is the psychological question this minor genderless lizard with it/he pronouns would ask, but this is a silly tumblr so doesn’t matter. mostly idv art posts, loves clout
theres. sm thoughts i want to write down. and i cant put them into sentences. ive been overthinking, burnt out, s*icidal, lonely, arrogant, the worst version of myself, and i don’t understand why im still standing. i dont want to hear “ur a good person” come out of anyone’s mouths. idc what u say, im an awful person who cant keep their fucking mouth shut. what friend? thats not a friend. why is it so hard to make friends? why cant i just talk to ppl? i cant make good things anymore. i cant say anything nice out of my nasty mouth. i cant make a decision. maybe death is good. i dont want to wake up rn. i dont want to be u. im so tired of being okay. all i need rn is a hug and a sob period i need one.
at least ik what to do in my future. become an author. and perhaps in a book i could finally explain the fucking pain i’ve been welling up for so long in a sense that others could understand.
u can tell mike and the other two were drawn on different days. posting this a lil earlier than usual bc i have some stuff goin on tmrw so since its finished ill just shove it and go
one of these days im gonna burn myself out with how much work and ambitions i put myself on but thats how i keep myself busy and somehow it doesn’t stress me out most of the time. it will turn into a problem, ik it will. but i like having multiple things to do and if i get bored/tired of one thing i can just shift my focus on something else. weird mindset but makes sense for me, thats all
this is what ive been working on for the past few days
this little shit that is either named droop or bitchboy, havent yet, has taken up my time immensely
as u can see, i never made a plush before this so it looks pretty janky and thats bc it is. but that thing is my son now so cry abt it. also ive been thinking of giving a lil jacket or suit for the lil guy but i dont have much thread left so that ideas just on the backburner