bpd-sonadow

[bpd-sonadow]

Oh. So many people talked to me about what happened a month and a half ago, but only one finally looked at me and understood what I need to hear.

You did nothing wrong. It wasn't your fault.

I did nothing wrong 😭

#bb event #comfort #actually borderline #actually bpd #actually cluster b

[bpd-sonadow]

That terrifying moment when you ask "Do you hate me now?", and they actually take a moment to think

#fp raven #favourite person #bpd favorite person #bpd fp #actually borderline #actually bpd #100 notes for my suffering

[bpd-sonadow]

I wonder if people on my main are confused where all the bpd-related recs and posts on their dash come from

[bpd-sonadow]

Am I someone to be ashamed about to them?

#fp raven #favourite person #bpd favorite person #bpd fp #actually borderline #actually bpd

[bpd-sonadow]

I: They said they don't do stuff for friends but they did this thing for a common friend. L: This isn't absolute. Maybe they had more energy this time. I: Face it, they don't actually want to be around us. They argue with us all the time. They don't even want to talk to us. L: They wouldn't be talking to us at all if they didn't want to… I: Yeah! And they almost aren't in comparison to how often we talked before! L: They're busy. I can understand it. I: They aren't as busy for other people. Me: Maybe I should ignore them in turn, see how that feels. I: Better yet, delete everything now— Me: Shut.

#fp raven #favourite person #bpd favorite person #bpd fp #actually borderline #actually bpd #chat post #I don't have DID I just separate my rational and emotional profiles in my head 'cause it does feel like they fight for control all the time #It was easier to keep them in balance until 2020 #I've seen someone mention they also feel like they have distinctive identities/profiles without having DID? #Anyone else?

[bpd-sonadow]

There's nothing worse than death, and I'm not afraid of death anymore.

[bpd-sonadow]

Me: I'm too paranoid People: you're too paranoid Also people: *do shit I was paranoid about*

#how about that huh #actually bpd #actually cluster b

[bpd-sonadow]

If you give me a syringe right now and tell me whatever's inside will kill me quickly and painlessly, I'll stab myself with it in a flash.

[bpd-sonadow]

Stars, I hate my brain. Just go and make a boiling pot out of me, why don't you.