#wish it happened different

[nefarious-616-necromancer]

#amanda #beautiful girl #beautiful face #beautiful woman #beautiful soul #beautiful human #beautiful spirit #beautiful energy #beautiful life together #really gonna miss her #wish it happened different #6 years #hard times #so sorry #why did it happen #love of my life #struggling to breathe #anxiety attacks #numb the pain #see you when i come down #mental health #personally disorders #hate is all now #fairytale #never had a friend like me #this is pointless #so much pain #in the dark #people change #rcmp

[willyhoos]

the mikes.. the michaels, even...

#fnaf #fnaf movie #mike schmidt #michael afton #michael schmidt #does any1 call him that.. besides william lol #i like the hc that game!mike is freaky tall like his dear old dad #so movie mike being a certified shorty is soooo <3 appreciated. #i really appreciate that movie mike is #like. sane. #hes disturbed definitely but he is still Trying to live functionally hes just. struggling to succeed in that regard #game mike? not a chance. hes an identity-hopping arsonist #i guess thats the difference elizabeth (abby) makes. #if game mike had somehow managed to save elizabeth #maybe he would have turned out ok #movie mike shows us what would have happened if michael DID actually have something to live for #game mike has nothing at all no one . no desires no family no friends nothing. just a death wish and a lot of regret. #btw movie mike is michael afton .. in the sense that he is the movie-adapted versoin of michael afton. #they have different stories obviously but they are INTENDED to be the same person #gnerally that is #i mean. lil sis. responsible for lil bros death. the weird offputting rude pushy personality. #so ill take it as proof that in the games mike=michael #OK I GOT OFF TRACK UM SORRY #now ill never get over how game mike and vanessa never met. #i mean theres the glammike theory but. that is an extremely altered version of mike who arguably isnt awake hes possessing a robot. hes Dea #but according to the movie... they woulda gotten along. #brings a tear to me old eye #my nyart #i miss queue #ah yes.. 4:34 am again garfie baby

[icewindandboringhorror]

I know this is just a silly bad quality random screencap of a screencap that I found on facebook lol, BUT it's a succinct enough image to easily describe the concept in a quick/accessible way hopefully :

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(and of course, feel free to elaborate in tags, etc.! (especially elaborating about other senses as well.. can you "hear" in your mind just as well as you can "see"? taste? etc.) It's an interesting topic to me, as someone who's like a 4.5 at MOST lol. I'm curious what option will be the most common :0c )

#tumblr polls #hrmm... a little poll perhaps.. about a subject I find interesting.. since this image came across my facebook today #still really not feeling that well. no longer shaking violently and such but I still feel weird and weak much more than usual #They did say my markers for like infection or inflammation were elevated but that they werent sure of the cause so hopefully #it's nothing too serious. they did also say a lot of different things can cause that thing to be higher than normal but didn't go into spec #fics of what. maybe some of them are relatively benign or something. I still havent felt much back to normal since #I got really sick that one time though. I feel fine on and off but then little bouts of feeling weird and sick happen. hrmmm #ANYWAY.. looking for small ways to be productive. such as little doodles on evil ipad or editing game videos #or posting polls or cat pictures or some other like not very labor intensive things #I WISH I COULD FOCUS on writing HHRGGhh... I need to finish my game.. it would be so freeing.. a project that's been looming #over my head for like 5 years even though througouht that 5yrs I've probably spent a total of 3 months working on it lo.. ANYWAY #I still partially really cannot beleive that people CAN see stuff in their heads. There's always part of me that's thinking like. well mayb #e everyone DOES see the same exact thing but we just describe/conceptualize it so differently that we think we're talking about #different things when we're really not. But I have been assured by people I've talked to about it that they can GENUINELY really see #stuff in their heads like as vivid as an actual picture in real life or something. And the other senses are neat too. Like for exmaple I #can hear in my head much better than I can see imagery. I still CANNOT hear vividly like as if I were listening to actual music out loud.. #but I think it's developed more than my sight. AND interesting how this varies the creative process. a friend I was talking to on the phone #said they write by literally just watching stuff play before them like a movie. where my process is COMPLETELY different. AND that affects #the content/what details we focus on as well as our individual styles of writing have differences that can be traced back to that.. hrmm

[twst-mer]

#hirasaka yuuka #mito yuuta #twst #twisted wonderland #book 2 manga #book 3 manga #i love the way yuuka is a judoka #how yuuka specializes in judo throws--and how that might even be a reference to the way simba throws scar #how part of the philosophy is about overcoming even significantly bigger opponents #how concept art literally says yuuka can lift jack with ease #speaking of jack--i love the way yuuta interacts with jack #laughs and gentle arm touches #how yuuta likely had to deal with a lot of different types in a restaurant and probably reads people like a book #tsundere expert #i wish yuuta wasnt treated so much as a gag character #if my read is right--jack & leona never criticize based on body at least #but a lot of things are gonna happen and could change in book 3 with savanaclaw so im both afraid and hyped #skipping school with jack #giving jack pointers while they work together in mostro lounge #JACK BRINGING YUUTA & GRIM TO SAVANACLAW AFTER THEY GO HOMELESS...SLEEPOVER WITH LEONa... #screaming all night with grim for leona to help them because its all or nothing on their last day in savanaclaw #leona eventually helping out and saying Sorry Azul. You're just not quite as dastardly a villain as Yuuta is. #pls #they bring out the essence of the dorms and foil the overblotters so well!! fave official yuu designs hands down

[cannibaltranssexual]

DON'T YOU REALIZE OUR BODYS COULD FALL APART AT ANY SECOND?

#have a doodle #hannibal #nbc hannibal #hannibal fanart #art #my art #<- new tag !! #csh #bodys #this is like half shitpost half serious mostly just car seat headrest on loop at 3am insanity #was planning for that other will painting to be my first art posted on here but then twin fantasy happened. sorry #also this is like the second digital drawing ive ever finished i only spent like 2-3 hours on it the last one took like a week #mostly just traced from screencaps in case u couldnt tell by my absolutely atrocious clothing creases i have no clue what im doing #i kinda wish id picked a different scene for the first one . but i rlly wanted to go 1x01-3x13 yknow #anyways enough rambling gn little gay ppl in my phone

[littlespoonevan]

nicholas galitzine's filmography is really just like 'i refuse to be typecast unless i get to play nobility and/or kiss a man' and you know what good for him

#on the one hand his roles are so vastly different but on the other......i'm sensing a theme skdjfha #wish his two biggest projects of the year hadn't come out during the strikes #(or y'know that the strikes didn't have to happen at all) #so he could've done some of those superlong podcast interviews i need to study him like a bug #nicholas galitzine #mine

[intostarlight]

#naceweek 2023 | the colors of love

#naceweek #nace #nancydrewedit #naceedit #nancy x ace #nancy drew #gifs* #mine* #i wish this was happening a different week when i wasn't so busy #i would make more but here's this at least!

[echofades]

You’re fine. No, you’re fine. - DEAD TO ME | 3.05 | We Didn’t Think This Through

#dead to me #deadtomeedit #judy x michelle #wlwgif #wlwsource #judy hale #michelle gutierrez #dead to me spoilers #photoset #they're so soft :(( #and they deserved more #I mean I get it they were on different paths and the end was always just going to be jen and judy #but I wish we'd seen michelle finding out what happened at the end or something #idk instead of her just disappearing and never being mentioned again #anyway they have no right being this sweet and I'm glad they had this

[hotcinnamonsunset]

rabbit heart (raise it up) but make it fashion❣️🐇

#knitting #knitblr #wip #florence and the machine #pattern is called lion hearted on ravelry❣️ #if you thought I used up all my sweater symbolism designing Melville. well. I’ve got news for you. #(this gal was an english and lit class suck up. the symbolism never stops.) #admittedly it’s a bit heavy handed and on the nose. alas. but the designs just hit better that way! #the raglan shaping is meant to replicate an EKG with heartbeats. the notion of wearing your heart on your sleeve…and the song being about #a rabbit hearted girl. hence. rabbits and hearts on the cuffs. #the most vulnerable part of these lyrics (i wish that i could just be brave) on the most vulnerable part of the sweater (the back) #(because anyone can see it but you don’t realize who’s looking and reading your deepest desires) #anyways. I wanted to knit a lot of words in different fonts and sizes and I listened to florence on repeat and this happened.

[einaudis]

ALL OF US STRANGERS (2023) dir. ANDREW HAIGH

#filmedit #filmgifs #movieedit #moviegifs #All of Us Strangers #aousedit #filmtvdaily #filmtvcentral #cinemapix #fyeahmovies #dailyflicks #mine* #mygifs #movies* #I can't believe this is done. and you won't believe how long it took me to make it. insane... because it's just a scene #I didn't even use different fonts. or a cool template. or transitions... it was a single scene... but look... I made captures for 10 gifs #and things kept happening and I kept finding little gestures and beautiful things and I just couldn't keep them out the gifs #I mean look at Harry and that slow realization. please look at the glow around his shoulders at the beginning #and how ethereal and out of this world he already is AND THEN when Adam says 'I found you' he becomes more... real and present! #and those eyes and the intensity of that 'you're here' and their eyes and faces and smiles and how Harry's desperate but Adam calms him dow #and his voice when he asks 'how come no one found me?' the realization that people didn't care to check on him. it screamed to my soul #I haven't stopped thinking about that scene since the moment I first watched it #honestly... I wish I could live in this scene forever #now this is a super long post and I know it won't get many notes and it was surely made before... but I needed to make this for myself... #so here it is :) I'm tired but I love it #GOD the way Harry goes full baby when Adam caresses his cheek and he SMILES LIKE THAT! AHHHHHHH! #*runs down the hill screaming*

[scamoosh]

theyre not as close as they used 2 b :/

#omori #omori game #aubrey omori #basil omori #my art #obv gladiolus 4 auby #red asters 4 bas bc they mean 'i wish things had happened differently' #this isnt a ship post btw

[achillean-knight]

I don't really like the perspective and outcome of this, but I kinda do??? it also might grow on me eventually KJHJGHSD so I'm uploading anyways!

#MELINOE TIME #It was bound to happen #Hades in general has clutched my brain since I got covid in mid 2022 #now that Hades 2 has released it has MEGA amplified the hyperfixation #though I cant play it and am waiting for a playthrough from a specific youtuber that will take a while #I'm happy nonetheless to see others obsessing over it on Tumblr and other platforms #idc if I get spoiled for character designs I did that for Hades 1 LMAOOOOOOO #ANYWAYS YEAH I HOPE YOU LIKE THIS! #Its meh in my opinion I wish I could do other things differently #*cough the perspective cough* #I hate the pose I did the neck thing ended up so warped #BUT I am happy with the ghost arm atleast! #THE EYES TOO OHHH THE EYES I WANNA DO MORE OF EEEE #ANYWHO #melinoe #melinoë #hades #hades game #hades 2 #supergiant games #hades supergiant #my art #fanart

[cat-downthestreet]

hey, listen! this is a rant post about neurodivergent characters in Genshin and my frustration with the fandom's reading comprehension skills. if you're in a bad place or just don't like angry rants, please don't force yourself and go read something else instead. <3

Okay, so, I watched this video recently, and let's just say, I have some thoughts.

https://youtu.be/tYK3297p4rk?si=eMaf8NF57HFlUhfd

This isn't just a Xiao problem- the entire fandom is terrible at characterization. The example that makes me the most angry is the mischaracterization of neurodivergent characters.

Take Alhaitham for example. He's often seen as rude and narcissistic by the fandom- which is especially apparent in Haikaveh content, where people portray him as straight up abusive.

You wanna know why this makes me so mad? The supposedly narcissistic and rude traits Alhaitham has are actually just exaggerated symptoms of autism.

Like, come ON, people. Don't skip dialogue. Better yet, go read through his story quest again. He straight up tells someone who sees him as narcissistic that he doesn't see others as less than himself. Also, his voicelines basically confirm this- he's extremely socially inept and he doesn't care. He has difficulty showing emotions as readily as his peers- that doesn't mean he doesn't have them, just that he expresses them differently. He comes across as rude because he doesn't get that people don't like to hear what they're doing wrong, and he probably doesn't care because that's not his problem. If people don't like how blunt he is, that's their problem. At least, that's how I think he views the world.

And like, there are SO many hints that he's autistic. He wears sound-blocking earpieces, for crying out loud. Hell, the ENTIRE REASON why he helped out during the Archon quest was because he didn't want his life to change too much. Preferring routine is an autistic trait.

And the worst part is, when I talk about this outside of neurodivergent groups, people tell me I'm wrong and that he couldn't be autistic DESPITE THOSE PEOPLE NOT BEING AUTISTIC THEMSELVES.

And I'm not saying that every autistic person relates to Alhaitham, but I certainly do. And I'm actually quite friendly because I'm anxious about being rejected. Alhaitham isn't, and I'm so jealous of him for that. He's living his best life.

Finally, back to the Haikaveh thing... Alhaitham isn't abusive. He doesn't say horrible things to Kaveh, and the one example of him doing that I could find, he immediately backtracked and subtly tried to make Kaveh feel better. Hell, Alhaitham doesn't even actually care about making sure Kaveh pays rent. He says it as a joke, but because he's autistic and his tone of voice doesn't give that away as well, he's portrayed as abusive and misunderstood as narcissistic. Y'all just don't like neurodivergent people and it shows.

Yes, neurodivergent includes Xiao. PTSD is often viewed as a form of neurodivergency, and there are many MANY characters in Genshin that have PTSD or some other form of neurodivergence. Yet people refuse to see them as such and mischaracterize them as "edgy," "narcissistic," "unapproachable," "weird," and the like. Yet none of these characters are any of those things.

You wanna know the true narcissists? The true edgelords? The actually rude people? Might I direct your attention to Scaramouche, Childe, and Dottore, whom everyone makes out to be as misunderstood pathetic little meow meows that need love.

Reminder that only two of those three are actually redeemable, and one is STILL an edgelord who is more rude than Alhaitham could ever be, while the other is a certified insane person with a weird set of morals.

(Side note: I love Scaramouche and Childe as characters. I'm just tired of people acting like they aren't worse than the autistic characters. Scaramouche is extremely rude, but he's trying to be better as Wanderer thanks to Nahida's help. He has severe PTSD, and Childe does, too. But both of them are actually messed up and have done horrible things, yet people portray them as better and more in need of love than the characters with unlikable (read: neurodivergent) traits.)

Don't even get me started on how people portray Kokomi, Sucrose, Fischl, Diluc, Zhongli, Cyno, Furina, Neuvillette, and Albedo. Especially that last one- I WILL get mad if one more person tries to tell me he's just emotionless and rude.

Also, if anyone is wondering where I've seen people misunderstanding these characters, it's mostly on Hoyolab site discussions. There's one too many posts talking about how "rude" and "annoying" these characters are.

With Alhaitham especially, I see many people writing him as abusive in Haikaveh content. I see people arguing about the ship being toxic because Alhaitham is "abusive," "unfeeling," and "cruel." Even people who like the ship portray him as such. And I've seen too many people comparing him to Dr. Ratio, who is literally just a narcissist who views others as beneath him. Don't get me wrong, I understand the comparison. It's just... very obvious that people skipped dialogue during Genshin's Archon and story quests.

And it's frustrating because I've been misunderstood in the exact same way. I've been called "rude," "annoying," and "unfeeling" in the past and it's screwed me up. Seeing people do the same thing to a character I so deeply relate to makes me lose confidence in both myself and people around me.

If that's how you view a fictional character with autistic traits, how do you treat real people with the same traits?

Thanks for reading this far. My previous post seemed to get a lot of attention, so I felt more confident about posting my full perspective on this subject. Can any of you think of other characters that have been constantly misunderstood in the fandom? I'd love to hear about it.

#autism #autistic #mischaracterization #genshin impact #genshin xiao #alhaitham #haikaveh #autistic characters #rant post #autistic vent #neurodivergent #ptsd #i just wish things were different #if people like me were seen as normal this wouldn't be happening #but here we are #people need to understand what autism actually looks like #because if they did then maybe they wouldn't treat characters that are autistic the same way they treat actually autistic people #or better yet #maybe they would even stop excluding and belittling us for being different #but that's just my opinion

[illithiddies]

Astarion's "concept of harmony" options during the Weave scene, choices 2 and 3 are unique to just him.

#i wish they had dialogue afterwards but nothing happens differently no matter what you pick #its just for personal flavor i think. but its so 😭 #astarion #bloodweave #questlog

[joshuaalbert]

kai winn’s relationship to religion really is just so interesting to me in a way I come back to sometimes like. she’s the leader of a faith and her gods will not speak to her. they will speak to other people in front of her and they will make a human from a society that did not interfere with her planet’s suffering their emissary but they will not speak to her. and I’m sure she can do a lot to justify it in her mind because she would have to be able to in order to keep any faith, and she has to keep her faith because she says herself that’s all she had in the camps, but that’s still a terrible thing to experience. and I’m sure a lot of people would argue that it’s not real faith, it’s ambition, but I think it’s some of both, and most importantly I think on the most immediate levels she believes it’s faith.

and like I think she and a lot of other bajorans have a reason to have a really complicated relationship with the prophets because the more demonstrably real and powerful they are, the more they’re willing to interfere in things like the dominion war, the harder it would be for a lot of people to justify to themselves why the prophets didn’t do anything to stop the genocide of their chosen people. I think the pah wraiths plotline ultimately fell kind of flat when it kind of boiled down to “dukat’s weird cult” and it was also a victim of the season’s pacing issues, but it has some interesting implications regarding this divide in the bajoran people, particularly when their religious leader’s faith is being so seriously called into question.

#on one hand like ‘if there is a loving god why do bad things happen’ is of course an incredibly common religious struggle #but I do have to imagine it’s a little different when your gods are stopping an entire fleet but didn’t save your people yknow #viable religious schism at least #this got off topic I just think kai winn and her storyline are a lot more interesting than people give credit for #opinions around her often seem to start and end with ‘she’s a bitch’ which is. hm. #I’m not like. a winn apologist for things she actually did I just wish people would engage on a more interesting level lmao #san rant #sorry I stopped like actually tagging my posts I got scared #but i saw another post i didn't like so i am trying to make. a better post.

[shima-draws]

Catch me being super emotional and sappy on this Monday morning. Anyway I'm so so so glad I got into One Piece, I don't regret it for a single second, I'm so mad that it took me this long to finally sit down and watch it bc now it's been what. 3 months? And I'm 400+ episodes in. I've never watched 400 episodes of anything before (except maybe Pokeani) and I thought it would feel like a chore but now I'm SO fucking addicted I can't get enough. The story is so good the pacing is so good the characters are SO good I can't help but get attached and scream and jump for joy and cry my heart out (and worry my roommates downstairs with all my yelling but. You know) because it's just EVERYTHING. The found family, the power one goofy kid has to topple kingdoms, to make friends with anyone and everyone he meets, to completely destroy anybody who hurts his nakama, to rid his crew of all their burdens and chains that bind them to their traumatic pasts. I'm going to fucking explode I love One Piece so much. And maybe I'm 20 years too late to the party but I'm here and this series has its claws in me so deep that I couldn't leave even if I wanted to. And there's people here who have been fans for years and years and YEARS at this point who are OP Veterans and you've all been so sweet and kind and nice and it makes me want to cry. GOD DAMMIT. Banging my head against the wall all these emotions ARE going to make me blow up. I love you Monkey D Luffy I love you One Piece

#AGHGHGH!!! AHAHGHGHGHGHSHFDFDSFSDDSA #I was looking at fanart last night and going absolutely bonkers with the NEED to create #Me: I need to draw 11218583295873294 different OP fanarts RIGHT this instant #The emotions were too much man. I literally had to lie down for a second. LMAO #One Piece #Really REALLY wish I had gotten into the series sooner but. Better late than never :") #I guess I picked a good time bc of all the revival stuff happening with OPLA and the reboot anyway? Lol #Rolls on the floor #I love my skrunklies so much. Blows kisses to the entire Strawhat crew #Shima speaks #Shut UP Shima. Sorry I needed to be annoying for two seconds.