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#one day i was walkin & i found this big log #and i rolled the log over & underneath was a tiny little stick #& i was like 'that log had a child!' 😂 #yes i know & love this song lmao #also enjoy some [redacted] of [redacted] #music #poll

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match percenteges, helping is allowed

50%

50%

#oh what? we did it! no way 😂 #poll

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#another blast from the past! #music #poll

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#yes! #brings back memories #music #poll

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#went blank panicked (bc i cant scroll past a poll lmao) answered no #then looked in the notes & i did know 🤦 #poll

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LEE PACE in HALT AND CATCH FIRE (2014–2017)

#ugh i still haven't watched this 😖 #lee pace #halt and catch fire

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Fernando Pessoa, “The Book of Disquiet” / The Diaries of Franz Kafka / My photography / The Diaries of Franz Kafka / The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath / Unknown / Fernando Pessoa, “The Book of Disquiet” / Ray Donley, “The Mask of Sanity (no 2)”/ Fernando Pessoa, “The Book of Disquiet”

#ME

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so. this is a hard post for me to write, given that this is, i think, the fifth time i've started trying to write it and first time i haven't chickened out halfway through this first sentence where i admit that part.

i'll save you all the time and energy and get what this post is about out of the way, first: i need money, badly. yeah, this is another post where a disabled, brain-damaged trans woman tells you her sob story and asks you for cash to mitigate it. shocking, i know. it's almost like it's hard for women like us to survive under capitalism, or something!

but here's facts: i'm currently jobless. now, normally this would not be the end of my fucking world - i have a patreon that's meant to help cover my basic living expenses and provide something of a cushion, and at least momentarily i have a roommate who's being very understanding about my difficulties covering any portion of the rent. however. that roommate is already looking for new places to live. and i am not the only one in financial dire straits at the moment, and in fact it seems like virtually everyone in my social circle that i normally know i can rely on to help keep those of us less-employable queers afloat is under severe financial duress to the degree they've had to pull out of doing any of that for the foreseeable, and as a result - my current expected net income per month for the foreseeable future, as far as i can plan on it being, is limited to what i make on patreon: exactly $171. and right when i have medical debts incurred from veterinary intervention to save my cat's life that i need to pay off monthly or start incurring severe interest on, too! ain't life grand? i don't know when, or even if, i'll be able to change this state of affairs; in an ideal world, i'd be able to claim self-employment and have it be true. we do not live in an ideal world, so my best shot at that is asking for you to support my patreon or buy my work off itch.

in fact, i am asking, just short of begging, for you to do one or both of these things before any other option. it's not that i don't need immediate financial aid, because i do. but more than that: i need to fucking survive, bitch. i need to reliably have enough money to keep a roof over my head and food in my mouth and if i can accomplish both of those things i can also do the other, fun things that people like to get from me, like long, thoughtful critiques of this piece of art or that piece of media or any number of other things that i am compelled by my demons to produce awhile. you may notice some of that's dried up recently, and part of that's panic-induced brain spiral shutdown in effect. it is, in fact, easier to make art, criticism included, when you're not worrying whether buying a soda now means risking overdrafting on your cell phone bill later.

it's here where i wish i had hustle. i'd love to be one of those pledge allegiance to the grind types that you know only gets better the hungrier i am, give you something to look forward to as an earn on your investment in me and my future; unfortunately, i'm just not one of those people. hunger just makes me hungry, it doesn't make me more capable.

i won't make any promises i can't keep. but if you give me money, especially if you give me money i can consistently count on being there when i need it and enough of it i don't need to worry about what i'm gonna eat or where i'm gonna stay, there will be work made off the back of that financial security. and if you like any of the work i've done to date, both as a media critic and as a fiction writer, i can promise you it'll meet your expectations.

thanks for your time.

and here, for ease of access, some links:

my patreon my itch.io account paypal ko-fi venmo (i do not currently have a working cashapp account. sorry.)

#signal boost!

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As someone who grew up with "I'm not going to praise you for doing what's expected of you; that's not being good, that's doing the bare minimum" I want to encourage you to celebrate every little thing you can. Everything that takes energy and effort should be appreciated and you're allowed to be happy about trying.

#important

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As Seen On TV Bumpits (2008 - 2012)

#so funny 🤣 #the second last pic reminds me of robin swallows in austin powers 2 lmaooo #history #fashion

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Password Journal by Girl Tech (1999 - 2006) 📓

#i had the 2nd one! 😂 #history

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MicroPets (2002)

#OMFG 🤯🤯🤯 #i had the hamster & i think the grey cat #i haven't thought about them in YEARSSSS #i think i can hear them 😭 #history

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have to remind myself to breathe sometimes.

prints + merch + commission info

#oh jeez 😭 #carmy berzatto #the bear #art

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#skgfsksk #me

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oh hi thanks for checking in I’m still a piece of garbage

#posts i can hear 🎶 #me

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(I bring a sort of “Everyone has inherent worth regardless of their productivity” Vibe to every conversation that ableists don’t really seem to like)

#😅😅😅😅 #me

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#*PTERODACTYL SCREECH* #needless to say i LOVE this song! #i think it may actually be the greatest song in the world idc what the song says #music #poll