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I need 2 like Not have bpd. That would help me Not have half my relationships and my mental state in shambles rn i think

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I need to (remembers to not make casual suicide jokes in order to encourage a more outwardly positive mindset and healthy conversational environment in my day to day life) kill myself

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yes alain uses they/she but if you call them a girl on any of my posts you will be pelted with rocks bc that is Incorrect(tm). okay? okay.

#cerisii rambles

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Just a quick not friendly reminder: someone who has apologized for past mistakes, made amends for past actions, and clearly no longer holds past beliefs, is a far better person than one who digs up old dirt and uses a person's past that no longer exists against them.

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im petty.

#rejuv #alain (rejuv)

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you ever get surprised by your own recurring issues. like come on man. I thought we were past this.

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oc asks: not-so-nice edition

alone: How does your OC deal with loneliness? Have they ever been completely alone before? How do they act when there's no one around to see them?

betrayal: Has your OC ever been betrayed by someone they thought they could trust? Has your OC ever betrayed someone who trusted them?

bound: Has your OC ever been imprisoned or captured? What happened? How did they get out? Did the experience leave any scars?

break: What would cause your OC to break down completely? What do they look like when that happens? Has anyone ever seen them at their lowest?

desire: What's one thing your OC wants more than anything in the world? Are they open with that desire? Why or why not? What would they do to fulfill it?

failure: What's your OC's greatest failure? Have they been able to move past it? Does anyone else know about it?

fear: What is your OC's greatest fear? What do they do when confronted with it? Are they open with their fear, or do they hide it away?

future: What's the worst possible future for your OC? Are they taking steps to avoid that outcome? Are they even aware it's a possibility?

ghost: Who or what haunts your OC? What happened? How do they live with their ghosts?

guilt: What is your OC guilty about? How do they handle their guilt? Do they try to avoid guilt, or do they accept it?

hate: What does your OC hate? Why? How do they act towards the object of their hatred?

heartbreak: Have they ever had a relationship that ended badly? Experienced some other kind of heartbreak? What happened?

hide: What does your OC hide? Why do they hide it?

hunt: Who or what is your OC hunted by? A person, a feeling, a past mistake? Is your OC able to let their guard down, or are they constantly alert?

mask: Does your OC wear a mask, literally or figuratively? What goes on beneath it? Is there anyone in their life who gets to see who they are under the mask?

midnight: What keeps your OC up at night? Do they have nightmares? Fears? Anxieties? What do they do in the small hours of the morning when they should be sleeping?

mistake: What's the worst mistake your OC ever made? What led to them making it? Have they been able to fix it? How have they moved on?

monster: Is your OC monstrous in any way? Is there something that makes them monstrous? Are they aware of their own monstrosity? Do they accept it or reject it?

nightmare: What does your OC have nightmares about? How do they deal with their nightmares? Do they tell people, or keep it to themself?

pain: What's the worst pain your OC has ever felt? Do they have a high pain tolerance?

secret: What's one secret your OC never wants anyone to know about them?

skin: How comfortable is your OC in their skin? Do they grapple with anything that lives inside them—a beast, a curse, a failure, a monster? How do they face the smallest, weakest, most horrible version of themself? Are they able to acknowledge it at all?

torture: Has your OC ever been tortured? Would your OC ever torture someone else?

wound: How does your OC handle being wounded? Are their wounds mostly physical? Mental? Emotional? What's the worst wound your OC has ever experienced?

#pleas e

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the opposite if mwah is hawm. fucking bite you.

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a somewhat more "proper" ref/at least look at Faenna's design

made Interceptor at the ripe age of 8 years old (proceeds to get soul crushing trauma for her entire life and die in storm-9 at 16 partially of her own accord)

her main mons' names are Anya, Avan, Luxia, Pa, Oran, and Nessie. She named them all when she was 7-8 and 'now' thinks they're kind of cringe but is also too attached and doesn't have the heart to change them.

Luxray is her signature mon. Shinx was her first ever partner; though she doesn't remember quite how she acquired any of her Pokemon except Entei.

Doesn't rlly have any friends bc duties didn't allow her to have any... Vivian WAS her friend but............

(Intersex and sapphic)

#pokemon rejuvenation #pokemon fangame #pokemon #oc #cericanvas

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im probably anemic and wanna jump off a bridge but i got work to do and people to disappoint so idgaf about that rn

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great that everyone loves everyone else. happy for them. unfortunately as soon as someone becomes too much of a burden or can no longer entertain them they chuck them away in isolation.

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made some affirmations for my fellow grocery shoppers out there

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being a self-taught artist with no formal training is having done art seriously since you were a young teenager and only finding out that you’re supposed to do warm up sketches every time you’re about to work on serious art when you’re fuckin twenty-five

#bruh #i have not been doing actual warmups or drawing from the shoulder #wtffffffff #IT HAS BEEN NEARLY 10 YEARS

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#pokemon #fanart #cericanvas #digital art #pokemon art #togekiss #sinnoh

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i sorta forgot my current med dose is an overdose for me a little so here we are.

i love extreme fatigue and being soso cold and in pain