#much more chill and less curated vibes

[literatureaesthetic]

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#much more chill and less curated vibes #starting anew feels weird lmao rip to my previous 8k followers #literature aesthetics #books #book #bookish #bookblr #bookworm #bookstagram #dark academia #booklover #books and libraries #studyblr #aesthetic #beige #minimalism #beige tones #beige academia #beige blog #instagram

[blcssom]

after what feels like YEARS i've finally finished the muse page built into my theme (u can find a less fun/detailed list of my new muses here too) which means it's time for a STARTER CALL : ' )))

below the cut are my new muses and a lil bit abt them !! like this and i'll throw you a few starters with my new/rebranded babies !! note: i'll likely slide in your dms to ask if there's anyone in particular you're interested in <3

abigail hyland || twenty9 - waitress/folk singer // bisexual // margaret qualley

mean trailer park queen trying to bury her white trash roots and fear of abandonment !!!

catherine meyer || forty3 - interior designer // bisexual // jessica chastain

walking cleanliness complex who holds herself and everyone else around her to impossibly high standards

daphne barlowe || thirty3 - art curator // bisexual // meghann fahy

trust fund baby who resents her upbringing but not enough to stop living off of their money altogether O:)

ines morreno || twenty5 - bottle girl (succubus au) // bisexual // camila morrone

literal demon (if u so choose) who goes through men faster than she goes through singles on a busy night at the club

josie tanaka || twenty7 - vet tech // bisexual // fivel stewart

likes animals more than she likes ANY human but is willing to forego judgement until you share a blunt w/ her and she can suss out the vibe

lydia xiao || twenty5 - classical violinist // bisexual // havana rose liu

sheltered princess strikes out on her own !!! as much as you can when you're auditioning to join the met :' )

maeve willis || twenty8 - assistant choreographer // bisexual // taylor russell

people pleaser w/ the memory of a goldfish !!! REALLY wants to do a good job but REALLY can't say no when someone invites her out either so... c'est la vie

rosie burton || thirty2 - florist (royal au) // bisexual // laura harrier

classic oldest child mother to all but lacking a caretaker herself but that's !! fine !! she's fine !!

sylvie bane || twenty4 - social media influencer // bisexual // lily rose depp

party princess desperate to prove she can make it w/ out daddy's money or a rich s/o (spoiler alert: she can't xx)

taylor corbyn || twenty3 - drummer // homosexual // reneé rapp

GAY and way more confident abt it until she actually has to act !! queen of talking a big game and absolutely blowing it after that

beau crawford || twenty7 - phys ed teacher // bisexual // mason gooding

just a big ole puppy witfh too much energy not even a day of back-to-back p.e. classes can burn it off !! good vibes only except when he doesn't get what he wants :o

dominic hyland || thirty - dj/bartender // bisexual // nicholas galitzine

chasing down his abandonment issues with straight gin and pretending it's fine !!! absolutely not running from his own traumatic past why would u ask that

ezra bhatti || thirty8 - tattoo artist // bisexual // rahul kohli

v chill v calm v antisocial and yet always somehow at the center of all the action !! unbearable know it all that's probably why he just HAD to correct someone

hugo danaher || twenty9 - firefighter // bisexual // paul mescal

reckless physically and emotionally always falling in love and always running into burning buildings w/out thinking twice

jace warren || twenty8 - mechanic // bisexual // nick robinson

basically raised seven siblings in a double wide when his parents bailed and he's TIRED now v responsible but also v apathetic deadly combo

jacob park || thirty3 - newspaper editor // bisexual // charles melton

perfectionist who keeps succeeding but the bar is just getting higher and he's !! nervous !! golden child of his family and they're banking on his success no pressure

miguel avila || forty4 - literary agent (vampire au) // bisexual // oscar isaac

functioning alcoholic who soothes whiny writers all day he's doing GREAT !! failed (in his own mind) writer who's helping others live out their dreams yay

oliver kothari || thirty5 - pediatrician // bisexual // dev patel

came across the pond to escape his mother but she just followed him here so... constantly being the perfect boy but v lonely up on his pedastal

reid whittman || thirty4 - fashion photographer // bisexual // callum turner

party boy photographer living his bachelor dream even tho it isn't !! actually his dream but it's what he's good at so .... luvs being the fun uncle his TRUE calling

thomas thorne || forty2 - novelist (pirate au) // bisexual // michiel huisman

dramatic nervous king prone to rambling on about his ideas but then never actually following thru with them :' )

#casually have been working on revamping my muses for three months this is a labor of LOVE #or procrastination i'm gonna go w/ love tho #( starter call. ) #indie bi rp #indie open rp #indie rp #prioritizing mutuals but i worked HARD-ish on this today so opening it to the tags

[cj-writes-things]

~Playlists~

For anyone looking for a little musical exploration or some pre-curated themed playlists, I've got you. Feel free to check these out if any of them sound like your kinda vibe!

My main/default playlist; there's a little bit of everything in here so it's good for when there's no particular vibe and you just want random shit on shuffle for hours:

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Playlist I listen to when I'm feeling alone/down; made from a place of feeling unable to accept or reciprocate love and having difficulty forming or maintaining personal relationships, with a few comfort songs mixed in:

"wdym ur lonely? so many ppl love you"

Playlist for hiking, roadtripping, setting out on an adventure, admiring the cosmos, pondering existence, etc (very indie/folk-heavy playlist):

Trailblazin' & Stargazin'

I mentioned this one in my valentine's day post; the title pretty much sums it up I'd say:

love songs I actually like

This one goes along/overlaps with the previous one & was also mentioned in my valentine's day post; basically, songs that helped me get an idea of the kind of love I hope to experience and a better understanding of love in general:

a love like this

Collection of mostly soft, comforting/uplifting songs to listen to when I'm stressed out or anxious or whatever, with a little bit of subdued angst sprinkled in:

calm down

Another one that doesn't really need a description; I don't know exactly what the vibe is with this one I just needed to make it bc reasons:

my personal collection of Sam Smith & Calum Scott songs

Slowed & reverb songs for my adhd bitches who have to have background noise 24/7 but get distracted by more upbeat lively music when they should be sleeping (I've used this one many a night):

Trying to fall asleep

Playlist for feeling overwhelmed, unprepared for adulthood, resistant to growing up, scared of change:

I'm not ready

Songs that either feel trans-coded/supportive or just that I like to listen to specifically during more masc/enby phases, usually because they feel gender-affirming somehow:

For Your Dysphoric Days

Touch-starved, depressed, out of it, and desperate to feel something playlist:

feeling numb.

A few more based purely on vibes whose titles more or less speak for themselves:

life in a YA dystopian fantasy/sci-fi epic

Villain POV

Run Away with Me

Mortality

Phantoms, Fables, and Echoes of the Divine

Chilled, Somber yet Mellow (mostly SYML)

ripples through murky water

This Might Be The End

POV: angsty queer teen with religious trauma

That's all for now, hope somebody gets some enjoyment out of these

#cj's music recs #cj's playlists #music #songs #music recs #song recs #music exploration #music appreciation #themed playlist #my playlist #playlist #youtube music

[awesomehoggirl]

packing to go home tomorrow im only there for a week... thoughts on my clothes list!!!

- 2 maxi skirts, one denim one to wear out one earthy ruffly patterned one which is comfy and can be dressed up or down

- 2 pairs of jeans... realistically i should bring one pair but i love them boooth. i might ditch one 💔 ok im keeping the baggy dark wash pair bc they are easier to style w what im bringing

- 2 knit jumpers one black one oatmeal coloured

- 2 tshirts a white blondie one which i cut off the shoulder and a dark gomez shirt which covers all the bases rlly

- 2 long sleeves to layer underneath things if im cold!!! a black one and a grey one

- 1 blouse but i havent decided which one yet. maybe my beige peasant blouse w drapy sleeves so funnn

- 1 dress it is green and plaid and very cute

- my big black coat bc it is warm and goes with eeeeverything

CANNOT decide on shoes. i rlly wanna bring my tasselled black cowboy boots bc i lit wear them every day and they go so well with EVERYTHING including jeans bc theyre just above the ankle!!! but like realistically i should wear my biker boots bc they are more Normal and dont make a Shk Shk Shk sound when i walk. much to consider... i dont have room to pack 2 pairs of shoes...

vibe i like to go for when im at home w my parents is like a little more chic less whimsical less gothy... like a cool chill girl from a band. so this is what i am curating here. i think this is a really good packing list like ive covered all the bases going with mostly b&w and denim so i can mix and match but then playing with texture more to compensate

#Sorry guys living out my stylist fantasies over here

[cak31ssuperi04]

Crashing at ur ask box again but the rest of Sweet Beach 4 the ask game

(I feel like one of those door to door newspaper boys trying to to bring u the latest issues of the daily survey /hj /lh)

HOW LONG HAS THIS BEEN IN MY DRAFTS. MY BABIES NO (under the cut)

Hitohito:

favorite thing about them- They love him for his nice kindness. Friendly boy swag. I appreciate that he's a loud energetic type but still portrayed as reasonably smart.

least favorite thing about them- Idk he's just a cool chill guy. What is there to dislike. Maybe that's a problem. Maybe he needs to do something objectionable right now.

favorite line- This isn't quite a line but I think about it often

brOTP- I like the idea of him being Sagara and Izuchi's normie childhood friend. They've mostly lived in the same neighborhood their whole lives so they're just kind of on each other's radars, even if they aren't always exactly close.

OTP- N/A

nOTP- N/A

random headcanon- Kills it at Taiko rhythm games. Fishes in his spare time.

unpopular opinion- N/A

song i associate with them- Brothers. Good vibes slightly nonsensical lyrics

favorite picture of them-

Mary:

favorite thing about them- I like the thread of her being a child star who had to grow up too fast, who's sheltered and emotionally/socially stunted from having to maintain an image all the time and longs for a normalcy that she knows she can't have("people envy what they do not have.") but will enjoy whatever little of it she can. I feel like the Sweet Beach side-character friend events shy away from delving into them beyond a surface-level(which, all things considered, makes sense for how little time they have to dedicate to each one I guess) so it's nice to see it get touched on.

least favorite thing about them- I loooove her design so much don't get me wrong but Actually drawing it is like putting myself through a meat grinder(I'm weak I know)

favorite line- "I see. He's lost the ability to speak. What a sorrowful person." So unintentionally patronizing jksadhasgdhjg

brOTP- Nanashi(obvious answer is obvious) but also Hitohito! I also have the headcanon that she continues visiting the cafe to cool off. While Hitohito(who listens to a lot of top 40 radio stations while he jogs--and since Fairytale Forest lets its employees curate the music that plays in the cafe he just winds up listening to a lot of just the most popular music at the moment at work anyways-- so he IS familiar with her music but doesn't keep up super closely with her as a celebrity.) was able to offhandedly dismiss her as a cosplayer the first time, that excuse doesn't really hold for very long after that.

OTP- N/A

nOTP- Meury is aesthetically interesting but idk the 17-21 age gap is a no for me.

random headcanon- While Sweet Beach is a big tourism area, the specific area that Eruno and Aira takes Nanashi to is a less industrious, less popular area of it, hence all the buildings being single-story and some rando being able to singlehandedly drive all the tourists off the beach(which apparently is the main attraction of said big tourism area) without getting into trouble for it. In any case Mary specifically chose that area because it wouldn't be as swarming with paparazzi and crowds, and easier to keep a lower profile.

unpopular opinion- N/A

song i associate with them- Itan na Star

favorite picture of them-

Meru:

favorite thing about them- Just an eternally sleepy girl trying to make it in this world

least favorite thing about them- For how much it's played for laughs I do wish they either went more into exploring her condition and how it affects her life or gave us more about her character outside of it. Though I guess there is something to be said there about her not seeking professional help and turning to other means because of the stigma surrounding neurological disorders?(if I'm missing the point like, lmk though of course)

favorite line- "…But the work hours are most favorable here. Other slave driving workplaces make you work 5 hours or more…" Go girl

brOTP- I really like the idea of a Meru/Ryuuri/Yuuto friendship. Sleepygang

OTP- Meu! I'm so weirdly invested in the idea of them. Look hear me out. Meru likes stimulating things. Meu is high-energy all the time. They share 2/3 of their favorite gifts(Similar tastes! What do you mean Im grasping at straws im not grasping at straws i)

nOTP- I saw someone suggest Izuchi/Meru once

random headcanon- Loves metal(the music). Also loves rollercoasters, though is hesitant about riding them on her own because what if she falls asleep.

unpopular opinion- N/A

song i associate with them- Time Slip

favorite picture of them-

Saaya:

favorite thing about them- I like that she's kind of complicated? She's a 14 year old with abandonment issues and a warped perception of love who handles it in destructive ways and she's fucked up but that's kind of real to me idkidk

least favorite thing about them- Her treatment of Nanashi (the self harm threats particularly) is still very uncomfortable

favorite line- "Strange? No... This is the realm of gods! Yes! You are a god, Nanashi!!"

brOTP- Meu! I've mentioned this before but I like the idea of her just coming to Meu for divinations on her love life only to end up venting. At some point she just drops the pretenses but Meu is fine with it. She's a good shoulder to cry on.

OTP- N/A

nOTP- Nanashi:(

random headcanon- I like to think she does a bit of sewing for a hobby.

unpopular opinion- Not an unpopular opinion but I'm thinking about how she mentions the water looks a little bloody. And since the water is pink I can't help but imagine 1bh characters having bright pink danganronpa blood

song i associate with them- Aishite Aishite Aishite/ Lovefool

favorite picture of them-

Meu:

favorite thing about them- She's so funny and silly and energetic. She's like an aunt to me. Not really good at what she does but very committed to the bit and I respect that.

least favorite thing about them- Feels a bit scammy to me and I feel like there is potentially a line to be towed there but it's okay she's allowed to do that.

favorite line- "A fortune is never a guarantee! Why, it usually isn't in fact! ✬ Kyahaaa!"

brOTP- Sagara! In my mind Meu eats lunches at Little Berry(is eating cake for lunch entirely healthy? Probably not. But Meu thinks she especially needs a little treat today to help with her luck. In fact she thinks that everyday. Though there probably are a couple of regular food options, and it's right next door anyways) and Sagara acts as a Witch's Apprentice(tm) sometimes when she isn't at work, which basically just means sweeping floors and rearranging things but she also gets to wear a cape and a cool hat so she pretends it's serious magic business. They match each other's energies well and Meu also watches magical girl anime so it works out. Meu lets her hold DND sessions at Star Brink because she likes the vibe there.

OTP- Meru!

nOTP- [see Mary's]

random headcanon- Has a black cat. That she found in a trash can and just decided to keep. Leaves it at home when she can because it keeps trying to knock over her trinkets, and especially has it out for her crystal ball.

unpopular opinion- If she hasn't been roped into a pyramid scheme yet she will be

song i associate with them- No Reason/ Why Must We Tell Them Why

favorite picture of them-

#All these characters have so little official art. I'mso sad #pieceofcake.txt #cakeasks #ch4 has my favorite cast but ch1 did the best job at actually trying to develop its side characters #I complain about Mary's design being hard to draw but in my defense so did Miwashiba #I wouldn't last 5 minutes as a g/enshin fanartist

[heybaetae]

I hope this doesn't sound rude because I don't want to sound rude: I'm really glad people on tumblr are more open-minded and 'normal' about being in a fandom or multiple fandoms. I see so much hate and toxicity on twitter, and I'm sure it happens on tumblr too but it kind of gets lost here (at least to me). And among the people I follow, nobody will bitch about someone being a multi or start fanwars to then blame someone for not supporting X artist enough. I'm sure there are people like that here too... But I feel like in general tumblr is more chill at least that's what I experienced in fandoms (bts is my first kpop fandom though).

this isn’t rude! it’s refreshing to hear someone point it out without being so harsh, actually. last week when a lot of new people joined this site, i immediately started seeing tweets from people already talking shit about the way people navigate their bts fandom experience on this site in comparison to twitter. it did not take long for people to notice that some of the ridiculous crap that people try to cancel or harass each other over on that app daily simply doesn’t occur on here because this is a blogging website, not a social media app, contrary to popular belief. tumblr has been around for years and has been such a massive part of fandom culture since long before stan twitter started growing more. and while, of course, no platform is completely devoid of toxicity and this site is quite notorious for its misuse of the anonymous option…the abuse you can experience on twitter just for breathing is unmatched. these websites were designed for different uses and some people like myself have literally grown up on here, spent time in several fandoms, and shared so much of their life and creativity on here. so one would be hard pressed to think they can join this site for the first time in 2022 and think they’re gonna manipulate the way people use it up to their twitter standards. it’s just not gonna work. this site has been dying for a long time and i think the communities left have managed to build a comfortable space for themselves with a lot less discourse or drama and people wanna keep it that way. it’s not “being boring” or having a superiority complex like i’ve seen people call it. it’s just that people from other platforms are gonna have to relearn the fact that fandom (in general) is much bigger than just one app and people engage with it very differently across many platforms. it doesn’t make anyone lesser of a fan or more superior than anyone else. it is possible to have nuanced conversations, for critique to be subjective instead of a personal attack (most of the time), and just because people on here aren’t constantly talking about things like voting or streaming…it doesn’t mean they aren’t doing it. stan twitter has made it very difficult to enjoy being a fan sometimes. it’s not treated like a job here. it’s just fun and good vibes as long as you curate your dashboard to your liking and do what YOU want, not what everyone else tells you to do. keep it healthy.

#ask

[benefits1986]

MatchaME’s First Voyage

The more time you spend outside, the more time you’re able to look at all sides.

2023. I’ve always been a fan of foldies. The term itself speaks to me: oldie with an F. LOL. As I am on my way to spend more and more time outside Manila, my MatchaME, my matcha folding bike is an investment.  May 2, 2023. My Tito Taurus’ birthday and MatchaME’s first voyage in my ina’s sleepy town somewhere in the South. Of course, I had first fold jitters and booboos. As I unfold this beauty, I am amazed about how well made she really is. Unapologetic. Tiny but mighty. Streamlined.  Dad egged me to get either a Trek or a Bianchi gravel bike because honestly these two are really strong challengers. Bianchi is a top contender because I like cyan and I like the letter B; plus the reviews are really, really buttery. I actually interacted with sellers already but, my heart belongs to the other B, baby! (May foldie ba Bianchi? Parang ‘di bagay though so pass.) Both are not budging in terms of the value for money and most especially, the curation I am slowly building up. Not about being fancy, but, why a foldie?  I am 5 ft. 2 in. and my arms are longer compared to my legs.  I travel and want to travel more both here, there and everywhere.  I try my best to fit a bike session in each trip.  I still am not confident to go back to driving. I am a TINY HOUSE bitch forever.  I am keeping up with city life and the life outside the city.  I am on my way to spend more time around Tagaytay very soon.  I don’t like fast bikes to be honest.  I don’t like upgrading bikes.  I don’t know a lot about fixing bikes.  I have trust issues hence I don’t like getting my bike fixed.  I have “space invaders” issues, too. I feel like my bike is an extension of my being and doing, hence, I don’t want other people to lambast my bike and me, too. (Tindi ko noh? Pati bike, hindi pinatawad.)  I like chill rides that are about 50KM at the minimum.  I dress up and dress down, so a foldie does well with ANY look and vibe.  I don’t mind running errands with a bike so as long as there’s not much smoke and not much distractions on the road.  I don’t want bikes that are placed in racks.  I don’t want bikes to get in the way and my way, too.  I want a bike that I can conveniently bring with me wherever I go, if possible.  I really have a thing for biking, walking, reading, writing in places that have ambient lights and sounds.  Ergo, a foldie is me.  My Tito is one of my fallen Twin Taurus Towers. The other is my mom whose birthday is coming up very soon. Really not sure if I intended to find a significant date for MatchaME’s first voyage but a lot has been happening in between sleeping less and eating less, too. To be honest, I bike because I need to convince my system to focus on more sleep and eating better. So far, I’ve been making a progress and would need to keep at it because I’m still on the cusp of a spiral or a sparkle.  Taurus szn, you shithead. I hope that MatchaME’s voyages would enable me to make sense of your inescapable entrance and exit. It’s not easy as I am still avoiding my emotions since February of this year. LOL. However, there are many times when I allow myself to feel the cut, the shiver, the pierce, the empty, the choke, the fail, and many more forms of vulnerability to come through the fortress I have built for the past decades.  What’s curious though is that through each brushes and strokes of, with and for vulnerability, I am also finding the calm. This 2023 chaos is indeed life-altering. Maybe, just maybe, this time around, I’d be able to go beyond connecting the dots backward. May this 2023 be the pivot that I’ve been waiting for as I make sense of all shit and wins in my life.  MatchaME’s first voyage was all about testing its power and its limits, too. No gear shifted as I traversed some kind of hilly and flat roads. No fancy tricks, just hyperfocus on what I can do with what LITTLE I have. So far, she’s giving. So far, she’s making my hidden dark heart and soul vibing. LOL. So far, I think we’re a really good match that had to wait. She ain’t easy to get as I’ve been dreaming about her since 2015. And so far, the wait is worth it. Super worth it.  Some lessons I got in her first voyage are:  1 Though you can’t fear the mountain when you don’t know its steepness, truth is, when you’re on you’re way up, you need to know how to make it without the tukod  2 Just in case you come across a tukod on your way up the mountain, it’s totally fine because you are human  3 People who belittle tiny packages do not matter. Surprise them and make them go wild as you make your way to the top no matter how slow you go 4 When people look down on your foldie, smile and tell them you got this and they ought to mind their own shit poetically with pektus (tuhuran mo ng very light ng tumigil)  5 You really need to learn how to befriend the break as you go from the top to the bottom 

6 Keep your eye peeled for stories that are worthwhile, always 

7 Stop chasing the distance. Enjoy the journey. Go for a chill ride.  8 The main road is definitely a good one, but the secret streets make any ride richer and fuller with their sudden uphill and surprising downhill  9 Too much wind, sun and rain are constants. Learn how to make it through them 

10 A bike is a tool, a weapon, and a companion  11 Water and coffee and polvoron might be my go-to for pitstops 

12 Learn how to check your bike before and after you ride (lagot ako sa nanay ko sa part na ‘to because this bitch can’t even pump air or do a basic bike check. Gawin natin ‘yan this 2023.)  Thank u, universe for the long wait for MatchaME’s first voyage. Let’s keep her trips, her detours, her dead ends and her stories coming, shall we? 

[kittydemon9000]

You've got any SPBNR headcannons for S!Kai(or anyone from the fanfic)?

yeyeyeyeyyeye and some may or may not be included, I’m not 100% sure. Also also this is going to be only with the Movie characters + S!Kai(Smith)

Smith can play the guitar. No real reason why he just gives that vibe

All the Movie ninja each play an instrument and on rough days they play together but no one other than their parents know

Kai on Drums, Zane on the synthesizer, Jay on keyboard, Nya on electric guitar, Lloyd sings, and Cole fills in whatever other instrument they need

Jay has really bad anxiety but it’s gotten a bit better since he made friends with the others and started Ninjaing

Nya cannot drive a car to save her life and surprised everyone with how she handles her motorcycle

Smith is really good at history. Who would’ve guessed that fighting literal legends would drill their information into your head i may or may not be writing a smol one shot for this one

Zane gets super insecure about his robot status and overcompensates a ton, which is the reasoning for his peppy attitude. To make himself feel better he’ll also do things like purposefully sing off key or go to a computer or phone to use the internet. He once tried to download a virus to simulate getting sick but that didn’t go well and his friends and dad made him swear to never do that again

Jay actually knows who his real dad is and the situation this time around is that Libber died in childbirth and Gordon wasn’t around very often because of his job and he didn’t want to just leave Jay with nannies so he left Jay with Ed and Edna, who knew Libber somehow. He still visits as often as he can and his relationship with Jay is pretty good

Gordon is also pretty good natured with Lloyd but he can’t say anything too public because that would absolutely destroy his career(at Jay and Lloyd’s insistence, not his own)

Like I’ve shown, Ray and Maya aren’t kidnapped, they’re just really busy and can’t be home much so the twins pretty much raised eachother. As for Krux and Acronix, they are actually just a pair of old museum curators. They are aware of their powers but don’t use them much and are currently looking for someone to pass them onto since neither had kids 

This is less of a headcanon more of a planning thing, but Morro is a lot more chill here too. He might become a vigilante, I’m not sure, but he isn’t gunning for the role of green ninja

#Ninjago #Same People But Not Really #spbnr #the lego ninjago movie #tlnm #headcanons #kai #kai smith #zane #zane julien #cole #cole brookstone #jay #jay walker #nya #nya smith #lloyd #lloyd garmadon

[tmmyhug]

not to be like, neg, but i’m a little

how do i put this lightly

wary of the incoming wave of mcyttwt users cause tumblrs (at least this community) has been (for the most part) pretty drama free but i’m nervous it’s starting to slip away.

i am concerned 😕👍

i’m literally trying my hardest not to sound like a gatekeeper or like, low iq, but i really hope you get what i actually mean here.

also can you tell i interrupt myself a lot whenever i talk abt shit

mmm no that’s valid!! I totally get the feeling. and I interrupt myself too it’s why my posts are so rambly and long 😭 but here’s some things that may assuage your concerns!

one: mcytblr isn’t perfect. far from it. we feel like we are because we’re really good at curating our experiences to shut out what we don’t vibe with, and we act like it because we all love laughing at mcytwt since they’re so much worse comparatively. but if you dig, there’s crap. (have y’all found the underground enderbees community yet? they’re very well hidden. truthers too) discourse is not a new thing and if/when it comes we’ll deal with it the way we always have.

two: this has already happened, more or less. idk if you were here six months ago, but any mcytblr oldies from last fall will complain that this place is a mess and everything was so much more chill then. it wasn’t; it was just smaller. and as more people roll up to the party, of course things get louder and more chaotic. but as much as we may wanna gripe, it’s been over six months since then, and no one’s on fire yet :)

three: twitter’s, like, already here? the whole migration bit happened a few weeks ago. and based on what I saw on my dash + in my new followers, it’s mostly artists and brand new empty blogs by shy people. twitter coming to tumblr is less a meteor landing and more an organic stream of cultural assimilation, sometimes a rush, sometimes a trickle. and people from twitter are looking to escape toxicity - they’re not trying to bring it with them. that’s why we call them refugees hahaha.

four: this place is very solid and heavily guarded. it’s an established community. we know the big blogs and the groups of mutuals and familiar names in everyone’s notes and inside jokes and old discourse. and making fun of twitter also makes us hypervigilant for nonsense in our own circles. (sorry I’m speaking for everyone here, disclaimer - this is just what I’ve observed and not a holistic summary) remember when all the orientation posts and tumblr guides were going around? we have a system, we have (for lack of a better word) leaders. if there is some sudden influx of twitter kids who start stirring up drama, we won’t succumb easily.

five: tumblr is.. way more private and way more conversation friendly than twitter. it’s a lot harder to start crap here. you’re not limited to 280 characters or constantly bombarded by a UI and algorithm that wants you to act on your emotional impulses so you engage as much as possible. tumblr is the empty basement at a party - if you come in here screaming and waving drinks you’ll get shushed and shoved back out because the folks here just want to talk without having to shout or play ping pong or lie on the floor and nurse the headaches you gave us. I can’t tell if that analogy makes sense but hopefully it communicated something pfff

okay cutting myself off here because this turned into another episode of Vee Talks A Lot. but don’t worry too much about it! we’re stronger than you might think. hope this helps :)

#ask #furiouspockettoad #vee rambles #mcytblr #tumblrientation #twitter

[slightlyrebelliouswriter23]

Hi Em✨

I absolutely love your writing and your posts and I’ve been following you for a while now💕

I’m not sure about you but I feel quite uneasy/conflicted with the current rhetoric on book tok. I understand people not liking certain books but it’s been hard to see people slander books and the people that like those books/characters/stories,etc. I get that criticism is needed for certain themes or values that appear in books but reading is loosing some of its escapism for me:(

Reading in context (fictionally and in the real world) is always needed but sometimes I just like a book because of the characters or it’s story and not necessarily that it checks all the boxes for being perfect.

Tbh, as much as I love certain books, some of them have become tainted for me and I genuinely wish I didn’t I read other people’s opinions on them.

Book tok is great for reccs but I can’t even filter it out of my feed at this point. I kinda wish toxic fandoms also looked inwardly because as much fun it is to engage with fans and people that are apart of that fandom, some people take it way too far such as sending hateful anons to creators (such as you🥺) or calling books trash when they’ve been super influential or important to people.

I guess my little rant is over but I was wondering if you had any opinions on this or have any sort of guidance. Is there a place I could get reccs or how can avoid all of this rhetoric that can affect my view of a book.”?

Stay safe and have a good day✨💐

hi there, nonnie! thank you so much for the kind words, i really appreciate you 🥺❤️❤️

first off, i want to say that i 100% understand this. i never really got into booktok specifically because i had a feeling it was basically going to be book twitter 2.0 where everyone is just ripping into each other constantly. i don't like being influenced by other people's opinions either, and the drama that seems to be obligatory baggage for most fandoms these days (with the exception of TFOTA, cos for some reason we are extraordinarily chill) just isn't for me.

it is, of course, essential that we continue to think critically when it comes to media. it's the only way we can affect change in a positive direction. but this also must be balanced with a willingness to be humble with our opinions, understand that they are just opinions, and accept that everyone consumes media for different reasons.

this also means we'll all hold different boundaries about what we're willing to consume, and where we draw the line for things we won't consume. granted, books might be the mirror through which we see life reflected, but they are not reality itself. to a certain extent, fiction is fiction. and different boundaries does not a bad person make.

speaking of drawing lines, i'm going to direct you to this post by @bookofmirth , which is mainly about ACOTAR/SJM/Palestine but some of what they have to say there is very applicable to this topic, and eloquently put:

"Some people can separate art from artist. Some can't. It's up to all of us as individuals to draw that line where we are comfortable."

i agree with this statement wholeheartedly. it is not up to randomgal4549 on tiktok/twitter to decide what eye should or should not read. the unmitigated gall of anyone to think their opinion should dictate other people's choices is highly presumptuous and quite frankly exhausting.

apart from maybe the bible/other religious texts, what a person reads is not a reflection of who they are or what beliefs they hold. we need to learn not to conflate the two, and start regarding each other once more as humans with complex thoughts and feelings, capable of introspection and growth, instead of little icons on our phone screens with immovable and absolute beliefs.

so that's my opinion on that. my main advice to you would be KEEP THINGS ORGANISED. what i mean by that is this:

curate your social media experience! it is YOUR responsibility as an owner of any social media account (including tumblr) to customise your space to fit YOUR needs. if you don't like someone's opinion/content? unfollow. if someone is rude/you don't like their vibe? block. if you find the things someone shares to their socials offensive? unfriend. this is setting boundaries, and the people who take any of these things as a personal offence are the exact people you want to keep a healthy distance away from. you decide who you follow and what you see on your dash. be protective of your space and who you allow to have access to your energy.

keep personal feelings separate from the public! i honestly can't stress this point enough. if you feel the need to rant about something that irks you about a specific book/author/person's opinion, keep these discussions in the DMs with a trusted circle of friends. it is psychologically proven that when someone feels attacked, they will double down on their og opinion, no matter if they realise they're wrong. thus, projecting high-strung emotions into public spaces such as twitter, while understandable in some cases, will only serve to further polarise people and hurt the very movement you're likely trying to bolster. blow off steam with people you can entrust with your emotions. NOT strangers on the internet.

designate time to learning about issues that are important to you! i strongly advise against turning to any fictional medium for moral lessons or life advice. if you can dedicate some time outside of your escapism to inform yourself about important subjects through educational resources that are specifically designed to Teach/Impart Knowledge, instead of giving an ounce of thought to Intrinsically Biased Information Received Second Hand, i promise you you'll feel a whole lot less obligated to other people's opinions.

if you're unsure about a particular book/author, consider borrowing from your local library, purchasing the book second hand, or finding an ePub copy.

for recs, consider booktube. i know it's probably seen as a bit old school by now, but the great thing about youtube is that you're not randomly/unexpectedly subjected to other people's shit opinions like on other social platforms. you have to click a link to watch the video, which gives you more autonomy in regards to what opinions you consume. my personal favourite youtuber is Khadija Mbowe. she's not a booktuber, per se, but her content focuses on in-depth critical analysis of media/society through the lense of WOC (specifically Black women), and i find her channel compelling as well as informative.

goodreads is also a great place to find book recs without the constant influx of opinions. if you can find yourself a circle of trusted friends to follow on there, you can't go wrong. my goodreads is linked in my bio under "connect" and you're welcome to follow me there. or not! it's your choice.

–Em 🖤🗡

#this is incredibly long i'm so sorry 🙈 #on mobile so i can't add a cut #discoursey #like i realise it's probably gotten worse recently with the pandemic and more screen time #but i honestly wouldn't touch most fandoms with a 12 foot pole #it's too messy for me #of course i still read and enjoy books that have fandoms. i just don't get involved #TFOTA is my one exception and even we have our days lmao #you have to do what's healthy for you. and if that means leaving tiktok/twitter altogether? DO IT. you won't regret it i promise #i quit twitter facebook and instagram in 2018 and it's the best decision i ever made #i love you nonnie i hope this helped 🥺❤️ #thanks for the ask!! 💜 #asked and answered #em answers #nonnie #long post

[systemvault]

Pinned Post

DNI: under 18s (body age), TERFs, transmeds, and anyone using ‘sysmed’ to describe DID/OSDD systems unironically.

I use the block button liberally, as I’d like to carefully curate who I interact with on this blog for my own mental health.

General Info

DID/OSDD system with no collective name. Some alters are fairly differentiated from the host, some are more like fragments.

The body and host (🍵) are 25+, nonbinary, and use they/them pronouns as a catchall. I think of myself less as a collection of multiple people and more as one severely traumatised person who had to split off in many directions.

I don't really vibe with most online system culture and have a deep dislike for some of the ways in which DID/OSDD is being treated as analogous to being trans/nonbinary, or treated as a fun unique disorder where you just have lots of friends in your head or whatever else. 

I often find that my experience resonates more with people who have OSDD than DID, or who are questioning their experiences, despite having the amnesia required for DID. People with OSDD are more than welcome here. I know how alienating wider DID spaces can be.

Stance on Syscourse

Not syscourse-free, though I stick to reblogging posts that are focused on correcting misinformation rather than calling out or harassing people. I do not believe that endogenic plurals are systems, or that they should be using the medical terminology of people with DID. Generally speaking I think most endogenics are more likely to be people with OSDD/DID who have been deeply misinformed or mistaken about the nature of what they're experiencing.

I recognise that many people who identify as endogenic systems will find that invalidating; if you're endogenic and reading this, I encourage you to read up on DID/OSDD and ask yourself if you experience the symptoms of it - not just plurality, which isn't exclusive to DID/OSDD in of itself, but dissociation and amnesia too. I also encourage you to keep in mind that while DID/OSDD is caused by early childhood trauma, that does NOT mean that you have to remember having alters as a child. This disorder is covert; it hides itself by design, especially when you're younger and less able to reflect on your own behaviour and experiences.

I've seen many endogenics claim that while they have childhood trauma, that's not what formed their systems - but that's not how it works. Your system may not form in childhood in a way you can now recognise, but the inability to integrate your personality into one cohesive whole did form in childhood. That's what makes systems possible.

Again: plurality itself isn't unique to DID/OSDD, but systems of alters are.

I generally try to avoid interacting with endogenic and other non-traumagenic plurals where possible on this blog, but respectful discussion between endogenics and DID/OSDD systems is something I think is important. I wouldn't refer to myself as "anti-endo" so much as like... I would rather that this was a space where I only interacted with other systems rather than plurals as a whole.

While I'm open to respectful chatting with endogenics here (and I'm always chill with them outside of Tumblr/Twitter tbh), anyone who uses the word 'sysmed' gets blocked immediately. It's horrific, as a trans person, to see people comparing us to transmedicalists. There are a lot of resources out there on why that isn't even a remotely accurate assessment and I encourage anyone using that word to look into that. Traumagenics are not oppressing anyone when they point out that their trauma disorder comes with more than just a feeling of being multiple people, that it requires early childhood trauma in order to exist, or that systems deserve their own spaces that don’t overlap with non-traumagenic plurals.

All of this said, people who actively harass endogenic blogs who are minding their own business and staying in their own spaces are not welcomed here. I think minding our own business is generally just a good way to behave online, honestly.

#pinned post #osdd system #🍵.txt

[path-of-my-childhood]

9 Taylor Swift Moments That Didn’t Fit in Our Cover Story

By: Brian Hiatt for The Rolling Stone Magazine Date: September 30th 2019

Taylor Swift had a lot to say in our recent cover story (on newsstands now), tracing her eventful path to Lover, her political views and many other topics in a lengthy, revealing interview. There was even more to the caffeine-fueled conversation, which Swift made it through on four hours of sleep after staying up greeting fans at her parents’ Nashville house. Here are some highlights:

On releasing “The Archer” after “Me” and “You Need to Calm Down”: That’s sort of the world in which a lot of the album lives. It’s weird, because in pop, I love hooks and bop and catchy melodies so much. And I also love writing the songs you need to ugly cry to. So I really enjoy “You Need to Calm Down” and the brattiness of “damn, it’s 7 a.m.,” and then the next song being like, this is how I feel about myself in my lowest moments… It was unexpected when people liked “The Archer” seemingly sort of unanimously, I was like, What? This doesn’t happen to me. This almost feels like foreign and strange.

On Lover‘s place in her catalog: Reputation was so far from what I usually do. And Lover feels like a return to the fundamental songwriting pillars that I usually build my house on. It’s really honest; it’s not me playing a character. It’s really just how I feel, undistilled. And there are a lot of very personal admissions in it. And also, I love a metaphor. I love building on the metaphor for a very long time. You know, the whole of Reputation was just a metaphor, but this is a very personal record. So that’s been really fun.

Writing the title track of Lover: I was sitting up at the piano up in my loft, and I had the chorus. It just kind of happened immediately. It was one of those ones that I wrote very very, very quickly. And I was working out the cadence of the first verse and it just sort of fell together. But then I took some time to write the bridge because I wanted to really level up with that bridge. That one would for me be less of a ranting bridge and more of a story-time fable type bridge. Sometimes I like to imagine a bridge as like a sort of fairy-tale lullaby fable expanding upon a song that has been not as detailed until that point. “Can I go where you go/ Can we always be this close forever and ever”  is less detail then when you go to the bridge and you realize like, oh, it just got really personal in the bridge. It expands on it all.

Writing “Paper Rings” We just were messing around, just wanting to make something really, really fun. And I had all these lyrics about all these funny memories of how something can start off in a really quirky way and surprise you. Like how it says, “I hate accidents, except when we went from friends to this.” So I wanted to show the quirkiness of a relationship and how it’s like, wow, this really fell together in really interesting, funny, playful, cute pieces. And now it’s something we’re both really stoked happened exactly the way it did.

On her creative burst circa 2016: I was writing constantly. And a lot of the things I was writing ended up being songs for Reputation. So after 1989, I didn’t write really anything. After I made 1989 and put it out, did all the promo stuff, went on tour... The Grammys happen, which is like this unbelievable blitz of excitement, followed by me going, “Oh my god, what am I going to make next?” I had no idea what to make next, because I was so proud. 1989 — I’m still so, so deeply proud of that record. But I was like, where do we go from here? I have no idea what comes after this. And so, when my life took a very dramatic shift, all of a sudden I knew what to make next — which is a strange dichotomy to feel like, ‘whoa, this is all really weird, twisted, dark and dramatic, but I can’t stop writing.’

I think I would have made Reputation whether or not I actually put out the album or ever made another album again. That album was a real process of catharsis, and I thought I experienced catharsis before, but I’d never had until that album, because it was creating this strange defense mechanism. And, I’d never really done that in that exact way before. The only way I’d done it in the past, was with “Blank Space,” which I wrote specifically about criticisms I had received for supposedly dating too many people in my twenties. I took that template of, OK, this is what you’re all saying about me. Let me just write from this character for a second.

On the Reputation Tour: That’s just such a fun album, Reputation. I’m so proud of how that whole process was because I’d never had an album that made more sense to people after they came to the concert. Literally people would be like, “I came to the show and now I completely love the record.” Now I get the record. Whereas before with 1989, I felt like it was such a great listen but it was harder to portray it live because when you when you see it live, you’re like, “Oh, I love that song and now she’s performing it live.” But it never had songs that came alive live.

With Reputation, I wanted to keep my head down, not say anything, but work harder than I ever worked. It was really motivational for me to just have the stadium tour to prepare for and prove myself almost. My career was in a weird spot, but still have that kind of ignite something in you to work harder, to practice longer, to think of bigger, better concepts for the live show. I was thinking, if anything can pull me out of this weird disillusionment I have with the way that things have gone in my career that I was feeling back then, I knew it would be playing live. If I could be proud of the live show and if I could feel that connection with fans, that would remind me of why I love this.

On the challenges of choreography: It’s really hard for me to memorize choreography. Dancers keep count, but I can’t memorize choreography that way. So I have to assign movement to an exact lyric. Everything in my brain has to be assigned to a lyric. Because I have to learn choreography in a way that reverts back to songwriting. My vibe is I have to rehearse so, so many times for so long that I can do the choreography without thinking about it. Because when I’m thinking about choreography, my face says it. You can see it in my eyes. There’s a fear and, like, a deadness to my eyes if I’m trying to remember choreography.

On being less caught up in chart battles: I’m just a little more chill about stuff like that now. Obviously, you want to do well, and you want to do things that people like and you want people not to make fun of you for that. A lot of the pressure that I feel in my career is just the fact that I’m compared to everything I’ve ever accomplished in the past and also new artists. I can’t live in that pressure cooker. Charts — I truly, truly do not understand how they work anymore. My friend Ed [Sheeran] is such a chart monger. He’s obsessed with how it works and the math of it. I have no idea what goes on with the math with it now, it used to be so easy. I don’t even get how, people get a big release week, because they sold T-shirts, or they sold concert tickets with their albums. It’s just very confusing. But I was stoked about the “ME!” music video getting that many YouTube views. I was like, well, that’s like, that’s something to write home about.

On the longevity of songs: I think it often takes a lot of time for people to understand how they feel about music. And I know that now because there’s a song on Red called “All Too Well” that I’m really, really proud of, and it took people about three years to note that that was one of the best songs. I didn’t see that starting to pop up when people would talk about my music until about two or three years after the album had its moment. So one thing that’s actually really comforting about music — and I know that people consume at a crazy speed now — but I think that things settle for people after a long period of time. My music kind of assigns itself to maybe a moment in somebody’s life; that’s the way that my fans usually describe it. So when you’re dealing in memory curation in a way, if they have memories that include one of my songs, they go and they live their lives and those memories become further in the past and more nostalgic to them, and the music becomes more important to them.

#this is cool #Rolling Stone magazine #is really feeding us well =) #taylor swift #interview #lover era #Brian Hiatt

[klariwitch]

You’ll Love Me Again

No one ever really mentioned all the symptoms that comes with heartbreak. For one, your heart quite literally hurt. It burned. Not in the sorts that felt like heart burn, but more so like it was falling. The feeling of weightlessness. Yet, at the same time you felt as heavy as can be. From there its just full on misery. Y’know how people will say they feel like they just got hit by a truck? Yeah. Yeah its that.

“I’m uh, how do i put this without you going all vigilante mode on me? I’m into your sister,” Kon was grinning stupidly now.

Oh!

oh.

Tim felt his heart sink and then the nausea began to settle in.

“My? My what?” Tim shook his head in disbelief. Kon didn’t like him. He liked-

“Cass. Kon likes Cass, Steph,”

“Yknow when I see him next, you best believe I’m bringing that kryptonite ring, I’m gonna-“

“I feel sick to my fucking stomach,” the Robin sobbed over the phone. 

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The answering voice sighed. She still felt the shock of Tim crying on the phone with her, about a boy of all things. And, although the she wanted to slap the living shit out of the both of them, she also knew it was best to be calm and to let him cry on. “I know, I feel you Timmy, been there, done that,” she gave the phone a sad smile.

“I can’t even comprehend how that’s a thing. Seriously, Steph, how?!” His eyes seemed to bulge, one step closer to completely freaking out. He laid back on his bed, the phone still close to pressing against his ear, and salted tears running down his reddened cheeks.

He was a bat. A detective. Trained by old comics and the world’s greatest himself, batman. So, how on earth was he feeling so sunk by all these emotions? Why so much all this once? How was he to cry over the phone to Stephanie Brown over not just a boy, but the superboy. And, not just because he didn’t like him back—no, that wasn’t even able to be gotten out—but because he planned to ask out Tim’s own sister.

“Could my life really get anymore amusing, Steph? This is fucking humiliating,”

“Tim, I’m seriously so sorry this just all around sucks. Were you really planning on telling him, though?” The voice questioned over the device.

“Yes,” the boy cringed, “ I had a whole speech planned out to tell him tonight. Talk about bad timing,” his breath slowed. Without all the tears now, he felt tired. So completely drained for ever believing his best friend would ever see him much more than just that. Best friends.

“Why don’t you just spend some time away from him? Not exactly to cut off all contact, but more so just hanging out less? Maybe start making up excuses like Bruce needs you working on a case more, or that your parents have been home?” She suggested.

Actually, it wasn’t the worst idea, either. Kon would be okay with him being busy, and in the meantime he would take that step back and convince himself Kon wasn’t really the one.

“You’re right,”

“I am, aren’t I? Y’know it actually feels really nice to hear you say that for once, maybe just once more?” The girl pressed playfully.

He scoffed. “Yeah wouldn’t you like that?” The Robins teased one another, after all she could always make him feel better. “Alright, I think I have to call it a night. I’m gonna go throw up and then to bed.” He wasn’t lying, either. For whatever reason after speaking to Conner his head hurt like hell and his stomach carried what felt like a flu virus.

“Goodnight, Tim,”

“Night, Steph,”

               *****

“Well,”

“Well?”

“It’s been about a month,”

“Tim,”

“I think I’m actually okay this time. I don’t feel so achey around him anymore! I told you we met up after patrol tonight!” The boy exclaimed over the line, a smile captured on his lips.

“Okay, so, it went alright, then?” Steph asked. She cringed a bit. No way his feelings where just poof gone.

“Steph, it went great,” assured Tim. “I think we plan on doing the same thing tomorrow...it just nice to have my best friend back, yknow?”

“Tim, it’s really okay if you still need time, you know that, right?”

“Steph. I promise. I’m okay, my feelings for Kon are completely gone,”

*****

“You’re here on time” the boy in front of him called. A small chuckle arose, “did bats let you off early?”

“Yes, actually, how’d you know?” Tim smiled. He sat down right beside him on the edge of the rooftop. Ironically, sitting on top of a fifteen story building, next to a superhuman somehow managed to be the spot he always felt the safest. He assumed, it was all about the trust. All about a matter of not having to worry that Kon might decide to push him overboard unexpectedly, or even if the building suddenly gave out. The only fault there was, why did he still have that trust for him? Admittedly, Kon had never exactly tried to send him soaring off a rooftop, but wasn’t heart break a close equivalent?

“Tim?” The familiar hand waved in his face. Tim carefully swatted it away.

“What?”

“I asked you how your day was?”

“Oh,” Tim nodded. He even looked down as if his fingers might curate him the perfect move. Spoiler alert: they did not. “It was…well, I mean kind of slow? Patrol and all that,” the last bit came out as a mutter. Why was he there, again? Honestly, he couldn’t even look at him now. He had thought he was fine, really he did, but what exactly did fine mean? Ignorance, in this case.

The only problem was, he just couldn’t let go. In movies and literature it was always so much easier, because it just always works out for them. They have a promised happy ending. For Tim, none of that was a guarantee.

It was like..insurance. insurance that he did not have. Because, even when the character didn’t end up with their love, they still found something great—like a new person or happiness. And now, all happiness was looking like without Kon was a cold bottle of chardonnay stolen from his mother’s wine cabinet.

“Are you okay?” Kon asked then. His face carried worry and all kinds of fear.

Shit

shit

‘Don’t make me lie to you’ The shorter boy thought. He didn’t want to, it honestly wasn’t something he could find the energy for anymore. “I, uh,” he felt his phone vibrate under his thigh. He didn’t answer it, it would only be Steph wanting to know what was happening.

“What is it, Rob? Spit it out,” the meta pushed, a cheerful smile forming his face.

“I…don’t think I can?” Answered Tim.

“Huh, well, why not? Its okay, you know you can tell me anything, right?”

The raven haired boy just stared at him, mouth split open stupidly. “Right! Right. Yes, I know that,” he nodded.

“So?”

“Right…” he bit his lip till blood arose and the feeling of confidence came beside it. “Could I, show you, instead?” He requested.

“Sure? I mean, yeah. Of course you can, anything that helps,” Kon nodded willingly.  

Was he really going to do that? Where was some sort of memory wiper when you needed it? He’d do anything to redo the last ten minutes.

He sighed. Was he really about to do this? In all fairness, he had been wanting to for some time. Okay, he’d do it. Okay. Maybe not? “Y’know what?” Tim turned. they were closer than he had thought they were. No going back now, right? He laughed sickly, “fuck it.” Evenly, his face melted to a smile as he leaned him, pressing his lips ever so gently against Kon’s.

He couldn’t believe it. He was kissing Kon. His best friend. The boy who unknowingly broke his heart just months ago. This was...unbelievable. It always seemed like it was so incredibly out of reach and get here he was now, kissing him. Did that mean Kon really did like-

“Woah,” and just like that he was pushed away. He’d have to fight through the tears at an arms length distance now. “Hey, sorry, Tim I’m flattered, really, it’s just-“

“Okay, look, I probably should have waited, I just, I don’t know? Ever since you were talking about Cass I just couldn’t get you off my mind, and that’s why I stayed away for so long. Look, most people can just watch, too Kon. Most can just love from afar and wait. Im sorry, but I can’t do that. Im not that person, okay? I’m selfish. So selfish. I hate that I am and i’m sorry, but I can’t just watch, okay? I can’t,” Tim heaved a breath. He wanted to get it all out so bad and now he had spoiled the vibe. “Im sorry to burst your perfect little bubble, I just fucking can’t. Now I see it was a mistake too, because i thought you liked me back. I really did,” his lip bled. Biting too hard again? “You just don’t get it, okay? We’re supposed to be together. Everyone thinks so. We’re best friends, Kon. We’re the beautiful love story. Look, I’ve been telling myself that forever, and you’re just supposed to feel the same,” he shrugged. Just as if it was no big deal.

Kon groaned. He considered for a moment to grab ok to his hands but for obvious reasons that wasn’t exactly appropriate. “Tim. Hey, you don’t have to apologize. Im glad you told me. To be honest, I kind of like you too,”

“Wait, really?” Tim smiled, searching the meta’s face for any truth.

“What? Are you even listening to me? Tim, I’m sorry but I can’t be apart of your little fantasy..” It was clear it pained his friend to say al this. “We’re not some sort of destined couple or whatever you think we are. It just doesn’t work that way, okay?”

Oh. So, not as he expected.

Right

“Well, why not?” The Robin urged, hurt growing in his blue eyes.

“I’m dating Cass,” breathed Kon. “Look, we were going to tell you tomorrow but then all of this happened...I’m sorry, I should have told you,”

Ouch. Fuck. Again?

“Right,” was all he could mutter. “I’m uh. I’m sorry, Kon,” he had to leave. Had to get out of there fire his eyelids broke like dams and he had to muffle his own screams. “I think I’m going to head out, actually..goodnight, Kon,” Tim sighed. He walked off then, taking deep breaths to help ignore the boy calling his name behind him. He could catch him if he wanted to. Easily. Obviously he didn’t want to. Kon loved Cass...not Tim.

****

“I kissed him,”

“You what?!” The voice over the phone sounded livid.

“Yeah, yeah I know stupid, right?” Tim sighed. He sat on his bed, holding a chilled glass of chardonnay, just as he had promised himself.

“Im guessing it didn’t go so well?”

He could hear her cringe over the phone. Tim didn’t respond. Instead, he simply sipped his drink: dry. This one was eruopean as were most of the others, rolled in oak barrels and some sort of fruit. It was like drinking Kon’s scent. Whatever cheap cologne he decided to douce himself in every morning some how crawled its way into his head to torture him. He set the glass down.

“Im sorry, Tim, you really-”

“Its okay, Steph, really,” insisted Tim, having cut her off.

“Is it?” The girl asked genuinely.

“Yes. I’ve decided I cannot change it, so yes, its fine,”

“Wow. Okay. Thats, that’s actually very mature of you,”

The robin nodded, although obviously not visible.

“Goodnight, Steph,” he called into the phone.

“Goodnight, Tim,” she huffed back, right before leaving him in inconsiderable silence.

The boy picked up the wine glass again. He stared deeply into the few bubbled and cringed with the inhale of smoke and aged French oak.

“You’re really messing with my mind, huh, Conner Kent?”

Tim glanced around. His room was gloomy. sad. Dimmed. He wished for Kon to come light it up a bit, yet he didn’t. They’d be apart for now, but he’d turn around eventually. He would get his fantasy.

#timkon #kon el #Tim Drake #kontim #Stephanie Brown #cassandra cain #Red Robin #Superboy #timkon ao3 feed #dunneltag879 #ao3 #timkon ao3

[justanotherpersonsuniverse]

BRO WHAT WOULD THEIR POKEMON TEAM LOOK LIKE

I’ll do the whole class- ’ll also give them mini details and notes, maybe I’ll make this an au 

It’s probably set in Kalos but maybe that’s all where they came from and they moved to Galar..? Kalos is based on like- France right? I like Galar though.. the camping elements could be cute.. you guys decide I guess

Marinette: Ledyba(basically tiki), Leavanny, Orbeetle, (then I can imagine she’s the kind of person to just pick up random Pokémon she saved) Dratini, Chinchou—She originally wanted to stay home but showed how talent with being a trainer and also being a Pokémon Performer! She makes all of them costumes and has her own little following of fans. It’s very humbling.

Adrien: Litten, Absol, Goomy(Nino gave it to him. Gabriel hates it but Adrien absolutely ADORES it), Duskskull—Traveling with Nino and Marinette after running away from home to become a trainer (Nathalie helped), falls in love with Marinette after getting his ass handed to her

Alya: Braixen, Vulpix, Espeon, Pikachu, Rotom(in her phone)—Is working on a blog to share Pokémon to the world, but ran into the whatever Villain Team and gets saved by the Best Friend squad, making her join, surprisingly clever

Nino: Frogadier, Wartortle, Roggenrolla, Spheal—Mom friend of the fucking team and he’s tired but he loves these guys. All of his Pokémon know how to dance or groove/vibe in some way. Even the Spheal. That boy flops like a mad lad. He loves them all and he calls them his dudes.

Chloe: Vespiqueen, Ribombee, Ampharos, traveling with an egg—Also a Pokémon performer, a little over the top, but it’s cause of Audrey’s crushing demands and expectations, Marinette helps teach her that it’s okay to like things her mother doesn’t like. She joins the Miracuteam when Sabrina goes off on her own.

Sabrina: Arcanine, Furfrou, Luxray—Used to travel with Chloe as a duo but decides that she wants to go off on her own for a while, becomes Chloe’s friendly rival.

Alix: Rabbot, Yamask, Sigilpyh, (and her fossils) Carnidos, Archen, Tyrunt—Her father works and studies fossils. She thinks it’s cool and all but wanted to put them to good use. Became a trainer to show fossil Pokémon their coolness, and also show her own strength, as she was just seen as the “Curator’s little girl”. She’s traveling with Kim because he had no idea who she was and she liked that. Unfortunately that changed when Max joined but it’s fine. She’s secretly rich thanks to this and it’s funny when she takes people home and they flip out.

Kim: Grooky(He’s a proud monkey dad), Tentacruel, Luvdisk, Deino(given by Alix)—On a journey to get stronger and impress his family and his peers. He had no idea who Alix was when he met her but when he learned who she was from Max he absolutely flipped- and then went back to normal, much to Max’s surprise and Alix’s relief.

Max: Rotom(yes it’s named Markov)—He’s less of a trainer and more of a researcher, he’s joined Alix and Kim when they saved him. He recognized Alix to be the Curator’s Daughter and she freaks out. He’s baffled by her and can’t see her as someone other than the genius’s kid for a while until they become better friends

Ivan: Rolycoly, Golem, Rockruff, Cubone, Steelix—Traveling with Mylene, likes picking up small Pokémon to raise cause he’s a softy 

Myelne: Audino, Cleffa, Togepi, Alolan Grimer—Traveling with Ivan to face her fears, working to become an actress

Juleka: Mismagius, Hattrene, Frillish, Ghastly, Sylveon(unexpected thanks to her goth aesthetic but it loves her so it’s fine)—Working to become a Ghost Gym leader and Rose is tagging along. Intimidating until not, basically Marnie.

Rose: Snom, Tepig, Snubbul, Munna, Mimikyu(She found it and showers it with affection)—She met Juleka one day and swore to herself she was going to marry that tall goth and climb her like a tree. Likes to collect “ugly” Pokémon because she likes them and thinks they’re cute.

Nathaniel: Eevee(Marc gave him this one, it’s a brat but they love their child), Smeargle, Pichu—On a journey to get out of the house and collect artist inspiration, might join Alix, Kim, and Max but they’re just friends for now. 

Lila: Zorua, Thievul, Umbreon—In it for the fame, performer who’s a rival to Marinette, though its more respectful now. She’s still jealous of Marinette but she isn’t gonna go out of her way to sabotage. 

(Extras)

Ondine: Primarina, Vaporeon, Lapras, Oshawatt, Quagmire, Mantine—Swimmer and friend of Kim. She covers for the Water gym while Luka is away.

Marc: ALL OF THE EEVEELUTIONS—Don’t ask where they got so many eevees. They just do. 

Aurore: Gardevoir, Castform, Psyduck, Seviper(you bet your ass Mirielle has a Zangoose)—Performer who’s rivaled with Mirelle. 

Luka: Gyarados, Milotic, Slowbro, Goodra(given by Kagami), Greninja, Drednaw—The water type gym leader. He’s gotta support his FAM. Very chill and proud of his sister. Accidental rivals with Kagami but ends up traveling with her for a bit.

Kagami: Garchomp, Fraxure, Kingdra(given by Luka), Noivern, Salamance, Dragonite—The Dragon Type gym leader. Her mom forced her into it, and while she’s good at it, she has no true passion for it. She hates how chill and unserious Luka can be with his duties but it comes from her being jealous of his freedom. Eventually goes on a journey to find her true passion, and Luka joins her.

(Extra Extras) Gabriel: Volcarona, Venomoth, Dustox, Cofagrius (GET IT- CAUSE HIS WIFE IS IN A FUCKING COFFIN HAH-)—Probably the leader of the villain gang. Lusamine style.

Nathalie: Altaria, Decidueye—Vice leader of the villain gang but she gives a shit about Adrien so she helps him escape. She also probably backstabs Gabriel at some point.

Felix: Purrloin, Meowth—Bitch

#Pokémon au #Miraculous ladybug #marinette dupain cheng #adrien agreste #alya cesaire #nino lahiffe #chloe bourgeois #sabrina raincomprix #alix kubdel #kim le chien #max kante #juleka couffaine #rose lavillant #nathaniel kurtzberg #lila rossi #ondine #marc anciel #aurore beauréal #luka couffaine #kagami tsurugi

[starblaster]

athenais lemaire :0

athenaïs lemaire (he/they/she) is something between a protagonist and narrative focus from a novel i workshopped about a year ago (and am presently in the process of turning into an audio drama podcast with the help of some friends because i think it would function really well and best serve its purpose as a story in the audio and transcript format)

to summarize, his story is inspired by. a lot of things. i took inspiration from pre-existing works like the little prince, doctor who, interstellar, the never-ending story (sort of), porco rosso (i’ll.. i can explain), orlando (the movie and book), and howl’s moving castle (just a little bit. for the vibes)... as well as things that weren’t really stories at all, but which my brain sort of took off and ran with like the voyager mission(s), the existence of the old ‘methuselah’ tree, the 52 hz whale, roy’s monologue from blade runner, a sort of ethereal humming sound that gives me frission chills (idk what else to call it—it can be heard in the first 33 seconds of “relic” by reeder... but honestly the entire album this song is found on has inspired me a lot as well), the hesitant feeling we all get when we have something precious and we don’t want to Use and Enjoy it because we fear we’ll ruin it or use it all up (a blank and brand new sketchbook or a vinyl record, for example).. and a question someone asked me once, when i was like 15 years old, what i would do if i got one chance to go back in time and change something that i thought might make the world a better place.. to which i answered: the burning of the library of alexandria.

his story is about accepting things that are temporary, embracing loss, and learning to live with a unique and cosmic loneliness that none of us could possibly imagine.

(i’m putting the rest of this under a readmore cut because it... got very long and wordy fjdklsf)

the story ‘begins’ chronologically in 1780s enlightenment-era france with athenaïs lemaire and two of their friends who have built a time machine. they are essentially anti-elitist outcasts from the academic community who have a lot to prove so they’ve decided they’re going to use this time machine (which is, due to the nature of its components, not really built to last and is absolutely going to be a one-time trip) to go back in time and save the library of alexandria. the mission can only take one person. they draw lots and athenaïs gets the shortest stick. he knows it’ll be a very arduous mission to take on but in his mind it’s worth so much more than just himself so he’s willing to risk. just about everything. to see that the library of alexandria is saved.

i won’t get into details because i don’t really have certain things about the logistics re: granular historical details figured out yet—it was in lots of my workshop notes because i skipped over it entirely and i just know i need to do some more research to get things squared away before i write the episodes that will be spent delving into athenaïs’ backstory—but, in short, it works! the plan really does work. he’s able to salvage a wealth of documents and artifacts from the would-be-torched library alexandria. but time freezes and everything stops; the entire universe pauses as minerva/athena (she specifies that she does not really have a name, but that is the name the greeks and romans have given her) tells athenaïs she can’t let that information stay on earth. it wasn’t meant to survive into the coming era.

but she cuts a deal with him and really sweetens the pot—tells him she’ll give ‘his’ ship (which jkfld he stole or ‘borrowed’ from a roman merchant depending on how you want to phrase it) some generous enchantments: flying power? check. breathable atmosphere on deck and in the rigging? check. tardis logic cargo hold that can store an almost endless number of things like a museum of infinity? check... and she will grant him ‘immortality’—aka a lifespan of suspended age (to help him travel light years) that is so exceedingly long that he will no doubt witness the heat death of the universe - and though he can still certainly sustain injuries, even extreme and otherwise fatal wounds, he will heal from them given enough time and rest and this is. sort of his curse. think like. jack harkness from doctor who... and he will be granted these two things if he agrees to live in exile from earth and never return. if he wants to save all that knowledge and information, he has to take it elsewhere. he has to go share it with other alien cultures and maybe, along the way, help some space aliens defend their right to universal knowledge on their own home worlds (kind of borrowing from the little prince with the episodic planet-to-planet kind of structure). and so he does that. he does that alone for a really, really long time.

and then a stowaway finds their way onboard the novice.. and i have yet to give the stowaway a name but also wonder.. if they need one? i think they will canonically have a name that is just. secret. the stowaway sort of becomes athenaïs’ gateway into lots of complex emotions regarding his immortality, the responsibility of duty he manufactured for himself to basically be a space-traveling curator/archivist of sorts. he’s not used to having friends (let alone friends that are as close as family) after centuries of loneliness wherein his only company was the ship (which is absolutely alive, in a way) like. a large part of his character arc is unlearning the nihilism with regards to himself and his immortal body that he's adopted over the centuries. like, sure, he has motive and drive to go around collecting artifacts and such to share cultural knowledge with the people of the universe but he’s never had a crew to speak of before now.

and i’m currently getting a little emotional over a conversation i write the "alien cleric” (still no name yet because i am a fool with nonsensical priorities when writing things lmao) as having with him (in summary) like, "yeah, captain, you're going to outlive us. you're going to outlive all of us, but that shouldn't mean that you turn the crew away out of fear. you've got to accept that nothing lasts forever. in fact, some things don't last very long at all. you can't preserve everything. they're not artifacts you just have to learn how to get the most out of their company and their love while they're here with us, and keep them in your memory long after they're gone." they spend so much of their immortal life just trying to save things and keep them safe forever. and they're often a little reckless because he knows he only really has to 'worry' about the novice (because the ship can absolutely still be damaged) but once other people start figuring into the equation it's like. ok now hold on, i have to take care of myself? because it will hurt these people—who have formed a bonded attachment to me—to see me in pain? oh no. oh lord. oh fuck.

athenaïs has had a very lonely life! he’s sort of a sisyphean archetype character but becomes less alone over the course of his whole story via found family. thinking about it in depth, though, makes him very tempted to push crew members away (because.. ouch! he's getting attached), or put mental ultimatums on when he should tell them to think about leaving his crew because he doesn't want to see himself outlive them. he wants to save them like he saves artifacts and manuscripts & like he rescues them from being lost or damaged or aging. but you can't preserve your friends like artifacts, athy </3 i'm sorry mate. he feels a sense of responsibility for what he's doing and believes he needs to keep doing it because he made a promise to himself and also to the literal goddess who gave him an immortal life long enough to survive near-endless light years’ worth of travel, etc, etc.... but also hates how much of a curse it is.

like it really tears athenaïs up inside thinking about how the plan he and his colleagues came up with worked and he was so close to making that dream of a better world into a reality. feeling like he wasted a perfectly good once-in-a-lifetime trip into the past to fix something. and how he simultaneously feels such regret because nothing will have changed on earth, he didn't really save anything for humanity's future, he just took it with him. feeling like he did it all for nothing but sometimes being reminded that he can still share the things he's collected from alien worlds and documented to spread to other alien worlds & share with the rest of the universe and that actually he is helping. he just. sometimes forgets this. forgets that earth wasn't capital-e Everything, just a small world in a really big universe that he happened to come from and can never return to. hell, by the time the stowaway has found themself aboard the novice, it already contains far more alien textbooks and manuscripts and artifacts than it does earth-things.

also hi if you read all this... 🤍 i hope you’re having a really fantastic day right now. thanks for sticking with me, i’m thinking constantly about this story right now because i’m in the process of turning it into an audio drama with the help of some friends, as i said at the beginning of this post, and i just love talking about it. i’m sad i can’t provide spoilers for some big plot-relevant things that have to do with athy’s character and his development but i’ll keep them to myself because i definitely don’t want to ruin any surprises :’)

#athenaïs tag #athenais tag #dairy.txt #long post #anons #ocs tag

[judestclare]

。· . ˙ ♪  ⌈ kristine froseth + cis female + she / her + solo g + clairo ⌋  have you heard ?  judith “jude” st. clare got signed by disclosure records two years ago ? they’re talented don’t get me wrong but i can’t believe it , they’re only twenty-two years old & some people go all their lives without making it , what makes them special ?  it’ll be interesting to see if the fame & success go to their head because i hear they can be quite careless , pliant & disloyal . but that could only be the rumours because i’ve also heard they’re gregarious , free-spirited & warm hearted . i guess only time will tell .  

     &.     hiii everyone !    i’m meredith, i’m nineteen, i use they/them and she/her pronouns. some more fun facts: i’m a libra, i’m from the est timezone, and really excited to be here !   under the cut you’ll find some #funfacts about the woman , the myth , the legend herself, jude st. clare !  

quick facts:

name: judith victoria st. clare

nicknames: jude — do not call her judith, she hates it

age: twenty-two

date of birth: january 20th, 1998

zodiac: aquarius sun, libra moon ( read here )

gender: cis female ( she/her )

sexuality: bisexual 

positive traits: open-minded, caring, fun-loving, free-spirited, warm-hearted, creative, adventurous, friendly, gentle, gregarious, bubbly

neutral traits: talkative, party animal, reticent, extroverted

negative traits: flighty, careless, disloyal, lazy, dishonest, flippant, easily manipulated/pliant, loud, facetious, unconfident, silly

tv tropes: plucky girl, hard-drinking party girl, the face, good bad girl

mbti: esfp, the campaigner ( curious, energetic, enthusiastic, good communicators, know how to relax, popular and friendly / overthinks things, too emotional, too independent, unfocused, little practical skills  ) 

background: 

jude was born and raised under the ever biblical name of judith in a tiny town in the midwestern united states to a religious family. growing up, her highest aspirations were winning a prize for best chocolate chip cookies at her church’s potluck. matching mary janes with her sisters and dresses with carefully picked cardigans took up the majority of her her wardrobe, and she could recite bible verses along with her times tables.

as teenage years hit, however, the spirit of rebellion was lit in jude. forcing friends and family to call her the much shorter, and in her opinion, much better jude. sneaking makeup in and herself out of picturesque suburban home, many nights were spent at house parties, doing beer pong inside, or smoking cigarettes or a joint outside. style never went full alternative — but baggy sweatshirts and ripped jeans replaced the uniform of sundresses.

two things that never suffered: her bubbly personality, and her affinity for bubblegum lipgloss. even as she tore away from weekly church attendance and skipped school more and more, jude still greeted all former churchgoers, classmates, and teachers in the grocery store with a beaming smile and a knack for remembering details — hi, ms. dawson. how’s little johnny? he’s two now, right? or i heard you were thinking about starting your own bait and tackle shop by the lake, mr. smith. i think you should do it. remember that bass you caught? you’re a natural! she had very little common sense, and didn’t do too well in school — but she always knew what to say and how to say it. she charming and friendly and fun to be around.

thus, jude’s rebellion was more so of the wannabe variety: in such a small town, everyone knew everyone, and everyone knew what she was doing. her parents mostly just waited for her to tire herself out — only it never happened. she dialed back on thick eyeliner, and still sometimes would show up to church on holidays to sing in the choir, but mostly, small town convention and religion were abandoned by the time she was in her mid-teens. 

eventually, she came out to her parents as bisexual, and it was a non-issue — despite religious background, her parents supported her 100%, no matter what clothes she wore, who she hung out with, or who she loved.

jude never graduated high school. by her sixteenth birthday, her attendance record was so spotty that they stopped calling home to let her parents know she hadn’t shown up to school that day — and a few weeks before she turned seventeen, after many screaming matches with her parents and sessions with the school counselor and principal, jude officially dropped out. 

she wasn’t going to sit around the house all day, however, instead driving her clunky car across town to the movie theatre every day, where she worked part time. she remained friends with all the people her age in town still, and made new ones at the theatre. however happy she was, jude was aimless. she knew she had to do something. finally, she turned a passion into a full time hobby, something she never thought would be lucrative. 

by seventeen, that knack for singing in the choir had been translated to covers posted with the gentle strumming of a guitar and manufactured beats. by nineteen, she was writing her own songs and gaining traction on youtube and soundcloud, and two weeks before her twentieth birthday, jude was signed to disclosure records and being flown to manchester. it was hard work, and it took years, but it still feels like a whirlwind to her — one moment she’s in her bedroom, playing bars in her local areas at open mic nights and upaid gigs, and the next she’s signed to the disclosure records. it’s a dream. 

tl;dr — jude is a flighty, fun high school dropout raised in small town middle america by a religious family. she grew into herself and was able to “rebel” despite her sheltered upbringing, and that unique sense of self + her musical talent got her a youtube following from the covers and songs she posted. that youtube following turned into a contract with disclosure two years ago, and she’s been in manchester ever since. 

career: 

a successful album and a successful tour behind her, the not-so-indie anymore lofi pop starlet is on the brink of even bigger fame, though she has a loyal following as she stands. she’s nowhere near super-fame — but she gets recognized in public, and that’s enough to give her the flutters in her stomach that she’s going to make it even bigger.

a regular social butterfly, jude regularly interacts with fans: instagram lives of acoustic covers from her apartment, constant posts to her stories. while her image isn’t exactly not genuine, it’s very curated: she’s careful what she reveals about herself, and the image she’s trying to maintain.

personality: 

image is not a thing, however, in jude’s personal life. still a party girl at heart, she’s down for anything once ... or twice ... or maybe a third time. she’ll say yes to almost anything, and a distinct — though never malicious — lack of loyalty keeps her unbound by romantic relationships or extremely close friendships. she’s friends with everyone, as she’ll tell you, and she has no problem at all with hookups, consistent or one night only.

in spite of this, she develops crushes at the drop of a hat, and will always be there to help someone else out ...  but don’t expect her to keep the same enemies, or to lose her forgiving heart.

jude isn’t dumb, and is pretty much a memorizing machine ( though not eidetic ), can be a little silly or ditzy, especially with sheltered upbringing and big heart. she’s not against being a shoulder to cry on, but when it comes to matters of her own heart, she’s as recticent as can be, never taking much seriously. as a mean youtube comment about her once said: that girl’s got about much depth as a kiddy pool. it wasn’t true, but it’s how she can come off.

drug tw / she drinks pretty consistently, and smokes weed even more so, though she’s not been known to deny any trying harder party drugs, however less consistent she is with it. she hasn’t a problem yet, but she doesn’t seem to be straying from the path that leads her there. if she ever encroaches in on one, jude wouldn’t be able to tell: she’s too busy having fun.

she’s a genuinely kind, caring person ... but jude is a little gullible, and trusts very easily. in spite of her affinity for friendship and relationship hopping, it’d be easy to convince her just about anything is true, or to do whatever bidding was necessary. say the right things at the right time, and jude will be wrapped around your finger. she doesn’t follow directions from authority terribly well, but friends ... that’s a different story.

above all : jude wants to be cool, fun, and liked. she’s a little desperate for attention and affection, and has inconsistent ideals about what’s good for her and the people around her. her self esteem is a lot lower than she makes it seem. 

wanted connections: 

party friends / drinking buddies: if anyone is as into getting drunk and dancing as she is, then call her up and get ready to go. she promises she can beat you in shots.

smoke buddies: a more chill version of the former, if anyone wants to sit around and have a songwriting session or just vibe.

friends: any kind of squad. she’s not the type to have besties, but if you consider her a friend, she’ll latch onto you whenever she gets the chance. 

hookups / fwbs: what it says on the tin, jude is down for anything and anyone (1/?)

crush: jude is very flighty and tends to have feelings come in like a hurricane, with the potential for them to leave just as quickly — this person would have jude wrapped around their finger.

unrequited: basically the opposite — someone likes jude, she’s a #dummy who doesn’t realize it and leads them on because she’s flirty with everyone and would probably also make out with anyone

enemies: jude doesn’t make many of these, but if someone is annoyed by her and lets her know it ... well, she’ll do everything in her power to make them even more annoyed. if you can’t make them like you, make them hate you even more.

tentative friend: on the opposite end of things, this person doesn’t vibe with jude but she’s half-oblivious to it, and is desperately trying to make them like her 

manipulator: jude LOVES attention, so if anyone needs any evil bidding or shit stirring done, just pay her some. she’d make an excellent lackey. 

anything else! seriously! just let me know what you want and we can brainstorm <3

#disclosure.intro #* musings / introduction.