andoptimism

[andoptimism]

I’m scared of you telling me you’ve stopped loving me at 2pm in the middle of a parking lot. I’m scared of you telling me you’ve stopped loving me when we wake up one morning. I’m scared of you one day telling me you’ve stopped loving me after I tell you how much I love you. My mind is full of uninvited scenarios of you flatlining my heart with “I don’t love you anymore.” So please try to understand me when I randomly ask you if you still love me.

- Alexa Evangelista, the book I’ll never finish writing

[andoptimism]

Too much of a lot of things can be bad. If you drink more than a required dosage of medicine it’s bad. If you water your plants too much you can kill it. Too much speed while driving a car can be bad. Too much blood coming out of your veins can be bad. So when I look too much into your eyes, I’m just trying to see if there’s a warning sign telling me that loving you too much can eventually kill us.

- Alexa Evangelista, the book I’ll never finish writing

[andoptimism]

Speeding down the street in the dark. A shot in the dark to fix my aching heart.

I hit the gas too hard and my tears go flying through the windshield - my life shattering like the glass and my laughter falling like the shards. But really, I’m okay.

a.j.h.

[andoptimism]

I’m sitting on your lap. You’re sitting on the swing. I kiss you as you suddenly lean back.

“I’m gonna fall,” I say.

“Harder than I already have,” I think.

a.j.h.

[andoptimism]

“I over-analyze situations because I’m scared of what will happen if I’m not prepared for it.”

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[andoptimism]

[andoptimism]

“Anything is possible with a little love and a pretty face and some time to waste.”

— Soul Asylum, Without A Trace (via music-and-quotes)

[andoptimism]

“Sometimes the sins you haven’t committed are all you have left to hold onto.”

— David Sedaris, When You Are Engulfed in Flames (via books-n-quotes)

[andoptimism]

[andoptimism]

You made me unstable and took my breath away. You’d think that since I have asthma it wouldn’t make a difference, but it did. It made everything different.

a.j.h.

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[andoptimism]

I fall asleep - mind full of sorrow and eyes full of tears - after reading your bittersweet messages. It gives me comfort to know you’d pay a penny for a thought about me.

a.j.h.

#poet #poetry #boyfriend #relationship #teenager #love

[andoptimism]

My mama always told me to use my words,

and I’m using my words

but no one can hear me

or maybe no one is listening.

a.j.h.

#poet #poetry #sad #alone #teenager