I wanted to apologize for taking some time to read your content and comment on it. Sometimes I have days when my head is a little foggy, or I feel dizzy or sleepy, and it takes me longer than usual to find the words...
Truth be told, it's something I struggle with almost daily (and when writing too), and I think it's because I may have undiagnosed ADHD. I can't know for sure, and I won't be able to know until I can go back to therapy (hopefully soon) to try to get a diagnosis (if I do have ADHD, of course. Perhaps it's a different thing).
But... yes. Sometimes I struggle to find the words to express how deeply your stories touch me. It's not that I ignore you or anything, it's just... well. I just need some time for my brain to work properly 😅
But, of course, I'm always more than happy to read you 🥰 You are all absolutely WONDERFUL writers. May you never stop writing, because I'll be here to fangirl over your stories 👏 Even if it takes me a while to give you feedback 😅
But rest assured that, sooner or later, I will give it to you 💖
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ALSO MEANT TO UPDATE LOL
I got diagnosed with adhd (and apparently it was a pretty easy diagnosis based on all the tests and reports and stuff lmao)
I have just gotten meds for it
We will see how it affects my productivity
Low-key hoping it'll help me write fics again 😊
But the main purpose is uni and just all round life requirements so as long as that is helped I am happy
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debilitating fatigue and lack of sleep vs adderall XR. go go go. hit em with the steel chair. gimme the people’s elbow babey this body is battered and tired but by god some silly little salts in a colorful pill will force me through the day like the world’s shittiest puppet. fatigue? who is she. i’m beating the shit out of nicotine cravings behind a wendy’s but i’m gonna french kiss the first open box of menthols i find. i’m running on 4 hours of sleep. they could hire me at the local hardware store to shake cans of paint with these tremors. unstoppable force (my desire to stay in bed) meets immovable object (the necessity to go to work to make money to spend on bills and medication). i am so fine rn. trust.
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WIP Intro but I have too much ADHD for this Edition: Of Sea Jewels and Great Lords
(Finally my favourite one!! (kind of))
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About title: So, for this I wanted to tie the meanings behind the main characters' surnames into the title while invoking a sense of certain colours and adventure, kind of? It's honestly a bit misleading.. one main character's surname is Bijoux, which is literally just the French word for jewel, and I associate them with indigo, so I put sea jewels in the title. The other main character's surname, Meredith, means something like lord/great lord, so I threw that into the title, too. It's a fantasy adventure story, so I wanted that to carry into the title, and I think it does, but the characters don't actually encounter sea jewels, or great lords; it's mostly just mountains and learning to navigate each other.
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About: So, in recovering bewitched lost villagers for the village of Nomen, magician Geo Bijoux is saddled with the responsibility of depositing Chad Meredith under a mountain in return for the missing villagers that the local dragon has been protecting. In their reluctant travels in search of a good, uninhabited mountain, Geo learns more of the reason for Chad's eternal imprisonment, and the two, against their wishes, grow closer through their adventures and the unavoidable shenanigans that come with a pair of young magicians traversing a continent.
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Setting: So I lied when I said Giselle & Darius is chronologically the first story that happens on Dirt; this actually happens 200-300 years before that. (I don't have exact numbers yet,,) Also, it's set all over Astelle, but mostly south of the Heart of Astelle, which is a big mountain.
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Featuring: the gays; healing from trauma; moral grayness; questioning morality, motives, and life choices; riyals to lovers (in a way); getting sick of the person you're roadtripping with, as is wont to happen; competitions of basically who can be the biggest asshole; lots of homesickness; learning to follow your heart.
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Do I have a playlist for it? OH YOU BET I DO :)
wip stuff taglist: @multi-lefaiye
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people deserve to feel uncomfortable when it comes to injustice
i dont mean uncomfortable in a harmful way like being subjected to videos of death or rape when its unnecessary for you
i mean everyone and i mean EVERYONE (who is capable of understanding), needs to have someone outside their (your) experiences tell you to stfu.
Everyone needs a moment where you feel bad or guilty. Everyone needs a moment where they are called out on ignorance or bigotry on any spectrum,
so that you have the moment to just, take it. to deal with it. to suck it up
to learn to look past your emotions and to see what the real issue is
too many times people have to walk on eggshells, to be a model minority, when they want- NEED to be angry
And im not talking verbal abuse, i mean not having to be nice all the time
I mean "shut up this isnt for you" and for you to take it. "dont talk to me dont touch me" and to deal with it. "i dont trust you" "you are making me uncomfortable" "you will never understand" "stop"
To hear someone tell you how it is without filter, and to hear it, to listen, and to move on.
You say "got it" "understood" "sorry about that". you dont grovel. You act like an adult. You fucked up, or you are not what the person needs right now and thats ok. Dont dwell. You arent a bad person and you need to actually put effort into understanding that so that you can look past any opressor guilt and focus on what is more important and that is learning
But people are too used to coddling and hearing things being said in the nicest way
And i think everyone just needs to get a wake-up call at least once to humble them and learn them that you are nothing special. You not the main character. You DO make people uncomfortable sometimes just as they make you uncomfortable sometimes
I know for a fact that i do. i know that i have been ignorant, i know me not understanding something on a personal level like racism or transmisogyny has made me say things that probably made some of my friends roll their eyes.
And i know ive felt that with other people where i roll my eyes or ive felt uncomfortable
Everyone is going to have something they dont know on a personal level be it abelism, racism, homophobia, transphobia, death of a loved one, poverty, etc
I used to be scared to mess up, until i realized other people feel the same way. And that i felt like it was dumb for them to feel that way, it felt artificial like they were always calculating what they were saying or always feeling wary, and i saw that i most likely came off that way too
so i try really hard to just own up and move on. Because its not about you
youre allowed to feel bad
but like give yourself a time limit or something and keep it to yourself or write in a diary. And then do better.
Best thing you can do rn is ask someone to tell you anything theyve wanted to tell you that youve done to make them feel uncomfortable.
but you HAVE to make sure you are ready to hear it and take it and accept it, to apologize and to move on
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