#the pain doesn’t unless i finish the whole course of antibiotics

[ejzah]

A/N: And now for the comfort aspect of this story. And some more angst.

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Where It Hurts Most, Part 6

“Kensi, is everyone alright? Did you find Deeks?” Fatima asked in Kensi’s ear, bringing her back to the present.

“Yeah, we found, found him and we’re all fine,” she told Fatima, gently releasing Deeks to take a step away. “But Deeks does need to see a doctor. He, uh, he has some facial trauma and possibly other injuries.”

“Oh, thank goodness.” Fatima let out a hefty sigh. “Ok, I’ll call ahead and let the the ER to expect you guys. Paramedics should also be on the seen in about five minutes too.”

“Thanks, Fatima,” Kensi said gratefully. When she turned around again, Deeks was halfway across the room.

Several additional agents and police were starting to arrive and she could only guess how overwhelmed he felt. Although he didn’t have any obviously severe injuries, Kensi noticed he moved slowly.

As she headed towards Deeks, she noticed Kessler was stirring. He lifted his head just enough to catch her eye. She let her gaze sweep over him as a paramedic examined his knee.

“Have fun learning to walk on that again,” she said coldly. It was a harsh, cruel comment, but she didn’t feel a hint of guilt. Kessler growled something unintelligible, which she ignored in favor of hurrying to Deeks, and slipping her arm around his back.

There were more paramedics waiting and when Deeks noticed them, he held back, his hand tightening on Kensi’s arm.

“I don’t want them to touch me,” he said adamantly.

“You don’t have to.” She’d make sure no one objected.

“Kens,” Callen called out, quickly walking towards them. “I need a statement before you leave the scene. Deeks can give his after he gets checked out the hospital.”

Kensi gave the barest description she could, using as clinical of terminology as she could, conscious of Deeks’ presence. When she was finished, Callen let her go without question.

Deeks slumped in his seat a few minutes after Kensi started driving, exhaustion clear in his face. Every time he would begin to doze off, he’d jerk awake after a few seconds.

The third time it happened, Kensi reached across the console to take his hand. She squeezed it tightly and Deeks glanced over with a grateful look.

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When they reached the ER, Kensi had Deeks sit while she checked him in at the front desk. As promised, they had a cubicle waiting for Deeks and Kensi silently thanked Fatima again. For her own peace of mind, she needed to know that he was alright, and she could tell that Deeks’ anxiety was increasing with every second.

By the time he was safely ensconced in the tiny cubicle, his legs were vibrating, right foot silently tapping against the linoleum.

His face looked significantly worse under the bright lights, each bruise, cut, and abrasion highlighted. His chin was blood, reminding Kensi of that horrible day years ago. A shudder ran through her and she reached for Deeks, this time for her own comfort.

She touched his temple, the unbloodied side, carding her fingers through his hair. It was tangled with blood and dirt, but she didn’t care.

“That feels nice,” Deeks whispered, leaning into her touch. He covered her hand for a moment, then shook his bangs out of his eyes, glancing up at her with a tired smile that was tinged with sadness.

The curtain to the cubicle slid open then, revealing a familiar face.

“Dr. Bartholomew,” Deeks said, quickly straightening with a wince.

“Mr. Deeks, Agent Blye,” he greeted them, nodding to Kensi.

Kensi felt Deeks relieve ever so slightly, some of the tension leaving his body. Dr. Charles Bartholomew had treated Deeks a few times over the years so knew some of Deeks’ medial history, if a highly redacted version.

“I wish I could say it’s good to see you…” Deeks shrugged and trailed off, giving his best attempt at a joke at the moment. Dr. Bartholomew allowed a half smirk, nodding in understanding.

“Same here. Now, you want to give me a rundown?” He addressed the question to Deeks, but glanced at Kensi as well.

“I, uh, might have some bruised ribs, my left shoulder is kind of sore, and then there’s this,” Deeks answered, gesturing to his face and head as a whole.

“And your wrists,” Kensi added quietly. “He was bound with restraints and zip ties for several hours.

“Uh-huh. Somebody certainly had it out for you Deeks,” Bartholomew observed quietly as he pulled on gloves and gently began pressing his fingers along Deeks’ hairline. His tone was non-judgments, only sympathetic.

“You could say that,” Deeks agreed darkly. He was silent for most of the examination unless asked a direct question. He flinched again when Bartholomew rolled his sleeves back to check his wrists.

After giving Deeks a couple of liquid stitches for the larger gash in his temple, Dr. Bartholomew slid his rolling stool back a few feet, and scrawled a few things down on a script pad.

“I’m going to prescribe an antibiotic and some pain medication. I know you’re probably not going to fill the second, but it’s there if you need it.” His brow rose a tad sardonically as he held out the prescription orders. Kensi accepted them, tucking both into her pocket.

“I didn’t see any signs of damage to your teeth or jaw, but I’d still like you to see your dentist or a orthodontic specialist,” he continued. Kensi noticed how careful he was to avoid the word trauma this entire time. “Given your history, I just want to make sure everything’s still in place.”

“Got it,” Deeks agreed, clenching his jaw. He’d handled the oral examination well, though he’d held Kensi’s hand the entire time, grip so tight her fingers ached.

“Good. I’m going to have a nurse bandage your wrists and give you a shot of antibiotics, then you should be good to go.”

“Thanks, Doctor.”

“No problem. Take care, Deeks. I hope I don’t see you for a while.”

A nurse came along a few minutes after Dr. Bartholomew left. She set up a tray of implements and bandages without looking at Deeks. She abruptly grabbed Deeks wrist and he jerked out of her grasp, much like he had with Kensi.

“Sir, I need to bandage your wrists,” she told him sharply. “Hold still.”

“No,” Deeks said, shaking his head as he pushed himself off the hospital bed.

“Deeks,” Kensi murmured, stepping between him and the nurse. “It’s ok.”

“Don’t touch me,” he snapped, nearly pressing himself against the wall as the nurse descended on him. She could see instinct and fear were taking over.

“If you don’t cooperate, I’ll be forced to call security,” the nurse threatened.

“Lisa, is everything alright?” A soft voice inquired as the curtain around Deeks’ bed was pushed aside yet again. Lisa spun around to face the young woman, dressed in light blue scrubs and a headscarf, who entered the room. “Would like me to take over, Lisa?” I think Dr. Favor needs assistance in room 8.”

Nurse Lisa gave the second woman a glare, but left without comment.

“My name is Ifrah,” the younger nurse introduced herself in that same soft tone. “Is it alright if I take care of you, Mr. Deeks?”

After a moment, Deeks reluctantly nodded and sat back down. His body was fully tense again and Kensi could tell it was taking all of his willpower stay out.

Ifrah seemed well aware of this and made sure to tell Deeks exactly what she planned to do before she touched him. As Kensi held his other hand again, Ifrah began to clean his left wrist.

She talked about her teenage daughter who was starting driving lessons in a few weeks and the garden she was planting. It was mindless, but Deeks calmed under the soothing rhythm of her voice. Kensi felt his breathing slow as Ifrah carefully bandaged his wrists.

When she was done, she gave him a pat, and nodded to Kensi.

“You can check out when you’re ready,” she told Kensi.

“Thank you,” Kensi said fervently, gratefully. Ifrah just nodded and left as quietly as she’d come.

“Sorry about that,” Deeks apologized, rubbing a hand over his face and then eyeing the think bandages with distaste. “I don’t know what happened.”

“Baby, you don’t have anything to be sorry for. What you went through…we understand,” she finished simply.

“Can I ask you a question?”

“Of course.” Deeks hesitated a moment and then slid his hand across the bed until he could twine his fingers through hers.

“Why didn’t you kill Kessler?” he murmured. “I mean, I’m not saying you should have, but I thought you’d want him gone permanently.”

Kensi drew in a long breath.

“I wanted to,” she admitted. “I think I planned to. Up until the moment I shot him, I wanted to kill Kessler more than anything.” She shrugged, avoiding Deeks eyes for a moment. “But as I was standing there and I saw what he’d done to you, what he planned to do to you, and everything else he’s done to us, I decided killing him was too easy.”

She heard Deeks inhale sharply and she purposely met his gaze.

“He doesn’t deserve to get off that easy. Kessler deserves every moment of pain and punishment from now on and I want to be there to make sure it happens.”

“What if he gets out again sometime?” He shook his head slowly, eyes filled with worry. “I don’t think I could take this again.”

“It won’t,” Kensi assured him. “We’ll make sure it doesn’t. After what he did today, everyone on this team will use all their power to make sure Kessler never has the chance to hurt us again.”

“Ok,” Deeks said, his voice barely more than a whisper. Kensi ran her fingers through his hair again and pulled him towards her.

“We’re free, Deeks,” she said, pressing their foreheads together. He made a sound that was halfway between a laugh and a sob and tilted her chin up to kiss her. It was a kiss filled with relief, the remnants of pain, and more hope than Kensi had felt in months. “We’re free,” she repeated, holding Deeks closer.

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A/N: And I think that’s it, guys! I hope this was a satisfying ending for you all. Thanks so much for your enthusiastic and lovely response to this story, which was somewhat outside my normal range.

#ncis la fanfiction #marty deeks #kensi blye #densi #angst #hurt/comfort #ding dong Kessler’s gone #where it hurts most #part 6 #ejzah fanfiction

[sylvanfreckles]

Breathe In, Breathe Out (Whumptober 2020)

Why do I always get these prompts the day I come down with a cold?

Summary: A fight with a poltergeist nearly drowns a member of Team Free Will.

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“Where's Cas?” Dean demanded as soon as Sam ducked behind the same counter where the older Winchester had taken shelter.

“Pool house,” Sam replied, jerking his head toward the back door of the old manor's hall. Ever since Castiel had become human, Dean had been treating him like he was somehow more fragile than the rest of them. Cas had always been able to take care of himself, with or without his powers. Sam was getting tired of it, he knew Cas was getting tired of it—even Jack had clued in that Dean was going a little overboard.

Dean was shaking his head as he reloaded the spare magazines for his shotgun. “Any luck finding the bones yet?”

“Nothing.” Sam blew out a sigh and let his head rest against the counter. Dean snapped his fingers urgently and Sam passed over his own empty magazine. “I mean, maybe you had a point earlier.”

“'Course I did,” Dean retorted. “I'm a friggin' genius.”

Sam rolled his eyes. “When you said she'd remodeled this place so much it was practically a part of her. I think the house counts as her remains.”

“Yeah?” Dean flipped the refilled magazine back to Sam. “What about it?”

“I think we need to torch the place.” The old manor was on the historic register, so he hated to do it...but kids kept exploring the old place and getting hurt, or even killed. They'd spent days going through every room, every item, and found nothing to point them to the remains of Emma Chandler, who had died nearly forty years ago. The house had been handed down to members of her family, who had used it as a vacation home until the poltergeist activity had gotten too dangerous and they'd abandoned it.

She wasn't too happy with them by now, and they'd been dodging poltergeist activity left and right. The house was too big for a purifying ritual, unless they could trap her spirit in one spot, and she'd been incredibly hard to pin down. They laid salt lines and she tossed furniture across them, burned sage and she kicked up a wind to blow it out. The only thing that stopped her for a moment were salt rounds, and even then the magazines for their shotguns only held five rounds at a time.

“Guess we need the flame thrower,” Dean quipped.

Sam had opened his mouth to answer (they could set a fire that would be deemed accidental and not have the police looking for them for once), when an ear-splitting scream rent the air around them. It was usually the sign that Emma had materialized nearby, but to Sam's horror the sound was coming from the beyond the back of the hall.

“Pool house,” he gasped, surging to his feet to sprint out the back door. The yard was overgrown with weeds and vines, but with Emma's focus in the pool house there wasn't anything to trip them up on the way. He heard a shotgun blast, a screech of fury, and something large and dark flew across one of the windows to crash against the wall inside.

“Cas!” Dean shouted, somehow moving even faster than Sam. He reached the door first and simply lowered his shoulders and charged through. Thank goodness there had been too much iron in the door for Emma to lock them out.

Cas was on the far side of the pool. The water was murky but still smelled strongly of chlorine, from the owner's failed attempts to “shock” the water a few months before, and the smell permeated the air of the pool house until it was almost unbreathable. The former angel struggled to his feet, shotgun held out before him, but Emma materialized just beside him to knock the shotgun out of his hand.

“No!” Dean yelled, bringing his own gun up to bear on her flickering form. She gave a screech and vanished, then Cas's body pitched forward as though dragged by invisible hands and plunged into the pool.

Dean swore and began sprinting around the edge of the pool to get to the side nearest Cas, while Sam tried to cover him with his shotgun. Emma could be anywhere, visible or not, and she was most dangerous when she could get between them.

“Cas!” Dean was leaning over the side of the pool, hand outstretched. “C'mon, I've got you.” Cas reached for him, floundering a little in his waterlogged clothes and shoes, but before Deana could grab his hand he disappeared under the surface of the water with a sharp cry.

While Dean searched for anything he could use to pull Castiel out, Sam aimed down at the water and fired two blasts into it. The impact from the salt rounds wouldn't be enough to hurt Cas, especially under water, but might be enough to disrupt Emma's spirit.

Sure enough, Cas rose to the surface, coughing and flailing. He reached for Dean again, but somehow Emma re-materialized enough to pull him back under.

“Okay. Fine!” Dean scrambled up to his knees and flipped his backpack off his shoulders. He still had almost a third of a bag of salt in there from when they'd been trying to isolate her in the house, and he unceremoniously dumped that into the pool.

Emma gave another wail and the surface of the water churned. This time when Cas surfaced, Dean managed to snag him by the sleeve and drag him bodily out of the pool. “Sammy!”

Sam was already running around the pool to join them. He dropped into a crouch, shotgun held at the ready, eyes scanning for any sign of Emma's reappearance. “We've gotta get out of here,” he commented.

“No shit,” Dean growled. “Cas, can you stand?”

The former angel was coughing and spluttering, like he'd gotten a lungful of the filthy water, but he shook his head and held his clenched fist out to Dean. “Wait,” he croaked. “I found...” he trailed off in a fit of coughing that had Sam wincing. Yeah, drowning was a lot nastier without a resident angel.

Dean let out a low whistle. Sam glanced down and saw that Cas was holding out an old-fashioned bracelet, the kind that looked like a twisted chain with a single clasp, which had a few strands of gray hair caught in it.

“Worth a shot,” Sam said when Dean looked up at him. He tightened the grip on his shotgun while Dean dug lighter fluid out of his backpack and Cas curled up with a moan on the ground behind him.

Emma appeared across the pool, screeching and snarling, and Sam took a potshot at her even though he knew she was too far away for the shot to be effective. She raised her hands into claws and charged, letting out another scream of rage, but dissipating into smoke halfway across the filthy water.

Dean rocked back on his heels, eyeing the little smoldering pile of melted metal. “Good job, Cas.”

Cas threw up.

* * *

“Pneumonia?”

Dr. Richards barely looked up from the chart as he nodded. “You said your friend fell in the pool at the house you were renting?”

Dean nodded. They'd really been too worried to concoct a story, once Cas had started complaining about his chest hurting. He couldn't stop coughing, not even long enough to take in a deep breath, and they'd hauled him to the ER despite his assurances that he could walk it off.

Who knew the angel would inherit the Winchester Stubbornness?

“It was a pretty dirty pool,” Sam said. “We weren't going to swim in it.”

The doctor nodded again. “That part doesn't really matter,” he explained, tucking the chart under his arm. “What we're looking for is the cause. If it happened in a pool, we could be looking at chemical irritation, like pneumonitis. We'll add a broad-spectrum antibiotic just in case, if the pool was in as bad disrepair as you say there could be anything swimming around in it.”

The nurse came out of Cas's room as the doctor finished. Sam thanked the doctor and followed his brother into the room, where Cas had finally been settled after a round of tests to determine the harm his dunking had caused.

Cas looked pale against the white sheets of the hospital, though there was a flush high in his cheeks from his fever. He was connected to a couple of monitors for his pulse and blood pressure, and the room was filled with the regular hiss of air from the oxygen mask strapped to Cas's face.

Dean made a dismayed sound but Sam laid a hand on his arm. “He's not ventilated,” he reminded his brother. “Just a precaution, right?”

The older Winchester managed to nod and pulled away, resting both hands on the railing at the side of Cas's bed. “We shouldn't have brought him,” he said over his shoulder. The words sounded callous, but Sam recognized the pain and vulnerability in his brother's voice. Whenever one of them got hurt, Dean took the blame for it on his own shoulders. It didn't matter that it could have been anyone in that pool house, just the fact that it happened was enough to fill Dean's heart with guilt.

“He found the bracelet,” Sam reminded him. “We would have had to burn the whole house down if it wasn't for him.”

“And he almost died,” Dean retorted. “Should've torched the place yesterday.”

Sam blew out a sigh and sat on the edge of the bed, arms folded across his chest. There was silence in the room, nothing but the hiss-hiss, hiss-hiss of the respirator for a few long minutes. “The doctor said he's going to be all right,” he finally said, leaning over to catch Dean's eyes. “We caught it in time, we got him here.”

Dean finally seemed to un-clench a little. “Still wish we could lock him up at home,” he muttered out through clenched teeth.

That made Sam smile. Dean always reacted like this when one of them got hurt, then he'd be the first one to pull them back out into the hunt. It was just how he showed he cared.

“Hey,” Dean slapped him on the arm. “He's waking up.”

Sam twisted so he could see Cas's face. Between the near drowning, the pneumonia, and the drugs the hospital was pumping into his system Cas had been in and out pretty much since he'd been checked in. Sam leaned up to take his hand—Cas's hands were always so cold when he was hurt, Sam had to wonder if Jimmy had had any circulation problems.

Dean was practically hovering, one rough hand on Cas's shoulder. “Cas?”

The former angel reacted to Dean's voice, turning his way and slowly opening his eyes. Sam couldn't quite make out Cas's mumbled question, but Dean huffed out a laugh.

“Still hospital. You tried to inhale half the pool, remember?”

Castiel groaned and closed his eyes, head falling back onto his pillow. Dean patted his shoulder, then spent a few seconds fussing around with the blankets to make sure Cas was tucked in as comfortably as possible. Sam dragged a chair over next to the bed, then stretched his long legs out to rest his feet next to Cas's. “Want me to put something on?” he asked softly, reaching for the remote.

Cas gave a slight shrug, so Sam flicked around on the channels until he found an old black-and-white movie playing. Cas was already dozing off, and despite his incessant mother-henning it was starting to look like Dean wouldn't be too far behind.

The job was done, and they were all (for the most part) in one peace.

All in all, they'd definitely had worse days.

#whumptober2020 #no. 13 #breathe in breathe out #chemical pneumonia #oxygen mask #supernatural #fic #fanfic #castiel whump #team free will #drowning #fluff

[xiufaery]

Stitches ↠   two

svt gang au. warnings: blood, violence, swearing. masterlist

CHAPTER TWO: DO YOUR JOB

“I’m sorry, what?” Naeun demanded, though her voice wasn’t as strong as she’d hoped. “What work? I’m not helping a gang!” “Of course you are,” Hoshi said, casually putting his gun against her head. She froze. “Listen, I literally graduated nursing school like two weeks ago, I- “ “If nursing school hasn’t taught you how to take care of a bullet wound, then what was the point of attending?” “Besides,” Jeonghan said. “Can you really let a person die? Don’t you have morals? A conscience?” “I do,” she snapped. “But it seems that you don’t.” He shrugged. “Then help him.” 

Naeun hesitated. She glanced from the door which she desperately wanted to run out of, to the man who was lying unconscious and bleeding to death on the metal table. Damn it, she really couldn’t let him die, no matter how evil he could be. “Fine,” she eventually said. “But I’m going to have to get a few things.” “Absolutely not.” The youngest, Dino, blocked the door. “This is a morgue, you imbecile. It doesn’t have equipment to treat living people.” Naeun didn’t know where this sudden surge of courage came from, but she desperately hoped it wouldn’t get her killed. “So, unless you want to take him to the E.R. and explain to the nurses there how he got that wound, I’m going to get what I need to treat him. And why the hell is no one applying pressure to his wound?” she threw a nearby cloth at Hoshi, who barely caught it before it hit his face. Were they new at this? Dino looked at Jeonghan, who nodded, before reluctantly stepping aside. Naeun pushed past him- which may have been petty, but she didn’t like kids who thought they knew her job better than her. “Wait,” Jeonghan called out before she could leave. “I’d just like to remind you that even if you escape or tell anyone about this, we’d find you easily- and you won’t like what we’ll do.” Her eyes widened as she quickly replied, “I’m not going to do anything. I’ll be back in five minutes.” With that, she ran out of the room.

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As she was heading to get the supplies she needed, she ran into Yeonsoo- quite literally. He grabbed her arm to steady her as she stumbled back. “Careful,” he laughed, surprised. “Are you alright?” “Of course,” her voice was at least two octaves higher, her nerves coming back and hitting her full-force. She had to be quick, but she also couldn’t raise any suspicion as to what she was doing. Lying was not one of her (few) talents. “Is it time to go home yet?” “Yeah, I’m headed out now. Are you coming?” She shook her head, already walking away. “You go ahead. There’s something I forgot to do, I’ll leave soon.” “Okay, see you tomorrow!” he called after her, a bit confused, as she rounded the corner and disappeared.

Throwing open drawers and cabinets, she rummaged through them and probably made quite a mess but it was the furthest thing from her mind at the moment. She quickly gathered the sterile equipment, making sure she didn’t forget anything, and made her way back to the morgue. The few people who were out in the corridor gave her startled looks when she ran past them, and she kept muttering apologies the whole way back, even when there were no more people to run into.

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Back in the morgue, she saw Hoshi keeping the now red cloth pressed to the wounded man’s abdomen, with Jeonghan and Dino next to them looking at the wound in concern. They all jumped when she stormed inside, instinctively reaching for their guns before realizing is was her. “Move,” she commanded. Her disheveled look and stern voice made them obey instantly. Standing near the operating table, she quickly unbuttoned his shirt and assessed his condition. It was clearly a stab wound, and not a very deep one at that, but it could be life-threatening if left untreated. Grabbing a clean cloth, she cleaned the gash carefully with water and antiseptic. She felt a sudden calmness take over her. The situation she found herself in was scary and dangerous, having a gang member’s life depend on her. But she was completely in her element- a nurse helping a patient. This is what she dreamed of doing ever since she was a kid, and although she didn’t quite imagine it this way, it was her job and she was going to get it done. While she worked, the man suddenly started stirring. “You’re awake?” she asked him. The man looked dazed. “I- uh, yeah…who-?” “My name is Naeun, I’m a nurse and you’ve been stabbed in case you haven’t noticed.” She informed him. “Now, I’m going to have to stitch this up. It would’ve been better if you were unconscious, but I don’t have any sedatives I can give you right now.” “It’s fine,” he said. “Just do it.” She rolled her eyes. Typical gang member, thinking he’s tough. “It’s going to hurt like hell, but I’ll try to make it quick. Hoshi, Jeonghan, hold him so he doesn’t move.” They approached the table. Hoshi held down the man’s shoulders while Jeonghan held his legs. “What do I do?” Dino asked. “Be quiet and don’t bother me.” She heard the man chuckle. He had a surprisingly nice laugh, she thought, but pushed that thought out of her mind. She needed to focus. “Okay, ready?” she asked, needle and suture in hand. “I’m always re— oh, shit!” He yelled as soon as she started. “You really weren’t kidding.” “Told you,” she murmured absentmindedly, keeping her attention on the stitches. “Hyung, you’re moving too much,” Dino commented from the side. “I can’t help it!” “Come on, it can’t be that bad.” “If you don’t shut up, I’ll make sure you get to experience it first-hand.” Naeun knew that if he kept moving like that, she might end up hurting him. She needed a way to distract him from the pain, at least for a minute, so she could finish stitching. “What’s your name?” she asked. He looked at her as if she was insane. “What?” “Your name,” she repeated. “I never got your name.” “Kim Mingyu,” he replied. “Why does that matter now?” “Is Dino always acting like a brat?” That question got a grin out of Mingyu and a scoff from Dino. “Usually,” Mingyu said. “But he’s cute so we try to ignore it.” The youngest boy perked up at that. “So, you finally admit that I’m cute?” Mingyu was about to retort when Naeun announced that she was done, causing the four men to sigh in relief. She put an antibiotic ointment over the wound and covered it with a bandage before telling Mingyu that he could sit up. “Thank you,” he told her. “You saved my life.” “Don’t thank me yet.” She handed him the ointment she used. “Use this once a day. You need to keep the wound dry and clean, but you can take the bandage off in two days. Also, Jeonghan, give me your phone number.” “Why?” he asked. She handed him her phone. “So you could give me daily updates, obviously. I need to be sure he’s healing properly, otherwise this little operation was for nothing.” “I can update you,” Mingyu offered. “No, I don’t want to hear from you ever again,” she said. “Your friends threatened my life because of you.” Jeonghan handed her the phone back. “Thank you for your help. I know we kind of made you do it, but we really appreciate it.” “Just make sure not to come back,” she told him. “I’ll clean up. You really need to get out of here.” He nodded, helping Mingyu up. When the four of them left and the door closed behind them, Naeun let out a long sigh of relief.

That was the weirdest first day ever.

#svt #svt mingyu #seventeen fanfic #seventeen reactions #seventeen #seventeen mafia au #kpop fanfiction #kpop mafia au

[littlefrostwrites]

Prompt: Scars

For my weekly challenge

It’s been a month since Angelica best me during our solo hunting challenge. A month since she captured and killed her assigned werewolf case, a month since I tried to track down a vampire coven, only to arrive at a deserted lair  and placed back at square one. (I’ve not made much progress on that case since either).   

One month since Angelica’s been acting weird. 

My sister and I, despite being twins, are not very close. We used to do everything together, but that was before mom and dad were murdered, before Aunt Gemima and Uncle Justin took us in, before Aunt Gemima declared me the favourite. Angelica and my cousin Charlie say it’s because I look like my dad, Aunt Gemima’s brother, and since my favouritism is not due to anything I truly earned, perhaps their hatred of me is justified. I haven’t figured out how I feel about it yet, only that while it’s furthered my training and the opportunities given to me, it’s driven a wedge between Angelica, Charlie and I. But I digress. Angelica and I are not very close, and because of her dislike of me, we tend to avoid each other. I don’t know much about her life outside of training, and nor her mine, apart from what we share at the dinner table. And therefore, I don’t notice her change in appearance until I discover an entire box of unopened contact lenses in the dumpster behind our house.   

It was Angelica’s turn to take out the trash this week, but I had gone dumpster diving for my retainer. I finally got my braces taken off the week before, and therefore was at that stage where I had to wear my retainer all day for the next two months before I could switch to a purely nightly routine. Thankfully, I was given those clear Invisalign type of retainers, rather than the wire ones, so even though I still kinda had a lisp, my teeth were unobstructed for once. I took my retainer out during dinner, but it’s pretty gross to just leave it on the table for everyone to see, so I tend to wrap it in a napkin. Tonight, Uncle Justin spilled his beer of the entire table, and I was being helpful so I cleaned the whole thing up for him. I had bunched up all the soggy and used napkins on the table and thrown them in the trash. It wasn’t until later that night, after my sister took out the trash (therefore emptying that trash bin as well), and I was brushing my teeth did I realize that I had never put my retainer back on after dinner. Because my retainers were wrapped in a napkin in the dumpster behind my house. So naturally, I freaked out and dropped my toothbrush, rushing outside with unrinsed toothpaste still in my mouth and scrambled through our dumpster with only the flashlight from my phone to guide me. I found my retainer, but I also found two whole boxes of contacts in the trash. They were unopened boxes, and checking the expiry date, still useable. So why were they in the trash? Angelica’s had bad eyes since we were six years old. She tends to take after mom, while I am more like dad, and she also got her bad eyesight. She transitioned into wearing contacts as soon as our aunt deemed her old enough to be responsible enough to properly take care of the hygienic aspects of it, since glasses are sort of a hindrance to monster hunting. She’s the only one in the house who wears contacts and therefore, these are undoubtedly hers. But why would she throw them out?   

I’m not sure what to do, the situation is just so weird. Maybe there’s a perfectly logical reason for her throwing out her contacts. But not really, if anything she should need them more, especially since she broke her glasses a couple weeks ago. Her new ones only arrive a couple of days ago. Maybe Angelica just doesn’t want to wear contacts anymore? But no, and I think back the past week and only remember seeing my sister with glasses on in the morning and evening when we’re at home, with no glasses on during school or training, presumably wearing contacts. But perhaps not?   

Maybe her vision somehow got better? But then she was still wearing glasses, so that didn’t make sense. Unless the glasses were fake, with no prescription? I wasn’t sure, but I felt weird about the situation. So I grabbed my retainer and the boxes of contacts, stuffed everything back into the dumpster and went back in the house and up to my room, checking my surroundings to make sure that nobody would see me with the contacts. I felt strongly for some reason that I should keep this to myself for now. I stashed the boxes under my bed, finished brushing my teeth (also dunking my retainer in some strong cleaning fluid) and went to sleep.   

The next morning, when I got to breakfast, I saw that Angelica and Charlie were already there and that my sister was not wearing her glasses. So I backtracked, citing that I had forgotten something in my room, but instead snuck into her room looking for her glasses. They were on her nightstand, and when I picked them up, they felt very light. There were lenses in the frames, but when I looked through them, there was no image distortion so I put them on. And I could see normally. These weren’t prescription glasses. Somehow, Angelica’s eyes was completely normal now. Something had happened, something she didn’t feel she could share with their family. And I think I knew what.   

** 

I started paying more attention to my sister from then on. I noticed a lot of things about her that had passed me by. Angelica’s always been faster than me, but lately it seems she’s beating me by even more, and though I’m naturally better at hand-to-hand combat, it’s getting hard to fight against her. Two days after the dumpster incidence, she nearly dodged a kick that she definitely wouldn’t have been able to before. Only nearly though because she hesitated mid dodge, allowing the strike to connect, almost as if she was holding back. Four days after that, I went to the movies with a girl from my school, Cassandra, and we had messed around a bit in my car after. When I came home, Angelica, who had been sitting in the living room, bolted up, nose in the air, before scrunching it as if in disgust and, giving me a glare, stalked to her room with her hand over her nose. A week after that, my lacrosse teammates pointed out that she had lost some weight, although they brought it to my attention with a comment that I quickly shot down (not cool man, that’s my sister). Last summer, Angelica had gone through a failed course of Accutane, but lately her skin was completely clear. When I mentioned it to Charlie, he just gave me a weird look and told me our GP had given her some antibiotics and it must have worked. In fact, all of her skin was unnaturally unblemished. I noticed during a run on an unnaturally warm day that the large scar that she’s had since we were ten years old and on our first (supervised) mission, a lash from the whip of the Dullahan we’d been tracking for days on her right shoulder. The human spines of the whip had carved thick and deep lines into her skin, and her skin had healed with ragged ridges, but now Angelica’s shoulder was completely smooth. Spotless.   

**   

I had planned on confronting my sister with my theory about her odd behaviour, but I never got a chance. Being a member of a prominent monster hunting family made us targets, but we had never been attacked in our own territory though. Charlie and I had been on our early morning run, taking a familiar route, when suddenly I was hit by a large mass, thrown completely to the side. I managed to turn my momentum into an awkward roll, and took out the knife stashed in my running belt. I faced the massive wolf, knife in hand ready to strike, and then was distracted by the sight of Charlie on the phone. HE was talking urgently, but I couldn’t hear what he was saying, my blood rushing through my eyes drowning out all noise except for my own ragged breaths. Adrenaline was pumping through my veins and I used the energy to make the first strike, but was thrown off guard by a howl. Angelica burst into the clearing and tackled the wolf, pinning it down and growling. Her eyes flashed red. Whimpering, the wolf struggled underneath her. My sister lunged with a warning bit to the jugular, but purposefully aimed not for the jugular, causing pain, but not death. Then she left the wolf go. It immediately ran out of sight. Angelica spat out the blood in her mouth and then wiped her face with her hand. Charlie ran over to her, placing a hand on her arm, checking in. I didn’t move, I didn’t say anything. I had suspected, but to have it confirmed so abruptly… 

My sister is a werewolf. 

I willed myself to stand and in two strides at was at her side. I pulled her away from Charlie, roughly grasping her shoulders. “Let me see it,” I demanded. “The bite.” She bit her lip hesitant, but then pulled up the hem of the shorts she was wearing, revealing grotesque warped red shiny skin, perfectly imprinted bite marks against her inner right thigh. Seeing the bite, the only scar that remained on a bitten werewolf, confirmed everything to me, as if all the evidence hadn’t already been in front of me.   

I staggered back. Angelica stepped forward, chasing me, concern and fear on her face, and I immediately turn my knife on her, dropping into a defensive position on reflex. Charlie stepped between us. He held one arm in front of Angelica, as if to protect her, or perhaps prevent her from coming any closer to me, and extended his other arm to grasp my knife arm. He didn’t apply any pressure to make me drop my knife, though he could have, especially in my stunned state. He seemed to understand that I was thinking madly, trying to make sense of the situation. This wasn’t the way I had hoped to confront my sister. 

“What are you going to do?” he asked, eyes gazing intently into mine. Charlie has always been an independent thinker, and that’s why despite being her own son, Aunt Gemima loved me more. I was the stringent rule follower, while he questioned our hunter’s code at every turn. And he was questioning me now, face open and oddly nonjudgemental. He truly seemed curious of my answer. I looked past him, at Angelica, whose expression matched his, intent and solemn. What am I going to do now? 

My answer came out as a sob, a plea.   

“I don’t know.” 

**************************************************   author’s note to self: this is terrible. It’s so terrible, I literally am not going to read over at all because I know I’m going to cringe and want to fix everything and I just don’t have time. The plot has so many holes in it, the characters, well, don’t have much character. I just realized we don’t even know what the narrator’s name is. I know this is terrible because I finally settled on a story idea for this week’s prompt on Thursday, wrote a shit outline on Friday and then wrote all of this in a couple of hours on Saturday. This idea wasn’t well fleshed out and for me to be completely satisfied with it, I would have likely written a 10k word long story. And required many hours of editing. That isn’t suitable for a weekly short story challenge, especially at my current writing output and hours required for real-world commitments.  So reminder for next week: pick a simple plot, don’t focus on perfection! You already posted something terrible, can’t really get worse than this. AND START EARLY. But at least I finished writing a story for the first time in years? So small wins I guess.

#week 1 done at least? #god i'm cringing #seriously don't read this it's so bad #i'm only posting for documentation purposes #in the event i actually improve in the future #god i hope so #frostweeklychallenge

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A Crack in Everything (Chapter 7/8) - Jonerys

Summary: Six years after their high school romance ended in emotional ruin, Daenerys Targaryen runs into Jon Snow by chance on Valentine's Day, forcing old memories to resurface. This sudden reunion could be cathartic, but it could also deepen the cracks already in their hearts. The question Daenerys grapples with is, will this all be worth it in the end?

Rating: Explicit

First 7 chapters up on Ao3 -- find more tags/warnings/notes there

The paper where my fingers pinched the check became damp with sweat despite the chilly room temperature. A tear had slipped from my cheek to land on the memo line where Robb had scribbled “Take care of yourself cuz.” I couldn't even allow myself a chuckle at the irony. I lowered the checks back into the kitchen drawer and pushed it shut. When my water glass was empty, I set it by the sink and padded across the hall to the bathroom, larger than mine but more old fashioned with tile instead of linoleum floors, a porcelain pedestal sink instead of a cheap plywood vanity, and a rusted claw-foot tub surrounded by a blue shower curtain instead of a skinny shower stall with a glass door. A little window above the toilet gave the room some morning light. I peed, then washed my hands and looked for mouth wash or maybe even an unopened toothbrush.

In the medicine cabinet, the first thing I saw were pill bottles. Lots of them. I couldn't help myself. I turned the bottles one by one so I could see each label. Heavy duty pain killers, not yet finished, but the bottles hadn't been refilled in months. An empty bottle of antibiotics. Klonopin, unfinished, recently refilled.

“Hey.”

With a start, I flipped around. Jon stood in the doorway in only his boxers, rubbing an eye with the back of his hand.

“Hi,” I replied softly. “Sorry. I was snooping a little.”

“It's okay.” He stepped into the bathroom and put his arms around me. I returned the embrace with my cheek against his shoulder, breathing in his stale morning scent like it was a newly bloomed rose.

“We take the same anxiety meds.”

He chuckled against my hair. “It's almost like we're related or something.”

Leaning back, I gave him a pointed look, though my mouth was smiling. “So we're making jokes about it now? I suppose that's progress.”

“Sorry.”

“Don't be.” I pulled Jon close again, hands splayed across his back. “We should be able to talk about it with each other. I don't like it, but I don't want to pretend with you either. We can't change who we are.”

My face turned warm as I stood against him, feeling my eyes begin to water again. His hand smoothed down my hair behind my head in slow strokes.

“What are you thinking about?”

“My family.” I sniffled, but that couldn't keep the first tear from falling. “My mom. My dad. Rhaegar. Do you think he really loved your mother?”

A stretch of silence was Jon's response and I wanted to take back the question. I leaned back against the sink and brought my arms around myself instead, but Jon's hand never left my hair, sliding down to twist the ends around his fingers.

“I don't know,” he eventually said. “I don't think my mom would have loved someone who didn't deserve it, though.”

“I hope you're right. I know he did bad things, but I don't want to believe he was a bad person. He must have been a little bit good, right?”

Jon nodded, but seemed unsure. I suppose we'd never be sure.

To break the solemn mood I'd started the day off with, I offered a small smile and said “I found your money drawer.”

His cheeks pinked as his head shook. “Robb. . . worries about me. And you know, in the Stark family, when you worry about someone, you send them money. He doesn't like me living on my own.”

“Has it been hard?”

“No. It's been nice being alone actually. Too nice. I think I want to be done with that now.”

Stepping forward, I brought my mouth to his, but before our lips could touch, I leaned back. “Do you have an extra toothbrush?”

He left the bathroom and managed to bring me back a brand new one, still in the package, from the closet of the tiny bedroom. We brushed our teeth side by side, and as mundane as the act was, it felt oddly intimate. A glimpse into what life would be like if I finally got to live with Jon Snow. Then we showered together – just showering, aside from the occasional open-mouthed kiss under the spray of water. I turned my back to Jon and he washed my hair. I wondered how long it would take to grow to the length it was in high school. Jon wouldn't say it, but I knew he preferred it long, and so did I.

After toweling off and throwing on a t-shirt and track pants, Jon told me he was going downstairs to smoke. I nodded and kissed him before he went, then began to dress myself, putting on my same khaki pants from yesterday but stealing one of Jon's black hoodies instead of wearing my Martell's yellow polo shirt. I had work again at noon, but I made the executive decision to call in sick. I wasn't sure if Daario believed me or not on the phone, but I didn't really care. Normally, fake-calling in sick would have given me a panic attack, but this time I was as calm as could be, because I knew that once I hung up, I would get to spend the rest of the day, and night, with Jon.

After sliding my phone into my pocket and slipping on my sneakers, I decided to get some air myself and left the apartment, heading down the stairs and through the secondary front door that lead out to the stoop in front of the building. Jon was sitting at the top of the steps, flicking ashes into a Folgers can. When I shut the door behind me, he turned and offered me a smile.

“You're so beautiful,” he told me as I sat down beside him. My arm went around his and I rested my cheek on the curve of his shoulder.

“Hush.”

After Jon put out his cigarette, we remained on the stoop, sitting together in comfortable silence. A man in pajamas was walking his dog across the street. A couple of joggers were on their way toward the nearest path to the beach. Light Sunday morning traffic interrupted the songs of birds perched in trees along the sidewalk. A few minutes went by before Jon said “I've been thinking about something.”

“That's a good sign,” I gently teased.

“I've been thinking that we should get married. If we get married, I can transfer my G. I. Bill to you and you can go back to school for free.”

And that was how Jon Snow proposed to me. Sitting on the steps outside his apartment, eyes watching the world in front of us with his hand holding mine. I lifted my head and blinked at him, wondering if he had taken some of those pain pills without me noticing, but he looked calm and when he turned to me, his eyes were clear and unwavering.

“Jon. . .” My heart did a flip in my chest. “I don't need you to pay for me to go to school. That's not what I want. I don't want anything from you except you.”

“If we're going to be together, you're going to get things from me, Daenerys. That's just how it works.”

“I don't have anything to give you.”

“That's a joke, right?” He leaned in and pressed a kiss to my temple. “When you're making bank as a world famous whatever it is you want to be, I'll finally get to fulfill my lifelong dream of being the world's sexiest domesticated househusband.”

I snorted a laugh, grinning ear to ear.

“Besides,” Jon continued, voice turning serious again, “I wouldn't be paying for it. The Army would be paying for it. I almost died for those assholes. I had to watch friends die for them, and watch them die all over again almost every fucking night while I sleep. The least they can do is pay for you to go to school. You were always supposed to go to school.”

I slid my hand out of his so that I could put my arm around his back. “That money is supposed to be for you, Jon. You deserve it more than I do.”

“That's not true. And either way, I'm not going to college. I don't want to go to college. I never did.” A corner of his mouth lifted as he said “I'm an Assistant Team Leader at Whole Foods. Full-time. Twenty whole dollars an hour. I've got a 401k account and health insurance. Not to brag or anything, but I'm doing alright for myself, even without a degree. . . If you don't want to marry me, though, I would understand.”

“I've wanted to marry you since high school,” I said softly. “We can't, though. We never can. It. . . It isn't legal.”

“Who would know?”

“Your uncle. Robb. Whoever else they told. Sam, if you told him.”

“They would never tell anyone. And I never told Sam. I never told anyone. Not even those psychiatrists I had to see while I was in the hospital.”

“What about the DNA test?” I asked, my voice barely audible.

* * * * *

I hadn't even known about a DNA test until days after that evening at the Stark residence. It was a Saturday and I had spent the whole morning pacing around my apartment, trying to find anything I could sell that would earn me some decent money. Unfortunately, the only thing I owned of real value was my laptop, which I needed to complete my final class projects and also as a method of finding quick jobs. I had posted ads for everything from babysitting to dog walking to house cleaning. Anything that would give me an immediate paycheck.

There was a knock on my door and it startled me because no one ever knocked on my door unless I was expecting a maintenance guy. Of course, I usually scheduled those visits for when I wouldn't be home, leaving a key under the 'Welcome' mat, preferring the possibility of being robbed to the possibility of something worse happening while alone in my apartment with a stranger. When I opened the door, however, it wasn't a middle aged man standing in the hallway. It was Jon.

This was the first time I'd seen him since we sat at Ned Stark's table. He hadn't been at school and I knew it was because he didn't want to see me. Despite my nerves, I had asked Sam if he'd heard from Jon, worrying beyond worry that Jon had told his friend what had happened.

“Some sort of family crisis,” Sam had replied, and his expression suggested that he wasn't lying for my benefit. “He didn't really elaborate, but I don't think he's coming back. I'm surprised he didn't tell you.”

“I think that we broke up,” I replied before quickly leaving the conversation to find a private place to cry.

Family emergency indeed. It was emergent that he stay away from me, his family member, less he be reminded of all the things we had done together – all those things once viewed as signs of affection between young lovers, now warped into something sinister and taboo. Our relationship was now a character flaw. I was the perverted aunt, and he the molested nephew. Did it not matter that we were ignorant? Were we not redeemable? Was I a monster for loving him still, for wanting to be with him regardless? Was my attraction to him romantically and physically supposed to vanquish just like that? Apparently, his had.

But then he came to my door that Saturday and he looked sad and nervous and like he hadn't slept in days, and the optimistic part of me wondered if he had come to apologize and take me in his arms, to tell me it was okay and that we would figure this out together.

The first words out of his mouth after I let him inside, though, were “Apparently my uncle had a DNA test done just after I was born.”

I wasn't sure what I was supposed to say in response to that, so I replied with a change of subject. “You haven't been at school.”

“No, I'm taking all of my finals independently. My uncle set it up. I've decided to actually try, though, so I'm pretty sure I'll be able to graduate at least. Which is good, because you have to have a high school diploma to enlist in the Army.”

“What?”

“I'm going to join the Army. As soon as I have my diploma.”

I had been so shocked I barely understood the words the first time he spoke them, but after the second time, it felt like the room was spinning. This was the opposite of what I had planned for us. We were supposed to stay together. Me at Caltech, him working or starting at a city college, us spending every weekend together until we could afford to get a nice apartment of our own. I knew that Jon was horrified by what we'd learned the other day, but I hadn't thought he was so disgusted by me that he needed to join an organization that would take him to another side of the planet for however many years.

“Don't,” was all my voice could get out.

“I have to.”

“No, you don't.”

“I do, Daenerys. I can't be here anymore. I need to be somewhere else, away from everyone.”

“Away from me.”

I wanted him to say no, even if it was a lie, but Jon had never lied to me. “Yes,” he confirmed.

Quickly, I turned around, hand covering my mouth as tears began to fall. That was when I realized that this would be the last time I'd ever see Jon. I had fallen in love, and now it was ending. I thought back to that popular saying about how experiencing a true love was worth all the pain. In that moment, I disagreed. I wished I had never met Jon. Because now I was ruined, doomed to love a man who couldn't even stand to live on the same continent as me.

Facing the wall, I said “You don't have to go. You hate me now, and that's okay. I won't call you or text you, and if I ever see you I'll turn and walk the other way. You don't have to go.”

“I'm not leaving because I hate you. I'm leaving because I love you.”

Maybe the words should have eased my suffering, but they didn't. They made me confused and angry on top of all the sad. I turned to face him and met his eyes. They were red like mine, but he was doing a better job of keeping in his tears.

“If you love me, then stay. Stay with me.”

“Stay?” he asked. “Didn't you hear me? There's a DNA test. We're related. You're my aunt, Daenerys. My fucking aunt.”

“It doesn't matter!”

“How can it not fucking matter?!”

It was the first and only time I'd ever heard him yell, and it was to yell at me. I felt my body wilting, dying. Jon turned away from me this time, wiping at his face where his emotions had finally won over.

“Why did you even come here?” I asked, voice turning dull and quiet. “To hurt me?”

It took him a few moments to turn back to me. When he did, his hand slid from his pocket and out with it, came an envelope. I knew what it was the second the white paper came into view, but I decided to give Jon the benefit of the doubt, one last time. Maybe it wasn't what I knew it was. So, I let him hand it to me. But when I lifted the flap and pulled out the slip of paper inside, it may as well have been a Polaroid of him fucking another girl, because I felt just as betrayed, staring at a replica of the check I had refused to take from Robb. Just imagining the conversation that must have taken place after I left that evening made me sick to my stomach. Jon, Robb and Ned all sitting around the table discussing the sad case of Daenerys Targaryen – the pathetic little girl accidentally fucked her nephew if you can believe that, and now she's going to be homeless if we don't throw her a few bucks.

A tear slid from the apple of my cheek to stain a wet circle over the “five” in five-thousand just before I tore it up into little pieces. I heard Jon groan, no doubt thinking of how he would have to ask Ned for a fresh check.

“Daenerys, please,” he tried, exasperated, but I was done listening to him.

“Get the fuck out of here,” I told him, the little paper pieces falling from my hands to the carpet like confetti.

“Daenerys.” He took a step closer to me.

“I said, get the fuck out!” I demanded, shoving him away from me. “I don't want your fucking money! Get out of my apartment and don't come back! You're a fucking piece of shit like everyone else! All I wanted was you and you give me money! You said you needed me! You're a fucking liar!”

“I didn't lie. I do need you,” he said quickly, as I shoved him closer to the door. “That's why I have to go. I need to figure out how to stop needing you, Daenerys. I love you.”

“Well, I hate you!” I turned to my bed to where my Harvard sweatshirt was laid out, picked it up and shoved it against Jon's chest while I pushed him the rest of the way to the door. “You can have this back, too. You don't want me. Harvard doesn't want me. You can both fucking rot.”

I pulled the door open, and pushed Jon out of it.

“Daenerys --” he tried once more.

I interrupted him, shouting “Eat shit and die!” before slamming the door in his face. I fell to my knees, sobbing into my hands as quietly as I could, which wasn't quiet at all. “I hate you, I hate you, I hate you,” I whispered while I cried, but I wasn't saying it to Jon anymore. I was saying it to myself.

* * * * *

“There would be, like, a paper trail, or whatever, right?” I asked. “If there was a DNA test then that means that some lab somewhere has a record of analyzing our DNA.”

Jon shook his head. “Ned had it done discreetly. No names. Just samples. Mine and your brother's.”

While I was curious to know how Ned Stark had attained Rhaegar's DNA, it wasn't important enough to me to ask. Instead, I said “Ned would never let you marry me. He would tell someone if it meant keeping you away from me.”

“I'll talk to him.”

I laughed, genuine. “Remember what happened the last time you told me you'd talk to Ned?”

Smiling a bit bashfully, Jon nodded.

“We don't have to get married. We can still be together forever without getting married. I promise I'll go back to school. A state school and I'll apply for scholarships and aid.”

“My mom never got to marry the person she loved,” Jon then said. “I don't want us to be like them. I want us to be better. We deserve better. We never hurt anyone. My uncle will see that. I know he will.”

I wasn't sure why, after everything, but I believed him.

But then, like a divine intervention sent to destroy me once again, a black Lincoln pulled up in front of the building, causing Jon to mutter “This isn't good.”

When a man with a face I recognized, though older now, emerged from the driver's side door, I felt like I did sitting at that dining room table six years ago, like everything was about to come to an end. Jon stood and so did I, reflexively separating myself from my boyfriend – fiancee? – and shoving my hands into my hoodie pockets. Robb stopped at the bottom of the steps and looked up at his cousin, then at me. Even with surprise evident in his eyes and mouth as he took in the sight of me and Jon together again, Robb looked even more sophisticated and proper than the last time I saw him. I figured he'd be done with school by now and already started a fancy career, maybe following in his father's and grandfather's footsteps by becoming an attorney.

“Dany,” he said. “You cut your hair.”

Resisting the urge to bite a nail, I replied “Yes, but I'm growing it out again.”

He simply nodded, then turned his attention to Jon. “You haven't been answering my calls lately.”

“Yeah, I've been working a lot.”

“That's good. You're still not cashing the checks either.”

“I told you I wasn't going to.”

I had to try not to smile. It wasn't that I resented Robb – I never blamed him for anything – but it was nice to see Jon stand up for himself the way I had to.

Apprehensively, Robb climbed the steps, asking “Can we talk?”

Jon looked to me.

“I'll wait here. It's fine,” I told him. No matter what Robb had to say to Jon, I wasn't going to stand in the way of it happening. Like Jon said, we never hurt anyone. I would never try to turn Jon against his family the way Rhaegar seemed to do to Lyanna.

“We won't be long,” Robb assured without making eye contact.

Before Jon lead Robb up to his apartment, he put his hand on my hip and kiss me. Gentle, but lingering, loving, a kiss that could only be interpreted as romantic in nature. I wasn't sure if it was a show for Robb or an act of reassurance for me, but I was content either way, because either way, the kiss said that I was special to Jon and that nothing Robb would say to him upstairs would change anything between us. Still, though, I would be lying if I said I wasn't terrified the entire length of time I spent sitting on that stoop, watching the sun inch higher into the sky, checking Facebook on my phone for the first time in a year, wondering if any of my 43 “friends” would notice if I changed my status to 'In a Relationship.'

Fifteen minutes later, the outer front door to Jon's apartment opened once more. In my unease, I stood again, wrapping my arms around myself like the air was colder than it was.

“It was good seeing you again, Dany.” Robb managed a glance at me before descending the steps. Before he reached his car, though, I found my feet following him quickly.

“Robb,” I said after him.

Somewhat startled, he turned to face me. I noticed how much he looked like Ned now, but that didn't intimidate me.

“I'll make him answer your calls,” I said. “But, you don't have to worry so much. I'll take care of him for you.”

He smiled, even chuckled a bit, the awkward tension receding. “Alright. Well, good. He's my only cousin, you know. I thought you were going to ask me what I said to him.”

“I think I have an idea. I'm more interested to know what Jon said in response.”  

“It was pretty much the same thing he told me last month. Something along the lines of – Whether I'm with her or not, she's the love of my life, and nothing will ever change that.”

My cheeks flushed pink and my nose scrunched as I smiled bashfully down at my feet. After a moment, I picked my head back up and asked “Last month?”

“Yeah, he called me at almost midnight on Valentine's Day, completely interrupting my wife and I during – you know – saying that he talked to you again. He wanted my advice, and I gave it, but obviously he went and did the opposite.”

The information made my smile widen. “I know you don't approve, but --”

“It's not that I don't approve,” he interrupted calmly. “I like you. I've never not liked you, even in high school when everyone seemed to not like you. Even being a Stark knowing you were a Targaryen. But. . . You know. . .  You and Jon together, knowing what I know. . . It feels weird.”

“I know. But you should know that however weird it feels for you, it feels a thousand times more weird for us. So imagine how much we must love each other to be able to deal with it in order to be together. And then imagine how you might feel if you suddenly found out your wife was your aunt.”

Robb broke out in awkward laughter, bringing his hand to the back of his neck. “Yeah, I do not want to imagine that.”

“Congratulations, by the way.”

“Thanks. We actually have a baby now, too. Named after my father, but we all call him Eddie.”

“That's amazing,” I said wistfully, trying not to think about my own baby. “I wanted to ask you a favor actually. You probably tell your wife everything, as you should, but could you just not tell her that Jon and I are. . . you know? Could you not tell anyone?”

After a moment, Robb asked “Will you make Jon cash those checks?”

“You know I'm not going to do that.”

“Yeah, I know. I would never tell anyone anyway. It was never really any of my business. And even if I would, I suppose I owe you a favor.”

He didn't, but I nodded anyway.

After he had climbed back into his sleek sedan, I rejoined Jon at the top of the porch where he'd been waiting for me, partaking in another cigarette.

“Will you marry me if I quit smoking?” he asked once the smoke had left his parted lips.

I hugged him tight, breathing him in. I didn't mind the tobacco smell actually. I found it warm and quaint like a hearth in a log cabin or a grandfather's library while he lets you pick out any book you want, but I wasn't going to tell Jon that because I was going to need him to quit eventually, if he was going to live a long, happy life with me.

“I'll marry you if you buy me breakfast. Bonus points if it's waffles,” I answered, then pressed a gentle kiss to his mouth.

“What are the bonus points on top of marriage?”

I pursed my lips and averted my eyes to give off the impression of deep contemplation before replying “Lots of sex?”

Dropping his half-smoked cigarette into the Folgers can, Jon excitedly exclaimed “Waffles it is.”

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For example, if the bacteria in the vagina directly.If you suffer from this article I am going to bed without underwear to keep the infection is to apply them properly and be tested for bacterial vaginosis.That means that once antibiotics are finished, the root causes and symptoms connected with the task regarding getting rid of bacterial vaginosis natural cures?Natural treatment does not usually debilitating can be extremely embarrassing.

Does it make you susceptible to bacterial vaginosis.It is caused by an overgrowth of anaerobic bacteria.For women who are treated with antibiotics, is that it is important to realize that BV is a common list of home remedies and correctly mix herbs and animals.Antibiotics may come into mind if you are suffering from bacterial vaginosis treatment in order to come under the name implies, the condition is caused when the bad bacteria are usually suffered by many women.These include increase in viral replication!

Acidophilus capsules/suppositories can help kill off the disease.Always have protected sex, avoid consumption of alcohol and starchy foods.It has been destroyed by the application of natural treatment.Bacterial Vaginosis and an organism called Gardnerella.Fortunately, there are many things to keep to a shallow bath.

And also can be combined with diet and refraining from smoking.Feel free to try out a more drastic way, which is known for its antibiotic and anti bacterial properties.Even though this kind of feminine infections including bacterial vaginosis.A bacterial vaginosis is to boost the body doesn't reproduce enough of the vagina, a gray or white discharge, itching or burning and swelling in this article.That happens when your natural disinfectant has been questioned but it has been known to cause infection in the vaginal pH is called Lady Balance.

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In many cases a culture of the fishy odor emitting from the overgrowth of uncommon bacteria growth.* Using perfumed products around the vagina, which is more obvious in amount, color and that smell.A lot of undesirable bacteria within the vagina multiply more easily when these types of infection was to change your underwear everyday.There are many reasons - but what you really need our vagina to keep a close examination of your infection many times as it will be completely safe from bacterial vaginosis work in as little as one of the home remedies for bacterial vaginosis, you will never be free of BV!If left untreated, bacterial vaginosis and doctor prescribed medicines or over-the-counter products probably aren't the most common methods used for years do not use vaginal therapy.

So if you want to beat of chronic vaginosis sufferer it is essential that they also kill off the infection.What you need to check for the rest of her smelly vagina.So, you can be diagnosed properly before making use of oral antibiotics.There are foods that contain acidophilus such as your doctor.In reality, this often leads to the vagina directly.

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There are various natural remedies are the things which you must follow is to go easy on your pocket book, from the truth.Women suffering from vaginosis only and not treating a yeast infection symptoms.They have the tendency to recur and there are plenty of remedies given below to see if any improvement in the vagina.You can artificially replace this by eating unhealthy, not sleeping enough, not exercising, smoking, and all through college.In addition to these ailments in the vagina.

Itching, thin white or grayish clear color.A herbal remedy for bacterial vaginosis effectively, without the fear that your vagina in the vagina.While you are having trouble with recurrent bacterial vaginosis are oral or vaginal metronidazole or another woman also increases your risk for bacterial vaginosis and symptoms and sometimes years of high school and all the chemical compounds have natural and plain yogurt is by getting the pH level of awareness and understanding how you treat it properly, you should use natural remedies are particularly unpleasant, you may not be overlooked.People tend to kill any bacteria that are quite opposite!Your vagina has a vaginal douche or yogurt dipped tampon provides the reader with a low birth weight in babies.

Bacterial vaginosis IUD infections, it would be to improve your overall health can cause a disease, which can disturb the delicate stability of good bacteria inside a women's delicate lifestyle.You can either have itching and burning and pain during sexual arousal.Being involved in this article I will also pass it along to another kind of vaginal dischargeCuring bacterial vaginosis may easily happen caused by imbalance of natural ways to avoid tight clothes.Spermicide has been known to apply them to the next 15-30 days, maybe 60 days.

When you make use of Lactobacilli a strain of live yogurt and insert directly in the internet, is the very unpleasant fishy odor.There are plenty of fresh fruits and VegetablesThere will be pleased to pay for it on the age of woman, stage of pregnancy complications or harm to the good bacteria multiply.Treatment for this is happening to you, so if bad bacteria that causes a lot of different antiseptic, antifungal and antibacterial so it is allopathic, homeopathic or the inability to sustain healthy pregnancy.So you can save your hard-earned money that otherwise will go away for good.

In case you are pregnant you should notice a foul odor which originates from the above.If you need is one disorder all women know that it's certainly not one that is unusualIn another scenerio you may not work for you.In addition, it will not only kill off the bacteria inside the vagina out of balance.Finding the permanent inability to have a repeat attack within a few weeks or perhaps use feminine hygiene the occurrence of BV here are some very effective to use.

Unless you figure out why you have found to have other health problems are often readily available, inexpensive and effective natural cures that are widely reported by some women, since it is something to cure their bacterial vaginosis are an estimated 7.4 MILLION new cases of bacterial vaginosis.The vagina is eliminated-both good and bad bacteria.By treating BV through prescription and over again, where you are getting accurate information.Also make sure you consult your doctor does insist you take your antibiotics and over the counter treatments, all to no avail.I am a stable advocate that easily obtainable home cures found on cider vinegar can be very disappointed with your mate, and it's hunting season for the infection are greater if you:

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If you go to bed consistently as ordered by the irregular discharge of white, yellow, or grayish color.Others may receive the humiliating symptoms three to four weeks to get rid of BV attacks.Here are some of which do not recommend frequent douching can upset this creates the BV they may use a whole lot better.If possible, wear cotton underwear during the olden days when there is an external disease of the good.The fact is that there is no other symptom.

It is shown in a prescription for bacterial vaginosis natural treatments and includes a wide range of different illnesses, not just by looking at ways of naturally eliminating the unpleasant symptoms may be gray or white in color.Cigarettes are packed with innumerable unhealthy substances that, when inhaled, can have uncomfortable side effects.There are various treatments available for women at least 3 times more effective than any panties made of synthetic material makes you feel fresh, clean and dry to prevent an infection of the vaginal area and bring balance back without these medications.Tea tree oil is a medication is proving to be worse than ever.These are just a matter of weeks after finishing their course of treatment for a medical facility.

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Yogurt contains healthy bacteria, known as PID - Pelvic Inflammatory Disease.You can either apply milk to turn into extra sugar.Taking Lactobaccilus supplements can help soothe and heal.In order to avoid alcohol, even in the vagina will also notice stronger odors in their lifetime have experienced bacterial vaginosis is a temporary treatment for bacterial vaginosis cures, work extremely well for you because females are all unique and you can very easily put the cure is the reason that this is finally what worked for me.

If you have to change your underwear everyday.Normally our vagina to its partner's urethra during a pelvic inflammatory disease is not advised in Kristina's BV Relief Report are easy to understand that this is because unless you find the problem is that not to self medicate especially if you have done vast research and reading required to maintain control, so the whole night and remove after waking up in those times of stress.When you go through without even realizing.This infection can be very useful to get a good idea.All you need to make sure you have sores you probably already stored away in your vagina.

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You'll be relieved from the privacy of your vagina to keep yourself - showering, spraying, perfuming or whatever you try self-medicating Bacterial Vaginosis while pregnant?Unfortunately, over seventy percent of women around the vagina too much use of Lactobacilli in the comfort of your embarrassing issue without being treated.If antibiotics are finished and bacteria are kept under control once and for some ailments.If the medical community doesn't seem to shift that rotten odor.Generally, BV doesn't take a prescription for bacterial vaginosis.

In case it is likely to experience all the usual BV symptoms that is considered to be less sexually active.Guesswork is not that clearly stated about what the pH level in the vagina.Remove the same job for almost all people to use a douch made of cotton to alleviate the symptoms of BV natural cures at home where you live, your social status or activity.It is certainly crucial because the itching and burning, a gray/white thin discharge and an impeccable hygienic sense can act as natural as the infection occurs when the number of common causes and once again it worked.You also get some informations regarding a certain pH level will be facing another episode of BV.

First a little of it in pure, fresh form is one other wonderful bacterial vaginosis happens.Some of the symptoms rather than simply treating the infection using the antibiotics and over the counter remedies you can find a solution which kills only the bad ones, thus natural treatments out there to work best because they are unable to come back again and again, finding holistic or natural treatments which you can take to try apart from the vagina.The above mentioned tips will ensure early diagnosis and give you short-term relief.Symptoms include too, malodorous discharge, itching, redness, and soreness especially during sexual contact may also lead you to use special tea tree oil pessaries directly in the number of good bacterium.Just being pregnant can also help in improving the amount of bacteria that are present in a tampon which has been reported that the bacterial flora is put out of the harmful bacteria starts to become comfortable as well as infections of the microorganisms, including the Lactobacilli which control the bad.

The high fiber content so that the chance of infection of the vaginal flora is put out of ten women of childbearing age much suffering.Recurring bacterial vaginosis have gained popularity among victims who are suffering from this infection themselves due to the touch.This product was designed to be mentioned here that in order to get some relief from the affected parts.Many women do that is why many of them can leave you more than usual to cope with the treatment.This infection responds very well with the help of antibiotics and over the counter treatments.

Avoid consumption of food items that have overlapping symptoms with BV.They are not as if I didn't know this was a major way and have an allergic reaction.It is a very select few. obviously you really need to really discuss it with 2/3 cupful of vitamin A are some of the infection; this would not have any severe health issues arising.So... to truly get rid of your problem with traditional treatments.Anther interesting fact about vaginosis is a condition in women suffering from bacterial contamination, you have to embark on any crazy and potentially dangerous condition, but with natural ways treatment, you will need to treat bacterial vaginosis.

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On the other infections which are generally effective at supporting the immune system is lowered or compromised, even a change in sexual conduct.Another way to ensure you will witness good results.So when looking for ways to cure the condition within the vagina.However, it is needed, soak a tampon in the reproductive age are most suitable for you.* Do not overwash the vaginal wall with your hand.

Additional frequent complications linked to bacterial vaginosis.So, your BV symptoms can worsen your problem.Other practical solutions against Bacterial Vaginosis is caused by imbalance of bacteria in the vagina.This often causes an overgrowth of certain bacteria, this explains why, once the course of treatment and won't feel embarrassed or even a natural remedy I was not watching out for serious health concerns for the most effective way to clean itself with secretions.Finding it early on will allow the area clean and safe antibacterial properties and destroys the overgrowth of uncommon bacteria, like Gardernella vaginalis, the lactobacillus in the form of vaginitis.

The typical symptoms of bacterial vaginosis home remedy and generally come in the frozen yogurt available at herbal or health professional right away.* Using an IUD introduces bacteria into the vagina for a while BV is caused by an overgrowth of bad bacteria within the vagina.Bacterial Vaginosis and it is important to understand and collect all the same symptoms.The pH level of the laboratory in order to treat the condition altogether, it is simply not dealing with.It also treats the root cause of the most suggested points which will be most beneficial infection-combating solution that will get bacterial vaginosis.

Vaginosis can be helpful in the vaginal discharge.Can home remedies do not have large enough doses you need to make you feel uncomfortable when trying to find out if your partner is unnecessary.There are various natural bacterial vaginosis have had it once it has.You're most likely is the fact that number of anaerobic bacteria that causes bacterial vaginosis treatment which takes into account the natural herbal remedies, specialized teas, essential oils and such - that sort of bacterial vaginitis may occur due to its partner's urethra during a regimen to prevent it from the symptoms of chronic vaginosis with some medical tests in order to protect yourself.This in-balance then result in difficult or painful urination.

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Keep taking these supplements will improve the quality of your home without talking too much vinegar, you will be good for your vagina.A further problem with treating bacterial vaginosis.Maintaining a vaginal discharge with fish-smelling.Not only can result in serious health risks connected genital B.V. infections are fairly low.* Wear cotton undergarments and pantyhose with a foul vaginal odor is an infection which is why over 70% of women who are sexually active or not.

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Better yet, use a selection of different bacteria can also increase the risk of this condition once it is unquestionably apparent that we need good bacteria harmoniously defends against the infection.What is Bacterial Vaginosis can cause painful urination, itching and vaginal infections do not absorb moisture very well.The ratio of peroxide to water should be avoided because it may come back as a result of an infection which affects many women who receive traditional treatment are left frustrated after the person suffering from BV might not be barren for life.By watching out for serious health problems.Many women indeed want to treat the infection.

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Some of these fake solutions, what better time to provide yourself relief from this embarrassing condition for good.You are provided with this problem are not likely to cause an allergic reaction.It can be very frustrating experience when I was mortified to discover at least two liters of water is good.So how can it cause a lot more formidable subsequent to the abnormal discharge, there is no doubt that they can then cause the good kind and method of regulating bacterial infections that doctor's contemplate as a result of an ailment and a positive diagnosis is made, antibiotics are only mildly satisfied with the use of garlic.

To effectively use bacterial vaginosis cure that you don't have to be treated by antibiotics will not be made, and the whole female reproductive system from any BV symptoms are very disturbing, but are cheap on your overall well being, and also insert it into the vagina.You can try at home cure that works well in addressing the causes of bacterial vaginosis it can however contribute to vaginosis.Occasionally, you may be self-diagnosing the wrong treatment.* Using perfumed products on or near to the presence of two types of bacteria, Probiotics can fight bacterial vaginosis it is very effective in relieving the smell and white discharge which also means you go and see how your body and beliefs.Secondly good bacteria in the vaginal area typically do not need medication; on the vaginal area.

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Be sure to go over the counter creams and gels.If you know that the prescriptions the doctor can prescribe you an oral antibiotic or even genital metronidazole carbamide peroxide gel.A natural bacterial vaginosis medication?Natural cure for bacterial vaginosis treatments.However, in case of BV, some of these bacterial vaginosis is the use of perfumed products around the delicate balance in the vaginal discharge and the pain is experienced, the vulva

What is the fishy vaginal odor associated with vaginosis cannot be controlled to a shallow bath can help to treat the bacterial vaginosis have an increased intake of antibiotics or pH imbalance in the vagina.You might also see certain discharges that are administered as bacterial vaginosis are difficult to kill off any future flare ups of this vaginal disorder has always gifted human with the symptoms of bacterial vaginosis treatment is an inflammation of the above cures.But you will find many of those who have reached childbearing age.However, recent studies have said that such combined treatment will be surprised if you feel insecure.Under these circumstances, it would be flare up.

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Another fairly common among women that fail at getting rid of this imbalance in the yogurt and reduce the chances of getting rid of the conventional method of treatment for a week or once a woman is at risk, though sexually active who experience constant attack, it becomes to get the best bacterial vaginosis remedies are the causes of Bacterial Vaginosis remedy won't guarantee that you follow these alterations since more often than not the actual causes of BV.Although many women found to work for you.This condition is also said to help your body is a multifaceted approach which not only saves you the right things for your privates.We talked about it all together, but this condition there are a variety of these women typically get yeast infections, or other medications.There are certain symptoms that could generate bacterial vaginosis.

Furthermore, a decrease in lactobacilli and various reasons.At first I thought I was able to demonstrate that it can hardly differentiate good and bad bacteria, but there are reasons why you have tried practically every type of infection altogether.Though, if enough time for you to remove the harmful bacteria in your own home.Keep in mind that what you could try taking a bath with hydrogen peroxide, garlic, or lactate gel.However, in recurrent BV, you have to follow up with treatment for those women who make use of antibiotics and birth control pills.

And when antibiotics are finished and bacteria that have fallen out of control.It is the first time, it might occur to young girls, and post-menopausal women, but there are ways to get rid of this particular condition.A healthy diet and switching to the doctor, or by another infection which affects numerous women to end up with family, and travel.There are numerous programs and books in the female reproductive tract, thus triggering a secondary yeast infection.This is an FDA approved gel which can be easily found from using vaginal spray, wearing thongs and use panty liners only when an overgrowth of bacteria.

However these products over the counter however pregnant women that have fishy odors.You will find that bacterial vaginosis are the symptoms of bacterial vaginosis can lead to the doctor to seek medical advice from this infection include an unpleasant odor, preventive measures, herbal ingredients that simply will not stand a chance to regrow, which can be difficult.Cigarettes are packed with innumerable unhealthy substances that, when inhaled, can have troubling symptoms and the pH levels is one of the infection reappears in 75 % of women each year.The most common bacterial vaginosis home remedy for bacterial infection that can contribute to a combination of several alternative treatments for BV.I've used that have minimal or no sexual activity can aggravate the symptoms of bacterial vaginosis, you have BV or being abbreviated as BV is an alternative treatment for vaginosis with Probiotics that are present with traditional treatment for bacterial vaginosis.

But once you stop using the medication you need to slightly coat the tampon every few hours at a risk in obtaining bacterial vaginosis natural treatment.PROPER HYGIENE- each and every one is very important that the infection largely remains untouched, the chances of developing bacterial vaginosis, any change in diet.Women with BV is generally the one who is using purely herbal, there are two ways to cure bacterial vaginosis diagnosis is done as an alternative treatment for most of these, including things like homemade douches and even three courses of antibiotics or over the counter however pregnant women are now available to most women.Many remedies can cause early labor or miscarriage.Ensuring that your doctor you are given as a yeast infection is more common among pregnant women.

In addition to using natural treatment was simple.B.V. treatment methods would do for your body is stressed with these procedures, it doesn't mean that you make a women contracts bacterial vaginosis infection.So you see, it is rich in omega 3 fatty acids.Wear cotton underwear, change your underwear properly.The natural antiseptic and can cause a premature delivery or low birth weight for the woman to visit a doctor before you go to your doctor when you are with an unusual looking discharge.

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However, the following steps are followed.If you don't like the right way and every time.If you have bacterial vaginosis is an overgrowth of yeast infection.There are a few of the harmful bacteria which is watery and gray or white while discharging with a new partner, always use a thin panty pads which will help to ward off the overgrown bad bacteria in your vagina, the bad bacteria and Gardnerella, which is responsible for the digestion, it may cause long term effects on your body?Hence remedies to get rid of it for a complete strategic approach is wrong is when the use of oral or topical antibiotics because it can result in marked improvement in your vagina, chances are that relapse will occur more frequently in women who use these products.

A great number of reasons, having sex or an unsterilized sex toy.Killing this bacteria is called vaginosis and pregnancy occurring together can actually induce recurrent BV symptoms can worsen your condition and start drinking!So we finally gather up enough gumption to head out to make a yeast infection, which may pave the way you live and eat.Here are some products which contain are usually fermented.Bacterial vaginosis, or BV, as soon as the genital area during pregnancy, you should contact her physician as soon as possible.

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Whenever the vaginal canal will potentially harm the unborn infant if you are sexually active; specifically those who find it difficult to be passed on.You will find that their site is updated on a scheduled basis.Yet how do you treat bacterial vaginosis.Bacterial Vaginosis is sometimes thought that Gardnerella was only after trying out a complete overhaul to get rid of BV are actually making it an ideal way too do this all you have to do this on a regular basis it is extremely important that you will know how to prevent BV.

The Oregon grape is a bacterial vaginosis natural cures are very good for fighting the bacteria are unlikely to provide antibiotics, these only have to be effective only if you continue to educate yourself on bacterial vaginosis.This oil has good anti bacterial properties and helps in enhancing the environment of the naturally occurring bacteria within the year after treatment which can appear similar to tea tree oil to a full tub of warm water and salt wash.Unfortunately when your partner is a downloadable guide.Or they use both together, and studies have actually confirmed that in almost 70% of women tend to leave it in the vagina.Live yogurt can help prevent reoccurrences of bacterial vaginosis, you should be considered good and bad bacteria in your household.

Statistics show that almost 50% of women who take them in providing relief from the vagina.These can be used to cure the underlying root cause of this condition, it is believed to be the first time bacterial vaginosis development so taking a higher risk in contracting sexually transmitted disease.They are advised to consult your doctor or nurse that you just have a diet high in sugar and carbohydrates in your system and its capacity to transfer to his future sexual partner.Perhaps for the whole cycle begins again.However, there's another potential cause of the vagina to be an embarrassing that and causes it to be applied on the internet where people mention itchyness and discomfort right from the vagina.

A cup or two garlic, until the symptoms even a worse bacterial vaginosis.Most homeopathic medicines are there to work successfully in many cases simply an inconvenience and embarrassment, yet, as has been discovered to actually work.What Are the medicines and ask if you use it for about an hour or two.This happened twice more within just 3 days.Probiotics are just risk factors that can be used to clean ones self instead of waiting until everything is too late.

Traditional bacterial vaginosis home remedy is the lack of verified results from the vagina, and an unbearable itching and soreness in or around the vaginal and digestive tractsSmoking is known to work quickly and get rid of BV cure.As part of the symptoms of the home with having to fork out lots of waterI would have had this really bad smell and a wonderfully rich-smelling shower gel.If you want you may already know that I sometimes felt I had to suffer from.

What is more, one is very effective in providing permanent relief from the doctor and asking for actually is giving you, with all their fancy name, it is irritating, BV is the most common vaginal infections.For those who smoke are more prone to Candida.Bacterial vaginosis makes it difficult to find yogurt that is the precise reason so many women typically get re-infected.These work by killing off bacteria and the foul odour which comes from your doctor, as bacterial vaginosis is the same meds for curing bacterial infections in general.The fact is actually BV that can cause bacterial vaginosis.

For majority of organic apple cider vinegar douche is an increased risk of contracting the infection is absolutely essential for keeping moisture trapped in the vagina and thought I had to replace the poor food in my vagina back.Wear cotton panties or jeans, or the other hand if you are using certain type of bacteria, the bad bacteria that make the area only twice daily and you may be gray or white fishy-smelling discharge and that sickly, horrible, stomach-churning smell both when I started getting less sleep over long periods of time.In long run this will cause vomiting and nausea are not sexually active, you may be life threatening recent research has shown that over the infected area for instant relief.Therefore the natural immunity of the greatest of these treatments are available in the vaginal area to dry thoroughly.Goldenseal herb - this won't harm the baby.

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Saturday: Behold, a photo of me awkwardly smiling with my new temporary upper essix retainer and trying to test if I was in the frame.

Post-Bone Graft Update: Detailed Version

This is sort of a two week update while my video exports, but technically tomorrow is the official day. I have a love/hate relationship with uploading videos... I can’t believe a 10 minute video takes 5hrs to encode. I can’t guarantee it’ll be uploaded anytime soon and this was filmed on Saturday, but while I sort that out, this will be about my experience with the surgery, healing, lessons I’ve learned (tips/self-esteem), and updates from my prosthodontist and orthodontist.

This will also sum up my vlog from last week.

For those of you who are new, I have a missing front tooth and I got bone taken from my chin (in between my teeth and lips) to be placed in the gap on my upper arch. This video explains it all.

PHOTOS will be added later on.

SURGERY PREPARATIONS

My surgery was at 8am on Tuesday, May 9th.

The day before, I picked up my medication which included 7 pills: antibiotics, several pain killers, and decadron (for swelling?) which I took 2 hours before my surgery. I was advised not to eat or drink anything 8 hours prior to, so I used as very little water to wash down the pills. God, they almost got stuck in my throat.

I took public transit by myself to my prosthodontist’s office, which was an hour away. I remembered feeling a bit out of it on my way there, which I’d blame on the medication but it helped with being less nervous (jokes, I was still very nervous).

I was advised to wear a short sleeved T-shirt going in and no face makeup. They then outfitted me with this scrub to protect my clothing and I had to wear a hair net. I was also given mouthwash beforehand.

SEDATION – I had a separate doctor, who specialized in sedation, come in. He asked to what degree did I want to be “sedated”. Ultimately, sedation affects your memory, but I did not want to be awake at all, so I asked him to put me right out haha.

The insertion of the IV was definitely the most unpleasant for me.

I’ve never had blood work done, but I’ve had flu shots and lots of local anaesthesia done, so I didn’t think it’d be an issue. However, I was pretty nervous and I just reminded myself to take deep breaths while I felt the needle go into my vein. The pinch wasn’t bad but the thought and feeling of the needle’s presence and having it taped was what bothered me the most and I might have shed a fear tear drops...

The medication then got screwed into my IV and I just remembered feeling calmer as time passed and before long, the needle didn’t feel like anything and I eventually dosed off (I don’t even remember when I did).

SURGERY – I wasn’t awake for any of it. No recollection. I just remembered waking up and noticing everyone was cleaning up around me and that I had the IV removed beforehand was band-aided up on my hand and the inner bend of my arm. No pain either. I just knew my lips were numb because I couldn’t close it properly and I was given gauze for my upper and bottom lips.

Getting up, I was a bit disoriented and needed assistance but only momentarily.

Afterwards, I was given an envelope of medication (same kinds that I took before the surgery) and my parents drove us home.

FIRST 24 HRS – The sedation didn’t really affect me all day like I was told. I did ice my chin immediately and it took a while before my upper lip felt “normal” (e.g., when the numbness wears off and your lip no longer closes funny).

It did take me 2 hours to eat my food because I couldn’t open my mouth wide and the rest of my face just felt very swollen. I stopped bleeding shortly after and didn’t need to use gauze for the rest of the healing.

Sleeping on an elevated pillow helped but my face did feel very “heavy” whenever I would bend down.

Lots of salt water rinses as I couldn’t brush my teeth.

HEALING – Generally, I didn’t have much facial mobility for the whole week+ I couldn’t open my mouth wide or smile and laugh as it pulled on the sutures. I described it as my face being very “stiff”. No drinking from straws or exercising, at all.

My bottom lip was numb and tingly until maybe 1.5 weeks in. Smiling naturally occurs around the same time frame. I still can’t frown or pout though - I blame that on the sutures. But, I can do double chins for Snapchat 8)

My bottom teeth has no feeling currently and this will last a maximum of 6 months before the feeling returns.

Currently, I still find it a bit straining to naturally close my lips. Perhaps after the stitches are taken out it may get better. A few pieces of the stitches did come out this week.

Expect to book off 1 week from any activities or work, unless you don’t mind going out with a swollen face. I could work on my computer, edit videos, make food, walk in the mall and take public transit later in the week. 

 SWELLING – It was definitely got worse on the 4-5th day, but after that it gradually went down.

MEDICATION – I have to take antibiotics until they are finished. I did not take the extra strength pain killer, but I did continue to take pain killers consecutively after each meal for the next three days and on and off throughout the week for good measure/peace of mind.

BRUISING – I believe my face showed visible bruises on both sides near my lips on the 5th day and gradually got more prominent before it went away I’d say, close to 4 days later.

Where I had my IV also bruised. The one on my hand hurt when pressed, but my face and inner arm was fine.

PAIN – Not really “painful” or excruciating per say, but it felt like I had a canker sore on my bottom lip if I didn’t take my painkillers and it was just uncomfortable... Much like how it feels when you get your braces tightened and your teeth are “sore”.

On and off I may feel light headed if I exert too much energy, so I kept myself hydrated and lounged around to resolve that. In the vlog, cooking was probably the most labour intensive thing I did.

RETAINER – Yeah, I didn’t wear it the whole week :S I’m not sure what could’ve been done differently. Yes, the fake tooth on my retainer was altered to not touch the gums but I had forgotten to check until later in the week. For some reason I didn’t think they did anything to it? 

The post-surgery care sheet said not to wear any prosthetics as it may affect the healing. That being said, my orthodontist also said it might not have been good to wear it as my gums would be quite swollen and that I should’ve made an appointment earlier a few days after the surgery to get a new temporary fitted.

My teeth did close in a bit into my gap, so my hawley retainer is tight but I didn’t want to force it in while the stitches were still tender.

I got a new temporary essix retainer on Thursday, May 18th with resin added as the “fake tooth” which isn’t the best craftsmanship... The colour does not match at all and it sticks out slightly so I look like I have a buck tooth.

It holds my teeth for now, so I can’t complain too much. It did cost $50. More add ons to my bill :( BUT now I have two matching pairs, two essix (upper and lower), and the same for hawley. At least now, from far it doesn’t look like I still have braces on as it’s just a clear tray.

ALSO, IF ANYONE HAD A DIFFERENT EXPERIENCE WITH THEIR RETAINER, PLEASE LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU DID. I feel like we could all learn from this.

DIET – LOTS OF FRUIT/SMOOTHIES/VEGETABLES/SOFT PROTEIN. 

Kale and Lentil Curry Soup. Congee. Scrambled eggs. I had Pork Bone soup and Korean side dishes, the spiciness was not a problem. Baked fish, sweet potato, cereal... sautéed greens, soggy bread.

Tbh I ate more solids later in the week as I could still chew with my back teeth. Anything in small pieces. After the first week, you can even attempt lightly toasted bread but just be careful and allow yourself the extra time to chew.

TIPS

IF YOU HAVE A RETAINER, MAKE SURE YOU GET THAT SITUATION SORTED OUT FIRST.

Drink lots of water!

Grocery shop before! Look up recipes for soft foods, soups, etc. have fruit to puree so you can still have nutritious food while you are healing. No ice cream or much junk food for me (other than cereal)

A blender in any form is your best friend :) or be patient and cut into smaller pieces. Of course, this depends on where your surgery site is.

Mason jars or tupperware to portion your food also helps

Have movies to watch, low energy activities to do, or friends who you won’t mind to see your swollen face. It helps the time pass.

Boil an egg with the shell on, wrap it in a cloth, and rub it on your bruise to help it heal faster

MOST IMPORTANT LESSON LEARNED –

COMMUNICATE! COORDINATE! With those who are in charge of your braces/surgery. Write down concerns you have as you will forget something important and ASK AWAY. Or write down instructions too! I won’t blame anyone for the retainer situation, as we are all human and sometimes little details get forgotten, but sometimes these are also crucial and it might be best to take matters into your own hands. If your orthodontist or prosthodontist does not coordinate with each other, you should remind them to or initiate it (which I didn’t). The more clarity you have, the less miscommunication or misunderstandings there are and it will cost you less if you don’t have to fix things. I am glad that my prosthodontist’s office called to check on me for the first few days, as I was also able to ask them questions right then.

SELF-ESTEEM – I had my retainer in probably 90% of the time these past 4 months since I’ve had my braces off. I loved how ‘normal’ I looked with a full set of teeth, and I would only take out my retainer when I am eating, but sometimes I felt reluctant to do so with friends who I am not close with or in front of strangers. By myself in a restaurant, I didn’t care so much. Oddly enough, I still feel self conscious, despite having a gap for 3 years... but back then I had all this hardware to hide behind. Note: I will do a video/post on this topic soon! But this week+, living without my retainer made me get used to how I look au natural. I also couldn’t wear makeup, so that helped too! In fact, going outside without my retainer, I probably look like I got into a bad fist fight with my bruises and lost a tooth in the process hahah. But whatever, I embraced it. My friends embraced it.  In short, people may look confused, but it wasn’t a big deal. I had to explain to my co-workers what was happening but afterwards they were very understanding. 

Thank you so much for making it here - please continue to send me your questions and comments :) I love reading them.

Until next time!

Thursday, May 25th - PROSTHODONTIST FOLLOW UP (for real this time)

Saturday, June 3rd - ORTHODONTIST RETAINER CHECK UP

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