#osdd problems

[schrodingerscollective]

#osdd #osdd tag #osdd system #osdd 1b #osdd positivity #osdd community #osdd things #osdd problems #osddid #osdd memes #did osdd #did positivity #did community #did system #did memes #system memes #plural meme #plural community #plural positivity #system positivity

[adoraboy-moved]

sigh.

*opens simply plural*

*taps new member option*

[ID: an emoji with an exhausted expression fiddling with a cell phone. /end ID]

#she looks just like a dream 🤍 talking #god damn #. #new member #osdd blog #osdd 1b system #osddid #osdd 1b #osdd system #actually osdd #osdd problems #osdd #system memes

[thesolarsyst3m]

Are they really an alter or am I just looking too far into things?

Doubt.exe

#novah posts #did systems #osdd did #did osdd #did alter #did #did stuff #did positivity #complex did #did system #didosdd #did/osdd #actually did #did memes #osdd tag #osdd problems #osdd memes #osdd alter #osdd community #osdd positivity #osdd system #osddid #osdd 1b #osdd introject #actually osdd #traumagenic osdd #osdd stuff #osdd #dissociative system #plural system

[smbrsys]

Primarily closeted system things

- hinting at other parts fronting

- “oh yeah this was the other me”

- weirdly obscure lyrics and reposts

- calling yourself ‘I’ even when talking about the collective

- “oh yeah my memory is just really bad lol”

- *telling someone about trauma* “I swear you’ve told me this before/in a different way”

- wanting to buy system things but not wanting others to find out

- lots of different accounts on different social media’s

- ^ forgetting the passwords to every single one

- (especially in school) grades going from top scores to absolutely nothing with ‘no explanation’

- living in your head most of the time

#did alter #dissociative system #anti endo #endos dni #osdd community #osdd problems #osdd tag #actually did #did system #those dissociative feels #plural things #plural community #system #sysblr

[divinerapturesys]

splitting be like-

#did #actually did #did stuff #trauma #osddid #did system #osdd system #did fictive #did memes #actually dissociative #unspecified dissociative disorder #dissociative identity disorder #osdd problems #osdd memes

[raindropssys]

my alters wish to make connections with people in-person, but there are just so many things that are holding them back.

the fear of discrimination. if we tell someone we are a system / have a dissociative disorder, there's no telling what their reaction could be. would they be afraid? disbelieving? accepting? curious to learn?

the fear that presenting and introducing themselves with their own names would be "lying." if someone doesn't know we're a system, and we are introduced with another alter's name, it would somehow feel as though we would be deceiving them. even though it would in fact be truthful. i'm not exactly sure how to explain this in a way that makes sense.

making friends is hard in general. we're autistic, and we find it very hard to relate to neurotypicals. adding onto that, we have social anxiety, so befriending people is quite difficult.

i just want my alters to be able to stop masking all the time. i want them to be present in the body as themselves instead of having to put on a show and pretend to be me. i want them to build connections with others, have new experiences of their own, form hobbies of their own, experience the world as themselves. but it is so hard. and we don't know what to do.

#osddid #did osdd #dissociative identities #dissociative identity disorder #dissociative alters #dissociative system #did system #osdd system #did problems #osdd problems #system problems #did alter #osdd alter #raindrops.sys

[masksys]

We need more people who draw travis as a messy-haired, pathetic and ugly little guy with basically no social skills.

You guys have to remember,,,, he is not pretty. That’s okay! He doesn’t have to be! Not everyone in the world is a pretty little soft boy who waters plants and cuddles his boyfriend

Being ugly is real. I can say that we, as a collective, are very ugly. Filled with traumatized and rage-filled hateful idiots who want to feel flesh between our teeth, to tear out our bones and reveal to the world what truly being ugly is.

Being traumatized isn’t pretty. It’s painful and horrible and it fills you with rage and pain and you spend so many nights “ugly-“crying and trying to breathe but all that you can muster is a pathetic gasp.

Travis is not pretty. He has a black eye, his face scrunches up so tight when he’s mad,, he doesn’t care if he makes weird faces,, he just wants to show that he has HATRED and PAIN and the WHOLE GOD-FORSAKEN WORLD is going to burn WITH him.

Trauma, pain, rage, everything, it’s not pretty, it’s so hideous and it feels like being a wild animal or a bird whose freedom was stolen, whose wings were cut or ripped out. There’s so much hapiness and freedom ripped from your soul and it RUINS you.

Please, don’t reduce him to “just some soft boy with messy hair and a grumpy attitude.” There’s so much more. There’s years and years of trauma and suffering and he finally snapped, and he’s finally taking that match and letting it burn down the forests and turn each beautiful organism to softly-glowing ash.

This has been a post from the trauma holder (both source and outerworld). I am Mr Addison, and I bring this message as someone who knows exactly what it feels like to suffer and hold so much pent up rage until it all flows out of you like blood from a wound.

#plurality #salvis #sal fisher #travis phelps #sally face fandom #sally fisher #sally face #travis #trauma #traumatized #traumagenic osdd #osdd tag #osdd #actually osdd #osdd fictive #osdd system #osdd alter #osdd problems #osdd things #did osdd #endos dni

[lifewithghostly]

Is it normal to have days you just feel disconnected and can’t hear anyone??

#osdd host #did osdd #osdd #osdd system #osdd alter #osdd help #osdd problems #did community #otherwise specified dissociative disorder #dissociative disorder #dissociative identity disorder #anxeity #mental health #it’s just been a few days and I’m panicking that what if I just made this all up??? #am i faking it?

[dissociative-memes]

[Image: 18-piece background, alternating between blue & orange with a picture of a young degu in the middle.

Top text reads: “Forgets everything”

Bottom text reads: “Including the fast I've forgotten things”]

Did I blog this already? And would many of those with amnesia remember I blogged this... if I didn't post it already then why does it seem familiar? Or did I think about posting it but not actually post it?

#dissociative memes #dissociativedegu #dissociation memes #advice animals #whynot dissociativedegu #did memes #osdd memes #dissociative amnesia #dissociative degu #amnesia for amnesia #amnesia #actually did #did problems #did symptoms #osdd problems #osdd 1a #osdd tag #did osdd #knowing but not knowing #did a post this already #forgot what i blogged already #idk what im doing #doing the same thing again and again

[ask-me-about-therapy]

Tom Holland shocked his fans last month when he announced he would take a year-long break from acting to look after his mental health after playing Danny Sullivan in Apple TV’s The Crowded Room. At first, it was difficult to see why — the show, following a young man accused of attempted murder as he reveals his dark past, was hammered in the reviews, and the series didn’t really seem to make a splash.

However, many reviews alluded to a big “twist” in Episode 7. Now that twist is common knowledge: Danny Sullivan is a Host in a Dissociative Identity Disorder system, and the crimes were committed not by him, but by his “alters.” Characters whom viewers thought were Danny’s friends and protectors were actually part of his internal life, and in later episodes, we see them “front,” or present themselves in Danny’s behavior. His accent, posture, and whole personality switches.

This wasn’t much of a twist if you knew where to look. The entire series is loosely based on the real-life case of serial rapist Billy Milligan, who pled insanity due to DID and was found innocent. Daniel Keyes’ book The Minds of Billy Milligan is even credited in the opening sequence, making the late twist a bit less shocking than intended.

What isn’t surprising, however, is how another fictionalized story of Dissociative Identity Disorder is tied with murder. From Dressed to Kill to Split, fictional examples of this disorder are often shown as dangerous, violent people, and The Crowded Room seems to perpetuate that.

“Whenever there's any kind of media that surrounds DID, I lead in with a cringe almost every single time now because it's so misrepresented in media,” Kelly Caniglia, MA, LCMHC, LMHC, CCTP, tells Inverse. Caniglia is a board member of An Infinite Mind, a non-profit that provides resources and advocacy for those living with DID.

Dissociative Identity Disorder, previously referred to as Multiple Personality Disorder, is a trauma response where an individual undergoes something so traumatic that memories, feelings, and traits are fragmented and spread across multiple identities. It’s a surprisingly common occurrence. “1.5% of this population is living with DID. That's more than people than there are redheads,” Caniglia says. “It is so much more common than people realize. And so this is a whole genre of human that we're essentially spotlighting and trying to make a quick buck on.”

To the show’s credit, it’s clear the minds behind The Crowded Room took a responsible portrayal of DID in mind. “We read Daniel Keyes' book, we read articles that align with the topic, we watched films and documentaries, we spoke to experts and specialists in this field,” Tom Holland told Inverse’s Hoai-Tran Bui during the series’ press junket. Caniglia does point to elements that show this research, like the depiction of Danny’s internal space as the eponymous “crowded room,” a space where alters convene and discuss what to do going forward. This internal space is something experienced by some (but not all) DID systems.

But it’s hard to get behind this show as a thoughtful, considerate reflection on this disorder when it’s treated as a “gotcha,” like a narrative twist that’s full of shock and awe, not something that is simply a part of who the character is. Still, Tom Holland defended the choice. “What's really important about our show is to understand that there's more to Danny than just his DID. We wanted audiences to get to know him as a human being before people make assumptions about this mental health issue, this affliction that he has,” he said.

To Caniglia, the twist was low-hanging fruit. “There are so many pieces to DID that are not widely understood,” she said, “So it's fascinating to those that don't know it and it's fascinating to think about, ‘What? This one body has 50 people inside of it? What does that look like? How does that work?’”

So what could this series do to portray this disorder in a more sensitive light? For Caniglia, it could be as simple as a disclaimer that this is one DID story, or any other way of using this show’s high-profile platform in order to spread awareness of just what DID is in our world beyond the violent stereotypes.

She also pointed out there are other works that are working against this archetype, like filmmaker Dylan Crumpler’s short film Petals of a Rose, or even Marvel’s series Moon Knight. It was still a violent portrayal of a DID system, but it showed a hero as someone living with DID. The population finally had positive representation they could look to: a literal superhero. Considering the past depictions, that’s a big step.

The Crowded Room is a gripping story that does attempt to show that DID is nothing more than a self-preservation technique, but it’s still perpetuating harmful stereotypes, even if it’s based on a true story.

“Representation is so important,” Caniglia says, “And this population is already so marginalized that though this piece is entertaining and has points of great execution, it still reinforces the rhetoric of people with mental illness, in this case DID, are dangerous.”

#dissociative identity disorder #dissociative fugue #dissociative amnesia #dissociation #actually dissociative #dissociative disorder #dissociative system #other specified dissociative disorder #dissociative personality disorder #complex dissociative disorder #dissociative vent #did alter #did i hallucinate that #did disorder #actually did #did system #did community #did osdd #did positivity #osdd problems #osdd 1a #osdd #actually osdd #osdd alter #osdd system #osddid #osdd positivity #osdd memes

[schrodingerscollective]

Imagine knowing your alter count lmao

#osdd system #did osdd #osdd positivity #osdd community #osdd #osdd 1b #did memes #osdd memes #system memes #system positivity #did positivity #plural community #plural positivity #plural meme #plural system #did community #did system #osdd things #osdd tag #osdd problems #did problems #system problems

[thecorvussystem]

Don't you just hate when you're minding your own business, listening to playlists on shuffle, when a song starts to play and fucking 𝙇𝘼𝙐𝙉𝘾𝙃𝙀𝙎 an alter to the front like a sleeper agent and theyre all like

"𝑺𝒕𝒐𝒑 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈"

#why do they do that #they think its funny #just silly lil guys #system memes #fictive heavy system #traumagenic osdd #osdd system #osddid #osdd things #fictive #osdd 1b system #system things #system problems #osdd problems

[the-rainbow-squad-system]

Rapid switching be like "Choose your character"

but it goes too fast to actually choose a character and you just end up seeing flickering colourful lights instead of actual characters

- 🏮

#fictive alter #dissociative disorder #dissociative identity disorder #did #osdd stuff #osdd problems #osdd system #osdd alter #rapid switching #🏮zyran #system struggles #system memes #did memes #osdd memes

[just-an-anxious-little-mess]

Plural community, I need your help

(This is going to be a long post but please, I would really appreciate it if you took the time to read through it. Thank you very much, continue)

Hey, hello. I'm reaching out to the D.I.D/OSDD/Plural community in general, I need you guys' help. I have a slight suspicion that I might be an OSDD 1-b system but, my mind just keeps hammering in my head that I'm faking everything, that I'm just actively pretending to have all these symptoms and red flags just so I can sorta "fill the void" of feeling extremely lonely. It wouldn't be the first time I did that to myself- making me think I have a disorder when in reality it isn't true.

So I just need to know... how did you figure out you were a system? What signs should I be wary of? How can you even tell at all? This specially goes for systems with little to no amnesia barriers, since that's my case.

Some of the symptoms -or I guess things I've noticed that made me second guess- are:

I've been through childhood trauma (starting at age 8).

I can't remember my childhood/pre-teen years, specially from ages 10 to 12, only some bits and pieces. That time is a big ass blurr.

I've always referred to myself as "we" ever since, well- I can't really remember when.

I've had times in which I sort of turn into a child, but I can remember everything that happens. Is like there's two versions of me at that moment- the "child" me who's currently in control of the body, and myself, who's always in the back fully aware of what's happening and ready to jump in if anything occours. I thought that was age regressing, but I'm having second thoughts.

I've had times in which I feel like I was some characters of media I like, and I fully feel like I'm... Them. But again, still can remember everything that happens. I recall this one time when I was really distressed about something and suddenly, bam, felt like I was a character and I completely calmed down.

I've had these voices in my head for the longest times, I call them parts of myself. Like one of them particularly is keen of keeping me stable, grounding me if I'm having a panic or anxiety attack, reassuring me everything's gonna be okay, etc. Another part likes to argue about everything I do, having more of a negative outlook of things (this part is actually the one that keeps telling me I'm faking everything). Another part is the child one I was talking about earlier, I can feel her anger and pain and confusion about everything that happened to me.

I am so used to having internal arguments about everything, and I mean everything. I talk myself through my issues by discussing with these different parts.

These past few days, every time I try to do some research about OSDD I feel this awful feeling that I shouldn't, this feeling of panic.

Some reasons of why I think I'm faking everything:

Again, no dissociative barriers between almost everything that I've listed so far.

I have to kinda force myself or force my brain to be able to "listen" to these voices, and they quiet down when I'm focused on something else or I completely forget about them. This leads me to believe I'm imagining it all. If it were truly some sort of dissociative disorder, I would not have control of when I hear them.

If I am truly a system, wouldn't I have noticed it earlier? All of my life I went along living like a singlet, never questioning if I heard voices or not, never showing a symptom. Sure, the whole POINT of a system is to never let the host know, but still.

When I was about 13 I started doing my research on D.I.D (because I'm a huge psychology nerd), and I convinced myself I had that disorder. Even going as far as pretending to have it online. Yeah, I know, I was an asshole. That's why I'm worried I might be doing the same here.

Because of personal reasons, I lost my friend group and ended our relationship with my previous partner. That's why I feel extremely lonely, and that loneliness might lead me to make myself believe I have someone in my head, anyone. That way I won't be alone.

Not proud of this one, but I have to admit... I wanted to be a system when I did my research back in the day. The thought of not being alone anymore, of having someone else to step in like no one did for me when I needed it, of having someone else by my side... I really wanted that. And I'm afraid that desire is clouding my vision of whether I have a disorder or not.

If you got this far, thank you. It means the world. Please, I am open to any answers or advice you wanna give me, I'm desperate at this point. I just really wanna know if I'm faking it or not.

Thank you, sending love.

(Ps. sorry for any spelling and/or grammar mistakes, English is not my first language)

#d.i.d #d.i.d system #osdd #osdd 1b #osdd problems #plural system #alters #mental health

[masksys]

I know it will sound silly, and I know we’re supposed to want to heal,

But I don’t ever want to heal. I don’t want to lose the sleepless nights where we stay up comforting each other. I don’t want to lose cuddling in headspace. I don’t want to lose the times when our trauma holder (Mr Addison (he holds source trauma too)) is freaking out, I want to remember every single bad and good thing. It’s all a part of our experience in living, this is just how we are, and I’ve grown so fond of it. I know it sounds selfish. I know I should want to heal and become “normal,” but I don’t want to.

I don’t want to lose this. They’re the one thing that is helping me (Sal, the host) stay alive. I find so much comfort in their words and little bits of chaos they bring into the outerworld life. I love them all so dearly. I know it’s not my choice to make. I know i’m being selfish. I don’t care.

I can’t lose this. I won’t let anyone take this away from us. Even if there’s so much trauma to work through, we’re still all individual and we’re all wonderful people who deserve good things. Trying to take away individuality is too much to even think about.

This might change with age, but for now, I refuse to let anyone try to make us into a messy blob of mixed-up feelings and thoughts.

(No hate towards systems who aren’t as specific / individual, i love y’all)

#plurality #system #osddid #osdd problems #osdd 1b #osdd host #osdd alter #osdd support #actually osdd #osdd introject #osdd fictive #traumagenic osdd #osdd system #osdd things #osdd community #osdd stuff #osdd #osdd tag #did osdd

[kip-has-fleas]

qwq

*overly dramatic heavy sigh* ladies gentlemen and other genders i have accepted that i have one (1) hobie brown in my system *another dramatic sigh*

having fictives makes me feel like i'm faking :)

#sysblr #osdd problems