#yep just rambling

[hamiltrash-thoughts]

I literally just created this blog to write about this like I could've written this anywhere else but wanted to talk about this here anyways

Just imagined (actually, it has been on my mind for the past two days) a song between We Know and Hurricane, and it was like----

It's kind of immediate after Burr, Jefferson and Madison exit Hamilton's office, and he's pacing around while having an internal conflict because he doesn't know if he can trust them and be sure they wouldn't try to use his affair with Maria Reynolds against him and his mind is just racing while he's trying to figure out what to do so the situation won't get out of control and his legacy isn't ruined and-

Who appears out of nowhere? BOOM! JOHN LAURENS

(more like his ghost but you get it)

Like, literally in the same spot where he last appeared, in Laurens' Interlude----

They look at each other, Alex kinda shocked like "Laurens????"

And Laurens like "Hamilton.", stoned face while looking at his friend.

Alex is turning away because "You shouldn't be here, you're supposed to be gone."

And John is trying to call his attention because he knows Alex fucked up but by how stressed his friend looked, he had to help him figure out what to do.

And basically most of the song is both of them debating, Alexander saying that he had to do something to guarantee that his enemies wouldn't share his affair with the public and absolutely destroy his legacy, while Laurens is just there trying to convince Ham to leit it go and to not give attention to them because, fuck it, he knew Alex and he knew that, if he were to do anything, he'd end up fucking up everything even more (at least, thinking like this as if Laurens chilled out after his death — after all, it was his own recklessness that got him killed in the first place).

But Hamilton's mind is just so confused that he just shouts to make Laurens shut up, and yells at him how he wasn't there for him when he needed the most.

Then there's like a little pause then Laurens sings:

L: I trusted you like I didn't trust my own mind

I could've never find anyone as astonishing as your kind

And I've lived for you until the last day of my life

So I won't let you ruin yours the way I ruined mine.

((if you got the hint YES Laurens is singing the same way as Angelica in "Satisfied" when she talks about Eliza: just to give a sort of "hint" to how Laurens felt about Hamilton when he was alive)

And probably it's just that part of the song where everything is a mess — Hamilton, more specifically — and then close to the end it's basically

H: I can't let this go, how could I ever go on?

H/L (at the same time): I can't let it gooo/You could let it goooo

And there's a little pause, they look at each other, and then Laurens says/sings:

L: I have to go...

And just when he turns away to get off the stage, Hamilton calls for him.

H: Wait! John. You're the last friend that I got.

L: Alexander. Do not throw away your shot.

(they quoting each other from Stay Alive----)

And then Laurens goes away and Hurricane starts as Hamilton seems to be having an even bigger existencial crisis.

So, I did have some inspirations, since Hamilton has this really interesting element (which I love a lot) of bringing previous songs' lyrics to new songs, as if to "reinforce" their meanings.

First off, I would like to say that, for the concept of the song, I was inspired by a cut song named "I have this friend". Unfortunately, it never made it past the draft. But the premise is pretty much Hamilton getting anxious about the affair and having told about it to TJ, JM and AB, and so he runs to Washing(dad)ton asking advice for "a friend" of his (himself. Because, haha, what friend are you talking about, Alex? They're either dead or kilometers away from you, the only thing that lasted for you was enemies). Even though I like the song, I guess it was for the better it remained at how it is. Or else, the timeline would've been too messy, since, in the song, Washington is still president, and "We Know" happens after he steps down. Unless Hamilton went to Washington on Mount Vernon, but I think Alex would've been too stubborn to do all this to talk about it to someone else he trusted. But yeah, you see where I came from. Hamilton getting advices from his dead friend/lover. ♡

Obviously, I HAD to put a "Satisfied" reference in this song because you can't tell me Laurens didn't drink his ass off so he could avoid thinking of the fact his lover was getting married and there was nothing he could do. So, making Laurens sing to "Satisfied" can imply that, in that time, he had the same heartbreak Angelica had when Alex married Eliza. So yeah, gay sadness, yay.

Also, I'm very obsessed with the song "Let it Go" (no, not from Frozen. The cut song from Hamilton), just listening to Washington and Eliza sing to prevent Alexander from doing anything stupid... it's a really good song. I wish Lin had kept this song alongside the original version of Schuyler Defeated in the Broadway version, they are awesome, and explain a lot about Burr's situation, alongside his family's. But I suppose they were cut because of the time, which is a shame. If they actually were in the musical, I swear I would've made this a "Let it Go (Reprise)" (since I think it would fit way better if these two songs were part of the musical, since it would be, like I said, a "comeback" to them, especially with Laurens saying "You could let it go" to Hamilton).

And finally, a special mention to the workshop version of Hurricane, which has brought me to tears every time I listened to it!!!! I understand that it was cut because of the time between Hurricane and The Reynolds Pamphlet (rip Anthony Ramos for having to play the dead gay lover and the son of Hamilton at the same time), but it was such a shameee. Just that single line put so much depth into Alex and John's relationship, simply by saying that Laurens would be the single person that could stop Hamilton from doing the greatest shit of his life. That, for me, says enough for itself.

(Yes, Laurens' saying "Or you could let it go" inspired me in the same line as Let it Go, but I had to mention it because no one talks about it and it's frustrating).

As for what I thought for the song itself, sure, I had to think on a reason to WHY Laurens would have appeared just now, but then, what I had in mind basically was: The song, more than anything, represents the internal conflict Hamilton is going through. Laurens would be a metaphor for Hamilton's more logical side, while Hamilton himself represent his emotional, impulsive side (which we know he is A LOT). Again, his logic claiming for himself to calm down and think straight (something he isn't ahem sorry I swear I'll take this seriously), while his intiscts are SCREAMING for him to do something, because he just KNOWS TJ, AB and JM could take advantage of their "secret" at any moment.

Now, you might ask: "Why Laurens?". Then I'll tell you.

In "Hurricane Workshop", Hamilton sings "The friend who would tell me not to do it is in the ground.".

Laurens represents Hamilton's logical side because Ham KNEW Laurens would say to him NOT to do something so stupid. They were way too close, they knew each other better than anyone could ever imagine. Hamilton knew Laurens would be the only person who could convince him to not write the Reynolds Pamphlet. Or, perhaps, the only person he would at least try to talk about the affair (that is, probably when he feels way too insecure about anyone else finding out, so he trusts his best friend to vent about everything that's happening). He sees in Laurens someone he can rely on, someone he could count at any time, his ride or die, his closest friend, or even more than just that. Since Hamilton never gave himself time to grieve his friend's death, he still imagines, wonders, practically wishes to know how things would be if Laurens was there for him. And when he has no one else to turn, he just... wonders what would his dear friend do. What would he tell him? Would he smack him in the head for being so ridiculous? Would he make him laugh it off? Would he take him to drink and celebrate the freedom they conquered (the freedom John never got to experience)? Would he embrace him and tell him everything would be okay? Would he tell him he loved him---?

Hamilton never let himself grieve Laurens' death, so Laurens' ghost (whether literally or psychologically, it's up to you) is haunting him to this day. And in a moment of stress like this, when he has no one else to talk to, he just wishes he had Laurens by his side, so he wouldn't have to go through this alone and, ultimately, do something very stupid. Which, guess what, he DID.

And then there's the fact that even if "Laurens" warned him and tried to guide him, Hamilton STILL thought that the only way to get out of this situation was to write about the affair and publish it himself. So you could say Laurens had failed to advise Hamilton, or rather, Ham had interpreted him wrong. I really can imagine John on the other side looking at Alex after he publishes the Reynolds Pamphlet and thinking: "Okay, I told you to not throw away your shot, AND THEN YOU DECIDED TO DO THE EXACT OPPOSITE OF WHAT I TOLD YOU????"

Now, if it's a metaphor involving Laurens, or if it's really his ghost there, it's just something that the public could get their individual interpretations about (if it was in the show). After all, such a complex thing couldn't be simply explained by only visualization. It'd be funny to see people's theories and them catching references from the song. I know this is not even a thing, and it might sound very cliche, but I really liked it :'D

Someone p l e a s e write this song. Or a fanfiction. Idk I just loved this idea for some reason. Maybe because it has been only recently that I've accepted my love for Lams (I have navigated on the "Lams" tag for the past week and I'm obsessed) and I'm finally back to my Hamilton phase.

Yeah, that's my idea, I guess. I know I rambled a lot, but I couldn't hold myself. I hope y'all like it. And English is not my first language, and I'm sure I wrote something wrong, so please, be kind 😅

#hamilton the musical #alexander hamilton #john laurens #lams #hamilton x laurens #yep just rambling #don't mind me #I got way too excited about this #I'm no songwriter so yeah :/ #I give ideas not results

[the1trueanon]

@nonomives just your normal typical Victorian couple, out for a stroll :3 (please click for better quality 😅)

#theyre so normal #yep #all normal here #vampires? who? either of them? nahhhhh /j #hehehehe im love they #this is really just my comfort au lmao #also! hehehe #rosemary totally has her hair tied back with one of wally's ties or something :3 #he'd probably start wearing roses/rose pins or something in return :3 #theyyyyyy #anon speaks #anon rambles #anon's art #anon's doodles #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #welcome home arg #welcome home vampire wally au #vampire wally darling #vampire wally au #vampire #wally darling #welcome home wally #welcome home oc #rosemary louis #welcome home rosemary #sage clearsky #welcome home sage #anon rambles in the tags #welcome home appleteashipping

[zhongrin]

if you see this, and you're about to sleep (like me), i hope we both get a good rest and our f/os visits us in our dreams ᰔᩚ

if you're just starting your day, good luck and i hope your day will be good and filled with positive things coming straight to your way ᰔᩚ

and if you're in the middle of your day, i hope you're given strength to tackle the remaining hours before you can kick back and relax ᰔᩚ

#rin rambles #praying hoping wishing my eczema won't flare up again and woke me up in the middle of the night like the past few days #i'm absolutely tired but twas a productive day.... #planning to visit a cafe and buying some coffee beans tomorrow. and working outside. i think a change of pace will be good for me!!! #and then. and then. i'm gonna totally laze off like a sloth this weekend. #yep. just waiting for period to start so imma just roll around on my bed doing nothing!!! #(well i still have to clean and do laundry and do some cooking BUT NEVERTHELESS) #i deserve the relaxation!!! an introvert's gotta recharge!!! raaaaaaaah (why am i screaming. i do not know /silly)

[albino-parakeet]

That one art of Yoshiki with his hair being blown by wind and covering his eyes creeps me out like…

I know it’s ironic since that’s just how he keeps his hair, but you can usually see at least one of his eyes.

I feel like I’m being cursed every time I see this art.

#the summer hikaru died #I’m not lying when I say I usually see this one drawing at least once a day. Not on purpose. #But the one time I’m actually looking for it. I CANT FIND IT HELLO???! TAKING FOREVER JUST TO FIND IT. #Finally found it. Yep just as unsettling as I remember. #That one vine of the guy eating a KitKat “wrong” while the same guy playing a different person is begging them to stop #That’s Mokumoku Ren to Me with this picture. #Doubt it’s anything other than a doodle. Maybe it’s foreshadowing who knows lol. #All I know is that Mokumoku Ren has made it obvious that characters’ eyes have meaning. #And it makes this drawing in particular creepier to me. #i’m just rambling

[ypipie]

i havent attempted to animate at all since like 2018 go easy on me

#also this is my first time drawing stan i think #idk why i chose to make him CRY as my first time but. you get what you get #stanley pines #gravity falls #uhh i dont. have an animation tag? #i should get one then i guess uhh #animateing #yep thatll do #ill also tag as #doodles #even though its a gif :-) #firealpaca works for this!!!! im so glad i found something i can execute my ideas in #i had to fiddle with it a bunch though and find a brush i liked but thisll do for now #!!!! im so excited for the future theres so much i can do now #i rambled in the tags again.sorry im just nervous about posting this #.hbvcb

[pmrin]

guys oh my god sea monsters cant be amphibians because. their rib cage expands whenthey breath. i shit you not i cant make this shit up the animation detail of luca's shoulders moving in the shot when alberto tells him to breathe when he first goes on the surface legit makes them amniotes. they have to be reptiles. oh my god. my worl just fell apart.

#guys maybe its just a behavioral thing haha maybe he just. lifts his shoulders up for no reason when he breathes for the first time ever #yep #im actually punching the wall #not really im not mad #luca being an animated movie that doesnt follow the trends of evolution strikes again #luca 2021 #legit only tagging that because i feel like i just got hit with a brick #i need. i need to ramble about this to someone. wait oh my god #BUT REPTILES DONT HAVE GILLS oh ymg

[shmorp-mcdurgen]

Rambled about body type hcs in discord and figured I’d share them here too Heehoo

I have so many discord rambles I could share here but don’t, but. Have these at least before I go to bed tonight /VLH

Also bonus au characters below the cut:

#ramblings :) #Mandela catalogue #tmc #yep I’m main tagging it. look at my headcanons boy #headcanons and shit #also gonna tag my aus #tmc alternate au #mandela prophet #tmc Labrats au #tmc monster au #don’t know what else to add. just. lookit

[theprosecutionisgayyourhonor]

A friend of mine: What’s this Ace attorney game about that you keep talking about?

Me, internally: It’s about trauma and healing, it’s about personal growth and finding a family in the people closest to you. It’s about forgiving yourself and allowing yourself to move on. It’s about finding friends and cutting ties to the past. It’s about finding a purpose in life and deciding for yourself for the first time.

Me, out loud: It’s just a silly game about lawyers…

#look! you sound so absolutely unhinged when you tell someone all of this #me pulling out my four pages long essay about Franziska: Yep! I am normal #these games are just phenomenal #ace attorney #elle rambles #cant believe I forgot about the channeling

[arolesbianism]

I am once again being haunted by "a paradox" holy fuck Olivia what the fuck is going on here what did you get yourself involved with and what did you do after it speak to me Olivia I can't keep living like this

#rat rambles #oni posting #the second half fills you with the horrors so you forget that the log opened up with that b111-1 bomb #for the record a paradox is one of my favorite lore logs of all of them because its the log that made me go Oh Shit and go reread all the #olivia logs I initially only skimmed through and begun the olivia brain takeover #the second part rewired my brain irreversably like its so fucked I love it #in particular one thing that makes me so fucking glad that the old olivia jackie logs were scrapped is that originally jackie was the one #who printing pod ified olivia to save her from the end of the world or smth #but the change to make it self inflicted? fucking amazing ten million times better and more interesting #especially because it implies she did it on purpose! #which opens up so many doors and I fucking Love it #because the teleportation technology was what she knew of as a method of doing this but either A shed have to have kept using teleporters #anyways and either just count on her not dying or counting On her dying #or shed have to know the link between it and the neural vaculators #which is very possible considering Stuff™ but does raise the question of how she used it #now the boring answer is that her brain map was already taken from the neural vaculator tests but god. that answer is boring. #the most interesting possibility to me personally is that she could have well. tinkered a bit with existing technology. #unlikely? maybe. fun to explore for my purposes? yep. #also I need the peace of knowing that jackie never got the satisfaction of knowing what happened with olivia's dissapearance #or if she did only after the fact #I need this to have been completely out of jackie's viewpoint at the top and I need it to fuck with her and shatter her worldview #I need to see the desperation and paranoia of a woman who is realizing that she has lost control over her technology #I need to see her try to cling onto her past ambitions and sense of control while falling apart at the seams #and I need olivia to have never thought jackie would give a shit until all else but her is dead and gone #do you see my vision do you see it do you see how much more fun it is if it was extremely deliberate instead of only lightly so

[kaiserouo]

Soul Silencer Ghost

#gosh i really want them to have a part of the other person #to prove something #(possibly their love <3) #and they both have their own signature sidearm #MMMMM #ok ramble time #i kinda #forgot how to draw #(yep that's something i can do) #like i can't even nail down a draft #or gesture or something #i just suddenly don't understand how i did any of those stuff now #idk how to say this i just can't even start #stare at a blank canvas for 30 minutes challenge accepted #hypothesis proven drawing is pure magic QED #valorant #omen #valorant omen #kay/o #valorant kay/o #my art

[theindescribable1]

If I ever have kid/kids and they start saying creepy stuff or talking about their doll/dolls being alive...I WILL believe them...I am not taking any chances. I have seen enough horror movies, I will believe it. Dolls do get possessed, its a real thing. If my kid came up to me and said; "The doll said it wants to kill me" Or some shit like that.. I WILL CRY, TAKE THE DOLL TO THE CHURCH, GET THAT MF BLESSED, AND IF THAT DOESNT WORK I WILL GET IT LOCKED UP NEXT TO ANNABELLE.

I would be a great parent, none of that; "Oh its just a doll! Its not real!" None of that bullshit...even if my kid is just making up stories I am not taking any risks!

Come on...Annabelle is based off a real story, she is a real af demon doll...

And Child's Play isnt real but uhh.. Possessed dolls, yeah.

Damn I would be the best parent ever.

#Rambling #just me at like midnight... #talking about possessed dolls... #Yeah... #parenting #yep.. #I would be a great parent #yeaaahhhhh #.......... #child's play #annabelle #horror #horror movies #yep...just me... #being a dumbass... #Ahem #I will be the best parent ever....... #notice how i said WILL #ima be busy one night #hehehe #i hope no one reads this far into the tags- #im getting kind of sus... #AMOUNG US #hehe haha #im gonna shut my dumbass up... sorry

[unclewaynemunson]

Until you face the rope

When Eddie opens his eyes, his body is hurting everywhere. He bites back a groan and immediately closes his eyes again, hoping to make the pain go away as if all of it was merely a nightmare. But he can't keep the memories out just by closing his eyes: that trick didn't work when he was a little boy afraid of his own parents, and it doesn't work now.

The images of everything that happened wash over him in rapid succession: Chrissy's bones snapping against the ceiling of his living room, Patrick's lifeless body splashing into Lovers Lake, a stormy sky filled with bats. Dustin's tears dripping onto his face while he breathed what he thought was his dying breath.

He doesn't know what happened after. He doesn't know where he is. He doesn't even know how the fuck it's possible that he's still alive.

With another stifled groan, he manages to open his eyes again and he lifts his head enough to look around.

It looks like he's in a hospital room, but at the same time it doesn't: white walls, sterile scent; a window with bars in front of it and a big steel door. The room is small and empty except for a desk, a chair and the bed Eddie is lying on.

He turns his head downwards to inspect his own body, and that is when he realizes where he must be: he's wearing an orange jumpsuit.

Continue reading on ao3 (1st part is 1.8k words; 2 more parts to go!)

#don't mind me rambling about stranger things #yep ya girl caved and started writing angst #lemme tell you i've been intrigued by this very real post-s4 possibility forever #and i've always been surprised it's not explored more often in fics #but honestly i get it now bc damn this ain't easy to write #i know jackshit about lawsuits and trials and day to day prison life lmao #just gonna bluff my way through this i guess #eddie munson #wayne munson #stranger things #fanfic #ao3 #fruity ficlet

[knife-filled-plushies]

Okay. So.

Once again, I'll throw out my two cents involving Bloodmoon.

I want to make it clear that I do not support the actions of Bloodmoon. They have done some horrible things and I do not think that any of the people they have targeted deserved that kind of physical and mental agony. At this point in their story that the showrunners have stretched, it is very hard to say that they're "innocent". (Seriously, the showrunners really hammered in the wrong point with that comment. At least for me, I don't think they're innocent, I just think they could've done better with their character.)

HOWEVER, I do like their character and I find them very intriguing as an antagonist. Like, seriously, they have probably the healthiest sibling relationship and the one that I find genuinely sweet. Before they do anything, they always make sure to check in with their other to see what they have to say and if they're okay with whatever they're doing. And nothing is really hidden from the other even when one of them is unavailable. It's a very genuine level of communication that you don't really see with the rest of the characters. (I'm also aware that this isn't really...Bloodmoon Bloodmoon. But the love they have for each other is very real, in my opinion.)

I can also see a lot of reasoning (not excuses, of course) for what they do. Bloodmoon has been a tool to be discarded from day one, so it would make sense that they would lash out and attempt to destroy anything that they would think would hurt them. They were also made to be violent so of course their defense mechanism would be violent. It makes sense in both a character standpoint and in terms of their programming. No one really understands them. No one understands how they operate. And since this Bloodmoon was only made from a select few memories of the original Bloodmoon, there are also bound to be some differences.

The way I'm seeing it, there is a clear lack of understanding of how Bloodmoon operates. Traditional help is confusing for them and if someone suggests it, then they probably just see it as a way for the person to get them to leave that person alone. Which they don't like. Because it shows that the person offering it without a second thought doesn't understand them.

It...also probably doesn't help that the celestial siblings gave up pretty quickly after their first try. Which, I mean, yeah? You tried the bare minimum. Of course that wasn't gonna work.

So yeah. "Traditional redemption" doesn't sit well with me regarding Bloodmoon. If they did something with them that fit more with their character and gave them development that meant something in the long run, then I would be happy. But full-on, "proper" redemption or full-on, one-dimensional villainy doesn't seem right to me either way.

#pastel babbles randomly #sun and moon show #the sun and moon show #tsams bloodmoon #sams bloodmoon #tsams #yep #rambling about this guy again #apologies if it sounds like i'm just repeating what i've said before #but i wanted to say a little something and clarify some things after that very pointed comment in the most recent episode #we're not mad that bloodmoon isn't being made “innocent” #we're mad because you brought them back for no reason

[thebuttsmcgee]

Man. I just get so actually legitimately sad each time I remember that toh ended and that we live in the post-toh world. Like it really is over.

Ms Dana Terrace has said that she'd like to do more given the chance (and after some quality time off of bigger projects, just to chill), but as far as we know, it's the end.

Heck, we barely got anything after the final episode, no books, no special merch, no dedicated little chibi shorts, nothing really, aside from the, thankfully fun, get-togethers of the cast and crew!

Idk. Ah well actually nah, I do know, that this show just meant an enormous lot to me. Incredibly huge, the kind that you can't break away from and wouldn't want to anyway. The kind that feels like, man, where would I be without it.

Happy 1 Year, to the end of The Owl House. Thank you, The Owl House.

I hope the future is bright, for all of us.

#The Owl House #TOH #Owl House #and tbh. its also why I havent exactly been posting as much! #I just. really miss it man. #and thinking so hard of how great it all was. gets me choked up for real lol. #I do hope theres more for us in the future. I really cant say for certain. #Cause to be less sentimental and more analytical for a moment #TOH was d1sney's biggest original ip hit that wasnt a movie for both such a long time and in a good long time! #Yes yes the internet doesn't always entirely mean the reality of things (which is why financially bcg is their biggest hit technically) #but to actually think back upon it all #TOH always had news articles and video essays and huge followings on tons of communities #especially on youtube! which isn't that easy! Youtube will always be dominated by bigger named things so the fact that toh DID get trending #number 1 more than once? Was incredibly impressive. And not just that but the viewer demand and count were through the roof! Huge in general #television numbers. All to say that is is that toh was an enormous hit. both financially and to people. so. yeah. It's. kind of in the air? #I guess? that no one really knows what could happen. I mean hell amph1bia is still getting books. #Granted....lets not forget ofc that disknee really. really. reaaaally doesnt. like. toh. ×^| but who knows! #personally? still hoping for a save the light styled game someday. or just some game that I can play on my switch someday. #but yep! Enough of my rambling. Thank you for everything The Owl House. really. Truly.

[hwangism143]

fake dating except they're so domestic that they can't imagine ever being with anyone else atp (like casually referring to each other as their so and kissing in the comfort of their home, completely caught up in the act)

#like just cuddling on the couch when one goes #'we're in love right?' #'yep' 'okay #- via rambles

[cynicalstardustkingdom]

hot take but eddie giving steve a speech about how he should get nancy back and then will giving mike a speech about how el's always going to need him. i don't know where i was going with this i just wanted the gay people on my television screen to be happy. watching them force down their feelings so that they could help the boy they're in love with, see him happy and smiling because that's all that they want. even when it means sacrificing their own happiness. it's so personal and it hurts so badly.

#this doesn't make any sense im sorry #i cant find the right words #also yep imma keep talking about eddie being in love with steve as if its at all canon litetally just dni if that bothers you?? <3 #steddie #byler #eddie munson #will byers #steve harrington #mike wheeler #st spoilers #stranger things 4 #stranger things #romeo's ramblings