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he was ready to risk it all

#i would also risk it all for woozi #< prev tag had it absolutely right #especially with that hairstyle what the fuck. lee jihoon the girlfriend that you could be #god he's so hot #woozi #seventeen

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Hi again!! I happened to be online when you responded to me :)), I'm not a tanisha's follower I actually just got to now her blog (I'm gonna see more about it latter thou!). I met your blog when I was looking for more fics with sub seventeen I think? I don't remember it clearly since it was last year, but I found you through a comment you made in someone's post, and I'm so glad I clicked to see your profile seriously, I guess it became easier to find more sub svt stuff, but still kinda hard? (with a reader being ivolved), so when I found your blog it felt like finding a treasure!!

Now you said if you wrote too much about your feelings and stuff you were afraid I wouldn't comeback, but that's not true!!! I've said before, but I really appreciate you, I don't really know you that's true, but I sincerely like you I guess is a bit parassocial lol.

Alsooo I'm just talking as an anon so I can speak more freely, so I don't need to pay much attention to the grammar mistakes since english is not my first language, but I'm gonna start commenting on your stuff as well 🙃

If you want to talk to someone I can aways send you a prive menssenger

I like you so if I could help you I wouldn't mind ❤❤❤

Ah and about the ask box, now it's me and Tanisha!! I'll keep my word and I'll keep coming here 💕

🥺 This is so sweet - please feel free to make a little home in my inbox for yourself

By the way I'm not the same person who commented about your friendship with Tanisha😅

No worries lol - I assumed it wouldn't be you if you weren't a follower of Tanisha.

As for my assumption you WERE one of her followers - that's totally my bad, and I apologize. She had just recently been making a lot of posts explaining why readers should be interacting with the authors of fics they like more often, so the timeline just seemed to match haha.

I actually think I know the post you're talking about finding me from - or, at least, a variation of it! Back then I was so desperate for acknowledgement that anytime someone mentioned wanting more sub!idol writers I plugged myself haha. Wasn't too bad a deal if it led you to me!

As for comments, please don't worry about grammar and shit - it is literally so far down my list of concerns it doesn't even register. I'm just still blown away by and appreciate your support regardless. You could hit me with a "gfjdhgfhdjd" and I would cherish it.

I won't pressure you on anything, but I'm always open to people messaging me! Me messaging Tanisha is how we became friends in the first place, and another very close friend of mine only became my friend because she had the courage to message me first on Discord. I'm very lucky both things happened, because I benefit greatly from having them in my life 🥰

#anonymous #anonymous? #ask

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Hi!! how have you been Luna??

I've never wrote anything for you before, but I wanted to say that i really appreciate you!! you're my favorite writer here I keep coming back all the time to re-read your stuff and I'm really glad I found your blog. <3

I’ll comeback soon to talk more, cuz I recently realized that us readers should talk more to y'all. Anyways thanks for all the amazing fics 💖

yo tanisha i found a follower of your blog i think lol @tenpintsof-sundrop

This is actually really sweet - the biggest reason I've moved away from writing and postings fics here is that it just... I barely got any feedback or reactions to things I poured my heart into. And whenever I made a comment or post about it, I would be lambasted for complaining. Even nowadays I feel like I have to ask for feedback from friends who beg to read my unposted fics - they want to read them, and then when they do I have to ask "so, was there anything you liked or disliked?" to get literally any acknowledgement after they read them. I get more interactions from AO3 - I may get a single comment, but at least it's a comment. I could count on one-hand the number of comments I got on Tumblr that weren't rude or passively asking for a continuation.

It's also hard to write for things that no one outwardly shows an interest in. Not being able to share my excitement or love for something with others severely impacted my level of engagement in writing, and towards the end it just.. felt like trying to get blood from a stone. It felt like a chore. So I largely stopped.

Anyway. You saying you re-read my stuff is.. very kind. I have a hard time re-reading and re-watching stuff, my brain sabotages me on it, so when I hear someone willingly re-living something they already know the outcome to I'm like.. god. The amount of love you must have for it then. Thank you, truly. There's a lot of stuff on this blog that I'm truthfully not all that proud of, now that I've grown and my writing abilities have improved, but I keep them up because.. I don't know. Someone somewhere might have liked them. And, at one time, I was proud of them too! But there's also some stuff I still fondly look back on, or think I did well on.

As for how I've been, I've definitely been better. I don't want to drag this post down too much, since I feel like that would make it less likely for you to come back haha, but I'm doing my best. A lot of stuff is up in the air for me right now, a lot of stuff I don't know how I'm going to handle or deal with, so I'm just.. trying my best. I'm terrified, honestly. We'll see.

Thank you for checking in, even though I haven't posted here in a while. 🤍 I was honestly shocked this blog got an ask at all in this day and age, and even more shocked it wasn't Tanisha telling me she loved me (I love her too and my ask box has kind of become a place only she visits haha).

I'm also endlessly searching for anyone to talk to Beyond Evil about. God. I am so obsessed with that show and it's characters and none of my friends are willing to watch it. Shin Hakyun the man that you are -

#anonymous #ask #tanisha #i love her did you all know that #beyond evil #i love that too did you all know that

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sorry for the late reply, i have been STRUGGLING lately and all that's been on my mind outside of college stress is Beyond Evil lol

I don't know what the original ask is referring to exactly, but yeah - Tanisha has some interests and probably takes on fics and fic writing that don't mesh with my own, and that absolutely goes both ways. I think that's just part of.. idk, existing as two different people? I know what the anon means by drama tho - I've only really been in the kpop sphere of fanfic writing on tumblr but the ease with which drama and infighting starts between writers just because of different tastes in fics is kind of ridiculous, and I'm sure that's the same for most fandoms. I've never worried about that with Tanisha and I though - I feel like even if something were to come up where one of us was like "..hold up, one sec" we'd be able to talk it out, if needed (though I really don't think it ever will be).

Tanisha is very important to me - she's like a fiercely bright ray of sun to me, warm and sweet but also capable of obliterating anyone if they cross boundaries. And like she said, it's not hard to get along with someone who doesn't have the exact same interests as yours, and interests ≠ morality.

i find it wild but also kind of great that you and luna are such close friends despite writing fics the other wouldn’t be interested in or having fics with a turn-off for the other in them - and it doesn’t impact your friendship at all. it SHOULDNT impact your friendship, but on tumblr it seems like people who write fics can only be friends with other people who write the exact same type of fic. and i dunno it’s just refreshing to see one or both of you intensely dislike the type of fic the other puts out, but you’re both still so obvious with your affection (friendship? i mean affection in a friendship way) to each other.

sorry i know this is probably rambling and useless but i thought it was really sweet and also a really good example of a healthy online friendship. you two are different people and you don’t have to have the same opinions on the same things without it devolving into messy tumblr drama or fights and i think more people should follow you two’s example

omg @astralsweetness come here quick people are gonna start shipping us again #tuna

(also when I typed that fucking @ I STARTED TYPING THE WORD "LUNA" like I am so delulu <3)

like yeah when me and Luna first met, it was specifically bonding over the same fandom and the same type of fanfiction - it was when I wrote a shitton of kpop rpf (and I do still listen to kpop, but I am not as into the fandom now)

And I am literally so fucking glad that we have stayed friends this long. LITERALLY when I deleted my old blog, the VERY FIRST THING I THOUGHT was 'oh god Luna isn't gonna know what happened to me' - so I remade my blog AS QUICKLY AS POSSIBLE just to message Luna to let her know I wasn't dead

like if I wasn't so concerned that Luna was gonna think I died, I would have taken like a month break from Tumblr before making a new blog. but I didn't want her to worry

and I definitely agree. you don't have to like 100% of the same things all the time in order to be friends with someone. you can just care about them as a person (and I care about her a whole lot and I want her to be happy and do well in life <3)

but okay if you wanna talk about two people with vastly different interests getting along (and if you wanna talk about hotties I pulled from the kpop fandom) - we gotta call Jaycen over here. hey! hey! @nctzenkane get over here!!

like talk about two people who are so fucking close who have such vastly different interests. we used to have 'which character would win a fight' arguments on the dashboard as a way of flirting lmao

like in general, it's not very hard to get alone with someone even if their interests don't match up with yours 100%. I just feel like people have aligned interests way too much with morality, and people need to like - accept people into their circle and into their heart who are different than them. it's so fucking easy to get along with people. you just have to chill out

#anonymous #tanisha

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#losing my mind losing my mind losing my mind #this is such a fucking good scene #there’s a lot of those in beyond evil tho #beyond evil #shin hakyun #lee dongshik #yeo jingoo #han juwon

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You didn't do anything like that. None of that happened. By any chance, is this the precious secret of yours that someone took to the grave?

Shin Ha-kyun as Lee Dong-sik BEYOND EVIL (2021), dir. Na-Yeon Shim

#shin hakyun the man that you are #you leave me fjglsjfkspfodksl ya know… thanks for that #beyond evil #shin ha kyun

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beyond evil except it’s the office quotes

#I’m losing my goddamn mind I’m chewing on the drywall I am spinning out of control #I love this series so bad and I have NO ONE TO DISCUSS IT WITH. literal pain every day #beyond evil

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박쥐/Thirst remake where Shin Hakyun spends the entire movie looking like this instead of just one scene. 🥺

#losing my mind losing my mind lOSING MY MIND #shin hakyun the man that you are…. #he is genuinely one of the best actors I think and it’s wild what he’s actually like vs. all the roles he’s done #ANYWAY LOOK AT HIS EYES HOLY FUUUUUUUUUUCK #prev tags had it right AHJUSSI PLEASE #shin ha kyun #박쥐

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lee dong sik + letterboxd reviews

#beyond evil #lee dongshik #all I want to do is rewatch this show. all I want to do is think about this show. all I want to do is talk about it with someone #me being active?? in this day and age?? unlikely. stay tuned to see if I’m really alive or not

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HUI at the Press Conference of WHU IS ME: COMPLEX

#love that he is grimacing in that second gif and in the first one has a thousand yard stare LOL #love him so much. been waiting for him to do pink hair… unfortunate that this was the circumstance #my feelings for cube aside I think he is radiant 💝 #pentagon #hui

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231014 [TikTok] official.therose: Face unlock #theRose

#god I love them so bad…… been missing them lately #they haven’t gone anywhere or anything I just miss them #the rose

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sammy once again showing why the thirst tweets were too tame for them

#clack clack fall in love #I am so fucking sick rn but I hate them I fucking hate them I love them #the rose

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It's kind of relieving seeing you reblog something! I know you tend to shy away from doing that but I hope this is the start of a new era for your blog where you reblog stuff you're interested in even if you're not writing!

!! I am feeling good so this is a very rambling happy ask response hehe

Thank you! I appreciate it - I'm still fighting against that inner voice that is like "this blog is only for writing, what are you doing reblogging shit, people will be upset about it".. so it may not be full-blown new era, but it's!! Something! I am trying!

I'm also just overall feeling a lot better. I randomly wrote and posted a fic for Tale of the Nine Tailed in honor of it getting a season 2, I didn't self-loathe and panic when I didn't respond to @tenpintsof-sundrop for 37 years bcs I knew she wouldn't blame me for not having the energy to do so and actually managed to make my brain believe it, I wrote a little Knowing Bros thing for a friend (@funkywinkyboy) of mine based on some of her daydream musings, I've decided to embrace the rediscovery of some old kpop groups like Sechskies (mostly Eun Jiwon) and Shinhwa (my cunty old men), I finally finished developing one of my dnd characters (she's a kleptomaniac bird who may accidentally be ushering in an age of calamity via her tarot cards, oopsy, i love her) and I'm writing a Heechul thing purely for fun with an idea that spooked me in the middle of the night.

That's not to say I'm doing great, ofc - Pentagon's future is up in the air and that's stressful, my health has gotten so bad multiple doctors have no idea what's going on, I feel like a fraud in my classes, etc. But!! I feel good right now, all things considered. Writing for myself when the urge strikes and not trying to post for the blog has had a healing effect, I think. Focusing on guilty pleasures like dnd/character creation has helped my brain rejuvenate some. I'll probably get worse again and struggle through the dirt like I had been for a while, but!! I am currently seeing a break in the clouds and it's nice ^^ And maybe I can find more Yuto wearing pink to reblog in the meantime lmao

#ask #anonymous #my 2nd and 1st groups feel like such a safe space for me lol #as does shit like bg3 or da #anyway!! it may be because i've been awake since early but i'm ENERGIZED #vibrating more like hehe

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230903 yuto_dachi

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#he wore pink just for me #my goth girlfriend turned anime girlfriend I love him so much #yuto #pentagon

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just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking about you and I hope that you're doing well <33

omg tanisha, this is so sweet 😭 you’re so sweet

i'm so nervous to post anything here bcs i feel like i have a responsibility to just write for this blog, and i'm worried people will get angry at me for posting things that aren't fics.. but i really doubt any of my followers would care about seeing a fic for, like, eun jiwon or something. (i bet most of my followers weren't even alive when he debuted - i wasn't lol). anyway i feel ill rn so hello!!

to be honest, i've been better :( more and more health issues are cropping up and it feels like the more i try to get a handle on things the worst it gets and the angrier everyone becomes at me for getting worse.

been listening to songs lately where i can just... be consumed by it and drift detached from the world. (a phansing performance of ¡corre! and paradise's fate) i'd really like to exist in that liminal space where feelings are fuzzy and touch is faraway. where saturn's rings could choke me and cosmic dust could coat my cheeks

am i a bad friend if i said i haven't been thinking of anyone but myself lately? i'm just so tired all the time.. god, but i hope you're doing well regardless. i may not have been thinking of you lately but that doesn't change the fact that i care for you and wish you nothing but the best. i should be better, check in on you more. i hope you've been well - are doing well i am crawling, sluggishly, to read your criminal minds fic. i have never seen the show but i am drawn to it like a moth to a tar pit bcs dom!reader

#i don't feel good #edit: i feel slightly better and can now tag this properly!! woo! #ngl i'd suck jiwon's soul out through his dick. but anyway #ask #tanisha #tenpintsofsundrop

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since i follow your ao3 i know what your current obsession is, and i always find these fun, so, recommend a kdrama to tanisha!

Oh! This is a sweet ask. 🤍 @tenpintsofsundrop and I both have a sort of "anxiety" when it comes to watching new things - it's hard for us to get comfortable with the idea of starting something new, so we don't latch onto new shows easily. This also means that I literally only have five or six things I'd recommend to anyone regardless, bcs I don't watch many things period.

So with that in mind I'm gonna "recommend" something for her, not expecting her to watch it, but instead something I think fits her vibes and the things she likes!

Based on her vibes/the vibes I perceive: "Cinderella and the Four Knights". So, this is an older drama (2016) and actually the only kdrama on my "will recommend" list that is primarily romance. Wild, I know? I just usually hate romances LOL.

The female lead is very independent and repeatedly puts the men in their places (and she's so pretty while doing it gjdfghd), and it was the first (and only, I think) show where I actually was smiling and giddy when she interacted with the other lead and they acted happy and in-love. Usually it just bothers me haha. Tanisha really gives me the vibe of "beauty despite hardships", and while this is considered a "romantic comedy" something about this drama immediately made me think of her when I was like "hmm what vibes does Tanisha give me?". Something about choosing to be kind even when life repeatedly gives you no reason to be. Something about radiating a type of beauty even when life tries to dull it. Something like that.

Based on what I think she'd genuinely like: "Strangers From Hell". Is anyone surprised?? I was obsessed with this when it came out, and Tanisha is probably the only friend I have who can deal with gore and horror and wouldn't flinch away from this. It's psychological horror and everything about it is done so smart - the literature parallels are genius, the cinematography is amazing, the music direction is great, and it's really fascinating how you can look back on scenes and see how the main character was being manipulated despite not noticing it at the time. Its also got a great twist[?]-ending, and my favorite thing - it's incredibly short and there's no second season, which means my anxiety for giving it a shot was very low haha (and I'm eternally grateful I did, bcs.. wow). I hate rewatching things but I've rewatched this about three times now.

The acting is phenomenal as well and I literally enjoyed this short experience so much that I talked about it to literally anyone that would listen. It was so fascinating and I could not stop thinking about it.

#tanisha #ask #anonymous #strangers from hell #hell is other people #cinderella and the four knights #cinderella with four knights

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Do you think you're ever gonna write idol fics again?

Good question - when I first made this blog I only wrote for Seventeen, and I burned myself out very fast by taking requests and also writing multiple fics a day. And after getting burned out I actually disappeared for a year or so, having very minimal interactions on my blog (kind of like now) until I came back with a vengeance and went feral over Pentagon. That was quite a while ago now, but my blog falling into "disuse" for a year or two only for me to come back for another year or two of writing once things in my life settled down is not at all uncommon for me by now.

I can't make any promises, but I think it's very likely that I will once again go feral and come back aggressively.

#it's a fair question ngl but i unfortunately don't have an answer past “most likely” #things in my life rn are just.. not great or conducive to writing #anonymous #ask