#or make something fleshed out who knows

[s-guacamolearts]

I'm gladly going to announce that ace attourney has fully occupied my wrinkly brain and the chances are high it's going to chokehold me for at least six months

Anyway have something that has been on my mind for these past few days that I needed to get out of my system

Bonus:

#ace attourney #aa #phoenix wright #franziska von karma #pearl fey #anyway rambling time #so the idea is during aa2 post the whole prosecutor edgeworth chooses death phoenix wright goes missing a few months later #he returns a week later but is physically unable to speak #and he just continues his attourney career trying to communicate somehow through various ways #either he uses basic sign language #or just writes on a whiteboard or something #or has someone translate whatever he's trying to communicate #edgeworth return and instantly notices the sudden change and figures out what happened in his absence #although there's something he's unable to put his finger on and yup #and yes even sticking his hand under a running tap already causes phoenix to transform in like 10 seconds #i might actually try to write something for this #or make something fleshed out who knows

[cuepickle]

Stranger Things x Breakfast Club AU (part ?)

#hopper is Vernon in this AU because damn them kids #billy is obviously Bender cause I mean #duh #Steve is Claire cause he’s princess s1 Steve who’s constantly trying to fit in and impress everyone #and then we get to the others #and we’re changing it up #cause we know the breakfast club explores the different challenges teens face #and tries to stereotype them etc #just hear me out cause I haven’t fully fleshed it out #but Jonathan is the weirdo quiet kid who billy mostly leaves alone because he isn’t pretending to be someone else #and Jonathan’s at home problems are his daddy issues and the (sometimes extreme) overprotectiveness of joyce #Robin is here #she’s GAY GAY GAY #I’m still trying to figure out her problems at home #something that causes her to make fun of people/push them away as a defence mechanism #and then there’s Nancy #who’s so afraid of becoming her mother #who everyone thinks is in a happy nuclear family #but she knows it’s all bullshit #and she’s so worried she’s gonna end up like that too #anyway #those are my rough hcs for this AU #my art #doodle of the day #stranger things #billy hargrove #traditional art #Jonathan byers #Jim hopper #breakfast club au

[agirlking]

“The Sullys didn’t owe Spider anything, they didn’t adopt him.” It is basic decency to not leave a child with the murderers that kidnapped him. Much less a child you knew since infancy, much less a child who at least two of your children love like he’s their own brother.

#spider socorro #spider soccoro sully #miles socorro #avatar #i'm probably done harping on this now i'll get off my soapbox #look i don't hate the sullys #i think it's weak writing that causes this issue honestly #they didn't have time to flesh out every main #and they needed him kidnapped to further the plot #and neytiri is (i believe) blatantly set up to have an arc wherein she accepts him as his own person #though who knows #maybe they'll make him go bad and botch it or something #he doesn't deserve that #BUT in terms of what happened it is deeply fucked up how the adults around him regarded him #i don't think they WROTE it to be that way #but i cannot ignore the child neglecting elephant in the room #why does fandom always inevitably demonize children over adults??? #like kids have any trauma or bad emotion and fandom wants to crucify them #and the adults around them can do ANYTHING and it's okay #i saw it with harrison morgan from dexter #the vitriol toward that pooor child #who went through multiple traumas #is baffling to me #or travis and shauna from yellowjackets #constantly demonized and blamed for not handling a horrific situation perfectly well

[scoopstomyahoy]

thinking about a no upside down au steddie fic where steve and eddie run into each other years after moving away from hawkins, and eddie remembers steve and his fall from grace as king, and is kind of intrigued to see what kind of person he is now

and steve doesn’t remember him at all at first, because, look, eddie changed his hair again, and steve’s had a few head injuries (no upside down but i imagine he still went thru some shit with the party and with robin), and he didn’t really think about eddie in high school anyway, and he’s trying to forget about hawkins as much as possible (besides the kiddos, but they’re all moved out for college now, anyway) (obviously he lives with robin)

but steve is different now, happier, more open, flirts with guys, flirts with EDDIE, and eddie….. well, he wants to know more! and he tells steve he knows him from hawkins, and steve’s sunny little smile flickers a little, but he just apologizes for not remembering him and mentions he has some memory problems

and they get to know each other, and eventually as eddie tells him more (and maybe with the help of some yearbooks) steve remembers eddie. and. well. they like getting to know each other. and they like each other. and then they get together

eventually they’ve been together for a while, and eddie thinks he wants to maybe introduce steve to wayne, and he mentions he’s going to go back to hawkins for a long weekend (as he’s done a couple times) and this time he’d like steve to join him

and again steve’s sunny smile flickers a bit, but he says he’d love to meet eddie’s uncle, and… they go to hawkins. and it goes well— meeting wayne, at least, but steve seems a little on edge the whole time they’re there, tense when they drive in, fidgety when they go to the grocery store, et cetera. eddie thinks maybe steve is nervous about staying with the man who raised eddie, which is ridiculous, because wayne LOVES steve.

it’s not til they leave the town altogether that steve relaxes, and eddie realizes it wasn’t “meeting the parents” but rather going back to hawkins. and speaking of meeting the parents, steve didn’t ever bring his own up, even though eddie knew they still lived in hawkins. and the way steve glanced around whenever they went in public, like he was scared of getting recognized

and he asks about it, and steve doesn’t really want to talk about it, but he gives eddie snippets of it. people he wanted to leave behind in hawkins, memories that resurfaced, things he wants to forget

eddie goes back to see wayne sometimes, and the first time he doesn’t know whether to ask steve to come, so he just mentions he’s thinking about going to hawkins for some weekend and steve immediately starts making plans with him as if the invite is implicit. they go back to hawkins several more times, steve still tense and pent up the whole time they’re there

over time steve reveals more and more to eddie. everything that made hawkins hell for him, from the things he himself did in high school to the things people did to him. stuff tommy and carol and billy said to him. some of it is just typical high school bullshit (and oh, the nancy thing.) some of it is the tragedies steve went through, the horrors he had to protect his kids from. the injuries he sustained. more generally the homophobia that permeated the whole town, keeping steve from being himself. the lack of support in the indiana public school system for a high school senior who’s had two concussions and gone through incredible trauma.

his parents. the reason why steve’s mail is addressed to ‘steve buckley’ now, not ‘steve harrington’.

(that doesn’t come out until much, much later, and eddie is kicking himself for ever suggesting steve come back to hawkins.)

eddie, who hardly had an easy time of it in hawkins, is absolutely blown away by what steve had gone through in the same town, right under his nose. the entire persona that steve was trying to leave behind — the cool as a cucumber, unaffected, douchey mask he wore to hide all that he had endured. the head injuries. the emotional tragedies he had gone through. the way he had to be the rock for the kids even as he went through the same things as them.

he tries to tell steve they never have to go back to hawkins again, and steve is having none of it. he tells steve wayne can come visit them in their new city, and steve thinks that’s completely unfair to the man who had raised eddie, seriously, you’re going to make him come all the way up here?

and well i don’t know exactly what the ending is but steve is so stubborn about trying to love hawkins because it was eddie’s home and he wants to be able to go see wayne because wayne deserves to see his kid and eddie deserves to see his uncle and steve doesn’t want to be the problem :(

#steddie #stranger things #this isn’t very fleshed out but just. hawkins as an incredibly scarring place for steve #something built up in his mind as a very dangerous place for him not just because of what happened there but who he had to be there #i think ultimately it would culminate in them going back to hawkins and running into steve’s parents when they least expect it #and steve gets to yell at them in public and tell them they suck and ruin their image and eddie is being his little guard dog next to him #baring his teeth #for the no upside down part of the au i think it would have to be like. nebulous tragedy of season 1 struck them #barb still died (sorry barb) so that his relationship with nancy falls apart. will and el are twins and they disappear the same night #steve knows the kids earlier in the timeline in this one and has already basically adopted them when will and el go missing #eddie was never the victim of a massive witch hunt but jason still harasses him during his third senior year and gets ppl to gang up on him #so he was never like Wanted by all of hawkins and can never return but he sure doesn’t feel welcome there besides w wayne #oh i also think it would be important that one of the trips steve snaps at eddie bc he’s so strung out and immediately regrets it #and takes it as proof that when in hawkins Steve Is A Bad Person and tries to explain this to eddie #eddie meanwhile is trying to convince steve that he’s not a bad person and that he was being mean because he’s completely stressed out #and he wouldn’t be so stressed out if he didn’t make himself come back to hawkins #anyway ultimately. steve realized hawkins is just a place where bad things happened. it is not a place that makes people (including himself) #bad. it’s just. a place. and steve did not grow and change for the better bc he got out of hawkins. he got better bc he put the effort in #god i just. love steve so much and the version of him in my mind is so much better developed than what the duffers are doing

[suckishima]

okay this is so small but makes me really happy. taketora just got done talking about how much he admires tanaka and how cool and "manly" he is, which like makes sense right, both tanaka and taketora are always being shown as these like loud "boy's boys" archetypes who do everything with power, talk about girls, and emphasize "guts" and "manliness," so obviously taketora would respect tanaka

but then he immediately turns to also think about how much he admires fukunaga in the same way—fukunaga who doesn't display any of those same qualities that taketora was just admiring about tanaka. fukunaga is quiet, fairly low-key and doesn't flaunt anything ever. dude just goes around making weird puns that 1 people often barely even hear and 2 apparently seem to baffle everyone. but taketora sees all of that and sees how fukunaga still shows up and gets the job done more than successfully—he's one of the top point getters on the team—and taketora respects him for all of that, still calls him a "man's man" and tbh more than respects him, he admires him and sees him as a rival

and idk that just makes me happy, like 1 it's a nice small way of furudate saying that yeah "manly" is a thing that's important to taketora but it doesn't just mean one stereotypical thing—like it's showing that taketora isn't as one dimensional as we would have thought and that he sees things from multiple perspectives (we also saw this from him back during the whole "guts" thing with kenma and how he respects him too)—and it's also an example of seeing fukunaga from another perspective too. it's because he's so low-key that even we as readers have probably barely noticed how much of a rock he is for the team, but if you got back through their matches you can see how often he does score—he's quiet but he's always there. and i just like that furudate takes a moment to not only acknowledge fukunaga but to do it from taketora's pov in order to really hit it home to us how true it must be

#idk it just fleshes them both out and makes them both feel more real ya know #like we all know people who are like this right? but irl they arent one dimensional either. and like we've seen it with tanaka since foreve #like yeah hes 'manly' n stuff be hes also caring and compassionate and respectful #and i just appreciate the furudate does show these like “manly” characters as being more than just the typical archetype and makes #everyone feel like well rounded characters who can be multi faceted #<- okay maybe its not quite that deep here with this example lmao but i do think its something furudate does a lot #2021 reread #karaneko manga spoilers #hq manga spoilers #taketora #fukunaga #bingo contender? #x #this one was meant to be just a quick thought and not really a meta post but it sorta turned into a rambly mess instead oops lol

[candycryptids]

Hiya! I hope you're doing well today! I love your characters and how you've structered their bios! Since Chuusday is listed first, is she technically your official WOL or is it someone else? Do you canonically have a WOL in the first place?

Also, I find it SO sweet that you and one of your partners both play FFXIV and have characters paired together ;w; Did you meet ingame or long before either of you started playing? Either way I wish you both the best!!! <3 - gardenofballads 🌻

Awaaaah! Im doing pretty ok!!! Taking time to answer this as a wind down from Emerald Weapon Ex Brain Soupage. And I’m so glad! ;W; I think I butchered one of those “Get To Know An OC” thingies- uhh… oh [this one] actually! I chopped a lot out and I think added a couple different thingums instead because there was so much to that that it felt overwhelming to try to look at let alone fill out LOL but it was a really good jumping off point uvu;

And!!! Hilariously Chuu was my First XIV Character, so she’s dear to my heart for being the first one- but she very quickly made it known being the WOL even as an AU was something of a Joke (Her character showed great reluctance and even frustration at having to do So Much World Saving, maybe a side-effect of me rushing through MSQ to catch up with my other spouse [Who plays Talia, though they’ve got less time for XIV these days ;0;] and the rest of my friends who were all EndGame already at the time in Shadowbringers fhdjfjsjfs.) So I made…… many alts. Throwing spaghetti at the wall but I have SEVERE side-character/NPC brain and kept making “supporting cast” types =w=; it actually took me like. 3? Alts before making an ACTUAL WoL with my husband (Ishi’li and Kizuna) (as of Right Meow, they’re in post ARR, but we’ve been working on Keathan and Tuesday together because Keathan was… Keathan’s first character in xiv XD so we’ve been jaunting through the story together and experiencing every inch of it so we can pick and choose what The Boys™ get up to when we wanna focus on them x3)

🥰 I knew both speece during at least high school- but I actually knew Keathan as early as Elementary school hehe 😌 tho the speece didn’t proper marry until… i’unno, 2017? (For frustrating legal reasons, I’m not legally married, but. As it goes. Someday we’ll have money to visit the one state that has legal poly marriages. Also I struggle to remember our wedding year 🫢)

Since managing to make a Co-WoL with my husband I’ve managed to make one other Alt meant to be a Solo-WoL (Mochiie) but I have to really wrinkle my brain to sink time into playing him, since I’m trying to take screenshots throughout the story at what I find to be inspiring beats xD And even still he has an alt-universe where he’s just a side-character for the ‘Main Timeline’ (where there’s a bunch of spaghetti and like 8+ confirmed WoL’s and the Msq entourage looks HILARIOUS in canon, someday I’ll get all the data together and take pictures, but I think it’ll cook what’s left of my brain x’3) [it’s less concrete than anything I’ve posted about before or I’d try to explain it ;v;’ it’s just interesting mostly to see how the story gets stretched to fit around a larger community of heroes than a solo guy shouldering the whole burden lmfao.]

🌸🌸🌸…. I also hope you’re having a lovely week @gardenofballads !!!! I am tossing flower petals into the air around you !!! Thank you for the ask and well wishes n kind words 🥺💖 🌸🌸🌸

#ask game #day-2-day #I have serious Alt Disease as well which doesn’t help much XD #tho I try to justify it by making them a variety of races/genders/classes so I’m not just making 15 similar guys in different color palettes #like some kinda smash game…. LMFAO. #it helps some tho cos they get to flesh out and add meat color and history to The Boys+Co’s adventures/histories/stories uvu like Lev….) #Solkmyna and Swydghem who are true NPC alts of mine are even slotted into post ShB… #🫢 but they’re mostly just fun for me to occasionally chew on like a squeaky toy #tangy is schroedingers WoL. both is and Isn’t. could be The WoL if the au called for it but also works perfectly as just a Scion instead #…. wordy tags… my bad… ANYWAYS FR HOPE YOUR DAY/NIGHT IS NICE AND PLEASANT #I gotta stare blankly at the ceiling now while trying to retain mechanics but not pressed against the display glass of my brain #🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺💖‼️ #spawn speece #also yes there is something deeply strange wired in my brain where I link to sources but not super consistently like some kinda bad wiki pag #if I had stuff for Keathan + Kizuna to link to tbh I’d link to it here too LOL. #when I get ahold of Talia and Setsuna I’ll probably make little reference posts- not really Bio’s cos they’re not my blorbs #they’re my partners blorbs; but it might be handy to have a frame of reference to point at beyond vague name dropping #actually I love linking to names because my memory is just so piss poor. why not just make it easier for everyone else also #I know I have 185756328 OC’s xbdnfjdnfsnfjs so. #I have to do this for one of my friends uvu; bad memory havers rise up

[goldensunset]

riku’s whole series-spanning journey of redemption and trying to become the hero he was supposed to have been is kind of interesting to me. bc he like hardcore beats himself up over what he did but it’s not even the worst thing he did. yeah he gave in to darkness in kh1 but it’s really hard to blame him for all that much imo. not trying to say it was fine but in the grand scheme of things idk. again in the sequence leading up to kh2 he resorts to using the power of darkness to defeat roxas and in kh2 he’s beating himself up for that again. all like oh man i’m not worthy to be sora’s friend i’m not worthy of anything. meanwhile sora has never once this whole time felt resentment for riku and just wants him to come home and really riku you don’t have to beg him for forgiveness. but riku is really trying to forgive himself. bc he’s so hurt by the fact that he ever hurt sora at all. we see it all the way up to kh3 how much regret he feels for what happened all the way back in kh1. he is deeply devoted to sora and it makes him blind to the fact that hey um. you’ve actually like hurt several other people along the way maybe like apologize to them and earn their trust maybe it’s actually your bond with other people you gotta work on. like maybe go talk to roxas actually maybe go communicate clearly with kairi for the first time in years maybe say hey xion sorry for telling you to uhhhhh do that. like

#he DID need a whole redemption arc. but for something else entirely #riku’s whole thing is like he’s like the best person imaginable toward sora. everyone else better watch out though #i don’t personally find it admirable… #i know i know. guy who would kill anyone for you = coolguy. but only in certain contexts #like humor. orrrr being classified as a villain or at least morally gray #i love the development of his relationship with sora but ultimately it makes him. kind of the same as kairi #if his identity becomes based on one person #he has more agency and gets to fight more but his motives are much the same #not that it’s bad to have a single favorite person #but both riku and kairi are really in need of some other friends to round out their characters #of course they do have other people. including each other. but none of those bonds are fleshed out enough #kingdom hearts #mine: kh #mmm i won’t tag this any more i’m just getting thoughts out not trying to be controversial

[s0fter-sin]

i’ve been watching yannis marshall choreography for like 15 minutes and i’m back thinking about my dancer au

gaz suggests a pole dancing segment for the music video for price and ghost shuts it down hard, saying he doesn’t do pole. gaz calls him selfish, that he’s just saying no to spite him but ghost holds firm; not even listening to soap as he tries to reason with him and reach a compromise

soap gets to practice early like he always does, just to see ghost blasting another life by motionless in white and doing a flawless pole routine. he’s as mesmerised by him as he always is, such beautiful movements contrasted by the seemingly harsh music, and waits for him to break before teasing, “i thought you said you couldn’t do pole dancin’.”

ghost just wipes the sweat off his face with a towel. he knew he was there

he always knows when soap’s there

“i said i didn’t do pole; not that i couldn’t.”

“what’s stoppin’ you?” soap asks, genuine and innocently curious and it’s the only reason ghost doesn’t completely shut him down

“what ‘bout you?” he asks instead. “ever done pole?”

he shrugs and sets his bag down. “enough to get in a twirl or two. ‘sides, gaz’s better suited to that kinda delicate work.”

“now, that i know is bullshit,” ghost scoffs and soap tenses, expecting him to go off on another rant about his best mate (just like he waits through gaz going off on ghost) but- “i’ve seen your competition tapes; you’re plenty strong enough to work a pole.”

soap stares at him. “how have you-?”

“price,” he answers simply, throwing the towel on top of his gear and all but stalks towards him. “i like knowin’ who i’m working with; he sent me your breakdancin’ comps. if you can hold a three-fingered hollowback handstand, you can bend on a pole.”

soap sputters as ghost grips his tank top and yanks him over to the pole, setting his hands in place on the body-warmed metal; bracketing his body with his own. he guides his body through the motions; teaches him how to fall and catch himself in a spin, how to gracefully climb and hold his body in midair

soap laughs as he throws himself into a spin just to bend his legs over his head, twisting his body to latch onto the pole with knee and lean perfectly horizontal with his other leg splayed out; his arm thrown above his head

he tips his head back to catch ghost’s grin and almost drops himself as he jumps up to join him; artfully climbing above him and holding his whole weight on his hip as he flips down to look at him

soap���s breath catches at the scant distance between their faces; so close he can count the near invisible freckles on ghosts skin, his fair lashes and the deep flecks of gold in his dark eyes

ghost is just as entranced; his grin slowly fading as he looks into the light sparkling in soap’s eyes. he tips his head towards the mirrors lining the studio and they slowly turn to look at themselves; fitting perfectly together

“see?” he whispers. “we don’t look all that outta place, do we?”

“no,” soap whispers back. “we don’t.”

#after stripping for roba he cant do traditional pole without being reminded of it #of the hundreds of hungry eyes and greedy hands wanting to rip him apart. all encouraged by the man who has him trapped #im still trying to work out details (not that ill ever be fleshing this out beyond a notfic lmao) but i think other than soap’s self esteem #the other main subplot would be roba coming back after he realises ghost is simon #price got him away from his cartel backed strip club. whether he bought him out or has something else to hold over him i dont know #but part of simon taking on ghost was to hide from roba as much as it was to give himself a new life #but roba still has security footage of him in the club and if he releases it he’ll do irreparable damage to his and price’s career #the ghost used to work for (against his will) the cartel? esteemed director john price made a deal with him? #theyll both be ruined #not that ghost cares about his reputation. he only starts to go along with it bc itll hurt price #and after roba finds out about soap he threatens him too #how easy it would be for him to find soap and break a few bones. just enough to ensure he’ll never dance again #WAIT THIS COULD BE THE TURNING POINT I COULDNT FIGURE OUT!! #i said nikolai would be gazs manager so maybe ghost starts pushing soap away to try and protect him and gaz loses his shit #like ‘how dare you just drop soap after making him like you so much?!’ then it all just comes out and gaz says he’ll help #but hes doing it for soap and price /not/ ghost and enrolls nik who still has underworld connections of his own #oh shit its all coming together #if anyone wants to adopt and write this brw i would love you forever #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #we’re a team. ghost team #soapghost #ghostsoap #soap cod #john soap mactavish #ghost cod #simon ghost riley #kyle gaz garrick #gaz cod #task force 141 #cod fic

[contrappostoes]

I like Jolyne a lot and I think she’s one of the better protags but I’ve always felt kind of bad for completely understanding why some people don’t like p6 (not talking about people complaining in bad faith who partook in the hate train it had a few years ago).

I think there’s a certain subset of fans who’re very overly-defensive as a result of said hate train who accuse any criticism or dislike of the part of coming from misogyny though and it really gets on my nerves because.. people can just not click with certain parts, it’s not uncommon for a Jojo fan to not particularly like at least one part and that’s not any different with p6. Idk it’s just not 2018 anymore, most people moved past that ‘Ugh Jolyne is a Mary Sue Jotaro with boobs, skip part 6 it’s boring as hell.’ mentality a good while ago.

yeah, as someone whose love for jojo is more rooted in the way we can see araki continue to grow and improve as an artist/writer with each part, I definitely find the defensive way some fans react to simple disinterest exhausting. I've said it a lot on here but this is pretty much how I feel about part 4 - story structure issues aside, there's just something about the setting/genre/tone that doesn't appeal to me. meanwhile it's possibly the most beloved jojo part, which is fine lol!

jumping off what you said though, I find the way some fans selectively mishear legit criticisms of araki's writing exhausting....like one of my biggest gripes with stone ocean is the way hermes is completely sidelined for a large chunk of the part. she has such an interesting setup, araki totally fumbles her story and she ends up being one of the most underwhelming jobros because of it. this is a criticism of the way araki's sexist writing makes stone ocean a weaker (and to me, a slightly less enjoyable) part, it's not about thinking hermes isn't a good deuteragonist because she's a woman lol, but that's what some people choose to hear

and of course I do think that even if a lot of the fanbase is past that overt sexism about stone ocean/jolyne, misogyny absolutely tints the way many people read and talk about the part (or neglect to talk about it), so I completely get the frustration and why some fans might have their hackles raised about certain statements....the people who you're talking about are unfortunately a loud minority 😕 which sucks because all the stocean enthusiasts I follow are actual scholars and philosophers

#also this feels unpopular to say on here. but I get very little enjoyment out of things like making headcanons & the act of fleshing out #characters who have very little going on in-text. it plays pretty much no role in how much I enjoy a story #on the other hand I think a lot of people find that this is where they get a LOT of their enjoyment from and on some level they think that #if you're uninterested in that it speaks to something suspicious lol. when it's really that if the meat isn't there for me to #chew on I'm not forcing it as a rule. like do your thing but it's not problematic for me to be uninterested in factoring that stuff into my #assessment of a story. you know #jjba

[milf-harrington]

where im at mentally these days: my mum hugged me and said im doing a good job and i burst into tears <3

#i mean it was a little more fleshed out than that #i asked for a hug and she asked if i was okay and i didnt say anything so she said something about me feeling like #untethered. just kind of floating through life. and i said yeah. and she told me im doing a good job like. getting through the day basically #and i cried about it because i dont even know why its so hard #and i feel so shitty all the time because i just feel like a shit person like i dont try hard enough with my nephew #and hes so little and so smart and im so awful and every day im worried hes going to stop liking me bc im still learning how to be. gentle. #because i grew up with yelling and a locked pantry and an older sister who had to raise me #so i dont know how to not yell and not escape into my own world when i cant be bothered #and i have really good days and really terrible days and hes not a Job hes my nephew and i want to treat him like my nephew #and it feels so selfish to say im tired and that its hard and stressful and i dont know what im doing #bc my sister has to do it too and she doesnt get breaks like i do #she doesnt get to just decide to leave for the night - and i mean i dont do that but i have the option #and everyone keeps. like. telling me im doing good and im helpful and my sister especially tells me often shes grateful for me #and it makes me feel Awful bc i feel like i dont do enough and that the stuff i DO isnt good enough and just argh #anyway #vent over i need to go to bed its 1am and i have to get up in 5 hours #captain speaks

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

thinking about dream daddy again and god brian makes me so mad

#random thoughts #dream daddy #HIS ROUTE ISN'T EVEN ABOUT HIM #okay so the thing about the fleshed-out routes is you can tell a lot about a character depending on how many people are around #like with craig his first two dates involve at least one of his kids and a lot of social interaction because he's so overworked #so his final date where you just spend time with HIM one-on-one hits a lot harder #while with joseph he surrounds you with people but takes little periods of time to be alone with you to make a move #before instantly surrounding you with people again so you don't have enough time to question if he just made a pass at you #which is why his final date with you on the boat hits so hard: he purposefully isolated you in a place you could not easily leave #so he could make his move #and with brian... all his dates involve daisy in some way #which would imply he's trying to maintain some sort of distance? but he's not. he actively wants to befriend you #daisy and amanda keep tagging along... and for what? #they're eventually sidelined anyway! each date involves a moment where daisy and amanda are gone and you get a moment alone with brian #brian is the dad whose kid is the most present in his route and it says. literally nothing about him #make it so your character keeps inviting brian out and brian keeps making it a 'bring your kid and make it a playdate' thing or SOMETHING #maybe he's been raising daisy by himself for so long he's a bit rusty on how to interact with someone he's interested in? #on the second date daisy and amanda could have stayed home. it would change nothing #have daisy be sick and amanda be otherwise involved (maybe imply they're both faking to get out of fishing/get brian and mc to smooch) #like i don't think i'd mind daisy being around so much if she wasn't such a nothing burger of a character #give her some flaws! have amanda think she's weird or creepy! show us why she has no friends! #why is brian's route centered around our mc's daddy issues. we don't know his dad. we don't give a shit about his dad. #brian's route's main conflict ISN'T EVEN ABOUT HIM??? WHAT THE FUCK #you're essentially forcing us to make a character choice based on a backstory you also forced on us. you fallout 4'd us. #like okay. there's a lot of 'here's a part of your backstory you didn't know about' in dream daddy but this specifically doesn't work #like the ska band? it's a jokey plot device that's kind of weak but also a bit whatever #alex? is an explanation for why you're a single parent. very sad. not very fleshed out. #mc's dad? IS THE FOCUS OF AN ENTIRE ROUTE?????? WHAT THE FUCJ #literally no reason to do that. it makes brian a flatter character whose whole purpose is to react to your daddy issues #GIVE HIM FLAWS. MAKE HIM THE ONE WHO TAKES THE COMPETITION TOO SERIOUSLY

[sheepfish03]

Happy new year! I’ve been dealing with a bit of artblock, in that nothing i draw looks polished enough for my tastes, so I decided to do something in a messier style on purpose, and i think it helped?

#create mod #keralis #BDoubleO100 #sheepfish draws #Didn’t have time to draw more people so its just my faves sorry :p #my new years resolution will be to draw at least one (1) decent piece of art every month #and I would like to try writing again? maybe #I did start a lil something for an au i came up with. mainly as a reference for myself but honestly i had a lot of fun with that #so i might flesh that out and make it into an actual thing who knows

[chatonyant]

I was thinking about one if my stories and it was a weird realization in my head that as I am now, and probably for many years to come, I'm not going to have the narrative skill and/or experience to tell this story in the way I think it deserves to be told

This partly applies to a couple of stories, but this story in particular (lati's, which I still don't have a name for sobs) has a lot of weird layers of mystery and mental and social chess that I've been internally setting up then realizing I don't know how to lay that out in a coherent way lol

#alp go aaa #theres also the fact that i have to look at my stories and ask my self: #is this something i want to make into a full fleshed out thing? #and its always hard to answer because i think i would like to. #but at the same time i do not think i would be able to #not unless i get very good at long term planning because im not great with long term things #and none of my stories are....short. #every time i make a story it ends up much longer than i thought it would be #;w; #man. i need to make short stories to practice with #ill probably do something with ice and or tart but who knows yet #aough!!! motivation and planning my beloathed!!!! ill figure out someday?????? #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

[forcedhesitation]

After my last post I decided to sit down and rank all the possible companion pairs. here is the tierlist, should you wish to fill it out yourself.

This is a "ship" chart, but it's important to clarify that I am interested in how the dynamic works overall, not just romantically. I am very invested in how the stories of different characters overlap, and how they could mesh together to change both people involved. so the more interesting I find an individual character, the more likely they are to be higher in the chart.

How interesting I find characters also usually translates to my desire (or lack thereof) to draw them. So my likeliness to draw a pairing is the scale I used to describe each tier, rather than a nebulous "S," "B", or "F." This way, I feel it is better understood exactly why each pair is placed where it is.

Once again, sorry to those who enjoy miss SH. I do not hate her, I just do not find her to be an especially compelling character. I like the voice acting for her, but I don't care for her design, and I feel any element of her story is simply better explored in those of other characters.

*Special Exception 1: I have to split this pair off specifically, because I've thoroughly disparaged it in the past, based on erroneous judgments of halsin's character. when I first played the game, I locked myself out of a lot of Act 2 dialogue with him, which meant I missed the parts of his character that I do find interesting. I will say, it does still deeply bother me how much of his character revolves around sating the sexual desire players might have for him. I also hate that, as far as I'm aware, he can only acknowledge the player's relationship with astarion in the context of having sex. But after spending an entire campaign playing the game correctly, trying to learn as much about halsin as I could, and thus romancing him, so that I could properly judge him, I have grown attached to my rewritten version of him. so I'm not so much fond of the star/halsin pair as it is in game, as I am of that dynamic in the context of corydalis' campaign.

*Special Exception 2: after what happened with halsin, I feel it would be unfair to judge how interesting I might find minthara's relationship with most of the other companions, given that I've not yet had the opportunity to recruit her. despite this, I can safely say that I have no interest in whatever would likely play out between her any of the men, bar gale. gale is the exception because I've seen snippets of dialogue between them. I do not necessarily think they'd work together romantically, but again, it's more that the potential dynamic between them is interesting to me, regardless of the type of relationship they have. also, I do not categorise all other minthy x male companion pairs as bad because I am of the belief that she is not bisexual. I have faith that this game would make an effort to show us that she was a different identity, were she, because it already does a great job of affirming every other companion's bisexuality outside their potential relationship to the player. what I do not have faith in, however, is that minthy has as beautifully written a story as lae'zel does, where she learns to abandon the cruel and bigoted beliefs her society indoctrinated her to have. not when origin companions like wyll & karlach still lack material, and not when halsin's writing is as inconsistent as it is. I do not think that either halsin or minthy have, or will ever have, fully fleshed out narratives.

if you've interesting commentary about a particular pairing that you like, that you feel I might benefit from reading, do feel free to share it! even if I dislike a pairing, I am usually willing to read someone's thoughts about why they do find it interesting, granted it's not like...something utterly foul. I just ask you keep any commentary you choose to share to companion/companion pairs or companion/companion pairs in the context of polyamory with a tav/durge. NPC romance is another conversation.

#bg3 #thoughts about media #sorry. I know this is wordy... but I think it's fairly concise considering I am typing all of this. #I feel my commentary is still shorter than that of many streamers I've seen do tierlists for whichever subject. #overall I am still less invested in companion/companion pairs than I am in creating an engaging dynamic between a companion/tav of mine. #sure it's considerably more work to produce a compelling companion/tav pairing. but I find it infinitely more satisfying to do. #and I must clarify. because it's imperative to understanding why I enjoy it more. that I do Not do self insert tavs of any kind. #I have nothing against the practice. even though I do not understand the appeal whatsoever because my enjoyment of something doesn't- #-necessitate my complete identification with a character in the narrative. I rather enjoy different characters for different reasons. #when I make a tav. I'm creating an... “informed response” to whichever companion I am having that tav romance. #I start with a purpose and flesh them out as I go. I rework them over and over and over. sometimes I even change who they will romance! #it's a whole process. might not be what others find fun. but it's what I find fun!

[rucow]

the way im the only person who genuinely sees nerevar as being a divine (or at least a fragment of a divine) .... i need to lie on the floor and ponder

#i mean idk if theres anyone else out there but in General i just have. rly different interpretations of characters 🫣 #my nerevar is made of stars and light #everyone wants him to be something different. a leader. a politician. a king. a husband. whatever #but hes only a mer trying to achieve things far greater than him #in my mind palace voryn and azura are the only ones who Know hes divine #dont get me started on how voryn sees nerevar bc im going to explode #nerevar to me is an alien trying to fit in with the earthlings and trying to fill in the roles that they assigned him #ok hes a caravan guard now. now hes a soldier. now hes on his way to being adopted into house indoril #now hes king of a nation who thinks hes a real person just like them #but his place was never here. it was always up there. not in flesh #hes always yearning to be someplace intangible #voryn is tied to the mortal world...voryn is grounded by their family and their duty....but what does nerevar have? #nerevar could've had voryn #isnt it fascinating that both nerevar and dagoth ur exist only partially #theyre here in presence only. but not physically #if nerevar ascended then voryn descended. but they both ended up in the same state #vague spirits who dont get to have an afterlife #sorry if none of this makes sense but i did warn u that i was going to Ponder #txt

[marypsue]

me, encountering a photoshoot of or interview with an actor who plays a fictional character I am Not Normal about, out of costume and character and living their life as an actor, unexpectedly and abruptly reminding me that the fictional character does not in fact exist or have a life or interiority and is in fact portrayed by a Real Fucking Person who does exist and has thoughts and goals and dreams and a whole life entirely unrelated to that nonexistent fictional character, and could hypothetically stumble across my Being Not Normal On The Internet about one of many characters they pretended to be in exchange for a paycheque: ah lads not again

#yes I am aware that some actors do get as attached to (some of) their characters and flesh them out the same way I might #but also like. how fucking weird must it be to just be doing a job for a paycheque #a job you probably like! but still a job. and like. a role you have no particular attachment to you're just reading the lines they gave you #and some rando comes along with all these like. ~deep insights into the psyche of~ this made-up guy with your face #and all of those ~deep insights~ are equally made up #anyway I Know know that it's all just an elaborate game of pretend but sometimes. sometimes the real world intrudes unexpectedly #and sometimes you find out the actor's been reading fanfiction of his character smoochin' with another character #and could hypothetically have stumbled across your fervent and slightly feverish treatise on how that character likes to fuck #there is. a reason why we don't tell the people involved in making the canon about the fanfiction lol #to be clear. this dose of reality is not a bad thing. just makes it. extremely fuckin weird to think about the character for a bit. #yes i Know the character is not real and the actor is not the character. at all times. #but the reminder that the actor and I share a reality and they could hypothetically see me caring WAY too much about something they made? #unconscionable. when I am vampire witch queen of the universe actors will have to live in a pocket dimension where they can't get internet. #and can live their lives in blissful ignorance of the weird shit I want to write about nonexistent people who have their faces.