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Dude very very same. I cannot do the things that might give me enjoyment because I either can't afford to, don't have time to, or am too exhausted to. And yeah, it's been building since probably when the world really reopened. The prices for everything, especially the basics, are just skyrocketing but it's not like we're making more in comparison and that combined with just...so much else socially is draining. We have one life but right now it feels like a slog with no end in sight to get to something enjoyable. You can always poke at me tho if you need to vent because I will not judge you or think you're entitled at all.

Feeling today like making friends is either getting more and more impossible or that I guess I've actually just been really bad at it this whole time and don't know where to go from there.

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Please please PLEASE watch this Christmas spot we got in Spain

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We are in the same boat hahahaha. I want it but also as much as I think about it I'm like...but can I write it the way it deserves? Because it needs absolutely the angst and emotion married with the smutty fun bits.

One day between the two of us maybe there will be enough for us to just flesh it out a little more and have a fully realized fic lmao.

But yes! If there's someone on campus who hasn't either witnessed their dramatic messiness themselves or heard about it from someone who did, it would be a miracle. And it doesn't help that when they're in the moment and not fighting, they're absolutely getting down and dirty wherever they are with no regard to who's around. So whoever they think they're fooling, it certainly isn't the people going to school with them.

The waterboy!Stiles fic is just *bites fist* The way I can picture this as the beginning to Stiles' adventures in your college AU where Derek thinks Stiles accidentally drinks his piss and gets a confused mess of arousal. Just...gremlin Stiles getting that way in HS and being fully confident by college but also absolutely ready to wreck that perfect buttoned up pretty boy. Idk where I was going with this, I got distracted, but anyhow I loved it and I love your writing so thanks xD

Hahaha, thank you, thank you. I try not to write on reblogs like that so the original poster doesn't have to see the heinous shit that I get up to, but I just couldn't help myself with that one. There was something about the way it hit that had the inspiration immediately firing in my brain. Something about the grainy image quality and the dutch angle that made it feel very voyueristic.

And you know what, I had not considered that at all, but I actually looooove it. You know I love my gremlin Stiles and the idea that people keep trying to be embarrassed or humiliated for him and he just uno reverses it by being really turned on and getting off to it instead? So stupid and funny and horny and exactly the energy I like to imagine he brings to a lot of his interactions. Just like, you can't slut shame me if I'm too slutty to dislike it. :P

Also it would feed into my need to make that particular AU as messy as possible. Giving him this backstory of embracing fetish to deal with bullying? Ooooh the potential for that to just be wells and wells of unresolved angst. Him unintentionally teaching himself that sex is a good coping mechanism and he can just fuck his way through his problems instead of addressing them.

Probably still feeling like he's constantly trying to prove himself to his dad, who he feels very isolated from. Never having really resolved the rift between him and Scott-- his only really stable and fulfilling relationship in the past just being used for tinder in raunchy sexcapades that he doubts Scott would ever admit to engaging in. Most likely having an extremely toxic non-relationship with Jackson that whole time. Trying so hard to date him and get close to him and foster something private between them, but Jackson was just not ready to fully come out of the closet, let alone love and accept himself enough to be able to send any of that back to a partner. So instead they just had a lot of hatesex and screaming matches and unfair promises and sometimes he still sends Stiles dickpics and sometimes Stiles still responds to them.

So when he gets to college he feels liberated, but if anything he's just a more manic mess and no one is close enough to him to realize that he's getting a little bit out of control and spiraling. Hence the regular blackout drinking at parties and the loads of unsafe sex and the desire to chase after familiar dynamics even if he knows they're bad for him overall.

So when Derek steps in and so clearly is bringing so many of his own issues to the table, it's catnip to this self destructive tendency that Stiles has. And he can't help pushing and pushing and pushing and wanting more and more. He knows Derek needs more time or space or help and stability, but he just can't give that. All he has is sex and his neediness and so he just bleeds that into their volatile energy.

Much to think about. :P

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Okay first: uno reverse is hilarious as a way to describe his reactions to them but also completely accurate and something I can imagine Stiles actually thinks in his head the first time he twists bullying to stop hurting from it!

Also yes okay, yes to all of this. People definitely grow apart and it's natural but for someone who lost his mom young and whose dad fell into a bottle and work trying to deal with it and kinda left him abandoned, added on to be different (Polish name, ADHD, clingy) and having virtually no friends because of that like...of course he's going to end up taking it a lot harder when Scott starts to make other friends and he feels left out or behind. Nevermind the intimate ways they "practiced" with each other despite that brotherly feeling.

And lord yes, him and Jackson just having the most toxic and damaging non-relationship relationship where there's this constant push/pull between them because Jackson definitely needs and craves having Stiles desire him and be available for him but he's also too damaged himself to actually deal with that in any healthy way or admit that he needs to feel wanted. And then of course there's that side where he knows that the entire team and probably half the school at this point know what Stiles has been doing as their waterboy and he cannot handle anyone thinking he could possibly enjoy that in any real way, so of course it turns him into a massive douche. And then there's Stiles, needing to feel that intimacy and connection and being so lonely inside but unable to really articulate that to anyone who actually cares for him, so he's just taking what he can get and then lashing back when Jackson pushes him away, but still always giving in when he's hit up yet again to hook up. And he's definitely the one who cares the least about how many people see them screaming in each other's faces so it just drives that wedge between what they want and what is happening even further. I'd reckon the only reason they stop their whatever is because Jackson leaves for collegiate sports training a month before Stiles leaves for campus and there's no real time left to go ahead and keep this shit up. But that's also when Scott leaves and if Stiles felt that rift of abandonment before, it's even worse now. I imagine that's when he starts getting riskier with his behavior. Like, sure, he engaged in some very kinky shit in HS with Jackson and the team but that was still people he knew, now it's strangers at whatever club will take his fake ID or off whatever kinky hookup app he manages to try next and he definitely convinces himself this is just him being free of he bullshit even though it's still reaction to feeling so alone.

And then the party and he's drunk but he's not that drunk, not enough to not see how hot and uptight this dude in the bathroom is, or to smell what's been done to the beer he forgot in here that most definitely was at last half gone but is miraculously full now. And, like you said, here we can see him recognizing familiar dynamics when he sees Derek watching him and he just. Cannot. Help. Himself. He knows, somewhere inside, that this is not going to go the way he can't even admit to himself that he wants, but he does it anyhow. Because watching the way Derek gets the most confused fucking boner and seeing him want sparks that same thing in Stiles that he felt when he kneeled on that locker room floor and opened his mouth. And he fully convinces himself he's going to be smarter this time, he's gonna have his fun with this preppy jock but he's definitely not going to get in his feels about it. This isn't gonna be Jackson 2.0 - he's going to have fun and open this guy's mind to the kinky side of life and he's going to walk away just fine. And maybe somewhere deep inside he knows it's a lie, but he's doing what he's perfected over the years: pretending that everything is fine and letting his dick make his decisions. And of course it gets worse when he interacts with Derek a few days after the first time they have a messy kinky hookup and Derek behaved exactly like Jackson, pushing Stiles away and acting embarrassed that anyone might think that there's something happening between them and Stiles just getting livid and calling Derek a repressed prick before storming off. But of course that next weekend there he is, hot and sweaty and drunk and Stiles can't help but want, especially when Derek looks at him with open desire, his eyes all hazy from drinking and smoking and Stiles tries to be strong when Derek finally corners him, but he's drinking again himself and he's so fucking lonely and then Derek mumbles some dumb endearment at him, calls him baby or something equally stupid while also encouraging Stiles' face into his hairy sweat glistening pit just off to the side of the yard where anyone can see and that's it, Stiles is letting it happen and his dumb brain is still pretending he's not gonna let this asshole get under his skin even tho he knows it's already happening and he's falling back into a mess.

The waterboy!Stiles fic is just *bites fist* The way I can picture this as the beginning to Stiles' adventures in your college AU where Derek thinks Stiles accidentally drinks his piss and gets a confused mess of arousal. Just...gremlin Stiles getting that way in HS and being fully confident by college but also absolutely ready to wreck that perfect buttoned up pretty boy. Idk where I was going with this, I got distracted, but anyhow I loved it and I love your writing so thanks xD

Hahaha, thank you, thank you. I try not to write on reblogs like that so the original poster doesn't have to see the heinous shit that I get up to, but I just couldn't help myself with that one. There was something about the way it hit that had the inspiration immediately firing in my brain. Something about the grainy image quality and the dutch angle that made it feel very voyueristic.

And you know what, I had not considered that at all, but I actually looooove it. You know I love my gremlin Stiles and the idea that people keep trying to be embarrassed or humiliated for him and he just uno reverses it by being really turned on and getting off to it instead? So stupid and funny and horny and exactly the energy I like to imagine he brings to a lot of his interactions. Just like, you can't slut shame me if I'm too slutty to dislike it. :P

Also it would feed into my need to make that particular AU as messy as possible. Giving him this backstory of embracing fetish to deal with bullying? Ooooh the potential for that to just be wells and wells of unresolved angst. Him unintentionally teaching himself that sex is a good coping mechanism and he can just fuck his way through his problems instead of addressing them.

Probably still feeling like he's constantly trying to prove himself to his dad, who he feels very isolated from. Never having really resolved the rift between him and Scott-- his only really stable and fulfilling relationship in the past just being used for tinder in raunchy sexcapades that he doubts Scott would ever admit to engaging in. Most likely having an extremely toxic non-relationship with Jackson that whole time. Trying so hard to date him and get close to him and foster something private between them, but Jackson was just not ready to fully come out of the closet, let alone love and accept himself enough to be able to send any of that back to a partner. So instead they just had a lot of hatesex and screaming matches and unfair promises and sometimes he still sends Stiles dickpics and sometimes Stiles still responds to them.

So when he gets to college he feels liberated, but if anything he's just a more manic mess and no one is close enough to him to realize that he's getting a little bit out of control and spiraling. Hence the regular blackout drinking at parties and the loads of unsafe sex and the desire to chase after familiar dynamics even if he knows they're bad for him overall.

So when Derek steps in and so clearly is bringing so many of his own issues to the table, it's catnip to this self destructive tendency that Stiles has. And he can't help pushing and pushing and pushing and wanting more and more. He knows Derek needs more time or space or help and stability, but he just can't give that. All he has is sex and his neediness and so he just bleeds that into their volatile energy.

Much to think about. :P

#Sterek #Frat AU #Watersports #i just cannot get all these thoughts out of my head #idea bouncing #not my fic #but I'd watch this show haha

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#Teen Wolf #Stackson #Sciles #Watersports #Humiliation #Hazing #Exhibitionism #Voyeurism #stiles stilinski #Group sex #Public Sex #implied homophobia #not my fic #fic rec #please sir can i have some more #piss drinking

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𝕷𝖔𝖚𝖎𝖘 & 𝕷𝖊𝖘𝖙𝖆𝖙 ➜ Louis’ coffin INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE SEASON 1 (2022).

#interview with the vampire #louis and lestat #this is so deliciously gay #better than my hopes and dreams

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XD I didn't figure your mind too much, thank you! And one day I will actually write more for it too, I swear lol!

So this might be similar to something you’ve written before but let’s say a 20-something omega Stiles gets hired as a live-in nanny for the Hales. Most of his duties involve looking after a preteen alpha Derek. And the moment Derek sees chubby fertile looking Stiles he has to have him. So with the help of a cackling Peter, he starts secretly doping Stiles with fertility drugs and low dose aphrodisiac. Unbeknownst to Derek, this is exactly the reason Stiles was hired, to be Derek’s mate. Stiles knowingly and happily takes every drug a very obvious Derek tries to hide in drinks or food. Thalia and Peter just wanted someone they approve of while still giving Derek the thrill of conquest, though they maybe didn’t expect Derek to start right away.

A lot of this concept intrigues me, but something about the drug use just really hit a squick zone in my brain, despite the ultimately consensual nature of them, sorry! I'm pretty sensitive to that kind of stuff coming from a family of addicts so I don't like engaging with it very much.

Idk if you've ever heard of the system of lines and veils, but it's a definite veil for me. I don't mind if it's something that happens off screen or just acknowledged in fiction, but to engage with a narrative that's centered on it, just doesn't work for me.

I also don't tend to enjoy manipulation in that way either. I think it was meant to be innocuous-- coming from a young Derek and being incredibly obvious-- but it still rubbed me the wrong way.

Hope this doesn't come across as rude, just wanted to concisely explain why I wouldn't be taking this one. Thanks for the interaction though!

#chit chat #tumblr needs a berter system for this

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I'm gonna obnoxiously self promo here under this because I have a series that does deal with older Omega Stiles and a just presented Alpha Derek and some oops on the part of the Hales:

There's no drugging or scheming by the Hales here but it is the older/younger abo dynamic that your requester asked for. And hilariously was started all because of a prompt idea you had xD

So this might be similar to something you’ve written before but let’s say a 20-something omega Stiles gets hired as a live-in nanny for the Hales. Most of his duties involve looking after a preteen alpha Derek. And the moment Derek sees chubby fertile looking Stiles he has to have him. So with the help of a cackling Peter, he starts secretly doping Stiles with fertility drugs and low dose aphrodisiac. Unbeknownst to Derek, this is exactly the reason Stiles was hired, to be Derek’s mate. Stiles knowingly and happily takes every drug a very obvious Derek tries to hide in drinks or food. Thalia and Peter just wanted someone they approve of while still giving Derek the thrill of conquest, though they maybe didn’t expect Derek to start right away.

A lot of this concept intrigues me, but something about the drug use just really hit a squick zone in my brain, despite the ultimately consensual nature of them, sorry! I'm pretty sensitive to that kind of stuff coming from a family of addicts so I don't like engaging with it very much.

Idk if you've ever heard of the system of lines and veils, but it's a definite veil for me. I don't mind if it's something that happens off screen or just acknowledged in fiction, but to engage with a narrative that's centered on it, just doesn't work for me.

I also don't tend to enjoy manipulation in that way either. I think it was meant to be innocuous-- coming from a young Derek and being incredibly obvious-- but it still rubbed me the wrong way.

Hope this doesn't come across as rude, just wanted to concisely explain why I wouldn't be taking this one. Thanks for the interaction though!

#sterek #shameless self promo #a/b/o #age difference #definitely nsfw #read the tags

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Would you like to tell us a bit more of that fantasy with cheater Derek you mentioned a few days ago? Maybe some scene that really works for you? I haven't stopped thinking about it hahaha

Well I think the starting point is a prompt fill that I did a while back and have just kind of kept ruminating on more and more and fleshed into a space where it's a regular thing I sort of daydream about. :P I can't remember what the original prompt exactly was, but I wrote about a Derek who was very buttoned up and shy and reserved. One of those situations where he's so repressed and nervous about meeting up to the expectations of everyone around him that he's terribly meek and kind of unappealing to a lot of those he surrounds himself with because of course super ambitious people hate the quiet and the nervous types.

Anyway to appease his parents and society in general he just married the first girl that seemed like it made the most sense. Usually I try to keep to source material and not erase his or Stiles' bi-ness, but in this one I just imagine him struggling so much to "perform" with her. And maybe he still is bi, she just intimidates him too much or he's too repressed to enjoy any sex period. It doesn't have to be a "he wants a man" thing, but either way he's basically never made either of them cum and the more she berates him for it the worse it gets.

He's humiliated to have to go to fertility clinics and ask about what might be wrong with him. At that point he's so shoved down that he doesn't even realize it for himself. Which just makes him so much more pathetic to everyone who behind his back is murmuring about how his wife married a thin voiced queer. But he genuinely thinks he must have some sort of sexual disorder or growth on his prostate or something and his wife also pushes the idea for her own sanity and their image.

So he spends months and months, maybe even years going to specialists and paying for expensive tests and trying all these things to try to please her and give her a child and he just can't do it. And he reaches this despondent state where he thinks he'll do pretty much anything. So without her knowing he starts looking up alternatives. Not necessarily licensed and above the board ones.

He thinks maybe he'll just buy some questionable pills from a black market, but he's not actually ready to risk his life yet. Somehow he ends up at a password locked site for this "homeopathic clinic". Once he gets in it's Stiles' little operation that he's basically running in a garage on the back of his property on the preserve.

Derek is really skeptical about it, but he's desperate, so he schedules a consultation. The guy has fucking glowing reviews and he doesn't want to admit it, but reading the testimonials and watching the lurid videos posted to his page were starting to turn him on.

The whole thing is like Goop mixed with reiki mixed with stoner mysticism and straight up porn all over the top. Stiles has this bio on his page claiming he went to medical school and found it all to be bullshit meant to peddle pharmaceuticals and then to find himself he dropped out and went back packing across his homeland. There he visited real healers and watched dulas work and found out the way fertility was always meant to be treated.

Homey and down to earth and simple and sensual. In his picture he's got grungy facial hair and a tank top that's practically just strings. He's too young to possibly be so educated, but he guarantees satisfaction or money back and Derek has to admit there's something that just feels right about this kid.

So he uses a card he keeps secret from his wife to buy a slot, makes up an excuse of being late at work to go. When he pulls up he has cold feet. Seeing it's really just a bootleg set up, that he's legitimately just going to some guy's house to get his dick looked at. But he won't get the refund if he doesn't at least go through with it, so he just runs with it.

Inside Stiles is wearing flip flops and his feet stink and he's eating a sandwich next to the examination table. He's got ska music on low and incense burning and what little equipment he does have looks like it belongs more in a farm house than a hospital. But Derek just imagines himself finally knocking her up, finally making everyone happy, finally getting some breathing room.

He undresses and sits on the table and puts his feet in stirrups. His hair is all nicely coiffed and he has immaculately clean horn rims and his body hair has all been buzzed to a level burr. She calls him wild all the time. Tells him he's worse than a dog. Hairy and stinking and messy. Seems like she doesn't even like when he tries to touch her. One time he tried to wax it all, look more like she wanted and she made him sleep in the guest room, told him he emasculated himself.

It was hard to keep up with. The unprofessionalism continues as Stiles runs bare hands up his shins and strokes his knees while openly staring at the fat hang of his junk, humming as he licks the oils and vinegars from his sandwich off his chin. Derek shivers and his cock fattens a little and that makes him all the more nervous.

Anyway this was supposed to be a recap of last time on and new material, but I guess I'm just retreading old ground now. Long story short Stiles goes on and on about getting back to his primal self and the way studs are supposed to be. His examination consists of sniffing Derek's armpits and playing with his foreskin and rubbing thumbs against his hole.

Asking him when the last time he jerked off was and what porn he likes and if he could fuck anyone or anything what would it be? Derek feels mortified and swindled and so out of his element. The sexual creature inside him banging at the bars of the cage he keeps it in. He keeps telling himself he's not like that.

He doesn't have kinks. He doesn't masturbate. He doesn't have fantasies. He's a grown man with a family and responsibilities. At some point he says the appointment is over and sweeps up his clothes and goes to leave, but when he gets outside and it's raining and he pauses and feels the water soaking his hair and the mud dirtying his feet and smells the air crisp and wild, he just feels something in him creak open.

And he storms back in and Stiles was just waiting for him with a dumb little smile. And he asks Derek if he wants to be shown that he is a stud and he can cum. And Derek fitfully nods. So Stiles lays him back on the table and gets naked with him and this is certainly not professional at all, but he starts licking Derek and stroking him and riding him.

Derek tries to stammer that he's married, that this doesn't seem right. But Stiles just picks up his hand and examines his ring, clenches around his dick and asks if he wants to be fertile or not. Derek shakes and doesn't answer so Stiles sucks his ring finger and slides the wedding band off with his tongue.

Derek moans and it sounds so foreign and alluring to him and he watches as Stiles spits his ring to the floor and then fucks him so good he's scrabbling at the examination table and howling and nutting for the first time since he was a teenager and he had a wet dream in his bed and his parent's shouted at him for what felt like hours as he shook, cold and sticky and ashamed. Telling him he wouldn't be a filthy little cretin like that, have some respectability.

When he comes down Stiles is humming and licking his filthy cock and spitting the "sample" into jars. He says he'll run some more tests and look into things, but that Derek is certainly capable of breeding and if he just keeps visiting, they'll get him exactly where he wants to go.

And Derek can feel the dangerous half-lie in there. He knows Stiles isn't all helpful. There's a darkness in his eyes and his hands won't leave Derek's body. There's a tension between them and Derek is at least not so clueless as to not recognize it's more than sex.

His heart races and his palms feel clammy and his mouth is dry. If she ever found out she just might castrate him. His parents would disown him. The whole town might just point and laugh. Shy, impotent, inadequate Derek fucking some dirty little sex worker when he could have had it all. Money and stature and a beautiful wife. And he's sticking it in this smelly scammer-- a male one at that.

But he'd really begun to think it would never happen for him. That he really was broken. It felt so fucking good and he already wants more. He'd tackle Stiles to the ground right now, find out if he could handle a round two. Except there's three missed calls on his phone and it's later than he thought and she's going to fucking scream at him for sure.

He asks if there's a shower and he gets tossed a package of wet wipes. Stiles smirks and Derek feels humiliated anew, but he scrubs himself up and gets dressed and races home despite the rain. It's only when she asks what the fuck happened to it that he realizes he never picked up his ring.

#not mine #Sterek #Teen Wolf #Cheating #Humiliation #Homophobia #Dubcon #PTSD #Musk #cum play #Gender role bullshit #I WANT IT ALL OMG #this is my flavor of cheating fic #Derek learning to embrace himself #ahhhhh

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*clears throat* I wasn't the Anon but I am explicitly asking for all of this. I want the whole story! I'm like...very hrm on cheating and having the most conflicting feelings about it except when it's like this and then I'm just a hoover vacuum ready to devour them being unable to avoid fucking each other despite one/both of them being with someone else. So...please?

Is there any fantasy that you're really into at the moment? You can share as many details as you want

Haha, oh man. Well not to expose myself, but just the usual sicko shit that I'm usually up to. The specific fantasy I've been playing out as I've been *ahem* enjoying myself this last week or so has been some sterek stuff. Just a nebulous au where Derek is married and Stiles thinks that's hot and is trying to seduce him and gets him to do more and more explicit and grotesque cheating until he's like sucking on Derek's ring finger and groping him and asking him about all the things she won't do.

And eventually they start fucking with more and more the point being the cheating and how hot it makes them until one time Stiles like steals him away from a public event where his family and friends are at and rides him in the bathroom and warns Derek that he's essentially ovulating (IDK if this is mpreg or trans or fantasy or w/e my brain doesn't care when I'm stroking) and after they both pause and seriously consider that fact Derek cums inside him anyway.

And then when Stiles misses his first heat/period/whatever they have even filthier, lustier sex. And Stiles like sends Derek a video of him fucking himself with a positive pregnancy test and then they have really gross kinky pregnancy cheating sex a lot and it all culminates with some uh... erotic explicit birthing shall we say.

You know, just some heinous, horny goblin shit. There's plenty more details of course, some weird incesty shit and etc, but I'll spare y'all unless you specifically ask for them

#not mine #sterek #cheating with one another

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Just adding that maybe the nonny should not watch Rogue One until the Andor series is fully and completely finished. Idk how long each of these series is set to run as far as seasons go but like, watch the series until it concludes before moving on to that!

((Also I haven't started it because I am spoiled as shit at this point and I want to binge it rather than waiting week to week haha))

Hi! I've been thinking about watching Andor since everyone is saying it's great but I'm not sure because I know almost nothing about star wars. I think I've only seen one movie, I've played some Lego games from ps2 and I saw a pretty sad tiktok about rogue one.

Do you still think I could enjoy it? Or would I lack too much critical information?

I would actually say that Andor might be the best show for someone not terribly into Star Wars to watch because it's the first new thing in a long, long time that doesn't feel like it has to pay worship to the source material. Star Wars is usually a fanboy's dream and regular viewer's nightmare because it spends SO MUCH TIME just referencing itself and I was worried about that happening here, but so far it operates shockingly well as a stand alone.

Obviously you will get a little more from it if you know the larger context of the franchise, but it's not required reading and it doesn't waste time on easter eggs and it cares so much more about being a compelling crime drama/action show/thriller more than anything else. The writer is perhaps best known for his work on the Bourne Identity trilogy if you know what those are, and I think that gives you a good idea of the vibes of the show.

If you like shady corporations and government cover ups and spies and very grounded action, I would very much recommend it. Like I said before, the writing is truly stellar and the acting is great and the visuals are riding the perfect line of being unabashedly Star Wars-y while still feeling like a lived in place, where real people have real lives they gotta maintain.

If you have the time and interest, I would give it the first three episodes, which are their own mini arc, and if you don't love it by then, then click out. But in my opinion it does work for new watchers!

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prompt: sterek bodyswap + masturbating in front of a mirror? -kazu.

So this might be a little crack-y, but I've spent a hot minute brain storming on what I would do with this idea and it has finally come to me. Since I think Derek especially has a lot of consent and bodily autonomy traumas just the usual stuff wasn't quite sitting right and so I kept turning over and over in my head ways that this could play out that would still be horny, but that would be crossing certain lines for him. And this still might not really get there, but idk it's what made my brain excited when I finally got it.

Imagine them in their UST phase. Everyone keeps asking them independently when they're gonna ask the other out and it's just always met with deep sighs and wistful looks. Neither one thinks it would be a good idea. Whether they don't feel worthy of each other or think it would just be messy to date within the pack or feel like they're not ready, who could say? Maybe it's a mix of all those things and more.

What is apparent is how much they want each other and how much they already act like a couple. They already spend so much time with each other, lean on each other emotionally and physically. They act as alpha and his second within the pack structure and everyone hates when one or the other leaves town for a while because they know the boy left behind is going to be a moody mess.

No one knows what to do about it and then a trip comes up for the group. It's time to renegotiate boundaries or something and they have to head to some sort of resort town to meet up with the neighboring packs. It's cold and cozy and the town the end up in has the nicest ski bum vibes. It's all pub food and wool coats and old booklets of DVD's in a log cabin.

Stiles and Derek are flirting like mad on this trip. Sharing ski lifts and sitting together on the balcony with coffee mugs and falling asleep under the same blanket on the couch. It's driving them both mad, but in a way that's almost fun for the first time. Almost like foreplay. Neither will be the one to make the first move, to lean in for a kiss, but they're dangerously close to holding hands and their shared body heat hits just the right temperature.

There's a night where everyone stays out drinking and they separately come home early, not realizing the other is there. The tension has ratcheted to this pleasant, tingly itch beneath their skin. Stiles loves a night shower and climbs into the hot spray not intending to masturbate, but not at all mad when he starts to get hard. Derek had just wanted to curl up in his bed with a book, except he didn't realize just how steamy the novel he'd brought was. The fight for their life spy thriller suddenly slowed down to have some shockingly smutty bits and when he got sticky in his sweats it felt like a nice little indulgence to just roll over and start humping the bed.

They're both closing their eyes, starting to get into it. Their breaths are getting shorter, lips needing to be bitten to coyly smother a moan. Even though they both think they're alone in the house, it still feels too illicit to wantonly enjoy their pleasure in a group space. Stiles puts his back to the cool tile for contrast. Derek can feel sweat starting to work up between his belly and the bedding. They think of each other in this moment and...

Derek thinks the roof has started leaking. Stiles wonders if he fell asleep in the spray. They don't question it for a moment, wanting to stay in this heady space. But then Derek wonders when his fingers got so long and as Stiles ruts he pauses-- considers the distinct slip and tug of a foreskin. Their eyes fly open and when they look down the cock in their hands is not theirs.

Both startle. Both groan. Both feel a guilty twinge as they can't help but at least stroke once, twice more. Stiles feels his ears prick, catching... well catching his own aroused groaning. Down the hall. Derek stumbles out of the shower and looks into the mirror, stomach squeezing as he looks and for the first time in a long time is swamped with deep, dirty desire. He can't remember he looked head on in the mirror and openly stared. Pale skin flush from the heat. Moles dotting long stretches of intimate flesh. Surprisingly dark and thick and wild hair. A cock all pretty and pink and the perfect size, curve, softness.

The doorknob rattles and he goes to shout that it's occupied, but his voice cracks and he squawks and... his body walks through. Meaty and hairy and obscene. Precum is drooling from his garish erection like snot, his uneven and grotesque balls sweating. He has a look of shock and then smarmy interest on his face that is hauntingly detached from any expression he's ever made before.

"I didn't know you were home," they both gasp at the same time. Their dicks jump. Stiles moves further into the bathroom, shuts the door behind him. Derek can't help the way languid hands stroke the fuzzy insides of his thighs as he watches the approach.

"Do you like that?" Stiles husks, and Derek hates the way his voice is so thin, even when deep with arousal. Derek's thumb pushes up into his taint, brushing past the coinpurse balls and threatening to feel for what he just knows to be a soft, sweet pink hole. "I'm so sensitive there. Love when guys blow on it, give it a little bite." Derek gasps and his fingers push at the bundle of nerves as he imagines sitting on his own face to test it.

"I knew you were big," his own voice chuckles, his hands reaching down to scoop at his drippings, slather them into his bush and pinch at the gushing abundance of wrinkly skin at the tip. "I had no idea you'd get this wet though. I've never seen it like this before. Fuck. I feel like I could take you raw."

Derek gasps as he's pushed up against the sink, made to feel small and slight and desperate for the first time since... since he decided he should never feel that way again. But he likes it. He likes it when he's easily lifted, legs spread, put on display. He likes seeing himself so openly lustful as he drinks in the object of his desire for so, so long. He mewls and he loves the way it sounds coming out of Stiles. Needy and boyish and deliciously unaffected. He wouldn't know how to filter it even if he wanted to. But he adores the naked youth, femininity, lewd wetness.

His own face smirks at him, eyes shining with understanding. "Oh you're already there huh? Usually it takes me a while. I think I built up a tolerance or something. Used to jack it for hours, you know? Dad gone all weekend and I'd just play video games and eat cheetos and cum all day. God it was grotesque, but like... kinda hot." Stiles reaches out and plays with the small length he used to feel such shame over, pinching at the plush head and watching it pulse. Always so needy. "But you sound like you've been at it a while. I'd say two spunks in. Starting to feel a little greasy, but can't stop yet. You gotta make it sore."

He takes himself in foreign hands and starts to slowly wring at it, puts Derek's against him. It looks almost comical. Longer and thicker and hairier. He'd thought he'd really been growing out of his baby face, but here and now he'd believe his body was still sixteen, still not fully developed. He ruts them together and they both groan, both spit. "Don't stop!" He hears Derek talk through him for the first time and his ass clenches. Stiles feels it itch with want and wonders if that's something he's brought or if Derek would love to have it played with.

There's not a single universe where he would ever stop. In fact, as long as they both nut, he's pretty sure he could die happy after this. He looks so vulnerable, but more lived in than ever. No matter how far away he gets from those gawky teenage tauntings, he still feels awkward. Limbs too long and voice all warbly and not an ounce of muscle on him. But Derek moves him effortlessly, with grace. He makes Stiles' body look like that of a dancer. Elegance and finesse. Self assuredness. The kind of person used to knowing how each nerve works and how to make it a tool.

They sigh. They grind. They stare into their own eyes and grip at the counter. Even as the shower has stopped the steam doesn't subside. Their hands tangle over their cocks and the wet, sticky sounds echo off the tile. They press their temples together, chests tight and whine for each other. Pleasure pops and fizzes like a bottle of champagne and it's hard to distinguish the gush of spunk that spills over them and spatters on their bodies.

When eyes open again their vision swims but they are back. Derek is staring down at Stiles. Stiles is spread eagled beneath Derek. They tremble and their breaths quiver and as one they move together into a kiss.

#Sterek #not mine #body swap #mirror sex but not really #and so so hot! #like damn!

[dirtyknots]

I had to reread the first one to reply to a comment (something I'm just notoriously slow at doing at this point I'm sure) and then I was like...well why not follow up on it and see where it goes? And then it just grew and grew and grew and I was like....5k words in and still has more to get through lmao.

And I'd say just take a peek at the kinktober account and see if anything sparks. The first time I did it I was so dedicated to making sure I posted on the days or within the time frame and now I'm just like...I'll do what I can when I can haha. It helps me get through some of my asks and CuriousCat requests sometimes too if they fit. And I've taken to just adjusting the prompts or doing something different if I don't like any of the options for the day. If I try to be wholly faithful to picking one of the three to fulfill, I have a harder time motivating myself. But I'm always in favor of letting something try to inspire me.

Live Show - DirtyKnots - Teen Wolf (TV) [Archive of Our Own]

Kinktober 2020 Day 8 - Casting Couch

(yes, I am still pretending that it hasn't been 2 years)

I took some liberties with the concept of a casting couch because I had a lot of requests for a sequel to Cam Show, which I didn't think I was ever going to write, but then this happened. Mind the tags.

[dirtyknots]

Ahahahaha I love you man. It is ridiculously long and it's mostly all porn and I have no idea how that happened. I finished it a few days ago and just haven't been able to post. I hope it lives up to the excitement you have for it!

Live Show - DirtyKnots - Teen Wolf (TV) [Archive of Our Own]

Kinktober 2020 Day 8 - Casting Couch

(yes, I am still pretending that it hasn't been 2 years)

I took some liberties with the concept of a casting couch because I had a lot of requests for a sequel to Cam Show, which I didn't think I was ever going to write, but then this happened. Mind the tags.

[dirtyknots]

Live Show - DirtyKnots - Teen Wolf (TV) [Archive of Our Own]

Kinktober 2020 Day 8 - Casting Couch

(yes, I am still pretending that it hasn't been 2 years)

I took some liberties with the concept of a casting couch because I had a lot of requests for a sequel to Cam Show, which I didn't think I was ever going to write, but then this happened. Mind the tags.

#ao3 link #kinktober 2020 #mine #stiles/derek/dog

[dirtyknots]

Done for the Sterekfest.

#Sterek #not my art #but oh my god I love it