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Vylad I drew for @vyladromeave! Local quiet shadow knight shows up for once.

#dude #what the hell #i’m so obsessed #vylad romeave #aphmau #minecraft diaries

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Zane went into the Irene dimension to steal the relic….

…Ian was already there waiting

#BYE THIS IS TOO GOOD

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Currently thinking about Aphmau and Laurance and certain lore info...

So we know that Aphmau is either Irene herself that woke up again from that staff or a reincarnation (I'm betting on her actually being Irene who just lost her relic and memories).

And we know Laurance is a shadow knight. And shadow knights gain immortality when they kill their lord.

SO!

Let's say Aphmau is Irene, and gains all of her old powers back when she absorbs the relic. We know Irene lived for a long time, outlived her friends, etc. Now that could be because she spent a lot of time in her dimension where time passes quickly. BUT! Let's just say for my own selfish purposes that not aging is just one of her powers from her relic.

And let's also say that shadow knight immortality works like this: Shadow knights aren't human anymore. We don't exactly know what they are, but it's something otherworldly and the process begins with the shadow knight's human death. So really... would it make sense for them to age?

Now they can definitely die. They only gain true immortality when they kill their lord. But aging? I don't think something otherworldly and inhuman can age. The nether is a strange place where nearly all of the beings there are senseless monsters.

I'm sure y'all have picked up on my line of thinking already.

But what if Laurance never left. What if he stayed loyal to Aphmau for all of those years? After another decade people would start noticing that neither of them are aging. For Laurance it's obvious why, but for Aphmau, it's a new aspect of Irene's power that she's coming to understand.

It drives her to panic. Because as the years pass, her friends start getting older and older. Garroth and Dante soon retire from being guards. Her kids are having children of their own. But she's still the same.

She doesn't want to outlive her friends. But it's out of her hands. The only way to remove a relic from someone is through their death.

But Laurance is still there, still as devoted to her as ever. And she leans on him now more than ever because he still looks the same as the day he came back from the nether. He understands in the way no once else can.

As even more time passes, Aphmau has to give up any leadership position she has because whispers of her not aging are floating around. More people are flocking to see her, calling her Irene, calling her a goddess, wanting her blessings.

But all the attention just shoves the fact that she can't age right in her face. So she leaves.

Most of her and Laurance's friends are elderly now, at least, the ones that didn't go to the Irene dimension all those years ago. And her children are all grown, wrapped up in their own lives. None of them have been spared of the goddess Irene's revival. People bother them daily, trying to figure out where she is, trying to get into contact with her. So really, leaving is the only way to give them peace.

Laurance accompanies her, and they travel to different regions, hoping to gleam some hidden knowledge about the relics. They had tried learning about them before... but then Shad came back in Aaron's body and the whole ordeal had driven her away from finding knowledge about the relics.

More time passes, and it's just the two of them, looking the same as they did when they met a century ago. A forgotten lord and her guard. Only known now as a goddess and her monster.

Aphmau was never the type to indulge in things like love, especially when there were more important matters going on. But with everyone she cared about being long gone aside from Laurance, she finds that she's truly grown to care about him. And truly, he's her only option. He won't age and die like the others. He won't leave.

And hasn't he been here all this time?

She remembers long ago, being ready to accept his affection after the werewolf wedding. But he stopped her, wanting Garroth to have a chance.

Garroth isn't even alive now. They attended his funeral a decade ago.

Perhaps she just wanted things to stay the same? And in her and Laurance's relationship, it had. He's still as flirty as ever, vying for her affection. Perhaps she had fooled herself into thinking it was just an old habit. Perhaps he had begun to believe this was all that he could have with her and was fine with it.

But if there was anyone to love, wouldn't it be him? Wouldn't it be the guard that's been there for her for a century and will be there for more to come?

So one day, when they've traveled back to Phoenix Drop, which is more of a city than a village these days, and are looking back at all of the old structures that Levin's daughter insists of keeping for historic purposes... Aphmau tells him.

She tells Laurance that she loves him. Because she does. He's been there for her for ages now, will always be there for her. And she'll be there for him as well.

Sorry if that got gooey and weird and hard to follow. I'm currently very sleep-deprived, lol.

#i just exploded #hello #oh my god #minecraft diaries #aphmau #aphmau mcd #aphmau minecraft diaries #mcd #laurance zvahl #aphmau laurance #mcd rewrite #laurance angst #aphblr

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i’ll uncanny YOUR valley bitch

#LOOKIEEEE

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You think the remenants of Malachi's mother was there, watching over him? Do you think she stayed in that castle, desprate to look after her little boy that she had to condem to a prison of their own making because he was different, from beyond the grave? Do you think her soul stood there and watched as a woman she never knew, an eon younger than even her son, stayed with him, listened to him, and helped him in ways she never could?

Did Malachi's mother stand there, shedding happy tears when Aphmau gave her baby a new life, free of the curse he was born with, that she could never give him?

#oh. my. fuck.

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doodle for my fellas

idea below

this was based on an idea discussed in the discord about the reunion between malachi and laurance after the whole 15 year irene dimension debacle, but for those unaware, myself and some others have a hc that being in the irene dimension was physically painful for laurance, as a shadow knight. like very.

i drew him in his sk form, which was kinda just a whim, but maybe it could be explained by saying that he involuntarily turned due to the stress that the dimension inflicted on his body, although him being in his form gave me ANOTHER idea, so you can pick whichever you want to believe.

the other idea: rather than this being the reunion from the return from the irene dimension, maybe it’s from laurance’s return from his silly little 3 year nether side quest (AUGH😞), which would imply that he just hadn’t transformed back yet if he’d just then returned.

also, if that were the case, of course malachi would be glad to see him, but i think he’d also be fucking pissed. and confused. but also understanding because he’s malachi. but yes lots of father/mentor-son feelings. anyways.

#i’m insane and i’ve probably worn the server thin with my rambles on this idea #but i love them #your honor they’re father & son #aphblr #mcd #laurance zvahl #minecraft diaries #malachi mcd #aphmau #shadow knights #cinnamontoastcroonch art

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thinking abt the meifwa and werewolf marriage plot in season two and it makes me actually violently ill its a very VERY random plot point but i cannot stop thinking abt it

like you get drugged by a purple haired meifwa . Wake up NAKED in a cold ass cell. Where’s your other guard?? Oh he’s with the purple haired meifwa who’s trying to COME ON to him as if she didn’t drug him (I FEEL LIKE THIS IS SOMETHING NO ONE TALKS ABT LIKE THATS SO SCARY? Waking up and it’s just you with some random chick????) but he keeps rejecting her advances so she sets him up to DIE?? THE FLIPPP!?!!!

#NO IT LITERALLY IS A PARASITE IN MY BRAIN #I ALWAYS THINK ABOUT IT #michi’s harrassment and assault of laurance is SO OVERLOOKED.

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i have so much of these to make

#GARROTH WITH THE OUR FATHER IM #HELP #I LOVE THESE SM

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Y'all, y'all, y'all

Shadow Knights but they are like the ghouls from fallout. Walking corpses that are holding off from turning into full zombies by rage and hope alone.

#love to see xeriths thoughts #yes he is definitely aware this is happening #quirks an eyebrow at her while she’s walking circles around him from a distance #like surveying him #and he’s just 🤨

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ok this is making me imagine lucinda trying to find ways to help laurance. even sneakily. most of the time he knows and is actively being studied by her, maybe other times she tries to slip him things or cast spells from a distance

Y'all, y'all, y'all

Shadow Knights but they are like the ghouls from fallout. Walking corpses that are holding off from turning into full zombies by rage and hope alone.

#shadow knights #laurance zvahl #lucinda mcd #mcd

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i don’t know what possessed me to make this but the second part is already finished

#i love this sm

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Why don't they make stained glass fish tanks? Give those fish Catholic guilt

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NOW LISTEN HERE IF YOU MWNTION RADIOHEAD AND MCD W ME I WILL START GEEKING

@xerith-42 WILL CONFIRM

‘Man of War’ by Radiohead is really giving diaries!garrance rn

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Zvahl Family Farmstead = Yew Tree Farm, England

X / X / X / X

#i exist here #in my head

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Three more of these silly lil things (sorry for any volume issues)

#BYEEEE #XYX I LOVE THESE SM #HELLO

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So turns out everyone on discord goes crazy (/affectionate) for my location scouting

Allow me to summarize my last 8 hours of relentless headcanoning.

Ro’meave castle in O’Khasis = Hohenzollern Castle, Germany

Von Ronsenburg (Rosen’ask) castle in Scaleswind = Ksiaz Castle, Poland

Alliance Assembly on Phoenix Island/MCD Era = Chateau de Fontainebleau [exterior], Parliament of Portugal [interior]

Republic Assembly in Phoenix Drop/MYS Era = Parliament of Hungary [exterior], French Senate Chamber [interior]

New Meteli & Surrounding Countryside/MYS Era = Yorkshire, England

Zvhal Family Ranch in Mystreet, on the outskirts of New Meteli = Yew Tree Farm, Coniston, England

There’s way more pins where these came from

#YES #when i tell you i was geeking

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Hey guyyyys!! I'm baaack with a fresh batch of Laurance angst brought to you by "I really like this random design detail and will try my damnedest to make it make sense." The design detail in question is heterochromia!

Today's programming involves discussion of torture and probably some body horror

So, I'm a big believer in heterochromatic Laurance. It's just real to me. Because honestly both of his very distinct looks are serving cunt in very distinct Laurance Zvahl ways. I have a preference for his original appearance because I have a few bones to pick with Jessica's design decisions, but the pale blue and even blind eyes fit Laurance really well.

In a separate iteration of Laurance I made him lose one of his eyes before the rebirth process, so his heterochromia was unrelated to the whole pseudo-zombie thing. But in MCD... Well... Everything comes back to Shadow Knights.

Little Larry has beautiful emerald green eyes that then get utterly destroyed by the cruelness of the hell he willingly threw himself into to save those he loves. And uhhh, Laurance in canon says he was tortured down there. So let's get into that, shall we? Now, a thing about torture methods is that there's a lot of them, they're really easy to come up with if you have even a slightly sadistic mindset, and they are often focused. Most people who frequently engage in torture chose one field of the body to focus on.

Now let's look at Gene. Obviously for his magical and psychological torture, his focus is on the mind. But what about his physical methods? Obviously Gene gets his kicks out of people in pain, yet I think his real focus is when it gets personal. When someone isn't just in pain, but they are crying, shaking, writhing in agony while staring up at him cursing his bloodline. The eyes are the window into the mind and they say so much that the mouth can't when words fail or are restricted.

Gene focuses on eyes. He remembers them. They haunt him. When he's learning how to break people, he learns how to use their very sense of sight against them. It's already what he knows how to do with his magic and extreme gaslighting tactics. If he has a focus, if he has a piece of information he needs, and he has a target, then he'll focus on the eyes. If he, for example, thinks that Laurance has more information on either realm barriers or Aphmau, who is quickly becoming a point of interest for the Shadow King, then he'll have a reason.

But he can't possibly permanently ruin both of Laurance's eyes. He still needs another for at least semi-proper comprehension of how fucked he is. Gene doesn't need more than one eye. And I like to characterize Gene as a bit of a mad scientist, testing out his magic and Shadow Knight powers in extreme and unhinged ways.

Who knows what he did to Laurance's eye, what happened when he destroyed it and regenerative powers brought it back over and over. What effects traversing between realms had on whatever the fuck Gene did to make it so bad it didn't even resemble his original eye color.

Irene's blessing is able to mitigate the damage on his other eye, the one that was only blinded by realm travel, and bring it almost back to its original state. A pale sage color that has partial but still restricted vision. Laurance is grateful for what little eyesight he has. His other eye, the one Gene targeted... It doesn't come back. After the realm barrier blinded it, there was no undoing the damage anymore. It remains a cloudy pale blue, scars running across the skin around it and through his retinas.

I want to make it clear that Laurance isn't ashamed of this. He doesn't try to hide his eye, but he is cagey to answer questions about it. Most people are smart enough not to question, and he'll open up to the people he cares about (ie Garroth and Aphmau) when he's ready. I have a whole arc related to his blindness that's a whole side blog post I'm working on, but Laurance doesn't forsake the sight he has and he also doesn't lament what he's lost.

"Cad[endza] and Aphmau keep saying they want to bring my sight back. [I] know they mean well but... I can't tell them what happened. I don't think either one of them could take it. Garroth might be able to, but I don't think either of us trust each other enough for that conversation yet. I don't need my eyesight back, and I don't need anyone to fix my left eye. If they knew what that monster did, they would be grateful I have an eye to be blinded.

He doesn't encourage anyone to try and bring it back, and he might even get upset if they're too insistent about it. He's not exactly eager for another magic user to get their hands too close to an already severely damaged eye. He might not say it out loud to someone, but... [blinks my gay little eyes] There's a page in his journal that reads--

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#XERITH. What. #what do i even say #you already know #i’m eating your thoughts for dinner #hello #damn