brokn-pieces1980

[brokn-pieces1980]

This is mid 2023 and it's my birthday month! I am 100 per cent sure that age bias is real! Nobody wants to hire a person once you cross the certain experience level, at least it is true in ITeS and KPO. I hope there will be some different picture in IT industry. I am now where I lived most of my life. I still don't have that happiness in anything. Nor I feel motivated to socialise or meet with the people I knew for years. Hope this will change in upcoming months.

#40+ #emptiness #experience #work stuff

[brokn-pieces1980]

It's 2023! Finally we crossed the years which were considered dreadful due to sci-fi movies, a lot of bad things happen in apocalyptic movies between the period of 2010 to 2022. It's time to set new goals again and give your best to accomplish the same.

[brokn-pieces1980]

Once you cross the age which you dreaded since your childhood will make you clueless. For me, it's crossing 40th birthday! I have never fantasized about life after forty!! So, I don't have any specific goals for this part of my life and where did I met all other goals.. Hmm.. So much still I wants to do but couldn't... I have taken baby step to learn more about Islamic geometry (Zilijj) from couple of weeks ago.. First phase of learning is Euphoria which I have enjoyed and now I am avoiding to learn anything new.. I should set goals little tight for myself. All the people around you wants you to be failure so that they can prove there point that they are right about you. I will make sure to disappoint them for rest of their lives ;)

I am applying on new jobs rigorously with no luck. I am expecting atleast couple of interview calls but unfortunately I am getting nothing... I should not give up on this even after knowing there is slight chance of new opportunity.

[brokn-pieces1980]

I am writing this post after quite a long time. A lot has happened and should have happened during this time but most of the things are as it is. I have become little stable financially however quite occupied with work and not able to give enough time to exercise. Also I am spending too much time on internet which is not good at all but it is what I am trying to keep myself occupied. Otherwise all negative thoughts and problems and domestic issues will occupy my mind and adversely affect work and peace.

I have burnt my fingers by trying to do Day Trading and looks like all the hours I have spent learning the trading is not quite fruitful. I should work on trading psychology and on my mistakes. I strongly believe that learning to trade and invest will give me financial independence. I am lot youthful and healthy as I was 2 years ago and there will be financial need soon due to falling health. Nobody in family care about it and I must take control of this situation quickly otherwise it's too late to get back on track. Wish me luck. 🤞

[brokn-pieces1980]

I was so busy from last couple of months. It is humongous task to socialise with the same species. I am getting uncomfortable with the people I know years ago also spent considerable amount of time with them. Something is lost from my mind. Everything is so bland. I wish I am not spreading that tastelessness with the people who are near to me. Financial issues are one of the biggest cause of this, I think so, it should be. I hope that I will soon overcome this.

[brokn-pieces1980]

I woke up an hour ago but still in bed, I stopped doing this years ago. Why am I doing this again? Am I again drowning into the bad thoughts or is it the inability to take the decision or financial crisis making loose my shit together?? Whatever is that I should overcome this. Right now, I am not in my best shape nor in the best state of mind but still has to put myself together and show up again.

#sadnees #sad thoughts #depressing post

[brokn-pieces1980]

What is the happiness? Did you have that feeling less as you grow older? Is happiness and satisfaction related? I don't know about others but I am feeling empty more as I am growing older. I lost the perspective of experiencing the joy from smaller things and events. Is it because of burden of responsibilities or the ambitions which are not getting fulfilled? I am in a life phase where most of the things are mundane and plain empty. Oh Almighty, please help me to overcome this.

[brokn-pieces1980]

Travelling may look like fun, excitement and joy however when actually we are doing it, it's not that fun! Humans are wired to forgot pain, exhaustion and the trauma caused by the event. That's why when we recall travel we remember the highlights of that travel mostly the points we would like to call the achievement. That is why women forgot the pain of giving birth to child and most of the women readily give birth to more offspring.

#pain #travel

[brokn-pieces1980]

Hi there! It's too late to be here but better than never. I am here to blog and improve my writing skills since I am blogging anonymously, I would be more expressive on my thoughts. If you find my notes, provide suggestions to improve my language and grammar corrections are welcomed.

Thank you from 1980.

#english #learning