growing-up-poor-culture

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Thank you to everyone who got me to 250 likes!

Hey guys. I know I haven't been that active here ,mainly because I've been going through one of the worst years of my short life, teeehee!!

Things are so much better now. But I'm still letting myself take a break from everything .

I wanted to create this blog cuz being born into poverty and growing up in poverty is such a traumatic experience build from tiny little happenstances that may seem silly to people who didnt experience them.

I wish everyone who's going through all these experiences to find someday peace and happiness.

#250 likes #tumblr milestone #thank you

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Growing up poor culture is your relatives being on bad terms due to fighting about money

#growing up poor culture is #growing up poor #poverty #poor #mod cherry #sorry for the inactivity #I've been going through some stuff and now things have calmed down

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growing up poor culture is the paralysis of shopping at the mall because why is everything so pricey? and always trying to discretely look at the cheep shit even though you know you have enough for what you want

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#growing up poor culture is #growing up poor #poor #poverty #ask #boxbeetle-mp3 #i love malls but also hate them #like #they have a lot of stuff and are fun to look at but the things you end up liking are expensive as hell #mod cherry

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Growing up poor culture is being super sad and annoyed when a restaurant ups their prices by a few cents

#growing up poor culture is #growing up poor #poverty #poor #not ask #mod cherry

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Growing up poor culture is watching clips of people buying random art supplies and painting their walls, making weird handmade decorations and wanting to do that. But art supplies are expensive

#growing up poor culture is #growing up poor #poor #poverty #mod cherry

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growing up poor culture is always getting scared that you're getting too much (even though it's just 2 items) when you're allowed to pick your own things at the store with a parental figure

Honestly tho, I would always ask meekly and then feel immediate guilt, still do even now that I'm an adult

#growing up poor culture is #poverty #poor #growing up poor #ask #geebeeishere

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One of the things I'm most insecure about are my teeth.

I have a very bad mouth hygine due to many reasons but also mainly due to poverty .

My teeth had cavities when i was 6.

6 years old.

We didnt have money for dental care. We lived in an office (a family friend gave us their old office building to live in) and we didnt have food.

Once we received a big box of oreo cookies and thats what we would eat most. My mom hated oreos cuz of that.

The first time i remember going to a dentist was after schools were doing a program where they paid for basic dental care for ppl in need.

The dentist I went to wanted to clean the cavity but I was in too much pain and he didnt wanna inject me with pain anesthesia in fear of injecting too much and killing me so he pulled my tooth.

It wasnt a baby tooth and I never got it back.

Over the years we went throu ups and downs, but mostly with our financial situation and combined with me never making it a habit to brush my teeth due to the pain i felt when i attempted to and due to executive dysfunction and my parents not insisting on it i ended up with many cavities.

Also any time we could afford a dentist we had to go to the cheapest ones so their work quality wasnt top notch and they would last only for a few years.

Due to that i developed trauma to visiting the dentist and I had even a harder time going to the dentist when I had to. I would delay it and it would of get worse.

So yeah poverty isnt just about not having money. Its about so much more.

I can't eat cruncy food in fear of breaking some of my fragile teeth, i cant even fix them all. And the pain is also unbearable cuz thats how much of a bad shape they are in.

I never talk about my teeth to anyone cuz i worry ill be judged and most ppl dont wait for a backstory to judye you.

When i think about going to the dentist i get suicidal, i imagine being dead and how much easier that would be.

Nothing guarantees ill be able to "fix" all my teeth. We may get hit by another financial problem soon enough and not have enough money to prioritize my teeth.

I can't eat very hot/cold foods cuz im sensitive to them and that causes pain.

I might need to pull even more teeth and or have my root canals takn out which result in a lesser strong tooth and in the tooth falling out/breaking way more easily.

Some of my cavity fillers are black cuz that material is stronger than the white ones (or used to be)

Poverty is about so much more than money problems. Its about getting your health to detoriate and sometimes get to an irreversible state.

Its about living a low life quality even after things get better due to the irreversible damages. Its about being traumatized and not being able to explain that trauma cuz it sounds "silly" or too specific.

#growing up poor #poor #poverty #not ask #mod cherry #cherry rambles

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There's so much about poverty that shapes up your life, morales, personality, opinions and I feel like we need to talk about that stuff more

#mod cherry #poverty #poor #not growing up poor culture

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Growing up poor culture is undiagnosed health issues

#growing up poor culture is #growing up poor #poverty #poor #mod cherry

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What's even worse is I can't share my problems with others. Cuz they dont have a positive bright side or solutions.

Sharing my feelings will only result in awkwardness cuz ppl will try to cheer me up, offer ideas and I'll have to say "No that wont work" .

Its a very complicated situation and its so frustrating and taxing.

The past few months my family has been getting hit financially and bureaucracy wise constantly. I've been on edge ever since early May. My family mostly relies on me for bureaucracy due to them not being fluent in the languages (my siblings are young/ dont know how to navigate throu bureaucracy due to lack of experience).

All of this due to our poverty.

Even if I end up getting out of poverty and have a good life with enough money to live comfortably, I'll always carry on me the trauma, mental exhaustion and anxiety of growing up in poverty

I'll use the copic mechanisms, worry about the day things turn bleak again etc. And I wont be understood by my peers that grew up without having those worries thrown at them on such q young age.

I was born into poverty. Sometimes the situation improved and then other times it dipped into negativity. We are still considered poor as fuck. Im rambling now but yeah.

Poverty follows you forever. Either in your habits or lifestyle or mental health.

And I hate that it's an accepted thing by society. People don't throw any glance at you, they ignore the reality. They try to comfort you by saying "Its ok" but its not okay.

I'm so tired and right now it feels like I'll never have the time to rest.

#not growing up poor culture

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The past few months my family has been getting hit financially and bureaucracy wise constantly. I've been on edge ever since early May. My family mostly relies on me for bureaucracy due to them not being fluent in the languages (my siblings are young/ dont know how to navigate throu bureaucracy due to lack of experience).

All of this due to our poverty.

Even if I end up getting out of poverty and have a good life with enough money to live comfortably, I'll always carry on me the trauma, mental exhaustion and anxiety of growing up in poverty

I'll use the copic mechanisms, worry about the day things turn bleak again etc. And I wont be understood by my peers that grew up without having those worries thrown at them on such q young age.

I was born into poverty. Sometimes the situation improved and then other times it dipped into negativity. We are still considered poor as fuck. Im rambling now but yeah.

Poverty follows you forever. Either in your habits or lifestyle or mental health.

And I hate that it's an accepted thing by society. People don't throw any glance at you, they ignore the reality. They try to comfort you by saying "Its ok" but its not okay.

I'm so tired and right now it feels like I'll never have the time to rest.

#personal #not growing up poor culture #not ask #if there are any tw ask to be tagged

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Growing up poor culture is feeling jealous of your well off friends

#growing up poor culture is #growing up poor #poverty #poor #not ask #its a really annoying feeling #i hate being jealous #but my friend is talking about how she has gotten tired of her furniture #cuz they've worn off a bit and I'm just jealous of the fact that she was able to pick her own furniture and have her very own room #mod cherry

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Growing up poor culture is stressing all your childhood what your career was going to be, because financial aid would only give you one chance without you going broke(-er).

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#growing up poor culture is #growing up poor #poor #poverty #ask #mod cherry

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Growing up poor culture was your school banning Tamagotchis and Gameboys, and being kinda happy because you were so jealous of kids who had them.

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#growing up poor culture is #growing up poor #poverty #poor #ask #is this an american thing?? #my school in europe never allowed bringing video games at all #altho i can relate to the trend of bringing card games and silly bandz etc #mod cherry

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Growing up poor culture was being very grateful that your birthday was in summer, because every student who had their birthday during the school year was expected to pass out sweets. (But at least you got smth extra to eat on those days.)

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#growing up poor culture is #growing up poor #poverty #poor #ask #now that you mention it... #I've never bought snacks for my bday and it was in February #i tolds kids we dont celebrate our bdays at my home which was the truth #but i wonder what everyone thought of that :o #mod cherry

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Growing up poor culture is staring longingly at school bookfairs and snack counters/machines.

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#growing up poor culture is #growing up poor #poverty #poor #ask #book fairs were the best and worst thing in school #especially when they had those shiny books about mythology #or the Guinness book #mod cherry

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Growing up poor culture is so desperately wanting a pet, even though you and your family could barely take care of yourselves.

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#growing up poor culture is #growing up poor #poverty #poor #ask #mod cherry