#thanks pmdd

[diabolicjoy]

god i have just. so much shame and regret and i’m 23 and time is always passing and i’ll be 24 25 26 27 with even more shame and regret it’s building up

#i spent the whole day asleep and now crying #and i have so much to do and i keep ignoring my responsibilities #when you start showing signs of depression at 13 and it never stops now what #it’s my period talking i’m aware that every beginning of every month i want to kill myself & #the rest of the month i’m trying to recover & failing #every thought i have during these weeks just haunts me #thanks pmdd #but i know that in truth that’s just me and the period is intensifying it #i can’t remember a time when i felt truly okay #during all these years #tw depression #tw sucidal ideation #je.txt

[detentiontrack]

Apparently I’m not losing my mind and need to check my ass into a mental hospital. Turns out it is just my period

#thanks PMDD

[becaexists]

Hm I wonder why I've been so depressed and stressed and sensitive this past week it's really odd-

Oh.

#thank you past me for making this my period alert notification #it's funny as shit #yes my phone wallpaper has Astarion Approves on it #I cannot stop thinking about that man #pmdd is awful guys #makes me feel like shit #but at least I can be funny about it #pmdd posting

[the-habitat-ring]

I always want to post more about my yard on here, but I get frustrated and self-concious because my disabilities prevent me from doing everything I want to do and frequently derail my plans. I do want to post some of the cool stuff I’m doing, though! I just need to get over the mental hurdle where I feel frustrated about all the cool stuff I’m not doing or have failed at.

#I’ve been getting a bad sun rash every time I’m outside lately #MCAS means I’m allergic to literally the entire outdoors #the heat exacerbates the POTS and CFS #I injure myself thanks to the EDS #ADHD/PMDD/autism means I frequently overcommit and fail and go into a doom spiral #chronic migraine also means my ability to complete tasks fluctuates because I might plan to do something and then bam. 2 day migraine #it sucks because I was raised on a farm #I’ve loved nature my entire life #my earliest special interests were wildlife and native plants #and to finally have a place where I can indulge those interests but am physically prevented from doing so sucks fucking ass

[essenceofarda]

To Be Loved: Ch12

Chapter 12 | Read from the Beginning

Before she was born, it was foretold that Princess Lothiriel would suffer greatly from the love of men. Her mother's dying words were words of power, to keep her daughter safe from suffering, to never trust the love of men. Now the Princess Lothiriel has become the Queen of the Riddermark. And though her heart is filled with love, will she learn to accept the love others have for her? An Eothiriel + Post-War-of-the-Ring Fic

New chapter up :) We're (finally???) getting to the more meaty part of the actual plot now haha. Only taken me like 4.5 years 😳😅😬

Anyway, would love to hear y'all's thoughts!!

#eothiriel #eomer/lothiriel #eomer x lothiriel #lothiriel of dol amroth #eomer eadig #lotr #lord of the rings #tolkien fanfic #tolkien fic #lotr fic #lotr fanfic #lotr fanfiction #my writing #i'm actually a bit proud of how this chapter turned out... #also: Thank you to all the kind messages on my most recent post :') #not to be tmi but like within 24 hours of making that post i got my period so like... yeah lol feeling a bit better now #I have pretty severe PMDD for context which is why some of you might notice i sometimes make posts like that like clockwork lol :') #It's funny i'll be severely depressed or worse for a week or two. not sure why. all the bad stuff. And then my period comes and I'll just #be like 'oh how didn't i see the REASON before now' #as if this hasn't been happening every month since i was like 13 😅🤔 #anyway. i need to develop a keen sense of self awareness so i stop whining about stuff online #note to self: stop being a lil bitch! #that or Finally commit to getting my ovaries yanked out 😬 #anyway--feeling a touch better now that my period is underway #but i still appreciate the encouraging and thoughtful comments #even if i feel a lil guilty bc it the hormones talking more than I'd like to admit :| #tho to give myself a little consideration i suppose it does truly feel real in the moment

[happy-radio]

Real talk tho, more awareness about PMDD. It's not just "Oh hormones bc period lol", it's fucking serious. PMDD stands for pre-menstrual dysphoric disorder, and it can cause any uterus having person to go straight suicidal. And it's constantly not taken seriously because there's such a fucking stigma around periods.

#anyways im in the midst of enhanced major depressive disorder thanks to pmdd #everything sucks and i just want to be sterilized

[pizzaqueen]

Ugh. Hitting sooooo many snags trying to plan the ghosts inspired fic (aka the one where Steve sees dead people) and I’m starting to wonder if it’s Too Big for me to write but I wanna write it so bad 😭

Maybe I need to rubber duck it haha

#sorry for complaining so much atm #everything is pissing me off!! (thanks pms that is possibly pmdd #personal #misc #i just don’t know if I can manage this fic or idk #i guess I could simplify it but it feels like something with enough potential to mine for something longer than I usually write #idk why I’m posting this #tbd

[wetusb]

I can tell my period is coming because i have been thinking about Ending It All A LOT

#false start today. just a bit of random bleeding #pain #pmdd + pcos + endo thanks for this one 🫶🏼

[pohlepen]

the cashier watching me load 160lbs pounds of cat litter into my cart: do you need help out with that?

me, fighting for my life not to tell him that if i can load the cat litter into my cart and push it, im pretty sure i can unload it too: no thank you sir have a blessed and great day and holiday ♥️

#“ ⍀ ooc. « i called about the mountain bike and the locked ipad. #( pmdd got me in its grasp ) #( i can't wait to have to isolate so i don't become my cuntiest self for the next 13 days ) #( i have lots of continuing education to do for my licensure thank fuck so ill be quiet but ) #( GOD Alexa okay crazy girls by that one singer ) #( sending yall good vibes and i will see you on the other side )

[doublesidedgemini]

omg guys the us gobernment just whispered something top secret in my ear they told me not to tell anyone else but im gonna b so bad and share ok are you ready

they told me if you have period cramps you can eat whatever you want and not feel guilty abt it* actually and that if you have cramps/your period you should eat food in fact and you won’t die or blow up 1000 weight units overnight and periods suck so eat what you want

*apparently you aren’t supposed to feel guilty for eating at any point but idk about that one just yet but the above checks out to me I think

#i hate that my period cramps start like sometimes even a whole week before my actual period #stupid stupid stupid stupid periods ruining my life and literally ripping my mental health apart #im always at my lowest on my periods there are times where I literally don’t think I mentally can survive #maybe I have PMDD doctors don’t take me seriously tho and I don’t wanna take BC so here we are #I’m scared an IUD would embed in my Ute bc of the horseback riding also so no thank you on that front

[tomee--bear]

hello again

#tomee talks #do not trust a word i say this is probably the 50th time i've done this #pmdd is a motherfucker #thanks for the kind words tho i'm really sorry if i worried any of you :(

[soldier-poet-king]

Aeeeouuuyghhhhhh

#apropos of nothing this has turned into SUCH a bad body night #im. oh babey. regular body image stuff. bonus dysphoria blues #im just. i hate having titties. be gone. ruining my look. hate these bitches sm #dont even get me started on life ruining pmdd from the uterus #and being a woman IN SOCIETY???? #no thank u im tired. i would like to return this item #genderless void is where it's at #just stop perceiving me as gender and also make my body not gross anymore #IDK WHATS WRONG ITS JUST. YUCK BAD ANXIETY

[halalgirlmeg]

Getting out of bed is hard. Getting out of bed during period week is harder

#if you don't have pmdd take a moment and be thankful #random

[moldybits]

not trying to jinx myself but. i think i finally found the right combo of meds. im finally feeling stable and confident and motivated and learning how to rebuild myself. its still one step at a time but im having an easier time picking myself back up when im upset or stressed or triggered. i haven’t been suicidal in weeks. im seeing myself start to succeed in my classes. life feels like its worth living. i’ve never felt like this without being manic. it’ll be interesting to see if i’ll feel this way in a few months but i really feel like this is working.

for anyone curious what meds:

Lithium ER 1200mg (Bipolar)

Sertraline 50mg (PMDD) *i was originally only taking it with my cycle but i switched to every day and it’s been better that way

Adderall 10mg (ADHD)

#i’m thankful to have little side effects as well #i’ve been so on top of things. haven’t missed a dose of my lithium since i started again in august. #but adding the zoloft was the final piece #that pmdd diagnosis was the final savior to all of this #also changing my lithium from IR to ER and taking all 4 tabs at bedtime was a much better call. keeps me way more med adherent #bipolar #adhd #pmdd

[crackinthecup]

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#trying birth control to help with what is quite possibly pmdd #and boy oh boy it’s hit me with ALL of the mental health stuff #extreme anxiety? check #low mood? check #numbness? check #lack of motivation? check #what the hell man #i guess i’ll stick with it a bit longer and see if it evens out #but if it stays like this then no thank you #i’d rather have 1 week out of 4 of shitty mental health than 4 weeks out of 4 of shitty mental health #about yours truly #mental health cw

[shynerdwantscuddles]

Gotta be honest y’all, I’m not doing to swiggity swaggity 🙃

#I think I might have pmdd #the depression is hitting #I am not vibing #please labotomize me thanks #depression mention #tw depression #tw vent #vent tw