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[tamanna-dhiman]

Funny isn't it

I laughed with you

And that's the thing that made me cry the most in the end

-Tamanna Dhiman

[tamanna-dhiman]

I gave approximately 8 chances to a single person. That just leaves me with 1 chance for atleast 8 people.

[tamanna-dhiman]

No one is ever gonna understand these phases I get

The only reason I believe I am always gonna stay alone

It's not that I love cutting people out of my life

But I know how disappointing I'm to be around and it's better if I don't exist in their lives

To be honest Drama does kinda follows me everywhere

But I don't even know how to convince those around me that it isn't my fault

And damn I know how hard it is to cry

Only if I could cry and let it all out

It would be all easy but it's impossible for me to cry because I have shut out my emotions long enough to even understand what crying feels like

It's just too hard

I just turn numb for most of the times

And even after all this there is this person in me who still hopes that things are gonna be better and I don't know what to tell her for being so stupid

- Tamanna Dhiman

[tamanna-dhiman]

And here I'm again

Standing exactly where I started running away from

I think sometimes my only fault is that I exist

None of it would have happened if I wasn't there

And even though I never did anything I still find myself blaming my own self for everything

Why do I have to be such a critic for me

And I wish I could just make it all stop for once

Because I'm so exhausted

I'm exhausted not because I did something bad

I'm exhausted because I couldn't never do anything at all

I know none of the above is making sense right now

But maybe I'm a little bit drunk and so the words that are coming out of me a bit slurred

And maybe one day I will manage to run away from all this for good

- Tamanna Dhiman

[tamanna-dhiman]

And here I'm again

Standing exactly where I started running away from

I think sometimes my only fault is that I exist

None of it would have happened if I wasn't there

And even though I never did anything I still find myself blaming my own self for everything

Why do I have to be such a critic for me

And I wish I could just make it all stop for once

Because I'm so exhausted

I'm exhausted not because I did something bad

I'm exhausted because I couldn't never do anything at all

I know none of the above is making sense right now

But maybe I'm a little bit drunk and so the words that are coming out of me a bit slurred

And maybe one day I will manage to run away from all this for good

- Tamanna Dhiman

[tamanna-dhiman]

I'm sorry if you think I couldn't love you

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[tamanna-dhiman]

We'll are made a bit in the same way

We have this part of us that is a hopeless romantic and believes in fantasy and love and friendships lasting forever

Until we get hurt

And turn into a realist

Being a realist isn't easy I tell you

We have been brainwashed by the novels we read as kids, or the movies we watched,

We have been in love with this amazing illusion of romanticized love.

We think we have to feel a certain way when that one person kisses us

Or this friendship is gonna last till we're 70 and we'll sit in our front porch reminiscing about how stupid we were in our 20's

Or maybe thinking everything we feel at this exact moment is forever.

But it doesn't work like that.

The earlier you realize it, easier it gets.

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She believed them more than she ever believed me

She said I'm exactly like the things her friends warned her about

That I cannot be trusted

As if I meant nothing

And it's hard to get over the words she said in her anger

Tho she apologized but it seems impossible to forget them

Because everytime I will see her I will only remember the things she said in anger

How she meant those things

And how much she hated me

And I'm still trying to hate her as much as she did once

But it's exhausting

I'm exhausted pretending to hate her

I just can't do it anymore

But I can't even love her anymore

So here I'm stuck

Doing absolutely nothing yet draining all of my energy

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