#yeah so i'm a disaster

[disorganizedkitten]

Listen. I deeply dislike being my own PR team.

This feels like such a dumb thing to complain about but genuinely it's?? so much work? I have social anxiety but equally it is my own responsibility to network and make my own work sound appealing and it's just. Such a Feeling.

I can talk about myself and my writing all the time, that part's not hard at all, but making sure that when I talk about it it sounds appealing? Being in charge of enticing others to actually interact?

Deeply tiring. I dislike interactions whose goal is advertisement and I UNDERSTAND it's different when it's indie creators and fanworks and not capitalism/consumerism but I think I'm still a bit rough from consumer culture, you know?

I just want to create and shout into the void and it not be tiring but at the same time I crave validation and I want to be known and it is. a dilemma.

#I get awkward inviting people to read my stuff #okay #you don't see it bc I draft things for so long but I do #social anxiety is a bitch #and my only silver lining is that it's not entirely debilitating #thanks to COPIOUS HARD WORK TYVM #yeah so i'm a disaster #Jaymeow speaks #jaymeow speaks #DK speaks #I am my own PR team and I won't STOP #I just want everyone to know it's tiring #and I don't think I'm the only creator who thinks so #so really this is a quiet way to scream REBLOG CONTENT PLEASE I'M BEGGING YOU #off to curl up in a word doc and a discord chat and have actual fun #before returning to pretend I'm that being a successful author means being a functional writer

[inkskinned]

the thing is there's like, a point of oversaturation for everything, and it's why so many things get dropped after a few minutes. and we act like millennials or gen z kids "have short attention spans" but... that's not quite it. it's more like - we did like it. you just ruined it.

capitalism sees product A having moderate success, and then everything has to come out with their "own version" of product A (which is often exactly the same). and they dump extreme amounts of money and environmental waste into each horrible simulacrum they trot out each season.

now it's not just tiktokkers making videos; it's that instagram and even fucking tumblr both think you want live feeds and video-first programming. and it helps them, because videos are easier to sneak native ads into. the books coming out all have to have 78 buzzwords in them for SEO, or otherwise they don't get published. they are making a live-action remake of moana. i haven't googled it, but there's probably another marvel or starwars something coming out, no matter when you're reading this post.

and we are like "hi, this clone of project A completely misses the point of the original. it is soulless and colorless and miserable." and the company nods and says "yes totally. here is a different clone, but special." and we look at clone 2 and we say "nope, this one is still flat and bad, y'all" and they're like "no, totally, we hear you," and then they make another clone but this time it's, like, a joyless prequel. and by the time they've successfully rolled out "clone 89", the market is incredibly oversaturated, and the consumer is blamed because the company isn't turning a profit.

and like - take even something digital like the tumblr "live streaming" function i just mentioned. that has to take up server space and some amount of carbon footprint; just so this brokenass blue hellsite can roll out a feature that literally none of its userbase actually wants. the thing that's the kicker here: even something that doesn't have a physical production plant still impacts the environment.

and it all just feels like it's rolling out of control because like, you watch companies pour hundreds of thousands of dollars into a remake of a remake of something nobody wants anymore and you're like, not able to afford eggs anymore. and you tell the company that really what you want is a good story about survival and they say "okay so you mean a YA white protagonist has some kind of 'spicy' love triangle" and you're like - hey man i think you're misunderstanding the point of storytelling but they've already printed 76 versions of "city of blood and magic" and "queen of diamond rule" and spent literally millions of dollars on the movie "Candy Crush Killer: Coming to Eat You".

it's like being stuck in a room with a clown that keeps telling the same joke over and over but it's worse every time. and that would be fine but he keeps fucking charging you 6.99. and you keep being like "no, i know it made me laugh the first time, but that's because it was different and new" and the clown is just aggressively sitting there saying "well! plenty of people like my jokes! the reason you're bored of this is because maybe there's something wrong with you!"

#this was much longer i had to cut it down for legibility #but i do want to say i am aware this post doesnt touch on human rights violations as a result of fast fashion #that is because it deserves its own post with a completely different tone #i am an environmental educator #so that's what i know the most about. it wouldn't be appropriate of me to mention off-hand the real and legitimate suffering #that people are going through #without doing my research and providing real ways to help #this is a vent post about a thing i'm watching happen; not a call to action. it would be INCREDIBLY demeaning #to all those affected by the fast fashion industry to pretend that a post like this could speak to their suffering #unfortunately one of the horrible things about latestage capitalism as an activist is that SO many things are linked to this #and i WANT to talk about all of them but it would be a book in its own right. in fact there ARE books about each level of this #and i encourage you to seek them out and read them!!! i am not an expert on that i am just a person on tumblr doing my favorite activity #(complaining) #and it's like - this is the individual versus the industry problem again right because im blaming myself #for being an expert on environmental disaster (which is fucking important) but not knowing EVERYTHING about fast fashion #i'm blaming myself for not covering the many layers of this incredibly complicated problem im pointing out #rather than being like. yeah so actually the fault here lies with the billion dollar industries actually. #my failure to be able to condense an incredibly immense problem that is BOOK-LENGTH into a single text post that i post for free #is not in ANY fucking way the same amount of harm as. you know. the ACTUAL COMPANIES doing this ACTUAL THING for ACTUAL MONEY. #anyway im gonna go donate money while i'm thinking about it. maybe you can too. we can both just agree - well i fuckin tried didn't i #which is more than their CEOs can say

[marc--chilton]

screaming going insane im begging you to talk more about house developing a pavlovian response to wilsons nagging. like you’re right.

like house is already not subtle about wilson (you can only joke about wanting to fuck a guy so much before people start thinking you actually wanna fuck the guy) (i am not convinced he was ever joking)

and house has sooo many issues, the most prevalent being ones that stem from his leg and resulting disability after a life of activity, BUT we also must consider also those that stem from his childhood..... when a parent treats you terribly even the most logic-minded and rational people will think they deserve it. and when that is normal for you, it's almost a comfort. especially if that's the only attention you're getting from them

now let's set that aside for a second. house has always thought of wilson positively from day one (finding him "interesting" which is like the normal person equivalent of saying love at first sight, in this case) and i am not alone in thinking that house is pining in some form. and he fucks. the wires get crossed. something in his brain goes from "no one can make him mad like i can :) " to "he's hot when he's negging me" to house beating it in the hospital showers

95% (why did the numbers get HUGE just then. like i'm making a point sure but goddamn 70 point font pop off) of the time house will walk away from an interaction with wilson feeling great, even if he just got lectured within an inch of his life. just look at how often he gets the Diagnosis Revelation just from bothering wilson for five minutes (and that being all of wilson's screentime in the ep)

they're sick. they're basically having sex every episode. there are cathedrals everywhere for those with the eyes to see

#house md #hilson #anon #ask #i am not a psychologist or whatever. obviously. disclaimers n such #and like wilson is so fr about getting on to house is the worst part #he doesnt even notice how house's pupils dilate when he tells him “i'm glad you're here actually” in That Tone #but yeah in short the self loathing and daddy issues meeting a mother hen is a recipe for disaster #and or crazy insane messy sex if wilson would stop being dense and repressed

[secretsimpleness]

How to almost make the game crash when opening the storage chest. Geralt of Rivia / The Witcher 3 (c) CD Project Red

#geralt of rivia #the witcher #the witcher fanart #comic #cd projekt red #geralt #witcher 3 #tw3 #loot #new sword #storage chest #I saved one of each sword I found. there are a lot of swords in the game. the storage chest was a complete disaster. #I'm that type of person who wants to remember the good old days by looking through my inventory. #do I do so often? no. but I want to be ABLE to do so if I ever feel the urge to remember that one sidequest 30h ago. #or what about that time I found that sword in the water? yeah that was nice. which sword was it again..?

[grey-viridian]

Aaand a little bit of process

#my art #art #tmnt #tmnt fanart #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #disaster twins #rise disaster twins #leonardo #tmnt leonardo #rise leo #tmnt donatello #rise donatello #rise donnie #bisexual lighting #my beloved #I like how the sketch and line art came out #but the colored version is... eh? fine? #i wasn't looking at any references of rise backgrounds and it shows #i'm more of a characters person #i have no idea what im doing #it all started with one litttle doodle of donnie #then i thought “why not add leo with some funny face” #and then my brain was like “finish it.” #so yeah

[askblueandviolet]

I'm here to remind everyone, including you, that Macaque called you 'baby', 'sweet cheeks', and 'my little snow cone'. He also told 'you aged like fine wine' so basically he call you hot, all in the same chapter

MASTER POST

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#lego monkie kid #lego monkie kid fanart #monkie kid #monkie kid fanart #lmk #lmk fanart #lmk mayor #monkie kid mayor #blue and violet #they were too caught up on the fact that they were called old to realise Macaque was indeed low-key flirting with them #but then again Macaque wasn't 'really' flirting with them #but still yeah it was somewhat flirting #it would be funny to make it so that neither of them realised it was flirting #these two disasters will be the end of me #honestly I'm gonna be for real though 'my little snowcone' is definitely something Macaque would keep calling them- #-if he were to actually be comfortable around the Mayor again for real

[hellolulu]

> Be an esper

> Be so powerful that some weird terrorist group keeps trying to recruit you even though you're a child

> Live alone with no parental supervision (probably because you are being targeted by the terrorist group)

> Become disillusioned to believe you are the star of the world, the main protagonist, and that everyone else should bow down to you

> Become leader of the local delinquents and win fights just for the thrill of being #1 no matter who steps up

> Get your ass handed to you by a guy who cried about handing your ass to you

> Realise gay feelings and renounce former lifestyle to become his devoted follower instead

> Help him take down the aforementioned terrorist organisation, while trying to look good in front of him the whole time because you're determined to be his rival (and lover)

> He doesn't seem to care either way, but you are his friend and he likes to confide in you, so this only fuels your passion to be noticed by him more

> You assist him in buying the ugliest t-shirt for his big reveal event because you are a fashion disaster and genuinely think he's rocking the look

> You refuse to be brainwashed because some guy called Psycho Helmet is trying to impersonate the dude you've devoted your life to

> You get brainwashed

> Get broken out of brainwashing because the guy who handed your ass to you at the start of the school year is so cool to you that literal godly powers can't stop you from being gay for him

> The ugly tshirt you helped him to buy ended up being the catalyst for him defeating the cult

> The world will never know the work you put in, but you are so devoted that it will literally never matter to you 💖 Go king go 💖

> You are Hanazawa from mob psycho 100 and this is your literal canon story

#i love one straight guy and his gay best friend #it's funny I'm not a terumobber usually but #all the ageswap aus have me saying yeah terumob #so idk what this is all about #ageswap mob bi normal mob straight? #idk my brain is just having a funny silly goofy time #terumob #mobteru #hanazawa #shigeo #mob #hanazawa teruki #teruki hanazawa #hanazawa mp100 #mp100 hanazawa #hanazawa the fashion disaster #also this is literally all canon mob is so powerful #mp100 #mp100 spoilers #mob psycho 100 #mob psycho 100 spoilers

[teathattast]

So what you doing Monday?

Doing Tuesday?

What you doing every day for the rest of your life?

'Cause that's where I'll spend mine

°•☆•°♡°•☆•°

And just like that

We fell so fast

And I can't help it

And I don't want to

#love notes #emily vaughn #only us #babe i know youve been afraid #of repeating the same old pain #but i'm telling you we're different #even our friends know we're really in it #cause we're in love and we're falling faster #and sure you can wonder if it'll be a disaster #but what if it won't? #what it we float? #so baby take a moment and really see me #let me calm your fears let them drift into my sea #i promise you'll be safe with me #cause there's no one else i'd rather see #than you #you're my one true love yeah it's true #only one i need next to me is you #and i'll keep screaming it til my face turns blue #baby i'm in love with you

[jeeaark]

HAPPY SQUIDS ENDING 🐙 ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ Also. Do you have any idea how the way you draw Empy is incredibly sexy. I'm sorry but these drawings of him with bandages and all, are... Are 1. Super beautiful and 2. You're doing him way too handsome and all for my sanity, sorry for the weird message. Also omg I just love the way you show hum and all and Grey is so cute and aaaaaaaaaah I love you!!!+++

And a Merry Squids Ending to you too! \ o / I am. Hrm. Atrociously Hyper-Aware of what I've drawn! But sometimes. The original muscle tone sketches are too pretty to reduce for accuracy. And sometimes. You just gotta self-indulge with not only a happy ending, but a pretty squid as well. Besiiiides, if all the 8 strength male companions can have six-packs, I think squid buddy is allowed to look like they can do a pull up or two without the need for levitation (probably can't in actuality though. Like the six-packed male companions with sit-ups.)

#But I'm glad you find the shirtless disaster pretty too! #Not a weird message! Is honest and bold- good stuff hell yeah~ #Sure I'm alkdfjasdfjsdf but I'm ALSO FLATTERED so thank you for the exuberantly kind compliments~ ;v; / <33333333

[figsandphiltatos]

if you asked me back in 2018 if i'd ever be found dead saying aelwyn abernant is just like me fr i would have told you there was no goddamn way.

#“i have a job. apartment. powerful adjurer. so.” #like the disaster burn out that comes with being a young adult roughly ejected from an abusive/dysfunctional/neglectful family???? #yeah. yeahhh she gets me. #fantasy high #fhjy spoilers #fantasy high junior year #fantasy high: junior year #i'm trying so hard to tag this so it doesn't spoil anything for anyone 🫡 #not that this is necessarily like... plot relevant #aelwyn abernant

[justalittlebluetiefling]

In non-boop related life updates, I have fully finished an outline for a book and have actually written 3400 words in a first draft and that is a huge deal for me, because I've never gotten this far with original fiction before.

#i'm actually very proud of myself #my goal is to finish a first draft #i don't really care what happens after that i just don't want to be one of those people that is always talking about writing a book #and never doing it #so yeah #that's what i've been up to so far this year #also i'm trying sock curls tonight for the first time and i'm sure it'll be a disaster but here's to trying new stuff

[count-doodoo]

palps gets a lot of flack (deservedly so) for being a shit teacher but like,, have you seen the disaster lineage?

yoda [light side]: trains dooku [falls to the dark, dies], luke

dooku [light side]: trains rael, qui-gon [dies], komari [falls to the dark]

dooku [dark side]: trains ventress [goes grey], savage [dies]

qui-gon [light side]: trains feemor [repudiated], xanatos [falls to the dark, dies], obi-wan [repudiated (melida/daan), taken back, pseudo-repudiated (tpm)]

obi-wan [light side]: trans anakin [falls to the dark], luke

anakin [light side]: trains ahsoka [leaves the order]

luke [light side]: trains ben solo [falls to the dark]

anyways hats off to NONE OF THEM for succeeding at training anyone.

#i'm not super familiar with eu or legends or even canon nowadays so i might've missed some people #i guess a lot of the qui-gon drama is actually not canon #(fee and xan are legends i believe? and so is the melida-daan thing) #but either way he DID try to take on ani in tpm #so yeah i'm down to pin ani on him if we're not accepting any legends material #star wars #disaster lineage #yoda #dooku #qui-gon #obi-wan #idk i'm not tagging the rest bc hmmphhh

[yashley]

laudna: that way we can message each other. fearne: oh right lol

#critical role #imogen x fearne #imogearne #but I mean I'm gonna chew on imogen saying that to be nice and immediately JUMPING on the first thing fcg said #yeah it's not above imogen's other interest but COMPELS me though a faun in your face and you're blushing harder than you probably should be #but we are absolutely a thousand percent not unpacking THAT. one unrequited love at a time. imogen's just too real I literally #there is a SAFETY and familiarity with laudna despite imogen's deeper feelings but fearne is so unpredictable with feelings it's a gamble #ESPECIALLY with their current heightened state pairing up with chaotic fearne when imogen's tryna keep her shit together in every way #I need fearne to zone of truth imogen because it is a show to me when fearne zeros in on imogen to shake her up it's SO GOOD #it's SUCH a bluff #like if fearne Wanted imogen to admit she wanted to be on a team with laudna then why was she so pleased when it didn't happen #granted unfortunately the team up was a complete disaster so I don't know I'm playing the game wrong I know that #fearne gives attention and imogen stammers i just don't know man #fearne desperately wanting to prove to imogen she can be capable and fix the coin toss for imogen hmmmmm #fearne pleading with imogen what should she Do and now she’s trying to suddenly be a respectable teacher and capable partner hmmm #they shake me by the shoulders begging me to see it means nothing

[thenamedoesnotmattertome]

Wanted to draw a different psychic long time ago, but didn't have the courage to do it. Well look at me now...

#my post #art #my art #digital art #saiki fanart #saiki k #the disaster of psi kusuo saiki #the disasterous life of saiki k #the disastrous life of saiki k. #finally #glad I made it #so yeah #drink water #and go to bed #o_o #i'm watching you #●_●

[stiltonbasket]

for the wrh raises wwx au,, what was the gusu lan sect's reaction to lwj becoming wwx's concubine? and what was jiang fengmian's reaction when he realized wwx was wei changze and cangse sanren's child?

The Lan sect (minus Nielan, who were both aware that Wei Wuxian would protect LWJ with his life if he had to) was mostly just relieved to learn that Lan Wangji had been rescued from WRH's torture chambers. They didn't particularly care about Lan Wangji becoming a concubine; the entire Sunshot alliance knew that Wei Wuxian had been poisoned and was likely too weak to pose any threat to LWJ, and Wei Wuxian was also believed to be deeply in love with Yu Zhenhong.

Jiang Fengmian found out about the Wei Wuxian's compulsion seals less than a month after he heard that WWX was living at the Nightless City, so he was very much not relieved to find out that his best friend's son had been adopted by Wen Ruohan. D:

#asks #wrh raises wwx au #yeah...lwj thought he was going to marry a general bound to wrh's will and thus have to kill said general OR be killed by him #instead he spent the first several months of his marriage feeling VERY jealous of Yu Zhenhong #lwj be like: so that's your confidante? #THAT is the man who follows you to war? #the man who avenges you? #that's your type? a paler and skinnier version of jiang wanyin? #that's the man you snuggle up with each night you spend away from me? #do you hold his hands and put them on your face? #like you did to me? do you let him see you with your hair down? do you comb your hair in front of him? #do you let him TOUCH the hair that turned me into a gay disaster after I caught a mere GLIMPSE of it?????? #meanwhile yzh: i...i'm feeling a little unsafe...

[pangolinsandnewts]

A zombie, a ghost, and an oni walk into a bar...

(pspspsps you wanna reblog my art you wanna reblog my art so bad)

#lego ninjago #ninjago #ninjago fanart #ninjago morro #harumi ninjago #harumi jade #lloyd garmadon #disaster cousins #Green cousins #Rambling in tags warning #Do you guys like my red green purple symbolism #Harumi gets MORE crystals everywhere. As a treat #Lloyd gets oni horns based off Lego elves #Storm Morro is purple change my mind (you can't) #Anyways this is the last page of my school sketchbook and I was feeling sentimental #So I added all my favorite design traits n stuff #Also I'm probably gonna take a content creation break after this #I absolutely love and appreciate all the support on my art #But it's also discouraging to see something you've worked hours and hours on get so few notes #So yeah byeeeeeee #If this bombs I will cry #Art time :)