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Dec 2023

Save him

#ahhhhhhhh im crying #this is beautiful

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TikTokers are such pussies when it comes to ships. “B-but they’re not canon 🥺🥺🥺😭😭😖😖” honey back in my day we shipped characters from entirely different medias uphill both ways in the snow

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it’s the day again ♥️

#its a me #the gay boy

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How barracks buck reader has people on base

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Eivor my beloved argh 🥰

Tagging: anyone who wants to do it

last fictional character in ur camera roll just adopted u

(Yes I did do this only because I want him to adopt me. Fuck off)

tags: @cryptidwithaninternetconnection @reggie-the-inferi @gingerbreadeel24 @pickupstyx

and whoever the fuck sees this

#yes i have like 70h in this game only in this week shut up

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Red flags be looking real green

#that's it #that's the ship #ghostsoap #call of duty #simon ghost riley #john soap mctavish

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Not enough people write/draw 09 ghostsoap dynamic but with their reboot physique

Ghost, being Captain MacTavish feral attack dog

Captain MacTavish just being shadowed by the scariest man tm

Like you wouldn't underestimate John MacTavish even on principle but then you realise he has this monster known as Ghost under his finger and it leaves their enemies even more sweating wondering what he's got hiding that he can control such a man with ease

#john soap mactavish #call of duty #simon ghost riley #ghostsoap

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Okay thanks to new Ultimate Spiderman I'm suddenly shipping J JONAH JAMESON with Peter Parker because

What the fuck

The gay sexual tension in those panels is out of roof you can't tell me it isn't

#ultimate spiderman #peter parker #j jonah jameson #spiderman comics #spiderman

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gay gay gay evil and gay

#scream 1996 #horror #they're boyfriends

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finally some more infos about the polycule~ ✨

#gi is living the life honestly #i want to be him

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It's me. I'm the cis, heterosexual, aromantic man. I will never marry, I will never be married, I will grow into middle age and elder age and I will die unmarried. I will be forced to support a household of myself on only my wages alone for the rest of my life. I will be asked about women and marriage and children by my family for the rest of my life (or men, the progressive ones might say). I may not ever come out to them. I feel like I burned my coming out on something stupid. I don't want to explain it. I don't want to run them through the definitions and intricacies. I don't want the acceptance without understanding, placating me with ceased questions and poor explanations to other, drunk adults.

I like my hair to be long, I spent a year with it dyed a golden blonde with dark roots because I like the trashy party girl aesthetic. I want to dye it again with pink tips. I like painting my nails, black and blue are my favorite colors. I like wearing chokers. I also like wearing baggy jeans and ratty hoodies. I like having stubble. I like having chest hair. I like having a square jaw and broad shoulders. I wish I had a flatter stomach and a thinner profile frame. I don't know what this makes me, perhaps this is something no more GNC than Machine Gun Kelly. I think about this a lot, how queer my appearance truly is. I should think about it less. I have thought long and hard about if I could be trans or if I could be non-binary or if I could be genderqueer and the conclusion I ultimately came to is that I most enjoy being a man open to whatever self-expression I want.

I don't date, but I've thought about it. I would like to meet people, and I would like to have sex with them. But I don't want to hurt them. I fear if I explain what I am beforehand it'll scare them away. I fear if I explain after they'll feel manipulated or abused. I don't know how many people in the dating scene want what I want. I fear my own lack of experience will make me a bad lay, an embarrassing story to tell to confidants in hindsight. I fear my own virginity, a boundary to those I wish to be like. All of these fears are baseless, as I've not been able to even begin a single relationship in my life. Despite this I still heavily identify with terms like "slut" and "manwhore" and "thot" because my interests lay so deeply within casual sex, sex without great intimacy or emotion. This may be some form of stolen valor. I hope the true sluts are not too mad at me.

I made this blog several years ago because a mutual of mine reblogged memes making fun of aro and ace people, making fun of the concept of aphobia, and in addition well known aphobes. I didn't feel comfortable talking about aro stuff on my main blog, for as little as I talk about it. Living through the ace discourse of the 2016 era has largely caused me to cringe in embarrassment any time I am forced to discuss my orientation with people who aren't aro or ace themselves. I no longer follow this person. I unfollowed many people I was mutuals with from that time, most of them because they posted too often about how much they hated men and I didn't want to see that, some because our interests simply drifted too far apart, only one for explicit aphobia reasons. (Also one because they became a "both sides are bad, any vote is wasted" libertarian, but that's unrelated.)

I guess at this point I don't care deeply about what strangers on the internet think of me. If a trusted friend told me that they don't think I'm truly queer that may hurt. But I am going to continue to use the word for myself. I take up no resources. I go to events that are open to me. If an event was not open to me, I think I'd not want to go anyways. I am not a hypothetical, I am not a strawman, I am a person with lived experiences both within and exterior to the queer community. If you hate me, I will permit you to continue to do so. But ultimately, I am who I am, I cannot change these facts, and I would not choose to do so even if I could.

#LGBT #fuck the aphobes

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saw that one “are cishet aro men queer” poll that’s going around and like. I’m not gonna reblog it bc the results are frankly disappointing and the discourse going on in the tags is really dumb but, unfriendly reminder, if you’re aro/acephobic you’re a loser lmao…. bye. anyway hi aro men you are very valid and I think you’re super awesome and cool ‼️

#LGBT #aro/ace are part of lgbt community #stop the erasure

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You ever think about how terrifying Soap would be as a bad guy

He's insanely smart, he could use bombs in a way that'd get rid of an entire army (as he did with Shadows)

He is literally the best at clearing houses of enemies, meaning - he could take over any safehouse with no issue

Like

Evil Soap would be be one man army that'd literally just wreck everything on his path

#call of duty #john soap mactavish

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‘I’ve got your back.’

#ahhhh #i love them #there's not enough masked soap #ghostsoap #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #call of duty

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afterglow

#AAAAAA SO PRETTY #call of duty #john soap mactavish

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haunted

#barking #he's so hot #call of duty #simon ghost riley

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can someone please be proud of me like fuck I’m trying

#tumblr vibes