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sapphic-lottienat · 3 months

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a lil lottienat fic

summary: pre-crash, a bit of a continuation of a scene in season one and some first kiss flashback content (i sorta hate it its not the best thing ive written but oh well)

a/n: just kisses, flirting, and some in-character swearing <3

“You know what? Fuck this.”

Natalie resisted the urge to flip off her teammate as she spoke, resorting to turning and walking down the other end of the courtyard. She’d always known Taissa was the kind of girl who would do anything to get what she wanted. She’d even been known to convince teachers to raise her grade by a few marks. But freezing out a teammate? A freshman? It was a new low, and she wasn’t about to stoop to Taissa’s level.

She knew full well that the others, being the timid sheep they were, would probably agree, no matter how begrudgingly. That’s why she couldn’t help but be startled as a girl suddenly appeared next to her, offering a small smile.

“Hi.”

“Lottie. Hey.” She struggled to hide the surprise in her voice. “Shouldn’t you be figuring out how to freeze Allie out?” She asked coolly.

Lottie shifted uncomfortably, falling into step beside her.

“Well- no, you’re right. I don’t want to. But you know Taissa, none of us could convince her otherwise even if we tried. Well- maybe Van could, but I don’t think Tai would want us to tell her.”

Natalie rolled her eyes, but smiled gently at the mention of Van.

“Those two are-”

“Totally dating?” Lottie finished, a slight twinkle in her eye as she glanced at Natalie. The blonde girl laughed a little, and nodded her agreement.

“Yeah.”

A silence fell over the two as they walked together. The differences between them stood out sorely, and if they weren’t wearing the same soccer uniform, anyone would assume they didn’t know each other.

Lottie loomed over Natalie, and carried herself with the reluctant elegance of a girl born into a more privileged lifestyle than Natalie, to say the least. Natalie was much shorter, hair dyed a messy blond and smelling faintly of some sort of alcohol, as she often did.

Lottie noticed this, and decided to break the silence.

“Drinking again?”

“Mind your own business.” Natalie retorted instinctively, but softened a little as she saw Lottie flinch.

“No, I’m kidding- yeah, my friend snuck in a bottle. Why, you want me to get you some too?”

Lottie wrinkled her nose at the thought, which made Natalie laugh.

“Nah, don’t worry. I know you don’t like that kinda stuff.”

As the two approached the soccer field, Lottie paused next to the bleachers, causing Natalie to halt too, offering a curious look and a slight tilt of the head.

“So… if you know I don’t like that stuff, do you know what I do like?” She smirked a little as she spoke, leaning against the wall beside her. Natalie glanced nervously towards the field, torn between what to do.

“Lot, maybe here isn’t the best time, someone could see-”

She shut up quickly at the brunette’s pout, which seemed to be one of her few weaknesses. She met Lottie’s gaze, hating herself for the way she felt her cheeks burn against her pale skin. She wasn’t supposed to have a weakness, something that could make her knees go weak. She was the strong one. The tough one. And she didn’t, up until a few weeks ago.

It had been their closest game of the season, and things were tense. The girls were silent in the locker room, and all of them left with more haste than normal. Natalie had sat against the lockers, fighting tears for the first time in a while. She could usually suppress them easily, but she had choked today. She wasn’t meant to do that.

She had let the defender slip right past her, letting her secure one of the team’s two goals. It was the worst slip up of the whole season, and everyone knew it. She also knew all too well that some of her teammates were a little scared of her to say the least — except for maybe Lottie — so no one said a word. Not even Jackie, confident and assured team captain. Not even Taissa, headstrong and ready to call Natalie out on the smallest mistake.

That’s how she knew it was bad.

When it got to the point where she was sure everyone had left, she let herself cry. God, had it felt good. For the first time in months, a pure, genuine release of-

“Nat?”

Fuck.

She ran an arm across her face, and glared up at the source of the interruption.

“The fuck are you doing here, Lottie?” She seethed, looking away guiltily at Lottie’s wounded expression. The taller girl fumbled her words.

“Shit, I’m so sorry- I didn’t mean… are you okay?”

She lowered herself to sit next to Natalie, awkwardly resting her arm over her shoulder. At this level of affection, Natalie began to cry more, turning to bury her face into Lottie’s neck. The two sat, not talking, for a few minutes before the blonde girl's crying died away.

“S-sorry you had to see that.” She mumbled awkwardly, turning her head.

“No! It’s fine, I promise. Are you okay, though? I… I know it seemed bad out there, but we won in the end, right? Just because you let that ball slip past, it does not make you a bad soccer player, okay? You’re one of the best on the team, and everyone loves you-”

“Everyone hates me.” She interjected, turning to face Lottie. Eyeliner was smudged beneath her eyes, and her lip quivered a little. Even if Lottie knew Natalie was hard to figure out, she could tell one thing; Natalie was being genuine. She really thought no one liked her. And the knowledge of that broke her a little. Natalie went on.

“I just- you’re all popular and sporty and rich, and I’m what? I’m just the burnout that people are scared of. Who lives in a trailer park, who gets bad grades, who messes up soccer games. No one has any hopes for me, because why should they?”

She looked away again, fighting another wave of tears.

“I don’t.”

The words were spoken quietly, almost at a whisper, but they were sincere. Natalie turned to look at Lottie, who was staring at the floor. She glanced up, offering a soft smile.

“Uh- hate you, that is. I don’t hate you. And I really don’t think the others do. Everyone thinks you’re cool, Nat. And so what if you’re a bit intimidating? At least the opponents are scared of you.”

Natalie chuckled a little at that, and shook her head slightly.

“I don’t get it.”

Lottie cocked her head. “Get what?”

“...Why you’re so nice to me? You’re kind of the only one. It’s…” She paused to think, and met the brunette’s gaze with a smirk. “It’s actually sort of adorable.”

Lottie’s eyes widened, though not in surprise. That is, not in surprise of what she said. She knew there had been something between them for ages, a palpable tension that tightened at every slight glance, every small smirk. But she had never expected Natalie to act on it, and definitely not now.

Natalie gently reached her hand to cup the taller girl’s cheek. She felt Lottie’s face grow warm under her touch, smirking at her flustered expression. She giggled a little, leaning in ever so slightly.

“Is this oka-”

Lottie surged forwards impulsively, closing the gap. The kiss lasted for hardly a second before Natalie pulled away, settling into a smirk at Lottie’s wide-eyed expression.

“I… that was… nice. Could you… kiss me again?” Lottie glanced away awkwardly, a little embarrassed at her boldness.

Natalie grinned, wrapping her hand around the back of the other girl’s neck, pulling her in again. This time, the kiss lasted for longer, both of them leaning in further, relaxing, melting into each other's touch.

That was why now, weeks later, they were making out behind the bleachers, giddy with love. Natalie, being much shorter than Lottie, raised herself on her tip-toes as high as she could, grumbling something unhappily every time the other girl would tease her by lifting her head just out of her reach.

“Hm- Lottie stop it-”

“Aww but it’s so fun teasing you.” She giggled back, but lowered her head to kiss her more, both of them so desperate for the other. Natalie moved her hand to the bottom of Lottie’s shirt, beginning to feel her way under. Lottie pulled away in surprise, taking a slight step back. The blonde girl flushed red, and looked away.

“Shit- sorry.”

“No, it- it’s okay. Maybe another time. But we should go to training. C’mon.” She pecked Natalie gently on the cheek, grabbing her hand and pulling her towards the field. The shorter girl followed after, head still dizzy, and very in love.

#yellowjackets #lottienat #lottie x natalie #lottie matthews #natalie scatorccio

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disaster-j · 2 years

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Hi, J!

So, I'm fairly new to the BL fandom and consequently as you're navigating these spaces one tends to stumble upon fandom drama, present and past.

Now, as you're someone I respect and whose fics I enjoy, I'd like your opinion on Kr*st after reading this thread. I think you've shaded him before but I'm in a neutral space when it comes to him because the person making this thread is also a fic author I thoroughly enjoy as well for WinTeam/UWMA fics.

Forming an opinion on the subject matter when you're being pulled in two directions leaves me in a neutral space where I actively don't interact with Kr*st's stuff but I don't feel personally offended either considering it was long ago whilst I wasn't a part of BL fandom.

It's just so interesting to me that a bi/queer person is supportive of him whilst I also encounter other bi/queer people who can't even stand looking at him. It seems to be pretty divided when it comes to him from my standpoint.

If it isn't too much of a bother, and I apologize if its asking for too much, what's your opinion on the thread this person made?

Hi! It's not a bother at all! See the thing about Krist is that, at the end of the day, he's a celebrity with a PR team. He's got people coaching him on how to handle press and what to say or not say in interviews and such, so deciding what you believe is his sincerity and what's them just covering the right bases will be up to personal interpretation.

I'm not too surprised that there are still queer people who support him. They see him as someone who has made mistakes and said stuff he shouldn't have said and as someone who has since grown. That's their prerogative. Me, personally, I don't see him like that. When I came into the fandom in 2020 it was right around the time that Krist was truly falling from grace, at least on twitter, as such I saw a lot of often contradictory opinions on him. So I watched his clips, the homophobic stuff he said, his affinity to make rape jokes, casual queerphobic comments, the way he used to act around his fellow gmm stars, and came to the conclusion that i did not care for him at all.

If someone says or does something shitty and then takes responsibility for it and actively tries to do better then I will always acknowledge their efforts to be better. But for Krist who has a habit of saying homophobic things, saying sorry, saying the "right" supportive things when everyone else is and then going on to make some bitchass comment yet again, I can't take him seriously anymore. You can't be going "two men kissing is disgusting" then on official interviews talk about how we need to be respectful towards the lgbtq+ community only to then turn around yet again and say stuff like "oh this is an lgbt costume/our theme is lgbt" because someone put you in a purple shirt. The only thing that I've seen him do consistently is make comments that make people mad or uncomfortable. From homophobia to rape jokes to creepy comments towards costars, he's done it all and for that i cannot atand him.

Another thing that makes me feel wary of him is that, as the thread suggests, he was quite close to a lot of gmm people that I follow and adore. OffGun, Tay, Jennie, etc. But in recent years there's been a noticeable distance between him and people at gmm. People he used to hang out with outside of work all the time will barely be interacting with him during work events, if that's not suspicious idk what is.

And then on top of all that, he's just? Untalented??? Like his acting is subpar at best. He's not good at emotionally heavy or expressive scenes, he lacks the kind of charisma needed for all these main roles gmm keeps putting him in, he often can't keep up with his costars. Like! There's nothing there for me to like about him at all and so shading him for all the genuinely shady shit he constantly pulls and the favouritism he's unjustly receiving from gmm execs feels more than justified to me.

Of course this all my own opinion based on all that I've seen from him and I urge you to look at all possible angles on your own time before making your final judgement.

#like if someone wants to stan him that's their choice just don't expect me and everyone else who's tired of his shit to give him a pass #ya know #krist perawat #ask #anon

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youareinlovees · 3 years

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LA Lockdown (submission)

(um hi, hope you don't mind me submitting this to you but I got inspired to do some ~creative writing and Nat got deactivated 😭)

May 2020

It’s a beautiful day in LA. Joe sits at one end of the couch on the outdoor terrace, absorbed in his book. Taylor is sitting at the other end, looking out at the view across Beverly Hills and occasionally looking at her phone, her feet up on the seat and her legs draped across Joe’s lap. It’s an idyllic scene. Lockdown might be boring him stiff, with all his upcoming acting projects being pushed back indefinitely, but he knows that he does have it pretty good.

Joe gets distracted from his book by the sight of his phone screen lighting up with new messages in the Frosty Crew and partners group chat. Picking up his phone, he sees that Jesse has sent a link to a Reductress article entitled, ‘Have you made the Bon Appétit focaccia yet or do you live with someone you can fuck?’

He chuckles, but before he can respond, another message pops up in the chat.

Taylor: Not to brag but some of us have managed to do both

She looks across from the other end of the couch and smirks at him. In response, he taps out a message of his own.

Joe: And it was thoroughly enjoyable Joe: Orgasmic one might say Joe: I am of course referring to the baking that Taylor did yesterday

Taylor: Aw baby I didn’t know you liked it that much Taylor: We can have it again later if you like

Joe: Later? That’s an awfully long time to have to wait

Jesse: do you two know you can just text each other directly if you want to schedule sex?

Taylor slides her legs further across Joe’s lap, intentionally rubbing herself against his groin and shuffling closer to him. He grins, wrapping his arms around her waist and pulling her in so he can press a few light kisses to the side of her neck.

Billy: Text each other? She’s probably sitting in his lap right now.

Joe momentarily pulls away from kissing down Taylor’s jawline to add a final message of his own.

Joe: Oh shit, busted Joe: Billy you need to stop spying on us through the security cameras Joe: Anyway I’ll talk to you lot later

Taylor tugs his phone out of his hands and puts it down next to her own on the table, her eyes sparkling. ‘Now that you’ve finished telling everyone that we’re about to fuck, can we actually get on with it?’ she teases.

‘Hey,’ he says, looking straight into her hypnotizingly blue eyes, ‘I think you’ll find you’re the one who started it, actually.’

‘Excuse me, Joseph, but which one of us was too impatient to wait until later? It’s only the middle of the day. I would have been perfectly content waiting until after whatever movie you’ve picked out for us this evening.’

She’s a vision, her messy hair falling across her shoulders, dressed in an old Rolling Stones t-shirt and a comfy pair of short shorts that cling tightly to her ass. They’d played a game of tennis earlier and he certainly hadn’t been complaining about the view whenever she bent down to pick up another tennis ball. Now, he runs his hands up under her t-shirt, over her stomach and round her back.

‘Well,’ he says, pretending to be disappointed, ‘if that’s how you feel, I guess I’ll go back to my book.’

‘Don’t you dare,’ she says breathily, straddling his lap properly and grinding into him. He takes one hand out from under her shirt and pushes it into her hair instead, pulling her head firmly down towards his until their lips meet.

They kiss passionately, desperately, Taylor moaning into his mouth, breaking apart only to pull off each other’s t-shirts. She’s still moving back and forth on his lap and driving him wild. He’s almost fully hard by this point, and suddenly he stands up, taking her by surprise. She’s still wrapped around him, her long bare legs encircling his waist.

‘We’re going back to bed,’ he says firmly.

They could just have sex where they are, or on one of the many other couches downstairs - they’ve done it plenty of times before - but he has a sudden urge to show off to her a little, give her a practical demonstration of the benefits of all the working out he’s been doing during lockdown. He carries her through the house and up the stairs to their bedroom as she bites his earlobe and kisses his neck in a very distracting manner.

He lowers her onto their bed, climbing on top of her to kiss her again. ‘You’re still wearing far too many clothes,’ he murmurs into her ear. She shivers in anticipation - he knows how much his voice turns her on when it’s right in her ear like this - and lifts her arms above her head in response, allowing him to pull her sports bra off and turn his attention to her breasts, licking and sucking at her nipples. She gasps as he aggressively sucks a hickey onto her underboob, pushing her hips up against his body in an effort to seek out some much-needed friction.

‘Joe, please,’ she begs. ‘Enough with all this teasing, I need you now.’

He smirks, pressing his hips firmly down into hers, stopping her grinding motion. ‘Well, since you asked so nicely…’

He draws back to kneel on the floor at the side of the bed, pulling her hips towards him. He can practically hear her heart thudding in her chest as he hooks his long fingers under the waistband of her shorts, pulling them off in one motion along with her underwear. As he pushes her thighs apart and drapes her legs over his shoulders, he can see that she’s soaking wet. He decides to cut out the teasing, having made her wait for long enough already, gripping her hips and going straight for her clit.

The sound she makes in response is almost enough to make him come then and there, but he’s made of stronger stuff than that. As he continues, he can hear her breath catching in her throat, feel her perfect thighs tightening around his head, her body squirming under his attentions as she gets closer and closer to orgasm. Before long she’s coming, her whole body shuddering and her back arching off the bed as she moans out uncontrollably, ‘oh, Joe.’

He works her through her orgasm until eventually he looks up from between her legs to see her lying with her head thrown back, breathing heavily, hands clutching the sheets on either side of her, and a blissed-out expression on her face. She’s radiant, the most beautiful woman he’s ever seen, and he feels a surge of satisfaction at being the only person allowed to bring her to this state.

‘Fuck,’ she mumbles deliriously, her cheeks flushed red. ‘That was so good, babe.’

But they’re not done yet, because he’s as desperate for her as she is for him. Pulling his sweatpants and boxers off, he climbs back onto the bed and hovers over her, repositioning them so that her head is on the pillow now. Taylor whines softly as he pushes into her, clearly still sensitive from the high she’s just had, so he starts off at a gentle pace. She feels so so good around him, and he nuzzles into her neck and groans softly into her ear. He loves feeling connected to her like this, their bodies intertwined and her hands in his hair. He lifts himself back off her slightly to look into her eyes.

‘s okay,’ she whispers to him, ‘you can go harder.’ He notices her gaze lingering slightly on his arms, which have bulked up noticeably in the last few months. He suppresses a grin. If that’s what she’s after, that’s what she’ll get.

Without any warning, he grabs her wrists and pins them above her head, thrusting into her with a newfound aggression. She moans, her mouth falling open and her eyes rolling back as she hitches her thighs up higher around his waist. She writhes in pleasure underneath him as he hits her spot, taking advantage of the new angle to penetrate her more deeply. With her hands restrained, she can only tighten herself around him and respond to every stroke by undulating her hips up into him. ‘Don’t you dare stop,’ she gasps, ‘I’m so close, Joe.’

The desperation in her voice turns him on even more. He can feel himself getting close, so close, and he quickly moves one of his hands down to her clit, repositioning the other one so that it’s still pinning down both of her wrists. ‘Are you going to come for me, Tay?’ he asks, his voice low and commanding. The combination of his fingers, his relentless thrusting, and his voice pushes her over the edge for a second time, and he feels her whole body shaking and clinging onto him as she comes hard.

The sensation of her body clenching around him is enough to make him explode as well, and he collapses on top of her, finally releasing her hands. She winds her arms around his shoulders and through his hair, which by this point is a complete mess, as he lies with his head on her chest, both of them slowly getting their breath back and letting their heart rates come back down to normal.

Joe can feel Taylor smiling against the top of his head. ‘Sorry for tearing you away from your book, babe,’ she says cheekily. ‘I’ll have to make you some more of my - how did you describe it? - orgasmic focaccia to make it up to you.’

He laughs at her silliness as they both get up to look for their clothes. ‘That’s okay, love, you’re good enough to eat on your own.’ Taylor snorts and pretends to smack him on the arm with her shorts, but she can’t resist replying, ‘In that case, maybe I can arrange a special dessert for you after dinner tonight.’

#the way this had been sitting in my inbox for months and i only just found it-#taylor and joe

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gunnhildrr · 3 years

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Just thought of such a great, yet horrible way for a Buddie confession. Okay, so don’t hate me, but here’s the episode/fic idea:

The episode opens with Buck bloodied and lying on the ground in the middle of the road. There are muffled voices and shadows dancing around him. A car alarm blaring in the background. He just stares up at the audience. His voice comes over to narrate something Grey’s Anatomy style about wishes, love, death, and missed moments.

Cut to black.

Earlier. Buck wakes up in the same kind of position in his loft bed, eyes looking through the screen. It’s bright and sunny and he hops out of bed to make breakfast. He’s got a shift today and he needs to run some errands for this big dinner he planned for tonight. Today’s the day he’s gonna tell Eddie he loves him.

Meanwhile, Eddie’s prepping Chris for school with Carla and they discuss his dinner with Buck and how he feels awkward he hasn’t told him that he and Ana are moving in together. Carla is *shook* - and knowing Buck and Eddie finally speaks her mind: “are you sure you’re doing this for the right reasons?” Eddie’s confused and tries to say something when Carla interrupts and says “don’t lie to me, I’ve seen the way you’ve been eyeing our Buckaroo lately; and Chris tells me you’ve been spending more time thinking about him than pretty Miss Flores.” Eddie goes all red and tries to make excuses, but Carla’s not having any of it. Finally, he says, “I can’t. Buck’s too important to me and besides, he’s got Taylor.”

Little does he know, Taylor’s long gone to NYC for a new job as a reporter for NBC.

Buck’s walking out of Whole Foods with bags of new ingredients he and Bobby have been working through in their quest to explore the culinary world. Buck crosses the street and BAM! A crash - cut to black.

It’s 12:32pm and Buck still hasn’t shown up for his shift. Bobby, Hen, Chim, and Eddie are starting to get worried. But their concerns are interrupted by the alarm. A vehicle accident plowing through a crowd of pedestrians on Lasalle (just made that up lol). Eddie shudders, a sudden wave of worry washing over him.

Now, it’s back to the opening scene. Buck can’t move - it hurts all over, he just stares helpless at the audience as blood seeps through his clothes and mouth. Whimpering.

The 118 pull up to the scene and they check on the driver. This woman is distraught - “I didn’t seem him coming! I didn’t see him coming!” Eddie shivers… he’s hit with deja vu. He gets her checked and proceeds to the epicenter of the commotion, presumably the person who was hit.

Chim and Hen are bent down by a blonde man. Eddie rushes over but is stopped by Bobby. Eddie’s confused - why can’t he help? “You can’t do this. You’re too close to this.” Bobby mutters.

Eddie’s heart drops into his stomach. He uses his strength to push Bobby aside and pushes past the crowd to see Chim and Hen crouching by Buck’s side, body broken, skin pale and bloody, body angled in the same way Shannon’s was in her last moments.

Eddie’s world slows. Every emotion he felt then, he felt now. Maybe even worse the second time around. Bobby tries to pull him back, but he doesn’t relent. He crouches down next to Chim as he puts a neck brace on Buck. Buck, slowly looks at Eddie, whispers “E- Eddie… you-you’re here” through the severe pain he feels in his chest, with a pained smile and tears flowing down his face. “Looks like m-my luck finally ran out this time,” he says effortfully.

Eddie tries his best to keep it together. “You’re gonna be fine, Buck. You’re gonna be fine.” He turns on medic mode and tries to help Hen and Chim finish up their check. Hen and Chin exchange a solemn look and shake their heads as they begin changing their course of treatment, trying anything to keep Buck alive. Eddie follows along as he tries to keep Buck talking. They get to a point where they just have to hoist Buck on to a gurney and transport - he’s losing time.

Chim gets into the front of the ambulence, while Hen and Eddie get into the back. Hen’s getting the monitors set up and all the tubes and wires placed onto Buck’s body. “Eddie…” Hen looks over to him with watery eyes.

“Wha- what are- why aren’t you doing anything?” Eddie exclaims.

“When I put this tube in… there’s a good chance it may not come back out.” Suddenly, Eddie’s breathless. These are almost the exact words she said to him when it was Shannon.

He turns to Buck. “Eddie, listen to her. We- we don’t have much time left.” Buck is weakly holding on to Eddie’s wrist.

“No, Buck. Don’t say that. Stop it. You’re going to be fine.” He can feel his voice shaking.

“I- I don’t feel anything anymore,” Buck explains. “Eddie, I- I have something to tell you.”

Eddie can’t stop the tears flowing from his eyes now. “Save it for later, when you’re in your hospital bed, awake.”

“I- I’m not sure if I’m gonna make it. Eddie, I- I love you.”

Eddie’s heart explodes.

“Eddie, I’ve been in love with you for- for so long. That’s what I was gonna tell you tonight.”

“But, what about Tay-“

“She’s gone. New York. New job. Look- It took me so long to figure this out, but- but it’s you. It’s always been you and Chris.”

“God, Chris.” Eddie’s tears flow more fiercely. “You can’t do this, Buck. You can’t do this! He- I- we will never forgive you for this.”

“I- I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.” Buck cries weakly. “All I ever wanted was to be a part of your family.”

“You are! You always were. Come on. You’re in my will for gods sake. I LOVE YOU TOO!”

Buck smiles and reaches for Eddie’s face. Eddie grabs his hand and kisses it. He leans and kisses him. “I love you too, okay? I love you too. So, fight. I put you in my will because you are a fighter, now fight it, damn it! Whatever light you’re seeing, whatever’s calling for you, fight it, Evan!”

There’s so much emotion in his voice, so unlike himself. Buck laughs, seeing the love of his life finally being honest with his feelings. “I love you…” his voice fades on the last word as the monitor starts to flatline.

“No! No! Buck, wake up! Wake up!” Eddie pleads. Hen pushes him out of the way and intubates him. It’s no use, as the monitor is still flat, the long beep signaling no heartbeat ringing through the ambulance. Hen moves to compressions. It doesn’t work. Eddie pulls himself together. He grabs the paddles and yells “charge!” and shocks Buck. His heart comes back momentarily, but then flatlines again. He keeps going.

“Eddie- I” Hen says, crying.

“No! I know he wouldn’t stop fighting for me, for us. So I’m not stopping for him.”

Eddie alternates between compressions and the paddles. They finally arrive at the hospital. The back doors open as he’s mid-compressions. “Male, 29, multiple traumas - he was hit by a car.”

The doctor looks at the monitor: “how long has he been down?”

“Approximately 5 minutes.” Hen replies.

A brief pause. Then “Call it.”

“What?” Eddie yells. “No, stop. What are you doing.”

The doctor holds his hands up and gets closer. “I’m sorry, he’s been down for too long, I’m afraid- I’m afraid he’s-“

Eddie cuts him off. “He’s not! He’s not gone. Come on, Buck, wake up. Come on, Evan!”

He can feel Hen’s arms reach to pull him away. Suddenly, the heart monitor picks back up. It starts slowly, then gradually get’s stronger.

“He’s back!”

“Alright, let’s get him to OR 2! Stat!”

The doctors grab the gurney and rush off.

The last scene leaves Eddie with Buck’s blood over him, standing alone looking through the ER doors as they shut in front of him. Cut to black.

#911 fox #evan buckley #eddie diaz #henrietta wilson #chimney han #bobby nash #fic ideas #episode idea #buddie #buddie fic #someone please write this #@911 writers wanna steal my idea?#please write the fic #and tag me #i wanna experience it and cry

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gaylorlyrics · 3 years

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I got a DM asking for a list of all the Karlie songs, so I made a playlist! tbh I think that almost every song Taylor has written in the past 7 years has to do with karlie in some way, but these are the ones that are most obvious imo.

I didn’t include some of the ones that I think are about breaking up because I didn’t want it to be a sad playlist. I also ordered everything chronologically and based on track number.

1. Welcome to New York - “you can want who you want”, “boys and boys and girls and girls”, Karlie quote: “[Taylor] almost moved to London and I said, 'Nope, not happening.' She now lives in New York.”

2. Shake It Off - this one is slightly a stretch but there is a very compelling argument that karlie is the “fella over there with the hella good hair” and the ballet dancing in the mv seems significant given that karlie was a ballerina.

3. You Are In Love - “you’re my best friend”, “on the way home” aka the caption to this pic of Taylor and karlie, “dancing in a snow globe” aka VSFS 2013 when kaylor literally danced in a snow globe

4. New Romantics - a semi-platonic karlie song as it’s more generally about the squad, but a karlie song nonetheless, “The rumors are terrible and cruel/But honey, most of them are true”, “The best people in life are free”

5. End Game - “you and me we got big reputations” (def not Joe lol), “you and me would be a big conversation”, “your body is gold” aka a color theme that Taylor uses for karlie

6. Don’t Blame Me - “I once was poison ivy, but now I'm your daisy” aka karlie tagging tay as a daisy in a post, “guys, just to play things for me to use”, general themes of secret love that would ruin you

7. Delicate - “west side”, secret love themes again, being two gay A list celebs who have built their careers off of male desire makes their situation delicate

8. Gorgeous - “you’re so gorgeous”, “look at your face”, literally just the whole song

9. King of My Heart - “school girl crush”, “like trying on clothes” cuz karlies a model, “Motown beat” aka tay’s karlie Motown post, “all the boys...never took me quite where you do”, “your love’s a secret”

10. Dancing with our Hands Tied - all about kiss gate, see full analysis here

11. Dress - “I dont want you like a best friend”, see full analysis here

12. Call It What You Want - aka Karlie what you want, again! secret love! we get it tay you have a secret love you cant tell anyone about! its sure as hell isn't Joe, “fit like a daydream”, “high above the whole scene”

13. New Years Day - polaroids, having quiet normal moments together, “her midnights”, etc.

14. Cruel Summer - “snuck in through the garden gate!!!”, “I love you aint that the worst thing you ever heard”, “shape of your body”, “boy...with a price...I bought it”, “I dont wanna keep secrets just to keep you”!!!!!!!!

15. Lover - “ive loved you 3 summers”, “ur my lover” what a gender neutral term..., “Can I go where you go? Can we always be this close?” aka secret love themes again, “everyone who sees you wants you”

16. Cornelia Street - “this city screams your name”, “Jacket 'round my shoulders is yours” aka so many pics of Taylor wearing karlies jackets

17. False God - “were we crazy to think that this would work”, “you’re the west village”, “ like I’m not your favorite town I'm New York City”

18. illicit affairs - “tell your friends you’re out for a run”, “illicit affairs, clandestine meetings, and longing stares”, sECreT loVE

19. gold rush - “what must it be like to grow up that beautiful”, “everybody wants you”, see full analysis here

20. Dorothea - “shes a queen selling dreams, selling make up and magazines”, “if you're ever tired of bеing known for who you know You know that you'll always know me” aka if you get tired of being associated with kushnerds, see full analysis here

21. ivy - “tarnished but so grand”, “Your opal eyes are all I wish to see”, SECRET LOVE, see full analysis here

22. cowboy like me - “Dancin' is a dangerous game”, “But that was all before I locked it down”, see full analysis here

#its not all of them but its a lot of them #kaylor #gaylor #taylor swift #Karlie Kloss

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petri808 · 3 years

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Inukag AU

As Inuyasha and Kagome cut through a park on their way back to the Higurashi home, they chatted casually, just winding down after a hearty lunch at a nearby cafe. The couple stayed to the pathways traversing the manicured park. It would be shorter to cut through the grass, but why the rush? It was a beautiful location, with a several different kinds of trees dotting the landscape to provide shade and lots of open space for all kinds of activities. Some picnicked, flew kites or played frisbee, they’d even passed a group doing Tai Chi. There were young families to older citizens enjoying the scenery. The couples conjoined hands and twined fingers swayed lazily back and forth between them. Despite the summer heat starting to rise in Tokyo, with blue skies and a gentle breeze brought in from the Pacific Ocean, it was a perfect day for a stroll.

While this journey towards normalcy hasn’t always been an easy one, the past couple of months have been the happiest so far. Ever since leaving the hospital Kagome’s felt better and better. There were even moments she’d made peace with the idea she may not regain her memories. Was it saddening yes, because she wouldn’t remember her job, friends, and other precious moments. But at the same time, she could always make new ones. Sango’s twins were still young. She could relearn her job, and best of all she had Inuyasha who’d she’d become attached to. Their steadily growing relationship was a budding romance regardless of their past history. Think about? Kagome had a chance to re-experience everything in a new way, through a new lens. Well… that’s what she told herself to justify the idea, and so far, it was working.

But there were strange moments starting to occur. Sometimes they were dreams of scenes Kagome didn’t recognize. That in of itself weren’t unusual because how often do dreams ever make complete sense? No, it was in the emotions that came with them. On several occasions Kagome would wake up with the distinct feeling these were not merely dreams but memories trying to break through. At other times, she couldn’t remember the dream, only the emotions she’d felt during them. Sometimes they were so intense, she’d wake up in tears or completely happy for no other reason. According to her neurologist, this was normal during the healing process, but unfortunately there was no true way to tell the difference between reality and fantasy.

“Did I tell you I reached out to Ms. Tanaka the other day?” Kagome asked Inuyasha.

“Mmm, I don’t think so.”

“I called the office and spoke to her briefly about maybe getting lunch one day so she could tell me how things have been there. I may not know exactly what she’s talking about, but maybe it’ll jog my memories.”

Inuyasha lifted their conjoined hands and kissed the back of hers. “I think that’s a really good idea. You guys will have fun talking.”

“I think so too, she seemed very nic—…” Kagome’s voice trailed away as stopped dead in her tracks and her eyes shifted towards one of the parks trees. “Um, c-could we check out that tree?”

“Sure, whatever you want.” Inuyasha smiled knowingly.

It was like her feet gained a mind of their own as they carried her towards a large Sakura tree in the middle of a field. Just from looking at, there wasn’t anything special about the tree. Spring had long since passed and the blooms were no more. But Kagome felt a pull towards this one in particular as if she remembered something about it. What that was she had no idea. She let go of Inuyasha’s hand and reached out, touching the bark of the tree, and staring up at its massive girth. It looked old. Maybe there long before the park existed… maybe older than even the Edo period, who knew? It was just another green leafed tree, yet why was it stirring up a rush of emotions? Happy ones with butterflies dancing in her soul.

Slowly, she moved around the base of the tree like a surveyor mapping it out or searching for secrets only it could provide. And that’s when she saw it. Kagome’s breathing hitched as her eyes fell upon a carving in the wood, approximately five feet above the ground. There, a bit worn nonetheless was a heart encircling two names. “Kagome…” She read aloud, “& Inuyasha—

Oh, my Kami!” She gasped, both hands flying up to cover her mouth in shock. “H-How? When?”

At that moment, Inuyasha walked over, gazing at the words and running his hand over the carving while he spoke. “We carved this about two years ago.” He smiled, eyes crinkling, and growing moist as if reminiscing. “It was a late Saturday afternoon and after eating an early dinner at Genki Sukiyaki, we cut through this park to get to your house. But it started to rain, not very heavy, so we took shelter under this tree.” Inuyasha chuckled lightly. “I remember you being upset about your hair getting wet.” He finally looked to Kagome, placing a hand on her cheek. “You looked so beautiful and even though the weather was miserable, there was just something magical about it all. That’s when you asked me to carve this into the tree.”

“But how did I know to look for it?” Kagome was so confused. “I don’t remember any of that.”

“I have no idea how. But part of you must. Maybe, it’s a sign your memories are fighting to come through.”

The tears gathering in Kagome’s eyes, trickle down her cheeks as a blend of happiness and sadness. She wanted to be happy for such a beautiful memory but devastated that she couldn’t remember it. She wanted to be excited that maybe, just maybe it could be true that her memories were returning, yet she didn’t want to take the chance of a let-down. Inuyasha pulled her into a tight hug as she let go of the angsty emotions. “It’s not fair that I can’t remember! I want to remember!”

“Shhh,” Inuyasha who’s own tears begun to spill, did his best to soothe her with softened tones. “I want that too. It’s gonna get better baby. I think this really is your memories returning, we just have to believe.”

“It’s hard to do that sometimes…”

Inuyasha lifted her chin and swept his thumbs over her cheeks to dry them. “And if you don’t, we’re creating a whole new memory of this tree right now, an even more special one.”

Kagome sniffled. “You think so?”

He nodded his head and placed a gentle kiss on her whetted lips. “What do you think?” Inuyasha questioned with a soft smile. “How can we add to this memory?”

Kagome paused for a moment in thought. “We could add something beneath our names… like… mmm, forever in time?”

“Is that what you want?” She nodded yes. “Okay,” Inuyasha obliged.

He kissed her again then used his claw to slowly, meticulously carve the new words into the bark. It took a few minutes because he wanted to make sure it was easy to read and would last a long time. “I think this is definitely will better than the original memory.”

“Mmhmm, it’s a good one,” Kagome agreed. She felt a lot better now. “Thank you, Inuyasha for being so patient with me. It must be so frustrating.”

Inuyasha shook his head. “Not anymore. I’m not glad about the accident, but I’m cherishing all this time I’m spending with you. Kagome, I truly mean it when I say, this moment right here,” he took her hand. “It’s now one of the happiest moments you’ve ever given me. No matter what,” he smiled, “I’ll always love you, forever in time.”

She giggled. “Forever… I like the sound of that…”

After the incident at the park, Kagome brought it up with the neuropsychologist assigned to her case. The woman patiently sat in her chair as Kagome told her every little detail. What she felt, the emotions, her thoughts, and reactions. She also brought up the dreams she’d been having as well as small incidents that caused her to feel like it might be memories trying to come through.

“Like, just the other day,” Kagome explained. “Sango accompanied me to the hospital for my last physical check-up, but as we passed by the nursery, we decided to stop to look at the cute babies. Then out of nowhere I started to feel emotional, nothing bad, just happy as she talked about the birth of her twins. I mean, yeah it makes sense to feel happy at the time because we were having a good time, but it just felt different. I almost felt like crying. Why is that??”

The woman finished jotting down her notes before speaking. “It’s been about 5 months, correct, since you lost your memories?” Kagome nodded yes. “And according to your latest evaluations, your brain has healed quite nicely. It’s not uncommon at this point for triggers to manifest themselves.”

“I don’t understand…”

“The way long term memory retention works, our brains must process information and create new neurocircuitry, storage if you will once the information has been deemed necessary to keep in the long term. If not, our short term memories are discarded quickly. Of course, this is just a basic explanation and there’s more to it, but what studies have found is memories attached to an emotional event have a higher likelihood of being retained and will evoke a stronger response from us. Think of it like, these emotional memories are much more deeply attached to our psyches.”

“Oh— I think I understand.”

“Mmm,” the doctor hummed. “The park incident was attached to a very emotional moment in your life. So even though you couldn’t remember the event itself, the part of you that remembered the emotions surrounding it did and pushed you towards the tree. Also, the hospital, you mentioned being with your friend Sango and looking at babies. This is just a guess, but perhaps you were feeling the emotions you felt from the time she gave birth.”

As the doctors words were processed, moisture began to pool in Kagome’s eyes. Could it really be true?! Should she really allow herself to hope?! When Kagome finally responded, her voice cracked as it held back the tears. “D-Does this mean… I’m starting to get my memories back?”

“I would say, yes. Again, I cannot say one hundred percent certain, but what you are experiencing is a common one. Those that suffered from acute memory loss, don’t just wake up one day and suddenly they’ve all returned. It’s a gradual process, but once it begins it typically continues at a steady pace.”

“I-I don’t know what to say!” A few happy tears joined the smile on Kagome’s face.

“I suggest that you start writing down the times you feel something or think you’re remembering something and check them with your family and friends. If they confirm it, talk about it. That could help as well to bring more information and memories to the forefront— give your brain a little help to jog itself.”

“Thank you so much, doctor! I’ll definitely do that!”

The woman smiled, reaching over to pat Kagome’s hand before giving it a small squeeze. “You’re very welcome. I wish you all the luck in the world!”

#inukag #inuyasha #inukag au #kagome higurashi #inukag fan fic #inukag fan fiction #inuyasha x kagome #missing memories #ch 8 #petri808

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vangoghmusings · 4 years

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writing session- art trade

rating: 18+ [use of drugs and sexual intercourse]

word count: 2k

for: @melanimed <3

a/n: this is for an art trade sweet tay and i decided to do today!! this is a musician au and some very filthy smutty smut under the cut :)) enjoy~

“Are you sure this is a good idea?”

“Tay, you haven’t shut up about this collaboration since the day he agreed.”

Tay huffed, brown lashes fluttering down as she looked at her lap. Her knee bobbed in anticipation as she sat in the Uber beside her manager.

“I know but, I’m still nervous.”

“Just think of it as another step towards becoming the ultimate A-Lister, okay?” Her manager chirped, not once looking up from their phone, typing quickly. Tay sighed and nodded.

As a singer who was set to perform at Madison Square Garden the next year, Tay, who went by the stage name Pisces, had made quite a name for herself in the R&B scene. So much, that Dabi, the modern-day prince of bedroom pop with R&B influence asked for her to collaborate on a song. While it seems like a simple career orientated step, Tay couldn’t believe her idol and celebrity crush knew she existed. As for Dabi, she was clueless to the fact that he was her biggest fan too. A guilty pleasure, so to speak.

As the Uber came to a halt, Tay let out a breath she didn’t realize she was holding.

“Relax, you won’t get any good writing done with all that damn anxiety.”

Tay rolled her eyes, gave her manager a thank you and hopped out of the Uber, which zoomed away quickly. The sun was setting, as Dabi specifically told her the best time to write music was at nightfall. She walked to the large building, checking the street to make sure no paparazzi were following her, and stepped inside. A worker quickly greeted her, offered her water or tea (which she declined politely), and thus led her to the studio. Tay thanked the worker as she entered the studio room. It was dimly lit, the smell of incense filling her nostrils as she stepped inside.

Sitting at an oval shaped table sat Dabi, a joint hanging from his lips as he scrolled lazily on his phone. He turned slowly, a smile creeping on his face as he saw her.

“Pisces,” he said, almost like a purr, nearly sending a shiver down Tay’s spine.

“O-oh, that’s just my stage name. You can call me Tay if you’d like.”

He nodded, standing up and setting his joint down on the ash tray set in the middle of the table.

“Guess that you shouldn’t have to call me Dabi then. The real name is Touya.”

He extended a lazy hand out to her, his height looming over her stature.

She gave a shy smile, shaking his hand, his palms practically engulfing her own.

“Shall we get started then?”

The night was spent with sheet music scattering the table, joints being passed between the two, and light laughter and cheers whenever a lyric was completed. As time passed and smoke filled the room, twirling between weed and incense, the two artists sat closer and closer together. The only thing in between them was Dabi’s guitar which sat on his lap.

Dabi pinched the joint between his fingers and inhaled before blowing the smoke out his nostrils and turning to Tay with a proud smile. His eyes crinkled slightly, covering up the redness that came over them.

“I think we’ve got a pretty good base for this song. We can edit it again next time we meet but for now I think it’s all set.”

Tay grinned and raised her arms up happily, elated to have finished successfully. Dabi set his guitar down and stood up to stretch. He elevated his arms in the air, stretching up to the ceiling, his shirt lifting slightly to give a view of his toned abs. His eyes shut gently as he let out a soft groan while reaching up. Tay blinked, watching his stance as he lowered his arms, his abs disappearing under his shirt.

Dabi looked down at her, a small pout forming on her face. Dabi chuckled and leaned down over her, swiftly cupping her face in one hand. Before her pout could diminish into shock, he dragged his thumb over her bottom lip, a smirk covering his face. Tay froze, her heart starting to feel like it was going to beat out of her chest as Dabi continued to run his thumb over her lip, before giving it a gentile tug. Tay let out a small whimper, the unexpected pull causing her to pinch her legs together. Dabi let out a small chuckle before letting go of her lip and standing back up.

“Such a filthy liar.”

Tay blinked at his remark, taken aback from his words.

“E-excuse me?”

Dabi ran a hand through his hair before continuing, a sadistic smirk growing on his face.

“You always act so innocent. For the cameras and media. You’ve been trained well.”

Dabi stood before her, his gaze hovering over her figure, taking in and analyzing every curve. Tay crossed her arms over her chest.

“I am not innocent.”

“Oh yeah?”

Dabi dropped to his knees in front of her, resting his head on her thighs before hissing out, “Let me break you.”

“What?”

If Tay didn’t think her heart was going to break through her rib cage, she was sure it would now.

“Let me break that innocent façade of yours, babygirl,” Dabi said, his eyes full of lust as his words came out like velvet.

Tay couldn’t believe what was happening. She had to be dreaming, or at least way too high for her own good. But with Dabi resting his head on her thighs, massaging them with his large hands as he batted his lashes, how could anyone say no? Unable to muster any words, she simply nodded and gulped. Dabi lifted his head from her lap and grinned, licking his lips hungrily and craning open her legs, pushing her skirt back.

“Good girl,” He growled lowly before burying his face between Tay’s thighs, causing her to gasp.

Dabi ran his tongue against the thing fabric of her panties, his piercing gliding over it smoothly. He pulled away after a few gentle licks, then tugged the fabric and letting it slap against Tay’s increasingly wet cunt, causing her to yelp.

“Oh, I’m going to have fun with you,” Dabi said with a smirk as he removed her panties. Once the panties dropped to the floor, he paused and sucked his teeth in concentration. “Yeah, no,” he said before picking her up with ease and setting her on the table. Tay let out a small squeak of embarrassment after he plopped her on the cool wood, gripping her thighs firmly in his hands before spreading them apart. Dabi watched in sadistic glee as Tay’s pussy pulsed at nothing, desperate for attention.

“You’ve got such a pretty little cunt there babygirl...I’m going to fucking wreck it.”

Tay’s eyes widened as Dabi stared at the heat between her legs hungrily, but too scared to dive in, as if the girl he’d secretly been pining over for more than a year would dissipate into thin are if he did. Tay let out needy huff, bringing Dabi back down to earth.

“If you’re going to wreck me, then just fuck me already Touya.”

Dabi grinned once more before stepping closer to her, standing between her spread legs that hung over the table.

“Such a desperate little brat hm?”

He gripped a fistful of her curls, yanking her head back and exposing her neck, causing Tay to gasp softly. Dabi smirked before running his tongue up the side of her neck, the cold of his tongue ring causing her to hiss from the unknown sensation. Swiftly, he leeched his mouth onto her neck and sucked hard, nipping and biting at the sensitive crook of her neck every so often. Tay whimpered and gripped the edge of the table in pleasure, Dabi’s sharp teeth eliciting soft moans. He ran his tongue and gently kisses the new bruises before pulling away, towering over Tay as he licked his lips. With a firm grip, he cupped her face in one hand, placing a feather-like kiss on her lips, contrasting from his harsh hold on her. He gently dropped his hands before pushing her back onto the table. Tay propped herself on her elbows, watching Dabi’s every move with lustful eyes.

Dabi pulled his hard lengths out of his black jeans, pumping it a few times in his hand before leaning down and spitting harshly on Tay’s cunt. She gasped and writhed at the sensation, knuckles white from gripping onto the table. Dabi chuckled darkly as pushed Tay’s legs open once again, exposing her wholly to him.

“So pretty,” He mumbled to himself. He quickly pushed his hair out of his face before gripping unto his erect length and pressing it against Tay’s wet clit. Slowly, Dabi teasingly ran circles over her needy bud with his tip, moaning softly at the feeling. If he had to be honest, he could do this for hours, watching her squirm at the feeling of his cock rubbing her wet clit.

“Touya,” Tay whimpered, looking up at him with desperation.

“Beg for it slut. Beg for my cock to stuff you full and prove to me you're not an innocent little girl. Beg-”

“Touya please! Please I need your cock so bad, I know you’d fill me up so good, please, I need you so badly!” Tay cried out, exhausted and taut from squirming under the pressure of his dick on her clit.

Dabi nodded and without hesitation, plunged his hard cock into her tight cunt. They groaned together at the feeling, as Dabi slowly pushed more and more of his length into her tightness. He paused in concern and looked down at his cock only halfway inside.

“Are you sure you want me to-”

“Yes, please just stuff me Touya!” Tay pleaded, reaching out to grip his shoulders.

“I knew I liked you for a reason,” Dabi smirked as he snapped his hips, stuffing her full of his thick cock. The room soon filled with moans as a rhythm was found, Dabi harshly fucking deeply into Tay’s tight cunt. A series of praise falling from his lips...

“Oh, fuck you feel so good around me babygirl.

Such a good dirty little whore for me, hm? You just loved being stuffed full of my fat cock.

I’m going to fill you with my cum babygirl, paint your insides completely white.”

That last phrase was more of a promise than a statement as Tay came to realize. With her cunt clenching tightly around Dabi’s swollen dick, they were both close.

“Please Touya please cum in me!” Tay begged, her legs shaking at the impending high that was about to crash over her. Dabi grunted, snapping his hips into her roughly, trying not to get sloppy despite how close he was. He began to pant hard as Tay’s nails dug into his back, eliciting a blissful groan to vibrate from his chest. With one final hard thrust, he shot hot ropes of thick cum into her quivering pussy. Tay cried out blissfully as she came hard, shaking under neath Dabi as he continued to slowly thrust into her as they rode out their climax’s together.

Dabi let out a light sigh as he pulled out, watching as Tay’s pussy pulsed with cum dribbling out.

“Well that just won't do,” He hummed as he took thumb and pushed the juiced back inside of her. “Here,” he said while pressing a soft kiss on her forehead and picking up her panties, handing them to her. “You keep that cum inside of you so when we get to my place, I can fuck it further into you, got it babygirl?”

Tay’s eyes widened as she nodded quickly, eager to have Dabi stuffing her full once more. He chuckled and pressed a kiss to her jawline, mumbling a “good girl” against her skin.

#dabi #dabi smut #tay x dabi #tay x touya #touya #touya x oc #dabi x oc #art trade #bnha smut #mha smut

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deuchess · 4 years

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What do you think of each s3 li? And the best friend options? Give me your thoughts.

Nicky: oof i remember when everyone (mostly on reddit) were saying he’d be the new Bobby. Nicky is literally the big brother, Bobby is like the annoying cousin your mum forces you to interact with akdhjahs. i’ve only done one route, so i haven’t seen the best friends scenes with him. from what i see with others though, he compares mc to his sister a lot, which makes sense seeing he’s the big brother guy. he came of as a little boring to me tbh, but again, i didn’t make him my bestie. i’d say he’s alright 5/10

Elladine: i made her my bestie, but honestly? i’m regretting it. she’s cute as hell and her talking about her and Nicky possibly doing “morning bits” was pretty interesting. the only thing she’s given me is her talk about guys thinking she’s bossy, is there not more to you girl?? she’s alright too, but since she’s hot, I’m giving her an extra point 5/10

Seb: man seb is so cool! i like the little thing he’s got going on with Viv? heck yeah! go you bro! i love the look of him and think his interest in cats is adorable. 8/10

Genevive: i fucking regret not making her my bestie soooo bad! she’s just so hot so interesting! again, her thing with Seb has to become something, cause her and Harry are not it. a total babe, would couple up with! 10/10

Tai: i love his personality a lot, but romantically speaking? wouldn’t date him. did i still bang him? yeah. he’s an absolute wonderful guy and i really love his dialogue, looks and background. i don’t know what makes me not romantically into him, i think it might be because i’m not really into buff guys maybe. still think he’s smoking 9/10

Aj: oh she’s sooo adorable. i love that we can get with her so soon. i’ve been leading her on so fucking bad since the beginning, i kiss and flirt with her at every opportunity. my game glitches all the time and AJ gets jealous at me and the other LIs a lot, and Yasmin AND mc herself think she’s with me akdhahsh. i mostly see her as a friend that i snog from time to time tbh, but she’s a great character. a little confused as the how she’s doing with Tai though. 8.5/10

Yasmin: currently coupled up with her. i prefer her to AJ tbh. i lover her look, her personality and her everything! 10/10

Camilo: i thought he’d be the guy i’d couple up with, but then he said “mamacita” and it gave me flashbacks to all the guys and girls on TikTok saying that and “mamas” and i just couldn’t do it. out of the three OG boys, he’s probably the best one, but i don’t go for the best, i go for trash!!!! he’s like his food, yummy 8/10

Harry: he gives me “guy who’s desperately trying to get out of the friendzone” vibes. i thought the scene in the kitchen on day 7 when he protected mc’s eyes was pretty darn cute. he’s just cute, that’s all i have to say about him really 6/10

Bill: *clears throat* erm let’s look at my notes here...... i don’t know why i like him. maybe he cast a spell on me on day 1. he is Australian after all, maybe he met Lottie and she gave him her spell book. i don’t actually find him that annoying. do i roll my eyes at most things he says? yes. but am i annoyed? no.

people, i genuinely don’t know what’s made me like this guy. he’s getting a 10/10 -12928/10 from me

#i didnt proofread oops #litg seb #litg nicky #litg elladine #litg tai #litg #litg genevieve #litg bill #litg camilo #litg harry #litg aj #litg yasmin #litg s3 #love island the game #love island the game season 3 #asks #anon #stop it seliné

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saharamae21 · 4 years

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Never Ran Smooth (Part 7)

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Give me your hands, if we be friends,

JJ’s POV:

After hours of blaring music and yelling, my dad had finally passed out. This is why Savannah can never get involved with me. I would tear her down to my level. I would just ruin her life. I winced in pain as I brushed against the bruises my dad had given me and roughly packed a bag. I needed to get out of here. As I slipped past my dad on the couch, a wave of rage overcame me. I can’t do this anymore. He makes me miserable. He’s given me nothing. He’s the reason I’m worthless. I shook as I pulled out the gun and aimed right at his sleeping body. I felt tears well up in my eyes and moved away quickly, shoving the gun back into my bag. In the end, he was still my father.

When I got to John B’s there was someone already there. They watched the house from a car as we slipped into the Pogue and took off.

“First, I almost get strangled to death by Kooks,”I started. “and now I'm on the hook for 30 grand. We should just dip.”

“Okay, where do you wanna go? Hm?” John asked with a hint of annoyance.

“Yucatan,” I said, earning a laugh from the boy. “No, I'm dead serious right now. Surf all day, and then we can just live off lobsters we catch with our bare hands.”

“You just wanna leave 'cause you got your ass beat?” he asked, rolling his eyes. No. Maybe if I just left, Sav would be better off. Maybe if I left, my dad would get his shit together. Maybe if I left, everyone around me would get by a little easier. Not only that, maybe if we left I could save John B from becoming like the two guys who were fed to the sharks.

“You didn't see the photos,” I mumbled.

“Think about it. They're willing to kill for the gold,” John B paused. “then it's gotta be out there.”

“One hundred years, people have been tryin' to find this Royal Merchant,” I said raising my voice. “and no one succeeded. And you think you are gonna be the one that actually finds it? When will you get it in your thick skull? If you keep goin' down this road, you're gonna end up just like your dad!”

I felt him shove me. I saw the anger on his face. I watched as he began to struggle with his own thoughts and actions.

“I can't give up, JJ!” he screamed back at me. “The last time I saw that dude, we got in an argument, and then he took all of our rent money and dipped for this Royal Merchant. And then I told him he was a shit father. and you know how the rest of the story goes.”

“Bro, that wasn't your fault,” I said softly. I just wanted him to stop blaming himself for this.

“It doesn't matter whose fault it is, JJ!” he yelled. “Do you not understand that? I can't give up on the hunt, man. I don't care who's out there, who's gonna try to kill us. Do you understand that? I can’t just leave. I get you think you have nothing here JJ, but that isn’t true. What about Pope and Kie? What about Savannah?” I cringed when he said her name. I remember the look on her face when I told her we would never happen. She deserves more than me.

“What would Savannah do if you just left one day JJ?” he asked me. I avoided his gaze. I felt guilt well up in me as I imagined her looking for me. “When are you going to stop thinking you're bad for her and realize how good she is for you?”

His words burned me. They sat in the back of my mind for the rest of the day. I had made my decision to prevent her from being hurt by my lifestyle. Now night was upon us and the Midsummers event was in full force. I was dressed the nicest I’ve ever looked as we pulled the boat up to the dock of the hotel.

“Okay, look, I need you to get this to Sarah,” John told me.

“Ooh! Can I read it?” I asked, already sneaking a peak. “Hold up. Are you mackin' Sarah Cameron?”

“Would you shut up?” he asked, clearly embarrassed. This new information made my stomach churn. He was macking on a Kook and I couldn’t even accept the fact that I might like one.

In the end, I agreed to be his little messenger and sneak into Midsummers. I made it into the backyard and admired the decorations Sav had thought about. She really had a talent when it came to picking out things that sparkled. Then my eyes landed on her. She looked radiant and fresh like the decorations themselves. She was beautiful from head to toe and every single part of me wanted to go up to her and ask her to dance, but then my eyes found their ways to hers. There was her black eye. The one she had gotten while trying to protect me. The guilt began to overwhelm me. Where there was me, there was bruising and hurt, and she wasn’t an exception to that rule. I was a danger to her.

“Hey!” Pope yelled. Thank you for interrupting my thoughts.

“Dude, don't sneak up on me like that right now,” I said awkwardly as he embraced me. “Whoa. Unexpected PDA there, Dr. Spock.”

He looked so distressed, but it made me happy to know he was okay. “But, uh... hey, love you, too, man,” I said while placing a quick kiss on his cheek.

“Did Shoupe do that?” he asked, motioning to my face.

“Oh, this? No. This is-- It's my dad. You know? Has that right jab,” I said jokingly. I didn’t want him to worry. “Can really snap it off at times. It's nothin' that hasn't happened before.”

I explained that we were going to be rich. I explained that John had a plan. And most of all I explained to him that nothing that happened to me was his fault. I smiled as I left him to do his job and went back to the mission of finding Sarah Cameron. As I dodged my way through the crowds I found Sarah dancing with her little sister. I awkwardly slipped her the note and tried to get out of there as quickly as I could, but felt a hand grab mine. It was soft and warm and I knew exactly whose it was before turning around.

“Are you okay…?” her voice was shaky. Princess.

“I’m fine,” I said as I turned around. I heard her gasp and instantly her hand was on my face. I winced in pain and pushed her hand away. She muttered an apology, worry filling her eyes.

“Who did this to you?” she asked. I saw a single tear slip down her cheek. I wanted to reach forward and wipe it away, but at this moment she seemed a million miles away from me.

“Don’t worry about it,” I scoffed. She wasn’t going to let this go though. I opened my mouth to give her an explanation, but was interrupted by the last person I wanted to see.

“I'm wonderin' if you could get me a mai tai, my friend,” Rafe’s voice rang out.

“Grow up Rafe,” Sav said, defending me no matter what.

“You guys look spiffy,” I joked. “You know, uh, I got a couple of orders ahead of you, so why don't you guys just go ahead and wait by the bar?”

“No, we're going…” Rafe started. “help yourselves to hors d'oeuvres.”

Then a guy I didn’t know spoke up. I had seen him around a few times, but never once has he picked a fight with me.

“Guys, JJ's gonna serve us some hors d'oeuvres,” he smirked, but not at me. He was looking past me, right at Savannah. I saw the anger on her face.

“That’s enough Jasper,” she said, her hands balled into fists. “Leave him alone.”

“I'll be right back, okay?” I said. I was going to do anything to get Sav out of this situation before it got ugly. But then they followed me. I ran through the hotel and into the locker room. I sighed and tried to find a place to hide, but there was nowhere to run. Next thing I know, I’m being escorted out by security. At this point I might as well make a scene.

“It's okay, everybody! Do not panic. Leave it to the men and women in uniform,” I yelled as I looked up. My eyes met Savannah’s dad’s who looked disgusted by my actions. It was too late to go back now though. “Let's hear it for them. Rose! You look like Lady Liberty.”

My eyes once again fell on Savannah, who laughed at my joke. She looked like she was building up courage for something. I hated when I was right.

“Let go of him!” she yelled. I watched as she ran up to where I was. “You can't boot him! I invited him here. I'm a member of this club.”

“Savannah!” her dad yelled and marched down to where she was. Kie and Pope followed shortly after. When her dad finally made it to her, he grabbed her arm roughly. She pushed him away and then a sound echoed through the silence. If this wasn’t a scene before, it certainly was now. Nicolas Stryker had just struck his daughter in the middle of Midsummers. “You will not embarrass this family anymore.”

I knelt down beside her, expecting her to be in full tears like at the movies. Yet, there were no tears. No emotion was in her eyes as my fingers guided along her cheek. She pushed my hand away and got up, looking at Kie, Pope and I.

“C’mon…” she said quietly. “You guys have somewhere to be right?”

I grabbed her wrist, making her come with us. The only thought going through my head was: I have to get her out of here. I have to make sure she’s okay.

“If you leave, don’t bother coming home,” he dad muttered after her, but she kept walking. I held her wrist tightly and just kept my face forward, not checking on her in the slightest. If I looked at her, I would be filled with rage at everyone. Is this how rich kids were treated too?

The rain was whipping through the air as we drove to the lighthouse. Kie was arguing back and forth with John B over the Sarah Cameron predicament, but Pope and I focused our attention on Sav. She sat silently, staring out the window even though we weren’t moving anymore. Her knees were hugged into her chest and there was no emotion on her face. I felt Pope nudge me and gesture towards her. I gave him a look as if saying no, but there was no arguing with him at this moment. Finally giving in, I went and sat next to her. I couldn’t bring myself to say anything though. She just sat there unfazed by me. I slowly reached up and moved a piece of hair from her face. God, she is so beautiful. Unable to make the words come out, I just pushed her head to lean on my shoulder. “You don’t need to force yourself,” she mumbled and leaned her head back up.

“I’m not,” I said and placed her head down once again. “I’m just trying to be a good friend.”

She kept her head there and closed her eyes, squeezing them tightly like she was going to cry. I felt her wrap her arms around my neck. Her hot breath against my neck made my heart pound.

“Just let me stay like this for a second,” she whispered, pain echoing inside her voice. She clung to me as if she needed me by her side. What she needed was love and if I gave her that, only bad things would follow. Instead of loving her, I reassured her everything was going to be alright, but even that must have been too close, because John B almost died less than an hour later.

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hopeshoodie · 4 years

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Boat party reactions!!!

I love how I said "Lily and I are in a loving relationship and we moved in together" then Fusebox really said "no you aren't❤"

There's a bunch of new background/overlay assets, some which are sci fi. It makes me wonder if Fusebox is planning on moving in the direction of their survey last year- shorter spin offs in different genres

They finally gave everyone the tattoos they deserve- Seb's covered, most of the others have at least one. My only complaint is that they gave Lily generic white girl tattoos (and dressed her in really femme clothes?? That's not her aesthetic wtf). It's probably my fault for latching onto the headcanon that she has a full sleeve of traditional, but that felt disappointing

They!! Actually gave people rapport!! And different personalities!!! But truly, it feels like a return to form- they bring back the map selection, they let characters banter a bit, it feels like S2.

Nicky and Seb are doing a podcast as the narration and I really love it. Shows the relationship, gets the job done, it was a great choice. Their back and forth seems organic and I actually laughed when Nicky used Seb's full name to rib him

They made Iona look SO hot if I dont get to kiss her I'm rioting. Fucking sucks that Lily chose her to be her paddleboard partner, that should be meeeee.

THIS IS NOT A DRILL!! TAI JUST QUOTED TWILIGHT TO HIS BOYFRIEND CIARAN!!!! THIS SEASON IS FOR THE GAYS

The gem scenes dont really have enough meat to really make them worth it.....

Oops. Looks like they're releasing the episodes weekly again, we gotta wait until the 22nd for the next episode....

In general, I'd recommend playing it for those who haven't played or finished S3. It brings back the banter, gives the characters more distinct personality, and the art is good. So far the only drama that's happened is Lily and I fighting, and it gave me the chance to emotionally cheat on her with one of the other LIs (note: not Iona, Seb, Nicky, Viv, or Elladine). I'm definitely looking forward to next week.

#litg

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reviewabeautifulstory · 3 years

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Kiss Me Again PeteKao Cut

I just realised I haven't really given reactions to the PeteKao cut of Kiss Me Again so I figured I might as well do a quick review before I start watching their sequel series, Dark Blue Kiss!

I'll admit the premises of Kiss Me and Kiss Me Again didn't interest me in the slightest but I'd read some good reviews about the PeteKao storyline and it had New in it who I may have fallen a tiny bit in love with during my Sotus watch! I found – and if anyone wants the link please feel free to DM me and I'll try to locate it again – a fan cut of their story which actually included all of their scenes from Kiss Me Again, and not just the GMMTV cut available to watch. I wasn't complaining at all about being able to watch nearly 4 hours of Pete and Kao :D

I absolutely loved them. Tay and New have some great chemistry together and if I hadn't fallen head over heels for Pick and Rome in Puppy Honey, Pete and Kao would take top spot as my favourite couple (sorry guys, you are just a smidge behind!).

Pete could very easily have come across as a complete asshole for the entire series but Tay managed to give him a vulnerability that made it believable that Kao could fall him. Kao himself is utterly adorable and the type of person who will forgive another person's mistakes. He made Pete earn his trust, definitely, which I liked and I think Pete needed to do that not just for Kao but also to prove a point to himself.

They both had their moments of jealousy and insecurity but their character growth and maturity as the series went on was just brilliant. My absolute favourite part of the entire series was Pete calling Kao over when Mint unexpectedly gate crashed his day. He wanted to deal with the issue of what to do with her together rather than by himself. They weren’t dating at that point but he knew he could rely on Kao, just like Kao had been able to lean on Pete when his mother was unwell. It felt like when they finally did come together as an official couple, they had a good solid foundation to build on.

I am super excited to see where their relationship goes from here in Dark Blue Kiss!

And just because I can and feel like it, another personal favourite moment was the pool kiss!

#petekao #kiss me again #kiss me again petekao cut #kiss me again pete #kiss me again kao #taynew

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bisluthq · 3 years

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Kaylor Rises?

We’ll never know the mechanics or reasons for Joshlie going on a break (or even if they just decided to be more casual for a bit). Maybe it was Taylor related, maybe it was all the stuff with his family, maybe it was the spectre of differing religions, maybe it was the age gap, maybe he started to agree that a ‘lingerie model’ was unsuitable in the long run… But one fact we do know, from investigative journalism done on the Kushners and also from looking at contemporaneous gossip blogs is: Joshlie have taken breaks. We don’t know exactly exactly how many, or why. But we know that they did. Again, this is one of the biggest pieces of ‘evidence’ that they’re real because why bother faking problems and breaks? Why not present yourselves as head-over-heels? It doesn’t make sense, but it’s what happened. And it also opens the door to some romantic!Kaylor. And in March 2014, Josh disappears from the picture and Taylor is suddenly a massive presence - way beyond the fun, highkey promotion we saw up till now.

1 March 2014 - We see Kaylor both attend a Pre-Oscar Party. I think a Joshlie break was what led Karlie to go to LA and stay with Taylor. At this stage, they’d known each other publicly for about five months but, if we factor in possible negotiations, they might have known each other for much longer. I really do think they were good friends by this stage, because Taylor is a terrible actress and they clearly really enjoyed each other’s company. It was as good a place as any for Karlie to go and lick wounds.

2 March 2014 - Kaylor attend the Vanity Fair Oscar Party and the Vogue profile talks about this being where they connected and decided to do the road trip: “A few months later they saw each other again at an Oscars after-party, and Kloss suggested they do something spontaneous. “I’d been to Big Sur once before, and I was like, ‘We should just do it,’ ” says Swift.” I suspect this story is a bit of a lie - but I do think it is true that they hooked up around this time, and decided to take a road trip to Big Sur. Taylor had been there once before, with Jake Gyllenhaal. Karlie had never been. It’s interesting that for Taylor it was already a “romantic” place, at the very least publicly, and it’s where she decided to go with Karlie at this point.

Also, in terms of the “lie” factor - they’re saying this is where they reconnected but they were partying together the literal night before. So they’re obviously blurring reality a bit in the interview. Which is okay, maybe they misremembered or misspoke. But when factored into a pattern, it seems an odd thing to get confused about.

The road trip itself is ICONIC. Taylor allegedly plays Karlie the whole of 1989. They take a million gorgeous photos. The daisy thing happens.

5 March 2014 - Karlie posts the ‘Karlie loves Taylor’ sand pic. Taylor likes.

5 March 2014 - Karlie posts the ‘best road trip ever’ daisy pic.

5 March 2014 - Karlie posts the ‘adventure of a lifetime with my girl’ cheek kiss selfie.

5 March 2014 - Karlie posts a pic of her and Taylor with the caption, ‘woah, what a view huh?’

5 March 2014 - Karlie posts the pic of her hugging Taylor from behind.

5 March 2014 - Karlie posts a picture of herself apparently taken by Taylor.

5 March 2014 - Karlie posts a picture of her and Taylor jumping with the caption ‘❤️’

5 March 2014 - Taylor posts a picture of them and captions it ‘On the Way Home’ - possibly a reference to YAIL.

When they return, things still seem very, very good in Kaylor Land.

12 March 2014 - Karlie attends the Art Production Fund’s White Glove Gala without Josh.

24 March 2014 - Taylor diaries that she’s moved into her Tribeca apartment in the “last few weeks” which means they are in the same city and that, when Karlie was in LA, Tay was still permanently based there.

1 April 2014 - Karlie attends The New Museum annual Spring Gala without Josh.

1 April 2014 - Josh attends a New York Observer event without Karlie. His family is out in full force - again, this is their family business. It’s actually really odd that he is there on his own. Oh, and by the way - Mikey Hess isn’t there either lmao.

3 April 2014 - Kaylor go to the gym and then out for lunch at the Butcher’s Daughter (which, for the record, is very close to Josh’s apartment but since he and Karlie have not interacted publicly in well over a month that seems irrelevant). They are papped continuously on both halves of the date.

14 April 2014 - Kaylor are papped in NYC.

21 April 2014 - Taylor is papped with Cara and the articles that follow are all about “gal pals”. I do not think Cara and Taylor were together at this point but it’s vital to see the rollout of the “Girl Squad” PR strategy. It was not just about Karlie. Karlie was meant to be the ‘main’ Squad girl, but there were others.

26 April 2014 - Kaylor are papped in NYC

2 May 2014 - Karlie brings Derek as her +1 to the memorial service for L’Wren Scott.

4 May 2014 - Karlie posts a photo of herself with Taylor and Kate Bosworth at The Jane Hotel for Harry Josh’s party.

5 May 2014 - Kaylor get ready together and then attend the Met together. Josh is also there with his brother and Ivanka. Kaylor interact with the Kushners because this photo gets taken. We also get this pic (peep Tay’s dress in the background). Karlie sits at a table with Josh, and Taylor sits very, very far away. (Here is a pic of them seated). Now, it’s possible the tickets were booked and the seating arrangements made well before Joshlie went on a break. Or it’s possible going there was just a stunt and Karlie and Josh were very much together.

If Josh was a beard contract, this would’ve been reversed. Karlie would have showed up and walked the red carpet with Josh and sat with Taylor once inside. Instead, Karlie was papped with Taylor on the outside, and sat in the cheap seats with Josh, on the other side of the room from Taylor, once inside. If Josh and Karlie both needed a beard, why would they allow Karlie to show up and walk the red carpet with her girlfriend when they both attended the event?

And here’s what’s interesting: Taylor references this evening extensively at the end of the Wildest Dreams MV. She closely replicates the outfits - Karlie’s, Josh’s and her own - and casts herself as the “other woman”. It’s a telling video because that twist in the end is not necessary for the song to make sense (at all), Tay’s character is hurt and surprised by the MV love interest having a partner, and in the end the love interest’s feelings seem genuine as he runs after her - but she’s already gone. It’s a pretty loud scene in all and I’m not sure how else to interpret it, really. It’s also interesting that Tay’s character in the video falls in love with her ‘onscreen’ partner - kind of how Kaylor probably started as somewhat scripted ‘Famous Friends’ but possibly grew feelings.

Taylor also references this evening in LWYMMD when a 2014 Met Taylor appears several times. A zombie Taylor wearing the dress she wore in the OOTW MV buries a Taylor wearing this 2014 Met Gala dress and later she appears again. Considering all the other “Taylors” are extremely iconic (for example Kanye interrupting dress), I’m not sure why 2014 Met Gala Tay is here. It’s not the best example of one of her princess dresses… It’s not indicative of an ‘era’...

Unless the evening was important to Taylor herself, and the most logical reason for that would be Joshlie. It seems that this was the night that Tay, like her character in the MV, found herself cast in the unfortunate role of “other woman” - a part she would have struggled with ever since. So, with that in mind, here are some photos of Kaylor from that night where Taylor looks miserable: x x x

12 May 2014 - Karlie attends the American Ballet Theatre Opening Night Spring Gala alone.

15 May 2014 - An article with People comes out where Taylor makes getting ready with Karlie sound like a fun pre-prom time, proving the earlier point that them showing up together was part of their PR relationship.

Early May 2014 - Kaylor go for dinner at Toni Garrn’s, further debunking Korlie rumors.

22 May 2014 - Karlie attends amfAR’s 21st Cinema Against AIDS Gala alone.

CONCLUSION: From late February/early March it seemed as though Kaylor were together and possibly exclusive or at least getting somewhat serious. However, in early May Josh and Karlie reconnected around the time of the Met Gala - that’s what the Wildest Dreams MV seems to suggest at least. The fact that they interacted and sat together despite not apparently going ‘together’ is very loud.

However, Joshlie were not fully back together at this Met Gala stage. I believe they reunited proper only at the end of May, at which point the Kaylor dynamic shifted gears.

However… the contract for the publicity deal was still in place and they had to carry on carrying on. It’s telling that their respective close friends didn’t exactly warm up to one another - their personal friend groups never really meshed. This contradicts the het narrative of them being just extremely great friends. If they really were, why wouldn’t they be hanging out with each other’s main people (in very simple terms, people like Derek and Abigail)? And before you @me, a few likes are not great evidence of hangouts - Josh also liked a bunch of Tay’s posts, and it’s pretty clear they were never friends.

More likely, Karlie and Taylor hooked up… And, of course, Karlie was an important part of this era’s publicity rollout. And that’s where things got messy.

#Kaylor #gaylor swift #Swiftgron #tayliz

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