#thats gonna be an adult some day

[kittybug99]

Rant:

You know, I dont really mind gender reveal parties in general. It’s a party (bar the extreme examples of people setting fire to forests they’re usually fine). Humans are social creatures. We will literally find any excuse to gather and eat food and share excitement. And babies are SOSOSO exciting! thats a good thing! so now we have the technology so you can see one of the socially consequential surprises (peenIS or peenISNT) about babies early on, hurrah for technological advancements! but damn if some people don’t take the gender binary way too seriously.

I recall being about 5 or so when my elder sibling (AFAB - this is relevant) pointed out to me the color binary because as a child their favoriete color was blue and I the parroting infant I was retorted “but blue is a BOY color” to which they replied “there’s no such thing as boy and girl colors.” Sometimes you’re so blinded by cultural grooming that all it takes is one person saying something that shatters the glass. I realized that the only girl colors were pink and purple and boys got all of the rest of them and decided that that was unfair and thus agreed that the boy-color/girl-color dichotomy was socially constructed and thus bullshit (I mean, not in so eloquent of words).

Anyway, my SIL sent a black and white pic of my nibling painting a wooden heart and asked “any guesses as to the gender before we announce?” and I guessed dinosaur, sibling guessed human. She then sent a color video of nibling painting the heart pink and said “Oh, we’re gonna have a GIRL, you’re gonna have a SISTER, and what color is that? is it PINK???”

Like, bud. itself probably just because shes a preschool teacher so thats just always how she talks to him, but like it’s so gross??? like its so obviously unconscious coaching? I know she doesn’t mean any harm, but like damn! Teach them young that pink is a girl color.

#personal #I did guess correctly though because SIL said the lab tech was 98% sure #you don’t say 98% sure if you see a penis #if you see a penis you see a penis #if you dont see a penis it might just be hiding #anyway I did guess female and told my sibling because I wanted to guess because I love a gamble even with zero stakes #babies are fun but can we stop closely associating their genetalia with their proposed future gender role? #its gross #thats gonna be an adult some day #treat them with respect

[metukika]

ill say it before and ill say it again. hc that teru doesnt like serizawa at all.

#im gonna go into it here cuz im not confident in my hcs hi hello #so actually not cuz of the whole claw thing. i think that seri wanting to be a better person is like the one thing teru respects about him #and thats the thing. hes like !!! hes kinda like me!!! so he lowkey tries to make a connection thru that like haha we were both assholes an #arent perfect but trying! but see heres the thing. serizawa is an adult. he wants to act like an adult. so he treats teru like a child. not #in a bad way. normal adult to child. he respects him and all but see teru acts and maybe feels that he feels like an adult. so he sees that #as disrespectful. finally someone whos kinda ignorant like him... but hes treating teru like hes a child?! maybe legally serizawa is an #adult but after staying inside his room for years and then all that manipulation at claw.. mentally teru considers them the same. except #that seri wont act like it cuz reigen told him how to treat regular teenagers but teru isnt a regular teenager get what im sayin #ok and. then teru is kinda mean to him like ok man get outta my way but seri respects him and gives him more chances which makes teru feel #guilty which makes him dislike seri even more and try to push him away by being mean and its this hopeless cycle until one day teru snaps a #him and they have an actual conversation and he can see that hes actually the one treating serizawa like a child. and that hes like a shitt #adult in this scenario am i making any sense is anyone even listening #anyways sorry this is in the tags if u thought it was good and wanted to rb. hope i made u consider some dynamics

[sonknuxadow]

sorry i dont really like the shadow is silvers dad theory/headcanon/whatever and part of the reason for it is that people keep presenting it as an actual thing that could be possible even though it makes no sense and all "evidence" people use to back it up is easily disputed

#''they both have white chest fur'' okay ? there are so many other characters who have small physical traits in common #doesnt mean they have to be related #''shadow and silver are lancelot and galahad in sonic and the black knight'' okay and . #im sure there might be SOME meaning to the character choices in the storybook games but i highly doubt their lives are 1 to 1 parallels #or that the character choices are meant to imply anything about the characters that we dont already know #plus amy was nimue and nobody tries to argue that shadow and amy are related because of that? #also im aware that a lot of dad shadow stuff takes place in the future when silver is a baby and shadow has still been alive for a long tim #(which. how would that even work wasnt shadow in stasis again in the future) #but sometimes i see people do it with like present day shadow being a father figure to the silver who time traveled there ? #thats like the horrible combination of people infantilizing silver in a way they dont do with other characters his age or younger #and people pretending shadow is an adult when he isnt . what #also i dont get why people insist that if shadow is silver's dad then the other parent MUST be someone from the existing cast #like . silver is not from a few decades into the future hes from 200 years into the future #none of the characters youre saying shadow is gonna get with are gonna be living that long im sorry to say #and why does silver HAVE to be the child of a couple in the existing cast why cant he just be some random guy #and im not saying every au idea has to perfectly align with canon #but a lot of the people who think shadow is silvers dad arent presenting it as a fun little baseless headcanon #theyre presenting it as an actual plausible theory . when it really isnt . #also ive noticed one of the most common pairings for silvers parents is sonic and shadow . #sorry but that is just not happening i feel so strongly about sonic never wanting to get married or have kids #i think shadow being an older brother figure to silver could be cute . #and the idea of a timeline where shadow doesnt die or get put into stasis or whatever the hell and is still around in silvers time #could be interesting . but im not really on board with the dad thing

[dennisboobs]

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#absolutely do not want to argue because i get where the post is coming from with but im gonna give some thots #re: dennis autism!!!! ok!!!!! #ive talked about it before but there is WAY more to him being autistic than just the buzzer noises. when i first watched that i was like #is THIS really why people hc him as autistic. :/ and i get it! i do! i think he has misophonia inherited from glenn personally #its actually why i captioned the noise sensitive den gifsets as that rather than just. autism. #but personally i see his scripted social interactions and i go. yeah. me. me fuckin too. #and his outbursts. which are VERY personally relatable to me #i have uh. basically the same triggers? very similar triggers at least #i think dennis' neurodivergency presents itself differently because of his upbringing and thats why a lot of ppl go ???? when you say. #'yea i think den's autistic actually' #and like i said i was absolutely like. what the hell are people talking about. he's not autistic #but uh. on rewatches? hm. #dennis quite literally masks almost 24/7 #charlie has no qualms about being perceived as like. weird. but dennis masks SO hard. SSSSSSOOOOO hard #i once saw a post like. charlie has boy autism and dennis has girl autism which honestly fucking hate that but its... kiiiind of true #ASD presents itself differently in adults depending on early social conditioning #mac fights gay marriage. group dates. new wheels. dee day. celebrity booze. all the big ones. all the hits. #look how he acts when he goes off script and is forced to speak off the cuff #the way glenn describes him as being very emotional but unable to adequately express his emotions too like. yeah. same. #theres so much more than the noise sensitivity #i could go on and on about how many fucking boxes he ticks but i honestly hate that shit. i know how autism works and that bitch is autisti #im going to refrain from commenting on the reasons why i feel charlie is more acceptably hced as autistic vs dennis because mmmmm but #dennis being 'hypersexual' (not about the sex. at all) and socially adept (has scripts/systems. charlie is more emotionally intelligent) #smells a lil stinky. smells a little bit like infantilization on charlie's part. #ada speaks #ok ill spare you guys. someday ill write a proper meta on this. ive talked about it before but.

[todayisafridaynight]

About Judgment: In short, I think RGGS was intending to continue the series. There were indeed rumors at one point that the series would end at Lost Judgment due to a disagreement with Kimura's agency, Johnny & Associates, about porting the games to PC--I'm unclear on why, there was speculation but I don't think it was ever stated. Obviously the PC ports are out now, so either that wasn't the issue or they moved past it. There's also just general disbelief around there being a third entry simply because there's this idea (joke?) that Kimura never does three of anything, which isn't true at this point. It is true RGGS historically hasn't done three of anything in terms of spinoff series (Kurohyou, Mobile+Kizuna, and arguably Kenzan+Ishin), but it's also true that none of their past spinoffs have been as successful as Judgment, and we're seeing a lot of "firsts" from the studio lately. The fact is that Yokoyama himself said something along the lines of "and of course, we won't forget about Judgment" (not literally, just the closest English expression I can think of that can be misinterpreted in the way I'm about to explain) while talking about future works. But for some reason, people took it as if he meant it "in mourning" rather than an obvious confirmation of more to come, I guess? A TV show was also announced, so I really don't get why they'd invest so much into a series they were going to end. I know Kurohyou got a show too, but this seems different. Anyway, that's the most recent information, but it's from some years ago. There is a major new development, however: J&A talents' contracts are being cancelled left and right as of the last couple of months due to the agency's dogshit handling of and response to an investigation into Johnny Kitagawa's serial abuse of allegedly hundreds of his talents. That's been going on since the man died in 2019, basically, but a lot's happened this year.

This has left the talents with the incredibly tough decision of either remaining at an agency that refuses to even change its name and is rapidly breaking down or leaving. It has historically been very difficult to do the latter. On top of what you'd expect, J&A controls their talents to an insane degree and has leveraged their control of the media to suppress the careers of those who leave.

Broadly, in terms of how media companies have responded so far, I understand not wanting to associate with J&A and that J&A would likely benefit from the contracts more than the talents, but it still feels like the talents are the ones being punished... I have to imagine at least some of them were victims, so to be victims of the blacklist on top of that... That, and some of these companies kept the truth from coming out for decades.

With J&A losing its foothold in the media, though, there may be no better time than now to leave the agency. I don't know if Kimura will--rumors have been circulating ever since his idol group were forced to break up years and years ago, but while they all went independent, he never has--especially because a lot of seniors like him feel a responsibility to stay and change the agency for the better. As of right now, I'm not aware of Kimura's contracts getting cancelled, so I can't say one way or another if that'd have an effect.

I don't know what happens from here. I'm not sure if RGGS will look at it as collaborating with J&A or with Kimura or both, and how they'll factor in what's going on right now into working with him. Hypothetically, it would be possible to continue the series even without Kimura (any of the other mains do or would make great protagonists), but at the same time, Judgment is hugely reliant on Kimura's charisma. That's why people who play the dub (or people who don't like Kimura) often come away with the impression Yagami's kind of a dick or doesn't stand out much.

So... that's the state of Judgment right now. We won't know until we know, I guess.

OHHHHH OK saucy... sucks about J&A- it'd be cool if yk. they could face the consequences of their actions LMAO but that Could involve displacing hella workers now wouldnt it

#snap chats #well i hope something neat is done with judgement. again i have barely touched it but it does seem like a rad series.. #rgg #anyway... unrelated tag ramble time... i feel so ugly LMAO i just havent eaten yet. im makin rice now tho #Insane we had a roommate meeting x days ago and one of the agreed upon things was that we could use each others appliances #and one of my roommates brought a rice cooker but obvi i wanted to ask first but she said no so. gotta use a pot. of which ive never done #it shouldnt be hard tho... lol.. s'just rice.. #im technically supposed to be at class rn but im dropping it this week so id feel weird going to a three-hour class im not coming back to #heres to hoping my fuckin emails are answered or ill actually have to be an adult and do it myself LMAO #honestly i will later tonight if my email aint answered i hate waiting on stuff like this #after i Hopefully eat some fried rice balls i might doodle or i might practice some Y7 chapters #im still mad LMAO but im gonna make a ramble post in a sec bout that #ty for sharin the gossip with me thats wild.... agencies annoying as hell And Criminal Sometimes i SWEARR

[201xs]

hes my favorite warm up drawing

#my art #im working on something really elaborate thats gonna take a couple days #have some adult robot babys to tide you over #darrell

[goldiipond]

bro you cannot keep reminding me itll be 20fucking23 in a little over a day i’m still stuck in 2020. idont feel a day over 16

#skye's ramblings #calling myself an adult still feels so wrong. lockdowns and dropping out of highschool deprived me of like. crucial development i think #i dont think im ever gonna grow up properly and im already treated like a kid for daring to exist with autism. i am just sitting here #im 16 and i'll be 19 in 5 months and im being SO brave abt it #but enough about that!!!!!!!!!!! because im also thinking abt how pretty soon i'll have known some of you guys for 3 years #which is wild to me. my online friendships before tumblr never lasted but i've made some of my best friends here #nice that we can go forever without talking and i can still look at you n go HEY thats my best friend as if we talk every day #new years resolution or some shit is to reach out more. i've gotta get more comfortable just talking to my friends when i want to #ive been too lonely recently. i miss my friends' servers but theyre almost all dead/gone i gotta get more comfortable talking one on one #idk. all in all i this this new year is bittersweet. but i think i'll be okay

[but-the-desserts-were-okay]

Look I’m not saying you have to like Mother Mother’s sound, lyrics, or appearance, I’m just saying that if your response to people making art that is so openly and honestly about mental illness is “lol cringe, this is cringy teenager music” maybe you should examine why it is you feel that way and why you think internal suffering is merely a performative act by the immature

#casual ableism #some thoughts.txt #mother mother #like im aware that teenagers will hate other teenagers for superficial things like music taste until the day we die #but #just seeing the way people talk on here is genuinely concerning and perhaps a teachable moment #like as someone who had struggled with my mental health for 26 years… i dont care if i go to their concert #and the audience is composed largely of teens and young adults with dyed hair #actually i think its kinda great. those are some of the realest people youre ever gonna meet #as someone whose been there #some of us dont have the choice to be normal. its not an option. our illness takes that away from us #and if you think thats cringe its obviously a You Problem not mine but like #when youre young and impressionable and you find something that really means a lot to you #and people use it against you #yeah. it hurts #why do you like hurting people… i guess. is my question #any teens out there reading this who find solace in mother mothers music: i love you. #recovery is hard. and it takes a long time. but i promise you once youre out of school.. you can opt out of a lot #of the social hierarchy bullshit #and that alone works wonders

[penisliker-moved]

reading th newspapers t look at th local candidates for my mom and one of these guys is insane i kinda like him

#he wrote like a Very speechy kind of poem ad. its enamoring me #his other ads r all handwritten cursive which is interesting. and he did one in spanish which is cool bc we have a bunch of non english #speaking families here #and tbh somemof th stuff in here is awesome and then other stuff is ?? #hes not ever gonna get elected. i Donot see it happening #but some of this stuff is cool. but then he says Every factory (including Toyota) makes handtoolsz wheelbarrows #etc to equip pedestrian homeowners #which like..cool but Insane #also why single out toyota thats so funny. ik its bc theyre like The fsctory here #over like half th adult population works there or something #and he ends it with NO MORE BOWING BY TOWN TO AUTOMOTIVE INDUSTRY!! #which is awesome i suppose. but also like #while i agree with a lot of th great stuff this will do for th environment #its also very.. Back in my day ykwim? like specifically it says lik3 #'every tool a handtool! less noise! no fuel or electricity needed!' #which. idk #ABut he also says Every person elected to (towns) local government will serve without pay and he or she may be wlrewarded for her or his #service with gifts from satisfied constituents #which like..coming from somebody running for office is actually rly cool to hear #but also i dont totally see how he'll pass.. most of this its very radical which isnt a bad thing Obviously #just like some of this stuff is.. not realistic and its not like hes running for mayor hes running for town council #and again some of its just.. Not good. like he says ' #'no unnecessary motor vehicle lights including caution and emergency lights' ????? I dont think that's allowed #im pretty sure you Have to let them have emergency lights #hold on im just gonna post this whole thing its legitimately wild to read

[drabbleswithdragons]

idc if it's fandom related or whatever if you blaze creepy unreality posts with no content warning tags I hate you

#gonna be dealing with the aftermath of that all day now like. it triggered some Deep Internal Stuff so #no phone calls emails texts communications other than here and discord until it passes i guess. #my therapist shared a trick thats come in handy for things like this which is when young parts are super activated #check the doorknob. it Feels different as an adult when you have to reach down for the doorknob instead of Up as a child. #also. we can just leave! we can do whatever we want. it does not help that this month is when most of the recontact attempts happen. #but maybe i will take today to do Whatever and not worry about accomplishing anything

[cuntstable]

i would honest rather kill myself than watch this but thanks youtube

#like… okay…. i love berserk and i think its a story with important things to say and a lot of nuance and interesting philosophy. thats the #draw for me and a lot of other people. BUT im not gonna blame people for being turned off of it by the darl shit in it 😭 like…. i get the #impulse to try and defend berserk from like bad first impressions it can give to people but certainly mocking (mostly kids btw??) for being #grossed out by all the violence and gore…. thats not gonna do anything? that wont lead to actual discussions on if its worth it to consume #stories that involve a lot of really horrifying elements. and it definitely wont lead to discussions on if and when that kind of content is #acceptable and when it turns into just gratuoitous exploitation. and a case could definitely be made that despite how carefully berserk #handeles a lot of thing it definitely did overstep that line in its early days especially. but nooo We Must Make Fun Of People #who rightfully might be alarmed? especially if theyre kids who arent really familiar with horror or adult works lol #and even then some people just dont like tragedies and dark stories. its fine. grow up!!!!!

[hairydykecunt]

once my friend said that sometimes it seems like i don’t want a girlfriend and just want to be some girls pet and like. yeah okay sure, but is that really all people see in me. is that what they think i’m only capable of? i want to give so much, i want to fill them with so much love and make them feel safe and loved and adored. i Do want to do more than just be a pet, i want to be a Provider, i want to take care.

#kitty talks #maybe that is animal behaviour. maybe i jsut wanna be a guard dog. idk. i just feel weird #it sucks but i cant see myself in a relationship and idk if its cause im insecure but the thought of someone chosing me and staying is. fake #and i think everyone can tell too. i think thats it. thats the thing that makes ppl stay back #sometimes i think ny autistic brain and its facination with shows fucked me over bc i love the idea of grand gestures. #i want a grand gesture that wipes away every little doubt ive ever had snd that makes me think Fuck why was i so riddled in worry #anything in oublic would embarrass me. id be shy. but id still gush. idk. i want personal thiught out expressions of love #man im high and just cant stop thinking. im just so lost. i dont even know how to feel. it feels weird reverting back to highschool + #mentality but Nothibg is ever rnkugh and will never be enkigh and ill always keep asking for more snd more no matter what till i break them #gonna attempt to put an experienced adult point of view on it tho and say that i think nothing will evrr be enoigh for anyone #but that whatever is there is good and it will stay good snd if it gors something else will be good. the world is so fucking shitty to us #but i will still love despite it. people will still love me #i will get a girlfriend some day. or not. and itll fill me up. or be bad for me. i just need to take csre of myself snd my loved ones #and i can live on that. i guess. idk. bye

[this-doesnt-endd]

I used to have a really giant family like tons of tias and tios and cousins and i say used to cause like it seems like after my grandparents died on both sides both families seemed to never speak again and i had no chance to even try and keep hold of those ties i was in elementary school watching my parents marriage crash and burn in real time dealing with major death in the family and then subsequent family abandoning me at the tender age of 11. Hell my brothers were older and jumped ship it was just me and the horrors

#my moms dad and my dads mom were like the heads of their families and they both died really close to each other #but my grandma and a tio on my moms side died within 3 days of each other after being in hospice literally 3 doors away from each other #for months and my parents both took the roles of like taking care of everything and being the descision makers cause no one else would #which im sure was super traumatizing in everyway possible but their siblings both seemed to resent them in ways #when they didnt want to be those people but had to be and they arent even the oldest siblings they are both like 3rd youngest #but like it just ruined the families and me and mom and my dad were all at the hospital or hospice center for months #we were there every day and night i remember it so much i can get anywhere in any hospital in my town using the stairwells #like i knew them that well #it also likely ruined my parents marriage which was bumpy before the intense major tragedy #which like yaknow what fair it was a lot to deal with ontop of like trying to crawl ur way out of the recession #but after all was said and done i talk to no one on my dads side i bearly talk to my older brother #and i talk to like my nina and two tias on my moms side and occassionally a few cousins #when theyre arent being fucking insane and unhinged #idk i loved having a huge family the like going to 5 houses on christmas type #going to birthdays or weddings and seeing everyone taking at least 45 mins to say bye to everyone #and now its gone and i wont ever get it back #and its by no fault of my own cause i was literally 11 and every adult decided i was gonna pay the price too #like i think abt when i get married its not gonna be what i thought itd be or when i get my first movie in theatres #im not gonna have the major family celebration ill have all my friends which im so greafull for #but its not the same yaknow #and id love to have that relatiomship with my family again but like where do u start when its been over 10+ years #like they remember 11 year old me if they remember me #and thats part of the problem #like on my moms side specifically i have some family who acts like theyve never met me before when i used to see them every weekend #and it was a major failing on my part as an 11 year old for not keeping in touch even tho we did my mom calls everyone and she tried #but people didnt want to return it #and as for my dads side its the same and if it was a moral failing for me as an 11 yr old to not reach out and they didnt like my mom much #my grandma fucking loved her but the rest of the family didnt and like i lived w my mom and was fucking 11 i couldnt go anhwhere by myself #and i didnt like not being places without a parent and i hated sleepovers i refused and they took it so personal #and they stopped talking to my dad and bad mouthed him and still do nd ill never allow that around me my dad isnt perfect but hes a good man

[chaosandmarigolds]

My favorite thing about Simon Riley (at least how he is in my head ya know) is that he's either on top of it like he knows you better than anyone else-

It was just a regular Friday night, you had been out with some friends and probably drank a bit too much for anyone's comfort, so with a sigh of defeat you called your boyfriend (who you had pinkie promised you wouldn't need to call, because you are a mature, well adjusted, adult) It was late but not very so the phone only rang once before he picked up.

"Good evenin princess."

"Si?" your voice was a bit rasped and the lingering sob in the back of your throat didn't help your case, a cryer is what your friends called your more drunken state, "I...Lil too much."

A pause and you hear the jingle of his keys, "Ten minutes. Stay on the phone with me, yeah?"

"Mkay, is' cold outside."

"Why are you outside, baby?"

"Ji-Jill got an uber- said-said I couldn't come. an-and the bar sai-said I can't go back inside...they were so mean."

"Fuckin Jillian-" You hear him mutter and then his voice goes back to its regular level, "Baby I want you to go back to the bar and tell them that I'm gonna be there to pick you up in a minute, is's snowin out here."

A short pause, "And I know the guy at the door scares you but I need you to be my strong girl and go back inside, yeah?"

Or its just, he's oblivious until the very end-

You were currently running a hundred-and-two fever, your muscles ached and everything in you screamed at you to sit down and take a nap. However, your boyfriend just got back from deployment and you were determined to make sure everything was perfect for him. And, thus far, it was- you put on some makeup to make yourself look alive and you just resigned to not speaking a lot, or eating. He didn't seem to notice, about forty hours back into being home and everything was perfect! Aside from the lingering feeling you may just drop dead at any moment.

So at that moment, you sat on the sofa with him, his arm wrapped around your shoulders, your hot skin covered by your hoodie and the hood of it pulled over to hide your face as you had aptly nuzzled into his side. You felt like death.

Yet in Simon's mind he thought you were just being a blushing school girl, excited about his return and a bit flustered by it. Until he dipped his head down to press a kiss against your forehead.

"The fuck?" He muttered as he moved his hand to your forehead and tugged down the hood to look at you, "Why're so hot?"

You gulp down and shrug your shoulders, "Jus little sick. 'M okay."

"Girly- your skin is burnin up." "Okay?" "How...have you bee' sick this 'tire time?"

"Really feel fine-"

"Lair."

A pause and you look down, "Only little bit."

(annnyway thats it <333 comments and all that jazz make my day)

#simon ghost riley #simon riley fanfic #simon riley x you #simon ghost riley x reader #ghost x you #simon riley x reader #cod x you #simon riley imagine #simon ghost x reader #cod fluff #ghost mw2 #ghost band #ghost headcanons #ghost x reader #x fem!reader #x female reader #x female y/n #coco's chaos <3

[todayisafridaynight]

I may just be delirious but I kind of feel like there's something there about some of the most traumatic events in Arakawa's life arguably stemming from/being made worse by being loved too much.

Like, Toshio's death, right. The death of a parent is always always going to be traumatic, particularly when your other parent is abusive, but I feel like being there, being the first to the scene, made it so much worse. Especially when it should've been a good memory.

Non-zero chance I'm just projecting because I was there for my own father's death and I was around Arakawa's age at the time, but it's like... it did have very specific life-long effects, didn't it... the way he keeps coming back to Peking duck and talks about it like he's had it before when he can't even bring himself to eat it unless he's with family (and indeed, never did, up until right before he died)...

And then there's his former patriarch. Of course, he seemed to see Arakawa as more of an object--fully under his control and something to be thrown away at the first sign of autonomy. But I feel like, before then, Arakawa must've been his "favorite," if he was willing to arrange a marriage between his daughter and Arakawa. Which I expect is what made his reaction when Arakawa told him he was (technically) having an affair with Akane and wanted out of the family that extreme in going as far as to send men after Akane and Ichiban.

The last one I can immediately think of is not exactly traumatic for him, though it is traumatic For Me so I'm counting it, but it's of course what we were talking about with Jo hesitating so much at the thought of killing Arakawa that he passed up the chance to save him.

I Dunno I Am Delirious but... there's a pattern somewhere in there... Anyway. Uh. "Happy" Father's Day am I right

happy fathers day :]]]]

#snap chats #I HAVE NOTES DOWN HERE AS ALWAYS I PROMISE JUST. no better way to cap off a post with a smile :) #plus yk. i dont have any major notes to add thats not restating but i do enjoy Restating so in the tags we go #also ngl im a lil tired so if im gonna look right silly cause my brains functioning like a bowl of cereal ill do it down here as per usual #totally waited to answer this when its technically fathers day my time and i didnt just stare at a wall #listen if someone has a proejcting problem its me alright. its ok if someone else has a turn at it esp when its within fair grounds 🥴 #in any case Yeah.. everyone loves patterns ones a coincidence two's a pattern three should incite murderous intent #i definitely wouldnt call it delirious thinking Thats My Job right LMAO #in all seriousness the importance of at least one positive adult figure in a trouble child's life cannot be understated #im pretty sure i talked bout that already so i wont give the whole lecture again LMAO #in any case its not unreasonable to want to assert love being a theme with arakawa- if not a detriment in some way #it was arakawas intense love for akane that inadvertently fractures their family to be #it was arakawas love for masato that didnt allow him to be harder on him when he should have been and caused both their eventual downfalls #and of course- as mentioned- while not a result of arakawa's own feelings #it was ultimately jo's. //vague hand gesturing// towards arakawa that stopped him from killing him outright #yet jo's love for masato that didnt allow him to lie and go directly behind his back #so yeah love just. works against arakawa unfortunately. an especially sad thing for a troubled child #because as a troubled child that's all you ever really want isnt it- to love and to be loved without worry #so its a cruel irony in that despite arakawa's childhood and general growing-up it didnt stop him from trying to love his family #it makes me wanna throw up (depressed) #in any case i have to stay up a little longer so i can steal water for later SO im gonna be up to uhhhh idk :) Stare At My Wall

[mrfoox]

Living alone with my cats is my anti social younger selfs biggest dream. Sorry I can't sleep over... No my cats need to be fed sorry.... I need to be home before 8pm...

#miranda talking shit #I prefer having sleepover at my place and always have. I was terrified of everyones dads and siblings #Now its like... I actually can only visit people over the day bc my cats need to be looked after lol #Not that i have many people to visit as an adult... But one friend suggested an sleepover and im like yea sounds fun #Youre gonna have to come here tho 😂 #I have my issues with living alone but wheb it comes to having people over its so good #I dont need to think about my parents being around or siblings... Its just us and my cats #Not to be autistic on main again but im unfortunately uncomfortable in any social situation but if it happens in my home #At least i know how my bathroom works and sink #My fear is coming to an house with an sensetive toilet and you use too much paper and it plugs like thats a fear #Even if i just pee i have bad anxiety about that lol. Or anytime i need water... Some people have weird taps #Some takes forever to get cold water... Some have their glas in different cabinets than me #Ill be weird trying to find then and failing. God so much can go wrong #Autism tag