#my feet and back are gonna hurt so bad tomorrow but it was soooo fun

[dotdotdotdotsometingidk]

Idk I thought this can be fun so I'm gonna write Imagines and fics and shit.

Gonna have some fun with it soooo

Just a hand

"Minors DNI"

Summery: reader is going through shit and snaps and starts killing people. Gonna get messy and graphic, Rosinante sees him and wants to arrest him.

Tw: graphic violence, mention of mental disorders, sexual harassment, mention of execution, Idk read with your own responsibility.

"Bar was real noisy tonight" you thought, "but not as noisy as inside your head". You let out a chuckle, and reached for you beer.

-I heard they're making an execution tomorrow

Bartender said to one his regulars. Your gutts started to hurt and you could feel things getting a little shaky. You just wanted to engage with poeple so you asked:

-what for?

Few heads turned toward you. Tender looked a little uncomfortable, must've been because of your frown and the way you grabbed on your stomach.

-you ok bud?

-Don't worry about it

-alright... Well they say it was some kind of a tax invasion or something. They execute people for no reason recently.

Few tired drunks shook their heads in agreement. Silence started to grow. Ypir stomach started to hurt real bad.

-you won't have a problem if we sit here right?

-what?

It seemed like a few officers being talking to you. You stood up to let them sit, feeling worse than before, and confused. You felt a shock going through your body. One of the officers spanked your butt and started laughing:

-you don't look bad for a man. Let's have some fu-

You looked at him, still confused. Why did he stop talking? And why did it get so hot in here? Hot and... Wet?

The realization hit you like a brick wall. You looked at the broken glass in your hand, the horror in the remaining eye of the the perv officer and the blood that started pouring down like little rivers.

-GET ON THE GROUND NOW!

All the other officers pulled their guns out and pointed them at you. Things atrted to get a little less shaky. You swallowed your saliva and took a breath. Right before you take your hand behind your head, you herad another glass breaking.

-die you pigs!

Half of the drunks smashed their bottles and started wounding the marines. You grabbed the perv officer and turned him around and slit his throat. As the man was bleeding out with little pants of plead for air, everything stopped. Everyone looked at you. So. Many. Heads.

-I.. I'm tired... I'm so so so ti-

A woman's scream filled the space. Scream was loud and painful, blended with the soind of burning wood and cries for help, ypu realzed you've blacked out. "fuck. What did I do now?" you looked down and saw the reason why the woman was screaming. A corpse, you could only imagine, with a half burnt face and guts poured out, laid under your feet. You sat on the corpse, with biys of guts on your hands and body, and all around the floor. The bar, or what was left of it, was burning, and the chaos probably stretched to the town alongside with the fire. All glasses were shattered, it has already exploded. "If even the sound of that explosion didn't make you snap out of it..." You thought with horror.

But just before you can do anything, you hear aclack and you feel a gun pushed on your skull.

-that's enough. Drop the weapon, calmly stand up and turn around.

You did as you've been told and faced with a really, really tall man.

-they usually don't say calmly turn around, they just pull the trigger.

-you're gonna have to come with me.

-why? Because I probably started a revolution by stabbing a perv marine? You think it was calculated?

You start to laugh uncontrollably. An insane laugh that you let put whenever you were hurt. All the pain and tears and anger turn into laughter and pulled your head back like when you were fucked bythose random strangers during your black outs.

-wow. You remind me of my brother. Insane.

-Oh that I am! I even have a file for my couple of month in mental hospital so I can get insanity defence.

- I actually don't think you can in this poin-

-Oh oh and you wanna know another funny thing? I don't even know what I did... I mean... I just blacked out and voilá! I'm covered in flesh!

You laugh even harder than before and have to stop for air to breath. He opens his mouth to say something but you continue.

-You know what the problem is? It's too noisy! Everything is WAY TOO FUCKING NOISY! You know what Enlil did when humans got too noisy? He killed most of them baby! Would've been all of them if not for his brother! But again it won't shut up. It never shuts up does it? You wanna scream and run and cry but it won't do anything because it just WON'T. SHUT. UP!

You started crying and screaming in the middle of your monolog. You were crouching with your hands stiff on your sides, and shaking with every weak breath that left your heavy chest. You looked at the man behind your tears, expecting him to shoot you in any moment. What you did not expect was to see him crying.

-why... Are you crying...?

He didn't say a word. He lowered his gun and grabbed your arm and pulled ypu away from where you were standing. After you reached a corner out of sight, he snapped his fingers.

-silence.

Suddenly the noises from the outside went out. It was just you, him, and the sound of your breathings and your heart pumping in your head. And for a spilt second, for a sweet sweet second, there was no words, no sounds in your head. For a second you felt... Humane again.

And than they came back. It hurt. Hurt more now that you've tasted freedom. Tears fell on your cheeks and you grabbed your head with both your hands. The desire stronger than ever, was hurting you. And suddenly, it all stopped.

You looked up. He was petting your arm. With every movement of his palm, an electric feeling spread through your body. You felt heat gather on your cheeks.

-how did you silenced the voices?

-I didn't. Did I?

He gave you a faint smile. You felt blushing to your tits.

-Maybe you just needed a hand.

Your breath went away for a second. Before you know it, you threw yourself on the big amn and hugged him. You hugged him tight. He started petting your back, and you start sobbing in his embrace like a bitch. That. That was all you needed. All these years, all these traumas, all you wanted was to be not alone anymore, and this man, this beautiful tall man, came to your life and gave you that.

After a few minutes, you split. He was still smiling. You looked at him shyly.

-well... Are you gonna arrest me now?

-yeah. But I think it might be better for you anyway. I'm sure they take good care of you.

-you kidding? I'm gonna be hanging first thing tomorrow.... I mean you already did more than you needed to. Thank you... For everything...

You stretched your hand forward and looked down.

-OH MY FUCK what a fucking drama queen! And I thought I'm the most dramatic person I know!

-what?

-your going to impel down for startinga revolution your not getting executed. Although that place is also kind of a hell.

He handcoughed you, grabbing your arm and dragging you with him.

-but you're gonna be fine. It's not that big of a crime. I can even visit you once in a while.

You could feel your face blushing to your ears in this point. You smiled. For the first time in a long, long time, you smiled, a genuine one.

-I would love that. I mean like! I would like that that's what I said!

He giggled. "It's so sweet!" you thought.

-Ok. I'd "like" that too. I'm Rosinante, by the way.

-y/n. Nice to meet you

-nice to see you too, y/n.

#One piece #Donquixote rosinante #Donquixote rosinante x reader #donquixote corazon #Donquixote corazon x reader

[hatsukeii]

I’m bored and tired so instead of going to sleep I am going to write headcanons because my brain has no juice left to think of new original never done before scenarios atm smh I need coffee

But Karasuno first years in Attack on Titan universe specifically Survey Corps let’s go

☀️Hinata Shouyou☀️

- Did absolute shit in training.

- Couldn’t use the ODM gear until like five hours after scheduled training.

- Shadis hated him just saying.

- Like he just thought HInata was dumb and reckless.

- BUT he didn eventually master the ODM gear.

- His size and agility really helped him out.

- He’s kinda like a downgrade of Levi when it came to ODM gear.

- Like he’s really quick on his feet and knows how to use it properly but cmon no one can beat Levi.

- Couldn’t use the two swords for shit.

- Like he just couldn’t.

- His little arms didn’t have enough power in them to even cut through an inch of the wood from training.

- So he trained at night when everyone else was sleeping and eventually got better.

- But he doesn’t know how to make tactics.

- He’s a dumb one okay?

- Like he constantly gets the formations wrong and has to improvise with the other soldiers all while running from titans.

- Overly enthusiastic in battle like he sounds like he’s on both steroids and crack.

- Then gets hurt.

- And is scared shitless.

- A lil bit of a coward on the battlefield ngl.

- I mean at least he’s not dead ig.

🥛Kageyama Tobio🥛

- Thinks he’s soooo much better than Hinata in training.

- He’s not.

- The only thing he does better is using the swords.

- Mans got some mad power in his arms fr.

- And maybe he was a liiiil bit quicker with learning the ODM gear.

- His manoeuvring skills are way inferior to Hinata’s though mainly bc he’s so much taller and heavier in general.

- Cuts v deep and accurate when slicing napes of titans.

- It’s almost scary how he never cuts the wrong part of the nape and manages to cut deep and long enough to kill it every single time.

- Shadis was okay with him.

- Like he stood out as an all-rounder but he wasn’t the best at anything.

- Makes fun of Hinata during training.

- But then gets absolutely smoked in hand to hand combat.

- It’s ironic how bad he is at that.

- Hinata managed to throw him.

- HINATA.

- Anyways, he’s usually way more calm and composed in battle.

- He’s smarter than Hinata so he knows how to stick to a plan and modify it to their needs.

- He’s okay with tactics.

- Plays safe on the battlefield.

- But when he sees a clear chance he’s cutting down those titan mfs to kingdom come.

🌙Tsukishima Kei🌙

- Doesn’t do very well in training.

- His height makes it hard to do anything physical tbh.

- No one can even reach his face.

- He’s okay with the swords, but took a while longer to figure out the ODM gear.

- BUT he’s a master tactician.

- Like holy shit he’s so good.

- He’s the type of person to predict every single possible outcome and think of solutions.

- Those solutions save so many lives in battle wow-

- Shadis HATED HIM WITH A BURNING PASSION.

- Like how dare this lil bitch talk back to me-

- He’s probably tried headbutting him but he’s too tall.

- So he just punches his gut.

- Tsukishima ain’t afraid of no bald ass boomer bitch.

- In battle he’s usually riding alongside Erwin I think.

- Constantly discussing what to do next and looking out for smoke signals.

- Him and Hange and besties lolol.

- They’re always on some weird titan anatomy science shit that no one can understand.

- Made fun of everyone during training despite having a hard time with it too.

- Surprisingly good at hand to hand combat.

- Hard to take down bc height.

- Was gonna go to the Military Police Brigade but chose the Survey Corps over them because he wanted to protect Yamaguchi.

- Works alongside Armin too but tbh Tsukishima’s better than Armin fight me.

- Calm during battle but doesn’t like to get hands dirty.

🍃Yamaguchi Tadashi🍃

- The most average out of the bunch.

- Shadis liked him, surprisingly.

- He was a good kid during training, listened to his orders, never messed around, good kid.

- Definitely felt inferior to Tsukishima.

- Think of him as the Marco to his Jean.

- Except Yamaguchi’s Marco and Tsukishima’s Jean.

- No he’s not dead don’t take that the wrong way.

- He’s really just your average soldier man I don’t got muchto say about him.

- Doubts himself way too much like baby don’t worry you’re doing great.

- Tsukishima came to like him as a comrade and as a good friend.

- They’re also secretly gay for each other but won’t admit it.

- Improved A LOT by training in his own time.

- Does good in hand to hand combat.

- The only one that managed to take Tsukishima down.

- Needs to work on coordination though.

- He’s usually just tagging along with Tsukishima because he’s come to be a tiiiny bit dependant on him.

- Ah he’s such a bean why did he choose such a hard life oh god-

- Very, very queasy in battle.

- Always has the worst case scenarios in his mind.

- Constantly thinks he’s gonna die soon.

- But then cuts down titans like no tomorrow mainly out of fear.

- Tsukishima has to comfort him sometimes.

- Everyone in the Corps ships it but they still won’t Marvin Gaye and get it on.

Hope you enjoy reading this crackpot of hcs I wrote at 2am I’m going to sleep now bye:)

#haikyuu #haikyuu headcanons #haikyuu scenarios #haikyuu imagines #haikyuu crossover #haikyuu hinata #haikyuu kageyama #haikyuu tsukishima #haikyuu yamaguchi #hq #hq headcanons #hq scenarios #hq imagines #hq crossover #hq hinata #hq kageyama #hq tsukki #hq yamaguchi #hinata shouyou #kageyama tobio #tsukishima kei #yamaguchi tadashi #tsukiyama #attack on titan #aot #shingeki no kyojin #snk #aot crossover #snk crossover #aot levi

[vanchlo]

The Assistant / Chapter Twenty-Three, “Bleeding Heart”

hello hello. i’m so sorry that i’m an awful person and i haven’t written in a bahillion years. life has been wack and i fell out of writing for awhile. instead of doing homework like a good human being - yay! - i found this chapter i had started and i finished it. it’s not as long as usual, i know, but i did that on purpose and you’ll see why ;) ;) ;) ;) i hope i can write some more soon and stick with this. i’m unreliable i know and i’m terribly sorry. college and work are crazy and my mom was just diagnosed with 2 kinds of cancers soooo oooo life truly is crazy and overwhelming rn. i hope to maybe set aside some time each night to write, but it’s hard to stop when it’s getting fun haha. i enjoyed writing this chapter and delving more into this story, like idek where it’s gonna go haha.

anyways lemme know what you think of this chapter. i wanna hear your predictions and thoughts!!!!!!!!! reblog, like, share with friends, say hi to me :) 

one last thing. we should decide a ship name for harry and becks, i mean it’s been coming. here are my ideas and feel free to send me others :D 

a) hecks (my personal fav) 

b) barry (i just think of rachel’s barry from FRIENDS but it’s ok) 

c) hebecca????

d) ??????

e) hecky?

“No. No. No. No. No. NO. NO. NO.

I try to breathe in, but I can’t.

And suddenly the switch inside of me changes. Instead of pushing him away for the last few weeks, I want him. I want him to come and save me. 

The laugh that falls from my lips surprises the both of us. “You can’t hurt me anymore.” 

The swarm of voices that crowded my ears from before is now gone. A soft chatter of voices occupies the conference room now, around an hour after the festivities had begun. Now the fun is over and the last few of us clean up the forgotten plates, take down the streamers donning the walls, push in the chairs, vacuum up the crumbs, and everything else required to return the room to its former glory. 

“Hey, you stop that,” somebody says from behind me. “This was yer party, yer not s’posed to be cleaning it up,” they finish as I turn around to find Harry pushing a lock of hair out of his eyes as he grasps a wet rag in the other hand. 

“No, I want to help. Please,” I reply, turning back to the table and picking up the spray bottle. I spritz the plastic top and run the wet rag over the spot, repeating in sections until I finish the table. 

“Fine, I guess you can help,” Harry huffs and I smile to myself in triumph as I return to my cleaning. “So, what did ya think?” 

“It was a lot of fun and very nice of all of you, thank you so much again,” I tell him trying to circumvent having a conversation. I move to the other end of the table as he begins on the next one over. 

A few male coworkers fold up the table to my left and carry it out the door, probably to place back in storage. My eyes life to find Harry leaning over the table he scrubs and he must notice my pause because he meets my eyes. But I can’t look at him, not today. 

“I’m glad ya had such a good time, ‘m sure everybody else did too . . Everybody’s going t’ miss ya, ya know,” he comments, and I nod with a small smile. I don’t know how much more of this awkward small talk I can put up with, especially as the domino that caused all of this is gnawing at my insides. Particularly the part where he could have stopped it coming to this. 

But he didn’t.  

The rest of the clean up consists of few words between Harry and I, or anybody else for that matter. We cleaned tables, folded them and carried them away, stacked chairs, vacuumed, packed things away, and carried more things away. The room was now bleak with its new emptiness and quiet, all of the people previously filling it returning to their lives. Luckily I found my escape shortly after the room was all squared away. 

“All done?” a voice asks me. I look over my shoulder and find Asher tying up a bloated garbage bag. My stomach drops all of a sudden with disappointment at who it is, and who it’s not. 

“Yep.” I nod. Then I feel bad for being disappointed. Oh it’s just a never-ending rollercoaster, isn’t it?

“I can’t believe you helped clean up. The whole point was having other people do stuff for you, and then you helped them?!” Asher laughs with a disbelieving shake of his head. He happens to pull a giggle from my unsure lips. I sheepishly nod at his words, and I give him another laugh when he almost trips over the garbage bag. 

“Are you on your way out now?”

“Yeah, I think so. I just have to drop off some last-minute things - keys and keycards, that sorta thing. But now I can’t find the person to give them to . . ,” I confess, losing my words as I scan the room for those green eyes and that mustard top. 

“Hmmmph, well it’s getting late. Maybe he left or had something. You could leave them with Myles or Jennings, I’m sure if you wanna get outta here. I know you’re just dying to get those drinks with me tomorrow,” Asher quips, turning my lips up with his words. 

I leave him with a few words, telling him I’ll see him later. I say goodbyes to a few people as I leave the conference room and begin my hunt to find Harry. One I’m not sure how I want to end. 

I find my desk empty and many others as well. Glancing at my watch, I find that the hours have flown by. Many people jetted out of here as it’s five o'clock on a Friday afternoon. The cushion welcomes me as I sit down in my chair for the last time, but I don’t miss its welcoming squeak. The squeaking continues as I spin my last spin in the chair, feeling hot tears at the back of my eyes at the finality of my actions. My mug of pencils- no, it’s not my mug anymore. It never was mine. 

A polar bear post-it note holder invades my -not my desk - along with framed pictures of strangers, a bright pink day planner, candy apple lotion, and other foreign objects belonging to the new owner of this desk. Who isn’t me. A long sigh leaves my lips as I release my hands I didn’t know I was clenching. 

“It’s now or never,” I say aloud, willing myself to stand. 

Okay, Becky, we can do this. This isn’t even the hard part. 

But it is, I think to myself as my eyes glance up and memories that took place at this desk spin through my head. Making Harry laugh for the first time. Silly arguments with him about which was the better movie. How easily he made me smile by bringing me coffee out of nowhere and- Stop, Becky, you can’t do this now, I tell myself as I swipe a hot tear away from under my eye. I exhale as I get to my feet and feel for the ring of keys in my pocket. Good, they’re still there. 

The hallway is dim, but the light from the London evening comes in through the many windows around the office. His hallway. A hallway I will never walk again. Fuck, am I really sure I want to do this? How can I not see him again? You can and you will. You have to, Becky. It was too hard sitting there day after day wanting him. And him not wanting you back. I nod to myself, trying to affirm those words to myself. They don’t do that good of a job, because of the person I see around the corner. 

“Oh hey, bug. A-are ya leavin’?” Harry stutters, his furrowed emerald eyes falling on me. He comes to a stop in front of me, running a hand through his mop of curls. 

“U-uh yeah. I was just going to drop off the keys with you and go over a few things.” 

“Yeah yeah, sounds good. I jus’ really gotta take a leak, so ‘ll be back in a minute, ‘kay?” He asks with a pat on my arm. I nod with a soft ‘okay,’ as I turn to watch him walk away. Nodding with a thumbs up, he gives me a small sad smile before turning around and walking down the hallway. I watch until he’s gone. 

Almost done. But now for the hard part. Leaving him for the last time, I contemplate with a pout. I shuffle my feet to his door and twist the knob. Immediately, his familiar woodsy scent hits me. Suddenly, all of my senses are inundated with him. His messy desk. His blazer draped over his chair. Bookmarked biographies dotting his desk. Empty mugs of tea taking up empty spots. The essential oil diffuser in the corner humming as it mists Sandalwood. Bach’s Cello Suite No. 1 trickling from a Bluetooth speaker in the corner. Harry. It’s all him. And my reserves begin to fall. Can I really do this? No, there’s no way I can. Even if I have to sit at that desk day after day trying to love him, it’s better than leaving him. 

Yeah, and then what about when he marries Amber or somebody else that’s not you? 

I gulp, trying to get rid of the lump in my throat and at the same time pressing my fingers against my eyes, willing them to dry. 

“Wow, are we getting a little teary-eyed on our last day?” a voice snarks from behind me. 

No. No. No. No. No. NO. NO. NO. 

I try to breathe in, but I can’t. 

And suddenly the switch inside of me changes. Instead of pushing him away for the last few weeks, I want him. I want him to come and save me. To save me from her. And to see her for the monster that she is. 

The laugh that falls from my lips surprises the both of us. “You can’t hurt me anymore, Amber,” I snap, turning around to face her with a wry smile coating my lips. 

“Oh I don’t know about that, I still can. But hey, I won, and don’t you forget that,” she retorts. Amber’s blonde curls shake as she stomps her foot and points a tanned manicured finger at me. How can he even comfortably hold hands with those daggers?

Her blow hits me, and she knows it. I can’t hide it, because I’ve lost it. The last few weeks or even months have taken everything from me. My grandpa dying, my mom’s abusive treatment towards me, Harry’s bipolarness, and Amber’s physical and mental attacks. I lost.

“I don’t care,” I croak, throwing up my hands in defeat. The keys on the ring twinkle with movement in my hand. 

“But you do! I know you do!” she cackles, excitement twisting her plastic face into a Cheshire grin. “You wanted him, but you couldn’t have him and so you gave up! I won!” Amber continues, stepping towards me in her flowy scarlet blouse and skin-tight black jeans. 

I instinctively step back and away from her, but I stop when I think I hear a noise. It’s a loud squeak on the floor that makes me stop, but it doesn’t stop right away. 

“I don’t care, Amber, you can have him! I told him what you did to me and he didn’t believe me because of whatever spell you put on him. So you can keep him and live a wonderful, happy life together. I don’t care anymore, and I hate that I ever did,” I announce with weight to my words, willing my feet to lift from the carpet, but they won’t. 

Amber chuckles, crossing her arms with a pleased smile of satisfaction painting her face. “I can’t believe you had the nerve to tell him what I did to you,” she mutters in disbelief, shaking her head. “As if Harry would believe that I’d do such a thing. He probably thinks you made it up. Hell, for all I know I never laid a finger on you and you just imagined the whole thing.” 

“You left marks on me, Amber,” I spit out through gritted teeth. 

“Yeah, and apparently that wasn’t even enough to convince Harry. God, I really do have him wrapped around my finger,” Amber sighs happily. “I can’t do anything wrong in his eyes. He hasn’t even noticed how much I’ve been gone lately, or how often I’ve been texting this new bloke I’m fucking on the side.” 

“You slut!” I exclaim, not being able to hold it in. “Harry loves you and would do anything for you! He built this firm from the ground up! He’s sweet, he’s kind, he’s giving, he’s funny- he’s amazing and that’s how you treat him?!” 

“Excuse me?! Who here was throwing themselves at my boyfriend right in front of me?!” Amber argues, taking another frightening step toward me. She’s no longer laughing, but instead, her drawn-on eyebrows have fallen into a point above her glassy stare. 

“How dense are you?!” I laugh, feeling the anger rise warmly in my chest. I really don’t care anymore. “You have such a huge problem with that - which never happened, thank you - but you think it’s okay to cheat on your boyfriend?! My god, you really are fucking dumb!” 

“You just had your last laugh, bitch, because I’m going to slap that smug smile right off your face,” she snarls, taking several steps before I can almost see the flames rising in her eyes. 

“No, you won’t!” a voice announces. 

I take my eyes off of Amber to see who said that, but it’s a second too long that lets her clawed hand accost my face. 

#the assistant #pa harry #harry styles #fanfiction #wattpad #one direction #harry au #lawyer harry #writing #love #idk #books #read #check it out #long time no see #harry #fine line #fanfic #au #new chapter

[nightowlfandom]

Levi Ackerman- Mine (Part 3)

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I was feeling like doing some Levi stuff today so ya.  someone said I should do part three if I’m up for it and personally I love Levi soooo of course I’d be up for this. Ayyee

Leggo!

...

“WOAH!” You yelled as you were taken down by Eren. You let out a surprised laugh. “Geez give me a warning next time!” you giggled heaving yourself up. 

“Sorry Y/N. While I would go easy on girls, I can’t exactly let you know when I’m gonna attack.” he chuckled. “Especially shy girls like you because I can’t read you. You’re so quiet!”

Both you and Eren were alone in the training rooms today (is that a thing? who cares, it is now.) you were assigned as sparring partners, which meant you’d have to demonstrate skilled takedowns and fighting tactics. However if your acquaintance with the ground didn’t say you weren’t quite ready, you didn’t know what would.

“So this isn’t even your true power?” you joked, getting into fighting position.

“Not even close!” he chuckled, getting into his own stance. “Have at you!” 

You were able to distract him enough to pin him down. You straddled Eren, smiling in his face.

“HA! I win!” you smirked in his face, pinning both his arms beside his head. “Give up yet?”

With another smile, Eren was easily able to flip you own and do as you did to him. He pinned your arms above your head. “Never.”

“Hm, if you’re not careful someone could get the wrong idea.”

“Awwh come on, we’re completely innocent.” he chuckled.

“Okay get off me.” you shook your head. You and Eren had actually gotten along once he realized you actually existed. Of course you still liked to be alone. You could say that Eren was the first friend you’ve made in a long time. He helped you up and you dusted off your training clothes. It was such a relief to not wear that stupid harness all the damn time. “Not so bad, Eren.”

“I could say the same to you...y’know you seem to have captured some attention.” he chuckled. “You know people are starting to the Captain Levi likes you as more than a cadet.”

Your eyes widened as the words left Eren’s mouth. It wasn’t so much as a bad thing as it was a shocking thing. You didn’t think people were that attentive to be honest. Maybe the biggest give away was the fact that as if as of late he didn’t treat you like pure garbage.

(flashback)

“If it were up to me I’d feed all of you useless cadets to the dogs!” Levi barked. 

“You!” he pointed at a tall scrawny kid. “If that’s what you call a punch, then you’re at good as dead!”

“He’s really gonna let us have it.” a girl whispered in your ear.

“You!” he pointed to a blonde girl. “Maybe if you bothered to listen when you were being taught how to buckle your harness it wouldn’t have snapped off!”

“You!” he pointed at a guy way taller than him and punched him right in the face. “THAT was a punch, not whatever sad excuse of a move you pulled today.”

He then stopped in front of you.

“You...” Levi pointed at you. Everyone turned to look at you. They knew you wouldn’t hurt a fly on purpose so they were almost scared to see whatever insult would be hurled your way.

“...Go to the nurse for your wrist then come see me.” he spoke in his regular, not screaming at everyone tone of voice. “..Go”

“Y-yes sir.” you said quickly scurrying off.

(end of flashback)

“That’s crazy. But hey if it’s true then maybe he’ll lighten up.” you chuckled. “Same time tomorrow?”

“Always!” he gave you a thumbs up.

“Then I’ll see you later! Prepare to lose!” you said jokingly threatening, walking towards the door. You opened to door only to come face to face with an unamused Levi. 

“You, come with me!” he grabbed your shoulder.

“Well I guess I’ll see you la-TER?” You were surprised when he grabbed your hand and pulled you along. “You wanna tell me what’s wrong?” you raised an eyebrow.

“Remain silent until we get to my office.” he barked.

....

Is wasn’t long before you were basically thrown into a chair.

“Wow, if you wanted to see me so bad you could have said so.” you rolled your eyes.

“Silence Cadet. Your smart mouth will only get you into more trouble.! What the hell did you think you were doing with Yeager?!” he barked.

“Uh training?!” you were confused.

“We talked about this. You can’t start getting close to the men around here. They’re dogs and will take advantage of you!”

“I’m only doing what I was told! And I’m sure Eren wouldn’t go out of his way to do that when he knows that you obviously have a certain stance when it comes to me.”

“....Has it gotten that obvious?” he asked, mainly to himself.

“That one day in training where you basically sent me on my way was a huge hint.” you replied.

“We aren’t talking about this, we’re talking about how you’re too naive!”

“Excuse me! I don’t know when the last time you even cared to talk the someone of the opposite sex but you do realize a girl can be friends with a boy right?” you asked as if he’s lost his entire ass mind. “Why is me training with Eren such an issue...y’know the thing I’m supposed to do?”

“Yes TRAIN with him not flirt with him like a shameless-”

“I dare you to finish that sentence.” you warned lowly. “In case you haven’t noticed you are not my father and I don’t think we’ve been together that long a time where you can start getting possessive over me!” you rolled your eyes.

You stood to your feet, walking up to Levi with fire in your eyes. “ You may be older than me and you may be my superior officer....but you do NOT have any authority to control my life.”

“...You have been mine from the minute you first walked onto that training ground, Cadet.” he growled. “And you know what happens when you talk back to me.”

“Oh I’m so scared, Levi.” you crossed your arms, staring up at him. You had gotten a lot more bold with your words, especially when you felt like you didn’t do anything wrong. 

“You should be...”

....

Great, you just had to open your mouth. Oh no, Levi didn’t decide to punish you by doing anything in the bedroom. 

You were stuck scrubbing floors. For the next week...

“Fucking pain in my ass.” you threw the scrubbing brush back into the bucket as you stood up. “Guess I’ll do the windows next.”

Just as you walked to the windows, the door opened. You ignored Levi as he walked in. 

“UgH!” you tugged at your harness. You had been so mad that you fastened the buckles too tight. You had ignored Levi for two days, not bothering to go to his office or sit with him. In fact you took it upon yourself to do the exact opposite.

But you didn’t just have to clean a random room...you had to clean HIS room.

Levi sat on his bed, sighing as if he had just carried an entire building on his shoulders.

“Cadet...”

“What?” you rolled your eyes and you sprayed the windows. “I’m cleaning here.”

“Look at me.”

“I’m busy.” you sighed.

“Now.”

You dropped the rag and turned with your arms crossed. "What?”

“Come here.” 

You sighed walking over to him. He suddenly pulled you onto his lap.

“I said I was cleaning.” you crossed your arms. “Now knock it off.”

“I came here to make sure you weren’t making a complete mess.” he said. “These floors are filthy.”

“I....spent...an hour, cleaning the flo-” you were cut off by Levi kissing your lips. He wrapped his arms around your waist, keeping you on his lap. He nibbled at your bottom lip, slipping his tongue into your mouth.

Levi fell back on his bed taking you with him. He laid you down on your back, kissing down your neck. 

Wordlessly, he yanked and tugged at the buckles on your harness. He was able to get them off with ease which led you to ask yourself how he did it, and why has he been hiding such a technique from you! That could have saved you a lot of time.

No, you must have willpower.

“Well that was fun...but back to work.” You forced yourself to pull away.

“What?” he looked surprised.

“I’m on cleaning duty, remember?” you huffed.

... (Part 4 soon it’s not on my top list of priority but it’s there!)

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[lovelylunarwriting]

Hufflepuff!Seokmin x Ravenclaw!Reader

To say that you’re tired would be the understatement of the century.

You’re exhausted, but you’re determined to place first in your class this year academically.

Last year you came in second and that just wasn’t good enough for you tbh. You wanted to be the best.

So that’s why this year, you spend all of your free time studying.

And when I say all of your free time, I mean a l l of it.

Walking to classes while memorizing potions formulas.

Practicing incantations while brushing your teeth.

Any moment you’re not doing something- you’re studying.

Except for when you’re sleeping. Which is also all the time.

Because that much cramming is soooo mentally draining.

Your friends don’t know how you live like this but they don’t tell you that they’re worried because you’re testing well and they know that’s what you want.

“If it ain’t broke, don’t fix it” is basically how your friends view the situation.

So if you’re not studying, you’re napping. And if you’re not sleeping, you’re cramming. It’s an endless cycle.

This leads to you falling asleep in an array of odd places. From passing out in a chair in the library, falling out of it and just sleeping on the floor instead, to falling asleep in the quidditch stadium bleachers and being startled awake when everyone jumps up and cheers because Ravenclaw scores.

But like, hey- you’re not bothering anyone with your sleeping and studying habits, so there’s no problem, right?

Wrong. Because this does bother one person, and he doesn’t even know your name.

He knows you as “that exhausted overachiever”, which like. Isn’t entirely inaccurate.

This person is Seokmin. He doesn’t know you personally, and as a Hufflepuff, he’s not even in your house, so why is he so bothered?

Because this boy is a worrier. He just wants everyone to be well and happy, regardless of his personal connection to them, and to him you seem miserable.

And honestly- you are. But now in Ravenclaw, you’ve gotten the reputation as “the prime example of the Ravenclaw House”, and that’s not something you want to lose by stopping what you’re doing.

But at the same time, you’re compromising your own happiness, so even though you feel like a winner, you don’t feel like you’re winning, if that makes sense.

Like the “yay! I got what I wanted!” feeling is there, but on top of that is the “The way I got what I wanted hurts like hell and I can’t exactly stop now” feeling.

And even though your friends disregard your well-being due to your success, Seokmin is not having it.

He’s seen you cram, study, and fall asleep in every part of this castle at every hour of the day and one day, he decides that he can’t just sit by and watch you do this to yourself anymore.

So when you feel someone shaking your arm, waking you up from your position at the Ravenclaw table in the Grand Hall, the last person you expect to see when you open your eyes is the prettiest Hufflepuff boy you’ve ever seen.

And he looks so upset.

Before you can even ask what he’s doing, he’s already talking a mile a minute.

“Hi I’m Seokmin and I know you don’t know me but I’ve been seeing you around the castle and you just look so tired and are you okay?? and now you’re crying- oh my gosh did I make you cry???”

The combination of being completely exhausted, having just woken up, and someone actually showing genuine concern for you has turned you into an emotional disaster.

Like “NO I’m not okay I’m up here studying myself to death”

But also now you’re a blubbering mess in front of this cute boy who you’re just meeting for the first time… talk about first impressions.

He’s like “uhhhh do you wanna go talk about it?” and you nod, letting him lead you out into the hall.

But the hall is bustling full of people so you end up walking until you find a more secluded corridor to have a private conversation.

You went from sleeping in the Grand Hall to explaining your behavior to a beautiful stranger all too quickly for your brain to be able to handle what the heck is going on.

He speaks up before you can gather your thoughts, but he talks to you in a gentle voice, instead of the interrogation attitude you were expecting.

Seokmin: “Do you have that disorder where you spontaneously fall asleep?”

You: “No?? I just am tired from studying”

Seokmin: “You’re that tired?”

You: “...yes”

Seokmin: “Exactly how much are you studying??”

You: “Every chance I get, really”

Seokmin: “But do you have to study all the time?”

You: “If I want to keep being the best, then yeah I do”

Seokmin: “All the success in the world means nothing if it kills you in the process”

At this point you look like you’re gonna cry again and Seokmin can see that you’re tearing up.

Seokmin: “Look, I’m not trying to be judgey. I’m just really worried that-”, he starts, but comes to an abrupt stop when you throw yourself into his arms.

This time the tears are happy, weight-lifted off your shoulders, tears.

You’re just so relieved because finally- someone actually cares about your well-being and not just the fact that you’re doing well in school.

Seokmin smiles softly down at you and pats your back to try and be comforting.

The two of you stay like that for a little while until you clear your throat awkwardly and pull back from the embrace because “oh wow I just threw myself into the comforting embrace of the guy I just?? met???”

He doesn’t seem offended by your sudden retraction though, he just grins at you as if this is the most normal situation in the world.

“Here, I’ve got something I think will help”, he says, grabbing your hand and lacing his finger with yours.

Following Seokmin down the hall and outside to the grounds, the two of you walk in a surprisingly comfortable silence, considering the way you met.

The fact that he still has a tight grip on your hand isn't helping with the fast-developing crush you feel coming on.

Because wow, this boy has swept you off your feet- he cares about you?? just out of the kindness of his heart?? And happens to be gorgeous.

What person wouldn't be falling for him at this point

By the time you're about done contemplating The Feelings™ you feel yourself catching, Seokmin comes to an sudden stop, causing you to run straight into his back.

Seokmin: “Ah, not paying attention, are we?”, he teases.

You: “Just lost in thought I guess”

Seokmin: “See that's the problem with Ravenclaws sometimes, you all do so much thinking that you never make time to just have fun, which is what we're doing now”, he announces and gestures to the many different animal and mystical creature pens.

You: “We can't be here unsupervised! What if something happens with one of the animals? What if one of us gets hurt?”

Seokmin: “Well then we won't pet the bitey ones. C’mon!”

Feeling like it would be too awkward to decline after walking all the way down here, you agree and timidly reach out to the fluffy creature Seokmin pulls out of one of the cages.

The little ball of fluff jumps onto your shoulder and drapes itself across your neck.

Seokmin laughs as you visibly tense up, half flattered by the creature’s affection and half scared that it’ll attack you.

You: “Please tell me this one’s harmless?”

Seokmin: “Oh she wouldn’t hurt a fly, don’t worry!”

Reaching up and scratching behind her ears, she licks your hand gratefully.

The initial fear of the situation is long gone, and you and Seokmin spend what feels like hours just playing with all the fun animals.

All good things must come to an end however, and in this particular instance it ends with a Giant Slug projectile shooting slime all over Seokmin’s robes.

You: “That’s disgusting”

Seokmin: “I’m well aware- thank you for the support. Let’s head back so I can get cleaned up”

Making your way back up to the castle is a stark contrast from your walk down to the castle grounds earlier in the day- Seokmin does not stop talking.

And that’s not a bad thing at all, you’re thrilled to hear everything he has to say. It’s not one of those trying-to-be-polite-by-listening-to-you-ramble kind of situations, because he’s a hilarious dude and practically everything he has to say is interesting.

You’re so wrapped up in conversation with him that you don’t even realize he’s led you all the way to the Ravenclaw commons.

Seokmin: “It’s getting late- you should head in and get some rest”

You: “...you know, normally I’d study for an hour before heading to bed but tonight I think I’ll go straight to sleep”

Seokmin: “Oh really? Why the sudden change of heart?”

You: “Well you came barging into my life and suddenly spit out good advice so. I’m taking it to heart”

Seokmin: “...I mean yeah, but didn’t you say you have a big Charms test tomorrow?”

You: “Oh crap, I comepletely forgot about that. Okay- I promise not to work myself too hard tonight”

Seokmin: “Pinky swear it”

You: “Yes, sir!”, you say and jokingly salute him before wrapping your pinky around his.

Lying in bed after some very light studying, you don’t think of tomorrow’s test or upcoming assignments. You dream of the smiley boy that turned your world upside down in less than a day.

The next morning you wake up, throw on whatever comfy clothes you can find, and make the groggy trek to the Grand Hall for a yummy breakfast before classes.

Sitting down in your normal spot at the Ravenclaw table, right next to Wonwoo, you munch on pancakes while reading one of your favorite books.

It feels nice to be reading something simply for leisure instead of the usual vigorous annotating of whatever textbook you happen to pick up on your way out the door.

Breakfast with Wonwoo is always a peacefully quiet start to the day. You’re reading, and Wonwoo… well he just doesn’t talk that much in the first place, but especially not so early in the morning.

The next handful of days go by at what seems like the slowest pace possible, and every class, meal, and even leisure time is mundane.

Since you stopped studying yourself to death, you thought that things would cheer up and that life would be exciting again, but due to the ever apparent absence of Seokmin, the literal sun, nothing is as fun as you’d hoped.

Most of the time you find yourself thinking “oh but wouldn’t this be better if he was here with me”

And that’s the thing- he hasn’t exactly checked in.

Ever since spending that one afternoon with him, him making you smile so hard your cheek muscles hurt from overuse, the two of you wave at one another in the halls and exchange a simple “hello” and “hi!” in passing.

But that’s about it…

That one day with Seokmin was the most fun you’d had all year, and isn’t something- or someone for that matter- that you want to let go of so easily.

How exactly do you say “Hey I have a major crush on you and want to spend time with you” without putting your whole heart on the line.

Exactly. It’s impossible, which is why it takes the push of a friend to get you to do something.

One morning at breakfast, Wonwoo actually speaks. To you.

Wonwoo: “Y/N, why do you seem more miserable than normal?”

You: “...are you saying that I normally look miserable”

Wonwoo: “I mean yeah, with all that constant cramming, anyone would. You’re stopped studying but you still seem… down”

You: “Well, there’s this guy. And I wanna be someone special to him because he’s someone very special to me but… I’m not sure how I would go about making that happen”

Wonwoo: “Have you considered telling him that?”

You: “NO! Are you crazy?! Then he’ll know I like him!”

Wonwoo: “Isn’t that the point???”

You: “I guess so but?? It’s still so embarrassing to actually say out loud to someone”

Wonwoo: “More embarrassing than wussing out and never getting anywhere with this guy?”

You: “...point taken. But if I confess, you’re doing my potions lab reports for the next week”

Wonwoo: “Ugh, I hate potions. If it’ll get the rain cloud above you to stop pouring though, I’ll agree to your terms. You’ve got yourself a deal”

The only problem with this next plan of action is trying to find Seokmin alone to talk to. It seems like there’s always someone telling him a story or sharing a laugh with him.

It’s not his fault that his friendliness draws people to him, but it’s damn inconvenient, to say the least.

Then a thought occurs- “doesn’t he usually go visit the magical creatures by himself?”

Checking every classroom, hall, nook and cranny of the castle- Seokmin is nowhere to be found. Inside the building that is.

Dashing out of the gargantuan stone building and stumbling downhill to the edge of the forest where the magical creature pens are, you’re not surprised when you see Seokmin cradling a plush creature in his toned arms.

It is surprising however to see the solemn look on his face.

It never occurred to you that someone who radiates happiness would hide themselves away in moments of sorrow, but you guess it makes sense.

Taking a few steps towards him, the crunching of leaves with each step gives you away.

The frown that was there a fraction of a second ago is replaced with an over-exaggerated grin.

That is until his eyes meet yours. He drops the cheerful act but doesn’t go back to brooding. He just sits there on the smooth tree stump with a look on his face that you can’t quite place. Something glad, yet nervous.

You: “I uh- I was looking for you”, you say, suddenly feeling somewhat nervous yourself.

Seokmin: “Found me, I guess. Took you long enough”, he mutters to himself mostly, but loud enough to be able to hear clearly.

You: “Excuse me?”

Seokmin: “Other than a wave hello here and there, it doesn’t seem like you want much from me, so why are you here?”, he asks, the hurt evident in his voice.

It wasn’t like you were trying to ignore him, it’s just hard to say exactly how you feel. Putting yourself out there is always difficult, but when you really care about the person, it becomes a thousand times harder.

You: “I… I missed you”, you confess.

Seokmin: “You- you what?”

You: “I said I miss you! I’m here because I want more than just a hello in passing. I don’t want to always be passing you, I want to s t a y with you. If you’ll let me”

Seokmin: “Are you asking what I think you’re asking?”, he says, his voice doing a 180 flip from the dejected tone he’d been using before.

You: “Gosh, do I really have to say it?”, you say, covering your face with your hands out of sheer embarrassment.

Seokmin: “I’d kind of love it if you did”, he teases.

You: “I like you. Please go out with me”

Seokmin: “Now was that really that hard?”

You: “Yes!”, you answer, no hesitation.

Seokmin: “How about a first date with me and this lil fluffy guy?”, he asks, holding up the creature in the air, Lion King style.

You: “Sounds about perfect to me, just be careful!! With that!”

From there on out, you get to be the significant other of the actual sun.

Seokmin is such a radiant and positive person that just being around him puts you in a better mood.

Which is why if he sees that you’re having a bad day, he’ll tag along with whatever you’re doing and just having him there with you lets you relax a bit.

Dates where you just. Go pet animals is a frequent occurrence.

And since not many students are dumb enough to go play with these creatures unsupervised, it’s become you and Seokmin’s little hideaway.

Honestly you don’t know how he’s survived this long going by himself because sometimes an animal will just?? Attack him?? and he doesn’t notice

You: “Hey babe I’m pretty sure that rainbow beetle is biting you”

Seokmin: “Is it?? Oh well”

You: “Do?! Something!!”

You take it upon yourself to make sure that that doesn’t happen again.

The two of you mostly pet the furry pet-like creatures, but Seokmin thinks some of the bugs are cool so he likes to let them walk across his hand.

One day, you’re like “hey if you like bugs so much, why not pick up one of the spiders?”, and he’s like “hun I like beetles because they’re shiny but I’m not a freaking craZY perSoN”

As far as academics go, you’re not #1 in every subject anymore, and you’re 100% okay with that.

You learned that it’s better to be happy and average than to be the best and miserable.

If it looks like you’re working too hard in a class, Seokmin gives you the Motherly Disapproval Look™ and you’re like “crap, you’re right- let’s go get icecream or something”

Wonwoo is mad that he has to do your potions work for a week but does it reluctantly because “a promise is a promise”

By the last day though, he’s had enough. Instead of writing an actual lab report, he just turns in an essay on how if you hadn’t listened to him about talking to Seokmin, you’d be a “boyfriendless loser workaholic”

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[canaryatlaw]

Alright, so today was pretty good! Alarm went off at 7 as it does on work days, and unsurprisingly I REALLY did not want to get up, but I knew I had to because I had hearings to do, dammit. So it took me a few minutes, but I got out of bed, got ready, and hopped on the bus, while trying to forget how tired I was. But I made it to work, and ran around doing a few things prepping for the hearings before going down to court. They were set for 10 and 10:30 but nothing ever happens on time in court, and it was a bit of a circus today (I mean it's always a bit of a circus but still) so needless to say they did not get called at those times, lol. Court was entertaining though. My juvenile justice professor was in there for a case at the start so I was chatting it up with him for a bit since he's super chill and I like him a lot. He got transferred over from the delinquency side of the public defender's office to the child protection conflicts division. The first is something I would potentially be interested in doing, the second I would never do....but I don't need to share that view with him. Anyway. Court got started and it comes out that on a case two potential fathers had been named, but the mother hadn't shown up to court, so they just had the names and no other identifying info. So as is procedure, they checked with the department of corrections to see if there's anyone in custody with those names, and between the two names they had FIVE guys in custody- so naturally, they just bring all of them to court, LOL. So the judge is just like....well I guess we'll just order a DNA test for all of them and hopefully one of them will be the father! And the poor PD gets appointed for all 5 of them. It was hilarious haha. Then the other amusing case was one where there were 5 siblings they just took TC on, and 5 different fathers, which means when the case goes to trial there's gonna be a total of EIGHT lawyers battling it out like you would see a plaintiff and defendant in a normal courtroom. Just all of them and their lawyers in the courtroom today was pretty humorous. Fun stuff, I tell you. But back to my stuff. I met with the caseworkers when they got there and talked to them about the kids and a few preliminary questions to resolve before going in. I had just started talking to the second when the first case got called lol so I had to put that conversation on hold for a second. Both of them went pretty well, I was definitely more thorough than my previous permanency hearings, just getting more details on the record and such. I'm trying to be better with following up on answers more, and I think I did a bit better on it but I still need to work on figuring out when to press more and when not to, because you're always gonna feel kind of hesitant to press for more details that weren't offered because I mean it's awkward, so I just need to get past that. But yeah, I felt really good about both of them, and the lawyer I was covering them for was really happy, she was like "you knew them so well, you were bringing up stuff I had forgotten about!" so that I was happy to hear. I ended up getting back to my office around 11:45 (so only an hour and 15 minutes behind schedule, lol) and actually checked in with my main boss-lawyer (I work for the whole calendar, but she's my main supervisor) about the things I've been working on for her over the past few days and go over those. She ended up rewriting most of the CIMs I wrote, which I tried not to feel offended about because I'd never wrote one before haha so I really didn't feel very bad about it. So then I got to distribute those (had lunch somewhere in there too) and talk to a variety of people. One of the people I had to give it to was a guy who's a courtroom support supervisor that I don't think I've ever directly spoken with before, but he was in the meeting last week about sibling visitation talking about an ongoing lawsuit our office has against DCFS for enforcing sibling visitation, so that peaked my interest because it's more the kind of global issues I want to deal with in my long term career, so I had been looking for an excuse to talk to him, and here I was in his office and it looked like the perfect opportunity, so I asked if he had a minute and he was immediately like "sure, sit down!" and we started chatting and he was super open and explained what had been going on, how they'd been trying to force DCFS to follow the consent decree basically because they suck at doing so, and he printed off the last thing they filed in it for me to read. I asked about who handled those kind of larger suits and he said it wasn't really a department but just whoever is best suited and such. So I went back to my office and filled out the half sheets (court notes) from the hearings this morning, then returned those to the lawyer, and then read the filing, and man, it was like, YIKES. DCFS is fucking terrible. It was basically asking to extend the consent decree commanding DCFS to facilitate sibling visitation but also listing all the ways DCFS hasn't complied with the last court ruling and violated the consent decree, and it was just like, bad. A lot of it was about their tracking of how they're listening, and just how badly they are at doing it. So I finished that, organized some other halfsheets for my boss (intern tasks, man) then went back and talked with the guy about it and just how yikes it was, and he started telling me how the ACLU of Illinois has an ongoing case with the department about way more than sibling visits but how the entire thing is run, and how I should see if I could intern there, and gave me the name of the guy who was heading it up there, so of course I was like AWESOME, because that would be all sorts of great because that's basically the kind of stuff I want to do, although I'd like to work for a group that's focused specifically on children, and not just have it as one of several areas, but for Chicago right now this is a great option. It was about time to head home at this point so I headed out to catch the bus. I had managed to remember to call my psychiatrists office earlier, and I got a call back from him while walking to the bus and then waiting for it. I told him what's been going on with my ridiculous difficulty getting out of bed and how I accidentally stopped taking one of my medications (because I'm an idiot) and we talked for a bit and he called in new prescriptions for me on everything including the meds I stopped taking so I'll have those tomorrow and hopefully those will help with things. While I was on said bus I looked at the ACLU of IL website and they do in fact have internships for law students during the year, and give preference to students who have finished their second year of law school (can you say booyah??). My only thing would be all my experience is soooo specialized in children's rights I wouldn't really want to work in any of the areas, so I'd have to see how that would work. But I'm definitely going to apply and in case you couldn't tell I'm super excited about it lol. I got home around 6:25, got changed and stuffed my face with some leftover trifle before heading to PT, because I make solid life choices of course. PT was different, but productive. He started having me do full body planks on my feet instead of my knees, which is a workout for sure haha but I felt strong doing it so that was a good feeling. We were talking about pain area and my PT guy wanted to do just a general evaluation to see if anything we missed was off, and we started talking about how I broke my foot and that could be throwing off my walking, so we started testing that and ohhhh boy that had some results lol. and that would make a lot of sense because if I'm putting more pressure on my right side when I'm walking to overcompensate for the lack of strength that could cause that back pain that has mainly been on my right side, and the dates of my pain correspond within a few months of when I moved north and started walking a lot more. So we did some exercises for that and then he did some dry needling on my calf because apparently all the muscles in it were super tight and HOLY FUCK it hurt like hell but I'm a tough cookie so I hung in there. He was using this electric stimulus thing too to make the muscle contract with the needles in there and it was just like this steady pulse of pain and oh man is my calf sore now. But it was productive and I feel like this could solve a lot of issues so I'm pleased. We did a few more exercises and then I was pretty tired so we called it a day. Got home, made dinner (frozen meal because I was tired and it was already almost 8:30) and watched half an episode of Supernatural before the night shift came on. I'm not sure if I'm gonna continue with Supernatural. I'll give it a few more episodes. It's just like, it's okay, but it doesn't have me like enthralled like the tv shows I'm really into do. So we'll see if I stick with that. The night shift episode was...interesting. Upon it starting I was immediately reminded of the shit they pulled at the end of the last episode and was immediately filled with anger once again that they (spoiler) killed off a beloved character offscreen. So that kind of put me in a ticked off mood. The rest of the episode was okay, didn't really thrill me, seemed like a pretty average episode for them. I was rolling my eyes a bit at them being like "the only way to save his life is to perform an operation that's never been done before" because if ANYONE can do this crazy impossible operation it's OBVIOUSLY the doctors at this random hospital (/sarcasm). Then there was the ending, which once again left me VERY angry with the writers. I am just not appreciating some of the choices they are making with the characters this season, particularly with the untimely deaths of some of them. (Spoilers ahead) I'm honestly never really comfortable seeing suicide depicted in any form of media, and I can't say I appreciate it just being thrown in there like that without any real build up and what appeared to be mostly for shock value with no real meaning or explanation. So I wasn't pleased with that. But yeah, overall I was pretty meh about the episode. I left the news on afterwards because I was still checking the tumblrs I go through every day, and then Jimmy Fallon came on and I think it was a repeat episode from a few weeks ago but they did a bit on two bachelorette contestants apparently fighting after getting kicked off, and while I've never watched an episode of the bachelorette or the bachelor in my life, I was in stitches laughing at the sheer ridiculousness of it. It was pretty damn hilarious. After that I started getting ready for bed, packed my lunch and such. After I showered my roommate got home and she gave me some cash (I covered a bit more of the rent check last week until she got paid to make sure it cleared so she was paying me back) which is the first time in 4 full days I've had access to any sorts of funds besides my Starbucks card (since it reloads in increments and I had money left on it) and damn I am so happy to have it back lol especially so I can pick up my damn prescriptions tomorrow. So overall I'd call it a successful day. I obviously had a lot to say and this post is very long, so I won't make it any longer and call it quits here. Hooray for tomorrow being Friday. Until then, folks. Goodnight loves. Happy almost weekend.

#daily journal #July 2017