My friend asked me yesterday what have I learned that I didn’t know last year and how have I grown.
Aside from some silly answers, I’ve learned a lot actually. I’ve learned I have adhd and it runs on my fathers side of the family. I’m getting treatment for it now.
I’ve learned about emdr therapy and started going to sessions and through that I reawakened some traumatic events I buried. I learned to acknowledge they happened and I’ve been able to cope with and live with it now. I’ve made peace with my inner child. Dug them up from their grave and set them free. I wish I’d known this kind of therapy worked for me sooner, but I know now and that’s what’s important.
I’ve learned I’m trans and I’ve accepted that I am and love that I am.
I love myself more. That’s a huge thing for me. I spent my entire life hating everything about myself and damn what an exhausting way to live. I still have days where I don’t like who I see in the mirror, but I know it’s dysphoria so I’m able to pull myself out of it easier than before.
I’ve learned I don’t want and will never allow certain people back in my life ever again. I’ve learned to accept an apology and also not forgive. I actually thanked someone for coming around and apologizing but I let them know that I don’t forgive them. I can’t. Some hurts run too deep. They accepted that and we at least parted on cordial terms.
I’ve learned to recognize certain behaviors in others. Specifically trauma dumping, love bombing and only engaging with me when it’s to try and rile me up. No. That’s not cool and I won’t stand for that anymore. Setting that boundary and not engaging with anyone who does that has been so good.
I’ve learned that I really miss being a more active witch and my friend sent me a little box of tools to get me started. Reconnecting with that on my own and discovering my own path has been so healing.
I’ve learned I really like making comics. Now that I’m deep in it I feel like I’m solving pieces of a puzzle when I have to lay out a page and I enjoy that quite a lot. I’m still learning how this all works but I’m proud of what I’ve accomplished already.
I once posted what I thought was gonna be the final design for Murmur but that lil brat continued to evolve. So. Here is the FINAL.
All because I looked at a stop sign one day and decided to build a face around it. Then I got inspired by Psyclonejack who did a cosplay of Murmur, and finally @nobodypunk added some height and more structure to their hair.
Oops rp things sneaking onto this blog. My Loki, aka Frosty, isn’t having a fun time at the TVA. They were finally happy but then, every rich and beautiful thing that made their life grand was pruned.
Pepper is a Pepper Potts variant service dog. She’s doin her best to help Frosty feel better. Workin at the TVA is a Barista Loki Variant who’s memory has been wiped. They go by Oliver Lucas Sebastian. You have to say all three names or he won’t serve you.
And then there’s Vinnis. The double variant. The anomaly that is Vision and Loki combined and one of the only kinda sorta friends Frosty has at the TVA who’s from the same universe they had chosen to settle in.
|| Moments at the TVA with 2 (and ½?) Loki Variants and Pepper.
Referred to as VINNIS, this robot is a rare double Variant. For Loki and the Vision, specifically. He didn’t start out that way, but that is [CLASSIFIED]. Details of his origins are kept behind the highest clearances to prevent something like him from happening again. Powered by the Soul Stone rather than the Mind Stone, being at the TVA is… difficult for him, to say the least. Also, the whole being a robot at the TVA thing.
Going from a stay-at-home-mom to a full-time-working-mom has been really difficult. I was working two jobs for the last couple months at about 60-70 hours a week, but between sustaining a shoulder injury and a nasty case of bronchitis well… I’m down to one job with maybe 20 hours a week at $10 hourly.
As it stands, I’m interviewing and applying for jobs again, but this hiccup in employment has really tripped me up on leaving my abusive ex-husband. I’m asking for literally anything you can contribute at this point. $1 contributions, $5 contributions, anything. A little goes a long way.
If you want to donate another way, my Venmo is @lyssa-hall, my Cash App is $teammomjeans and my PayPal is (please don’t laugh I was 16) email@example.com