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timeweaver!five watching other powerful beings make decisions that they shouldn't be making.

timeweaver!five watching other powerful beings reconstruct a reality that isn't even their own.

timeweaver!five doing his damn best to keep the various fives alive (and happy as possible), watching as others sabotage his efforts without realising and/or caring.

timeweaver!five ascending to a level of god-like power out of sheer desperation for some semblance of control, only to remain as powerless as ever.

#as a guy who is essentially every five at the same time #it is no surprise that he is the biggest walking tragedy of them all #he just wants to put the fives on the right path and minimise timeline branching 😔 #poor guy #au talk #ramblings #rp talk

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noone:

smol five: i am DROWNING in guilt and self loathing right now

#survivors guilt go brrrr 😔 ✊ #rp talk

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PUNTS HIM HUGS HIM THROWS HIM IN A RIVER DECAPITATES HIM GIVES HIM A MUG OF HOT CHOCOLATE

AHSHXNXHDHJ I SEE THE CUTENESS AGGRESSION GREW TOO STRONG

#ask

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Five has a squeaky laugh. That's it. That's the post.

#headcanons

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fivecore: going through some horrible tragic shit and not even getting a hug

#he sleeping on a park bench atm bc no one has even asked if he's okay (He is not) #and rsd go brrrr #so he's like right guess im better off alone as always 💀 #rp talk #ramblings

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five: i don't like being alone

also five the moment he feels alone: i have no choice but to leave

#ramblings

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five stop converting your negative emotions into anger challenge

#tbf he has every right to be bitter #little guy just received confirmation he has lost EVERYTHING #so yeah i don't blame him for being angry #he's very scared 😔 #what do you do once your entire life is gone and you're expected to make a new life in a different reality? #lad abt to get his coping mechanism mannequin back at this rate 😔 ✊ #rp talk

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five stop being alone when you're sad challenge 😔 ✊

#fella saw other ppl being sad and dipped smh #rp talk

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older five: concerned for younger five but knows damn well that smol five doesn't need/want his company but also not wanting to leave him to his own devices bc that is him and he knows what he's like 💀

smol five: generally not having a good time™

timeweaver: watching yet another version of himself fall apart 🥳

#they're all such happy guys #rp talk #au talk #(au fives are mentioned)

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small five probably doing something self-destructive regardless bc dealing with grief is hard:

#tfw u find out ur original reality was destroyed #and now ur getting hit with grief #and survivors guilt #and suicidal ideation (again) 😔 ✊ #teenage angst be like that 😔 ✊ #rp talk

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small five:

older five: do anything self destructive and i will have no choice but to move in with you

small five: 😰

#small five did a bad to himself once and now he lives in fear of other five #self care is traumatic when it's literal #getting therapy from your adult self is spooky 💀 #rp talk

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five go to anger management classes challenge

#fella you are always going to be angry if you don't have an outlet #like okay that anger is prolly just gonna build back up #due to lack of closure and general shit mental health and frustration etc etc #but man go find ways to cope with it smh smh that aren't unhealthy 😔 #or like. #just cry occasionally #stop getting frustrated at others bc ur frustrated at urself #and can't take it out on urself like you want to 😔 #ANYWAY- #ramblings

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five: has a crippling fear of abandonment and hates being alone

also five: self isolates and avoids others when experiencing bad feelings™

#buddy that is just gonna make you feel worse 💀 #ramblings

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various random headcanons/info for quinnick aka fantasy au five

-physically somewhere in his early twenties. he doesn't remember the exact age he was turned. it's been too long.

-roughly 130+, again the exact age is unknown. he died young, vampiric spawn for around 60+ years and has since been living "free"

-technically a "true" vampire (no longer a spawn, has free will etc etc) but only because he agreed to a warlock pact with his previous mistress, the countess (*coughfantasyhandlercough*). in return for her granting him free will and the power of a true vampire, he'd be pact bound to her, so never truly free from her manipulative grasp

-on the bright side, he mostly serves her as an assassin, taking down her political enemies (or luring in victims for her to consume) etc etc. instead of just. suffering for her entertainment woohoo

-was a wizards apprentice before he died. he'd been a magic prodigy as a child, he was learning from one of the most powerful wizards around (*coughfantasyreggiecough*)

-so? how did he die? to put it simply, mr wizard teacher wasnt a nice guy. so quinnick ended up running away. unfortunately the wizard tower he'd been studying at was in the middle of nowhere and he ended up eventually dying out in the wilderness oof

-so yeah his life has pretty much been pure shit since he left home to learn magic, poor fella

-usually wears all black, it's easier to hide bloodstains that way

-and will typically try and wear something with a high collar/somekind of scarf to hide the bite scar on his neck

-has rather expensive tastes, he's been living in pretty lavish places most of his existence

-has both claustrophobia and arachnophobia. both have been around since childhood, both have been worsened by trauma

-once summoned an eldritch kitten, he named her squid. because of squid he has a soft spot for cats

-very chaotic neutral and very much has a mindset of "i do what i want" simply because he had no free will for a good 60 or so years, he's very much making the most of having a will of his own, even if it is restricted still

-simulateously a pragmatist and a hedonist??? however that works?????

-may or may not have slight stockholm syndrome towards the countess because she considered him her "favorite" spawn 💀ego go brrrrrrrr

-but at the same time he's also plotting to betray her somehow

-has never heard of impulse control (jk, he has, he just ignores it. like he ignores most things telling him what or what not to do)

-rogue/warlock multiclass sort of?? assassin warlock???? magical rogue????? but was a wild magic sorceror in his youth teehee

-casts a daylight protection spell (essentially an invisible magic parasol) so he can walk out in the sun

-but yeah tldr this is a very abused chaotic vampire who hates authority but is actually just a sadboy who wants love 😔✊

#au talk #headcanons

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there are times when five falls back into his younger mindset. it's generally easy to tell when he is, as he'll be significantly less mature and more emotional than usual. sometimes he can pick up on feeling "small", other times he doesn't realise its happening.

#this lad has multiple personalities except they're all just him at different stages of his life 💀 #teenage and old five are always having a smack down in his head smh #five go to therapy challenge #headcanons

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            some days 

                                                i don’t even feel human 

#musings

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timeweaver!five coming into existence solely to provide five control over his own fate, instead of outside forces influencing everything:

timeweaver!five having no control whatsoever because other higher beings ignore/refuse to listen to him, thus rendering him unnecessary:

#even when ascending to fucking GOD status he can't do shit 💀 #love that for him #he exists because he was powerless and he's still powerless #his existence is quite literally pointless #justicefortimeweaver #ramblings #au talk #rp talk