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clits-and-clips · 2 months

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I know ive been going on about this shit but I want all my moots to know that my ex has been amazing about all of this tbh and I'm lucky to have had him in my life as a partner

#in the future there will be no hard feelings at all #i just dont want anyone to think of him badly #txt #because i love him and he suplorted me throughout my entire twenties #he saved my life #my parents were so close to kicking me out and writing me off when i was 19 #met him and quit smoking meth (pls dont judge meeeeeee)#legit saved my life #one of the best friends ive ever had #along with my friends in england #<3

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sea-buns · 6 months

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Holy fuck, man. What a trip Fearne has been on, huh?

You tell her how grateful you are to have her in your life, you flatter her, you tell her you need her, that you have to do this together. You have her make a promise that has this woman, born of chaos and fey, agreeing through shaking hands and a trembling voice.

You make her deceive your friends; you make her follow where they cannot know; you make her help you into this contraption; you make her feed this thing into you despite the fact that you both have been warned extensively of the risks. You make her watch you crumble and splinter and shatter and fracture and burst and implode. You make her watch you die, over and over and over and over, for a minute in agonizing bullet time.

You make her do all these things, because when she tries to back out, when she tries to not be the one who let you do this—how could you do this—

you tell her, "YOU PROMISED."

Because if there's one thing you know, it's that the fey do not break a promise.

#cant wait for her to fucking pissed for a very long time. shes really packing the entire human experience in a very short period of time.#critical role #cr spoilers #c3e77 #fearne calloway #ashton greymoore #bells hells #just gonna get ahead of the um actually mfs and state that i am aware that its not confirmed that thats why ash brought up the promise #but boy howdy would it make for some great drama down the line huh?#edit: apparently i did not get ahead enough cuz ive had to turn off replies #since ppl were somehow interpreting this mini introspection piece as me infantilizing fearne??#anyway the first line is now changed to something a bit more neutral. after sleeping on it i do see how it was a bit aggressive at the top #other than that im not sure how else to reword without completely disregarding the core of the post #i might make more posts addressing this but im not sure yet. i wanna try to approach it in the best way possible.#but if it helps any the point of the post was not to say fearne had no agency. she had plenty of moments where she tilted one way or the #other. the POINT was to just shine some light on the emotional pressure she had been put under.#hasnt your friend ever asked you to keep a secret or promise that felt wrong or unsafe or made you anxious?#it has nothing to do with the amount of agency she had. ash wasnt holding a knife to her throat and forcing her to follow against her will #all i was trying to do was take this detail about his reminder of the promise that i thought was interesting and have some fun writing an #overview of the kinda stress she was under BEFORE theyd reached that scene. this entire ep was everyone discussing how grateful they were #for this family theyd made. and while im not saying ash was PURPOSELY emotionally manipulating fearne..#there is a level of unintentional manipulation when you pair the severity of his request with the convo theyd had 2 seconds prior #as well as the desperate need they all have to save each other NO MATTER WHAT.#ash was giving incredibly strong energy of a friend who peer pressures you into helping them do something that you know in your gut WILL #cause problems. hes a fucked up guy. theyre all fucked up guys. even if he didnt mean to “force” her into anything the pressure was THERE.#<- i feel like all of this overall gets my message across. i think maybe ill clean it up later into its own post.#im gonna try not to rush myself to get it done tho.#im under no obligation to explain myself. especially when ppl approach the misunderstanding by being rude af. but i do think it CAN #be clarified so id at least like to try to some degree

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the-holy-ghosted · 3 months

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(mockingly) youre gay AND irish

#the heron giveth #ghosted (2011)#craig parkinson #john lynch #ive been watching a lot of john lynch movies lately this one has me in a chokehold. i cant explain it #this film doesnt fucking exist anywhere and it saddens me every day #theres also no version ive found online with subtitles so i had to add them myself please dont nitpick if theyre a little off center #ghosted my best friend ghosted the only film ever. ghosted.#anyways. this part was funny i wanted to highlight it. mean to him #do i even bother. with the character tags.#jack ghosted #clay ghosted #yes i do because if nothing else i will be posting about it . and i need to be organized incase theres anybody else out of their fucking #mind later down the line. looking for poasts #come into my ask box and give me a penny for my thoughts on ghosted this is not a mistake whatsoever

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sugarsnappeases · 3 months

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thank you for the tag @fxreflyes this is so cute, except the format is trying to hinder my propensity to ramble, so i’ve rectified this in the tags lmao

i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child

no pressure tags for @static-radio-ao3 @inevitablestars @itsjaywalkers @carniferous @orbitfalls @transsexualpriest @futurequibblerjournalist <333

#i'm like 5'7 i think. fun fact i used to wear glasses when i was like 11 bc all my friends were getting glasses and i wanted some too so i #lied to my optician. lol good times. don't actually need glasses tho soooo.#this is me coming out as a natural blonde guys….. like my hair hasn’t been blonde in a good year or so and it hasn’t been my natural blonde #in like three/four years but still in my heart of hearts i identify as a blonde. like i get confused when people don't count me as one #i have my ears and nose pierced and i would love a tattoo but unfortunately i have both a fear of needles and commitment issues so.#not sure if that’ll ever happen… would be very hot and sexy tho. also i'm one of those freaks with green eyes lol it's appaza quite rare #my hair is currently like dark dark brown… have been getting the itch to dye it again tho like a kinda reddish colour idk yet we’ll see #i had braces for AAGES. i have freckles in the summer and i paint my nails whenever i remember to. rn they’re a very chipped lilac colour #i think i have a resting bitch face but i can never tell tbf like it might be more of a resting 'dead to the world' face lmao #okay technically i don’t play an instrument anymore! but in the past i’ve dabbled with the cello the oboe and the xylophone. singing too #spanish and italian baybee although ig if this means like fluently then that’s not me but this is literally my degree it’s my whole brand #yes i like to read but also the only things ive read in like the last few months have been either books in spanish/italian for my degree #literary criticism for said span/ital books and… fanfic. so. also i like writing but it's my worst enemy rn the thoughts aren't working :(#i have many best friends that i’ve known for years!!!! in fact i've known some of my friends for like my entire life it's very cute #okay sorry for rambling i can never help myself and i also literally could go on icl like there was Some restraint applied here #kara lore #bc there's quite a lot of it in this one lol #tag games

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feartoxinjelloshot · 1 month

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Have you ever listened to anything from the band Lord Huron? They have a cosmic flavor of weird vibe that fits perfectly with your Batman Universe. Especially the Vide Noir and Strange Trails albums.

"have i listened to lord huron" turning my head to make eye contact with my #1 most listened band on spotify like 3 years in a row. yeah ive heard of them

#JOKES ASIDE. LITERALLY BEST COMPLIMENT EVER LORD HURON IS ONE OF MY FAV BANDS OF ALL TIME #vide noir my BEST FRIEND #i also have an oc universe named after strange trails that ive had since i was 12 LOL #ask #anonymous

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milkyberryjsk · 2 months

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(logs back in, covered in blood) hi!!!!!

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suffarustuffaru · 10 months

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i just. remembered again that i have a fembaru fic but also the premise is. Very Messed Up hah and also it was written before the canon genderbent au with its official genderbend names for everyone so its also outdated on top of that T^T i had like. Genderqueer subtext going on too. but i also wrote this fic like almost two years ago and havent touched it in forever so im unsure if i should go back to it…. o.o but i would love to finish it one day if only for my own satisfaction hah… i had a very detailed outline for ch 2 (its a twoshot) and several scenes written already anyway!! (and also i would probably update those names, make minor edits, etc etc hmm…)

#just thinking about this wip again………… mmmm….. not super confident in my older ao3 fics but the premise for this one was like. i think i #ended up brainstorming it with a friend or two and then i was like wait holy shit howd this play out. and then i took about two weeks to #write ch1? :o #and then i like. REALLY got into revolutionary girl utena after finishing ch1 so like that def bled into um. the themes.#just. thimking…….. bc ive had so many ideas to explore like. themes regarding gender and misogyny and Choice and destiny and queerness and #all sorts of things….. bc rezero Touches on them and is even Detailed on them sometimes and id Love to go in depth. but im also a bit #nervous to bc 1. writing fic is….. so much work sometimes fr and i am but a lazy writer and 2. the slight anxiety of what if i get flamed #o.o wild to think about…..#like. i have ideas for emilia fics that are. definitely darker maybe a bit controversial but i will go off the walls with writing for the #sake of answering the questions of. can this be done. and is it possible to narratively critique canon and fandom treatment of emilia. that #sort of thing.#not that im the best writer ever akdbdnd but i do like darker fiction sometimes. and i also like being meta about things in fiction. and i #also like writing to get out a tiny bit of salt. etc etc.#i tried to write these kinds of thinngs with my atm sole emilia centric fic that i wrote. uhhh more than a year ago? and i would love to try #again one day bc ive def improved and changed as a writer since then. u know what i mean?? :o #just like. rezero and queerness is very interesting to me.#suffaru post #saving this on the blog bc i talked Too Much about my writing process here HAH #my writing process being: HOW FAR CAN I TAKE THIS IDEA AND HOW OFF THE WALLS CAN IT GET????#in reality tho im really just a massive nerd whos gone down a massive rabbit hole of writing anime fanfic. 😭😭😭😭😭🙏🙏#if you actually read all these tags big thank you HAH

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stuck-in-the-ghost-zone · 2 months

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MAC i was scrollin thru my older posts earlier and came across some of the hornfreaking from i think it was march last year?? made me giggle!! i think we all need to hornfreak again it was very fun <3 she mid on my valley til i hornfreak. she freak on my horn til i midvalley. she. horn on my midvalley til i freak. is this anything

OH MY GOD???? HAS IT REALLY BEEN A YEAR. HOLY SHIT. i need 2 find my reaction post to that episode i need 2 know the exact birthday of hornfreakers. holy shit. happy anniversary she mid on my valley til i hornfreak . omg

MARCH 8TH.

#WILL UPDATE THIS WHEN I FIND THE POST. UN MOMENTO POR FAVOR.#HOLY SHIT..... ONE YEAR OF TRIGUNPOSTING.....#it feels like its been so muchblonger than that.... what do you mean i didnt know vash the stampede 5 years ago. hes my best friend #anyway. blows a kiss to midvalley the hornfreak. youre the best trigun character ever king #friends!!!#asks #anachronistic-falsehood #HOLY SHIT DUDE. THATS LIKE. IN 4 DAYS.#HOLDING YOUR HANDS. HAPPY ONE YEAR OF HORNFREAKERS.#hornfreakers unite!#<< I FORGOT I HAD THAT TAG. HILARIOUS. HEY GUYS IF U WANNA LOOK AT THE HORNFREAKERS POST IVE COLLECTED SOME OF THEM

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skeletalheartattack · 9 months

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happy almost birthday :o)

:) thank you!!! there's gonna be a bounce castle at my birthday party and every body is invited

#ask #catboygirljoker #ough.... the passage of time marches on.#on that tuesday i will be 25. fucked up.#i dont really do much for my birthdays honestly. besides my mom taking me out to a restaraunt to eat.#on the day of i just get a good pizza and thats enough for me #a friend did recently offer to get me a desktop computer. and the tower has been here since thursday.#im currently waiting on the monitor. which should arrive in a few days.#im. really bad at accepting gifts. that said. even after having accepted this one im still experiencing grief #the computers an older model. but it runs on windows 10.#im. internally scared to think about what it can and cant run. i even dread thinking about even finding out.#like. ohhhh how id love to play animal crossing city folk again... or even minecraft...#but im doing. my best. to keep my expectations low.#i really hope it runs emulators (gamcube/wii/ps2 era ones) well. i need to play dbz budokai again i need to look at zarbons model again #the monitor is 1080p. which i dont think ive ever had a monitor that high res.#ik that TF2 probably wont run the best. but i hope sourcemods run fine.#ill have to do so much re-installing of things....... ogh.....#it doesnt have a wifi chip so i think temporarily ill have to use a usb to connect to the internet.#which i can live with. ik theyre not as powerful but its fine. maybe at some point ill get a wifi card.#though. i dread the thought <- had internal ptsd thinking about touching anything within a computer again #tldr. had a good laptop. screen went dark one day. was told it was probably the cmos battery.#tried to do repairs myself. ooggh..... the horrible memories....#ik adding a wifi chip is incredibly easy. but that doesnt mean im not scared #anyway :) thank you for the soon birthday wishes

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liesyousoldme · 12 hours

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woof. i am calling my therapists office tomorrow!!!

#almost quit my job then had a panic attack then my mom dropped a ‘i think this thing from when you were a teenager gave you ptsd’ bomb #i fear she’s right though considering how i reacted to being told my 3rd shift would be alone #LUCKILY the person who hired me and does the schedules is none other than my little!!!! so she talked me off the ledge #and is going to schedule me only on shifts with other hosts until im comfortable enough to be on my own #can’t imagine if this had just been a job id applied for and gotten. like.#i would not be able to say ‘hi i think i need to quit because of that one time at old navy when i was 16’#whereas lauren is one of the best friends ive ever had and knows how to maneuver my particular brand of neuroses #and was like ‘you don’t have to quit i can single-handedly solve this problem for you’

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stupid-dyke · 6 days

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stayed up til 3 when I have an 8am again. I do this because I hate myself so sos sososososososososo much. It's really funny because I don;t fall asleep in class thanks to my meds but I've noticed every time I go to class after 4 hrs sleep people act weird around me which is how I know im acting really weird. And I am so extremely angry at myself. I spent 4 hours. well 8 hours. Well all day. Pretending I'm going to do homework and distracting myself with various other things on my laptop or crying on the phone to my parents. Got zerooooo work done at all i stayed up most of the nihght for literally no gain whatsoever this is pure self harm. Which I do becauase again I hate myself. Because I didn't do my work. Which i won't do tomorrow either because i'll be so tired I wont be able to string a sentence together even though I'm supposed to give a presentation haha. My favorite activity is staring at the clock on my laptop getting later and later and later. new high score etc. Who's a hypersomniac now. Imagine how much easier this semester would have been if I'd gone to bed before 2am ever. I'm so fucking angry at myself I'm not sure I'll be able to sleep now even. If I fail my classes again my parents are gonna make me live at home forever and say im too crazy to live on my own. I know I was supposed to get a therapist but I hate them all so, so, so much. I think people get that job bc they feel powerful telling some pathetic person what to do knowing I literally cannot do it and will come back week after week admittingn failure and paying

I know I was supposed to take the new experimental FDA approved drug for IH but the list of side effects is fucking terrifying and I live and sleep alone so i really don't want to take a super powerful sedative that can make you stop breathing. So I'm gonna keep taking stimualnts and lying to myself that today is the last day I stay up extremely late for no reason.

#it's really sad I'll skip the meds sometimes to try to sleep and it doesn't even help. I just feel worse while awake.#The real reason i can't sleep is because im screwing myself over by doing no work and im terrified im going to fail my fucking classes #and theyre all going to say im crazy if I fail my classes. theyre going to say im crazy and I self sabotaged on purpose #bc i dont want to succeed. Dad says that every day #Dad loves telling me everytjhing wrong with me multiple times a day every day so i never ever forget #hes so helpful. He's trying so hard to help. If i dont answer the phone he starts worrying ive committed suicide #again i was suicidal one week in 2019. Get the fuck over it. You've literally threatened to kill yourself multiple times. Fucking hypocrite #a bunch of my friends are going to graduate this semester and best case scenario i graudate next semester and then I'll lose touch with eve #ybody #and then the good times are over and life is boring and hell forever and ill get more disabled every year until I can't work and then I'll #run out of money and die #you know when I talked to my genetics professor about the alzheimer's results he said somethign will kill you eventually and it #wont be that unless you live to old age which will be good!#so true bestie. so ture #Guys lets be real here. Why the fuck. Do we live. why. It is so goddamn hard. Maybe it;s easy when u get sleep . But that hasn't happened t #me for a while #all my classes end next week and i havent done most assignments since spring break #also over spring break my parents met w a lawyer to revise their will adn afterwards dad told me im executor and explained to me what will #happen after each person in my family dies.#the assumption is that I will outlive everyone. they don't think my sister will live to old age adn they are already old #the lawyer apparently has clients with the same disability as me and all of them had the same thing happen. Once they get another disabilit #and get older it becomes impossible to manage IH and they cant work til retirement age #i just spent an hour typing this shit instead of sleeping. 4am-730am sleep lets go. I should kill myself #i hate my parents fucking advicce bc they;; be like well when i was ur age I was married it sure must suck to be single!!!! fuck you guys f

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strwbrymlkshake · 27 days

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I am trying so hard but it still isn't ENOUGH FOR YOU? DON'T YOU SEE HOW HARD I'VE BEEN TRYING?

#mine #normally i've been good about not being too upset over things #but oh fucking boy. okay. im glad people are scared of me #i hope they know that im the only right one in the whole world and they are wrong and are justified for fearing me and im glad my existence #will turn them off from sharing their wrong opinions. but oh FUCKING BOY? ive been sitting here the whole time like oh they hate me #oh they hate me so much they want me to die wahhh and im trying to do all the things they like because im for some reason fucking bothered #by their other opinions. even though the people themselves are useless trash #and oh. like i was suspecting it but its finally confirmed huh??? you all cant fucking stand the sight of me because im right?#you dont understand the truth?? they hated him because he told them the truth? thats me as fuck rn dude #i am literally gracing your eyes with the content i make and basically hand feeding you the correct opinions to have #and yet you still reject them! people just love being stupid unfortunately. i want to kill them all.#i would be so much nicer if you all just agreed with me on the objective truth but unfortunate you have to be stupid #i have graced you with so many GIFTS and protected you from my wrath so many times but you do not even give a fuck #WHY AM I CRYING. YOU ARE ALL SO USELESS WHY AM I CRYING!!! MAYBE ITS BECAUSE YOU DONT AGREE?#i guess im crying because they are all so stupid #so what im saying is its very unfortunate that everyone does not worship me and all my opinions and the world is very hard. yes.#friendship ended with self hatred now delusions of grandeur are my new best friend #even trhing to explain myself makes me sound like a shithead but i swear to fuck if you all just listened to me like youre supposed to #then absolutely nothing would ever go wrong! but you all had to be stupid on purpose! do you like being wrong? whats your problem #explaining all the reasons im RIGHT and yet i still feel bad for having the gall to do so. i shouldnt feel bad. im doing great. youre just #uncomfortable in the fact that YOURE wrong and making me have to accomodate you for your wrongness? tf is that about #okay lunatic rant over i have finished crying ☝️

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laurmaus · 1 month

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Hellll nooooooo😭😭😭😭😭

#OK BUT i kind of went crazy like thats literally him i think #i b so bored in first period i was on gacha this morning like my life depended on it i had a Vision #i made garroth too but he looks so stupid he’s hidden away😭😭#IMMA POST THE REST OF MU GACHAS THEY ARE ACTYALLY SO AWESOME #I never had a gacha phase as a pre teen and decided it’s never too late like last month before downlaoding #IDK WHY I EAS NEVER ON THIS IN FIFTH WHEN LIKE EVERYONE ELSE WAS THIS APP IS SO FUN #i literally go to the best high school ever and have the best friends ever literally no one cares what cringe ass thing people do #ive neverhad to feel ashamed abt my corny interests and imma b real i literally wouldn’t even have any corny interests if everyone wasn’t so #nice like😭😭😭😭It’s an encouraging environment u would NEVER see me doing this stuff in middle school i think it’s like the County school vibe #Sorry i got side tracked kind of I WISH I COULD TALK ABOUT HOW GENKUENLY GRATEFUL I AM ON TWT BUT I FEEL LIKE THATS SO SAPPY like no one #is thinking abt it that deeply but I AM im SO HAPPY to be in a place where i’m cherished and appreciated and where people will listen to my #mcd rant during lunch even fhough they have no idea wtf im talking about like GUYS☹️☹️☹️❤️#ougghhhh shout out to class of 2025 and my School in general and mt Friends obviously i love fhem so much

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steelycunt · 9 months

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driving up 2 my uni city on friday n moving into my new uni room in my new house...cant wait 2 decorate it i have such a plan i have posters i am so so excited.... : ^ )

#havent seen my room yet in person!! i couldnt make it 2 the viewing and well since our backup plan was 2 live in a seven person #tent on the downs because housing was so hard 2 come by...i did then go to visit the house on another day and though the girls who let #us look around were very very lovely to do so they DID misinform regarding the fact that there was no one else in the house but them #so when my friend tried to have a look in what would be my room she accidentally walked in on a bloke in bed xx ANYWAY ive seen #pictures and videos its going to be so cute its got a slant roof a little loft room...goign 2 have a double bed for thee first time in my #life...ive got so many things to put on the walls...i want to get candles wasnt allowed candles in the old room....might even get #one of those little trolleys those trolley shelved things? for a bookshelf #or plants perhaps...its going to be the best room ever i think personally considering what i had to work with last year i did very well and #this room is far cuter...yay....#(ridi's) bigmouth strikes again

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cc-kote · 10 months

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