#yeah no i’m being hateful

[dissociativediscourse]

You're truly an ableist is you're anti-endo.

this is the stupidest hate ask i’ve ever received. endogenic multiplicity isn’t a disorder, remember? you don’t face systemic oppression, you don’t have a government that wants you to die for being “endogenic” and refuses to help you in any way except maybe forcing you to live in poverty if they do. you don’t have to fear losing a job for showing symptoms of having trauma, whether they know it’s from did or fucking not.

you don’t have to deal with the horrific physical symptoms that come with trauma. horrible digestive issues, nausea, cramps, tactile hallucinations, headaches that make you cry.

you don’t have to deal with entire weeks of your life where you want to do nothing but lose your shit and disappear and feel severe pain because of how debilitating the REAL LIFE TRAUMA you’ve experienced has been.

you’re truly an ableist if you think your larp is worth trying to delegitimize an entire trauma disorder, remove it from the dsm, portray yourselves as the “healthy” version of it, and harass random trauma survivors. also, it’s if, dipshit.

shouldn’t you be yelling at your mom about how she’s abusing you for telling you you can’t have ice cream for dinner or something right now? lmao, get a fucking life. i’m so sorry you’re offended that neither i nor anyone else gives a single shit about your stupid fucking playground larp, and if they act like they do, they’re fucking pretending.

your little fake cliquey friendshits that pretend they care about your dumbass little larp? the ones that might even do it, too? they’d drop you at the fucking tip of a hat, especially if your views didn’t fit theirs perfectly.

you’re going to realize soon enough that all you’re doing with this stupid bullshit is annoying and hurting the fuck out of people who have actual problems and hurting yourself in turn. have a fun time getting reality checked, flat brainer. tough shit.

#syscourse #anti endo #the stupidest hate ask i’ve ever received #tw hate #and by that i mean i’m going off on this loser #vitriol #rant #yeah no i’m being hateful #i don’t care #i’m a little too on edge to give a shit rn #i’m on the tail end of having been in a near constant flashback state for like a fucking week #yknow #because i have actual problems that aren’t not being validating for shittily roleplaying

[fumifooms]

I don’t like minimizing the importance and gravity of Laios and Toshiro’s fight into just being a childish squabble, even if to a degree it is framed that way, because to both of them it has a lot of personal significance and emotional weight and runs very deep to their characters… The fight isn’t nothing it’s a LOT, they made up but it’s not something easy to express and to get over for either of them which makes it all the more meaningful! I’m on both sides but there very much are sides, there’s no "they’re both having a ball, Toshiro and Laios hand in hand yay" side to the fight, that comes after

The fight with Toshiro WAS very scary to Laios, almost existentially so, but it’s moreso the "I thought I’d made a friend!!" bit and my god. My god actually

Like it’s not "just" about oh his friend liking him less than he thought, THAT IS SO MUCH. It’s a bond he thought he had being a lie it’s all the time and moments spent together either being a lie from his perspective or marred now looking back. It’s not only being upset at Toshiro for lying but upset at himself that he’s so easy to fool, it’s being upset that there’s something so wrong with you that you can’t even tell if your "close buddy" even actually likes you or not, it’s like. Holding my head. He can’t trust his own vision of events that happened do you see. There’s always this film of distrust that it could be a lie that should be there when he interacts with people there’s always this sense of cloak and dagger to expect backstabs out of nowhere because you CAN’T see it coming you CAN’T you CAN’T there’s something about you which makes it impossible so you CAN’T-

He’s so scared of not being able to read people. He knows it’s a weak spot he has, he’s always known. All of these bits are centered around social expectations and betrayals, the assumption that he doesn’t belong either in society or with other humans.

And Laios’ level of awareness is actually sort of complex to analyze, but it’s there, there’s how out of him and Falin he was the one sensitive to the ~aura of hatred~ he felt from the townspeople, there’s of course his nightmares whispering to him about the mocking looks, and how yeah actually he realizes that his gold stripper coworker was taking advantage of him. There’s of course the Winged Lion speech about his trauma and how he fundamentally mistrusts/dislikes humans to some deep seated degree, this distrust that he still keeps under control always. There’s how pre-canon he often wanted to suggest eating monsters but never worked up the courage to bring it up with the others. There’s how he gets across as stoic when he isn’t being enthusiastic…… We don’t know how aware and wary he is exactly in the moment but we do know he has some anxiety around social stuff, and looking back he does notice and aughh augh, the sense you have to hide yourself to not get hurt and be on your guard and shit and.

When you don’t know what to look out for and when to look out for it, the general ‘common sense’ of not always trusting people or noticing when someone’s messing with you becomes hypervigilance in social settings

"Man they really know what you hate huh". Being socially unaware literally plagues him, he knows, he knows it so well.

It’s so quick that it’s almost hard to digest how literal and blatant Laios summoning his monster to crush all the people who’ve hurt him is. His literal go-to coping mechanism for comfort in his literal monster-induced emotionally intense nightmares, saving him by taking away the upsetting element (the humans)

"Monsters are his coping fantasy, where they can whisk him away from humanity, all the hurt it’s caused him and its arbitrary rules" with the subtlety of a brick. Monsters are his comfort safe zone "because they kill humans" yes but no it’s because he pits them as the guardians against humans who to him are in the role of the agressors. To him they represent freedom from the shackles of what it means to be part of humanity, a fundamentally social species

#Fumi rambles #Was asked to post this but a lot of this is present in my shuro-Laios fight analysis from Laios’ pov #Bite sized fumi #Laios touden #Meta #happy nightmare chapter day #Character analysis #Spoilers #dungeon meshi manga spoilers #And humanity being a social species is ofc ultimately not shown as a negative. #Dunmeshi is about unity and coming together when seeking to understand that which you do not!!! #But yeah like imagine if you will that you can never really trust your own perspective of events because you literally can’t tell #Wether the person likes you or hates you and you just can’t tell. Even when they ARE being obvious about it #The nightmare scene is so real like I def have vivid memories where I’m like ‘Ah yeah they cringed here #that should have been a dead giveaway’. It wears on self-esteem and self-trust. Like “you don’t belong in society” in a way they’re #sorta like factually not wrong and like. Oh ok man. Sitting down #Just spitballing here obvi. Personal experience. Hey did you guys know that dunmeshi is good. Man. It’s good #Dungeon meshi #Analysis #Feeling The Owl House Gus meltdown episode in tha club tonight #Sobbing about how the flashbacks we see of Laios’ childhood are only happy when it centers around Falin or the dogs

[laniidae-passerine]

if we were to look at it through a racial lens, I do find it very interesting that Jupe’s wife is white. that the audience at Star Lasso are majorly white. that he’s basically robbing the Haywoods, a black family, of their horses to feed them to an alien creature for white people’s entertainment. that he was the token asian adoptee in sitcom as a child. the model minority. fitting himself back into a system that used and failed him as a child, so he can find some semblance of respect and power as an adult man, only to still be swallowed up whole.

#the starlight group were white yeah? I only saw it in cinemas a day ago so still fuzzy but I don’t recall many other poc #still. thinking about it. special vs lucky #but what’s the difference between being named an animal and being treated like an animal. isn’t it the same thing? it just looks different #it just sounds different. being special. getting lucky. is there a true division or does it just have the same result sometimes? #I’m not saying that like. Jordan Peele thinks interracial marriage is a sign of hating yourself that’s stupid #but when Jupe specifically gets married to a white lady and lives in the neo-west #which is heavily associated (fairly or not) with white people and white suburbia #I think it does say something about him. he still needs them to like him. it’s like a sickness #nope #nope 2022 #nope movie #nope film #ricky park #ricky jupe park #jupe park

[banancrumbs]

too long ago

#my art #sandman #the sandman #dreamling #morpheus #dream of the endless #hob gadling #morpheus sandman #morpheus dream #centennial husbands #dream 1389 #hob 1389 #i’m insane about them in 1389 INSANE #i know this dream is. you know. #he would press hob like this against the wall i know he told me in a dr- #this week will probably just be dream 1389 because yeah <3 #also i gotta remember you all dont know how i planned this art so you wont feel as disappointed as i am for it not being exactly like i- #imagine 😭 #anywy!!!! #i hate captions <3 #ALSO EKNCKWJFND my mom asked if they were the beatles 🧍‍♀️ i dont even recall who she said was who but it was SO FUNNY EJFJWKCJDK #update: it was john lennon and paul mccartney #who is who i wonder

[wi1dshxpe]

gortash sets up a lending library at his estate after seeing durge’s in the bhaal temple. they both know they’re the only people who use them so it turns into a sort of game. durge loves music, so after enver’s last visit a book about viola has appeared in the temple library. enver fancy’s himself a jeweler so it’s only natural a scroll about gem welding would end up in his library. books relating to their schemes, hobbies, pasts, futures, inside jokes and aspirations get passed back in forth. the only extended pause is when a novel about star crossed lovers gets dropped in the bhaal library. it’s weeks before the favor is returned and enver receives a scroll about bhaalist marriage ceremonies. he doesn’t know whether to take it as an advance or a threat, so he accepts it as both.

#dark urge #durgetash #enver gortash #durge #i ​love enver’s boldness to hear durge say ‘nobody whose been in a relationship with me has left alive’ and respond ‘yeah but i’m different’ #he is but not enough to change his fate #they would also be like varying levels of straight forward- at times they’re coming up with entirely new cipher systems for simple messages #100% being way more open they would be normal. gortash would almost never be open about about his time with raphael but he will leave a book #alluding to his treatment when he was at the house of hope #my durge was a cleric of ilmater in their youth and is incredibly ashamed of it by the time they meet gortash. but they do leave him a book #of his teachings with a chapter about meditations they still use to quell their urge #and obviously bhaal hates everything about this. not only is durge besties w his enemy and doing stupid stuff that has nothing to do with #murder they’re being unashamed of things he very much wants them to be ashamed of

[catboywizard]

sometimes i forget how sanitized tiktok and other platforms are compared to tumblr until i come across stuff like this video i saw earlier where someone, as well as a bunch of ppl in the comments, were absolutely scandalized that aziraphale got called a faggot by a kid early on in the good omens book

gays on here throw it around like loose change but ppl on tiktok act like finding it in a book written for adults in 1990 is a huge mind blowing shocker

i’m not saying the book should or shouldn’t have used it, but the video was definitely a big culture shock bc of just how differently that word is treated on here

#the word faggot used to bother me when i was a teen #but now i don’t even really thinking about it unless someone’s being really hateful and honestly i kinda like how vulgar it is #like fuck yeah i’m a faggot and i like it what are you gonna do about it asshole? #good omens #neil gaiman #op

[fujii-draws]

OKAY! Chatot rant in tags below! Read at your own discretion.

#okay starting from the beginning of where ppl usually dislike him. apple woods chapter. #he doesn’t give hero/partner the CHANCE to explain themselves despite them being relatively good recruits up until that point. #and that legit might be my only gripe with that chapter bc!!! stories need conflict! I LIKE the conflict in apple woods!!! #hero and partner being punished so something they didn’t do! #the misunderstanding! how team skull (Skuntank) actually outplays the main duo with a clever yet rotten trick. I LOVE that it segways into- #one of the more sweeter scenes of guild members looking out for eachother. I LIKE APPLE WOODS CONFLICT. #but chatot just. not giving them a chance. is so dumb. #I’d personally fix this by having a lil montage of hero/partner fucking up on jobs. A LOT. and chatot giving them a pass every time. #and let the perfect apple incident BE the one where he puts his foot down and doesn’t listen to them. bc he’d given them loads of chances. #and doesn’t want to hear any excuse. #but yeah. I legit dont mind him during that chapter except for that really stupid and frustrating moment. #NOW. CHAPTER 17. #UGGGGHHH WHERE DO I BEGIN #Him not believing hero and Partner about Grovyle and the future being in ruin? FINE. ACTUALLY GOOD. BC CHATOT WOULD BE SKEPTIC. #IT FITS HIS CHARACTER!! #BUT WHAT DOES SUCK. IS HIM GOING ‘Dusknoir isn’t the bad guy. he didn’t do anything wrong’ #WHEN HE LITERALLY KIDNAPPED HERO AND PARTNER RIGHT I N F R O N T OF HIM. #(​NO LITERALLY. HIS CHARACTER IS IN THE FRONT ROW WHEN IT HAPPENED.) #and him. having the GALL to tell hero and partner they must’ve been ‘seeing things’ and downplaying the HELL they went through. #despite them being missing for hours/days. his own guild recruits. and his angry sprite showing up. #like. I think that’s when I genuinely despised him. #that and him going ‘OH I BELIEVED YOU THE WHOLE TIME HEEHOO :)’ shit was so fucking annoying. #just playing it off as a joke the second the guild started to believe hero and partner. #IMAGINE IF HE W A S ACTUALLY TESTING THE GUILD’S TRUST. SHOWCASING HIM AS THE MORE RESPONSIBLE AND RESPECTFUL RIGHT HAND OF THE GUILD. #and yes. Brine cave he saves hero and partner. but at that point I just didn’t care anymore. #he fucked those two over so much. that I didn’t care what ‘valiant’ sacrifice he had. #and he grills Team Skull for what they did OFF SCREEN. they couldn’t even give us THAT. #<<< THAT or him outright saying sorry would’ve been nice. IKIK his ‘actions’ or whatever but. #eughh again this is all imo. I’m not trying to make people hate him or change their mind. #I’ll get into positives in the second post cause I’m running out of tags

[pommunist]

It’s insane to me how quackity studio’s biggest problem is the one that’s easiest to fix. I was trying to give quackity the benefit of the doubt, but seeing him delete all social media off his devices and streaming like nothing happened, while staff continue to be mistreated with no way to contact anyone in higher positions, and ccs like antione and tubbo have said they have no clue what’s going on and don’t even know if the admins they’re closest to will be coming back. It’s getting harder to “just trust that quackity will handle it”.

LITERALLY like get better communication and 50% of the work is done !!!

I get that finding out which higher ups are the problem and replacing them will take time, as well as figuring out which workers moving forward will be volunteer and which will be paid (as well as how).

but this can’t even start to go right if you don’t being the process by contacting everyone who’s involved with the project (i’m not even talking about the audience here) to figure out what went wrong, who was/is responsible and how to fix it.

but NO better to go radio silent towards your audience, the ccs, and the admins (btw if some volunteer work can be recognised as actual work in this case, going silent towards the workers can be considered an unlawful firing according to french law so that’s even better 🫡👍) !

idk and idc who is making these decisions ig it’s higher admins, Q or some kind of upper management but this has to change. You can’t expect people to keep supporting, watching the new events and buying new merch (which hopefully will go towards paying the admins but we don’t know that, the eggs figures weee ready for sale for a while now) on blind faith alone

#qsmp discourse #qsmp crit #im so sorry i’m tired to talk about this issues but it’s IMPORTANT and still not being solved so #yeah #idk man just so disheartening #especially when people who speak up about their experiences get so much hate

[etheralisi]

🐢

#my art crumbs #rottmnt #tottmnt #mutant mayhem #rottmnt fanart #screenshot redraws #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #Rottmnt Leo #Rottmnt Raph #Rottmnt Donnie #Rottmnt Mikey #mm raph #mm mikey #mm donnie #mm leo #future Leo #drawn a fair few of these lately so I figured I’d post them here #yeah I’m allergic to drawing line art how can you tell #my sister said Mm Mikey looked like he was holding his severed limb so there’s that #I keep alternating between liking a few of these and hating some with every inch of my being. posting this now before I don’t ever

[spicyicymeloncat]

Ninjago fans hate old people. Unless that old people be Garmadon. Garmadon is a dilf. He got pretty emo boy privilege apparently.

#edit: I’m turning reblogs off bc I have a more nuanced opinion and I feel like this is being used to make arguments I don’t necessarily agre #with #also too many ppl agreed with me so the post is actually wrong lol #/lh this is an exaggeration Ik not everyone hates the old people #Tbf I’ve been rewatching and wu rlly do sit there and fuck up #like in s3 there’s just a whole episode where Garmadon is like ‘Wu. Wu what the fuck. your red ninja is literally gonna blow himself up’ #‘what the shit. Wu. Don’t let the ninja go to spa- Wu YOUR NINJA ARE IN SPACE’ #‘WU MY SON IS STRANDED ON A DISTANT PLANET WTF’ #like man was so stressed that day #but yeah wu often makes plans that backfire spectacularly and continuously tries to sacrifice himself and I still love him #i find it funny #seriously tho - the vilification of old people is just a bit annoying imo #like some ppl on here associated oldness with trnsphobia and it shows #victims of extreme vilification are wu Misako dr Julien and apparently Krux?? lol #ninjago

[mostlymaudlin]

not responding directly to that post abt Neil’s demisexuality bc i have no ill will toward op or anyone reblogging it but also I have thoughts. it’s a very slippery slope to put rules on what’s ooc or not in fanworks. its nice to be able to see ourselves in characters and it’s totally fair to not enjoy portrayals of said characters that we disagree with. but when we find a connection with the source material, then imo that’s the end of where we get to claim any type of ownership of a character — fanfiction is the wild west and there’s no point in introducing morality to it when so much exists and it all caters to different audiences. to me, “ooc” is not a real thing, because every fic writer is going to portray the characters different than the source author does, because that’s how art works. so if people want to make neil more sexual in fanworks then that’s their right — we have the power to grimace and close the tab when we find fic we don’t like. it just means it’s not for us. but it’s not inherently wrong. esp with neil, his backstory and relationship to sexuality are so complex. he literally avoids thinking abt it at all in the books except for what’s happening right in front of him with andrew. there’s actually so much wiggle room! like, he literally says allison is “hot but off limits” at one point before spiraling into thoughts abt his mom — im not at all saying this proves he’s not ace/demi, or that he’s attracted to allison, but there’s lots of ways to interpret that. and there’s plenty of things about neil that people might connect with beyond sexuality — like, that’s not the only reason to be writing about him. fic writers might be more focused on exploring other aspects his character and that’s their right. and ofc worth mentioning that the aspec experience is soooooo vast like for me, i am aspec but if i vibed w someone even on a platonic level right away and they wanted to, i might smash bc im sex-neutral & it could be fun even if I’ve got a different relationship to attraction/arousal.

ANYWAY fanfiction is a contribution to a community, but individual works are not community-owned… we’re free to dislike anything, but i think it sets us all up for failure to make claims abt what’s a right or wrong way to portray characters in fic

#I logged off but then I was still thinking abt it lol #if u disagree w me that’s fine. u can tell me why if u want but I’m probs not gonna respond #im set in my ways and I said my thing lol #but yeah again no hate to op and some of u are probs like wtf are u talking abt Rory ksjfhfjdjf #also my point of nuance is like - tagging triggers and maintaining safe spaces #idk if there’s a way to tag for Neil’s sexuality tho bc everyone is gonna interpret it differently #even within the demi Neil tag u know #I think I have a demi Neil tag on trigger and they have sex in the first scene/the first time they meet #and if someone were to say it’s not representative of being aspec id be like ??? well that’s from my life so ???

[mattodore]

new questionnaire photos <3

#good morning!!! woke up and started editing these right away bc i'm in the hospital with oc plague unforch 😔</3 #i just updated the old questionnaires with these actually ‼️ #i want to make individual photos for the old ones too with all the bells and whistles but for now these will be the placeholders! #river dipping #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #echthroi #ts4 #ts4 edit #simblr #also yeah finally took off the slutty turtleneck only to replace it with a slutty mock neck instead. had to get rid of the label tho #matthias hates branded lettering or imagery on clothes... you would never find this man wearing a graphic t-shirt i think he'd rather die #he's SOOOO snobby lmao #these are from when i was fixing their sims and saving a proper version of their household the other day #i’m still cleaning out my library of trays and getting their outfits in order! #but i’m so close to being ready to rip their sims for poses 🧎 #i have so many pose ideas now!! but i think i should probably start working on their homes first #just so i have layouts and everything in mind while making poses #i think theo’s apartment and matthias’s chateau are the ones to work on… #theo’s apartment should be the easiest bc it’s the smallest #but. knowing me… even an apartment is going to take me weeks to make #i really want to start though. #i think of theo’s bedroom in his apartment all the time like in my head it's really cluttered with all these little trinkets #these things theo's picked up over the last three years since he's been living on his own #and it's all dark browns and greens... stained glass... beautiful tiles... ugh #his apartment is so gorgeous in my head!!! trust me!!! #...also by new questionnaire photos i do mean i'm writing a new one lmao jnhkjf not that these are new pics for the old ones—tho they are! #i'm glad to actually be writing abt mattodore again bc the last month or so i was like. controlled by the urge to make edits #like!! enough visuals!! let's write!!!

[ct-multifandom]

I don’t usually make posts like this, but I’ve been seeing a lot of anti-intellectual junk lately, and I really think we need to put the word “pretentious” up on a shelf until people learn what it actually means.

It doesn’t describe someone who likes artsy-fartsy deep meaning media. People who are pretentious are fake. They’re posers trying to be sophisticated and unique, not like other girls. They pretend to only like stuff they think will make them sound cool when they talk about it. They want to act like they know something you don’t, and they want attention for it.

By definition, if you genuinely enjoy something, you can’t be pretentious. If it resonates with you, and you analyze it, and you don’t care what people think, that’s the polar opposite, actually. If you love obscure experimental prog music, if you watch underground high concept indie films through English teacher eyes, if you spend hours in a modern art museum reading each piece as a vessel for storytelling, if your backpack’s full of poetry books that inspire you, if you play underrated games that were someone’s passion project, if you have an interest in studying the classics or the masters, you are not pretentious.

Of course, some people just don’t like some stuff, and that’s fine, but that’s not what this is about. Don’t let anti-intellectuals shame you for enjoying things just because your interests are inaccessible to them, because they refuse to be brave and put effort into critical thinking. You’re not stuck up for refusing to overlook the craft of artists.

#anti intellectualism #media #movies #books #music #critical thinking #my friend who primarily listens to one very popular band once said that people who listen to obscure music are annoying and pretentious #which rubbed me the wrong way because 1 she knows that I listen to obscure music and 2 it’s such a cowardly consumerist take. anyone can #make music and hey a lot of the people who do make GOOD music. and this goes for all *obscure* media #this post was mostly inspired by people talking about Barbie and those anti pick me girls like the pick nobody girls who insist thinking is #for boys and having fun with an empty brain is for girls. Greta gerwig is an artist. I haven’t seen the movie yet but I know it has a deeper #message than haha cute pink! I’ve seen the summaries about the true meaning. the pinkness and popularity doesn’t negate the narritive. #though in the notes I saw a lot of tumblristas comunistas shitting on the film for being one big ad that people *fell for* which tbh is #tbh almost as anti-intellectual. don’t get me wrong they milked this film to sell hella shit but I don’t believe kids who play with dolls #are the target audience as these people claim. Barbie is a culturally iconic symbol almost archetypical of societal expectations for women #you say barbie people think unblinking perfect plastic pink girly. reminds me of the poem The Last Mojave Indian Barbie. yeah yeah you all #hate brands but this one carries undeniable significance and makes for a powerful literary device. it’s been used many times before #sorry for writing a tag essay about a film I haven’t even seen but I’m tired of internet people focusing so much on proving others wrong #that they end up oversimplifying everything just as much as the other person. god I saw people doing this to Nimona saying transphobes were #looking too deep into her character and they’re reactionary clowns for making that jump. like for once the transphobes are right. she is #trans. it’s a queer story. and irl the first people who notice queerness are the bigots who can tell you’re different. sick owns telling #them the story’s not that deep is harmful and it’s like they’re ignoring the real message on purpose. okay enough rambling hehe! thanks #barbie #nimona

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

hey guys just doodling the guy again (i am booed offstage)

#death note #l lawliet #bright colors #eyestrain #my art #yeah it’s him again #went to actually draw something but like #eh #might as well draw this guy #i’m projecting my tiredness onto him but is it really projection if he’s also tired? i don’t think so #i would pay cash money to pass out for the next 24 hours dm me and i’ll give you my location and u can bonk me on the head w a bat #genuinely think the lack of sleep has been aggravating a lot of my issues i’ve been weirdly flipping between like #paranoia and weirdly happy and irrational anger and just deeply numb #which actually now that i think about it is exactly what happens every time i don’t sleep enough for long enough #methinks i should sleep more snork mimimi it makes my brain work better #god i want to sleep so bad rn #but i have to do laundry and make 2 pies for other people to consume tomorrow #i plan on decorating the crusts w dicks or smth bc i hate the people it’s going to and they are very conservative religious sorta vibes #but some people there would get a kick out of it (the good ones) #u know i was wondering if i really complain about being tired enough for those anons about sleep and y’know what #i really do #and i will forever #if i’m tired u will know of it and thats because it’s always #maybe i should try that caffeine shit people rave about (<- has not drank energy drinks or sodas or coffees since i was like. 14) #actually i think my heart would give out idk what’s with it but it gets silly sometimes so i don’t think it would like caffeine #or maybe idc who knows #the best solution imo is passing out forever and ever and waking up and hopefully being refreshed or smth

[godblooded]

just an fyi, and it feels like it needs to be said here: your blog is your own space and you should be able to say whatever the fuck you want. if you’re sad? vent. get sad. maybe put it under a cut, definitely tag it, but get sad. if you feel like you need someone to talk to? drop a freaking message about how you’re feeling like you could use a buddy, or anything randomly engaging. if you’re having a hard time, you should feel safe and okay to talk about it in your own space. we’re writers and we’re people and while there’s a lot to be said for how engagement outside of oneself is necessary in rp (and really really needs to improve), i think there’s a lot that must be said about people reaching out to others. it’s become so solitary here — the whole ‘reblog from source’ thing when it comes to shit like about and musings is absurd. the whole refusing to like things is ridiculous. yes, curate your space, that’s important, but curating your space into a studio apartment only you live in doesn’t make this a community anymore, it makes it a studio apartment you live in.

just be yourself here. do whatever you want. but i’m always saying: remember you’re not alone, and don’t let yourself feel that way.

#ooc. o kaptain. #[this is illogically worded and after an argument I’m already upset but I just felt like this has to be put here. it’s been sitting on my #brain for so long and it’s something i just wanted to discuss. the way the rpc has become not even an echo chamber just… a shitty ny #apartment only one person lives in that can fit your fridge and your bedroom in the same room. the way literal fandoms have divided each #other through nothing but massive senses of entitlement and so much gatekeepy fucking language. it’s exhausting to watch this happen #literally all because i have no idea where interaction went and yes I’ve been virtually inactive for months now but. it absolutely isn’t for #lack of trying to come back. it’s hugely due to a lack of interaction whenever I reach out and then the feeling like I’m being either #entertained or dismissed. this is a social space and we’re people and everybody just needs to recognize that. like. last week my introverted #broski started discussing how as he’s older he feels loneliness more tangibly but he hates people and i looked right at him and said …yeah #dude. that’s natural. we’re humans. we need each other to live. we need spaces we create and communities we make. but like. there need to be #interactive people in those spaces. we’re social creatures. i love you guys and this is a ramble but… it’s been on my mind awhile. and #frankly? feels kinda good to finally speak my mind.]

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Was arguing with someone on tiktok about AA & they said “You must also think that the Emperor isn’t manipulating you either”… bud, there are at least 3 Reddit posts a day about that very subject.

#emperor fans 🤝 aa fans & being hated by the fandom #like I’m indifferent towards the emperor but there is absolutely so much nuance there #just made me laugh bc like… yeah dude I wanna interpret the media I consume instead of taking it at face value #bg3 ascended astarion #ascended astarion