#regret creating something

[jameszmaguire]

I think it would be better for everyone if I were to be left alone in the future. Don't you?

#goodomensedit #goodomenssource #goodomensedits #Good Omens #Aziraphale #tusermyra #userfra #tusermich #maria7potter #crowleyanthonys #userbecca #usereena #my gifs #this is not a gifset about Aziraphale being badass or him lying to god being a grand thing or anything because it's not #it's about the actions he takes that go against or bother Heaven in all their variety #it's about his unpredictability and the precedents he has set in taking action #and how he has given up everything he loves for the chance to do good #so once he realises that Heaven won't let him he's gonna Do Something and i can't wait to see what #it's Aziraphale so there is a pretty big chance it'll create a mess in wholly unanticipated ways #either way i hink Heaven is going to have regrets one way or another

[nguyenfinity]

[slams this on the table] HAPPY MOTHERS’ DAY

Extra:

#when i said i'm taking y'all down with me. i goddamn meant it. #enstars #mamagi #niki shiina #hi if you're new around here yes i am aware mother amagi has passed in canon this is just my fun little delusion #y'know if the amagis actually had something nice in their lives #the file for this was created april 28th so you can imagine how long this has been on the backburner #i don't think she's. completely innocent in rinne's childhood trauma (if that's the right term for it) #but she definitely regrets not doing more for him #she loves her boys #and her boys' boys #if rinne has a habit of adopting little brothers she has one of adopting sons sorry #i would've liked to make this nicer but working on things a little too long makes my skin crawl sorry #i love her tho #also read bean's fic. 'safe and warm a loving embrace' on ao3 you know you wanna #also is this the mamagi and niki hug you wanted mutsu. remember when you asked for that. i had this whole thing cooking before you did. #heheheheheheh #MY BAD IT WAS COOKIE WHO ASKED FOR THE HUG #I'M SORRY COOKIE #HOPE YOU LIKE IT THO

[dykedvonte]

In light of me being obsessed with House saying he started to see Benny as a son, House is a hypocrite in calling Yes-man a vanity project cause while Vegas is clearly his vanity project with all his plans for it, there’s something more subtly vain about trying to rewrite and recreate an hypothetical heir in his image that he clearly would’ve done with Benny as he does it with you.

#like sir having an unknowing protege is very vain #mfw house likely has regrets about not having more human connections and a more mundane legacy in a family seeing as he was an orphan #and it’s likely Vegas is not only a substitute in how he explicitly wants the tribes to call themselves families now and how he creates ties #between himself and them hit particularly Benny #fallout #fallout new vegas #robert edwin house #mr house fnv #benny gecko #Benny fnv #I do not believe Benny would see house as a father figure a mentor maybe but that’s still pushing it #he’s just the man in charge and and a smart knowledgeable guy #and I’d say more but it’s just speculation as I have to supplement a lot of the families backgrounds and customs with HCs #as we have no idea if any of them had traditional family structures or something that would denote Benny giving house that specific type of #respect and adherence

[br-disaster]

on Nie Mingjue's birthday

Since some people mentioned they didn't know about it: he doesn't have a canonical birthday chosen by the author like Wei Wuxian, Nie Huaisang, etc; but a few years ago they released an official CQL calendar which featured some characters' birthdays, including NMJ's, on January 1st of all dates

After it was released, some people started celebrating, especially on twitter, using the #聶明玦生日快乐0101 hashtag and the #HappyBirthdayDaGe tag (and i encourage you all to check both). The latter is used every year since I found out about this calendar, on a little event hosted by Hourly Nie Mingjue (which is me but we don't need to go there)

So, it's not Official™️ like some other character's birthdays, but it's a date and since there was never a consensus on when to celebrate his birthday, a lot of us just accepted this one.

You can check all the dates featured in the calendar on this compilation.

#i never tried to turn it into something bigger like a proper event because i don't think i'm capable of doing that #but there has been other birthday events over the years either within ship events or on other dates #i kinda regret not posting more about this on tumblr but again; it would turn into something bigger and i don't think i could organize it #nie mingjue #'s official unofficial birthday #cql #mdzs #but anybody who wants to create something; there's still time <3

[probablyaseamonster]

My favorite thing about the Bad Boys so far is that Grian is self-conscious about the skins.

Like I've seen all this cool fanart of them in their cool leather studded jackets and sunglasses but I think y'all are missing out on some comedy by not drawing Grian at least a little shy.

Most entertaining moment at entertainment mountain yet for me was when Jimmy was flexing his skin and Grian was like, and I quote, "I don't wanna", and Bdubs thought it was the coolest thing but Cleo was all like "hang your head in shame".

Like? I don't know how to explain it but I think this is fanfic/fanart material and y'all are missing out.

#limited life #the bad boys #My weird sense of humor #Bdubs is such a bro #Cleo being cool as usual #Please someone create something off this #It's midnight rn so I may regret posting this in the morning #But better now than later! #If anyone's written a fanfic send me the link please #Grian with confidence issues is my favourite Grian #IN FANFICS #I haven't watched Bad Boys POV session 4 #You ain't seen Bad boys 4?? #I don't actually know where this is from as I am a puny gen z #Late night Probs strikes again

[chloeseyeliner]

help, now that i have stopped tearing up at every mention of the series, the young royals forever documentary and the bts videos have brought my past obsession with film-making back-

#beware: rambling ahead!!! #so when i was in high school a secret dream of mine was to go to film school #because i was mesmerised by the whole process of writing and directing and everything the crew typically does during filming #and i was reading so much stuff about all the different angles and symbolism and the like #but of course my mother wouldn't let me #(very neil perry of me lmao) #and i mean i was trying to be realistic too #because i don't come from money and greece is not exactly a great place to be an artist #(since i wouldn't be able to go abroad and chase my dreams or something like that i am not the main character in a disney movie) #so like i threw this dream into the bin along with being an astronaut (i was bad at physics because no one ever explained anything to me- #-before last year of high school i still don't know how i technically aced my uni entering physics exam lol ANYWAY) #and don't get me wrong #i like the path i have chosen now (which was at the beginning at least also against my mother's wishes but she thinks it 'has money' so- #-she 'allowed it' as if- i won't say anything worse i'll regret later i'll just leave it be) #i like it very much because i can help people and maybe contribute to making this world a better place #i just... #i watched the documentary some days ago and it's all i can think about (along with the show of course) #like i LOVE the cast #but the crew is magnificent as well #what they create is like magic #anyway #young royals #filmmaking

[daylighteclipsed]

Not the creators of AI quitting their jobs and advocating against AI cause they’re legitimately worried of the harm it can do to humanity including literally killing us 💀

#it’s not like there are a thousand books and movies and shows warning about what a bad idea making tech smarter than us is !!!! #or creating artificial life in general !!!! #and apparently the ‘godfather of ai’ was warned every step of the way to stop his advancements and he didn’t listen #so something major must’ve happened to change his mind and make him regret his life’s work #like the ai must’ve said or did something Bad #but now it’s too late to hit the brakes. because every country in the world is racing to implement this tech and make it better than #the competition and people are too greedy and stupid and scared to all agree to stop developing ai #god i just. i just have to laugh #this is literally not supposed to happen in real life

[speedofsoundsketches]

it sounds like you harbor resentment and bitterness towards the entertainment industry. Which begs the question- why are you still working there??

As is a usual fact of life, one typically has to partake in things you may not like doing in order to gain the experience needed to make something yourself.

Plus, it helps having a healthy dose of reality put your passions and dreams into a proper perspective. Knowing what kind of environment and mechanations are at play helps with navigating the complexities of creating entertainment in this day and age.

#contrary to perhaps popular belief I do have personal aspirations that extend beyond doing Sonic fanart #I draw sonic simply because it’s fun and I enjoy it #One day I’d like to create something of my own #so the experience I’m gaining is valuable for that #no regrets just being realistic #Zoomer Sonic #text #anon #ramble #asks

[tbcanary]

thinking about jason and dick. thinking about how when jason was robin, dick was too hurt and angry at bruce to really be there for jason as a mentor and older brother. thinking about how dick is with tim, how he very clearly wants to take him in as a younger brother and show him the ropes, and how he and jason could have gotten there, too, if they had more time to figure it out.

#text.tb #the thing is that jason isn’t that much of an influence over Tim’s Robin run as i think it’s often written to be #like Tim was just. doing his thing. jason only comes up a couple times. #there are more direct parallels and mentions of jason during Steph’s brief run as Robin — something I often think about — than tim’s #but even so. like. do you think dick has regrets. #there’s a sort of narrative here of. jason had to die in order for Tim to become Robin. sure. #but jason also had to die in order for dick to be okay with someone new taking up the mantle #and to take them under his wing (heh) #Jason’s death took with it the difficulties of being the first to take dick’s station away from him #so that when Tim came along. it was easier. #and I mean that also could have happened if Jason had grown up and they’d actually worked to mend fences and then someone new entered #thus creating a natural legacy of the mantle and the name #but really. the death was quicker. and this is comics. #anyway I don’t know what I’m getting at here I just think about dick and jason A Lot #they fascinate me but only with specific writers taking them on. as you might guess.

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

“A part of me still thinks we’ll find our way back around.”

I hope we do ❤️

I left the church a while ago and I don’t think I have any blessings I can actually give but the best one I can think of is that I hope you find a place for your art to go

#let me know if you ever make it and I’ll do the same #in a few years maybe I’ll find my way to the tiny seaside down where all I have to do is write #and maybe you’ll find your way to where your art needs to be #i left religion for a reason but I do miss it #and one of the things I miss the most is the sense of determinism #you’re just becoming the person you need to be to get where you’re meant to be in the end #I don’t regret being a lawyer #but a part of me hopes desperate that I’m a lawyer because the version of me that becomes an author needed to be a lawyer first #when I was little I used to bookmark moments in my mind #I’d be doing something random and think ‘I’m going to think about this in one five ten years’ for no other reason than I wanted to track #the passage of time. ten years seemed so far ahead looking forward but I knew it’d be small looking back and that always seemed silly to me #I remember sitting outside a dressing room on an unremarkable day for no other reason than I decided I wanted to remember it in a decade #anyway I don’t do that so much anymore #but I think I’ll remember this in five years #and I hope when I remember it we’re both where we want to be #I hope you find your way back around #I hope you’re happy where you go #and I hope you can create everything your heart wants to let out

[bigendershadowthehedghog]

okay focused on splatoon hard enough i have a splatsona now

hope the alt text is good enough! fun fact i didnt really pay attention to competitive players that much so i only just learnt that hiding in ink and then jumping out at people isnt actually called ''me jumpscare''

#splatoon #splatoon oc #my art #splatoon 3 #splatoon fanart #no idea what else to tag this with #kind of regret not getting into splatoon earlier because from what ive heard splat 1 and 2 are so much better #and i cannot find out how to get my wiiu emulator to run online without official files #because i dont have a wiiu to get those official files from and like i found a copy of them online but like it needs to be set to specific #settings to work and i dont know what those are. and wiiu online services are getting shut down soon anyways #also switch emulators all hate me and my mid-tier laptop so no splatoon 2 / octo expansion for me #but still whatever. i have created a silly guy and you will all observe #so nervous about posting art tbh what if everyone hates me and my art actually sucks and i must have too much false confidence to post #and i actually killed someone by posting this and what if people were waiting for me to post art so they could have an excuse to kill me #but still im posting anyways #tbh my main fear is that someones going to be like ''this looks too different to your other art explode'' or something because #my artstyle can be consistent sometimes but also sometimes it just doesnt do that

[kayatoastkkat]

art teacher told me i could use fanart for ideation of my final art assignment i can't help but wonder if it was the right choice to draw Jekyll for a theme about mental wellness

i mean he definitely can be said as "what happens when you DON'T take care of your mental health" but mental wellness? mmmm…not too sure we'll wait and see.

#real life stuff #art idea that may never be used but #i think it'd be nice to think about it #and after all it's something for school #school assignments do push me to create amazing stuff i don't regret

[mctreeleth]

Something something commodification of hobbies resulting in alienated leisure as parallel to alienated labour... disconnect from “product” in both instances... alienated from leisure activities through need to commodify under rules of post-Fordist neoliberal capitalist hustle culture... if the goal is to enjoy the effort, putting a price on that effort transforms said effort into labour/done for profit rather than enjoyment, and so the individual is alienated from their goal of enjoyment in service of the new capitalism, in much the same way that a worker is alienated from their labour under Fordist capitalism... something something “the market” as boss to self-employed individuals... something something the algorithm is more fickle than the man in head office and you don’t even have a union....

#I don't regret dropping out of PhD because I am alive to look back at it and therefore I made the right decisions #because the wrong decision would have been pushing on even though it was so so so bad for my mental health that I wouldn't be here #but I spent a good few years railing against post-Fordist capitalism and then went and got myself a very Fordist factory job #and I am much happier doing that than I think I would be trying to commodify the activities that I do for leisure #I put in my 38 hours of time and yes someone else is making money off of it #however #every time I see a reel on instagram that is a small business literally dancing so that the algorithm will favour it #I see the parallels between all these people who ''are their own bosses'' and me who has an actual boss #both of us subject to the whims of *some other thing* #but my creative output is not mired in capitalism's tendrils #I am connected wholly to the things I create #it is for me it is not for ''the market'' #I don't need to care that what I do at work is an atomised part of some larger thing when I can make a coat start to finish after work #but somethings you have a thought and realise you gave up the chance to just write this sort of stuff properly for the rest of your life #like okay yes that would have also made me utterly utterly miserable #and maybe I would not have had this particular realisation were I not literally at a factory job right now #but it was nice to have my thoughts validated by people who knew their shit

[whenfatecollides]

a bit of a vent/update (it’s heavy). I’ve always dreaded the ‘where do you see yourself in 5 years?’ question because I honestly have never been able to picture anything for myself that felt real and tangible and something that I could actually want and achieve in the future. I would be like ‘yeah I want to be dating my future girlfriend by then’ or ‘yeah I want to be working a job that I actually like’ or ‘yeah I want to feel like I’m doing something meaningful with my life by then’ but it was all very superficial in a way, it felt like I was saying rehearsed words and although those are still things that I want, there’s a lot more detail to them now. tbh since I finished high school (almost 10 years ago at this point..) that I’ve felt really behind in life compared to my friends, and other people in general, but at the same time it took me 14/15 years to actually figure out what happened to me when I was a pre-teen and why I spent 10+ years of my life crippled by depression, so all things considered I think I came out of all that pretty okay. I started therapy about 5 years ago and altho it was a slow progress, I can at least say that I’m not on the verge of feeling suicidal anymore. I think being a teen on tumblr in 2010-2013 definitely didn’t help much with that either, the romanticisation of depression and self harm back then was Real and the last thing I should have been exposed to at the time. it was to the point that I actually tried to kill myself when I was 16, right before a family trip. I can talk about this now, but I can tell you all as well, this was a root of deep shame for me until 2020, when I finally had the courage to tell my mom and siblings about it, because it made me feel so ungrateful, stupid and generally a shit person for not appreciating everything good that I had, while at the same time it made me hate myself for not actually going through it fully, to the point that I always thought that I would take this to my grave without letting anyone know. at this point, I’ve forgiven myself for it and acknowledged that, despite how hurtful it was, this is a common pain and, unfortunately, many people know it too. No matter how much I convinced myself of it back then, I was never alone in that pain. At the same time I made really great friends here (some I’ve been friends with for over 10 years now), even met some of them in real life, and it was overall the place that made me feel comfortable enough to consider (and accept) that maybe I wasn’t straight. so not everything was bad.

it was a few weeks into 2022 when I finally figured out what had happened to me, why most of who I was so deeply lost in shame, to the point that it felt like I had been drowning most of my life. there were several things that contributed to it like, giving up who I was out of pressure to please my family (until I was around 23 - constantly hearing ‘you should let your hair grow’, ‘you should dress more like a girl’ etc etc when you’re a 10 year old really does a number), giving up the things I loved in order to pass as “normal”, my father not being emotionally available (or simply available in general tbh - unfortunately too common as well), my mom having to take care of 4 kids and therefore not really being emotionally available either, dealing with womanhood, puberty and all those nice, not at all confusing and hard, things by myself because I thought that if I could just ignore it it would not be real (a nice not at all dumb trait I got from my father - thankfully I’m over that), consequently emotionally abandoning my closest friends bc of all that further isolating myself. and I could go on and on, but the reason why I’m saying all this is that maybe it can spark a light in someone else too. Until this year, I thought that nothing had happened to me, that I had no reason to feel the way I did back then, and it was suffocating to think that while the pain I felt was very real. and you may ask ‘okay, where does shame come into the picture here?’ so here’s a few that I could identify from the things I said above - shame for my sexuality (giving up things I loved to pass as “normal”), shame for being gender non conforming (pressure to please my family), shame for not feeling connected with my parents (having friends who do have good relationships with theirs), shame for not having the life they expect of me, shame for not having the life I think I’m supposed to have to “impress” my friends, therefore hiding away, isolating myself, further convincing myself that no one else was going through the same. until I realised that, of course, I would never find other people talking about how they felt the same, because we were all hiding away.

this isn’t a story about how suddenly I’m cured from depression or anything like that, there’s still days and days, but figuring out why I felt the way I did back then was a major step towards finding healing, and I feel like I’ve been changing very rapidly over the past 5 months because of it. recognizing that my self-criticism was doing more harm than good (I wouldn’t talk to my friends the same way I talk to myself sometimes..), that I can choose self-compassion instead, and the good-old exercising, journaling, reading, eating and sleeping well, really made major differences (as well as keep going to therapy of course, it was important to have someone trained to talk about the really heavy and more complicated stuff).

in the end, this has been a journey towards (re)finding myself, and I finally have an answer to the question that I found so dreadful ‘where do you see yourself in 5 years?’. and for the first time in my life, I’m not afraid to try, I’m not afraid to fail, I’m not afraid of the set backs I may face. for the first time in my life, I can actually picture a future for myself, and I’m actually excited to see myself getting there. I don’t have it all figured out, but I do know that I’m persistent. in the end, I think this is also a bit of a letter to everyone who’s lost in life, I’m currently 27 and I’m now figuring out a path that I might actually enjoy to take and that makes sense to me. If you’re like me, you probably also feel like you’ve run out of time and that there’s no way you can still turn your life around, but to be honest, who really knows how much time we have left? You make a little bit of time now, and deal with tomorrow, 3 months, 5 years from now, when it comes. I have no idea what turns life will still take and where I’ll end up after all, but I do know that recognizing my pain, owning up to the shameful feelings I had (and still have), accepting my feelings and thoughts as they are (failing a lot and trying again), definitely took me from a drowning person to a vivid swimmer. I’ve always liked to share my thoughts here, but recently having the number of followers increase on this blog has made it feel quite... intimidating to share pieces of my life like before. still, this was something I felt was important for me to share, even if just to say, feeling lost and behind in life is a normal part of the human experience.

#this is also why I haven't been around as much as before #I'm still keeping up with dc and stuff but creating content here is falling a bit on my priority list rn... #people following me for long now know how much time of my life I've dedicated to helping dc grow and succeed #and I don't regret any of it #in the end being their fan was and still is something that was really good for me and I'm sooooooooo thankful #but they're working towards their dreams and now I want to focus on working towards mine as well #will still make content every now and then ofc this isn't a goodbye or anything #but I won't be making like 3 gifsets per day or something like I used to before SKDFJH #anyway if you read all of this thank you and I hope you have a nice day <3 #jt

[scarletiswailing347]

need to find a fanfic writer bestie or something cause im in the mood (always in the mood) to draw for fanfics but i have a Lot of trouble doing so without being told first (mostly cause i have a lot of trouble reading fanfics period lol)

#mine.txt #i have specific tastes when looking for fics so i cant just read things willy nilly unfortunately #but if a pal told me to read something and then draw it ill do it in a heartbeat #idk its just hard to find inspiration when youre not a naturally passionate person #its why i keep making fanart rather than original art btw #cause when youre making fanart you can just leech off the creators passion #while for original art you gotta manufacture that shit yourself #and since im now back to not having an obsession to cling onto after lowering my interest on zam #im just kinda lost on what to do #theres the fanfics im working on ofc but idk how long thatll last #idk kinda lowkey regret properly engaging with fandom after just lurking #not cause out of anything negative happening but rather the opposite #i miss the times when im able to cling onto an interest in something and creating stuff out of said interest #cause otherwise i dont feel much of anything and it reflects in the way i draw aka very sketchy and just. ''lost'' #i know since its a purposeful interest i can theoretically just cling onto whatever i want #but i have certain criteria i like to follow cause otherwise it just feels pointless #its why you dont see me making art for stuff like different kinds of fashion for example #cause yeah im i terested in it and yeah i could make stuff out of it #but i know eventually ill start feeling like its pointless #and itd be nobody elses fault but mine