I don’t know what karmic imbalance I’m in the middle of… but I’m so, so tired.
I have lost my grandma to cancer, lost a friend to surgery complications, an aunt to covid, my furbaby Kyo to a sudden unexplained death… And my new beautiful furbaby Sakura went in for her spay appointment and developed a hernia and now is at the emergency vet overnight for $1366 worth of emergency surgery..
I can’t sleep, I’m so scared. I have nightmares about people dying, and I cannot convince my brain that she will be fine and come out of this surgery okay.. I’m terrified. I’m so tired… life has just been too hard recently..
Last night we found my beautiful baby boy lifeless on the porch. No signs of injury or illness, just laying there, gone.
I am completely heartbroken, he was my world, my baby, my piece of sanity in this terrible time. He has kept me going through so much and was the most beautiful perfect car I ever could have asked for. I had him with me for 10 years, and some of that time I had to have others look after him which always broke my heart. I’d had him with me again for the whole of 2020 and he was so happy and healthy and wonderful that whole time. Now he’s gone and I can’t even afford to find out why he suddenly died. I’m gutted and lost and I want to wake up from this nightmare.
Putting together an outfit for a character for Halloween and this is what I’ve got for clothes... gonna guess who it’s for? (The first shirt I already have ^^)
So I have officially started using my tiktok I suppose... I haven’t done any cosplay stuff there yet but I have a bunch of sounds saved and videos saved for duets soooo.... follow if you want to?
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