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[diseasedrat2000]

Things I wished was brought up/talked abt more in the books and fandom pt 1

Recognizing the fact that Percy wasn't the only one who was abused in his home as a child

Chiron gaslighting Percy and constantly withholding information from him and Jason (as far as I remember)

Thalia's childhood and overall importance to the narrative

Bianca was a 12 yr old girl who made mistakes and shouldn't be hated for her decisions

Hylla -Twice Kill- Ramirez Arellano

Phoebe the Hunter

EVERY Big Three Kid getting the chance to go all out on a person or a monster!!! Not just the boys, I mean Thalia and Hazel too!!

Annabeth's rocky relationship with her mother and how they should have a conversation abt it

Hazel should've been allowed to explore her powers over precious metals instead of letting her use the Mist e.g. controlling weapons (yes ik the rating was for kids but come on there's a bunch of ways you could've done this)

The potential of Octavian, Reyna and Jason mirroring Luke, Annabeth and Thalia

Camp Jupiter being fleshed out more and having more depth

Percy and Jason shouldn't have fought over leadership

Jason literally being replaced in his own camp and getting mocked for no longer being Roman even tho he was replaced by a Greek

Reyna and Jason's friendship

Dakota

The potential of Thalia and Nico being friends

Percy's mistreatment throughout the first 5 books from CHB

Thalia should've been in the room during the final fight in tlo

Rachel Elizabeth Dare is a wonderful character and doesn't deserve the hate just because she threatened the development of Percabeth

JASON AND THALIA SHOULDVE HAD MORE TIME TO DEVELOP AND BE TOGETHER

The only couple that should've been on the Argo II was Percabeth

The caleo plot line should've been a platonic relationship at best cause they both deserved better. Say what you want abt Calypso but she deserved to be freed. also, GIVE LEO A SELF LOVE PLOT LINE!!

Showing us how Leo learned to not be so afraid of using the powers that he believes killed his mother

I still think that Rick could've done something with the ' a Greek and a Roman born as siblings for the first time in centuries thing'

The implication that Thalia at 12 yrs old literally got torn apart by a pack of hellhounds on that hill (see tlt and hoh for proof)

Jason and Percy's rivalry should've either been caused by jealousy for the other having something they longed for (e.g. Jason wanted a family and a close relationship with his sister and a Camp that cared abt him.)

(Percy wanted Demigods to have a safe place to go and he definitely hated waking up in the forest alone with no memory surrounded by wolves)

Annabeth and Jason should've had more time spent together developing a friendship or a sibling relationship as they share an older sister

Rick failed at writing the Aphrodite Cabin and could've done better with the Hunters

Is it really necessary to have every major character be a cabin counselor?

Jason is the son of Jupiter yet he's only met Zeus.

Will's trauma from losing 2 of his brother's and being forced into a leadership position at a VERY young age should've been discussed more

Does anyone know what happened to the remaining Demigods from the Titan Army? Did they die? Did they run away? Were they offered a place at Camp, what???

who was responsible for telling the parents of the Demigods who died during botl and tlo and how did they even do it?

Why tf did Chiron make a 14 Yr Old boy tell a 10 yr old his sister was dead???

Drew Tanaka has the potential to be a layered and interesting character but Rick wrote her as a stepping stone for Piper

Instead of having everyone minus Leo be in a relationship on the Argo II, it should've just been Percabeth, who are the oldest (minus Hazel) and most experienced (slightly minus Jason) mentoring the others and helping them learn how to use their abilities and work as a team

Jason and Piper should've spent hoo learning who they are and who the other person is so they can learn to trust and depend on each other instead of jumping into a relationship right off the bat

Also they should've been the founders of the Leo protection squad just saying

Was losing daedalus' computer AND Luke's dagger necessary?

Percy should've spoken up when they were contemplating leaving Nico in the jar

The way Percy got all his memories back while Jason DIDN'T

Perseus means to 'Destroy' and Jason means 'to Heal' I think this could've been a great thing to talk about and https://www.tumblr.com/starlightshadowsworld/744309856211697664/this-exactly-like-were-told-time-and-time-again?source=share this post explains it better and credits to @rowlev and @starlightshadowsworld for it.

Thalia's relationship with the hunters is definitely a lot more complicated than we think, see this post -> https://www.tumblr.com/caffeinatedflumadiddlebutpjo/645485477726715904/i-am-having-feelings-about-thalia-grace-everyone?source=share for a better explanation

Why were Nico and Percy the only ones to go apeshit on a monster/goddess/person? What about Jason, Hazel and Thalia? yes ik Hazel fought Paisphae in HOH but that was the mist and not her actual powers over jewels and other Pluto/Hades abilities that we could've explored. Jason is praised for defeating Krios on his own as well as the trojan sea monster yet we don't get to see him go all out or put in a situation where he's pushed to the brink and is forced into a fit of rage. No, seeing Thalia turn to ice wasn't enough I need more.

Also I know it was mainly about the 7+Nico and Reyna but what if we got a perspective of Thalia or Hylla right after Reyna and Nico escaped from Orion? what if we got to see how that fight went? what if we saw Hylla and Thalia beating the absolute shit out of Orion like Nanami and Itadori did to mahito in jjk season 1? cause you can't tell me that both Thalia and Hylla wouldn't have just straight up used him as a punching bag after he killed their friends and comrades.

Children of the Big Three Do. Not. Just. Apply. To. The. Boys! I will fight you.

What kind of drawbacks do you think washing away the Curse of Achilles done to Percy? Demigods already have bad luck, Percy and Thalia especially, since they were the products of a broken Oath.

Rick shipping one person with another much older person (see Annabeth who had a crush on Luke who was 7yrs older than her and was implied to have returned said feelings during tlo when he was 24 and she was 16. As well as fans who dislike Frank for being 16 while Hazel was 13 and Calypso and Leo which speaks for itself. y'know?)

People are allowed to feel torn/conflicted about Silena's actions during the war

Writing off single characters into the Hunters of Artemis is not the best way to wrap up arcs. (FYI I love the hunt and think it's cool but I just think that Thalia and Reyna could've has a different ending to their arcs)

The fact that Thalia is always pushed out of the picture when it comes to the Broken Trio dynamic even tho she plays a major role in it see this post -> https://www.tumblr.com/aetherialpiplup108/743363216863887360/so-ive-always-been-a-little-upset-at-the-way?source=share for more info

pls list things I may have missed or add your own below. here's the link for part 2 -> https://www.tumblr.com/automaticcatsandwich/748806951406813184/things-i-wish-was-brought-uptalked-abt-more-in?source=share

[diseasedrat2000]

genius

do *you* think with your dick?

I think with my packer

[diseasedrat2000]

ruby redfort blink and you die spoilers ahead

absolutely Obsessed with the narrative dynamic where ruby and baker cannot exist at the same time as each other. baker “dies” before ruby is born, ruby comes to fill his spot, baker reemerges after ruby pulls him out of his metaphorical grave, and three weeks later he’s dying in her arms to save her. she gave him life and he gave his for her in return!! like what the fuck!!! they can’t live with each other and they can’t live without!!!! the two brightest stars in spectrum simply Cannot Exist simultaneously!!!!! honestly though the thing that gets me the worst is ruby resurrecting baker not Once but Twice, like she discovers him in little mountain side And pulls him out of his icy grave and he in return Created her—no need for a ruby redfort in spectrum when you’ve got a bradley baker—and saved her from marnie and lorelei and her worst fear of being buried alive. their entire relationship depends on unwitting transactions and i am hmrmnhghnghgr gnashing my teeth this is so good

#in other words i’ve lost the plot entirely #they’re too much alike to be around at the same time #self-recognition through the other (destructive) #thrashing and screaming. this is the good shit #ruby redfort #blink and you die #bradley baker

[diseasedrat2000]

At 18, everyone receive a superpower. Your childhood friend got a power-absorption, your best friends got time control, and they quickly rise into top 100 most powerful superheroes. You got a mediocre superpower, but somehow got into the top 10. Today they visit you asking how you did it.

[diseasedrat2000]

This is a compiled list of some of my favorite pieces of short horror fiction, ranging from classics to modern-day horror, and includes links to where the full story can be read for free. Please be aware that any of these stories may contain subject matter you find disturbing, offensive, or otherwise distressing. Exercise caution when reading. Image art is from Scarecrow: Year One.

PSYCHOLOGICAL: tense, dread-inducing horror that preys upon the human psyche and aims to frighten on a mental or emotional level. 

“The Frolic” by Thomas Ligotti, 1989

“Button, Button” by Richard Matheson, 1970

“89.1 FM” by Jimmy Juliano, 2015

“The Yellow Wallpaper” by Charlotte Perkins Gilman, 1892

“Death at 421 Stockholm Street“ by C.K. Walker, 2016

“The Ones Who Walk Away from Omelas” by Ursula K. Le Guin, 1973

“An Empty Prison” by Matt Dymerski, 2018

“A Suspicious Gift” by Algernon Blackwood, 1906

CURSED: stories concerning characters afflicted with a curse, either by procuring a plagued object or as punishment for their own nefarious actions.

“How Spoilers Bleed” by Clive Barker, 1991

“A Warning to the Curious” by M.R. James, 1925

“each thing i show you is a piece of my death” by Stephen J. Barringer and Gemma Files, 2010

“The Road Virus Heads North” by Stephen King, 1999

“Ring Once for Death” by Robert Arthur, 1954

“The Mary Hillenbrand Cassette“ by Jimmy Juliano, 2016

“The Monkey’s Paw” by W.W. Jacobs, 1902

MONSTERS: tales of ghouls, creeps, and everything in between.

“The Curse of Yig” by H.P. Lovecraft and Zealia Bishop, 1929 

“The Oddkids” by S.M. Piper, 2015

“Nightmare at 20,000 Feet” by Richard Matheson

“The Graveyard Rats” by Henry Kuttner, 1936

“Tall Man” by C.K. Walker, 2016 

“The Quest for Blank Claveringi“ by Patricia Highsmith, 1967

“The Showers” by Dylan Sindelar, 2012

CLASSICS: terrifying fiction written by innovators of literary horror. 

“The Tell-Tale Heart” by Edgar Allan Poe, 1843

“The Interlopers” by Saki, 1919 

“The Statement of Randolph Carter“ by H.P. Lovecraft, 1920

“The Damned Thing” by Ambrose Pierce, 1893

“The Legend of Sleepy Hollow” by Washington Irving, 1820 

“August Heat” by W.F. Harvey, 1910

“The Black Cat” by Edgar Allan Poe, 1843

SUPERNATURAL: stories varying from spooky to sober, featuring lurking specters, wandering souls, and those haunted by ghosts and grief. 

“Nora’s Visitor” by Russell R. James, 2011

“The Pale Man” by Julius Long, 1934

“A Collapse of Horses” by Brian Evenson, 2013

“The Jigsaw Puzzle” by J.B. Stamper, 1977 

“The Mayor Will Make A Brief Statement and then Take Questions” by David Nickle, 2013

“The Night Wire” by H.F. Arnold, 1926 

“Postcards from Natalie” by Carrie Laben, 2016

UNSETTLING: fiction that explores particularly disturbing topics, such as mutilation, violence, and body horror. Not recommended for readers who may be offended or upset by graphic content.  

“Survivor Type” by Stephen King, 1982

“I’m On My Deathbed So I’m Coming Clean…” by M.J. Pack, 2018

“In the Hills, the Cities” by Clive Barker, 1984

“The New Fish” by T.W. Grim, 2013

“The Screwfly Solution” by Racoona Sheldon, 1977

“In the Darkness of the Fields” by Ho_Jun, 2015 

“The October Game” by Ray Bradbury, 1948

“I Have No Mouth, and I Must Scream” by Harlan Ellison, 1967 

HAPPY READING, HORROR FANS!

[diseasedrat2000]

i think i love you, which is odd, because i promised myself i couldn't love anything that breathes - on account of a sense for the dramatic and also one time i got thrown against the ground so hard that the splatter was chalk dust. i said i'd never let that happen standing up. it happened like a sunrise anyway, between the fingers over my eyes. you flew as a bird and made a nest in my heart. i want it to pass over me like a locust. my hands keep shaking. anything close can cut through bone. like looking down a deep hole, i hear the stones skitter over and plunge. i wanna be an adult about this and instead i feel like crying. this will only make things worse. i wasn't supposed to do this again. what a fool, this girl.

it's like she wants to get hurt.

[diseasedrat2000]

fuck this is real

you worry the cardboard sleeve around the coffee and think about landfills and the future without straws. you are worried about prion disease and deer. you are worried about the rising temperature of mushrooms. you are worried about teflon and microplastics and carcinogens and whatever else you're being quietly lied to about.

your mother used to jokingly say you are "a worrier," which always kind of oddly hurt your feelings. you feel like a person. and besides, you've been told one-million-times that this is normal. examples get trotted out in a pony show each time: everyone gets nervous sometimes. they talk about public speaking and picturing people naked and how when they get nervous they just-get-over-it.

you run your hands down the grater of your life and feel the sharpness. you started holding your breath in tunnels as a kid, worried that if you relax, the ceiling would cave in. like years of architects and engineers weren't responsible - you, and your faith, you were responsible for the success of infrastructure. if you slipped for a moment, your whole family would be swept away under the ocean. and the problem is that it worked - no tunnel collapsed.

you once broke a coffee carafe and even though you didn't drink from it after, you worried that there had been some previous invisible micro-break that had made you drink glass particles. you stayed awake for 24 hours, constantly dreading each swallow, waiting to taste blood.

you hate being late, you worry about it. you go to grab literally just lunch with a friend - no pressure, no emergency - and you still park the car an hour early and just sit there scrolling on your phone aimlessly. maybe you just don't like surprises or change. you triple-check you locked the doors, and then go to bed, and then get up out of bed to check twice again.

a worrier. like a strange and dreadful bingo card, you collect weekly experiences. someone tells you that you're overthinking, that's 2 points. you have to physically turn around and go back in your house to check you unplugged everything, that's 1 point. spiraling about climate change or politics or the state of the world is a free space, that's basically every evening.

you worry you're being selfish and not a good person because how come you're worried about your dog's health and the itch in your eye when you know people who are really very ill or who have it worse or who are genuinely struggling. then you worry that you're being annoying by infantilizing them. then you worry that your priorities are wrong, that you should be infinitely more worried about the state of a dying planet.

you wanted to be a person, is all. you wanted to go through life in a softness, to hold the world gently and have it whisper past you. and instead you are a worrier. everything that touches you is hard and raw and sharp like diamonds.

#anxiety

[diseasedrat2000]

genuinely my everyday activities

Bothering the beast

#cat

[diseasedrat2000]

i just started it, please, why?

seriously though you’ve written so beautifully

It barely feels like being human anymore. Now, say something hopeful.   After the lake, Ruby can’t sleep. Blacker keeps watch—there's nobody else to do it.

Good lord, has it really been three entire years since I last wrote for this fandom? And all it took was an in-depth reread of the full series to pull me back into doing it.

Rereading got me thinking a LOT about Ruby's relationship with the adults around her, and the different ways she's loved by the people she knows.... and then That One Scene from BaYD came in to smash me in the side of a head like a brick, and this came tumbling out.

Do I have way too many thoughts about Agent 'We Don't Even Know His Goddamned First Name' Blacker and the way he interacts with Ruby? Maybe. This is a little bit about that. But it's also about Ruby being thirteen and filled with absurd amounts of grief. Have fun.

#ruby redfort

[diseasedrat2000]

My only moods are

High empathy

Anxious Anxious anxious!!

I AM GOD

Dissociate

The pure embodiment of rage

#autistic

[diseasedrat2000]

i love this

The last time we were on a long flight, my wife and I invented a game we call "Little Guy."

You start a game of Little Guy by saying, "I'm gonna hand you a little guy." The little guy is some kind of baby animal you are imagining. "Oh," she might say in response, "Okay," and hold out her hands for it. I will then mime handing her the animal. This provides some clues as to the little guy's size, weight, and general ungainliness.

She then gets to ask questions about what kind of little guy this is, BUT NO QUESTIONS ABOUT HIS ACTUAL APPEARANCE OR SPECIES ARE ALLOWED. Qualitative questions, or questions about his behavior, are the only ones permitted. She can ask "Is he soft?" or "Does he seem nervous about being held?" or "If I put him in the bathtub, does he seem okay with that?" or "Would he like a lil grape?" or "Is he the sort of little fellow who would wear a vest in a children's book?" but not "Does he have fur," "Is he a reptile," "Is he from Asia," etc. Some questions are in a grey area so you have to follow your heart, but the point is not to identify the animal as fast as possible: the point is to guess the animal purely based on vibes + how he would act if he were in your living room right now.

And I'm not limited to yes or no answers! If she asks, "Would it feel appropriate to see this little guy in a propeller hat?" I can reply, "Oh no, he has a gravity to him. A bowler hat would be a more appropriate hat." Or if she asks, "Does this little guy have protagonist energy?" I can say something like, "he probably wouldn't be the main character in a children's cartoon. He'd probably be the main character's ditzy best friend who's always eating sandwiches, or something."

We're big Twenty Questions to kill time in a waiting room people, but Little Guy is more about the journey than the destination. It's got a different kind of sauce that's nice if "killing time" and "lowering anxiety" need to happen hand in hand.

[diseasedrat2000]

Once you get this, you have to say five things you like about yourself, publicly. Then you have to send this to ten of your favourite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool~) 🌈 🌈

thank you :)

- i’m very very kind

- i’m hugely empathetic to people i care about and will always try my best to help them or listen to them if they’re down

- i’m doing really well at the minute at recognising my triggers and trying to minimise the damage caused when i have a bad day/week

- i’m trying really hard to revise for a levels

- i give super good hugs

#positivity #self appreciation

[diseasedrat2000]

Sometimes the rats in my brain come together and start yelling “YEARNING” and in trying to appease them I ask “FOR WHAT” but they are too small so all they can say is “YEARNING” which is a very big word for such a tiny creature, even collectively

[diseasedrat2000]

if ur in a tough situation and don't know what to do immediately escalate to violence. follow me for more life advice ❤️

#or arson #set stuff on fire to solve your problems #light up your environment to light up your heart

[diseasedrat2000]

Alright, that’s it, I’ve had enough of your nonsense *takes something precious from you along with all the memories you had of it so you don’t know what it is you’re missing, only that a piece of you is gone and can never be recovered*

#someone did this to me some time ago #i haven’t felt home in my body since #i want it back #i crave that familiarity i once had #let my teeth feel like mine again #let me hold myself and feel my hands and their holds #let me look in the mirror and see me #and truly myself #reflected back #please

[diseasedrat2000]

y'all not to doxx myself too hard but irl i have spent some time in my life in mental health recovery, and i am here to tell anyone who needs to hear it that people with multiples & schizophrenia & psychosis & BPD are fun and interesting and lovable people and my friends

[diseasedrat2000]

genius

Higgledy-piggledy unparliamentary green parrots quarrel outside in the trees

Squawking out epithets uncomplimentary Squads of unmannerly Oversized peas.

#art #poetry