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Workout I did today. I DID NOT do the extra credit. Felt like I ate a lot b/ c I' m hungry. Just got done doing this and it is 2100 hours ( 9 p.m.). My ass is killing me!!! On fire!!!! It is all free on youtube, and no equipment needed. Love you all. Stay strong ❤️

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Exercise begins again today. It is permissible to take off two days, train for 5. I hope the scale goes down!

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What's everyone having for dinner?

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6/9/22

Yesterdays food intake. Worked out. Had trouble gauging my bedtime hunger levels. Crossing my fingers I lose weight. See, for me is the issue where a day like yesterday triggers me to restrict more. Then I might binge.

I had a stressful work day where I thought I missed out on a bonus and cried but later learned I did not. All this pressure to move up in your career. A barn with no roof with vines growing up its contents. Peeling paint on the garage and porch. Piles of dishes and laundry. Two stressed out parents. The cost of living sky rocketed...

Stay strong and true to your goals.

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Study: Diet that manages hunger 'cues' helps people lose, maintain lower weight - UPI.com

Its called " regulation of cues". I want to find a hand out and try this. Do not pay for noom. Never pay for weight loss.

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Ok Wednesday night...posting for Tuesday, no take back-ies. Yeah, I am not starving. You see, we are just seesawing between types of misery. Miserable, hungry, low blood sugar, shaky, cold, and brain fog. Or out of control, bloated, logy, and wracked with guilt. Cycling...and the little progress we make brings only brief relief before the next few pounds ( or kilograms). Sometimes I believe one can get in the zone, starve for months....

I need balance. Even stimulants cause starve/ binge cycle when I want consistent moderately low( 900- 1500 calories). We need to keep are head in the game!!! I want to be comfortable in my skin for once!!!! I've hated my body for years.

I'm training fir a mud run. If I restrict, I lose ( with side effects of psychological distress). When I train, I am often overwhelmed by hunger. So for me, I am just striving, striving for a medium that I can maintain.

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Literally just worked out like a psycho

istg if this doesn't do anything imma kill someone, btw if your weight goes up on the scale after working out, thats good! It's your muscles flaring and that means it's working to burn fat

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I'm posting a day later because what I ate yesterday I cannot go back and change. I am training for the mudd run.

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I pray that you all can overcome and ignore your night hunger and I pray that I can ignore mine.

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I have not been able to remember to record my food. I am really hoping to make June my month. June 25th I am doing a mud run. I started some light training yesterday. Fitness Blender will whip you into shape. Stay strong.

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My husband does the cooking

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Stuck with a attack of a ferocious appetite last night 😰 feel so fat, huge, never going to shed this access weight.

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Awful fat binge day 2000 calories at least

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You think trying to talk something out with someone helps. You speak what's on your heart you're so vulnerable. But please don't do that cuz you will get burned. They will use it against you.

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Woke up felling real sad this morning. Just remembering a painful situation where I got my feelings hurt trying to connect with someone who didn't want to. When you go from wondering if this person likes me and trying to get them to like you to the harsh realization of their actions that you know most definitely they do not like you. It just hurts. Trying to give this pain to God today. Love you all stay safe.

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Proud of myself for making time to eat breakfast.

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