#sometimes i just dont know how to react like

[rocksibblingsau]

Honestly, I'm this close to snapping and writing a fic where Branch dies during Trollscide/the escape and Brozone having to deal with the giant grief that would have caused

Like I get it, they were kid that needed indepedence bla bla bla but are we forgetting that they (most likely, the timeline is kinda just whatever the writers/fans want) left a toddler and an elder in a TROLL-EATING TOWN AND 3/4 NEVER TRIED TO CHECK IF EITHER WERE DOING OKAY (Clay will depends of your headcanon, but I still include him for the vibes)

What they did was shitty if we are talking only real-life perspective, in the trolls world what they did was genuine heartless like Branch is extremely right to be mad bcs for all they knew he could been dead the same year that they walked-out and they shouldnt have know for like 20-something YEARS. We dont know how the three/four of them got out and if they could have taken Branch and Rosie with them or not, but like yk send a letter or some shit FIGURE IT OUT YOUR BROTHER WHO IS A TODDLER COULD BE DEAD or without a proper gardian (which is what happened by the fucking way, next-of-kin WHO)

Sorry for the rant, but like I feel that many people when writing Brozone focus too much on the 'teenagers that left home' aspect and not 'their home is the troll equivelent of a murder cult and they didnt border checking if their family, that never wronged them, was even alive or needed to be taken care of' part

Yeah the fact they left them in the troll tree is pretty messed up. I do think however there would have been no way to take them. I imagine the only reason the four of them escaped is due to the fact they ran on their own. Rosie would have been about the age she would have slowed them down, and the fact of the matter is that while all four were leaving with dreams of finding a place...

They were all leaving on what was likely a suicide mission. I imagine attempts to leave the tree had a 99% mortality rate. It's why they tunneled instead of, yknow, walking through the bars. To take a baby who Probably had a decent life spin ahead of him on a tribe that would Definitely kill him would be a tough choice to make.

Something interesting to consider is that maybe that's what their parents did. Their parents ran and left them all behind. They might think it's normal to do so in that case.

Some people take the third movie to be evidence that the Bergens were a recent development and there were only a few years of Trollstice. (BroZone left, Bergens came in, 3-5 years later grandma dies, the escape happens) Which would explain why BroZone was both able to leave and comfortable leaving Branch behind, because there was no threat of death. It would also explain why John Dory didn't react to the Bergens, he had no clue who or what the hell they were. Me personally I don't believe that, and I find them leaving under the threat of Trollstice more narratively interesting but canon doesn't tell us jack so it's within the realm of possibility.

Can I be honest about something? I'm actually not sure if Branch dying would be more traumatic to them. I think all of them were operating under the assumption Branch would one day be eaten by Bergens. JD already did think he was dead. They might have been having a 'he's in a better place and its okay' mentality.

How much worse is it to find out that no, he's very much alive, though for the longest time he wished he wasn't? Every time you told yourself he's resting, he's with loved ones, he feels no pain now; it was all a lie. He was suffering. You could have stopped it. You could have found him.

Death is tragic, but sometimes living can be so much worse.

#sibblings qna #trolls branch #brozone

[iutdwae]

i’m always wondering why the hell chan is ALWAYS out, enough to where he can post weekly of him just being on the street looking too good.. he loves spoiling you so he’ll take you out on a date every week (every day if he could), and of course, he’s gotta capture it for the memories. except he posts very specific ones: chan gets off on the thrill of getting caught, so you almost always end up fucking in some obscure ally or in a tight room whenever he takes you out. sometimes it’s playful, lots of giggles shared in between blissed out moans; sometimes his big hands are clamped over your mouth, arm wrapped around your neck while he’s pounding into you, leaving your pussy sore and aching by the time he’s done with you. obviously, though, he doesn’t post the videos that he takes of him fucking into you, or the photos of his cum all over your pretty body.

#i need him to deactivate #hes so fucking fine #UGHH #sometimes i just dont know how to react like #theres no reason for him to he so sexy #bang chan x reader #bang chan smut #skz smut #stray kids smut #bang chan hard thoughts

[dennisboobs]

my favourite thing about the always sunny podcast is listening to rcg all say something extremely neurodivergent and then agree amongst themselves and convince themselves its completely normal

#and to be clear im not diagnosing them charlie said he wasn't neurotypical #like deadass i think. the reason some of their writers just completely botch the gang's motivations/dialogue sometimes is bc at their core #these characters are all. SO autistic. which inevitably leads to them being misunderstood by others outside their group #whether rcg realizes it or not they inject this very specific vibe of neurodivergence into the gang #and its why they will just. argue over inconsequential details bc they Need to be understood completely #they can't just drop it unless they are crystal fucking clear #imo the biggest mistake other writers make is thinking that the gang is completely desensitized when its more like #they just don't react the way you would expect #which is often... adjacent to that but still distinct. and its trauma that influences this as well #the gang does not believe they themselves are 'bad people'. theyre most often oblivious to the fact that the things they do are insane #rob saying he doesnt pick up on social cues and then going on to argue in circles with glenn #i dont think last week was anything crazy but i think. rob doesn't know when to let up. which is a problem that *i* have #and while it comes across as being confrontational in an 'im right youre wrong' way i dont think its driven by ego here #just like with how as they said mac and dennis are making up while chucking bread rolls at each other #on both sides its frustration at being misunderstood #but they are all similar enough that even if they disagree over small details theyre usually on the same page. and this can be beneficial!! #thats the conclusion of the ep!!!! whether its suggesting smoking to cancel out the toxic apple skin or suggesting words u cant think of #glenn said he was upset about feeling misrepresented and picked on #dennis gets angry for those exact reasons in.... ALL of his big rage scenes #its frustration that leads to anger because youre speaking to (another) brick wall and you can't adequately explain yourself #which. glenn is clearly more competent than dennis & i think a lot of the time in sunny the gang is WAY more obtuse for the sake of comedy #but its interesting to watch the dynamic because as charlie said last week #they are mac and dennis (especially when theyre fighting) #i just think.. they are in a semi-unique position to understand this because this is how they are. while several other writers do not get i #ada speaks #untagged

[his-littlefox]

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#im so sick of living in a religious house :(( #im sure its the reason for almost all my mental health problems and i cant even discuss it #i wanna respect my religion sm bc my familys believes in it sm but idk how long id be able to take it #i dont even realize how completely drained and numb ive become until im not at home #i have a pretty house loving mom and dad and three siblings and yet ive never felt so alone #its like i dont even know the girl who lives here #she feels nothing she reacts at nothing even talking feels like a chore to her #honestly i miss myself #i miss everything about me #religious values stupid expectations the constant judgment and need to mold me into something #im so tired of it 😭😭 #i just wanna live plsss #i dont know when my life will even begin #when will i have a life that’s my own?? #without a thousand ppl weighing it down #no one here lets me live 😭😭 #sometimes i wish id get kidnapped or smth #or id get lost #but i dont wanna hurt my mom and dad i love them sm!! #every night i hope to wake up somewhere else in a pretty fairytale <33 #im sure it’ll happen someday!! #sometimes im so sure itll happen the next day but it hasn’t yet… #i believe in magic and miracles #but sometimes the constant negativity of my home weighs me down so much :(( #i know i just have to keep believing to escape!! #maybe my hope isn’t strong enough yet but i know it will be someday!! #ik id one day wake up in a cute life <3 #i try so hard to be happy here but ughh sometimes i need to rant #daphnie rambles 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪

[332-442]

How do you stop coming across as angry 😭

[autisticlee]

i'm aroace, sex repulsed and don't get traditional romance or find the need for it, but I still often think how it would be neat to have a gf/partner for other purposes that arent romance and sexual. but it seems impossible to make someone want to date you if you take out those things????

sometimes I think it would be nice to have a gf to do cute gay cosplay photoshoots with. there would be mouth smooching and you usually can't do that with a friend and I don't really want to either, so a gf would be useful for that.

then there's hating showers because they exhaust me and it would be nice to have a gf to wash my hair and stuff for me??? can't call up a friend to do this every time I need to shower. that won't work and I doubt they'd want to/be comfortable doing that.

most friends will end up putting all their priority into their partner and/or family they create. I want someone that will make me their priority and not run off with someone else they start dating and abandon me??? something like that. their priority is cleaning our home together, hanging out together, going shopping and other domestic/partner stuff. they don't do that with someone else or use me temporarily until they can find a partner. so it's essentially dating/being partners. but it looks different from your typical expected romance and partnership.

doesn't matter how aroace I am, I have accepted that a relationship is beneficial in many ways and there's certain things that you can't expect friends to cover and they can't fill. but I have zero interest in looking for a partner in traditional ways that requires small talk/flirting/dates/etc. so that makes me realize i'll most likely not trick someone into partnering with me lmao

the internet seems to call this kind of thing "queer platonic relationship" (did I remember it right?) and you just need to find another sroace person to do it with. but either way, there's no textbook to study for how to get that and where to find these people. it seems harder than the puzzle that is regular dating tbh.

there's that saying "there's other fish in the sea" but i'm a worm in a puddle the other worms got out before they drowned. there's no fish here lmao. my options are so limited that I haven't met a single option yet in my life. there's barely any chance the first aroace person I meet irl will be compatible, or the first compatible person will accept a relationship with an aroace. you know what I mean? any other aroace that's interested in some kind of relationship/partnership and feel like you don't get that whole sea to choose from like everyone else and only have a dried up puddle? 😅

#lee rambles #asexual #aromantic #aroace #im not desperate and not looking. it's just a passing thought sometimes.... #when it would be convenient i think about it. like how convenient it would be to find a canadia partner so i csm move there #and move in with my 2 closest friends #and the cosplay thing. that comes up a lot because i currently have a big interest in doing more cosplay stuff #i know i say i dont get romance and flirting stuff but sometimes when i observe others or see it in media #when someone does flirty things to their partner ans the partner gets flustered like a girl calling her gf cute and she gets shy and blushy #sometimes i want someone i can do that to because it amuses me to see people react that way and i like to be amused and make people react #to things lmao. another good use for a gf/partner #not sure if that means i do have some interest in that stuff or if it doesnt count because my reason for it seems different than usual 😅 #ALSO. its so hard for me to tell if i truly want a relationship/partnership or if its because society and people around me make me feel like #i have to?????? amd im making uo excuses for why i would need it or would benefit from it? so that i can fit in or something??? #i genuinely dont know which one it is and i hate that. could it be a bit of both? i suppose so....hmmmmm

[sprinedankle]

almost cried on my way home because i want to be in love w a girl (in the most romantic and dehumanizing way)

#no bc sometimes i think #am i an actual #lesbian #like if i crush on a guy its purely because on how my family will react #knowing that i dont have to hide from something #but i know deep down i don't really like being with guys #im so confused does that make sense #help #it'd be so good to just be FREE #lgbtq #my thougts

[totentnz]

if johnny only sees what v sees, does that mean he cant see them? it does right? or does he see them the way they *think* they look like? does johnny see who v sees in the mirror? in photos?

#sammy says shit #listen i still dont fully describe to 'i only see what you see' #HOWEVER #if any of the above does apply imagine the first fucking time he sees them for real #aka happy au #does johnny ever comment on vs apperance? aside from the not my type comment #im thinking about things and this just crossed my mind #is johnnys pov just him in a world that doesnt see him? doesnt react to him? #ofc sometimes people stop to look in his direction but they arent looking at /him/ #in the beginning does he reply to questions directed at v bc he thinks that person is talking to him?? #MY GOD someone send help him going insane over this #been thinking about johnny having no autonomy #nobody to talk to besides v #and how v knows this and tries to give him said autonomy as best as they can #see: the sharing meals post my queue spat out earlier #anyway im raving in the tags again... old habits do die hard huh #also i do think there is a difference between what own body johnny sees compared to what engram johnny sees #(talking about what v looks like) #but if my above thoughts are true... GODDAMN the potential

[mangostar]

theres a different between having sensory issues with foods and being an asshole

#this was abt that video of the girl eating chicken nuggets while the rest of the family ate sushi and so many ppl were annoying in the comm #comments #soo sick of the way ppl r so annoying abt picky eaters #like.. i literally cant eat certain foods cuz the texture will make me throw u p #ALSO. its so hard being a picky eater #i cant try new foods and i feel awful when my mum makes another meal for me while the rest of the family eats something else #and when i see a food that looks and smells sosososo fucking good but i cant eat it cuz i know how my body would react I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!! #and going to a friends house was a nightmare. i always felt bad when i told them i couldnt eat it and #theyd be like. 'oh ur allergic?' and i always felt like they were secretly judging me for saying that i couldnt eat certain textures #but that was probs just my anxiety LMAO #like its not that i dont like ur food i just literally cant stomach it #BUT theyre sometimes where i CAN get used to a foods texture #i hated eating things with red bean paste cuz the texture made me sick but smth changed and now i love it #SEASAME BALLS R MY FAVOURITE AND THEYRE SOOOO GOOD #but meat is a big no go. i HATEEE that fat and any chewy parts #oh wow this is long sorry!!!!!

[eternally-tired-cryptid]

Can we talk about how hard it is to form deep relationships when your life is filled with trauma that you have to find a way to reveal to someone new to connect fully

#jasper rambles #sincerely i made a comment abt how my leather jacket was my moms so i Could Not lose it and no one in that group knew why something being my #moms would be more important than 'shed be mad if i lost it'. but for me its bc its one of the few of her clothes that i can wear to feel #connected to her. bc she had a totally different body type than me and shes been dead for 7 years. #none of them knew that. they had no reason to understand the significance of the jacket. and so as much as i like spending time with these #people. i dont know how to form a true connection because theres so much about me they just. dont know. and as much as i wish it werent true #my trauma affects how i live. it affects me daily. sometimes the things that make me react only make sense if you know its thru trauma #i just. im not close to very many people but i yearn for connection

[rohirric-hunter]

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#girl help i went on the lotro forums by accident #and ended up on someones thread complaining about how we never get any new content #i think one of my big issues with this is like. do you not have a job? or any other hobbies? #like im not shitting on people who dont have jobs. ive spent my fair share of time unemployed #but its wild that you apparently have NOTHING else going on in your life except for ONE mmo #they said there was only about a weeks worth of new stuff #youre telling me you got through everything in a week? one week #i started sometime mid december and spent a good long time playing the game #because i had a lot of hours cut in late december and january. so guess what i did while i wasnt at work #and i just finished a few days ago??? it took me two months???????? #like i dont know if theres anything that will entertain you if you insist upon blasting through everything so fast #this is a you problem and you are going to find it everywhere you go not just here #i also hate when people complain about this because i feel that the devs react to it by making endgame stuff more grindy #i dont want it to be more grindy #unlike SOME people i have a life outside this game but i would still like to succeed at it

[transgenbur]

hate when people go Ooooh no your friends aren't annoyed with you thats just your brain being mean Brother i have eyes and also ears i might be oblivious but when we're 2 hours into hanging out and ive managed exactly 1 time to talk without having to be asked to shut up and my friends are clearly on edge to the point of snapping when i ask where the dishwasher is and when they explicitly go "i forgot how overwhelming and loud you are" thats not my brain making up shit theyre clearly annoyed like

#when people online just give blanket statements like Nooo youre not annoying Yes i Am annoying very clearly when this is a reoccuring thing #what i dont get is when people say like. well why dont you just tone it down. like you think im PURPOSEFULLY likethis???? #brother this is the toned down version bc i know my friend's already tired & overwhelmed so im trying not to make too much noise #the worst thing is like they suggested we watch ranboo and thats a bad idea cause then i got excited and like idk i think i jumped or smth #and then that was overwhelming so then we switched to . ithink it was fundy #whos obviously great too but like #idk like i was trying not to react too loudly but then i got excited abt watching ranboo so that didn't exactly help #cause then we can't really watch stuff i wanna watch the most bc like i know i wont be able to contain the fucking. mouthing along and shit #or like tapping my feet idkk #and fucking again this is the toned down version from how i act when im like home alone this is like extra Im Trying To Be Quiet #and it doesnt fucking work because i dont fucking know how to be quiet im so sick of it #cause its clearly not my friend's fault like they get super overwhelmed quickly (also bc theyre autistic) like they cant help it #and it makes them snap sometimes . a lot. point is its not their fault its my responsibility but fucking hell #anywayyyy who want me😁 #alex.rambles.txt

[coffee-bat]

btw anyone else from my chronic pain homies just. lose the ability to judge your pain level/scale pain

#like at this point i have no idea what's the norms i dont know how normal people judge this #i dont know how to describe how im feeling #the guideline ive set for myself to determine 'severe pain' is if its forcing movements out of my control- #-(like having to double over or legs giving out) or if like #im throwing up or my eyes are watering #but #bc im in literally constant pain i dont really. perceive that kind as WORSE #its only my body that reacts #for me almost all pain feels the same at this point #and its so frustrating #i wish i could have a normal relationship with this #and high tolerance is a fucking curse #ive been initially denied medical care multiple times bc they said that 'if i was actually experiencing (thing) i- #-would be writhing and screaming'. only for it to thenbturn out i WAS going through the thing and just dont react that much bc im used to it #sometimes if i have trouble finding a point of reference i TRY to imagine how id feel about it if i wasnt me #if i was a normal person who isnt used to constant pain #and sometimes it works to help me determine if i need medical help #but lately i havent even been able to imagine being 'normal'. ive lost my point ofvreference. #and its just. so fucking frustrating knowing youve been forced to toughen up against your will and now literally cant tell if youre indanger #ramble #personal #chronic pain #ive almost died bc of this once so far #i waited for days and then when i finally went to a doctor it turned out id have been dead if i waited a day more💀 #but of course before they found that out they ALSO disbelieved me bc i have fucking dignity and wasnt writhing on the floor.

[geothefafa]

growing up as a child with severe hallucinations was wild.. the whole time you're becoming a person and adjusting to reality and learning how the world works but you're thrown a secret curveball that no one else knows about or can warn you about because no one else can see it happening. and should you express any signs of genuine distress or confusion over something imaginary, it's called "over active imagination" or "imaginary friends" and its all cute to adults until theyre losing sleep at night because the kid is too scared to sleep alone- but even sleeping between mom and dad still doesnt feel safe because every night feels like a horror movie where only you can see the monsters that want you dead. but its not real! and you have to listen to mom and dad when they say that! but they dont get it! no one ever gets it! it doesnt go away when you close your eyes! the visions get horrific and grotesque even by adult standards but no one listens! just go back to bed it was just a nightmare :) but the truth was you never fall asleep first.

#and its even worse like. expressing these things as an older child too #having adults be like 'oh i believe you!' and you feel relief finally #only to have that adult say 'youre being haunted by spirits!' #like you have no idea how damaging that was to hear as a young schizophrenic #i genuinely believed i was haunted. i genuinely believed evil spirits wanted to kill me via dreams #i fully believed that was real and possible and happening! #im lucky ive grounded myself as an adult but i still struggle with #the most random delusions. hallucinations of voices and sometimes figures #im lucky i can tell when its real and when its not. when it cant be. #but for how long? how long do i have before i cant help but believe its real? #and i know in this post im mostly talking about the night terror aspect #but it gets so frustrating when people just reduce it down to just that too #like these didnt only exist at night- thats just when it was scary #broad daylight with a clear head its easier to be like- oh that just isnt scary #and as i'd get older i had to train myself to just not react and ignore things that genuinely scared me #i think thats why i liked horror movies so much as a kid. #dont even bother me the type shit i got goin on. #probably didnt help tho..

[hirokiyuu]

i lov nem a lot im just thinking abt her.......... traumatized girls always end up being highkey faves of mine so like, no wonder

#everything w/nem is just like........ it's really........... hhhhhhhhh #i dont write much nem meta but ive seen a few ppl call her fash and im like. #do you know what trauma does. do u kno how it feels #do you kno how children react when they lose their favorite caretaker + sense of safety #do u kno how bad that fucks someones brain up #do you realize its not abt Oooh Vace or Oooh Helio its abt nem desperately trying to regain a sense of safety #and protect the people around her at the same time #bc if kom the best of EVERYONE could die then like #couldnt all her friends. couldnt everyone she loved. couldnt sol even #like. god #i got paradox end while i was dating nem and i do think abt that sometimes. lol. lmao #imagine having a gf whos a little freewheeling and doesnt play by the rules #but u love her a lot regardless and shes so important to u #the only person u feel safe with #and then one year at glow she goes out and just doesnt come back #and when u find them theyre staring up at the sky and theyre just gone. theyre not there anymore #the person you loved will never come back even if you have her breathing body #lmao. lol. god #nemmie.............. #teenexo stuff #i was a teenage exocolonist spoilers

[todayisafridaynight]

wait it’s genuinely so cute how ichiban loves dragon quest and i love how that’s probably why Y7′s an rpg

#snap chats #it's just so personal- really puts you in the headspace of ichiban.... #game reminded me my bro bought me DQ8 and i still haven't played it.... oops... #anyways thats so cute #we're all ichiban wherein we just let videogame brainrot take over #referencing that one post that's like 'when i remember to take my meds i just see 'take your meds' in the yakuza font in my head' LMAOO #love the representation thanks rgg for letting gamers be seen #anyway like i said in the last ask i'm on chapter 3 and i stopped just before ichi and nanba were about to head to hello work #needed a piss break real bad cause goddamn the cutscenes get long #also?? i dont know why i held off on Y7 for so long ??? #like i played rpgs before i dont know why i thought i wouldnt like it or itd be hard for me to readjust #but i love how the combat is- i love how despite it being turn based you still have to react fast sometimes #esp for QTEs and follow-up attacks from party members it's so good and keeps you on your toes still #ok byebye ill be back uhhhhh Who Knows