyways, how’re you all enjoying the roommate pairs?”

"I’m actually quite pleased with our group, right boys?” Heeseung joked, exchanged high fives with Jake and Jay to which Sunghoon rolled his eyes.

"Yeah, I'm sure you guys took a while to get used to each other," he mumbled sarcastically, "What do you think about us, Serenity?"

"Hmm," she began in thought, "wellll, Sunoo's kinda vibey. He has a lot of fancy skincare products that he shares sometimes, so that’s been nice. Sunghoon's also really easy to look at so..."

"Easy to look at, huh? Is that your way of calling me hot?"

"Heyyy, I never said you could use my stuff," Sunoo blurted out, interrupting Sunghoon's attempt at flirting.

"Moving on," Serenity chirped, redirecting the convo, "What about you, Mr. Leadernim?"

Jungwon took a bite of his scrambled eggs before answering, "Honestly, Jade and Haerin remind me of my sister. We get along pretty well and they're not too troublesome, I guess."

"Yeah, Jungwon's pretty cool, too... aside from his tendency to hog the shower," Jade teased back.

“Okay, now what about you two?” Heeseung started, sending Niki a funny look that made him choke on his water.

“Alright, you can answer ____ while he keeps drowning,” Heeseung chuckled, passing Niki a napkin to wipe the water from his now shiny lips.

You still couldn't believe that he actually kissed you WITH THOSE LIPS-

“Uhhh,” you began nervously, trying to think of something normal to say, “N-Niki... w-well, he's uh... Niki, he's—”

“My GOD, the look on your face right now makes it seem like you’re in love with him or something,” Serenity gawked rudely, dramatically throwing her hands in the air as she successfully got everyone’s attention with her big mouth.

“I mean,” Niki started with a plain expression, “its not like I’m entirely against the idea of having a girl fall for me...”

“Yeah, happens all the time to guys like us,” Jake winked, immediately cringing at his own words.

Step, step, step, signaled Miss Kim’s signature black booties across the tiled cafeteria floor, “Good morning, my little minions. Now what’s going on over here with all this chatter?”

Turns out Miss Kim only worked as an activity assistant for Enhypen, though, she always had a way of waltzing into every room like she owned the place.

“Not much,” Jake answered, “We were just discussing our practice schedule for the day.”

“Mhm, so that means the few of you are well updated on your instrument rehearsals this evening, yes?”

“Instrument rehearsals,” Jade repeated yet asked.

“Exactly. Jade, Serenity, and Jay will play a guitar riff during one of the stages, so you’ll meet in the recording studio at 4pm today.”

“Sweet,” Jay smirked, playing air-guitar while mimicking the Karma instrumental.

“Also,” Miss Kim continued, “I can’t really remember, but which of you here is struggling with the choreo?”

Everyone’s eyes turned to you as you raised your hand shyly.

“Oh, ____,” she said, dragging out your name, “perfect! Niki, you’ll be skipping vocals today to help ____ catch up in the dance studio.”

You couldn’t hold back the smile that grew on your face at her words: maybe some extra dance practice wouldn't be too bad after all.

“Alright, I'm headed to the fashion department to check out your stage costumes. Heeseung and Jungwon, please make sure everyone follows today's schedule accordingly.”

“We won't let you down, Miss Kim," Jungwon nodded as the stern lady turned on her heel, beelining to the cafeterias coffee counter a few feet away from your table.

"Alright guys, you heard the boss lady. Let's wrap up breakfast and meet in 10," Heeseung said, getting up from his seat first as the rest of you followed shortly after...

To Room 10: Hybe's indoor gym and workout center.

The intense exercise routine left you feeling pretty worn out.

Your mind was mostly focused on getting all your reps in without passing out, ignoring the overflow of sweat that kept seeping from your pores. You all had just finished the last part of the workout: a mile outdoor run around Yongsan Family Park.

"And you're telling me we still have rehearsals after this?" Serenity huffed, taking yet another large gulp from her jug of Gatorade.

"Yes," Sunoo answered plainly, taking the blue drink from her hands and pouring it into a nearby bush.

"Dude, what the hell?" She yelped, backing away to avoid the splashes, "Don't tell me you're still mad about that 'skincare' thing."

"If you had any idea how many added sugars people put in that stuff, you would've poured it out yourself," Sunoo replied in a sassy voice.

"Well if it wasn't obvious, I couldn't care less about whatever you just said," she sighed, sadly watching as the blue liquid trickled past the leaves, soaking the soil, "you totally owe me a drink after this, by the way."

"Hey, that's actually a pretty good idea! We should go out for drinks tomorrow night," Jake cheered, using the back of his hand to catch his sweat, "everybody down for splitting the bill?"

"Yeah, but we can focus on that once we get back up this hill," Jay replied, encouraging the rest of you to keep on treading.

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Later in the rehearsal studio, practice started off a bit slow with a warm up session before actually breaking down the choreography.

Apparently, the official dance composer for the upcoming stage changed a part in the performance for you and your group to follow, adding a trick move with Haerin and Jade.

Meanwhile, the Enhypen boys were working on perfecting their routines, as they had already memorized the whole thing a lot quicker than the Riot Grrlz.

The main practice session lasted close to two hours before the talent supervisor called for a break, sending the other members off so you and Niki could have the studio to yourselves.

Finally.

"So what was that all about earlier?" He asked, kneeling down to stretch his legs.

"In the cafeteria this morning?"

He nodded in response, guiding you to the floor to help you stretch with him.

"Well, Haerin said she saw me last night... Sneaking out, I mean. She didn't say anything about you, but..."

You couldn't help but giggle at the way his face dropped.

"What the? I could've sworn everyone was asleep when we came back last night," he said with an awkward smile, holding onto your wrists as he pulled you toward your feet on the ground, "what'd you tell her then?"

"I told her not to worry about it, but I avoided mentioning too many details," you said, squeezing your eyes at the painful stretch you felt in your hamstrings.

"Welp, all that means is we'll have to be more careful when we sneak out again tonight," he winked, finally letting go of your wrists so you could relax.

"Tonight, huh? I'm surprised I've got you hooked so fast. What's it been, like three days?"

"Four, actually. But I'm surprised by your sudden confidence. You could hardly form a coherent sentence about me, earlier," he teased, offering you his hand to help you up from the ground.

"That had nothing to do with you and everything to do with the way you almost died while drinking water," you returned before dramatically reenacting the way he struggled, pretending to choke on the air, "I was nervous... for your safety, of course."

"Mhm. I'm sure you would've saved me though... Nothing a little mouth to mouth can't fix," he smiled, looking at your lips before looking away, trying to maintain his focus, "You remember how the choreo starts, right?"

"Uhh," you started, scratching the back of your head, "With the little arm-move-thingy?"

"Sure, you could call it that," he chuckled, "Now just follow my moves like we did at the skate park. I'll go slow at first and speed up as you catch on."

"Okay," you said, watching his movements in the mirror as if hypnotized.

It amazed you how even while practicing the moves in slow motion, he still looked effortlessly talented.

"Good!" he encouraged, observing how much you improved with the footwork compared to day one, but there was something about your hip movements that he thought looked a little stiff.

"Okay, hold on," he started, walking up to you and placing his hands at your waist, "Try to be a little more fluid with this step, otherwise it looks kinda awkward."

"Like this?" you asked, keeping his hands in place as you rolled your hips in front of him, trying to follow his instructions.

You didn't even realize how close his body was pressed against yours until a loud slam startled you both.

Niki's gaze immediately darted to the source of the sound, seeing none other than Serenity barging through the studio door, marching in with a cattiest look on her face.

"Ummm, how can I help you, officer?" Niki asked playfully, stepping away from you and crossing his arms.

That's when Sunghoon and Sunoo ran in behind her, trying to catch their breath while spitting out a few words, "We tried to stop her," Sunoo started, "but she wouldn't listen."

"Aha! I knew there was something going on between you two! Don't try to back away now, Niki! I guess you couldn't wait to loosen up each other's buttons again, huh?!" Serenity rambled, making an utter fool of herself.

"We were rehearsing the choreography, genius. Like Miss Kim told us to," You retorted, not being in the mood for her games at the moment.

"Mhm, without leaving room for Jesus, I see! Speaking of Miss Kim, just wait til I tell her about this!"

"What are you two doing here?" Niki asked the two frustrated boys, trying to redirect the conversation.

"We were in Room 10 doing our cooldown when Gossip Girl over here started interrogating Haerin," Sunghoon sighed, "One thing led to another and before we knew it, Serenity was bolting out of the gym like a crazy person."

Your eyes went to meet Serenity's frame, who stood with her hands on her hips and eyes narrowed as she wrestled with whatever angry thoughts ran through her brain.

"Ren, please don't tell Miss Kim. This was obviously a huge misunderstanding," you pleaded with her, trying to be mature about the situation.

"No… little kids like you need discipline. Though," she paused, twirling a strand of her chocolate brown hair, "I might consider keeping your little secret if you resign from being captain over the Riot Grrlz."

You scoffed at her offer, "You're delirious. And for the last time, there isn’t any secret for you to spoil, anyway."

"Fine,” she grinned, a little too wide, “I tried to be nice about this, Niki, but your girlfriend has left me with no other choice but to come clean about this matter.”

Flipping her hair, she marched towards the door, looking back as if waiting for you all to follow her, which you did, all the way to Miss Kim in the fashion department.

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To no one’s surprise, Miss Kim wasn’t happy to see the five of you crowding her during her shift, especially not when you were given specific instructions to follow the schedule while she was away.

After Serenity expressed that their was “a breach of the rules” between you and Niki, Miss Kim summoned all of the Riot Grrlz and Enhypen members for a disciplinary meeting.

"Oddly enough, my disappointment doesn't fall on Jungwon and Heeseung, even though I put you two in charge of everything," the lady began, holding her hands behind her back as she paced around the table you were all sat at.

"Serenity has brought to my knowledge that some of your are struggling to follow the strict rules in place here. Are there any witnesses to this claim?"

Serenity kicked Haerin's leg from under the table, trying to get a word out of her, but she remained silent thankfully. You couldn't help but feel guilty though at the sight of Jungwon and Heeseung hanging their heads in shame.

"Very well then... and are any of the accused parties willing to come clean about the alleged incident?"

Niki peeked at you for a second as if waiting for you to say or not say something first.

"I..." you began timidly, "I did stay out past curfew last night, but only to practice."

This was a partial lie, but you had no intentions on bringing Niki down with you. After all, it's not like he forced you to sneak out with him, as you most definitely wanted to.

Miss Kim's eyes widened slightly at your sudden choice to speak, "Go on," she said, stopping in her tracks.

"And about what Serenity saw in the rehearsal studio... It was nothing. Me and Niki were only trying to practice like you said."

She hummed at your words, "I appreciate your honesty, ____. And Serenity, it would bring me much joy if from now on, you would focus more on working than running after silly rumors."

"Soooo," Jake started, "are we free to go now?"

"Not just yet," Kim answered, clearing her throat before continuing, "From now on, your curfew will be pushed back from 11:00pm to 8:00pm."

A loud groan filled the room at her words, but a satisfied look remained on Serenity's face until the next part of Kim's rules were announced.

"A piece of blue tape will be lined at your bedroom doors, so anyone who tries to leave after 8 will have a tough time hiding it once the tape is torn. Also, expect to be waken up extra early tomorrow for exercise. No breakfast."

"But Miss Kim," Jade began, "Maybe you can give us another chance, there's no proof, anyway."

"Proof or no proof, my rules will stand in place until further notice. And for the record, this is not a punishment."

"Yeah, more like a freaking detention center! I knew it from day one," Serenity whined, the taste of her karma unfortunately falling on the lot of you.

"If that's what you wanna call our home to multinational superstars, so be it," Kim retorted, making her way to the office door, "hopefully there will be no more disruptions for the day."

Slam.

The door was closed, and with that, your busy schedules re-open and waiting to be completed.

"____," Haerin spoke quietly, shyly meeting your eyes as she walked up to you, "I'm really sorry that I brought that up this morning, Serenity must've overheard us talking."

"It's okay, Rinnie. This isn't your fault," you smiled, patting her head gently to cheer her up.

"Mhm, well that's sweet. Thanks for getting us on probation, lovebirds," Jay sighed, getting up from his seat and walking out of the room.

"Yeah, so much for stopping Serenity and her big mouth, you guys," Jake said, giving Sunghoon and Sunoo a look before walking out too.

"Guys, Miss Kim said this wasn't a punishment. Like ____ said, this isn't anyways fault," Jungwon said, trying to convince everyone to see the situation in a more positive light.

"Whatever, I'm gonna join Jay in the instrument room. Don't take too long in here, Ren," Jade sighed, running a frustrated hand through her hair before also leaving.

"Cool, I'm gonna go get lunch because I don't work well when I'm hungry," Heeseung huffed, walking past Niki and towards the door, "I taught you well, brother, but please, stay out of trouble from now on."

Serenity's initial pitiful look returned to the sassy one she wore before, watching as Jungwon, Sunoo, and Sunghoon followed after Heeseung, closing the door behind them.

And then there were three.

"Miss Kim thinks that some silly tape and a bedtime will stop you two, but just know that I'll be watching for myself," Serenity threatened, staring you and Niki down from her seat.

"Got it, officer," Niki teased, walking up to you and taking your hand in his.

"And where do you two think you're going?"

"To complete our schedules? Now we've all had enough with your Nancy Drew act. It's time to put your working face back on," you replied, mirroring her cattiness, "You're gonna be late for your rehearsals with Jade and Jay if you don't hurry up."

"Gosh, you two can be so annoying sometimes," She exclaimed, fixing her hair before marching out of the office, leaving you and Niki alone again.

With your hand still in his, he turned your body to face him, taking your face in his hands and looking at you with the most loving expression.

He just can't get enough of you.

He reached for your wrist, drawing your attention to the bracelet he gave you the other day, "You still trust me, right?"

You couldn't help but look away from his face for a second. If he held that intense eye contact with you for any longer, you're sure you were gonna explode.

"Stop, you're too shy," he giggled, turning your chin to face him one more time before kissing you on the lips, a pink hue raising to his cheeks. You got lost in his touch for a second, hardly remembering that this reckless romance is what got you in this room in the first place.

"Niki!" You yelped, suddenly feeling his hands tickle you under your shirt, "You never answered my question, silly," he chuckled, backing away as you tried fighting him off.

"I trust you, stupid, now stop tickling me before someone catches us," you sighed, trying to catch your breath from all your laughing.

This boy was making your heart do things you're sure it's never done before. Backflips, cartwheels, splits, you name it!

"So does that mean you're still down to hang out with me later tonight," he asked, pouting at you playfully, "unless, you don't think it's worth it."

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Your evening ended on par with Miss Kim's revised schedule, everyone completing their assigned tasks before showering and heading to bed at 8 o'clock sharp. And to your surprise, she wasn't joking about the blue tape thing either.

You and Niki waited til an entire hour had passed before initiating your escape plan, just to make sure that everyone was asleep.

Dressed in the best "incognito" outfits you could find, Niki tied a few bed sheets together to make a rope, tying it to your bunkbed for you to climb out the window with.

He went first because you were too scared.

"Alright, you're coming?" He whispered from the ground, watching you shyly peek from the window.

"You look tiny from up here," you giggled, pointing at him playfully.

"____, stop stalling and get down here," he chuckled back, motioning with his hands as if encouraging you.

Sticking your right leg out the window, you said a small prayer as you gripped onto the makeshift rope, climbing down with your eyes closed to keep yourself from chickening out.

"That's it, there you go!" Niki cheered, clapping for you as you finally made it down... the 10ft wall.

"What if someone sees the rope just hanging here?"

"They won't."

"Well... what if a little raccoon were to get cold out here and sneak into our room for comfort?"

"Come on," he smiled, taking your hand in his as he skipped from the building, adjusting the sunglasses to his "costume."

He wanted to show you around the city of Seoul, taking you to one of his favorite Japanese food stands to get filled taiyaki's because they're his all time favorite. He ended up doing most of the talking while ordering, thanks to the language barrier.

You both wanted chocolate filled, so you ended up just getting one large taiyaki to share.

He tore a piece of the fish pastry's head before putting it in his mouth, careful not to get any chocolate on his face.

You took the snack from his hand before taking a small bite yourself, surprised by the initial crunchiness of the pastry that soon melted into a softer texture, coupled with an equally delightful taste.

Now you see why Niki likes these so much.

"This is crazy, you know that?" You said, taking in the beautiful city scenery that made up your surroundings.

"Of course, especially with everyone reminding me all the time. But what was that you said again? About breaking rules as long as it's worth it?"

Both of you started to walk a little slower, not really paying attention to where you were going, just enjoying each others company, "You're never gonna let me forget I said that, are you?"

"Nope," he smiled, looking into the distance, "because those are the exact words that got us here in the first place."

"And where is "here," exactly?" You challenged, going for another bite of the snack before handing it back to him.

"Alone, outside, past our curfews, holding hands in this beautiful park while dressed up as anonymous wanderers..."

You giggled in between his rambling-

"...Waiting for the right moment to kiss each other again."

A certain feeling of butterflies ran through your stomach at his words.

Was risking your career really worth all this? You'd vote one hundred and ten percent yes.

🎆 Pop!

The sight of fireworks bursted into the night sky before you two, shattering into a glittery shower of colorful sparkles.

"Oh my God," you jumped in shock at the loud noise, making Niki chuckle at your startled reaction.

"Jeez, you're gonna draw attention to us if you keep jumping like that!"

"Ahh, how was I supposed to know they were going to be fireworks tonight?"

"We're just outside of Yeouido Park. The officials here are probably rehearsing for the upcoming firework show," he said before filling his mouth with yet another bite of taiyaki.

From the looks of it, a few more people started to crowd the area, pulling out their cameras to take pictures of the occasional fireworks that splashed into the clear night sky.

"Maybe we should get going now," you said shyly, adjusting the silly scarf you wore around your neck to keep yourself undetectable.

Confused at first by your initial prompt, Niki took a look around before now seeing a few photographers pointing cameras at everyone.

"Yeahhhh, you're right, let's go before we get caught," he smiled, picking up the pace of his steps as he turned around, beelining back to the Hybe building with his hand still in yours.

The time had just hit somewhere around 10 o'clock, so you and Niki got a good hour to yourselves after your long day of work.

Luckily, his makeshift rope was still hanging outside your dorm room window when y’all got back, and once again, you successfully snuck out together undetected.

Or at least, that’s what you both thought until the morning came…

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There was a certain news feed circulating around the web, originating on that same Korean Pop media website you were stalking before your trip.

You weren’t surprised to find Serenity with her bright blue eyes practically glued to her phone screen, announcing the blog’s title out loud as you and Niki came down together for warmups in Room 10:

Young Stars Spark Romantic Rumors After Photos of Them Kissing in Yeouido Park Circulate the Web.

Oh no, this can’t be good.

Niki had already informed you a few minutes ago about the post popping up on his phone, "There's no way we got caught. I made sure we blended in with the crowd,” he said, not being able to hide the worry growing inside him.

“And besides,” you replied while whispering, “we didn’t even kiss.”

But as to be expected, Serenity was having a field day rubbing the news in your faces.

“Starting mess at work again, I see?” Sunoo pointed, rolling his eyes at her words, but she ignored him.

“Ren, did you even look at the pictures going around?” Haerin offered as she adjusted her workout clothes, “Those people look nothing like Niki and ____.”

“Let me see,” Jade said, reaching for Serenity’s phone and scrolling past the title to analyze the pictures that revealed two older idols who didn’t even match you and Niki’s heights.

The fear boiling in your stomach suddenly disappeared.

“Oh, and their names are right here!” Serenity pointed out before zooming in, “Nevermind, I can’t even pronounce that.”

“Great, so that means we can get back to practice now, yeah?” Jungwon said, trying not to sound as annoyed as he truly was.

You and Niki just bust out laughing.

“What’s so funny,” Serenity scowled, obviously dissatisfied with the reality of the situation.

"Just the fact that you genuinely thought we'd go against Miss Kim's rules… Besides, how would we have even gotten out last night?" Niki tried, kneeling down to tighten his shoelaces, “I’m sure you checked the blue tape by our door. It stayed intact the entire night.”

“Mhm,” she hummed, obviously not wanting to engage in the conversation anymore, which you were thankful for.

The fitness coach started explaining the workout to Jake so he could translate for you and your group, outlining that the session would start with some intense weight lifting before cardio, a.k.a, a 2 mile run around the park.

Great.

Heeseung encouraged you all with his bright smile, “Alright, guys, let’s get moving!”

And that’s exactly what everyone did for the next three hours, keeping a shared goal in mind to follow Miss Kim’s activity schedule perfectly: Day five’s schedule outlining an in-person fan meeting that evening.

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[lastflowerofyourhouse]

idk why my brain has decided to play with this, but it's what i was thinking about in the shower today, so i'm posting it here.

my thoughts on tlt characters' hygene/shower routines, assuming modern au rules:

harrow:

would have a passable but basic routine, with separate products for each step

lukewarm or cold showers, probably in the morning

would shower daily and usually wash her face, unless she's fixated on something or just really Going Through It, in which case she can forget to do both for days on end

shampoos, doesn't condition

uses exclusively unscented products

gideon:

evening bath person, scalding water

quick, cold showers after training/working out

3-in-1 bitch, probably old spice or similar

would wash her face with it too

this contrasts the excessive amounts of bubblebath and probably candles that she uses in the evenings

ianthe:

rediculously luxurious baths in water hot enough to leave her a bit pink afterwards

would do this in the mornings because she's just that unhurried

rigorous, like, 38-step skincare routine, twice a day

deep conditions three times a week

(she calls this "self-care." actually it's just the only way she can continue looking even slightly similar to her sister.)

coronabeth:

exactly the same as ianthe, except it sometimes slips her mind, or she doesn't feel like doing the whole thing

you cannot possibly imagine the shit ianthe gives her for this

bathes at night tho because ianthe has dibs on the mornings and you know they share a bathroom

does not shave. at all. fight me.

their shared bathroom has two sinks so ianthe can neg her fist thing in the morning before she's even brushed her hair. you know, it's the little things.

camilla:

tends to go for the cheap stuff that just smells like soap.

like it smells clean but it doesn't smell like anything in particular

showers at the same exact time every day, for the same amount of time, perfectly balanced with the rest of her schedule

washes her face with a very basic cleanser twice a day, then moisurizes. no other skincare routine to speak of.

palamedes:

pretty much the same as camilla

she also schedules his showers

if cam says he has to shower from precisely 2:15-2:25 PM on wednesdays if he wants to pass finals, then by god he will do it

if she didn't tell him to, he would probably forget. often. so really it's better this way.

i like to imagine he buys one like really indulgent scented soap though. something along the lines of what the tridentarii use. as a treat.

even cam has given up trying to assign that boy skincare

#the locked tomb #tlt #my post

[discountdemonwarehouse]

Domestic December Day 28

Prompt - Outside Perspective

An outside perspective from one of Terzo's few "longer-term" girlfriends, Kasandra.

AO3 Link

Mostly SFW aside from some swearing and vague mentions of sex having happened.

This blurb is related to an incident mentioned on day 8 Ages → Terzo 22ish, Kasandra same age or very close to Terzo’s.

        Sister Kasandra glared at Terzo from the post-sex shower as she toweled off, hoping he could feel her eyes burning into his back. Their relationship was only a few months old, but that was far longer than most people Terzo had been involved with. Kasandra had been hopeful this meant she had found favour with the younger Emeritus son, and could possibly keep his attention. But as more time passed, she had come to realize there was one giant obstacle to her plan – Terzo’s best friend, Quinn. “Why do you keep her soap and shampoo here if she doesn’t shower here?” she snarled. “What does it matter if I use some?” “It’s Quinn’s, just don’t.” He paused for a moment, meeting her glare in the mirror. “You’ll smell like her if you do. There’s other products.” “How do you know what she smells like?!” “I just do. We spend time together,” Terzo shrugged. “You just notice these things.” Kas felt rage building in her again. “She climbs all over you in the halls of the Ministry You overindulge her – she tried to punch me over cereal, Terzo! Set some boundaries!” “You could have asked before you ate the cereal,” he said nonchalantly, grabbing a skincare bottle. “It’s just cereal! And why was she even here?!” “It was a Friday. You know I spend Fridays with her. She was waiting for me and wanted a snack. It’s normal.” “No, Terzo, it’s not.” Kas huffed angrily. “You let her do things a girlfriend would do.” “You’re being ridiculous,” he muttered, rinsing his face.

        She stepped out of the shower stall, wrapping herself in the towel. "You move hell and earth to make things happen for her, but if I want to go out on a friday night, you won't – because of HER. And you exclude me from whatever you two do!" Kas stormed out of the bathroom to find her habit. “She has clothes in your apartment. You have toiletries that are hers and you get angry if I use them. She has food in your cupboards that no one else is allowed to touch. You share food in the dining halls, you ask her for advice over anyone else... You're basically a married couple!" "We're just very close friends. She's like my little sister. I love her unconditionally." Kas rounded on Terzo, mouth agape in disbelief. They had never talked of love between them in any capacity after these months, and jealousy bubbled in her. “No, Terzo. It’s not at all like that – not to outsiders.” “Then they’re stupid.” He rolled his eyes in irritation, heading to his closet to get a clean shirt. “People are talking!” she shrieked at him. “People still think I’m just one of your dalliances! I am your girlfriend , but I get looks of pity when Quinn is around!” Kas stood there, chest heaving as she breathed deeply. Terzo had stilled in front of the closet. “Keep her name out of your mouth,” he uttered softly, his head turning slightly to look over his shoulder. “What?” “If you’re going to be a bitch… Keep. Her. Name. Out. Of. Your. Mouth .” His tone was dark, angry, and almost frightening.

        A chill ran through Kas. She mustered up enough rage for one more angry insult. “If you love her so much, why don’t you make her your mistress ?!” Terzo turned to her, his green eye darkened and white eye blazing, and Kas took an involuntary step back. His voice was soft and full of malice, “Say that again, I dare you.” Her hands fumbled with her habit as she tried to decide her next move. She took a steadying breath. “I said make that pink haired bitch your mistress if you love her so much,” Kas spat, trying to infuse her words with venom despite her growing fear. “You won’t claim her as yours, but it’s clear as day.” She could tell by the look on his face that she had gone too far. Whatever chances she had with Terzo Emeritus were over. Kas would never hold any position through a relationship with him. All because of that stupid pink haired bitch, Quinn. “Get out. Get your things, and get the fuck out.” He went back to dressing, slipping into his cassock. A moment later he turned to her again. “You know what, don’t even worry about your things. I’ll have them sent to you.” Kas stared at him. “Terzo… Terzo, I–” He held up a hand to silence her. “I said get the fuck out and I meant now .” Kas grabbed the few remaining things she’d need for the immediate time, and fled his rooms. She had hoped for so much, and now it was gone. Maybe she’d overstepped, but her plans would have worked if she hadn’t had to compete with Quinn.

        The next morning Kasandra answered a knock at her room in the Sibling dormitories, finding a trio of ghouls waiting. One handed her an envelope, indicating she should open it. The others were holding brand new luggage. Perhaps Terzo was apologizing and suggesting a trip, but she knew that was an outlandish thought. An amount of dread filled Kas as she opened the envelope, finding a letter and a plane ticket. The letter was from one of the personnel department higher ups. She was being permanently transferred to a new Ministry location somewhere in Africa, effective immediately. Her eyes widened in horror. The ghoul before her cleared their throat, gesturing at the luggage they’d brought. A large satin purple bow accented with pink adorned the largest suitcase. This was her parting gift from Terzo, and a subtle reminder about what her fatal misstep had been. Kas would never see a higher rank in The Satanic Ministry as she’d hoped; instead she was effectively exiled. “I understand,” she murmured to the ghoul. “Please set the luggage over here.” After they left, Kas sank onto her small bed, holding back tears. She had royally fucked up all of her plans, and she couldn’t even truly blame the annoying pink haired bitch.

#the band ghost #fanfic #papa emeritus iii #papa terzo #ghost fanfiction #ghost terzo #terzo #terzo emeritus #ghost fic #female oc #female original character #young terzo #ao3 writer #ao3 link #domestic december #domestic december 2023

[thedeliverygod]

My skincare routine

making a post about this mainly because I've had a huge improvement in acne over the past few months and I'm really happy about it and just want to share the products that helped me because I've struggled for YEARS to get it under control. I'm still not sure if my all this progress would be reversed if I were to go off of birth control because a lot of it is hormonal but bc alone has only done *so* much, you know?

All links are provided are just for your reference, I don't get any money from anything (I wish I would as I could use it but lol). Target is going to be the main source for most things as that's my preferred store but there are like 2 things that will be at Amazon. Products could be available at other retailers like Walmart, Walgreens, etc but generally Target has the best coupons and Amazon in general has best prices for things that you can only find at Ulta/Sephora otherwise.

Step 1: Cleanser

Garnier's micellar water was basically the vehicle that enabled me to get started with a skincare routine. Past cleansers I only ever used in the shower or sparsely because I hated having to wash my face in the sink, getting water/chemicals in my eyes and also everywhere else. Not to mention a lot of cleansers are really drying. Not micellar water! You just put some on a cotton pad and wipe your face and done. I've been using the mattifying one for oily/sensitive skin for a long time but I recently switched to the vitamin C version as I have some stubborn acne scars that don't want to go away. There's a variety of versions so you can find the kind that matches your needs!

Step 2: Toner

I recently got this rice based toner and I love it. It's thick, smells great & is moisturizing. Tbh I didn't realize I got a scented version but there's also a scent free version!

Step 3 for AM: Acne based treatment

Cerave Acne Control Gel is my daily acne treatment. I feel like it's more gentle than the general spot treatments you buy because you're supposed to put it all over your face but because you're using it daily it's helping to prevent new acne from forming which is a big deal. So it may feel like it's "not working/taking forever" but its working behind the scenes. Also tbh if I have really bad spots I'll use spot treatments on top of this lol.

Step 3 for PM: Acne Scar Treatment

So I got this Stubborn Marks treatment like a month ago and tbh the verdict is still out for me as to whether its really helping or not? I have old acne marks above my lip that are taking forever to go away so idk. But it feels nice and I feel like the retinol at the very least is helping with any sort of wrinkles or whatever else I have going on so lmao.

Step 4: Serum (I only use this in the AM because I feel like there's not much of a point in using it at night and because I'm trying to save product due to money even though this is only like $6)

This serum by the Ordinary helps you produce less oil so if that's a thing for you, it's a great choice. Again, The Ordinary has hella options for serums and they're all really affordable so you can find whatever fits you the best.

Step 5 for AM: Moisturizer

So I use the neutrogena hydroboost if I plan to go outside because it has sunscreen built into it. It feels like regular moisturizer but this way you don't have to worry about sunscreen too. My sister borrowed it one day and complained about the smell of the sunscreen I guess but I don't really notice it personally. If I'm being a homebody (aka most days) I use Rael barrier cream. Even though it's kind of a small jar a little goes a long way! Also to note, even though this is on Target's website it's only available for shipping for whatever reason so I also buy it on amazon a lot.

Step 5 for PM: Moisturizer

The Cosrx Snail Mucin Cream I posted about the other day; it kind legit feels like mucus but it is really refreshing lmao. But because it is kind of sticky-ish in terms of texture I only use it at night.

Bonus acne/blackhead steps:

Hydrocolloid patches are the holy grail for acne; I'm so glad they've become a thing in recent years. Honestly the brand doesn't really matter, just find the type that's best for your situation. The general patches are best for white heads but there's also some for acne that's still under the skin, etc. In my opinion, stay away from expensive brands for these; spending extra money literally makes no difference in the quality unlike other skincare products. Earlier this year I got zitsticka killa deep zit microdart patches for like $16 for 4 patches for a deep deep zit that hurt very badly and would not go away and it didn't do anything more than cheaper brands. Really the only difference was it came with like a 'prep pad' to cleanse the area.

After you've used a hydrocolloid patch and your acne has leaked out all of its gross goo, use some Hero rescue balm! Lately I've just been buying the travel size since I don't have many zits anymore but if you have more acne going on, the medium & jumbo sizes are worth the money because they last for a long time. There's also the red correct version but I only recommend it if you want a balm that's more of a like medicine and makeup in one? It starts off green but then morphs into your skin color as it sits. When you wipe it off at the end of the day it'll pretty much look like you applied makeup as well.

Tonymoly's Tako blackhead scrub stick; it's viral for a reason. I use this lil guy on my nose/the sides of it after I get out of the shower. I've also had this for forever now and it doesn't seem to be low either so lol.

Last bonus tips from me: As someone who suffers with acne, I've found the "acne focused" products are kind of the worst? Like I tried Hero's acne focused moisturizer as well as ELF's acne focused moisturizer. Hero's was like anti-bacterial which sounded great and ELF's just had more acne medicine built into the moisturizer and neither helped me. I also tried out Rael's miracle clear toner since I really liked the barrier cream but that also didn't work as well for me as tonymoly's mochi toner (which I also recommend; it's pricey but it's a giant ass bottle so it lasts forever).

Lastly & most importantly: give each new product you've never tried before at least a month. Especially when you're just starting out. Your skin has to do a "purge" which generally means things get worse before they get better which I thankfully read about before I started my process. A lot of things also just take time. Of course if you have a reaction, stop ASAP.

#skincare #skincare routine #acne #acne struggles

[dawncloud]

weirdly specific and unrelated asks to know someone well:

1. chipotle order?

large, whole wheat, no beans extra rice, ground beef, everything on it, no guac (bc $$), extra onions, extra sour cream, chipotle bbq sauce. sometimes ask for hot sauce but tbh i usually add sriracha every few bites lol

2. thoughts on veganism?

if you’re doing it for environment reasons it’s better to eat local. don’t like how it contributes to microplastics in the environment.

3. a specific color that gives you the ick?

blue screen of death blue

4. mythical creature you think/believe is real?

don’t have one.

5. favorite form of potato?

pierogies (must be a little chewy) or truffle mashed potato. mcdonalds french fries

6. do you use a watch?

yes i have a black fitbit and a watch my mum gave me for my 21st birthday.

7. what animal do you look forward to seeing when you visit an aquarium?

whalesharks if they have them. seahonses. the big aquarium where there’s everything.

8. do you change into specific clothes for the house when you get home?

yes bc outside is dusty and dirty and there’s probably sweat if i biked.

9. do you have a skincare routine (and how many steps is it)?

yes. u should have one if you don’t already (moisturiser and sunscreen). i’m lazy so it’s just 2-3 steps and then more stuff when i have the energy/remember.

morning: water, toner, moisturiser, sunscreen

night/post-shower: cleanser (in shower), [acids/niacinamide], toner, moisturiser, vaseline on lips

10. on a plane, do you ask for apple or orange juice?

neither, i get tomato juice. learned it from my dad

11. anything from your childhood you’ve held on to?

physically? nothing. emotionally, i try not to. nothing bad happened i just get embarrassed

12. brand of haircare/bodycare/skincare that you trust 100%?

i have HG products but i would never trust a company 100% ever. my hair conditioner, nivea creme, some misc skincare.

13. first thing you’re doing in the purge?

hiding out with trusted friends until it’s over bc these people/system of gvt is insane.

14. do you think you’re dehydrated?

i drink 2L a day mininum now so no. used to be though.

15. rank the methods of death: freezing, burning, drowning

freezing > drowning > burning (most to least preferred)

burning is the worst no question because you take the longest to die and it hurts like hell. freezing your body slowly shuts down and you stop feeling cold after a while. drowning hurts but is fast.

16. thoughts on mint chocolate chip?

fave childhood flavour but moved away to more weird flavours. is my sister’s current favourite.

17. an anxious compulsion you do everyday?

don’t have one

18. your boba/tea order?

a. brown sugar pearl milk tea with sea salt cream/cheese cream on top or b. roasted milk tea with pudding, grass jelly, tapioca

19. the veggie you dislike the most?

celery. can’t eat it unless it’s megacooked in soup and you can’t taste it.

20. favorite disney princess movie?

maybe mulan? haven’t watched disney in forever.

21. a number that weirds you out?

you guys have that?

22. do you have an emotional support water bottle?

just a regular water bottle....it’s a purple and white nalgene. no stickers bc they’ll wash off and tbh i feel it’s hard to keep 100% clean.

23. do you wear jewelry?

yes. earrings always, necklace and ring if i remember

24. which do you find yourself using, american or british english?

british bc hong kong bc colonised.

25. would you say you have good taste in music?

absolutely not bc my taste in music doesn’t exist. i just listen to whatever

26. how’s your spice tolerance?

medium to high. i like the korean spicy noodles 2x and eat them regularly

27. what’s your favorite or go-to outfit?

dark blue high waisted jeans, nice black top (long sleeves), silver jewellery, black boots, two dutch braids.

28. last meal on earth? 

too hard bc i love so many types of food

29. preferred pasta noodle?

currently rotini

#2022

[1plus1kiyoomi]

You Randomly Pull Them Up for a Dance

sakusa, suna, kita

a/n: requested by @shinyaluv 🥰 hope you like it bub! 😚

Sakusa

now playing: how deep is your love by bee gees

it was one of those rare days that sakusa gets to come home early

and sakusa being sakusa, he has planned for days for your night to be perfect even if you were just staying at home

the two of you have always worn formal clothing during these date nights

for the extra feels

and it looks neater that way

after dinner, sakusa quickly washes the dishes because he can’t leave it be even for a few minutes

while he’s at that, you light up the scented candles he loves so much

“champagne?” sakusa asks from the bar, holding up the bottle of alcohol

he gives you a glass of alcohol and you frown “just a glass?”

“just one. i don’t want to clean up after you.”

you two drink and talk badmouth other people at the couch, hands intertwined

the one glass he implied turned into two, then it became three, until the two of you finished one bottle

when sakusa excused himself to use the bathroom, you connected your phone to the speaker and played a random playlist

you stand up from the couch and start dancing on your own

“enjoying yourself?” sakusa says as comes back

you wrap your arms around his neck, pulling his body close to yours

you sway your hips to the song and continue to dance, not minding his little eyebrow raise

sakusa’s hands land on your hips

and he hesitantly starts swaying his body along with yours

“and you may not think that i care for you, when you know down inside that i really do.”

he quietly sings into your ear, his breath fanning over it

at this point, he doesn’t know if it’s the atmosphere or the alcohol that is making him dance in the middle of his living room

and sakusa doesn’t care anymore

as long as he has you in his arms, he could dance forever

Suna

now playing: september by earth, wind & fire

you two have just gotten home from your monthly dinner date at some fancy restaurant

you drank way more wine than supposed to so you come home tipsy

suna is the shower while you are doing your skincare routine

you play your nighttime playlist to lighten up the mood

suna comes out of the shower with only his boxer shorts and no shirt, just like always

“i want that too.” suna points at your skincare products

you stand up from your chair and let him sit there instead

you do your usual skincare routine on him, including shaving your face and cleaning your eyebrows

before, he didn’t like the idea of you touching his precious eyebrows but ever since you’ve done it, he loved it

he can’t live unruly and messy brows now

after all that, you’re finally at his favorite part: sheet masks

you two use the same sheet mask and while waiting for the timer to come off, you start dancing to the songs you’re listening to

“do you remember? 21st night of september?” you sing, bopping your head

“that’s literally our anniversary,” suna chuckles

you point at him and he starts dancing as well

he sings along with the song, pointing his finger at diagonal directions, making you laugh out loud

but your competitiveness won’t let you lose to him

the two of you had a little dance off in front of the mirror, though it ended with the two of you following each other’s moves

it were the craziest and silliest dance moves ever

you don’t understand how and why, but suna managed to dougie to the song

you couldn’t stop laughing and giggling

sheet masks

september playing at the background

outdated and random dance steps

you think that you look stupid at the moment

but to suna it’s perfect

great music. great atmosphere. great skin.

you and him just enjoying each other’s company

and your smile

the smile that will make suna dance just so he can see it

that smile of yours make that moment so perfect

Kita

now playing: can’t take my eyes off you by frankie valli

it was kita’s sister’s wedding and it was just the beginning of the reception, but he was already drunk

out of courtesy, he couldn’t say no to anyone who gave him alcohol

which led him to becoming drunk at the early part of the party

the alcohol never stopped coming and he could just not make himself say no

but you on the hand is sober. you’ve only had a glass since you wanted to witness how your drunk boyfriend would act

at first he was quietly sitting down at your table, just clapping and looking at whatever is happening

but you got curious if he would dance with you

because he wouldn’t if he was sober, especially not with this much people around

kita isn’t a big fan of pda and you know that well

so when you pulled him to the dance floor with all the other guests, you were surprised to feel his hands on your waist

the song started slow, so you two just swayed side to side, foreheads touching, eyes closed

just before the chorus, kita spun you around. and when you face him again

he starts to serenade you

“i love you baby. and if it’s quite alright, i need you baby to warm the lonely nights. i love you baby, trust in me when i say.”

he maintains eye contact with you, his hands glued to your swaying hips

you can’t help but giggle at his drunk confidence

he continues to sing and your heart just flutters

“oh, pretty baby, don’t bring me down, i pray. oh pretty baby, now that i have you, stay.”

his next move surprises you so much

he captures your lips with his, his hand that was on your hip now on your cheek

drunk kita isn’t that bad after all

“let me love you baby... let me love you.”

but drunk or not, dancing or not, he makes you feel loved

and this night is just an addition to the reasons why you are in love with the man named kita shinsuke

#haikyuu x reader #haikyuu imagines #haikyuu series #haikyuu kita #kita imagines #kita x reader #kita shinsuke x reader #sakusa kiyoomi x reader #sakusa kiyoomi fluff #sakusa scenarios #sakusa imagines #sakusa x reader #sakusa drabble #kita fluff #kita shinsuke fluff #haikyuu fanfiction #haikyuu fluff #hq scenarios #hq fluff #suna rintaro x reader #suna x reader #suna rintaro scenarios #suna rintaro imagine #suna rintaro headcanons #suna headcanons #suna fluff #kita headcanons #sakusa headcanons #sakusa fluff

[animefanwrites]

brother’s best friend [F] | pt.1

b. chan x reader | brother’s best friend au

synopsis: “what happens when your brother invites over his (hot) best friend but forgets to even inform you about it? And what happens when you walk out of your bedroom and see him in your house with no sign of your brother in sight?”

word count: 1.9k

genre: brothers best friend au, teen rom-com

warning: fluff, language, tiny bit of angst

a/n: this is my very first skz fanfiction I hope you guys like it!

chapters: 01 | 02 | 03 +

status: on-going series

With a book open on the desk and a few papers scattered around as well, you re-read the third math problem for the 100th time. Biting on the tip of your nails, you groaned in frustration and slammed your head on the desk. There was no way you were going to solve that without having paid attention to the math class in a week. It was simply boring, not my fault, you reminded yourself.

The sudden sound of the bedroom’s door opening made you jolt and look aside, just to see your brother there, looking quite surprised that you were studying in the afternoon instead of watching cat videos like usual.

“You need something?” you questioned after he had been standing there for a while without saying a word. Jisung scratched his head and blinked a few times before opening his mouth to speak.

“I forgot...” he replied and you looked at him, disappointed but not surprised. “Well- bye!” he added before slowly closing the door but — being the annoying brother he is — he didn’t close it all the way.

The math problem looked like it wouldn’t solve itself anytime soon so you decided to give up and pretend that you didn’t write it down when the teacher was giving out homework. You got up and walked to the door, hearing Jisung talking on the phone. Since your parents were out for the weekend, he decided to be loud and annoying with no limits.

Passing by the bathroom, you thought of taking a shower later because you needed some self-care. You took your towels and placed them on your bed, also making sure that all your skincare products and shampoos were untouched.

Back in the bedroom with the f/c walls, you tossed the math book away because you didn’t want it to ruin your mood for the afternoon. Grabbing your phone and putting on some music while also getting your paint and brushes was what would keep you busy for the rest of the day. You were painting your closet after seeing an aesthetic video and you decided that you needed that in your room.

So far, so good.

While bobbing your head to the beat and smiling without even realising it, you thought you heard talking in the living room. You ignored it since your brother was always loud and tended to talk to himself from time to time — talk about a weirdo.

You got up after about an hour and dusted your clothes from the paint that had fallen on them. Grabbing your towels, you smiled and exited the bedroom only to hear water running from the bathroom.

“Hurry up, I wanna shower too!” you yelled and knocked on the door. Just then, the water stopped. You sighed and crossed your arms over your chest as Jisung had finally decided to take a normal shower and not stay there for a whole hour.

The door opened and you were met with a chest. A strong chest, at last. You looked up, only to meet a handsome stranger with wet hair and a small smile on his lips. That was not your brother.

“Oh hey, Jisung didn’t tell me his sister would be home,” he suddenly said and you stared, eyes so wide you thought they’d pop out. When did he come? Why was he here? Where was Jisung?!

“I’m...sorry, I thought Jisung was in the shower...” you muttered, backing away only to realise he had just a towel around his waist, water dripping down his abs and overall beautiful body. Realising you were looking kind of disrespectfully, you turned away. “I- he didn’t tell me his friend would come over...” you added and he chuckled — making your heart flutter.

“I guess he didn’t inform either of us, huh?” he said and ruffled his hair slightly. “He went to take some snacks and said he’ll be back soon! You can sit with us if you want, we’ll watch scary movies,” and with that, he gave you another beautiful grin and walked towards Jisung’s room, closing the door behind him.

“I’m y/n!”

“Chan!”

And with that, you had met your brother’s best friend.

You were drying your hair in your room, smiling to yourself while thinking about the perfect man himself; Chan. What else were you going to think about anyway? The most handsome man in the world was in the next room. You were quite surprised that Jisung had introduced you to most of his friends but not him.

You cringed at the thought of Jisung refusing to bring his friends over after that one time Hyunjin had slept over and you kept telling him how handsome he is — of course, the boy loved the compliments, but your brother had to ruin everything and make the ‘no friends over unless you’re out of the house’ rule.

The rule was broken, around an hour ago, though.

He had taken an hour to go to get snacks? You guessed he didn’t remember you were even home or he forgot why he went there. Typical Jisung. After that though, the front door opened with a loud ‘bang’ and hurried footsteps rushed into your room, opening the door with force.

“Jisung what the fuck?!”

“Where is he?!”

You blinked and stared at him, with a towel in hand and your f/c pyjamas, looking confused as ever. He was breathing heavily, holding two full bags, which meant that he was running all the way here.

“I beg your pardon?”

“I know you met him, and I know he’s here!” he said and slightly glared at you, looking around the room like a psychopath. You realized what he was looking for and rolled your eyes.

“You watch way too many movies... he’s in your room,” you sighed and started brushing your hair. Jisung let out a hum as an answer and walked out slowly closing the door but not before sticking his tongue out at you.

You smiled and when you understood that he was no longer outside, got up, placing your ear on the wall as you heard talking. It was your brother and Chan, obviously ignoring the fact that you were still there and talking about what movie they were going to watch.

“How about we ask your sister to join us too?” you heard Chan’s voice and you immediately broke into a smile. Truth to be told, you hated watching movies with Jisung but if his friends were around, you loved the company and actually joined them.

“No way,” Jisung replied and you rolled your eyes. If he didn’t want to invite you, you’d ‘accidentally’ walk past for the whole movie until he decides to tell you to sit down with them. You were hungry as well and you could definitely finish a whole bag of chips right then and there.

A few minutes passed and you could hear sounds from the living room, meaning that they had put on a movie already. Walking out, you saw all the lights closed and decided to go grab some water and check out the movie they were watching and Chan. That was no secret.

Approaching the couch with a glass in hand, you realised you hadn’t seen that horror movie before and it seemed interesting — but scary as well.

“You wanna sit?” Chan asked, looking up at you with a bright smile and shiny eyes. Even if you wanted to, you couldn’t say no to that man. He was holding a bowl of popcorn and patted the space next to him since your brother had taken the whole space of the second couch, curled into a ball with his blanket.

“Of course,” you smiled back, sitting down next to him and getting comfortable. You were quite close to him and you could feel Jisung burning holes in your head, but Chan’s warmth and the smiles he gave you from time to time made the atmosphere way less scary and more enjoyable.

At some point, you were all focused on the TV, knowing that a jumpscare was going to happen soon. Your hand moved to the bowl, slightly touching with Chan’s, making you both move your hands away. You turned your head, meeting his beautiful eyes looking right back at your e/c ones.

The only light was coming from the TV and you could see how he shined, his perfect features and his incredibly magnetizing look. None of you could look away from each other. Chan slowly parted his lips to speak, but instead, he was cut off by Jisung’s loud scream. You both jumped and turned to face him.

“What?! It was unexpected!”

“Don’t date my sister,” Jisung’s words made Chan turn his head and look at the younger boy who seemed quite serious. They had just laid down on the two beds in Jisung’s room while laughing and telling funny experiences they had through the week when he suddenly blurted that out.

“Sorry?”

“Don’t get me wrong Chan, I tell that to everyone. But come on, she’s my sister I don’t wanna see someone so close to me with her. I know you’re a nice guy and —”

“Mate, don’t worry!” Chan cut him off with a smile. “I know she’s your sister, I would never...” he added and shrugged his shoulders. Seeing Jisung relax made his heart clench. His sister seemed like such a nice person and from the second they met, he wanted to know more about her.

“Okay great. Well, I mean if you liked her I wouldn’t say no but I want to make sure she gets the best of the best. I might look like I hate her, but I wouldn’t hand her to someone random. You never know,” Chan felt like he had a chance after what he just heard. He hummed in response and silence fell between them. Chan opened his mouth to speak again but the snoring from Jisung made him chuckle and go sleep instead.

You were looking out the window of the kitchen, forgetting why you were there in the first place while resting your head in your palm. It was quite crazy how you’ve never thought of any of your brother’s friends that way.

But Chan was different.

He had something that just made you trust him. You could tell he was a nice person and you wouldn’t admit it, but that tingle you felt whenever he smiled wasn’t going to leave any time soon. You didn’t even realise the smile on your lips until you looked at your reflection on the window, seeing someone right behind you.

“OH LORD—“ you gasped and turned around, seeing Chan with a guilty look. Looking at the time in the nearby clock, you realised that he had gotten up for some water. “Sorry, you just scared me,” you sighed and smiled slightly.

“Sorry, I just came for something to drink and I didn’t wanna disturb you. You looked like you were thinking about something,” he chuckled and smiled softly, grabbing some water for himself. You hummed in response, looking at his back and the muscles that were visible under his thin shirt.

“I was thinking about something...” you muttered seeing him raise his eyebrows, encouraging you to continue. “Jisung would never approve of me having a boyfriend and it’s kind of annoying, you know, just that,” you said, shrugging and advertising your gaze from the floor to him.

“I understand him, he cares about you. He just wants what’s best for you,” Chan replied and smiled again. “Trust me, he knows,” he whispered that part, now seeming closer than he was before. His lips looked so pink and kissable, his skin so smooth and his eyes giving you hints of hope.

“I...guess you’re right,” you said, smiling back and watching him move away. You walked to your room, looking at him one last time before walking inside. “See you in the morning?” you chuckled while listening to Jisung’s snoring from the other room.

“See you in the morning,” he grinned and walked into the dark room, closing the door behind him, making sure to not wake his friend up.

#skz #skz oneshots #skz series #stray kids #han jisung #bang chan #bang chan x reader #stray kids x reader #stray kids series #brother's best friend #lee minho #seo changbin #yang jeongin #hwan hyunjin #kim seungmin #lee felix #bang chan fanfic

[wallahhbro]

All The Pretty Things

I wear a pink flamingo shower cap to make sure I don’t wet my curls.

I use the soap his mum makes us; a rose-scented pink cuboid that I always take home to my own mum.

My shampoo is sulphate free. It’s made with onions. It’s also pink.

When I step out of the shower, I put hair food. I think it smells like bananas, but everyone keeps saying it’s coconuts.

I use a dropper to coat my chin in argan beard oil.

I stand in front of the mirror for at least half an hour, trying on different facial expressions and movements.

I’m ready to start the day.

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I grew up in a house with a younger sister who needed all the bathroom shelves. Her skincare and haircare products would sit everywhere as she experimented with masks made out of yogurt and egg whites.

She religiously used sugar waxing once a month. In fact, over the last year, she started laser hair removal sessions.

Meanwhile, I was the ‘serious’ sibling. Relatives at random weddings, funerals, birthdays—it didn’t matter—all found it necessary to comment on how beautiful I could be if I tried a little harder. My desire to move away from feminization regularly left me outside the aesthetic realms the women in my family orbit. Often times, that meant I rarely got the gossip as the spontaneity of instant closeness with ‘girls’ in my family was usually lost on me.

I’m the asexual girl. I’m the quasi-boy. I’m the scientist.

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“Do you prefer to be called pretty, beautiful, handsome, sexy, or hot?”

I don’t know, depends on how many different ways you are looking to hurt me.

I am the prettiest boy I know. (My brother gets an honorary mention.)

Handsome makes me feel English. Handsome makes me feel white.

I am still too Brown and too Muslim to think of myself as anything that includes ‘sex’.

Hot is just confusing.

And beautiful holds too many words, moves too many ways.

What I’m trying to say is: hi, my name is Yara. Let’s start there.

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“For beauty is nothing but the beginning of terror

which we are barely able to endure and are awed

because it serenely disdains to annihilate us.

Each single angel is terrifying.”[1]

I can theorize everything I find beautiful as a terror formation.[2] Home, land, love, family, sex, friendship, water—they all terrify me, and they all have the potential to so easily terrorize me out of the self I precariously balance atop their shaky foundations.

Once, in Tahrir, my dad and I made our way to the very edge, right where Mohamed Mahmoud St. pours its heart into the Square. From there, I could look onto what we had created.

I remember knowing I was in love. I remember thinking it was beautiful.

Today, it snowed. We looked out our window and the trees were covered in white. It was beautiful.

Now, I know it means it’s time to be terrified.

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The first thing Cash, my best friend in college, taught me was that: “hoes don’t get cold.” The idea is you take a couple of shots of vodka right before you go out into Maine winter in shorts and a see-through top and you trust the hoe-ness to keep you warm.

Nowadays, we get ready together, sharing gaudy jackets and coloured pants. Meha holds an impromptu make-up station in our bathroom. My favourites are the glittery eyeshadow and the blue crystal beads.

By the time we’re ready to head out, a couple of us have already asked the question: ‘Are you saying I should wear this because it’s cold or because it looks good?’

My friends are an aesthetic. Red lipstick, sarees, green tattoos, flaming hair, layers masquerading as different outfits, ripped jeans, platform sneakers, Kashmiri shawls, heart-shaped sunglasses, and too-cool-for-school vibes.

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A cyclone of aesthetic labour—turned work because motion, turned economy because transnational—often drags my body along. I move diagonally between the eye and its many arms.

Sometimes, it forcefully removes, forecloses possibilities, and bans spaces.

Other times, I, like histories before me, wield it to make a home, to find community, and to labour (work) in collectivity.

[1] Rainer Maria Rilke, “First Duino Elegy” (1923). Accessed: https://www.poemhunter.com/poem/elegy-i/ [2] See: Achille Mbembe, Necropolitics (2003), for more on terror formations. Accessed: https://warwick.ac.uk/fac/arts/english/currentstudents/postgraduate/masters/modules/postcol_theory/mbembe_22necropolitics22.pdf

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #463

“the siren sings a lonely song of all the wants & hungers  /  the lust of love, a brute desire”

Describe the person that you would like to be in three years. I want my mental health to be in great condition, I really want to be in much better physical shape, ideally be living with somebody in our own place, have a job I'm happy with, have an improved social life, my own license and car... Think back to when you first met your significant other (or ex). Was your first impression of them accurate? It's funny, I honestly don't remember what my first impression of Girt was. I don't even recall our first interaction. I'm sure it was most likely that he was friendly, because he is and always has been. What is your most noticeable personality trait? Probably that I'm really, really shy. What kind of natural disaster is most common where you live? Hurricanes. Which of your family members do you resemble the most? I guess one of my immediate sisters? People tend to say stuff like they can definitely tell we're related. Have you ever had an animal get into your attic? No. Who knows you better than anyone else? Hell, probably whoever reads these. When was the last time you started a “new chapter” of your life? I guess you could call dating Girt a "new chapter." I have a much, much stronger feeling of this attempt being more successful than the last now that I've been able to change my angle on how I see him. What’s the most expensive thing your car needed to get done? I don't have my own vehicle and never have. If you had a thousand dollars to spend on a pricey brand you like but can’t really afford (until now of course), which ONE brand would you choose? *shrug* Most products of highly expensive brands I find hideous anyway. Do you still talk to any of your old teachers? Yeah. One is a close family friend and actually our landlord. Does your family still use the home phone or are you all on cell phones now? We haven't had a landline is yeeeeaaarrrrsssss. Ever go to another school’s prom? No; my boyfriend went to the same school as me. Do you ever venture into the woods? What do you normally do there? No; we live in the city now. :/ When I DID live in the woods, I absolutely loved wandering around with my camera for stuff to take pics of. Does your significant other ever make you mix CDs? None ever have but omg I wish that would be adorable. How did you dress your freshman year of high school? I was one of them emo kids. Would you ever date your best friend of the opposite sex? WELP that's what I'm doing lol. Would you say you have a high sex drive or not so much? I'd call it normal? Higher sometimes, lower other times, but not to either extreme. Come with an unpopular opinion. Silent Hill: Homecoming is a great game and while there's a lot of fan service from the movie, it belongs in the series. It's actually my second (or third)-favorite installment. Most of the SH community absolutely hate that game. What’s the worst thing a friend has either done or said to you? A lot of shit Colleen would say if we got into arguments. She'd ridicule effects of my depression, said I'd never know what it's like to pay my own bills, stuff like that. She's hateful as fuck and everything cut deep. What’s fake about you? Like extensions, fake nails, botox etc. Nothing physical. If you got the chance, would you audition for a reality show? No. Have you ever gotten into a Facebook fight? More than once. What’s the cheesiest thing you’ve ever experienced irl? Hm, I'm unsure. Favorite flavor of jelly bean? Probably watermelon. Do you use Tinder? If yes, have you ever met up with someone you matched? No. You do you, but if I understand Tinder correctly, it just seems... really shallow to me. Like don't you JUST see their picture to decide if you're interested or not? It just enforces the false belief that appearance really matters in love. You just poured your heart out to your crush and all he/she does is respond “k”. What do you respond/do? Well, I don't have a crush anymore; my boyfriend and I literally exchanged "I love you"s last night. That's not a crush. But for the sake of the question, I'll imagine I was single and this happened, in which case I would be both hurt and annoyed. Like, either tell me you return the feelings or not. It's not hard. What's your favorite thing to order from McDonald’s? I usually get a quarter pounder w/ cheese or a McDouble, occasionally with a small or medium fry, depending on how hungry I am. When do you feel your sexiest? Never, hunny. What's your favorite emoji? I don't really have one? It just depends on what the situation calls for. What’s your skincare routine? I don't really have one... I just use a washcloth to clean my face. Who all out of your immediate family smokes? My dad and stepmom. Do you like incense or candles better? Incense, totally. Do you respect your parents? Yeah. What’s your bf/gf’s name? It's technically Donald Jr., but since high school, I've known him as Girt, a nickname I won't explain for his privacy. Do you wear glasses? Yeah. Do you like The Beatles? I honestly don't. Except "Hey, Jude." What was the last reason you got excited? Last night. When we were saying goodbye, I was scared to, but I told Girt I loved him, and he immediately said it back confidently. My heart did like five flips. I'm still over the moon about it. Yes, we just got back together, but we've been in each other's lives as a constant since HS, and after changing my angle of how I looked at him, it's not at all platonic anymore. Do you know anyone who drinks the pickle juice from the jar? Sara does alskdjfklwejrl;er Name something crazy that’s happened recently? Uhhhh... I dunno. My life is very uneventful to have something really "crazy" happen. Can you say for a fact that you’re happy right now? I'm happy about some things, but also nervous and self-doubtful. Have you ever zip lined? No, but they look fun. I'd just be really scared of losing my grip. If you broke your computer, would you be able to fix it on your own? Ha, no. Have you ever been on a boat and got sick? No, but the one time I was at the beach and on a boat riding to an island, I was TERRIFIED I was going to get sick because of the waves. I didn't, thankfully. Did you sleep well last night? For the most part. My new mask might just be working. Do your parents try and plan your life for you? Not at all. Do you have any pictures of you kissing someone? Yes. List two things about yourself that you find embarrassing. My weight and how dark my leg hair is. Do you like to cuddle with your pet when you are sad? Yes. Do you find piercing attractive or unattractive? h o t Do you have any secret hiding spots in your room? To put money, yes. Do you like parmesan cheese on your spaghetti? Ew, no. I don't like parmesan. Does your best girl friend have any talents that you don’t? Yeah. She can animate well, for one. And sing like a fucking champ. Do you have any video game systems in your room? Which one(s)? My Nintendo DS Lite is in here. Well, and my laptop is a gaming one. What color eyes does the last person you kissed have? ... Oh WOW I've known this man for a fuckin decade and somehow I'm not sure??? But I want to say light blue? Have you ever taken a ride in a helicopter? No. Have you ever visited hot springs? No. How slowly or quickly would you say you eat? I'm aware I eat too fast, because my mom will point it out almost without fail if we eat in sight of each other. I'm not a messy eater at all, just... fast. Chewing your food and swallowing isn't a complex task. I've made active efforts to slow down, I just haven't been able to succeed. It doesn't feel normal. That and I've come to discover that when I chew food TOO much, I don't like the mushy texture of it in my mouth. What did you do the last time you were with friends? Yesterday Girt and I planned to watch shitty Netflix anime for some laughs, but we wound up starting Attack on Titan, which I am officially pretty into. What kind of cologne/perfume do you like the opposite sex to wear? I don't care if they wear any or not, so long as they know how to clean themselves and therefore not actually smell bad. If you celebrate Christmas, do you get a real tree or an artificial tree? We always use a fake one. Is there someone who means a lot to you but they don’t know that? My sisters probably don't, really... Is money important to you? Live your whole life poor and I want to see you answer "no" to this. Have you ever watched a meteor shower? No. Do you like Slim Jims? LOOOOOOOVE them. Would you rather write a mystery or love story? Love story. Are you muscular? No. Working for it. Do you have one of those removable hand-held shower heads? Yes. Originally, this house didn't, but I hated it so much that Mom bought one. How many burners does your stove have? Four. Has your car ever been broken into? Mom's hasn't.

#survey #surveys #random questions #lyrics: ''blood milk and sky'' by white zombie

[purplesurveys]

1274

Department One: Apparel And Jewelry

What are you wearing today?  Just a white duster dress. Very loungewear-y, hahaha. I didn’t feel like wearing shorts today.

What does your favorite shirt look like?  At the moment I’m obsessed with my Vante shirt. It’s fanmade but it was made tastefully; the designs aren’t too loud and I love the cute little shoutouts and tributes to his past paintings, so it had been a ridiculously easy decision for me to want to buy it.

What kind of underwear do you prefer wearing?  Eh I don’t really have a preference as long as I don’t find them uncomfy.

What are your favorite kind of jeans?  I’m definitely still stuck in my mom jeans phase. Idk man, I just love how they match nearly all kinds of tops.

What do the last pair of shoes you wore look like?  They were adidas sneakers. Not a big fan of chunky shoes but it’s an Ivy Park and it was on a big discount HAHAHA so I didn’t hesitate to get them.

How many shoes do you own?  A little more than 10. I love shoes and wanna collect them someday...just not today, hahaha.

How much jewelry do you own?  Not too big on jewelry; most, if not all the ones I wear are just borrowed from my mom since we share the same style anyway.

Do you own any real diamonds or other expensive jewelry?  Yeah, the ones I would borrow from my mom are pretty pricey.

Has anyone ever gave you jewelry as a present?  Yes, I received rings and necklaces from my ex. One of my aunts also gave me a necklace when I turned 7.

Do you like diamonds or gemstones better?  I just stick with diamonds...which is...also a gemstone too, if I’m not mistaken.

Silver or gold?  Silver.

Department Two: Electronics

Do you have a DVD player in your car?  Not in mine, but we do have one in the family car. I used to watch movies on there often but after one grueling road trip where my motion sickness acted up, I haven’t wanted to use it since.

If you have one, what does your camera/camcorder look like?  I just use the camera in my phone but back in the day I used to have a DSLR; that was when I thought I wanted to take up photography, heh. It was a Nikon D3100.

How much did it cost?  I’m not sure since my dad gave it to me as a present, but a quick search told me it would’ve cost him around P20,000 which issssss wow more expensive than I thought.

What kind of cellphone do you have?  I have an iPhone 8 with an LCD screen that’s deteriorating by the day HAHA. I really need to get a new phone.

How often do you send texts?  I text just for work purposes now, so it really depends on how busy my accounts are. Some days would require me to send out more texts than usual.

Do you have your own computer or does your family share?  I have my own laptop. My workplace also provided me with what’s supposed to be my work laptop, but they had it sent to me when I was already a couple of months into my job and all my needed files and programs were already in my personal laptop. Since I was too lazy to start everything all over again, I’ve never actually used the work laptop haha.

How many computers are in your house?  We have three laptops in total - my siblings and I each have our own. Kind of a necessity these days.

Do you still have a VCR?  I don’t think so.

How many DVDs do you own?  We probably have around 30-50 but most of them are movies from like the 2000s that we just haven’t thrown out. Personally, I have about five DVDs of old films like Gone with the Wind, Rebel Without A Cause, Breakfast at Tiffany’s, etc, and recently I’ve been buying BTS merch so DVDs are part of that mix too.

Does your car have a GPS?  No. I use Waze on my phone instead.

What kind of iPod/MP3 player do you have? Haven’t used an iPod in like a literal decade. I use Spotify for my music.

How many songs are on it?  Spotify doesn’t work that way since it’s technically a database of songs.

What size is your TV?  Never bothered to ask/check.

How many TVs are in your house?  Four. Living room, dining room, master bedroom, my brother’s room.

What video game systems do you have?  We have a PS3 and PS4. 

What about handhelds?  Switch. I believe my sister also still has her DSi stored somewhere.

How many video games do you have?  Probably somewhere around 50-60. My dad and brother are content with repeating their games lol.

Department Three: Home

What kind of shampoo do you use?  It’s a Dove variant but I’m just blanking out on the specific name/what it does.

Soap or shower gel?  Shower gel.

What does your comforter look like?  It’s pretty colorful and has geometric shapes and lines.

Does it match your pillows?  Yep, they come in a set.

What size is your bed?  Twin.

Do you or your parents like to decorate the house with various things or is it plain?  My mom puts considerable effort in decorating the house but it’s nothing overboard that it feels tacky. There’s enough decor in enough spaces.

Does the furniture in your house match?  Sure. I imagine my mom would be very irritated if she felt something was uncoordinated at home.

What does your couch look like?  It’s a gray L-shaped couch. Gabie broke a portion of the couch’s springs when it had only spent its like first two weeks at home but surprisingly my mom has not noticed it yet; probably because she barely sits on that side.

How many does your dining room/kitchen table seat?  It has six chairs, though since we’re five one of the chairs is almost always unoccupied.

Do you have any fancy china?  No, my mom isn’t the type to collect those.

Do you have outside furniture?  Yeah we have a table and chairs up on the rooftop, if they count.

What do your curtains look like?  My siblings and I have pull-down blinds. The other rooms have these pulled-back gold curtains that’s accompanied by white sheers.

Department Four: Grocery

What kind of bread do you get?  Sliced white bread, always. Sometimes my mom will pick up pan de sal, but she gets those from a certain bakery and no longer the grocery.

What is your favorite kind of cake?  CHEEEEEEEEEESECAAAAAAAKE.

Do you get a lot of sweets from the grocery store?  Eh, nah. Not a big fan of sweets.

What kind of soda is your favorite?  Don’t like soda.

Do you drink juice? What kind?  I can take it or leave it. I wouldn’t buy it for myself.

What is your favorite chewing gum?  Doesn’t matter to me. The flavors last for only like a minute anyway.

Do you usually get candy from the check-out aisle?  Nah. Those are far more accessible so who knows who could’ve touched or tampered with them. Plus, I mentioned I don’t like sweets.

What is your favorite soup?  Miso or cream of mushroom.

Have you ever had soup when you were sick?  No. I don’t enjoy hot beverages/liquids very much so I doubt I would feel comfort from soup when I’m sick.

What are your favorite canned vegetables?  Not sure if it’s a cultural difference thing but canned vegetables kind of sound gross and I don’t think I’ve encountered those (I actually had to look it up lol). My parents always buy fruits and veggies as is.

What do you eat for breakfast?  Fried rice is a constant but my mom switches up the set of viands every time. Some of the meals she serves would be hotdogs, eggs (either scrambled, omelette, fried, or sunny-side up), corned beef, dried fish, hashbrowns, luncheon meat, tapa, and Vienna sausages. Poptarts or toaster strudels?  Poptarts. I’ve never had toaster strudel and I’m honestly not sure what that is.

What salad dressing do you prefer?  Spicy mayo.

Ketchup, mayonnaise, or mustard?  MAYONNAISE. I can live without the other two.

What kind of cookie do you like best?  I only ever eat chocolate chip.

What kind of snacks do you get at the grocery store?  Salted egg chips or Pringles. Not a big fan of snacks either. This survey is making me realize I’m way more into full meals than anything else.

Do you get the meat from the deli?  Er, we don’t have delis here. Too fancy a concept lmao. If we have them, they are most likely in those extremely upscale, boujee neighborhoods.

What is your favorite frozen dinner?  I mean my dad buys frozen meat, fish, etc, but the frozen dinner sets that I see in American culture, which I’m guessing is what’s being referred to in this question, are not common here.

Do you prefer frozen dinners to actual cooking?  I honestly can’t imagine how it’s filling, but then again I’ve never tried it. Personally, food made from scratch is still the best.

What is your favorite kind of pasta?  Fettuccine.

Do you eat meat? And if not, do you eat vegetarian meat?  Yes, I eat meat. I get vegan options if they’re accessible and affordable, but those choices are hard to come by here.

What is your favorite fruit?  Avocado is really the only one I’ll give a pass to. Everything else tastes horrible.

What about vegetable?  Broccoli, bell peppers, green beans.

Department Five: Health And Beauty

What kind of makeup do you normally use?  None. If I absolutely have to put on makeup, I will begrudgingly put on foundation, maybe some eyeliner, and lip gloss. And they will all most likely be borrowed from my sister.

Do you wear more makeup on special events?  Not necessarily.

What is your favorite makeup brand?  I wouldn’t be the right person to ask because I would just say none of them.

Do you use any acne products?  Mmm no, I just splash water on my face, really. I actually got into a conversation about skincare with my co-workers yesterday and besides the usual shocked experessions I get when people find out I don’t use products, they recommended I at least get moisturizer and sunscreen. Idk, let’s see but historically it’s been hard to convince me to invest in skincare haha.

What kind of perfume do you use?  I have one of Beyoncé’s perfumes, Heat Rush. I don’t actually know if that’s still in production but it’s been my staple for like a decade or so now.

Have you ever been on a diet?  No. I never really had to be on one.

What products do you use in your hair?  Shampoo and conditioner.

How often do you brush your hair?  Only when I have to leave the house or have an important virtual work meeting.

What do you take when you have an upset stomach?  Nothing. The toilet usually solves that for me lol.

Do you take any prescription medicine? Nope.

Department Six: Movies, Music, And Books

What is your favorite movie of all time?  It’s been Two for the Road for a solid nine years and it doesn’t look like anything’s on its way to dethroning it anytime soon.

What genre of movie do like best?  Drama. The more realistic it is, the better.

What was the last movie you watched?  It’s a Korean film called Be With You. I liked it and I cried waterfalls, but the ending was so rushed it was kind of disappointing.

What was the last movie you purchased?  I don’t buy movies. If I wanted to see a film I’ll check if Netflix has it, then if they don’t I just try to scour one of those illegal movie streaming sites that always happen to have thousands of pornographic ads hahaha.

What is your all time favorite band? Paramore. Do you still buy CDs?  Only from artists I’m an extremely huge fan of. Right now that would be BTS, so I’m catching up on all the albums they’ve released in the last eight years.

What was the last CD you bought?  I got the Butter album set, if that counts. If it doesn’t, the last full-length album I purchased was Dark & Wild.

What was the last song you listened to?  I think it was Permission To Dance.

What is your favorite book?  I haven’t found it yet.

Do you even like reading?  I used to love it a lot more, to the point that back in grade school I was known as always having a book in my hand. I just don’t know where that passion went.

How often do you read?  Nearly never. I mean...I do read fanfics, I guess; but I won’t count those.

Department Seven: Sports And Fitness

Do you own a bike/scooter/skateboard/etc.?  We do have a bike at home, but that doesn’t mean I know how to ride it. We don’t have the other two.

How old were you when you learned to ride a bike w/o training wheels?  I still don’t know how to last on a bike without training wheels heheh.

Have you ever been camping?  Nah.

How often do you work out?  Nope but at work my boss just started another fitness challenge, so I’ll probably have to get back on working out soon just because I would want to accomplish the challenge.

Are you in good shape?  Sure, I think so. I’m not like fit fit because I neveeer exercise haha, but I also don’t make it a point to constantly eat unhealthy foods or have an unhealthy lifestyle to the point that it affects my body.

Do you go to a gym?  I do not. I thought of getting a membership at the start of the year but I’m glad I didn’t push through with it because all the gyms are still closed anyway.

Have you ever been fishing?  No. Idk if it’s my kind of pastime or not.

Have you ever been on a boat?  Yeah. My country has like 7000 islands so I was bound to get on a boat at some point in my life haha.

Can you play golf?  Never seemed interesting to me so no. Even on Wii Sports I barely picked golf.

Ever rode on a golf cart?  Yeah, in resorts where we had to ride them to be taken to our room.

Would you ever go hunting?  That’s an easy no.

What is your favorite sport?  Pro wrestling or table tennis.

Ever played on a sports team?  No, my school didn’t have a table tennis varsity.

Department Eight: Toys

What was your favorite toy as a child?  Cash registers because I liked the buttons. Also Play-Doh sets that had those contraptions that would squirt out the clay in various shapes.

Do you still play with toys?  Well, no.

Do you collect any toys?  I don’t, but I’m not opposed to start buying Funko Pop figurines of people or characters I’m interested in.

Did you ever have building blocks?  Sure, but I was never creative enough for them.

Did you play with dolls?  No.

Barbies or Bratz? Which were better?  BRATZZZZZZ

What is your favorite board game?  Scrabble.

Do you like to do arts and crafts?  Hell no.

Do you think that kids now have it better than when you were young? For sure, but isn’t that kind of the goal?

#survey #surveys

[ruby-dear]

all of them except 77, 78, 81, 92 and 96

Ember, I know this was you. I’m doing it, but that’s 93 questions you’re asking for so they’re going under a cut. 

1. Talk about your first love. There have been a lot of those, so let me talk about the first one I really remember. I was in eighth grade, at the time, and she wasn’t exactly a great person looking back but she was cool and confident and she liked me, and she called me her best friend, and probably the best school-related memory I’ve ever had was her tackle-hugging me from across a classroom. I didn’t even realize I liked girls until she’d pretty much left my life completely. Maybe I’m looking at it through rose-tinted glasses now, but I think that’s okay, sometimes.  2. What’s the most beautiful songs you’ve ever heard in your opinion? Most of my favorite songs are Owl City, especially the older stuff. It has a soft, dreamlike vibe to it that I find really pretty even when it’s depressing. 3. How’s your heart feeling right now? Pretty good, I think? 4. What kind of self care is your favorite to do? The fun stuff. Bath bombs, makeup, fancy shampoo. Retail therapy actually works pretty well for me, even if a lot of the time I don’t even buy anything. 5. What’s your skincare routine? Um... Shower? 6. How did you get to be so beautiful? Natural talent and carefully learned confidence. 7. Do you have any stuffed animals? Oh, do I. I have like, seventy Webkinz, and that’s without getting into anything else. You could say I collect plushes, even if I don’t do it as actively now. I have a couple of Eevee plushes, too - I’d say I want to own all of them one day, but I’m like, 95% sure that’s not possible. 8. Best trip you’ve ever been on? Once, we went to Prince Edward Island for a week, and my mom surprised me by meeting up with my best friend’s family, who happened to have gotten a room at our hotel for one night. I think that probably wins. 9. Favorite thing about your room? That it’s starting to look like it belongs to me, even if I want to move somewhere else. 10. Opinion on love? It takes work, but it’s worth it.

11. Are you affectionate? Around people I’m comfortable with, definitely. 12. Who do you look up to? The people who have enough confidence to be unapologetically be themselves.

13. Favorite poet? Robert Frost. When I was eleven, I found a book of his poems, and I loved that book so much I didn’t pay any attention in English class at all.

14. Song that makes you happy? How about one that calms you down when you’re in a bad place? There’s a lot of songs that make me happy. Hard to go wrong with the Pokemon theme, though. As for things that calm me down... It’s Alright by Mother Mother and Misguided Ghosts by Paramore have both got me through a lot.

15. Do you play an instrument? No. I was supposed to learn piano in seventh grade, but I couldn’t read the sheet music so they never let me play, and I tried to learn guitar multiple times but it never stuck for the same reason.

16. Do you do art? Using what (pencil, watercolor, etc)? I paint, though not as often as I’d like to! Using acrylics, usually, but watercolors sometimes.

17. Do you dance? What style of dance? I took ballet as a child, til they kicked me out of class, and I still enjoy dancing but I don’t remember any of what I learned.

18. What’s your zodiac sign? Do you believe in astrology? Gemini. I think it might have some kind of truth behind it, but I’m not really one of those all-or-nothing people. It’s just for fun, you know?

19. Favorite old film? I don’t watch a lot of them. Does The Aristocats count?

20. What’s your hairstyle? It’s long and wavy. I’m getting blue highlights soon.

21. What weather is the most beautiful, in your opinion? Light rain. The kind that dries off before you get inside, when the sky is perfectly clear, but it starts falling anyway and it stops just as quickly.

22. What upsets you most about the world? That however hard we try to fix it, we’re unlikely to get very far.

23. Are you in love right now? Yes. At least, I think so.

24. Do you have a crush? If so, talk about them! I have a girlfriend. Is that the same thing? She’s cute and funny and she thinks the same things about me for some reason, and she knows exactly how much of a disaster I can be and hasn’t run away yet.

25. Do you have pets? Talk about something sweet about them! I have a cat, Little Prince. His sister died about a month ago, and she was the one who usually kept me company (total lap-cat), but ever since he’s usually either close to where I am or comes when I call him over.

26. Do you have a lucky number? Any multiple of seven, but especially fourteen. They’re my favorite numbers for the same reason.

27. Have you ever wished on a star? What about on a fallen eyelash? I try to wish on stars, when I see them. Eyelashes I’m usually more annoyed about than anything.

28. Do you believe emoji spells to work? I think anything has the potential to work, given the right amount of effort and intent. That said, I don’t think you’re going to accomplish anything drastic.

29. Do you believe in magic in general? Oh, definitely. Just look at the world we live in. How can you not believe in magic when it’s all around you? The night sky without air pollution, the sunlight dancing on the water, candy cane white hot chocolate - it’s everywhere, in everything.

30. What’s the most beautiful thing in life, In your opinion? Everything. There’s something beautiful in everything, if you look for it. Today, let’s say the feeling of sliding around on a hardwood floor in fluffy socks, dancing along to one of your favorite songs.

31. Opinion on the color pink? What about baby blue? As a kid, I hated pink. I like it now, though. Blue is my color, light blue especially (particularly with star patterns), so I’ve always liked it.

32. What instrumental sound is your favorite? Am I alloawed to say wind chimes? I’ve always thought they sounded super pretty.

33. Do you like the sound of wind? What about the sound of rain? I love them both.

34.Who makes you happy? My friends. All of them, in different ways, the people who are still in my life for various reasons. I love them.

35. What makes you happy? Light rain, strong wind, good music. My cat’s soft meow when I wake him up by accident. White peppermint hot chocolate. Fall colors, string lights, Halloween and winter holidays. Ice and snow and skating, dressing up for no apparent reason. The trick to it all is finding new things every day.

36. Imagine your ideal life, the life you wish to make, what will that look like? A house big enough for a family. A degree of some kind hanging on the wall. A life where I’m making things because that’s what I love, and I can try new things just for fun, where I don’t have to worry about money so much. The chance to get married someday, maybe.

37. Do you wear makeup? If so what’s your favorite type of makeup or specific makeup product? Favorite store to buy makeup? I do! Unless someone else is doing it for me, I generally keep to lipstick and eyeshadow. I’ve never been especially picky about what brands I use, but I usually go to Nyx because it’s on my usual route when I go on shopping trips, and I’m kind of attached now. Plus, nowhere else I’ve been in person has as many bold colours.

38. Do you wear dresses? If so what’s your favorite dress you own? I like wearing dresses. My favorite that I still have is a longer black dress, and it’s in serious need of either repair of retirement, but I got it for $20 as a cosplay outfit last year and it served its purpose. I wear it around still, sometimes, because it’s generally an easy fix.

39. Ever been heartbroken? How do you deal with it? Yeah, a few times. I vent to my friends, usually, and then I eat ice cream and listen to gnash for a while and eventually I start to feel better.

40. Who’s your closest friend? What do you love about them?

41. Introvert or extrovert? Kinda both? It’s complicated.

42. Do you like MBTI? What’s your MBTI? Is that... Fuck, is that the one with the letters? I think I got ENFP last time, and when I was younger it was INFP.

43. Would you be a fairy, a mermaid, a vampire, a siren, a or an angel? I’ve had people tell me I have ‘fae vibes’ before, so let’s go with that and hope it’s not offensive.

44. What’s the best song a friend has ever introduced to you? I don’t remember enough of them to feel good about picking one. I basically only listen to music I’m recommended now.

45. Parlez-vous français? A little, by virtue of being Canadian and having driven through Quebec. Not enough to carry on a conversation.

46. Most beautiful place you’ve been to? Prince Edward Island, hands down. It’s gorgeous.

47. Where/when do you truly feel at home? When there’s a light breeze, and the perfect song is playing, and the people I love are there. When we’re laughing with each other.

48. Does smiling put you in a better mood? Try it right now, you’re smile is gorgeous! I don’t think it does, honestly? But it does tend to happen when I’m happy.

49. Favorite shoe you own? These ankle boots I got secondhand that have little metal stars on them. I’m gonna be so upset when they finally wear out and I need new ones.

50. Can you walk in stilettos? Do you like them? God, no, I’ve tried. Any heel that’s too sharp or pointy or tall is a major problem for me. It’s part of what makes finding shoes such a pain.

51. Do you feel loved? Not always, but yeah. When I remember, or when I ask, or when I’m reminded.

52. How do you express love to those you care about? I try to tell them, but I’m also the type to engage in constant teasing. I’m the friend that punches you in the arm as a show of affection.

53. Favorite term(s) of endearment? The more creative ones. The basics don’t do much for me, honestly, but it’s more about the person saying them anyway.

54. Most romantic thing someone’s ever done for you? Make me feel like I don’t have to try so hard to feel like myself.

55. When is the happiest you’ve ever been? Walking the downtown city streets in winter. It was cold, sure, but it was gorgeous and I finally felt independent for a while.

56. Are you happy right now? Yeah, I’d say so.

57. What makes you smile? Bad jokes, among other things.

58. Do you laugh a lot? Yeah. A lot more than I used to.

59. What’s your favorite kind of aesthetic? Punk/scenecore. They’ve really influenced my more recent style choices.

60. Do you want to marry for love or for some other reason (like money)? Love, definitely.

61. What would your dream wedding look like? Do you want to get married? With someone I love, and the other people I love there too. Somewhere beautiful. I think I do, someday, but it’s not something I’m so worried about.

62. Favorite flower? Roses. Blue Moon Hybrid Tea Roses, in particular, are especially pretty.

63. Favorite artist? I don’t really have one. I do enjoy looking at art, though.

64. Favorite music artist? Owl City.

65. How kind do you think you are? Is kindness important to you? I don’t know. People seem to think I’m kinder than I believe I am. It’s important to me, yeah, to try and help people and to do nice things.

66. Ever made a playlist for someone? A few times. They were never anything special, as far as I’m concerned.

67. Do you have anything you do to physically comfort you when your sad? Such as a favorite blanket? Or a relaxing bath? Long, warm baths and cuddling with my cat. Warm blankets and stories with happy endings.

68. Early bird or night owl? Night owl. I’m a night person.

69. Morning routine? Wake up, do nothing for a while, actually get out of bed and figure out breakfast. While that’s going on, try and figure out if anything important is happening today.

70. Night routine? Get comfortable, then write or daydream til I fall asleep.

71. What is the most lovely quality a person could have in your opinion? Self-confidence and a willingness to help others.

72. Do you cry often? Does crying help you get the emotions out? Do you feel better after? I tend to hold back my feelings til they all fall out. So I end up crying at least twice a month, usually. It helps, yeah.

73. Do you like hugs? From people I feel comfortable with.

74. When was the last time you kissed someone? On the lips? Never.

75. Are you small or tall? Small. I’m 5′0.

76. Do you like wholesome memes? Yes. They’re cute.

79. Have you ever lived in a different country than you currently live in? Nope. I’ve never lived outside this city, only been on trips.

80. Do you like plane flights? Airports? I’ve only flown once, and I was two, so I don’t remember it very well.

82. The beach or a forest? Sand or bugs? Depends on the day. Today, though, forest.

83. What time of day do you tend to be in the best mood? Evening, usually.

84. Do you push yourself to act together and in a good mood even when you aren’t? Yeah, when I’m stressed.

85. Favorite kind of tree? Either maple or pine. I’m Canadian, what can I say?

86. Do you care about the health of the Earth? Yes, but there’s only so much one person can do.

87. What did you like most about your childhood, if anything? Field trips. Adulthood is sorely lacking in field trips.

88. Do you read a lot? What’s your favorite book? I used to. These days I still read, but it’s mostly fanfiction. My favorite books, though, are Tamora Pierce’s Emelan series and the first two books of Kenneth Oppel’s Silverwing trilogy.

89. What are you most nostalgic for at the moment? Trick-or-treating.

90. What’s your favorite personality trait you have? I try to let the people I love know that I love them.

91. List at least ONE thing you love about your appearance. I have pretty great hair.

93. Do you worry a lot? Constantly.

94. The dazzling lights of the city or the relaxing countryside? The city. The countryside’s nice, but the streetlights and the city skyline are what make me feel at home.

95. Ever changed the shoelaces on one of your shoes? For what reason? I actually don’t know how to tie laces, so no. I’ve never been able to pick it up. I might get someone sense to, if I could find cool enough laces.

97. Do you like doing little acts of kindness? Yeah. It feels good to make people happy, you know?

98. How’s your day/night going? Pretty good! I did just spend over an hour on this, but I finished it, so that’s an accomplishment of its own.

#asks #Anonymous #ember why are you like this #ruby speaks #thank you though

[greeds]

miguel what type skin do you have 🥺 and what’s your routine outside of that i wanna know if buying it would be worth my time 🥺🥺🥺

HI YES!!!!! OK HERE WE GO DHJDJF

DEW NOT REBL0G!!!!

ok so here is mi background info: i got a super oily forehead and super dry cheeks (kms), and rly bad textured skin that ud esp notice on my forehead and nose (bumpy...not at all smooth...truly a nightmare) for the longest time i thought exfoliating would help and it does! it def does help, but i think maybe my skin has been also very dehydrated this whole time djdkdjkBDKDJ

morning routine: i use First Aid Beauty radiance pads, which are exfoliating pads soaked in toner. i do not wash my face in the morning!!!! only at night!! the latest thing thats been added to my routine, which i think has substantially helped the texture of my skin, is the honey grail face oil from Farmacy. my sister had 15% off at sephora so i took advantage NDNNDND. it smells like honey n is a v thick oil n i love ittt. immediately after (i got no time to waste lol) i use the ultra repair cream from First Aid Beauty! my sister had gotten me a FAB skincare kit for xmas so its mostly what im using rn ! also i have a uhhh i think it is an avocado eye cream from Kiehls? i think? its a lime green cream in an unlabeled lil jar idk my sister filled it n gave it to me like Here use this i accidentally bought the Extra Large bottle and it expires in 6 months and its for under ur eyes so like. its not like a normal person can finish it in that time. ANYWAY

bedtime routine: i wash my face with the pure skin face cleanser from First Aid Beauty! which im lowkey running out of djjfjfkfkfkfk help . anyway, inflammatory acne ruined my whole face around the time my abuelita passed away (apparently grief can induce acne. i hate this entire concept) so i have a prescription medication for it, which is Biacna. its a topical gel that contains tretinoin so it kills the bacteria that lives on the skin. its very drying and bad to use in large quantities so i apply a small amount evenly to my whole face. u can find skincare products w similar, but less intense, ingredients online or wherever they sell products that are like, the product is what it says it is (like the ordinary!). after ive applied my eye cream i apply the honey grail face oil again! and then moisturize with the ultra repair cream

other: im basically married to the pure-clay red algae mask from L'Oreal it is my FAVE mask of all time....!!!! its exfoliating and my textured skin reacts well to it, and i tend to use it about 2-3 times a week bc it makes my skin look a lot smoother. i also like the calendula and aloe mask from Kiehls! it smells like marmalade and it says to keep it on for 10min but i usually go for at least 30min; its a soothing hydration mask so theres no need to worry abt it drying ur skin out. i recommend just going to Kiehls (if available near u) and asking for a sample of it which is what im using LOL. TAKE ADVANTAGE OF SAMPLES. on occasion ill use a sheet mask (any one, but i like the moisturizing honey mask and the aloe hydrating mask the most) from The Face Shop (they p much always have a promo for buying in bulk, and sheet masks r just so calming). i tend to not use them often bc they leave a serum on ur face that basically prohibits u from using any of my other products ajdjdjfjfj EDIT: sometimes if i feel i rly need it i use the drink up intensive overnight avocado mask from Origins! i love hydration

more bg info, Lifestyle Edition: i do not work out like at all except for walking around at work and walking up the metro stairs and escalators! lots of walking lots of stairs. it def has an effect on ur skin fjkdkdkdk sweating is the best way to detox but im way too dysphoric to do shit fjjdjf its bad i know. i uhh like to drink water LOL and im vegetarian so i eat my veggies n my fruits (in SMOOTHIES), and i dont rly eat much sweets lately ! ALSO I STOPPED DRINKING COFFEE TWO WEEKS AGO!!!!!!! i usually shower at night and i wash my bedsheets and pillowsheets v often so like im always sleepin fresh n clean! also i am taking z0loft for mi depession and birth control for mi period cramps+dysphoria and i think it also is helping my acne

OK IM DONE NDNNDD U CAN SEND ANOTHER ASK IF U HAVE MORE QS! BUT THIS SHOULD COVER EVERYTHING....THERE R A LOT OF VARIABLES!......take advantage of samples and sales bro skincare is NOT cheap!

AND AGAIN, PLS DEW NOT REBL0G

[lprock1]

Okay, so I’ve decided to write a post about acne and birth control. It’s probably going to be rather long. I don’t really expect anyone to read it, unless you struggle with acne. Please excuse any grammar errors I might make.

So, I go to pick up my birthcontrol today from my local health department, and they give me a different brand this time. My nurse says it’s the same thing with the same ingridents. I open up the packet info when I get home anyways. In the packet of the brand I had before, Orsthia, it list one of the benefits of birth control being it helps clear acne. I open this packet of Aviane to see that it does not say that. In fact it says one of the symptoms could be acne. So I freak out a little. Most of life I have struggled with acne, I’ll share more about that later, so when I see something could give me acne I really don’t want anything to do with it. I get to googling. Online it says Orsythia could improve acne, but a lot of reviews from users said it worsened their acne. I didn’t notice that. I still get breakouts but for the most part I think it has improved my skin. The most common symptoms people seemed to list were mood swings, breast getting bigger and headaches. I’ve really noticed those things. Especially the headaches! It seemed when I googled Aviane though the most common symptom seemed to be acne. Now if you look up birth control and acne it says that the combination pill is the best for acne. A lot of dermatologist even suggest it to women that have had no luck with acne medications. It’s one of the main reasons I chose the pill as my birth control of choice. The internet says the mini pill and Nexplanon are the worst for acne because of the amounts of only progestin. A lot of reviews for Orsythia were worse than Aviane. In fact, a lot of people were switched to Orsythia from Aviane and hated it! There’s a whole forum about it. They have the same main ingredients, and the same amounts. Also, I know that everyone is different and could have different reactions. I’m hoping I will see no difference in acne, unless it’s way better. Hormones can of course cause acne, so it might have just been that people that aren’t use to having acne or extra hormones were surprised by having a mild breakout. I guess we’ll see. If I have anything worse than a mild breakout, and it’s prolonged, then I’ll be trying to find another pill maybe.

Now on to my acne. I would like to help those who have acne if I can. If you haven’t found something that works, at least know you are not alone, and that you are beautiful. Fuck the people who might say otherwise. They don’t know the struggle. Not just to find something that works but also the physical pain of acne and scars it can leave. Also, it’s a common belief to regular folk that people with acne are just dirty and nasty. That is far from true. Yes, washing your face improves your skin, but it is because of your skin type that determines if you get acne. I have mostly oily skin with a few dry patches. I also found out that my biological father, who I don’t talk to for personal reasons, had terrible acne. It’s genetic. Thanks dude 👍. Eating better can give you healthier skin, but junk food doesn’t give you acne. Unless your just wiping your face with pizza. We have more options for acne now then when I was younger. I should tell you guys my complexion has gotten so much better, even before birth control. Most people don’t know that I ever had a problem with acne. People tell me I have pretty skin. I still get break outs at 30, but for the most part it has cleared up. I have daily routines to try to keep it clear. I’ll get to those in a bit. When I was younger my acne was so bad. I remember being called pizza face and ugly all the time. I would pick at the acne which made sores. I remember my sister crying one day because she said she was scared of getting those things on her face like me. We have different dads though so... I really think I tried everything that was on the market at the time. I remember the Clearasil and Stridex Pads very vividly. Now one thing that I learned is that everyone’s skin is different. Products that didn’t work for me might work for you and vice versa. You pretty much have to try a lot of different stuff when you have bad acne to find what works for you. Some products might even make it worse before it gets better. The struggle is real. My mom took me to the family doctor who suggested I trying washing my face with a bar of soap. I can’t remember the name. I can say a bar of soap probably won’t help you if you have bad acne. Then I went to a dermatologist. She gave me lots of stuff to try. First it was Neutrogena face wash, then it was samples of a prescription cream, then it was a tube of prescription cream that burned my face and I had to leave on for 15 minutes before washing it off. Because of that stuff I couldn’t be in direct sunlight, so I’d always have to sit under shade in PE class. I was too embarrassed to explain why and kids kept asking me 😔. I don’t remember the names of those products but none worked. Others I remember trying were Proactive, Nivea and Clean & Clear. None worked at that time. I do use some of those products now, they’re not bad, just didn’t work then. One day going through the Skincare Isle I see a new product. AcneFree. After years of searching I found something that worked for me!! At first they just had the tube, but now they have a whole line of skin care products. I use to use the spot treatment every single day. I also would put it all over my face. I remember forgetting it when I went to sleep at a friend’s house one time and I told her I had to go buy some. I rarely use it now. Luckily my skin has cleared up so much that I just use it when I get break outs. My daily regiment is this: I use make-up remover wipes in the morning to wipe off any sweat or oil from the night before. The brand doesn’t really matter. The dollar ones work just fine for this. I then use Clean & Clear dual action moisturizer to help with any dryness or flaky skin. Then I use Neutrogena SkinClearing oil-free makeup. It’s a liquid foundation that I use to cover pores or any blemish I might have. Omg! When I saw commercials for makeup that had acne medicine in it!! I was so excited! Always make sure anything you put on your face is oil-free. Then at night when I take my shower I wash my face with Clean & Clear

Blackhead eraser scrub. The Wal-Mart store brand works just as well. I just haven’t felt like going to Walmart. I also suggest getting a scrub that has biodegradable beads. These usually are apricot, and I’m oddly allergic to anything apricot or peach scented, so that’s why I don’t use it. St. Ives has a great green tea one, so when I find that I get it. Then I use my moisturizer again. It’s good to develop a routine and try different things. But try them for a couple weeks before giving up. I hope this will help some. 😁

#acne #birth control #women’s health

[sokkigarden]

Skincare ????

I’ve been fortunate enough to never have to deal with really bad acne or anything, but that mixed with the idea that I grew up “not wanting to be like other girls” made me stray away from the beauty section of the department store for SO LONG. aka I really never developed a skincare routine?

So basically this post is gonna be a mass of info and shit to help me figure that out. My skin isn’t terrible but it is oily and I have some spots and since it’s isolation o’clock I may as well do this!!!

Ever since like 2016 (?) ish I know that teen vogue has changed a lot and been more inclusive and not EXCLUSIVELY fashion! celebs! so i decided to go to their site to see if I could get any info instead of just typing it into google. bc i know that if i type it into google i’ll just get a bunch of companies says BUY OUR PRODUCTS YOU NEED IT nah man. i don’t.

Currently I just wash my face with a bar of dove face soap when my face gets really oily. Other than that I wash it when I shower (every other day typically).

I found this webpage about different types of products.  

The article states you really only need a quality cleanser, serum, and moisturizer, but provides info on other stuff too:

Toners - an additional step after cleanser to fully remove dirt and “rebalance the skin.” interesting. my sister says it helps without making your skin too oily like a moisturizer sometimes does

Masks - ngl I hate masks. I’ve never found any that i like and they make me feel grosser than when I started. but maybe I need to suck it up and try different ones to find one i like. the article says once a week

Serums/Acne Treatments - this step is for if you have really dry skin or acne. both sides of the spectrum. 

Oils / Essences - more options to try for hydrating skin and stuff. i probably won’t go into this asap but it would be interesting to try out later

There’s also eye creams and lots of moisturizer options too but I don’t think I need eye cream yet and my skin is too oily to really use a lot of moisturizer

don’t forget spf!!! some moisturizers have it but also sunscreen if prolonged exposure

this info is from teen vogue so it reminds young people should use gentler products!! 

so yay! now i know some vocab that people always use when I ask him haha

I’m really reluctant to try too much new stuff because chances are if I change shit up I’ll break out more than I would if I just left myself alone lmao. My friend told me it’s normal to break out when starting a new product tho so????

I think I’ll start with finding a good cleanser and maybe a toner. thank u for going on this information journey with me xo

#this post reads like a newspaper article i would do in high school #am i ok?? #maybe it's mental illness? maybe it's quarantine #ok but i'm gonna forget half of this in a day so #i def needed to write it down #skincare #my writings

[iampikachuhearmeroar]

Skincare/ makeup culture ☕️

oooh. i’ll divide this post into two parts: makeup culture and skincare culture.

(1.) makeup culture.

i think everyone knows that I’ve never liked makeup, mostly because I had relatively bad cystic acne throughout high school, that reacted badly to all of the makeup that my sister used (but most particularly her l’oreal foundation). I think makeup culture is particularly harmful to young girls, like the makeup youtube channels that are run by the parents I suppose of 8 year olds, where the 8yo is the actual youtuber.

like don’t get me wrong, i know young girls like playing with makeup (I actually did when I was that age, funnily enough)….. but the fact that professional or just plain fucking ridiculously expensive makeup palettes are now being marketed to girls in bloody primary/grade/elementary school, is just fucking wrong. and yeah there’s the post on here about how some younger girls are finding themselves ugly when they don’t wear properly applied makeup or something like that. and that breaks my heart. why the fuck should a young girl be made to feel ugly if she can’t blend like josiemaycosmetics (I made that up btw idk any makeup channels besides Jeffree star, James Charles and that tatti woman tbh) and can’t afford the bullshit Too Faced $98 powered foundation, $65 Sunday Riley blush (I roughly remember the price of this particular blush bc my sister bought it for me for my 20th birthday so that I could according to her “look good for uni” but I never actually used it lmao… and it’s no longer sold here in australia) and Kylie Jenner’s overpriced lip kits and idk Smashbox “photo finish” primer priced between $AU23-$AU55????

like I had this bad enough in fucking HIGH SCHOOL with my sister telling me that I’d “never get a boyfriend” or “never get a date for the formal/junior prom” if I didn’t spend hundreds of $$$$ for a good face of makeup and didn’t spend hours and hours learning how to do my own makeup. or how last year for my uni grad, she made out that I’d ruin my own uni grad if we didn’t spend $250 on the makeup artist we got for me….. where I unfortunately found out that my skin reacts to MAC products 😭😨 bc the MUA used MAC concealer and foundation. my sister also expected me to remember the setting spray the woman used for my makeup, when I was there from like 4:30am till like 6:45am and i was barely fucking awake. the setting spray probably could’ve easily cost over $100. let’s be real here. like why am I expected to remember shit that early in the morning???

one of my least favourite things with makeup culture is that you’re not meant to fuck it up in any way, shape or form. like when my sister did my makeup for my two high school formals/proms (year 10 & year 12) she constantly told me not to scratch my face while she was doing it (but it made me itchy, hooray for L’Oréal being shit lmao)…. not to fuck it up while I ate at those events….. and she didn’t let me eat before my uni grad last year bc “you’d definitely fuck up your makeup. don’t you dare scratch your face at all today!” like for someone who has hypersensitive/highly reactive skin that she has to scratch when it’s itchy….. and also loves fucking stuffing her face with food….. expecting me to never touch/scratch my face and to practically starve myself to preserve the integrity of my makeup (that i ended up paying for some in the end anyway) for an event is fucking stupid and over-restrictive.

like i always hated the way that the kardashians ate on KUWTK bc it looked so fucking mechanical and whatever bc they had to obvs preserve their makeup while shooting and also look nice for the camera. like why the fuck am I expected to eat ~like that~ when I have a faceload of MU on???? FUCK OFF. I will scratch it off. I will smear the food all over my face (ok not really) and eat however I motherfucking want, thank you very fucking much. like for my uni grad last year I was up from 4am and my grad ended at like 12:30pm….. so I didn’t have food til about 12:35 when I left the hall. and the whole time while I was eating my sister kept reminding me to not fuck up my makeup that we’d spent $250 on. JUST LET ME FUCKING EAT WOMAN, I SWEAR TO FUCK. lmao.

the last thing I hate the most about makeup culture is that like….. I absolutely hate makeup like I said above….. but once I have it on I feel pretty and cry a bit bc I’ll just never learn to do it myself…. mostly bc I couldn’t be bothered…. bc I save hundreds, if not thousands of $$$$ from not buying all the bullshit essential items you need just for a ~basic no makeup, makeup look~, and bc my hands have never been steady enough to use some of the things, like false eyelashes and eyelash curlers or liquid eyeliner/normal eyeliner….. 

but yeah. I just hate that it makes me feel pretty???? but I also feel good and more natural without it???? and I’ll never like my sister’s comment that: “you’re the prettier one out of the two of us…. but if only you hurried up and learnt to do your makeup, you’d be even prettier” or some dumb semi-condescending shit comment she’s said to me like that before. like why is the only way a woman can be pretty (other than some clothes that make her feel good) by smearing 100s/1000s of dollars worth of makeup on???? like why the fuck am I expected to spend all that money when a good bulk of men will never bother with the male makeup trend anyway???? like why am I expected to act differently when I basically just have grown up face-paint on lmao???? I’ve never felt natural in makeup, I’ve always felt awkward and like…. not sound like an cringey edgelord emo kid…. but i never felt ~real~ wearing makeup lmao. just yeah.

but yeah I also understand makeup is an art and I appreciate that. makeup culture is so fucked on all sides for women.

(2.) skincare culture:

now skincare culture is different for me. considering that, like I said before, I had relatively bad cystic acne…. and I’ve since also developed eczema during the winter months….. so I’ve had to develop a good skincare routine over the years to keep my skin under control. but again, there are parts that I don’t like about skincare culture…. like women are typically meant to spend, again, hundreds and if not thousands of dollars on super expensive skin creams (some of which I’ve tried) to fix their fine lines, their laugh lines, their crows feet, their blemishes, their birth marks and cellulite…… the list truly goes on and on….. and on top of that (well this hellsite which isn’t entirely accurate) I’m, or we as women, are expected to teach all of that to men in their 20s???? like fuck off. why and how the fuck didn’t they get the fucking memo to look after their own goddamned skin???? like my 20s are already tiring enough, and now I gotta pass on important skincare advice to men, who could easily fucking find it themselves online???? lord help their asses lmao.

but other than the men bit…. yeah skincare culture is just as bad as makeup culture. like when Cosmo mag was still running in australia, more than half of the shit the women at Cosmo were advertising as part of their skincare routines were literally $300 night treatment creams or moisturisers; $150 facial cleansers; or $500 skin peels, or $600 appointments at dermatologists and skin therapies like electrolysis that I’ll probs never be able to afford. like one of the luxury brands that I LOVE (💖) is Mario badescu bc the two pimple treatments that i sometimes I use from them (the drying lotion and the anti-acne serum) are the ONLY two acne treatments that have NEVER made my face turn red and my skin peel off (besides a really good neutrogena one that Neutrogena discontinued 😭). every other chemist bought pimple treatment cream makes my skin peel off/itchy/turn red. but sadly the two Mario badescu treatments are priced over $50 if bought together (ones now $31 (formerly $28, this one’s great bc it dries clear), the other is like $26, this one dries pink). so the chemist bought ones like the ones by Clearasil or OXY10 are my saviours at $11.99-$12.99, even though they dry out my skin to buggery and leave big white marks on my face bc they both dry white lmao. but I’ve gotta suffer that for the price of beauty lmao.

also there’s expensive face washes (or skin care program packs etc) from Paula’s choice that I love.... but again they were like $35 for a 400ml bottle and $25 for a fucking 150ml or 250ml bottle. now the one i like is $20 for 177ml, which is a rip off. some of the other luxury things that I’ve tried (via free samples) that don’t work, like Kate Somerville (priced at like $65 and over), Philosophy and god knows what else that i’ve bought from Mecca Cosmetica, which is the Aussie version of Sephora in the past. and yes, for acne treatments, i’ve used pro-activ before. it was ok… but i never used it in high school, after the awful time we had trying to cancel our subscription to it back in the day for my sister lol.

also can we talk about the ultrasonic face brush systems that are still raging strongly??? like they’re also super rip offs, especially with buying replacement heads for $35 a pop. like I’ve had a Clarisonic for years (that I’ve stopped using, admittedly)…. the model was roughly $250 when I got it for my like 19th birthday. now they’re even more expensive at like $315 for the latest “clarisonic mia fit cleansing system” which is linked on the $315. or now there’s the foreo that costs anywhere between $75 (the cheapest model) to fucking almost $400… ie $395. the replacement heads for the clarisonic and i suppose replacement like pads or something for the foreo are meant to be replaced every three months “for optimum cleansing” or whatever. like $35 every three months is a lot to maintain after a while. also using the clarisonic added like 10 extra minutes to my showers/general skincare routine bc you’re meant to use it for five mins or whatever and then spend another 5mins washing it out to make sure that it doesn’t collect mould and buildup too much soap residue. it was just a lot of effort to use, even if it did make me feel like i had a better and deeper face washing routine.

and yes, i know there’s Lush. both my sister and i (but more my sister) were obsessed with Lush back in high school, after one of our sydney cousins introduced it to us. but Lush’s skincare stuff for pimples just never worked for us. it made me breakout more, actually. but their old apple pie and choc-orange lip balms were the BOMB. it’s a pity that they no longer make them tbh. their jelly soaps were fun to use and smelt nice too. i can’t remember much else about lush tbh lmao.

for face masks, i’ve found that store/chemist bought formula 10.0.06 or whatever works the best for my skin. but the push, especially again in cosmo and other places, to buy more expensive face-masks and like designer FMs that you should really ask a professional to use first imo, is fucking harmful, especially when you’ve got ones that take off the whole top layer of skin from your face (like the famous and the overly popular charcoal face peel masks), or so i’ve read. like it’s yikes out there. please be safe with these masks, ya’ll. and the same goes for making your own organic face masks, considering that i’ve seen posts on here about using lemon juice which is bad for your skin??? idk anyway. i also hate how with the face masks i buy, there’s about 6 different “skin-illuminating”/“skin brightening”/”skin detoxing” etc masks, that all essentially do the same fucking thing. just keep it at one and fucking go; for gods fucking sake lmao.

but yeah, skincare culture does suck just as much as makeup culture, considering that is heavily focused on women’s self-esteem and wallets…. and barely ever focuses on men. like it’s a double-edged sword tbh.

also as side notes: why the actual fuck are makeup companies still giving their makeup shades or makeup lines sexual names???? like i just found a fucking blush shade by NARS, in my research for this post, called “Orgasm”???? like what the FUCK is wrong with ya’ll??? like y’all actually have the fucking AUDACITY to really make 8 year olds say that in their makeup tutorial videos as well??? “our best selling orgasm collection” sweet lord. that sounds bad. y’all need to sort your shit out, and so do the people who name nail polish shades.. 

the other worrying general beauty trends that i keep getting on my facebook newsfeed are the teeth whitening systems like hismile and at home laser treatment machines… and then also the charcoal toothpastes to whiten your teeth. oh and also the facial skin “vacuums”, that suck out dirt/oil and your blackheads/pimples etc from your pores. stay safe out there everyone, and do your bloody research. don’t believe the reviews and the hype.

also finally: take your skin type and skin condition/(s) into account if you want to use any of the things that I’ve mentioned that I use/have used on this post. or that I’ve just generally mentioned, like the Clarisonic and the foreo. because what works for me, might not work for you. I’m not a skincare expert or dermatologist. check with your doctor or a skincare professional or whatever before you start using some of these things, even if you might think that it’s stupid & pointless to do so.

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