I’ve gathered some resources and tips and tricks on self-educating after educational neglect. This is only what I did and what I know helped me. I’m about to graduate college with honors after having no education past the age of 9. I wouldn’t be here without the following. Everything is free, and at/well above the standard for education in the US.
The holy grail: Khan Academy. Nearly every course you could take is available here, in order and by grade level. Their open-source free courses rival some of the college classes I’ve taken. This is your most solid resource.
For inattentive types: Crash Course offers a variety of courses that are snappy, entertaining, and extremely rewarding. They work for my ADHD brain. They also have college prep advice, which is essential if you’re looking to go to higher education with no classroom experience.
To catch up on your reading: There are certain books that you may have read had you gone to school that you’ve missed out on. This list is the most well-rounded and can fill you in on both children’s books and classic novels that are essential or at least extremely helpful to be familiar with. You can find a majority of these easily at a local library (and some for free in PDF form online low key). There are a few higher level classics in here that I’d highly recommend. If it doesn’t work for you, I’d always recommend asking your local librarian.
*BE AWARE* The book list I recommend suggests you read Harry Potter books, and given their transphobic author you may or may not want to read them. If you choose to, I’d highly recommend buying the books secondhand or borrowing from a library to avoid financially supporting a living author with dangerous and damaging views.
TEST, TEST, TEST: Again, Khan Academy is your go-to for this. I don’t personally like standardized testing, but going through SAT and ACT courses was the best way I found to really reveal my gaps so that I could supplement.
Finally: As much as you can, enjoy the process. Education can be thrilling and teach you so much about yourself, and help shape your view of the world. It can get frustrating, but I’d like to encourage you that everyone can learn. No pace is the perfect pace, and your learning style is the right learning style for you. In teaching yourself, be patient, be kind, and indulge in the subjects you really enjoy without neglecting others. You are your teacher. Give yourself what others chose not to.
i’ve read so much tradcath bullshit the last two years. i can confidently say tradcath men fit into one of two categories:
“protestant-raised and converted to catholicism because of his crippling porn addiction and racist tendencies. reposts crusader and conquistador memes. is hated in his local parish.” tradcath
“catholic-raised band kid who ate his lunches with the religion teacher. smells like mildew. cut off all his friends that came out as gay after high school. now larps as an aquinian scholar and cries after jerking off.” tradcath
I'm sorry. I know that it likely doesn't amount to much in the grand scheme of things, but I am truly, truly sorry.
I liked to brag about my son, my little champion, but in truth, I know I was a shit dad... I wasn't there for you when you needed me to be. I can not emphasize enough how sorry I am.
I'd say "Well, running a nation was hard" but that's really no excuse... I should have put you first. I was selfish, and I have so many regrets.
Looking back now, I see that I missed so many priceless opportunities. I missed watching you grow up... and, as if that wasn't bad enough, every time I looked at you back then, I still saw that little kid who I rocked to sleep at night...
I guess that's why they say hindsight 20/20, huh?
Despite my own self-deceit, you had already grown up, but when you tried to tell me that, I would never listen. I didn't take you seriously, I'm sorry.
I'd like to say something like "I didn't know how to be a dad" and while that was true, really nobody does their first time, it's no excuse. I should have been better.
I'd raised Tommy, but it's different to raise your own son. Either way, you deserved so much better than what I managed to provide...
I failed in so many ways. To go into each one would take forever... I'm sorry, Fundy. I'm sorry I failed as your father, I'm sorry I failed as your president, and I'm sorry for dying... In all honesty, sometimes I still wonder how things might’ve been different if I'd lived... if you and I had walked away together... if I tried harder to be your dad.
I'm sorry that I left you with a lack of attention and care. I'm sorry that you spent so long seeking that love from others when I should have given it to you without question. I'm sorry I paid more attention to Tommy and Tubbo and Niki and all of L'Manburg... I know I should have given you more, and I only wish I could go back and fix it.
I hope that your father in this life treated you better. I hope he made it crystal clear that you were his whole life! I hope he cherished you and loved you with his entire being!
And, if he didn't, I want you to know that it was never because of you. You are perfect just how you are. You are worthy of genuine and unconditional love.
I wish you love, I wish you stability, I wish you support, and I want you to know that even after my failures, my arms are open. I will always love you, son, even if I have a hard time saying or showing it... I'm sorry, and I am here.
the concept of the dream smp is completely mad like are we sure that wasn't a two year collective fever dream. a bunch of the biggest streamers in the m'necraft sphere on a server where it took one afternoon of breaking bad references to kick-start a two year sprawling in-game roleplay involving geo-political tensions, nations, one of the most accurate depictions of abuse in anything, necromancy, possession, a giant red egg, ghosts, a live suicide attempt and coming to terms with how sh't your dad was. all streamed on youtube and twitch. peak viewership on a single day was like 1.4 million people, involving some of the biggest names in the online gaming sphere, mr beast would log on every now and again and stop everyone role-playing to hunt for a bunch of gift cards that never got used, they were all gay all of the time for some reason, lil nas x logged on one time and built a tree house?? are we sure that was real like sure there were plenty of news articles on it for some reason but are we all totally sure that happened