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#this is so cringe but ive given up on life i cant anymore
paintedwingz · 16 days
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mischas dating both noel and talia
talia and noel are not dating (because noel is gay, not mspec.)
but they do have mutual respect for eachother. for putting up with mischa.
mischa just loves his boyfriend who he occasionally finds in a dress and heels dancing around to his own song. and his fiancee who he occasionally finds crying to the song he wrote about her.
anyways ^_^
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Alright let's try this Soulmate body switch AU I'm also attempting this whole "make a tag" thing... bare with me, ive only actually used this app for like 4 days now im gonna go with "RayMakesSoulmates" for now... uhm, idk what else to go with uhhhhh yeah, names Ray btw...
Okay here we go. The idea of switching bodies is something a bit strange to me so let me make this work for me.
Basically it happens once a year after you either turn 17 or meet your soulmate. If its the latter then there has to be alot of turmoil and confusion on one side to trigger the first switch because it does not happen at the first encounter. However after the first encounter you'll sometimes have little blurry dreams that are in fact core memories of your soulmate. But theyre always too blurry to point out who's involved and sounds are too muffled to pin point any specific noises words or what have you.
Now, the dreams don't happen every night but they happen often enough that you are made aware that you have met your soulmate at some point recently.
So after Zuko visits the south and they begin their cat and mouse game around the world Zuko often has blurry dreams of white with black falling what he thinks is people screaming and what he knows is muffled crying. While Sokka has random dreams of what he thinks is someone moving away into the darkness and someone screaming out to them but he can't figure out what they're saying. Another dream he has is a blurry glow of bright blue and crying. There's also one that shows up more often than the other two, its when he sees what he believes is someone moving towards him saying something, but its muffled, then a bright light and muffled screaming and crying.
However after Ba Sing Se Sokka has a dream that's clear and vivid, not muffled and not blurry. After he takes a moment from shooting up to a sitting position he realizes that this is not a dream, he's switched bodies. Standing up and moving the blankets off of him he looks around and sees the there are fire nation items everywhere, it looks like he's in a royal bedroom. He elects to keep calm as he moves towards where he thinks is a bathroom, he is correct and when he looks into the mirror he freezes. His heart drops into his stomach. Sokka can hardly believe what he's looking at. Staring back at him is not his face, but Zuko's. He reaches up to touch the scar on Zuko's face. While yes he has control over his body and he doesn't exactly know how to act 'firenation' let alone 'fire nation royalty' he stands straight. "This won't last longer than 3 hours." He reminds himself
"What won't last longer than three hours?" Azula's voice breaks through
Instantly on edge and irritated Sokka- ahem Zuko turns to Azula "what do you want Azula?" He says in a voice thats much less irritated, theyre siblings right? So they have to be chummy right
"Oo! You sound so much less angry!" She muses "disgusting, anyways, Mai wanted me to let you know she's leaving today"
Why would he care about that? Oh they must be friends? Maybe they're dating? Okay, don't screw this up "uh, okay"
"Aw don't be so sad Zuzu~ you two would have never worked out anyways, her and Ty Lee switched bodies just three days ago. It was honestly was kind of amusing watching her string you along" This is not how siblings normally talk to eachother. He just glared at Azula "alright alright sheesh, ill leave you alone" he found something to write on and quickly jotted down the conversation because if he was given that information Zuko would need it.
Meanwhile Zuko shot awake and found himself lying next to appa Katara and Aang, so he is alive huh? Confused he figured he must be dreaming until he realized his vision was clear and nothing was muffled. He was below deck on a fire nation ship. He paused a moment before he stood and noticed Sokka's boomerang beside him. He lifed it and saw Sokka in the reflection. His reaction seemed to mirror(haha get it) Sokka's when he saw Zuko in the mirror. But he dropped the boomerang and it made a loud bang which woke the other two up "Sokka what are you doing, the sun is barely up"
He paused and cleared his throat. Okay, sure he's been chasing them he needs to not blow this "uh, sorry, nightmare"
Katara shifted and turned to him, a genuine look of worry in her eyes "do you want to talk about it?" She asked in a tone that reminded him of his mother. Genuine love.
He forced himself not to tear up at the memory and just shook his head "no, I honestly can't remember it. Just scared me is all" the hesitation in Katara's expression before she responded was strange to him
"Alright, if you say so, do you mind going and asking dad to change the course? We need to stop and get supplies"
His hesitation and expression probably made her realize what happened "okay, youre not Sokka right now are you?" He froze and nodded slowly "alright, you dont have to tell me who you are, but I'll help you through the motions, Aang and I switched back in Ba Sing Se, that was the day when you questioned why I said I'd fly around, er- or that was when Sokka questioned me" okay she was a little more accepting of this than he thought.
"Uhm, okay, yeah, right, uhm, I don't want to blow this so can you just uh show me around? I'm sure Sokka knows all the people he's- oh agni he's gonna meet my dad" zuko internally cringed.
In that moment it seemed to click with Katara "alright, so you're telling me your Zuko"
Zuko flinched and backed up against the wall "look I dont know what you want me to do about this, but I promise you that I'm not going to ruin anything, I know I messed up, hell Sokka's probably noticing that my family doesn't work like yours does. I've been so confused my whole life okay, I'm sorry I betrayed you in Ba Sing Se, my sister has a way of manipulating me. I just hope he doesn't get hurt, he probably doesn't know he needs to keep his mouth shut in my family." Zuko was panicking when Katara reached out
"Zuko, zuko what do you mean?" Her voice shaky
"Look I cant tell you everything, I cant tell you my life story not right now, I need to get through with this. If we meet again, which I hope we do, ill tell you then. But right now, please just show me what Sokka goes through day to day. I know he's not gonna like what happens on the other end, I just hope it doesn't go too bad."
Katara nodded "alright well. Let me walk you around and let you learn the peoples names, ill just say hi to them and say their names." She paused "but first, tell me about your mother, i dont know if I believe it anymore"
He sighed before telling her the entire story.
Meanwhile at the palace Sokka was sitting in a war meeting knowing to keep his mouth shut unless spoken to. He didnt want to set people off or let them know he wasn't actually Zuko. The topic of the earth kingdome came up and Ozai turned to him "Zuko, you've spent time among the Earth kingdom citizens. What information do you have?"
"Uh, the Earth kingdoms citizens are strong willed and hopeful, as long as they have hope they will not yeild"
"Hmmm, I see, we need to crush their hope"
"Well, thats not what I-"
"I think we should take their precious hope and burn it to the ground!" Azula cuts in
"Yes, yes good idea Azula" Oh no
About an hour after the meeting the switch flipped, Sokka made notes about everything that he found important in time before the switch was over.
After they switched back Sokka found his sister and grabbed her shoulders "Katara, I have to tell you something, I just got back from a body swit-"
"And your soulmate is Zuko? I know, he cried when I was nice to him, what happened on your end?"
"Well, his whole family is mean to him"
"Figured"
"I was in a war meeting and found out their plan for the comet"
After relaying the information he found they discussed it with Aang.
Let's skip ahead to after the failed invasion and to the air temple when Zuko shows up.
"Hello, Zuko here"
No fighting it in this one
"Get your jerk bender butt over here" Katara and Sokka said practically in unison.
>im gonna wrap it up here. And yes Katara would notice its not Sokka and would totally pick up on Zuko, she's observant
>and no Azula wouldn't notice at all because she's used to Zuko being stand offish with her. Plus Sokka is so much better at impersonations than Zuko
@chaoticidiott @roman-does-nothing @bisexuallsokka @transzukostanblog
I dont know if I did this AU justice, I tried.
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minminnie-shii · 4 years
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may I request an imagine of verivery dates: where each member would take, how they would treat you, and a whole lot of fluff too
A/N: I’m so sorry this took so long. I accidentally deleted it like twice and I kind of gave up for a while
buttt I’m back at it and ready to write this because these boys are my babies and their comeback has given me motivation
I hope you like itttttt
@multifandomhell23
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Lee Dongheon
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what a hard-working boy
he spends most of his days watching over his six children making sure they don’t accidentally kill themselves
especially Minchan and Yeonho
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whenever he has a day off he doesn’t hesitate to run and spend it with you
shows up at your apartment with your favorite snacks and special treats
the two of you run around grabbing all the blankets and pillows that you own
you make a large fort in the middle of your living room
once its done you both crawl inside
dongyeon opens up his laptop and puts on a cheesy movie for the two of you to watch
in the middle of the movie he starts to poke at your sides slightly
you ignore him until his poking turns into tickling
you giggle slightly and start to roll away from him
he would follow after you and the two of you would get caught in the blankets pulling down that fort
dongyeon would stop once the two of you were completely wrapped up in all the blankets
he would smile down at you and pepper light kisses all over your face
rubbing his nose against your he would finally kiss your lips gently
‘I love you’
after cleaning up the mess you made you would both decided to go to bed early
snuggling up together, dongyeon would tuck you safely under his chin
whispering to each other until he falls asleep
you carefully crane your head upwards pressing a soft kiss on his chin
you fall asleep to the peaceful sound of his breathing filling your ears
Bae Hoyoung 
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i may be in love with this squish
i wanna poke his dimple
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he loves doing outdoorsy things
going to the beach, amusement parks anything where the two of you can have fun at
he’s also the kind of person that will totally surprise you about going somewhere
he randomly shows up at you door
‘get dressed jagiya, we’re going out today’
you did as you were told and got dressed quickly
the two of you skipped through the streets happily
you couldn’t contain your excitement when you showed up at a festival
dragging him around you two would find many things to do
he would find a game that he really wanted to play
taking you over he would try many times to beat it so he could win you a cute plushie
after a few tries, he gave up with a pout
you smiled at him and played the game, winning on your try
you would hand him the llama plushie that you had one
‘wah, my jagiya is the best isn’t she?’
the two of you would walk around the festival until nightfall 
hoyoung would surprise you by handing you a lantern
‘shall we send one off with our wishes?’
‘you are my wish hoyoung’
he would cringe at how cheesy you were but tell you the same thing
after sending off your wish he would hug you tightly to him
‘you really are my wish jagiya, forever and always’
Hong Minchan
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minchan prefers more intimate style dates
the ones where it if just the two of you together
whether it’s the two of you lying on the couch together
or when you’re reading him a new book that you bought recently
but
his favorite type of date
is when the two of you are in his studio and he’s playing the piano for you
you expressed multiple times that you love it when you hear the sound of a piano
so anytime the two of you are in the studio together he makes sure to play for you at least once
he would motion for you over to sit next to him on the piano bench
you would stand up from the couch and walk over, sitting down next to him
he placed his hands delicately on the keys before playing a soft melody
it’s a melody that you knew all too well
your favorite ballad that he ever wrote
after all
he wrote it about you
about how he first fell in love with you and how he knew that you were the person he wants to be with forever
every time he would play for you, it would make you feel sleepy
your head rested on his shoulder as you continued to sing quietly
he would smile and look down at you as your eyes fluttered closed
his heart would burst at the sight of you
once he finished playing he would carefully shift so you was laying against his chest 
running his fingers through your hair softly 
he would hum quietly until you were finally fully asleep
he would carry you back to the couch and cover you up
letting you sleep until he was finished with his work
that was his favorite time with you
Jo Gyehyeon
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this boys only mission in life is to show off
especially to you
he loves it when you praise him for something
it doesn’t matter what it is
so where does he take you out on a date
a place to watch him perform his martial arts of course
you sit and gleefully watch as he does multiple flips and twists in the air
in an attempt to really show off to you he does a triple backflip
only for him to slip on his footing and fall on his butt
‘Ah, hyeonie are you okay?’ 
you run over to him to quickly check up on him 
he just lies there pouting with his arms across his chest
‘i can’t believe i did that’
you giggle and help him sit up
‘i can, you’re not exactly the most elegant one’
would pout even more because you made fun of him
he would whine and complain while rolling around on the floor
‘my jagiya made fun of me, my life cant go on anymore’
you would just watch amused as he continued to complain out loud
he wouldnt be paying attention to where he was rolling and would knock into your legs causing you to fall over 
would freak out because he accidentally hurt you
you would just laugh as he would run over to you 
‘jagiya, are you all right?’ 
you would grab his arm and pull him down so he was lying on top of you
holding him close you would stroke his hair and assure him that you were all right
‘youre the best, you know that right?’ 
would blush like crazy and hide his face in your neck
you would continue to compliment him until he couldn’t take it anymore
‘i’m only the best because you make me the best’
so much fluff and cheesiness between the two of you it’s unreal
Ju Yeonho
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this little squish
we are all aware that taking selfies is his life
so what does he do on a date with you?
takes you all around seoul so the two of you can take pictures together
it always surprises you that he always managed to find new places to take you to
but, he loved taking you the han river
he could take pictures of you in the sunset
though he always says that every picture he takes of you is pretty
he especially loved it when you take pictures of him
you always gush about how adorable he looks would cause him to smile even more
‘wah, you look amazing in this angle dont move’
would make you stand still for ten minutes until you convince him that he had enough pictures
he even takes pictures of you eating
‘yeonho, if you take one more picture of me, im throwing your phone in the river’
‘but you look so pretty, can i take one more?’
after you two were finished you would sit in the grass and just watched the stars
you would lie on his chest and point out all the constellations that you see
‘wah my jagiya is so smart, everyone must be so jealous’
while talking, you would eventually fall asleep cuddled to his chest
the second he knew you were sleeping, would pull out his phone and take another picture of you
‘delete it’
‘awe but it’s my favorite!’
Kim Yongseung
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so like
mr.competative over here
as soon as you make it to the dorm runs over to you holding to rubiks cubes
‘i bet you i can solve it faster than you’
‘bring it on’
you plop yourselves onto the couch and the boys all gather around you
‘ready? start!’ 
yongseung immediately starts working on it
his hands are flying as he expertly flips the sides
‘wow, noona’s really bad at this’
the boys would mutter about how much you suck causing you to be distracted
‘yah! how can i even try when you wont shut up?’ 
you stand up and throw the cube at minchan
‘it wasnt even me that said it!’
while youre all arguing yongseung stands up and slams the cube on the table
‘finished!’
you look at him in shock
‘that’s not fair, they distracted me!’ 
he just smiles and grabs your hand
‘oh well, time for my reward for winning’
drags you into his room and lays you on the bed
‘you did that on purpose, didn’t you?’
he would just laugh as he hovered over you
‘maybe a little’
kisses you all over your face and neck while holding you close to him
‘i’m sorry ive been so busy lately’ 
you lean your head up and press your lips to his in a way to tell him that its okay
‘never, will i blame you for missing a date because of this, youre doing what you love, and i love that it makes you happy’
you really are the greatest
a very long and well needed makeout session occurs after that
after all, he did win
Yoo Kangmin
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uwu
this little bean is so precious and must be protected at all costs
his favorite things in life
are soccer and you
so he loves taking you to the field behind your house and playing soccer with you
most of the time while playing you little siblings come and join along
kangmin loves playing with your siblings
especially your younger siblings
being an only child made it hard for him to have fun most of the time
but now that he has you, he’ll gladly to everything he can to keep you close
even if it means having your little brother cling to his leg every time he walks through the door of your house
would take all of you out to the field to start a game
‘jagiya, come be on my team’
‘no i want her on my team!’
you wink at kangmin before running over to your sister
picking her up and resting her on your hip
‘come on together we can beat Kangmin!’
‘wah, are you really going against me?’ 
‘yep, we can totally beat you’
the game begins and you all laugh as you all run around the field
you little brother went to kick the ball he slipped and fell
he began to cry and rub his face softly 
kangmin would be by his side before you were
‘ah, did you get hurt? are you all right?’
your brother would attempt to wink at you causing you to smile
you would steal the ball from kangmin and kick it down the field
‘you betrayed me? i dont know how to feel!’ 
kangmin would chase after you and wrap his arms around your waist lifting you into the air
‘you tricked my jagiya, thats not fair’
you shrugged your shoulders and looked back at him
‘alls fair in love and war’
‘is it now? ill be sure to use that later’
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wongpuppy · 5 years
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FATED, huang xuxi
↳ Rating lots of fluff + slight crack
↳ Pairing player!Xuxi x Y/N
↳ Word count 5k [ one-shot / soulmate!au ]
↳ Summary the red thread of fate was real after all, managing to make something out of nothing
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Red Thread of Fate: ancient Chinese mythology about the lunar matchmaking god Yuè Lâo tying a red thread around the ankles of destined lovers at the age of 21; regardless of place, time, or circumstances.
The DJ played hectic, bass heavy EDM tracks that contrasted drastically to the semi formal themed party. You down the red of the alcoholic contents in the red solo cup with a wide smile, turning to your best friend Ella.
“Thank you for forcing me to come! I’m having the time of my life!”
Stress has been your closest best friend lately, with all the exams and projects being thrown at you. So when Ella asked you to go out with her, you were definitely more than hesitant at first.
You throw your hands in the air and Ella smirks at you. “I told you you’d have a blast.”
The sea breeze flows through your hair when you close your eyes and throw your head back, appreciating the open decked yacht and everything this extravagant party had to offer. You were on some random yacht off the coast, still close enough to be able to see the city. The moon was completely full tonight, high and dominating the entire sky.
Your tipsy mind free from troubles and bad thoughts. You felt reborn the moment the time went past midnight.
The DJ announces that it was midnight and the crowd cheers heavily and you join, not really knowing why exactly the mass of people were going crazy.
“You never did tell me what club this is or event this was, you know.” You take another cup of beer from the bar and chug the whole thing down in one go.
Ella’s eyes widen at your question and she laughs nervously, sipping on the cup in her hands. “Funny story, Y/N.”
You motion for her to go along whilst nodding and dancing to the song the DJ played, not really focused on what she was saying.
“This isn’t a club or event.” She sighs and avoids your gaze. Eun says the next sentence quick and all in one breath, knowing exactly how you’re gonna take it. “Its Xuxi’s yacht, and he’s now officially 21!”
Your best friends throws her hands in the air as if to cheers, but you felt every ounce of alcohol fade once she mentions the younger boys name. Whether it was the tequila shots or just how much you hated him, your hearts been racing ever since Xuxi was brought into the conversation.
You knew you could never date a guy younger than you, even if it was just a few months younger like him.
“Are you fucking with me?” Your arms are immediately crossed against your chest as you stare at Ella with a narrow gaze.
Needless to say, Xuxi and your relationship was pretty worse for wear. You loathed him, his intensely cocky personality and ‘i’m richer and better than you’ attitude was a complete turn off. Everything about Huang Xuxi was a complete turn off.
“He invited us.” She shrugged. “You were having so much fun before I mentioned it was his party.”
Invited us? Give me a break. As far as you could tell, Xuxi hated you almost just as much as you hated him. He sneered at you whenever he saw you and even gave you the nickname Top Bitch. Which, to be honest, didn’t really sound all that bad to you.
“Exactly.” You sigh and feel a headache come out of nowhere, leaving you clutching your right temple. “I’m allergic to even the slightest mention of him, I just got a headache. I’ll be back, don’t think you’re in the green.”
You move past the crowd to get towards the bathroom, or anywhere that was at least somewhat quiet. Going inside the large living room, you walk towards a bathroom but when you knock and only hear explicit noises on the other side; you cringe and leave. So you go towards the main bedroom instead, walking in when no one answers your knock.
The empty and quiet room let you release a sigh in happiness, massaging your temples. Contemplating laying down on the large and inviting white bed, you go to the bathroom instead; only feeling your temples throb even more.
You wince as you walk towards and pull open the door to the bathroom only to jump back and shriek at the sight.
None other than Huang Xuxi was leaning against the sleek marble sink, clutching his forehead until he jumped at the sound of the door opening and a girly squeal. You watch him groan and wince before turning to you.
But, amazingly once you connect eyes, the throbbing pain is gone and all you feel is relief. Your shoulders relax, your head feels light, its like a wave of serenity flows all through your body. You couldn’t help but feel so at ease, its like you forgot who you were currently gawking at.
“Y/N?” Xuxi looks at you with dazed, confused eyes before looking you up and down, iris’ doubling size at the sight of your feet. “Oh my god.”
You quickly look down and you instantly get why, mouth falling open.
Your black minidress and strappy black heels allowed for a thin, glowing red thread to wrap and tie itself around your ankle. But it didn’t stop there, you watched in horror as it continued onto the bathrooms tilled floors and under Xuxi’s pants, presumably to tie around his ankle.
You swallow thickly. The string felt like nothing but Xuxi and you could definitely see it, the vibrant red surrounded by a bright white light.
“What the hell is going on? Did you do this? Is this some sort of joke?” You stare at the last visible end of the thread before it disappears under the tall, irritating boys pants. He sighs, still staring at your ankle and the ribbon with a disbelieving look.
“No, princess, its a stupid fairytale my dad used to tell me. Guess its fucking real, huh.” Xuxi squeezes his eyes shut and you’re stood there in the doorway between the bedroom and bathroom still in shook. “Red thread of fate, a Chinese myth about a string that ties around two fated lovers ankles. We’re... We’re soulmates.”
The two of you stare at each other with disbelief written all over your faces, before you burst into laughter. “Thats a joke right? You’re definitely messing with me.”
When Xuxi continues to stare at you with his wide brown eyes, your laughter soon fades when you realize his facial expression wasn’t changing at all. Your face falls and you quickly reach down to your ankle, trying to pull at the string. Your hand just goes through it, as if it was just a hologram.
Your jaw drops. “H-How?”
“I don’t know.” Xuxi replies, eyes watching your hand go through the thread, yet the thread followed your foot wherever it went. “This... This is so fucked up.”
You grumble and give up, sitting on the floor and careful not to flash that guy-your soulmate your undies. Crossing your arms across your chest, the both of your eyes set on the thread connecting the two of you. You swallow thickly when a thought comes to your mind.
“Why aren’t you calling me Top Bitch?”
Thats when you fully take notice that this whole hour consisted of a very different Xuxi, one that hasn’t called you any names or threw a comment at you. He hasn’t cursed at you, hasn’t given you any looks, this was definitely unusual for Xuxi. This Xuxi was full of big, brown eyes that seemed to be permanently dazed. His words were softer, almost as if Xuxi’s voice got gentler the second he turned 21.
Xuxi’s eyes whip to yours and they’re obviously wide. “Holy shit. I haven’t called you that.” He swallows thickly and quickly looks away from your gaze with pink on his cheeks. “I don’t feel like I want to anymore.”
For the first time in the whole three years you’ve known Xuxi, your heart flutters for a second. But that one second is so profound it leaves you clutching your chest and shaking your head slowly.
“What is going on with me?”
“You’re falling for me, Y/N.” Xuxi lightly smirks for the first time since the two of you locked eyes, which is very surprising. He sighs a second later and taps the sink. 
“Shut the fuck up.” You sneer at him and scrunch your face. “This is all my drunk mind and everything will wear off in an hour or two.”
Xuxi sits on the floor leaning against the sinks drawers. “Enjoying my party?” He’s sitting across from you and the end of his feet reach your knees where the ends of yours reach the middle of his calf. You take a quick inhale and look away.
“I guess. Then this crazy migraine came out of nowhere and now I’m here.”
“Same here. But its completely gone now.”
That definitely meant your headaches were connected. There was no way the both of you could get a headache at the same time then have it leave at the same time. 
The red thread. 
Your eyes narrow and you go to nudge his calf, but once your foot touches his leg, it was like adrenaline flew through your bodies, goosebumps instantly rising. And when you looked at the thread, it started to slowly loose its vibrancy. Your eyes widened.
“Xuxi, look, if we’re touching the string gets dimmer and fades really slowly. If I pull away it stops.” You show him and nod to yourself with a small grin. “So it should fade away the more we’re touching.”
When you look up at Xuxi, he looks as if he was daydreaming but looking directly at you. His lips were in a small side smile and eyes low. The way he managed to look at you pretty intimately made your cheeks pink. “I think that’s the first time you’ve said my name.”
“Thats definitely not true.” You scoff and can’t help but laugh under your breath. Xuxi’s grin widens just a little at the sight.
“Lets just say it was then.”
Your grin is unbearably wide and you couldn’t believe it, never once thinking Xuxi of all people would be making you blush. But then you remember that it was Xuxi and you clear your throat and rolled your eyes. “Please, Xuxi, how many other girls have you used that on?”
“If I’m being completely honest, a lot.” Xuxi twists the rings on his fingers and you scoff loudly. When you sit up to leave, he leans forward and lightly grasps the back of your calf and you let out an audible gasp.
It was crazy, it felt like butterflies that took a lot of steroids.
“But up until an hour ago, I’ve only been thinking about one girl and its only been you.” You’re standing up and you swallow thickly at the honesty in his voice and big, brown eyes. “Which is fucking insane because we’re supposed to hate each other... right?”
You run your hands through your hair and sigh. “Its this red string thing. But the feelings aren’t real, it’ll all fade, look.”
You point to your ankles and the slightly faded string but Xuxi keeps his eyes on you, swallowing thickly at your sentence.
“Don’t you... don’t you feel like this is something more?”
Your eyes snap back up to Xuxi’s and your throat goes dry. He immediately gets up and motions between the two of you. “I don’t know about you but I’ve never felt anything like this before and I’ve been in love, so, this is different.”
You narrow your eyes at him. Xuxi? In love? That was an idea you never would’ve connected. Yet, you couldn’t help but agree. Even if you’ve never really been in love, you’ve felt it and knowing exactly how much you hated Xuxi, whatever was still keeping you in the bathroom with him was powerful.
“Why us?” You sigh and squeeze your eyes shut. “I’m soulmates with a guy who sleeps with a different girl every night!”
“Hey.” Xuxi frowns and takes a few steps towards you. “Thats not true. You know I won’t do that to you, I’m not that type of guy in relationsh-“
This Xuxi was definitely one that you aren’t used to, seeing him in a completely different light. It was as if he really did care.
“I don’t know that you wouldn’t do that to me!” You point a finger to his chest and ignore the sparks that go off from the smallest contact. “And don’t talk about us in a relationship, take a few steps back.”
He rolls his eyes and holds his hands up, moving back and away from you. And even though you know you asked him to move back, you couldn’t help but feel a loss of comfort the more steps Xuxi took. You groan at the feeling.
“I need air.” You mutter, taking one last fleeting look across Xuxi and his big, wide eyes before walking out of the bathroom and bedroom, and out towards the empty front deck. The entire walk your eyes were focused on the red string around your ankle.
No one else seemed to notice the string, as it followed your ankle through the mass of people. When you got to the deck, you take a deep breath and sigh. The three years of unfortunate encounters with Xuxi and you could be compared to a cat and dog type of relationship. The two of you went at it back and forth, ever since you first met.
Three years ago
You and your friends were at some random dorm hall on campus, playing pool and chilling in the community game room. It was around 9:36pm on a Sunday so campus was almost empty, save for the guys playing pool casually next to you.
Not gonna lie, you noticed them the minute you walked in the room, talking to your roommate Ella. Especially the taller, blonde one. He was probably the most beautiful guy you’ve ever seen, with full lips and broad shoulders, he was definitely gonna be stuck in your head for a few days.
But when he caught you staring, he gave you a cocky smirk that had you rolling your eyes. If theres one thing you hated, it was a conceited guy who played girls with that exact smirk.
You’ve had too much experience and you were sure this wouldn’t add to it. In the corner of your eye you watch him and a couple of his friends walk over and you groan, nudging Ella. “They’re coming over.”
“Sheesh, blondies a looker. I caught you rolling your eyes when you saw him.” She sneaks a look at him and turns back to you with a satisfied grin.
“Not my type.” You cross your arms across your chest and boldly turn to watch him and his friends get closer. “He’s way to cocky for me, I feel it.”
“I like them confident.” Ella eyes you. “Can I go for him?”
“Go for it.” You shrug at her and turn back when the guy in question and his friends are in front of you and your friends.
“I don’t think we’ve seen any of you before.” The blonde guy keeps his gaze and smirk locked securely on you. “Do you live in the hall?”
“We live in Beacon across campus.” Even if Ella’s the one that spoke up and answered, Xuxi takes his time looking away from you to her. You scoff.
“Interesting.” He turns back to you with a cheeky grin. “I’m Xuxi.”
“My names Ella.” She holds out her hand towards him and he looks away from you with a little wink. You shake your head and turn to his friends instead. They seemed a lot calmer than Xuxi, the two boys now turned to you with warm grins.
“Hey, I’m Y/N.” You nod your head at them and they nod back. The one with light brown hair and a pretty smile answers first.
“My names Kun, I’m Xuxi’s roommate.”
“Sicheng, nice to meet you.” The boy with flawless features and light blonde hair replies.
“Nice to meet you guys too, both of you freshman?”
“No, Sicheng and I are sophomores. This is your first semester here?” Kun replies and you nod grinning at him.
“And you aren’t caught up by the force that is Huang Xuxi, impressive.” Sicheng smirks and you laugh a little, shrugging.
“Theres a lot more to a pretty face.” You look back over to Xuxi and where he stood with your friends a couple feet away. You turn back to them with a grin. “So what’re you guys’ majors?”
“Xuxi and I are both business majors.” Kun replies with a shrug. “I’m not really into it, more into editing and videography, which I do on the side.” 
“I’m a theatre major.” Theres a faint pink hue that spreads across Sicheng’s face until he shrugs it off. “My parents wouldn’t let me go to acting school so this is the closest thing to that.” 
You laugh loudly and shake your head at the two of them, already knowing you’re going to like them. “That’s really cool. I’m a bio major, but I might switch because it’s already getting hard and I don’t like that.” 
Kun visibly cringes while Sicheng shrugs. The lighter blonde boy smirks at you, nudging Kun. “He failed intro to bio twice in his freshman year, it was pretty sad.” 
You laugh again and when your eyes fleet across the room for a second, you catch Xuxi’s eyes. He turns back to you with another smirk.
“I don’t think I got your name.” Xuxi excuses himself from the girls before walking over to you without another word.
“It’s Y/N.” You give him an unimpressed look when he looks you up and down. He grins wolfishly.
“Thats a lovely name and, do I hear an accent?”
“Get her whole life story then her snapchat, bro, always works.” Kun scoffs and you grin at him. You pull out your phone towards Kun and Sicheng, away from Xuxi.
“Speaking of, can I get the both of yours?”
Both their eyes widen slightly before nodding and pulling out their phones and exchanging codes. Behind you, you can hear Ella and the girls hounding Xuxi for his snapchat and you release a sigh of relief.
Until Kun turns to the girls and asks for their usernames. Whilst Kun and Sicheng were getting the girls’ codes, it left you and yours truly free.
“So, Y/N,” Xuxi takes a few steps towards you, “my snapchats h-u-a-x-u-x-i.”
You raise a brow. “I don’t remember asking for it, do you?”
He looks confused for a second before his smirk grows. “You’re feisty, huh. Don’t worry, babe, I love a challenge.”
You scrunch your face in disgust, wondering how such pretty looks can be obscured by such a narrow personality. But before you could say anything, Ella’s voice calls Xuxi’s name and you sigh in relief.
“I’ll catch you in a bit, Y/N.” He winks at you while walking backwards and towards Ella. You wave with a fake smile before turning away with a roll of your eyes. You turn to Kun and Sicheng instead, enjoying their company much more than Xuxi’s.
Later that night you get a notification on your phone and its a request from none other than ‘huaxuxi’ himself. You nibble on your bottom lip for a few minutes before accepting it. And you already felt like you would regret this.
Xuxi: Kun spilled and told me your username :)
Y/N: tell kun i dont like him anymore
Xuxi: Does that mean you like me more?
Y/N: that would require me to like you in the first place :)
It only takes Xuxi a week before he realizes that you actually didn’t like him and decided that you thought of yourself too highly. From then came Top Bitch and the countless sneers and scoffs. 
And thats just how it was for the both of you, never any different.
You’re sitting in the cafeteria with the girls when some of the NCT boys walk by, making you roll your eyes and sink in your seat lower catching a glimpse of who was there. But instead of walking up to your table, Xuxi just walks by and doesn’t even say hi making you furrow your brows. 
“Did Xuxi just ignore me?” You mutter to Ella once he’s a good distance away. You keep looking at him sneakily behind her shoulder and when he catches your gaze, instead of smirk or wink, Xuxi glares at you. “Holy shit he just glared at me.” 
“Maybe he gave up, isn’t that what you wanted?” Ella replies, shrugging at you. 
“Yeah.” You say quietly, swallowing thickly when your throat goes a little dry. “Yeah, it is.”
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It isn’t until that moment that you realized you completely ditched Ella. You groan and quickly pull out your phone from the back of your tight, strapless dress. Texting her where you were, you at least knew she would still be on the boat.
You put away your phone and sigh, leaning against the yacht railing and watching the moonlight play against the water, the full moon still bright and powerful. The cities colorful and lit skyline looks almost animated and magical.
“I’ve been looking everywhere for you!”
You turn your head to the sound of your best friends voice, Ella walking towards you with narrowed eyes. You sigh and shake your head.
“You wouldn’t believe what I went through.”
Ella raises a brow at you once she’s beside you. “Oh? Do tell.”
You nibble on your bottom lip and realize you didn’t even know where to begin. How do you tell someone that a magical, mythical Chinese fable about soulmates happened to you?
“Remember three years ago when we met Xuxi?”
Ella’s eyes get a bit widened, noticing the way you say his name without cringing. She nods and motions for you to go on.
“Why didn’t you ever go for him?”
“Oh, honey,” she sighs and rolls her eyes, “I tried. He was just too... preoccupied, I guess.”
“Preoccupied?” You furrow your brows and turn back to the view.
“Y/N, he was like hooked on you the minute he saw you. Theres no way you didn’t notice.”
You sigh loudly and face her with a stressed look.
“Do you see anything tied around my ankle?”
Ella gives you a funny look before looking down and confusedly on your ankle. “No? It’s too dark, here let me put flash on.”
You look down at the still half vibrant red thread that stood out in the darkness with a sigh. “Never mind, it’s okay.”
“Are you okay, Y/N?” Your best friend gives you a worried look, never seeing you like this before.
Your chin wobbles and you close your eyes. “Xuxi and I, we’re soulmates.”
Ella stares at you, waiting for you to shout ‘JK’ or to laugh it off. But your straight face doesn’t falter, making your best friends eyes widen.
“How do you know? Xuxi? Soulmates?”
Your eyes pull open and you sigh at her. “Its hard to explain but yeah it’s true.”
“Is it true to you though?”
You look at Ella’s face and hesitates before nodding a little. Now that you were apart from Xuxi, your mind was clear but there was an obvious divide. When you were with him there was electricity in the air, sparks flying from the slightest look. It felt like something else completely being around him, it felt nice. Inviting.
“Yeah, Ella, I do.”
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Xuxi collapses on his bed with a loud sigh, already feeling his headache coming back. He knew you were walking further and further, spending three minutes earlier just watching the red thread twist and turn.
Theres no time for him to be alone with his thoughts as his best friend Sicheng walks in a few seconds later. “Xuxi, bro, why are you still in here? The parties outside!”
Xuxi sits up on his bed and rubs his hands over his face. “Have your parents told you about that myth about the red thread of fate? About the soulmates?”
Sicheng furrows his brows and gets up from his place where he was leaning against a desk table. His confused face was obvious, Xuxi never being the one to talk anything about love, feelings, or soulmates. “Yeah, why?”
“Its true, bro.” Xuxi sighs and avoids Sicheng’s eyes, focusing on the floor. “Y/N and I...”
Sicheng’s eyes snap down to the exact placement of the thread and he comes closer. “I don’t see anything, Xux.”
“Obviously.” The taller boy motions for the vibrant red string. “But Y/N and I definitely do.”
“No fucking way.” The other Chinese guy shakes his head staring at Xuxi’s ankle. Until a smirk blooms on his face. “Y/N, though? I’m not surprised.”
“Right?!” Xuxi groans and stops, realizing Sicheng said the complete opposite of what he thought the guy would say. “Wait, what do you mean? We hated each other.”
“In the whole three years we’ve known each other, Y/N’s the only girl thats been consistently in your life that isn’t family.” Sicheng shrugs and continues to smirk at the boy sitting on the bed. “Which is insane because, you know, it’s you. And I am now 30 dollars richer thanks to you and Mr. Kun.”
Xuxi completely skips over the second sentence once Sicheng finishes talking, turning to the boy with wide eyes and an incredulous look. “The both of you bet on Y/N and me?!”
“To date, yeah, but this whole fate thing is basically the same thing, right?” Sicheng laughs loudly and winks at Xuxi. “I’m joking, man. But, knowing Y/N, she isn’t too happy with this?”
“That’s an understatement. She’s outside getting air.” Xuxi lays back down with a groan. “When it went past midnight, its like my feelings towards Y/N flipped. I feel so different towards her, like, I don’t mind this whole... situation, you know? The whole soulmates thing?”
“Then what the fuck are you doing here?” Sicheng claps loudly, instantly pulling him out of his reverie and forces Xuxi on his feet. “Go and tell her that!”
“Are you sure?” Xuxi gives him a small look, not really knowing what to do in this position at all. He was used to girls but you were something completely different, not like any girl he’s ever dealt with. The last thing Xuxi wanted to do was piss you off, knowing how heated you would get. 
“One hundred percent.” The shorter boy shrugs with a smirk. “When am I ever wrong, Xux? Now, go!”
Xuxi hurriedly runs out of the bedroom without a second thought, racing to find you. It was clear as day in his mind now, Xuxi realized that all these years of detesting you was nothing but a hoax, because if you were ever somehow out of his life; Xuxi wouldn’t know what to do. 
He doesn’t stop to wink or talk to girls, only thanking and waving at the people who told him happy birthday. Xuxi was a man on a mission, racing through his yacht to get you.
“Y/N.” He gets to the front deck and slows his steps when you aren’t alone. Your best friend, Ella, he recognized, stood beside you with dear in headlights eyes. “Oh, shit, sorry, I thought you were alone.”
“Oh! Its okay, I was just asking about rides back home.” Ella laughs nervously, nudging you low key. “I’ll see you in a bit, okay?”
You nod and watch your best friend leave, not without throwing you a thumbs up and wink before she was gone. When its just you and Xuxi, the electricity is back and the headache is gone.
“Your headache stopped too?” You ask him and he nods at first before he realizes what you asked and Xuxi’s eyes widened.
“How did you know my head hurt?”
You shrug and the corner of your lips pull up. “Soulmate thing.”
Xuxi’s eyes focus on your smile for a second longer then bubbling laughter flows out of him. He takes some steps closer to you, reaching forward to hold your hand. Theres the feeling of pop rocks the second your hands touch and its addictive.
“The feelings aren’t fake or gonna fade in a day or two.” Xuxi clears his throat and blushes a little, the tops of his ears turning red. “They’ve always been there. This whole string thing just made me realize it.” 
The moonlight, colorful city lights, and fairy lights decked throughout the yacht made this moment so magical, for the first time that night, you fully believed in the old Chinese wise tale. 
“You piss me off a lot but I don’t know what I’d do without it.” You say with a shrug, smirking not long after. Xuxi chuckles and bites down on his lip, looking down at you.
“Are you willing to give it a shot, Y/N?”
You sigh and playfully roll your eyes, standing closer to him. “I guess I will, Xuxi.”
The red thread between the two of you dissolves almost all together the longer the two of you keep smiling at each other. Seconds later, fireworks go off in the backdrop and scares you, making you shriek and jump. Xuxi laughs loudly and holds you against his chest, watching the colorful lights in the sky.
“I forgot the fireworks went off at 2am.”
“Why 2 in the morning?” You laugh loudly, unable to stop yourself from clutching onto his chest to get closer. The warmth Xuxi gave off was so inviting.
“So people don’t forget it’s my birthday.” Xuxi smirks to himself, obviously proud of himself. You roll your eyes but laugh none the less.
“You’re unbelievable, Xuxi.”
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zombieseamonster · 5 years
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tagged by @ladyghostbird (thank you sm!!)
1. how tall are you? 5′6 
2. what color and style is your hair? brown, longish?? 
3. what color are your eyes? brown/technically hazel i guess, but the green is v dule so its not particularly noticeable  
4. do you wear glasses? i should but i lost them
5. do you wear braces? used to, my teeth arent really straight anymore tho cos my wisdom teeth are trying to kill me
6. what is your fashion style? lazy and tired
7. full name? katherine no middle name american university 
8. when were you born? ‘92 baby
9. where are you from and where do you live now? i honestly dont know how to answer where im from honestly? i was born in japan but my parents are british and australian and i live in melbourne
10. what school do you go to? hell(uni)
11. what kind of student are you? metal health is killing me and im honestly begging for death
12. do you like school? pls kill me
13. what are your favorite school subjects?
at hs i loved history, lit and art! 
14. favorite TV shows?
pushing daisies maybe? 
15. favorite movies?
im gonna say spiderverse cos it was my favourite movie ive seen recently and my brain is dead so i cant think of another movie off my head(and it is mayhaps the best movie ever made) 
16. favorite books? god took away my ability to read in 2011
17. favorite pastime? special interest time, whatever that means at any given moment, art
18. do you have any regrets? kinda/ kinda not, sometimes i remember something dumb i did and cringe until i die or statements that hurt someone else’s feeling which i do seriously regret, but most big life decisions, i made what i thought was the best choice at the time, so even if looking back i can see it was a bad or awful decision, i didnt have that information at the time and i can’t really blame past!me for making bad choices based on bad information  
19. dream job? being the cat that lives in the independent cinema near my house
20. would you like to get married someday? girls pls hit me up
21. would you like to have kids someday? idk
23. do you like shopping? kinda, its pretty wrapped in guilt tho :////
24. what countries have you visited? japan, china, italy, new zealand 
25. what’s the scariest nightmare you’ve ever had? giant spider horseshoe crap hybrid beach boardwalk   
26. do you have any enemies? idk if they’d use that word but defs a could of people who’d think i seriously wronged them
27. do you have an s/o?
Nope.
28. do you believe in miracles? hm idk not personally, i really dont believe in anything i dont have strong evidence for, but like i donno how to explain this properly but i feel like that just because somethings not a miracle for me doesnt mean its not for someone else you know? (if that makes sense??)
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colombianreina · 6 years
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I thought I have already gone through the worst period of depression during my teen years but this time it’s unbearable. The terrible part is that now I’m finally going through therapy and medical treatment by taking anti-anxiety medication. Zoloft blocks the anxiety and the panic attacks so well that I don’t care enough to freak out anymore. This is also bad since I stopped going to work a few weeks ago and I stopped wanting to continue school. I stopped feeling love and wanting intimacy. The thought of any type of intimacy or passion is revolting to me. It makes me cringe like I don’t want to be touched. I get irritated and angry so easily. I get annoyed and lash out too. I have this inner willingness to either kill myself and end it completely or drop my current life and relationships and disappear. The worst part is that I cant do either because it will affect others around me. I have always wanted to kill myself even now since the anti anxiety medication isn’t doing anything with the depression. I got new pills to help the depression but it can put me at risk of a seizure. Part of me wants to take it already to get rid of this feeling and part of me doesn’t want to because of how lazy this medication makes me. Another part wants me to take it and use it to put me at a risk of a seizure. I know it sounds sick but if I have a weapon or a way to get to damage myself to the point that I cant function in life and I could eventually not have any memory of this life, then I would do it. I kinda wish I never started treatment because the anxiety made me do things. It made me do school and work regardless of the panic attacks. They were hell but I still did them. Now the anxiety isn’t there I don’t care enough to put myself in the position to try anymore, since my depression is so heightened. Lately Ive been missing my past self. I miss how confident I was and how interesting I was. I was still mentally ill but I still smiled and laughed and had good times. I want to start over and do the things I desire to do which is to go to university in France, to be a flight attendant, to work at a travel agency, to learn languages again, to create music, to love learning again, to want to be curious and excited for life again. But I cant do that unless I give up the few friends I have and my boyfriend. I dont want to have to choose but Ive been given a choice to pick one or the other. And it makes me miserable. 
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