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i think i will just continue to get sicker. and sicker. and sicker. until i can't move. because only then do they give a shit. only now has my father given me his pain meds and offered to massage me now that i can hardly fucking move. its been two months. he's been calling me a big baby these past two months. and only now he cares. my mom only started caring yesterday when my pain was so bad i didnt sleep for longer than an hour. they don't care unless its visible. they don't fucking believe me. please. please i just want to see the doctor. please.

#vent post #cw vent #chronic illness #chronic pain #PLEASE HELP MEEEEEEE

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MY MOTHER IS SO ANNOYING. DEAR GOD.

she keeps ranting about the current war and istg she has a hyperfixation on it. i cannot talk about anything without her butting in and interrupting me with her newest theory about the war. i cannot do this anymore. and when i show clear annoyance that she's interrupted me AGAIN she calls me rude and then acts like a bitch for the rest of the day because she thinks i deserve this. i am 16 years old, but she has been doing this since i was capable of holding a conversation. she has always taken any chance she can get to talk over me and then play victim anytime i show any annoyance. dear fucking god. i need to get out of this fucking house.

#cw vent #vent post #free me from my mothers war propaganda

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im in so much pain :( recorded 2 song demos and in turn i pay for it in throbbing pain in my fingers and arms and legs for some reason??? should probably get my knee compression sock tbh it hurts so bad rn

#minor vent #chronic illness #chronic pain #fibropain #god is dead all hail nature

[fleshofmoss]

got some new dresses n sweaters this week. so cozy n warm (its hot outside but idc i love sweaters)

got opossum bones last week too so once those r clean i will show off :D

been in pain bc my first aid/CPR training got me fucked up (aching) BUT im better today yay

#damn these weak knees of mine.... #god is dead all hail nature #vulture culture #bone collecting #outfit

[fleshofmoss]

i love train tracks. you find tons of bones there but also its. strangely peaceful to me

maybe its something to do with. certain mental health problems............ but i like the train tracks

[fleshofmoss]

sydney sargent is so me but not exactly in a fictionkin way but more in a "ive never felt so connected to anything in this way ever" and its partly bc sydney is exactly like me (personality) but he's also exactly like me (ailments) and its. its nice idk. i dress like sydney just bc i feel very connected to him but he's still sydney and im still aj yk? yk????

#sydney sargent #camp here and there #idk what makes me ................ me but i know i am not sydney sargent because sydney sargent is sydney sargent #and i am me #but who is me #HELP

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btw nvm we talked it out and i immediately felt better im actually just stupid

i hate relationships I HATE THEM!! WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I DIDNT THINK ID HAVE AN INTERVIEW TODAY AND NOW I HAVE IT IN AN HOUURRRR DEAR LOOORRDDD!!!!!!!!!

[fleshofmoss]

born to mindlessly love forced to communicate my feelings

i hate relationships I HATE THEM!! WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[fleshofmoss]

i hate relationships I HATE THEM!! WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[fleshofmoss]

he. didn’t speak to me all day and was just texting me a second ago but i feel so weird talking to him right now because ive spent the entire day missing him and thinking i did something wrong but he’s also not ??? sober right now, and i don’t think its the right time to bring it up, but also i hate feeling like this and want to talk about it (i tried yesterday and he didn’t seem to want to but whatever) and so im just sitting here. shaky and nauseous 💔💔💔 i wish i could just bring up my concerns like a normal fucking human being

i wanted to sleep but got a txt msg from my best friend asking if i still love him and when i said yes he said “i see, okay thank you” BABE WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT THE FUCK!!!!

heart is in my throat a bit 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 like bb PLEAASEEE WHAT HAPPENED DID I DO SOMETHING PLEAASEEE PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME

i will lay here awake and stress myself out until i DIE /hyp

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i wanted to sleep but got a txt msg from my best friend asking if i still love him and when i said yes he said “i see, okay thank you” BABE WHAT THE FUCK. WHAT THE FUCK!!!!

heart is in my throat a bit 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 like bb PLEAASEEE WHAT HAPPENED DID I DO SOMETHING PLEAASEEE PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME

i will lay here awake and stress myself out until i DIE /hyp

#cw vent

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wanna talk abt music i like so here's a long list

1. We Will Commit Wolf Murder - of Montreal

2. Spiteful Intervention - of Montreal

3. Gallery Piece -of Montreal

4. The Death of a Shade of a Hue - of Montreal

5. Ye, Renew The Plaintiff - of Montreal

6. Love, Me Normally - Will Wood

7. Marsha Thankk You For The Dialectics, But I Need You To Leave - Will Wood

8. That's Enough, Let's Get You Home - Will Wood

9. Red Moon - Will Wood and the Tapeworms

10. The Song with Five Names, a.k.a. Soapbox Tao, a.k.a. Checkmate Atheists! a.k.a. Neospace Government, a.k.a. You Can Never Know - Will Wood and the Tapeworms

11. RISK RISK RISK - Jhariah

12. Flight of the Crows - Jhariah

13. Whose eye is it anyway??? - Jhariah

14. SPLIT! - Jhariah

15. PIN EYE - Jhariah

16. Moscow - Natasha, Pierre, and The Great Comet of 1812 musical

17. Dust and Ashes - Natasha, Pierre, and The Great Comet of 1812 musical

18. Preparations - Natasha, Pierre, and The Great Comet of 1812 musical

19. The Opera - Natasha, Pierre, and The Great Comet of 1812 musical

20. Natasha and Sonya - Natasha, Pierre, and The Great Comet of 1812 musical

21. Baroque - Malice Mizer

22. Ma Chérie - Malice Mizer

23. Après Midi - Malice Mizer

24: Beast of Blood - Malice Mizer

25. Gekka no Yasoukyoku - Malice Mizer

26. Hawatari Nioku Centi - MAXIMUM THE HORMONE

27. ChuChu Lovely MuniMuni MuraMura - MAXIMUM THE HORMONE

28. ROLLING1000tOON - MAXIMUM THE HORMONE

29. Rock'n Roll Chainsaw - MAXIMUM THE HORMONE

30. KAMIGAMI - MAXIMUM THE HORMONE

31. Drawn to the Blood - Sufjan Stevens

32. The Dress Looks Nice on You - Sufjan Stevens

33. To Be Alone With You - Sufjan Stevens

34. Blue Bucket of Gold - Sufjan Stevens

35. My Red Little Fox - Sufjan Stevens

36. The Moon Will Sing - The Crane Wives

37. Tongues and Teeth - The Crane Wives

38. Take Me To War - The Crane Wives

39. Curses - The Crane Wives

40. Show Your Fangs - The Crane Wives

41. Bad Advice - Penelope Scott

42. Cabaret - Penelope Scott

43. Over The Moon - Penelope Scott

44. Montreal - Penelope Scott

45. You Should Know - Penelope Scott

46. The Gleam, pt 2 - The Microphones

47. 1fish2fish - The Stereosexuals

48. Stalker's Tango - Autoheart

49. Talk to You - Ricky Montgomery

50. Not The Kind of Boy - Nicholas Megalis

hope yall like my music taste 🔥

#will wood #will wood and the tapeworms #of montreal #jhariah #natasha pierre and the great comet of 1812 #malice mizer #maximum the hormone #sufjan stevens #the crane wives #penelope scott #the microphones #the stereosexuals #autoheart #ricky montgomery #nicholas megalis #music

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TW FOR SKUNK ROADKILL

found this fella a while back ,,, i think about it a lot. fella.... so fluffy. rip lil guy, wish i could've buried him but i didnt have a shovel or proper PPE :(

#tw dead animal #tw roadkill #vulture culture #roadkill #beauty in death #god is dead all hail nature

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photo dump yay

#bone collecting #vulture culture #god is dead all hail nature #forest #nature #outfit #i am a man of the outdoors but restricted by my feeble body #damn these weak knees of mine....

[fleshofmoss]

photo dump yay

#bone collecting #vulture culture #god is dead all hail nature #forest #nature #outfit #i am a man of the outdoors but restricted by my feeble body #damn these weak knees of mine....

[fleshofmoss]

i was talking to my art teacher about vulture culture and i was like "im a bone collector and am currently cleaning deer bones lol" and she said "oh i have a giraffe spine lying around!" and showed me her GIRAFFE SPINE and then said i could HAVE WHATEVER BONES FROM THE BIN I WANTED????????

NOW I HAVE GIRAFFE SPINE!!!!!!!! also got dog jaw and horse (?) jaw

#bone collecting #god is dead all hail nature #vulture culture