#oh they’re gonna hate this one

[shedburst]

not pictured: biracial black american women meeting with demons who drive hellcats to determine what vector of art they are going to box dark skinned black women out of this year. they are ordered from lightest to whitest.

#oh they’re gonna hate this one #who? #they #t

[pupcuck]

have been ill since i was a kid it is not going to get better or pass likeeee sick of people telling me otherwise

#🏩.diary #I’ve always been this way #like there is no fixing it it’s not even like #idk my mental illness isn’t even something i can use as an excuse it’s just me now like idk #my friends are insufferable they don’t get it that #it’s not the fucking same like im so upset why do they always make things ab themselves #im the one that has no other friends no job no love life im failing uni with no social life like no you don’t get it #and they’re always like oh i wish I wasn’t known on campus like you talking to people is so draining I hate it #I hate it so bad i need to kill myself #I’ve been suicidal since I was 11 like that’s it’s not gonna change #and then they wonder why I don’t wanna talk like sorry im too suicidal to hear ab you having multiple jobs and boyfriends and driving sorry #like im too bitter #why don’t you just do this I CANT!!! im ugly and repulsive and can’t go outside #I’ve been made fun of for my weight and face by family n school friends like why would k want to go outside when it’s not even. me that #thinks I’m repulsive but everyone around me too #my parents don’t ever call me pretty unless I have makeup on they’re repulsed by me I know they love me bc they have to love me but im such #a loser there’s nothing to be Proud of #I don’t know what to do at all it’s like I’ve fucked it over so badly I can’t fix a single thing #it’s like I have everything wrong w me and it’s humiliating #tw vent #sorry im worked up godddd #I hate when people talk me like it’s my first time feeling this way and that it’s easy to get over #just try getting ur license or doing this I psychically cannot bc I’m crippled by anxiety and facial and body dysmoprhia like fuck off #whatever whatever im too pussy to kill myself so I’ll just live in this fucking cycle forever and ever like bc im literally a fucking . #pussy what’s wrong w me #in other news my sisters separation anxiety is back and she won’t let go of me I can’t go to the bathroom without her coming she’s sleeping #in my bed again #she’s so clingy I love her but I can’t do anything

[lesbiansanemi]

Still thinking about the conversation I had with my roommate’s bf like two weeks ago where he said he was scared of furries but also didn’t even know enough about furries to know they were called furries I had to figure out wtf he was talking about. The urge to become a full blown furry now. Despite having all the makings of a furry I for some reason have never ended up enthusiastically becoming one despite my best efforts. Well. With spite as my motivator here we are. Where are the furry artists, I’m commissioning both my tentative ideas for my fursonas. I’m inviting all my friends who are furries over and we’re gonna work on making fursuits. I will also make this a hostile living situation for you AND I will get the added bonus of doing fun furry stuff

#during the same conversation he very heavily insinuated he thought I was a cringey weirdo in the most derogatory sense #by making fun of most of my hobbies and calling ppl who liked them cringey weirdos #but then going ‘oh! oh no! I don’t mean you though you’re fine you’re like Normal 😀’ #so. you know. #anyways last night I walked in the door from work #and the entire apartment smelled like weed and there was a dog barking at me and he was watching tv SO loud #🙃🙃🙃 sensory overload immediately in main part of apartment so I hid in bedroom all night #I’m also irritated cuz I’ve had convos with my roommate about weed FOREVER ago #literally my one ask was if he was gonna smoke he do it outside so the apartment doesn’t smell like it #idc if you smoke and you are free to do edibles/dabs/whatever inside just pls don’t smoke joints #I hate the smell and it’s bad for the animals #so why is it 🙃🙃🙃 all of a sudden happening again as this guy moves in 🙃🙃🙃 #anyways about to become a revenge furry and also suuuuuper fucking cringey just to bother/embarrass him #esp cuz he said he wants to have friends over all the time which I’m also FUDJDJSJSKSK about #but sure! invite friends over! #I’m gonna sit in the living room with my giant easel and draw furries and listen loudly to vocaloid while they’re here 🥰 #I’m gonna have a great time! you won’t tho lmao #kaz rambles

[designernishiki]

I finished dead souls the other day and man. unironically one of the most innocently satisfying endings of any yakuza game ive played thus far. it was sweet and silly and a little sentimental and idk maybe it was just refreshing to end a yakuza game and not feel totally miserable. all the important characters lived and had nice, but simple endings. kiryu and haruka stop by ryuji’s takoyaki stand and ryuji makes haruka a special takoyaki plate just for her. majima construction’s doin their thing rebuilding the city and shit. akiyama has hana back and she lightheartedly nags him about collections as per usual. it’s just. it’s nice. thank u dead souls i am at peace

#dead souls is great dead souls is a gift I will not allow dead souls slander in my house #for real if you go into it not taking it too seriously it’s very enjoyable. like it’s chock full of cliches but that’s kind of the point #it’s like. a stereotypical zombie game and it Knows That #literally majima’s introduction is him watching a zombie movie in his office and then having actual zombies bust into the place #while he looks back and forth from the screen to the real zombies and back again. and out of fucking nowhere he pulls the Biggest Gun Ever #and is like. oh yeah. this is gonna be so fucking sweet #like come on. you can’t hate that it’s so dumb in such a fun way #majima in this game especially is just. something else. I think he’s allowed to be more unhinged than in any other game for much longer than #in other games (especially given he’s Playable in dead souls) #I mean dialogue-wise and whatnot at least #that one substory with daigo in drag ALONE. #they’re never gonna make dead souls kiwami and I know this but please………please can u remaster it for ps4 at least……..pls…. #more people need to EXPERIENCE it #becuase it sure is. an experience #dead souls #yakuza dead souls #rgg #rambling

[broflovski-brah]

current mood

#vent #like i know i shouldnt have made the jokes because that gave them permission to #but it was funny at first #and now i can’t make a single mistake or say anything without hearing the ‘oH yOuRe bLiNd UoUr OpInIoN iS iNvAlId” #i don’t mean to sound like a pussy but it hurts after a bit #i skipped going to volunteering for nearly a week because of it #i lied and said i was sick #but like i laughed at the jokes and i style try yo #but i know it’s gone too far to a point where if i say smth to them they’re just gonna scrutinize me for it #and tell me im looking for smth to complain about #but they got these seven year old children to start making fun of me #and i know it was my fault #but it’s just fucking miserable at this point #i hate saying it’s bullying because i feel like it’s not and i don’t wanna sound dramatic #and ig it’s not bullying #but it’s just annoying at this point #and i hate calling it ableism because i feel like my blindness doesn’t count as a disability #and people start babying me when i call it that #ig it counts as one because i’ll start getting state funds for it soon #but idk #i dunno im just so sick of it #i wish someone would stick up for me #because it’s not funny anymore #it just hurts #i sound like a pussy

[saetoru]

just got out of a meeting and this next project seems way too. like. idk too demanding to finish in the the time frame we have but. idk how to tell the board that 🥹

#like ok #ik i have to develop that skill #if professionally being able to say hey this isn’t possible for me to do within this time frame #but #idk how to say it and not disappoint 🥹 #bc everyone’s so hopeful and the last project went rly well and the company was rly impressed and now #i feel sad 🥹 #bc i am gonna have to be the one #who contacts and breaks it #and also what if they’re like #oh ok :/ #and then hate me 🥹 #project manager tee is sad tee :(

[crossbackpoke-check]

V random but I’m in my Brockpetey feels could I listen to your 46 60 playlist!!

of course!! the first playlist i mentioned in the tags is actually not mine—it belongs to ash @notthequiettype and is a soundtrack to their wonderful fic Lake Rules (go read it if you haven’t already!!! highly recommend!!!)

annnd this one is my personal brockpetey vibes playlist

happy listening!!!

#liv in the replies #sadcanucksfan #also!! ash if you want me to unlink/untag please let me know and i will!!! #this one got bumped up because it’s currently relevant (i just posted brockpetey content) the rest of them will be scheduled in the queue 🫡 #if i don’t do it now i will lose all links and ability to find things #as for my brockpetey i have zero reasons for any of the songs besides minnesota. it’s all vibes no thoughts. #minnesota to me is the quintessential brock petey song topped only (but really equaled) by charm you (also by samia) #like minnesota i would love to say is a joke but i really heard that song for the first time YEARS ago and went oh my fucking god. #i’m going back to minnesota huh #and then CHARM YOU??? AN ACT OF VIOLENCE AGAINST ME PERSONALLY???? #you’re telling me there’s the lyrics ‘kissin you would be like kissin on the USA’ & ‘flying while i’m lying that i hate LA’ & it’s not 406? #(addition that i wasn’t gonna tell you but i have to tell y’all because it’s relevant to Me. samia is so so so so good live.) #(also i haven’t added it to the playlist because it’s sad but kill her freak out has narrative potential as brockpetey. also???? #they’re all somehow petey pov to me. sometimes people just get assigned bands in my head for no reason & i think samia is petey’s vibe band. #BESIDES bbno$ which is canon lmao. spiritually petey is a samia song to me i guess idk why either sorry but kill her freak out #is a (seemingly you know how i am) unrequited brock/petey for when brock got his gf. thank u for your time i hate it too just listen to it) #also no statements about my music taste i will cry. if you hate it don’t tell me if you have recs do tell me #although i do have a joke playlist compiled of all the songs brock has been screencapped listening to because. why not. it’s fun and also #has that man ever listened to a single lyric in his life. what the FUCK is up with your chill playlist bud none of those songs are chill. #lovingly. ripping my hair out. the amount of times he listens to fast car like???? girl are you okay. #anyway this is ur reminder i miss stalking people on spotify let me see your music taste cowards. #ALSO #IF I THINK TOO LONG ABOUT PETEY IN MINNESOTA I WILL LOSE MY SHIT SO I AM NOT JUST KNOW THAT I CLICKED THE FIC & SKRTED I CAN’T HAVE EMOTIONS #if i did not have someplace to be at precisely 7:50AM i would be having a full breakdown please believe me. #oh also ALSO bonus points if you figure out what the numbers in the name are :)

[dancing-with-stars]

guys. guys !!!!

#vanu is rambling #ok idk this is gonna b a happy post but i think there are lots of people who love me in this world. or at least enjoy my presence. #like i always always always ALWAYS doubt if my friends or family like me and in my head they all secretly hate me #but like for these past couple months things have been different. #i don’t feel so left out (like i usually do in groups) or alone. #like my friends genuinely want me there like they always ask me to go places with them. and i almost always say no because im so busy or #i just cant but they still ask me everytime. yesterday the whole group was calling and playing a game and i got a bunch of texts like hey #where are you u shud join the call it’s rly fun ! but i just couldn’t bring myself to talk to anyone at that moment. #today they were rly happy when i joined the call and idk it made me feel like. oh. maybe my friends do like me #and also i have two moods: i’m either super talkative or i go into my little shell and don’t say anything/add to a convo. and like during #those moments they’ll be like hey u ok? or they’ll just listen to me talk about ceramics and how fun it is or how much i hate eating pears #and like. we laugh so much together. like i have so much fun with all of them i love every single one of them omg #and scary thing is we might not even be friends after we start college. but yk what? that’s okay i don’t wanna think about that. #because like who cares? i’m not gonna let my fears ab the future ruin my friendships. i’ll always love them anyways. and we’ll always call. #i’m glad i met them. they’re all such beautiful and funny and amazing strong willed-people. they are my friends. #it’s just so crazy to me that they willingly want to spend time w me and are sad when i can’t. and they’re so understanding at the same time #they don’t get mad about it. and like they have mad eng last year in high school so much more enjoyable. #someone told me that this is ur last year do things so when you look back you don’t regret anything- so you can be proud of what you did #and my friends helped me with that. and like i still feel lonely the majority of the class because despite this there’s like a permanent #stain of sadness right there at the bottom of my heart. but they make the hard days more manageable. #like i’ve been on call with these people until ungodly hours at night just laughing and i go to sleep feeling a bit lighter. #they introduced me to the tech side of theater which i never thought i’d get into but here i am. they teach me silly facts and words in asl. #they taught me dances- knowing full well i SUCK at it- because we all had fun with it. theyve taught me it’s OKAY to be vulnerable in #friendships and that sometimes being open/yourself is quite literally the best thing you can do for your own soul and others. they’re cool #people really. really cool people

[deityofhearts]

y’all know how you follow really cool ppl and it’s like “wow you’re so cool I hope you never follow me/we don’t become mutuals because you’d find out i am entirely uncool and unhinged”

#deity dialogue #beaming ‘please don’t scroll through my blog I am very mentally ill on main’ at the cool butch person I follow who has been in my notes #because I’m p sure that one of my beloved mutuals who is already aware I’m a pathetic puddle of a person is mutuals with them #but yeah it’s like. if people I find cool follow me or check out my blog I live in utter fear of them going ‘oh they’re like actually sad a #goodbye forever’ ahdjfjtkt #idk how sad and weird it is to admit that every day I sit here and wonder if a beloved mutual is finally gonna go ‘okay I’ve had enough of #fae’ and unfollow me #this is also why I take a while to follow ppl back because I need to see if I’ve scared ppl off yet #I keep saying I plan to be less unwell on main #rn I’m getting back into tagging my sad posts (divine despair if you don’t know is the tag to block) #tbh I’m also just trying to make this year better but god I am so sad all the time the despair is like Bad #but today was good! so no super sad posts!! #hhhhh what am I even talking abouttttt #anyways shout out to my beloved friends and mutual ilyyy hiii if you read this far wow #actually does anyone read my tags because I talk so much like I’m incapable of shutting up (it’s terminal I fear) #<- the words of someone who is aware they talk so much and hates it and has had people try to silence them (my family also hates that I tal #a lot and use to bribe me into shutting up) #I must shut up now goodbye #see this is why cool people can’t follow me like

[soupjug]

trying to strictly define relationships into categories ruined us

#i’m thinking #they do this and this so they are this #no #ew #i hate this #who ever decided to define types of attraction in the first place and eat my lady dick #the type of relationship you have with a person is entirely unique to that relationship #you don’t feel the day way about any two people #and so whatever labels isn’t always gonna fit #it’s so personal these definitions could never be universal #and that’s so cool #i think you should be so vague about the structure of your relationships #they’re will never be just those who types of relationships #because you will have the confusing undefinable ones #let yourself see the nuances of wanting to know / knowing someone #oh #and when any types of closeness is assumed to be romantic / sexual? #i’m screaming #this is a mess of mild frustration #because this not binary but you know what i mean kind of thinking has poisoned my brain #and cause me so much shit #amatonormative #aromanitc #amatonormativity

[lilgynt]

the coworker i absolutely despise was trying to speak for me about why i like hannibal and i had to cut them off

#no one was talking to you and and i guarantee you don’t understand why i like this #personal #genuinely i dislike them so fucking much #like it’s not enough to diagnose me middle of the office and say that shit aloud OFTEN #or being annoying and shitty at ur job #you have to insert yourself about someone asking ME why i like hannibal and then have the nerve to get it WRONG? #bc you made it about urself? oh my god crazy just like they took a convo about my dads health to their pets #someone asking about my dad btw #they’re such a fucking freak i hate them and they seem to want to be my friend which. hn. #they are so fucking annoying like all of subjects ur gonna do this about hannibal to me #OF ALL SUBJECTS?

[hallow-nest]

thinking about pk and radi. these two bitches are two examples of how people act when they’re desperate.

radi realised she was in danger of being forgotten and potentially deleted from existence since most of the moths had forgotten her. so she lashed out in an attempt to be remembered.

pk realised Oh Shit I Just Invoked A Goddess’s Wrath and was put in a situation where he was doomed to lose his kingdom. while usually people don’t super go and have hundreds of kids to prevent the sun from destroying their kingdom, he also didn’t really have much of a choice. he thought void creatures were completely empty and without mind or will—even if we know they aren’t, even the kingsmould—so obviously they would be the only thing that could contain the radiance. but to contain something, you need to put it inside something, which.. the kingsmoulds aren’t exactly a good way to contain it, considering it’s all just exposed void with some armor thrown on. pk had a solution and was desperate to save his kingdom.

#the ENTIRE FUCKING PLOT is driven by their desperation to save themselves #and then like a good portion of the fandom goes on to characterise them as one dimensional beings #who just kinda murder for no reason #yes!!!! they’re both fucked up and did bad things!!!! #but they never did it for no reason #pk isn’t perfect #(cough cough unn cough cough) #and neither is radi #but they’re also not entirely evil #hk #hk radi #hk pk #hollow knight #not. gonna go and add the specific character tags beyond those. #also i better not see higher beings hate in the notes #and if anyone’s reading this please tell me if there’s unn lore beyond ‘she had a dream #and made moss people and now the moss people wanna go back into her head and oh yeah the monarchy stole like half her land #’ forgor the quote after oops #anyway thanks for coming to my ted talk i’m normal

[supergirl9130]

Now why tf am I seeing this goddamn website participate in group slandering again bc of a fucking stupid shitpost like y’all haven’t seen other users doing the same goddamn thing and lying about that user. Like do y’all have anything better to do than to make up lies to push something 😐. Also once more how tf did individual artists/content creators and more get lumped into “eat the rich”. Like do the ppl on this site think that they just make this stuff from yachts or mansions or something y’all are out of your rabid ass minds sometimes.

#And yes this is about the stacking bs like I don’t like it and don’t find it funny anymore but some of y’all are actually bitchless #bc why tf am I seeing rumors being spread by users saying how they’re a p3d0 or homophobic and racist like #do y’all have anything better to do with your lives #And before anyone tries to defend themselves gimme a reason as to why y’all participated on this one person but not others QUICKLY. #tumblr blue #or whatever the fuck the bullshit is called I couldn’t give less of a fuck rn. #like I’ve seen ppl calling for Maryssa to h@ng herself now I genuinely hope some of y’all GET JUMPED BAD now #carpisuns #blue checkmark #hate some of y’all bc I know if it was one of those funnyman blogs doing this y’all would def eat it up bc y’all got nothing better to do #AND I’VE SEEN Y’ALL EAT UP THE SHIT THEY DO SO IF Y’ALL ARE GONNA COME TO ME WITH SOME BS SIT DOWN AND STFU CUZ I’VE SEEN WHAT SOME OF Y’ALL #DO ON THIS WEBSITE EVERYDAY #important blue checkmark #hate y’all bumasses istg #oh yeah forgot to mention op of that post is a fucking racist but y’all probably don’t care bc y’all value performative bs over actual ppls #rights be so fucking fr.

[cream-and-tea]

LAY ME DOWN. chapter thirteen excerpt. 293 words. unedited. featuring: fiver, meaning well, tries to talk to pallas about [REDACTED SPOILERS REDACTED] and it going… poorly. some very mild violence. pallas being possibly the most maladjusted person under the sun.

“Are you trying to say,” they make their voice as cold as possible. Clench their fists to hide the shaking. “That it wasn’t my fault?” Fiver blinks. Once. Twice. “Oh. Oh god no. Nothing like that.” He takes a step forward. Pallas takes a step back and curses themself for allowing the weakness, for the fear bubbling like black tar in their throat. Fiver's voice is low and gentle and exhausted, like he’s trying to coax an injured animal, hissing and spitting, from under a cabinet. Every cell in their body sparks with buzzing fight-or-flight warning. Danger! Danger! Trap! “I’m saying that you’re a kid, and it was horrible,” in this light more than ever it’s clear just how much older he is. Pallas had never quite comprehended it before now. It had never mattered before now. “And I am so, so sorry.” Twenty-five is a whole universe away from seventeen. They hate him hate him hate him. They’re going to melt his eyes in their sockets. They’re going to make him bleed. Fiver takes another careful step forward, pausing to see whether Pallas flinches back or not. When they don’t his hand moves slowly through the air, as if to touch them. Pallas promptly bites it. Hard. When he starts backwards, swearing, they don’t even feel a flash of satisfaction.  Why did I do that? They could’ve just moved away. They could’ve just burst his heart and killed him here and now. But he’s torn something loose in them, something feral and small and scared. The space behind their eyes is burning and there’s no hiding the trembling now, the heart hammering frantically in their chest. They need to get out of here. They need to get out of here right now. 

short little thing from a scene i just finished! pour one out for fiver my man is trying SO fucking hard.

TAGLIST (ask to be +/-).  @vellichor-virgo​ @nicola-writes​ @doctormoss​ @gerbermatter​ @cactusprincewrites @dauntless-shadow-ice-1 @houndmouthed @muddshadow @aeipathys @just-wublrful @midnights-melodiverse @ramblingtaylorsversion

#fiver: i am acknowledging and validating your trauma #pallas. vibrating: oh how about i just *bites you bites you bites you bites you bites you bites-* #anyways pallas hates fiver bc no matter how hard they try they can’t make *him* hate *them* #and he’s the one person in the library who REFUSES to brush off what happened to them as normal and okay #they simply CANNOT process that #they’re all like. ‘i want to kill u. don’t you care about how much i want to kill you.’ #and fiver is like. ‘bro u are just a little teenager. u are just goth and brainwashed. i’m not gonna get mad at #u or anything’ #and pallas looses their ENTIRE shit #creme does a writing #wip: ghost story

[hershelwidget]

Teaser for rewritten “The Ballad of Cold Island”!

I always wanted it to be a comic, honestly, even down to the way I initially wrote it. Now with only a faint memory of those original scripts, the 10 documents I made relating to it that all inevitably talk about the same 8 year old, and several pages of drawings, that dream is finally coming true!

#this is gonna be traditionally drawn because i dont hate myself when i do traditional #oh and also accessibility! that is a big one #my singing monsters #the ballad of cold island #i REALLY want to RELEASE THE SONGS i have ALSO BEEN WRITING #they’re basically going to be remixes of the island songs they connect to #with some FUN lyrics. especially the troupe bungie theme song #which will beeee plant island remix. very poppy #OF COURSE there’s going to be a remix for cold island which will end up being the theme song hopefully :] #as soon as i can learn HOW to remix we’re golden #anygays!! uh actual tags i should not forget #ethereal island #because that is fhe background there. finally doing some decent background work #POST THE POST YA SILLY. wont tag sammy yet.. huehehe

[strohller27]

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#why do all the fucking things happen all at once #first there’s no panel physicians in the state I’m living in so I have to try to figure out how to fly to a state close to me #that’s gonna cost at least $100 on top of the medical exam which will be like $500 #‘~If you hate living in America so much why don’t you leave~’ BITCH I AM TRYING YOU’RE THE FUCKING ONES TRAPPING ME HERE #I have so much work I need to do for my job that I don’t have the first idea how the fuck to do #I’ve got a lot of homework to do and no time to do it in because I’m trying to get all of this year abroad shit set up #and talking with the stupid Panel Physician took up 4 hours of my time AND I STILL DON’T KNOW WHEN THEY HAVE APPOINTMENTS AVAILABLE #how convenient that it took forever to answer me and oh! whoops! they’re closed now cos it’s after five! guess I gotta check back tomorrow! #and then of course the file with ALL of my textbook notes has to get corrupted today #because my day wasn’t BAD ENOUGH apparently #stop beating me I’m already dead #I’m gonna go chew glass