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My feed is screaming that the mop fandom is still alive and well and I’m living for it tbh

#mlp #okay there’s some really strange tags under feed please don’t try that

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Oh Weird Al Yankovic.

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Show this artist some love ❤️❤️❤️

my clown college grad project from december last year 🎪

#artists on tumblr #artists supporting artists

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holy shit can we be thankful that there are only like, 2 types of phone chargers nowadays? if youre phone died in 2007 you were fuck outta luck

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op turned reblogs off but this post must live. it must live and spread malignantly .

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Does anyone else with the cilantro soapy gene hate carrots? My partner does and I’m genuinely wondering if there’s maybe a connection

#carrots #hate carrots #cilantro #cilantro gene

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Hey, MatPat, I just cried. Thank you so much. We love you. We cried with you. You’re not getting raked across the coals; you’re getting truly appreciated by those whose childhoods live with you.

#we love you matpat #thank you #game theory #goodbye matpat #it’s just a theory

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I think more people need to know that every bad week starts with a few bad days, but that doesn’t mean that every few bad days is the start of a bad week. Sometimes you just gotta get up, get yourself a glass of water, and eat some good food to remember it’s not a bad life, and that things do get better. You’re doing great🫶

#i love you #food #motivation #bad day not a bad life

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It’s The Little Things

Love is the little things,

It’s the huff of your

Breath when I make

You laugh,

It’s the callus

In your fingers

From the song

You play,

It’s the smile

I give when

I see you there,

It’s your “goodnight”

Text at the end

Of every night,

It’s the fact

I’m writing this at all,

Love is the little things,

And you give me

Them all

#i love you #poetry #adoration #small things

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The scenes towards the end of the finale were like an intersection of multiple characters experiencing the loss of father figures, in different shades:

Luz's relationship to her late father took on a different form, after King's own father passed on and his glyph magic was gone for good. Manny gifting her the Azura books before his death, and Papa Titan offering her glyph magic before he too passed on, helped Luz find her place in the world and defeat Belos.

Apparently this scene is what made Sarah Nicole-Robles bawl in the recording studio, right after she recorded the lines.

When these changes happen - when we experience the loss of a person, when our ties with them are wrangled into a new form, against our will - it can be devastatingly painful. Change and transformation make for fancy, dramatic scenes in fiction, and they always incur loss in some form, painful or not. It also made me so emotional when seeing how much 18-year-old Luz resembles Manny, and how her enrolment in the university is linked to both her biological father and Papa Titan.

King's experience of seeing the majesty of his father, however brief, left him in awe and exhilaration. He can rest in the beautiful knowledge that Papa Titan was watching over him the whole time too. The message that his dad left him, relayed by Luz, is something he'll hold dear forever.

Hunter will never be truly harmed by Belos ever again. But he can't discard the memories of Belos granting him attachment: even if the attachment ended up not being real in a sense. However, like what can be applied in real-life therapy, he can get guidance on how to rescript those memories.

Belos's lies about having good intentions don't change how it felt real to Hunter all those years ago. Hunter was a young child when receiving this 'love', and in a twisted way...the mission given to him by Belos kept him alive up till he could escape the Coven, because the mission gave his life meaning despite the circumstances being awfully terrible. A child cannot survive without attachment, and needs attachment even if the experience of attachment has been horrendous and scarring. And holy Titan don't get me started on how at age 16 (before the timeskip), he had yet to learn more grisly details about his predecessors - whom he might view as older brothers and fathers whom he never met - and the generational trauma in his Golden Guard family tree:

which would have definitely been explored before he could experience that amazing hard-won serenity and peace at age 20.

Even Philip's arc is inextricably tied to his manner of coping with how he murdered Caleb, who was the closest thing he had to a father, given how these two brothers were orphans. In the end, Philip meets his end while Luz gazes upon him the same way Caleb's ghost did. Philip won't be haunted by Caleb's ghost again, and he joins the person who was essentially his father figure in death. Till the very end, he was projecting onto another person because he didn't want to recognize the same traits in himself. He was the one responsible for his father figure's death.

But grief doesn't mean the relationships in question have ended altogether. It's kind of like what this post about the finale (link) says, and it even extends to the relationship between us fans and the show itself.

The cliché "5 Stages of Grief" is the most commonly mentioned grief model, but I follow the development and advocacy of a newer perspective on grief that challenges it. In fact, the 5 Stages was originally just intended for terminally ill patients, but it was taken out of proportion. I began a serious investigation into the newer models after I went through something that parallels Hunter losing Flapjack...eerily, it happened to me two weeks before TTT's release date. No wonder I feel so close to Hunter as a blorbo, I guess.

Unlike what the 5 Stages of Grief says, grief and linear time don't mix well. Without "stages" to follow, there isn't an expectation of some deadline or permanent end of a tunnel in the newer models. Such pressure wouldn't be honoring the sacredness of connections between us. Instead, less famous grief perspectives like the dual-process model and continuing bonds model, are a better fit to honor relationships that mattered, since they aren't given an expiry date.

I wonder how Luz would be feeling on the day she graduates from the Wild Magic University, and how King feels each time he unlocks his own new glyphs since he is the new Titan to supply the Isles with magic. And I wonder how Hunter felt when his coven sigil was replaced with the Flapjack tattoo, and how he feels when he sees the Gravesfield town seal and Wittebane statues.

There are ways in which they can get creative to integrate their grief (notice I didn't say "get rid of", "remove", "erase" or even "manage"...the pain is what is to be managed, not the grief itself) the best they can. In canon, we have examples such as the Hexsquad agreeing to get their Flapjack tattoos together. Luz letting go of the light glyph sheet here:

is also a fantastic representation of rituals like sending off a message in a bottle at a beach, tying a message to a balloon and letting it fly away (this happened in Reaching Out, didn't it?), or burning a message in a campfire to let it float up towards the sky in the form of embers.

It is a common recommendation to have exercises like letter-writing where the griever writes to the lost loved one. What many may not know is you can also do the reverse: you writing as your lost loved one, to yourself. Because the griever takes a piece of the lost loved one with them, that the griever has shaped within themselves. This is especially good if you need to extend forgiveness to yourself. An example from a book called Bearing the Unbearable:

The author felt responsible for the stillbirth of her child, but had a "happy accident" where she intuitively asked for forgiveness and then received it, by invoking the love that her child would have shown to her in a world where said child had remained alive.

I think Hunter in particular could benefit from something like this, writing to himself as the uncle whom he saw as genuine and nurturing, and gaining ownership of that part of him even though Belos was a liar and is now gone for good. It can help him move forward especially since he won't be spared from nightmares in which his loss is re-enacted. With this kind of rescripting, historical accuracy doesn't actually need to matter. After all, our own minds lie to us at times and mess with historical accuracy anyway, like Luz's thoughts telling her she was as bad as Belos, and how true that felt.

A physical loved one is lost to death, and it can feel just as painful - only in a different way - if people become estranged or separated without a literal death having occurred. But the connection to them isn't lost, it is only adapted. The bond continues. For better or worse.

I believe the pain in grieving is connected to each moment when we remember all over again that the one we loved isn't coming back.

It's like the needle of a gramophone getting stuck in the loop of an unpleasant-sounding record scratch noise. It's a bit like what C.S. Lewis says in his book A Grief Observed: "In each of my friends there is something that only some other friend can fully bring out." I can't find the other part but he later said something like, therefore if a friendship is lost, the part of you that only that friend could bring out, is also lost. Something in you is locked away forever, though new things can also be unlocked after the loss.

It wasn't shown onscreen but I wouldn't be surprised if it's regular for Luz to come across a meme and be freshly reminded of her dad's absence, because she can't show him that meme. King would be wishing that a new funny cat video he discovers is something his dad could also laugh at along with him. Hunter would be hoping that Flapjack, the previous Golden Guards and Caleb are watching as he brings back palismen.

Bereavement, and any grief that is significant enough to alter our personhood forever, are the forms of love that can never really grasp how time flows in a linear way. They can't be reasoned with, only experienced.

"...the howling at the center of grief is raw and real. It is love in its most wild form" - Megan Devine.

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Only now am I noticing..the two main colours in all these important shots are the blue-green which could easily represent plague/rot/death, and yellowish gold that represents wild magic/light/life. Both shades are seen clashing in all frames, but in the fourth and final one it has all culminated in Luz defeating Belos.

They are definitely related to the green in the castle's corridors and throne room, versus the warmth of the in-between where King's father remained for so long.

The green of the carpet in castle's corridors isn't a sickly hue like the carpet in the throne room.

Both the blue-green and warm gold shades also coexist in a way obviously meant to leave us perturbed and horrified in the grimwalker graveyard (the gold of the masks just...utterly offsetting the dull green around them...representing the life and sense of purpose that all the Guards were probably deeply longing for):

When we see Belos in his deadliest dragon-like form versus a resurrected Luz, everything has built up to their last battle:

And the Emperor's Coven loved the colour gold. Belos claimed he would restore the Isles by ridding it of wild magic, but that was the lie he told, while he used the facade of all that grand regal gold to drain more life from the Isles instead.

Plus I'm not over how Eclipse Lake and Thanks to Them both featured lakes, one dried up and the other perilous with deep deadly water, both of which were locations where Titan Blood was sought after.

You also have Luz and Hunter experiencing both the fullness of life and darkness of death. And there are interesting connections such as both Luz and Flapjack having that warm light. I suppose that's why these won't ever stop tugging so damn hard at my heart, where they briefly work together:

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The hardest part about healing, is treating yourself like a child when your parents did it wrong. Who am I supposed to take as a role model? I’m playing children’s shows of kinder parents in order to treat myself as such. It feels like failure and success all in one

#breaking the cycle #trauma #healing #it’s okay #i’m sorry #you are strong #i love you #i love me

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The Barbie movie so clearly represented how it is to be a woman. To feel that you can’t do anything without being sexualized and ridiculed and hated for it. It’s absolutely exhausting. I wanted to cry so many times during the movie because I felt like it was truly speaking to me. It broke my heart to see all those children in the movie theater watching that

#barbie #barbie movie

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Gonna take out the names but this just happened in my server and I just wanted to share the cursed content I created x'D A friend of mine posted that peanut emoji and idk it just happened x'D

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there are so many people who are waiting to love you. keep going

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The need is not for new depression drugs