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i got “i like your shoelaces”-ed in real life yesterday 😭 fucking ruined my whole day

#holly.txt #HSDKJFH not to use the hellsite again bc of this (i'm so sorry i've been busy failing my classes) but god DAMN #i was talking to someone yesterday and i don't even rmbr what we were talking about but they went 'hey can i ask you smthn?' #and i said sure and then they hit me with the good ol tumblr meme JWHNSJDFH of course i replied but i was choking on air #worst moment of my day it ruined my week actually </3 #anyway ... not that it matters ig but the person who did this to me wasn't rly the best hnsjkdf i didn't enjoy their company #they asked me if i still used tumblr and i told them no bc i used to run a gif acc and when i got busy i stopped ccing #they asked me what i made gifs for and when i said kpop guys they just ... idk they started 'bantering' with me in a not fun way #i didn't appreciate it </3 this is why i don't tell people i like kpop like i didn't even say anything specific but they were still mean #idrk why i posted this tbh NSDKFJHKJHDF i just wanted to say that someone id'ed me as a hellsite user IN REAL LIFE. #and then they were weird about it </3 classic tumblr behavior tho #anyway hope everyone is having a nice 2023 i'm not really but hey at least my semester is almost over 🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲

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damn we got 2023 tomorrow

#why is this from 2021 #fucking wild tho how could time progress like this

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holly’s 2022 year in review!!!!

#holly.txt #oh boy!!!! me returning to tumblr to make yet another ramble post !!!! insane concept tbh #anyway i just wanted to write this to just sum up my thoughts as the year is ending now .. jnskdfhnsd long year.... #looking back it feels rly short but i did so much this year so ;;;; in the moment living through it it felt so long sjdnfjksjd #um so i went through. so many experiences this year i transferred colleges and switched majors which means i had to move out(?) kinda #and move to a city where i didn't know anyone and had 0 friends and like hnsdkfhjf it was so emotionally draining idk #i think i've cried more in the past 4? months than i have in the past two years. which is saying a lot!!!! idk nsdkjfhn #i feel so stupid even typing this out bc its such a trivial concept like becoming independent and moving out is what you're Supposed to #do but i just wasn't ready for it i guess;;; or rather i was ready/capable but i was terrified of being on my own ... #and its been fine i guess in concept like nothing bad has happened to me besides feeling a crushing sense of isolation every single day #paired with the terrible imposter syndrome i've been feeling has made the 2nd half of this year really rough for me jnskdfh #i did make some friends at college tho but they're exchange students so hnsjkhdf next time i go back i'll be alone again and i'm dreading it #idk i feel like i don't belong at my college... i think my admission was a mistake on their behalf and i don't feel like i fit in;;; #which makes being there very hard for me socially >< ik that's something i have to get over and move on from but this is just how its been #on the flip side though being away from home has made me realize that i don't really belong there either... idk 'home' isn't what i #remember it being... and idk what changed except me;;; everytime i come home its not the same it doesn't give me the same sense of #comfort that it used to >< which has led me to where i've been for the past few months ... not feeling like i belong anywhere its crushing #anyway i've had a lot of the happiest moments of my life this year and also a lot of the lowest (emotionally) and like ... idk makes for a #weird year hsnhkjf i met up with friends of mine more often this year c': which i'm really thankful for bc they're special to me #i made some friends at college and we did a lot together ... like go out for dinner / go grocery shopping / go to rallies/ visit the city #i'm also very thankful for them ;;; they made me feel almost like i belonged there but ! again they've all left now hnskjhd hopefully #they keep in touch but ! i guess only time will tell with that ... i went to europe this year which was neat i got covid which was not neat #anyway all of this to say that i think i was happier this year that i was last year in spite of everything;;; not the best year ive had #but also very far from the worst ... its been hard but i've been managing! not that i have any choice but to manage it but hsndjkf idk #i think my resolution for next year will be to do more... going out more this year and meeting up with my frens has made me rly happy so ;;; #idk i think the worst weeks i've had this year were the ones where i gave into the loneliness and didn't talk to anyone or do anything #and that's not how i want to live >< its easier said than done i guess but i rly think it'll make me happier if i start trying a bit harder #which i guess goes back to the same resolution i've had every year for the past 4 years now HNSKHJF 'be happier' #i think i'm slowly getting there ;;; even if i have to grow up in the process #anyway! if you've read this far.. i'm sorry i guess HNJSKHDF ty for listening tho ;; happy (early) new year i hope 2023 is kind to you

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ketzal_coatl

#aes #q

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#JNSDFKJSHDFKJDSNF????

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whats great about the internet is that you can just ignore people who are fucking stupid and not waste your time on them, i say, white knuckling the sink and staring into the mirror

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Lilligant ko-fi doodle for RadicalDadical!

#pokemon #fanart #q

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モクロー

#pokemon #fanart #q

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faves from gen 3

#pokemon #fanart #q

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I don’t think I’ve posted this before but not sure?

#pokemon #fanart #q

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you will feel so alive again.. like so incredibly alive. i dont know when that will be but it will be. u are gonna feel so alive that ur cheeks hurt from smiling oh man oh man i promise that day is coming. you do have a future, you do have good things coming, and you’ll survive everything that’s thrown at you until you reach that day

#words #q

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continuing to follow a beloved mutual but tag blocking all the fandoms they post about. baby i LOVE you but there is a demonic force that controls your interests.

#honestly NSDFKJH i love my mutuals AND curating my dash <3 #this is abt my kpoppie mutuals btw some people rly just post anything

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wan_hello_

#aes #help i had to do like a triple take on this

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Hisanori Yoshida

#aes #art #q

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Bewear ko-fi doodle for var! ❤️💕

#pokemon #fanart #q

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Asking for directions

#aes #art #i love this :(( #q

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I saw somebody be wrong on the internet and I didn’t respond (don’t want to get involved) and I’m being SO brave about it