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it was this post, for your info. this singular joke post i made that made anon go full on crazy 🙄

They need to get help lol!

Also, I love this post because that's exactly what Bellamort is. You put it so well in just one sentence. 'I love Voldemort because he gets me'. YES. YES.

#harry potter #bellatrix lestrange #bellatrix black #voldemort #bellamort #tom riddle #asks

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begging for some more bellatrix art btw my booping pal, freaking love the way you draw her

Boop! ❤️

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Not even in his dreams! He wouldn't even dare to dream of something so implausible.

just saw someone say regulus would kill bellatrix if he could.....

yeah, he could. in his dreams.

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what are your thoughts on voldemort/bellatrix/rodolphus? 👀👀

The smut is always extremely hot and I can read it endlessly.

#harry potter #bellatrix lestrange #bellatrix black #voldemort #tom riddle #bellamort #Belladolphus #bellamortdolphus #rodolphus lestrange #smut #asks

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i cannot express how much i love bellamort, it's such a good ship.

a murderous warlord who has no clue what empathy is and claims to not believe in "love," having a soft spot for an equally murderous woman who adores him enough to go to torture jail because she believes in him with her whole being?

literally nothing beats this dynamic.

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This is not a hate but you've been in this fandom for YEARS and fighting with Tomarry/iones, I don't get it? Why not just. post things about bellamort and write fics about them and just increase your own fan content? Like i really like bellamort and there is barely any fics for them anymore but all I see bellamort fans do is hate on other ships when they really don't mention anything about bellamort. Like at all. So maybe idk just do your thing instead of rehashing the old argument "a ship that wouldn't work" like I love bellatrix A LOT and I hate the fact that bellamort is laughed at and the fans, instead of truly doing anything for bellamort; they keep talking about tomarry/tomione bruh

I don't really see other Bellamort fans hating on those ships, but I do get your concerns. For me, it's personal and mostly reactionary, but I don't recall the last time I fought with them? I mean, I did delete a Tomarry's comment on my post yesterday, but that's it. And there was my ask to controversialhpmemes, but I wouldn't call that fighting those shippers.

I do agree that there's barely anything about Bellamort anymore and it's awful. I do want to work on that. I have so many ideas and half-worked-on stuff, and I'm also trying to learn digital art. Hopefully that might inspire other people as well, but you're right. I haven't been able to engage with the fandom as much as I'd want to, because life has been awful. I have been much more 'passive' but I am slowly getting back. I already have much more energy than last year.

#asks #Bellamort

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Fandom Problem #4831:

Not seeing the point in filling up the description of my own little fandom space (ie. my blog), which is supposed to bring me happiness and comfort and engender chill interactions, with "nazis dni fuck radfems fuck terfs peepeepoopoo tradwives kys". No thanks. Not here for that shit. Can't tell for sure if anyone belongs to those groups eithout it being advertised anyways.

#politics is ruining fandom spaces

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alma negrot by felipe nogueira, for halloween 2022

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Hermione.

Fandom Problem #4824:

When a character is the "smart one" of the group mainly because they're the only level head in a group of chaotic idiots--but the fandom (and hell, even later on, the SHOW) takes "the smart one" way too literally and now their entire character is just "this one is the human Wikipedia"

#the fandom certainly does #she's not that smart

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Bella x Slytherin!Sirius vibe

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do you hc voldemort as straight?

I see him as Bellatrix-sexual. She is the only choice of lover I ever see him taking willingly, without any ulterior motive. If she was a man, this would still be true in my eyes. I can never see him with anyone except her regardless of gender.

#harry potter #bellatrix lestrange #bellatrix black #voldemort #tom riddle #bellamort #asks

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Gene Tierney as Laura Hunt in Laura 1944 | dir. Otto Preminger

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the story of kfc fucks me up man. the colonel founded this gas station that expanded to restaurant, the chicken at the restaurant gets popular, makes KFC, it gets big and he sells it to a corporation for a lot of money. realizes he got sorta scammed out of the true worth of kfc so tries to get more money and they refuse and the courts side against him. then he starts a new chicken restaurant claiming the corporate people were not making chicken to his standards and kfc sued him because kfc owned the colonel's likeness and the courts agreed. a corporation owned this man's name and appearance. he wasnt allowed to use either, thus legally erasing his reputation making it harder for him to get taken seriously in any food venture. the man, to the day he died, was going into kfc's and throwing fits because the food had fallen into such bad shape he hated it was associated with him. and it's like, whether he's a bad man or a good man or whatever, a corporation owned his identity, stopped him from using his reputation and identity in other businesses, and refused to acknowledge his outrage that they changed his recipes and still attributed it to him. this is literally the obnoxious plot of a jay and silent bob movie, but it was this dude's real life. what the fuck.

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Padfoot: Grief and the liminal space

This is the second part of my series exploring Harry’s grief for his parents in PoA.

In my last post I discussed how through learning to fight the dementors, Harry was able to confront his repressed grief and emotions.

And in this post I will argue how Padfoot symbolises both the liminal space between life and death and grief and acceptance.

1.0 The Purgatory of Azkaban and the line between life and death.

Within the wizarding universe, Azkaban serves as something that the philosopher Michel Foucault would describe as a Heterotopia. This term is used to

‘.....describe certain cultural, institutional and discursive spaces that are somehow ‘other’: disturbing, intense, incompatible, contradictory or transforming.’ Wikipedia

Within Azkaban this ‘transformation’ forms part of the punishment and the institution is designed to break the will-power of its occupants and transform them to a form of ‘living-death.’

Indeed, the Dementors (who are on the surface a symbol of depression) are imbued with death-imagery. Not only are they cloaked in a manner similar to Western depictions of the Grim Reaper but they are described as having hands that are,

‘... glistening, greyish, slimy-looking and scabbed, like something dead that had decayed in water …’ PoA

Therefore, the Dementors occupy a space between life and death and so does the punishment they administer which is described as:

‘You can exist without your soul, you know, as long as your brain and heart are still working. But you’ll have no sense of self any more, no memory, no ... anything. There’s no chance at all of recovery. You’ll just – exist. As an empty shell. And your soul is gone for ever ... lost.’

Even the prison they guard seems to occupy this liminal space between life and death.

Azkaban is set on an island in the North sea and this ‘island-prison’ trope is rooted in Dante’s travels to Purgatory in his poem ‘The Divine Comedy.’

During the poem, Dante traverses the afterlife and dedicates an entire section to his travels in ‘Purgatorio’ or Purgatory (a space between life, damnation and salvation).

Figure one: A visual representation of Dante's purgatory

Dante describes Purgatory as an island and it is often visually depicted as a tower which is very similar to the film depiction of Azkaban.

Within the space, ‘sinners’ are held in seven terraces according to their sin and are ‘held in place’ not just by bars and physical restrictions but by ‘divine punishments’ which are related to their sins. For example, in the tier for Wrath, the souls walk around blinded by acrid smoke which represents the blinding rage of anger.’

Indeed Purgatory operates by overwhelming ‘sinners’ with their ‘sin’ and thus removing their autonomy to leave. As Dante points out, ‘ascending’ through purgatory to paradise is possible but requires sinners to overcome their sin.

This is similar to how Azkaban holds it’s prisoners trapped within their own minds and is ‘tiered’ according to sin.

Figure two: Visual depiction of Azkaban

Within this space of ‘living-death’ Sirius Black (one of the most guarded prisoners), is able to ground himself in the world of the living and fight the effects of the Dementor-induced Purgatory by shifting into the space of Padfoot’s mind,

‘so when it all became . . . too much ... I could transform in my cell . . . become a dog. ...” PoA

So despite the Black dog being a symbol of death, Padfoot becomes Sirius’s means of clinging to the world of the living during his time in Azkaban.

As within the folk-lore of many cultures (but for this purpose mainly the UK), Black dogs symbolise death and even the nick- name ‘Padfoot’ is defined as,

‘A large dog, variously said to be a ghost, spirit, or monster, supposed to guard graves and to terrify travelers.’

Indeed even when ‘free’ from Azkaban Sirius continues to hold the duality of life and death as although free from the Purgatory of Azkaban he spends the remainder of his life a hunted man existing (not fully living) on the edges of wizarding society.

2.0 Padfoot, the grim and reconciling with grief.

As readers the first time we encounter Padfoot is when Harry flees the Dursleys after having used accidental magic.

In my previous analysis, I spoke about Harry’s repressed grief towards his parents being brought to the surface by the dementors.

Here I will argue that his first step on the path of confronting his grief, occurs here where he has his first angry outbursts at the Dursleys despite their years of abuse.

Within this scene it is interesting to note that Marge is speaking in dog-breeding terms before Harry loses control of his magic,

‘...It’s one of the basic rules of breeding,” she said. “You see it all the time with dogs. If there’s something wrong with the bitch, there’ll be something wrong with the pup. — ” PoA

And when Harry flees the house in anger rooted in repressed grief, he sees Padfoot for the first time.

Symbolically leaving the space of his care-givers who don’t care for him and coming face-to-face with someone who he will agree to live with by the end of the book (agreeing to become Padfoot’s pup).

Also having begun the journey of confronting his grief which will ultimately culminate in his acceptance that the memory of his father lives within him ( and occupy the liminal space between grief and acceptance).

And while Harry’s grief is still repressed, Padfoot appears several times as a symbol of death instead of embodying his duality.

‘’Oh, I wouldn’t read that if I were you,” said the manager lightly, looking to see what Harry was staring at. “You’ll start seeing death omens everywhere. It’s enough to frighten anyone to death.”

But Harry continued to stare at the front cover of the book; it showed a black dog large as a bear, with gleaming eyes. It looked oddly familiar. …’ PoA

He appears again during the chapter ‘Grim Defeat,’ right before Harry falls from his broom,

‘....the silhouette of an enormous shaggy black dog, clearly imprinted against the sky, motionless in the topmost, empty row of seats…’ PoA

And it is while in the hospital-wing recovering from the fall that Harry realises that the screams he is hearing belong to his dying mother (see my previous meta about this).

The final time Padfoot is seen in PoA is during the chapter ‘The dementor’s kiss,’ Where Harry and Hermione hear,

‘....they heard a yelping, a whining: a dog in pain. …’

They follow the sound and find,

‘The yelping stopped abruptly. As they reached the lakeshore, they saw why — Sirius had turned back into a man.’

At this moment Padfoot is unable to keep Sirius grounded in the world of the living and instead he is,

‘He was crouched on all fours, his hands over his head.’

This is symbolic of prayer and could be seen as an attempt by Sirius to ‘pray for his soul’ so as to not be dragged into the purgatory of being administered with the Kiss.

This version of Harry is unable to save them and without access to Padfoot (which he had used to protect them from Lupin’s werewolf form), Sirius is also unable to save them.

And at this point, Harry has accepted Sirius as his godfather and thus is no longer scared by the Death-omen of Padfoot, so subconsciously as accepted the duality of life and death which Padfoot represents.

So when Padfoot disappears, the future version of Harry is able to rescue them by tapping into his own duality of grief and acceptance and conjuring Prongs.

Indeed, the journey’s of Harry’s grief within this book can be best summarised by the following quote:

“You think the dead we loved ever truly leave us? You think that we don’t recall them more clearly than ever in times of great trouble? Your father is alive in you, Harry, and shows himself most plainly when you have need of him. How else could you produce that particular Patronus? Prongs rode again last night.”