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all the time I think about how Chiyo will purposely walk into the rain without an umbrella or even a coat bc she loves storms so much. The little nut feels alive and like her worries are being washed away or some very romanticized mess like that bc she can‘t help but be head over heels for mother nature 🥲 the sound of thunder roaring overhead as she stands there in the middle of it?? so much different and lovely compared to listening from the safety of her home

#It’s been raining all day so once again I think of Chiyo and this quirk of hers :’ ) #Baby Chiyo splashing around in a raincoat and then older Chiyo realizing it’s even better without a raincoat :’ )))) #Love her!! Also I’ll be around later and we’ll see what gets done! #Y’all stay safe and take care 💜 #Mobile #headcanons | chiyoko

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first thought this morning is arata understanding the difference between being needed and wanted… the difference that is going to make for him :’ )))) like he doesn’t have to be needed to be important to someone!! not at all!! and people keep him around not bc they need him but bc they want to be around him. and that’s how it should always work! and thats how he views his friends, wanting to be with them vs. needing them, so why is it so hard to apply that to yourself my guy?

anyway : ) good morning y’all!! hope the day is treating you well so far!!

#headcanons | arata #arata is plaguing my brain and i’m okay with that #get ready to ramble | ooc #mobile

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    @pridewon​ sent: "Arataaaaa." Is that a whine, right into Arata's ear? Yes, yes it is. "I can *walk*. 'm not *that* drunk." Yes, yes he is. Which is probably why Konoha is now being carried back to his tiny apartment by his friend, after a wild night out with other students from his class - why did no one tell him university was that much fun? "... why'd ya have two heads, Arata?" Alright - maybe texting him 'I'm gonna fight a polar bear and THE POLICE' may have tipped him off. Still. He's fine. He's great! (no)

     when he received a weird message from konoha in the middle of the night, arata admittedly was a lot a little confused. but a few more messages managed to clear up the situation, revealing his pal had a little too much fun and wouldn’t actually be fighting any bears or police officers. instead arata would make sure he got home safely, and the only thing he’d have to fight would be the hangover he’d have in the morning. 

     well, that and maybe arata himself because he’s about to be a little menace.

     “ konohaaaaa, ” arata mimics, the amusement clear in the whiny tone. " maybe i just wanna carry ya, or maybe--- ” arata turns his head slightly to look at his drunken friend with a pointed gaze. “ i'm worried ya might try to fight some innocent, two-headed polar bear. they have twice the mouths, which means twice the chances to bite your head off, ya know. ” it’s clearly a joke, just a little, deserved teasing, but arata does wonder if konoha can take it at the moment. what if he thinks arata’s being serious? 

     eh, maybe that’ll be funny, actually. so he contorts his face into one of fright and turns immediately to look forward before breaking into a run... which he kind of regrets immediately with the weight of his friend on his back. but he commits to the bit, speeding down the mostly empty sidewalk and somehow sounding genuinely scared.

     " there’s one right behind us, konoha! hold on tight -- he looked hungry! ”

     konoha’s arms tighten around his neck, and in the next second, he feels konoha smacking him for playing a trick. arata just laughs between breaths, slowing down to a walk. when he glances at his friend this time, he’s got a big, cheeky grin on his face ( the kind that makes you wanna fight him, or so akane has told him ).

     “ my bad, my bad! must’ve been my imagination. ” 

#pridewon #konoha has permission to just pummel this silly fella #he deserves it tbh! #also this ask had me laughing cha so thank u for the konoha content :' ) #interactions | arata #don't stop me now | adulthood | arata

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atsumu

That is not part of the plan. The plan usually means, he provokes her, she fights back, they bicker for hours on end and get a good laugh out of the whole ordeal (or at least do when they reconcile after some sulking each in their respective corner). The plan usually doesn’t involve Chiyo clinging to his arm and looking up at him with those big brown eyes of hers, and the plan certainly doesn’t involve his heart skipping three consecutive beats like it just tripped on a damn root. And what the hell’s with the adorable whiny voice? 

“… ye’re the worst, y’know that?” At last the stubborn fox relents, too tired (or so he tells himself) and hot (that’s why the back of his neck is burning up, riiiight?) to try and rile her up any further, free arm lowering to hand her the glass of water. Oh, if Samu could see this, the hell he’d give him - when’s the last time someone has ever seen Atsumu Miya so compliant and considerate, eh? Never, that’s when. And yet, here he is, Inarizaki’s own resident tyrant; still and careful, as though as rare sparrow had landed on his shoulder, and the slightest brusque move might scare it away. Except it’s not a sparrow, it’s his best friend who he’s known for ten whole years.

Droopy hazel eyes remain on her for a moment; before his hand moves up, the back of his fingers brushing past her bangs to connect with her forehead. “Aish. Summer heat got ya too, huh.” His hand drops back down, and he sighs; they can’t really stay here forever, what if Osamu wakes up - or worse, grandma… but she’s right. He doesn’t want to move that much either. Jsus, what a lost cause he is. “… y’wanna go sit outside for a bit?” He asks - mutters under his breath, really. “Y’know, just under the porch. Don’t need to go far if ye’re about to collapse on me.” Excuses excuses - but at least they’re good ones, aren’t they?

     chiyo merely smiles in response, humming her agreement as she sips at her prize. how can she argue with atsumu now? she just whined to get her way, and he actually let her get away with it. it’s in her nature to read into every action, but chiyo tells herself to be content with her glass of water, to not read into things done at two in the morning because even the most boisterous person has to run out of steam. then atsumu takes her by surprise, touching her forehead just for a brief moment and commenting on the summer heat.

     well, she was going to blame the heat for her flushed complexion anyway. she just didn’t expect atsumu to actually notice it. 

     it’s such a simple, gentle touch, yet chiyo’s heart swells and stutters. she feels ridiculous to be so affected by a small gesture of concern, to be so nervous over his attention. it’s silly. it’s nice. it makes her want to run away and never leave all at once, which is... different. her legs are so very used to retreating at the first sign of something more profound, and the familiar itch is there, but there’s the gentle reassurance of a childhood promise that rests in the back of chiyo’s mind. the memory is warm, comforting, constant -- it reminds her that as much as she and the twins might get under each other’s skin, the bond they share is stronger than their petty arguments. and she’s willing to bet it’s stronger than a one-sided crush, too.

     so chiyo doesn’t pull away, nor does she grow flustered and shy. instead she sets down the glass of water, never releasing atsumu from her grasp but adjusting it so they can walk without it being difficult ( why give up even a moment of contact? ) . “ i’m sure you’d catch me if that ever happened, ” chiyo tells him, a small attempt to make up for her earlier behavior. it doesn’t hurt to play nice every now and then. “ but sure! a little air should cool us down. ” 

#pridewon #i love how both of them are like ' oh yeah this is definitely unrequited guess i'll keep this to myself ' #like ah you little silly gooses... you cute dumdums... everyone knows but y'all <3 #also there's a 100% chance that chiyo either lays her head on atsumu's shoulder or just #lifts his arm to cuddle up to his side perhaps bc she is a little heat leech!! has nothing to do with wanting to be close obviously!! #it's just cold outside : ) #even if it's summer shhhh #just wasn't sure how to write that without it getting too long or flowing weird! #interactions | chiyoko #hiding in this garden | high school | chiyoko

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     @pridewon​‘s konoha said, “ maybe you think it’s your job to look after everyone else. but it’s not supposed to be like that. it works both ways. and now it’s my turn to look after you. okay? ”           from: so you had a bad day

     “ hey, hey -- don’t worry about me! i’ll be fine. ”

     it isn’t as if arata’s never dealt with a sprained ankle before ( granted, it was akane’s sprained ankle ). konoha has already been such a huge help in getting him home and settled on the couch, so why continue to be a bother? of course arata tries to shoo him away, grinning and making it out to be no big deal -- because it isn’t a big deal. arata can handle it from here, really. but words that are meant to dismiss any worry and alleviate any sense of responsibility for arata’s wellbeing somehow incite a very different reaction than what he’d expected. there’s frustration in konoha’s expression, and his reply takes arata completely by surprise. all he can do for a good minute is open and shut his mouth, unable to think of anything to say. 

     what is he supposed to say? there’s only one response that konoha will accept, but arata doesn’t want to give it to him so easily. he doesn’t want to give it to konoha at all, which might be the point.

     “ ...okay, ” he quietly agrees, leaning back into the sofa. he hates how weak it sounds.

     arata feels like a deflated balloon as he watches konoha rummage around the apartment for different items, calling out occasionally to ask where something is. he must intend to wrap arata’s ankle, and that only worsens the tight, heavy feeling in arata’s chest. the bassist allows himself to sink further into the cushions.

     he doesn’t like it. in fact, he hates it. arata hates being taken care of because that’s his job, and he likes keeping it that way. he knows exactly where he stands then, that he has a place in his friends’ lives because he’s the one they can go to when they need someone. is that bad, preferring to be the one others lean on? is it annoying? god, he hopes it isn’t, hopes konoha isn’t growing tired of his behavior like akane did. arata purses his lips. that’d really suck.

     when konoha comes back, ice pack, painkillers, and cloth bandage in hand, arata thanks him with a smile that lacks the shine it typically has. he doesn’t fuss or talk much at all while konoha wraps his ankle. he doesn’t have the courage to find the words at first. it isn’t until his friend has him properly situated with his ankle resting on a pillow and the icepack pressed against the bandage, that arata finally gets his voice back.

     “ i know akane doesn’t like me tryin’ to take care of her very much. ” she doesn’t need him to look out for her. it hurts, but arata tries not to let it get to him. his gaze slides from the ceiling to konoha. “ so i get it if you don’t, either. i go overboard, i guess. ”

#pridewon #konoha: let me take care of you #arata clearly misinterpreting this interaction: did i do something wrong : ( #most people would go aw you care about me :' ) but arata is so uncomfortable and i am highly upset about this!! #i thought i'd get to write a nice touching moment and instead arata decided nope : ) sad hours : )) #interactions | arata

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can i just say that if someone were to tell arata that he needs to stop putting others before himself he’d be so genuinely confused. he doesn’t realize he does it, he doesn’t realize that he doesn’t put the same effort into his care as he does for others. doesn’t cross his mind once, and i don’t think he realizes the mindset he has isn’t good! he just wants to be useful, important to someone. i don’t think he’d ever allow himself to be put into a bad situation, but i can definitely see his giving/caretaker nature being taken advantage of.

just like akane needs someone to yell at her about bottling everything up, arata needs someone to yell at him about taking care of himself!! tell him he’s important and doesn’t need to do a single thing to prove it!! 100% chance he’ll cry, but do it :’ )

#i made myself sad thinking about this aspect of his personality #he'd literally bend over backwards for someone he cares about but for himself?? no that's not necessary #i have a lot of emotion over this dork rn HELP #headcanons | arata

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more arata headcanons bc he’s taken over!!

pls don’t hide why you’re mad at arata bc sometimes he knows exactly what he did and other times he’s completely clueless!! he’ll just get mad at you for hiding why you’re upset or get very sad and puppy-eyed : (

is actually kind of clumsy! there’s a reason he never picked up sports, folks

the only reason he’s in any kind of shape is bc akane forces him to run with her ( and he can’t stand losing to others, so naturally he’s always trying to outrun her )

probably takes better care of himself as an adult vs when he’s in high school, mainly bc he’s more concerned with his music and those around him. but also “ ...what’s a skincare routine?? what do you mean i can’t survive off of takeout?? ”

but this is also the boy that will force akane to go sit down and chill while he cooks her something!! he knows how to cook bc he did it ( to a lesser, safer extent for kiddos ) when they were younger all the time!! he’s just? unmotivated to do it for himself, and his dad is kinda hopeless in the kitchen

love how this is once again related to arata putting others above himself... placing his value below others......... i wanna scream 

OKAY BUT arata’s dad taking him and his mom taking akane bc “ boys should be with their fathers and vice versa ” and arata standing there like hey uhhh that’s stupid my guy i miss my mom and sister!! but nah, you’re just a kid -- the grown ups know best

once again i think that’s something to unpack in another post but HMMMMM arata has a lot of thoughts and feelings, and it’s the one area of his life where he won’t necessarily address what’s bugging him. and that makes him really frustrated 

seems like the type to enjoy games of the shooter variety and the like, but he’s actually big on rpgs! the other stuff is cool, too, and it’s most fun if it’s co-op, but a nice story and fun characters are more his cup of tea

attends every one of akane’s soccer games with this obnoxiously large banner that he has to have help holding up :’ )) she says it embarrasses her, but arata knows she’s just saying that -- the one time he was late and finally showed up with the banner, he saw her smile all big!!

okay, we’ll stop here but i love my boy and it is his time to shine!!!

#headcanons | arata #i love he <3 #i'm so glad i brought him back and akane too :' )

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okay so i gotta talk about arata and akane’s bandmates!!! bc it’s very important to their stories!!

yasushi — was lead guitar, but switched to being just the lead vocalist to give tamiko a place in the band permanently; arata’s best friend since middle school; very soft and sweet, the type to never complain and go out of his way to help you; definitely would forgive someone even if they weren’t sorry; writes a lot of the songs for the band with assistance from arata and tamiko; was originally a very angsty and probably?? depressed baby but i’d change that this time around bc it was a lil heavy for me

tamiko — lead guitarist; a firsy year who was meant to be temporary originally, a replacement while yasushi recovered from a broken arm, but she was so good and everyone loved her so much that tamiko stayed even when yasushi was all healed up; has a stutter ( or had one – i gotta do some research again bc i don’t remember why she had one before ) and unfortunately got bullied before joining stand out!; she’s just the sweetest lil bean though :’ )) an optimist maybe to a fault, and the kind to see the good in everyone; not the most confident, but that changes when she’s playing her guitar!! loves playing so much and has absolute confidence in her ability

suzy — the drummer; second year student in akane’s class who’s become akane’s best friend since joining the band; traumatized from her childhood and heavily repressing it ( once again, something i’d like to research again bc it’s been too long to wing it and portray this properly ); lives with her older brother who is her legal guardian; the silent type who’s actually an oddball and cares very deeply for her pals; thinks more and is aware of more than you’d assume her to be; eternal gaming rivalry with arata and forever holding it over his head that she’s taller than him;

#since i mentioned yasushi i thought i maybe should reblog this to give a lil overview of the band! #every time i think of the band i get the urge to bring everyone back and man i am tempted #i feel like i could do them justice this time around #but one thing at a time bc i'm feeling very impulsive and a lil overwhelmed with everyone i wanna do oof #get ready to ramble | ooc

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here’s some arata heacanons bc i’ve been neglecting my baby!!

the first time arata met fans of the band, he was on cloud nine!!! wouldn’t shut up about it and told everyone who would listen bc oh my gosh people actually know his band!!!!

his best friend yasushi is the face of the band since he’s the lead singer, but arata is the one who talks the most during interviews bc he’s very good at things like that ( even if he has to be reminded not to spoil upcoming songs )!

now that i’m thinking about it, everyone in the band but arata ( and akane, but she’s behind the scenes ) is actually kind of introverted, so they’re probably happy to let him take the reins during interviews and the like

i’d like to make a separate post to really delve into this, but arata really idolized his mom as a kid. after the divorce, though, he’s kind of grown?? a little resentful. towards his dad, too, but considering he was so close to his mom, his anger got directed at her more. kinda felt like she was abandoning him 

in general has many feelings about the divorce -- bc he’s very much the sort to face problems head on and openly discuss feelings, he doesn’t understand the fall out that happened between his parents and gets upset thinking about how it affected him and akane

can’t remember if i mentioned this before, but he and akane used to take piano lessons together! they stopped when things went sour with their parents, and a couple years later, arata picked up the guitar

music has definitely always been a comfort and an outlet to arata! doesn’t matter if he’s happy, angry, sad, in love, heartbroken -- whatever the occasion, there’s a song to help him through it :’ )

really loves feeling needed and having people depend on him!! equates it a little to his self worth which isn’t great tho ;n;

“ i’m not CUTE i’m handsome!! manly!! a total stud!!! ” cue all of the band’s fandom calling him baby meanwhile thirsting over his best friend : )

that’s all i got for now or else this’ll be too long!! 

#arata is such a wholesome dork and i love him to pieces <3 #i need to write stuff for akane too bc i've neglected her too ahh #headcanons | arata

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apparently there’s a japanese spirit that looks like a lil kid wearing an umbrella on their head, carrying a lil paper lantern, and they can control when it rains..... why is that so cute and yes i most definitely will be using this for the lore surrounding yu :’ ))))

#i'm gonna keep reading up on different spirits bc surely there's gotta be multiple who help out the dragons maintain balance and peace #we've got the amefurikozo that i just talked about who help control the rain and i'm contemplating #maybe taking creative liberties with kappas?? bc i think they're actually supposed to be mischievous or not super nice at least #but maybe humans just got the wrong idea and they're helpful lil lads who save people from drowning!! #but i gotta read about them before i go doing all that #get ready to ramble | ooc

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i’m thinking of taking off maemi and possibly chinatsu ( or perhaps just revamping her into a fandomless or demon slayer oc ) bc honestly?? i’m not caught up with b.nha and i’m not entirely keen on stepping back into that fandom. just isn’t my current cup of tea.

but!! that does make room for new babies, including an idea i’ve had in my brain for? at least a year since that’s how long i’ve had yu :’ ) yu is a guardian of a smaller river that is pretty close!! to a larger river -- the ishikari river! and i’ve had it in my head for ages that the guardian of that river is his sister who likely remembers more about their youth than yu does. bc yu at this moment is just?? very foggy on his origin and tries not to think too hard about it. all he knows is that he’s responsible for the people and the region surrounding his river, and that’s all he tries to concern himself with.

whereas ishikari is much more outgoing, much more prone to fraternizing with humans. she desires connections with others even if they’re fleeting bc to live in seclusion like yubari does would just be much too lonely in her eyes. possibly?? shirks her responsibilities a bit bc she’s out ~making memories~ but i’m also gonna look into other japanese mythological creatures bc i like to think river deities have lil helpers like sprites or spirits or something. like rivers and the regions surrounding them can be huge!! how is one dragon supposed to constantly monitor all of that if they don’t have some kinda help??

anyway, this is very much just me thinking out loud, so thanks for listening <3

#btw i still love b.nha!! just not feeling it lately and i'm not caught up at all ;; #but chinatsu has been through one revamp already and i love her to pieces so i really might do it again so i can keep her active #also can you tell what my current special interest is : ) #honestly demon slayer has just stirred up my desire to flesh out yu's lore and background and do the same for mizu #bc they were always supposed to be set in that general time period bc dgm is roughly?? the same time period i think?? #might be remembering that wrong #but i love that time period for stories and characters and just!!! yes pls thank u #okay okay gonna really stop my rambling now!! #get ready to ramble | ooc

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i’m actually very weak for characters who are just a ball of sunshine and make everyone around them feel loved and are the sort to be selfless to a fault, so it’s really a wonder i didn’t connect with mizu back when i first created her

#get ready to ramble | ooc #how much longer will i rant over a character y’all haven’t met yet?? a while probably! #anyway i’m on the way home and will be getting to messages then!! #if you’d like to plot or just chat lemme know and i’ll send ya my discord!

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a new take on yu and mizu’s d.emon s.layer verse: yu is actually a demon who found mizu when she was a wee baby and that’s the real reason they live in a secluded cabin by the river : )

#i have too many ideas t b h #it'd be fun to play with the idea that yu lied to her and told her he was a dragon/river guardian bc she was a little kid #who obviously looked up to him like a father and how could he possibly tell her he was a demon?? #hmmmm somebody tell me their opinion pls!! #would it be better to go with yu being an actual dragon like i originally intended or go with the demon idea? #bc i do intend mizu to become a demon slayer so there might be a tad bit of conflict as far as yu being able to travel with her #but i also wonder if yu being a dragon might?? come off overpowered?? #and if he's travelling with her what's the point of her fighting bc he'd be able to take out most weaker demons #that's my main concern #get ready to ramble | ooc #plus i just get very nervous placing my oc's in popular fandoms ngl ;n; so opinions would be appreciated!!

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my brain in the middle of trying to write replies: you know what’s some good stuff?? chiyo being vulnerable!! going to her friends and telling them she’s sad and needs a distraction or a very big, warm hug!! probably both tbh!! you know what else is good stuff?? chiyo admitting she’s scared of ending up alone bc she won’t let anyone close!! and then her pal telling her she’s not alone bc yeah that’s cheesy and cliché but no doubt she’ll tear up : )

me, desperately trying resist being impulsive: that’s nice 

#hello my mind said angst and went to town with my imagination!! #honestly chiyo feeling comfortable enough to just come out and say ' i'm sad so can we hang out? ' is a very big moment and i wanna yell :' #chiyo 90% of the time even to those she's close with will put on a brave face as much as possible #but you know!! it's exhausting!! and i like to imagine she gets to a place where she realizes #it's okay to lean on others instead of trying to handle everything herself #clenches my fist #we love character development in this house and crave it every day!!!! #get ready to ramble | ooc

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me, in a cold sweat at 2 am: does chiyo have very little faith in other people or does she just have very little faith in how much they value her?? is it entirely a matter of trusting people or trusting that she’s worth it?? oh NO

#it might not be 2 am yet but that's the vibe of this realization #which i'm like.... i kinda knew this but i don't think #chiyo herself realizes she has self esteem issues to address #or at the very least refuses to address them or acknowledge them in any way #generally chiyo doesn't? like to dwell on how unhappy she really is with her situation #or how she's the only one who can change it #or how she kinda just blames herself for most things #someone stops being her friend?? welp she must've done something to deserve it i guess!! #anyway more thoughts on this at a different time uvu #hmm gonna put it in her headcanon tag so i don't forget #headcanons | chiyoko #get ready to ramble | ooc

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many thoughts again thanks to d.emon s.layer 👀

#okay so i don’t think i’ll make mizu a demon now that i’ve seen more of the series bc i don’t want her and yu’s situation to be so similar #to tanjiro and nezuko’s bc it’s supposed to be so unusual #BUT #i think i could see mizu wanting to get involved if she and yu witness what demons are capable of #like physically she’s not very capable like even in her dgm verse her weapon was a gun that never missed #but!!!! maybe she could be part of the medical people??? i think that’d suit her #and perhaps yu joins the demon slayer ranks? or maybe is also a medical guy who just so happens to be a dragon #who could kick your ass if you looked at mizu wrong : ) #i definitely don’t think he’d reveal what he is easily bc uhhh seems like a bad time #at worst no one trusts him and tries to kill him and at best he’s expected to fight #and would likely be separated from mizu #and while yu is kind and is a protector #he’s also? selfish i guess — he wants to be with the person he cares about and will stay by her side #even though he knows he could be of more use elsewhere and could save so many lives #but it’s just like???? why does any of that matter if he loses what’s precious to him????? #honestly fuck everyone else if mizu dies bc of him/his absence and not of old age #he WILL go be a recluse or go into a depression sleep for 1000 years if that happens #WOW I FEEL EMOTIONAL FOR MY BABIES TONIGHT #man…… mizu having this really strong sense of duty and wanting to help if she can even at her own expense #makes taking care of her and ensuring her safety 100000% harder but yu admires that about her i think #makes him proud and want to be better :’ )) bc i imagine he’s a little jaded after being alive so long #y’all i’m sorry for rambling especially when mizu isn’t on this blog atm asdfghkl #i just love these two so much and i’m excited at the prospect of getting to write them again :’ ))) #ooc #mobile

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“I can’t talk right now, I’m doin hot girl shit”

*reads fanfiction for 3 hours*

*daydreams about my favorite characters and actors*

*takes a nap*

#i gotta talk about Chiyo being the biggest nerd and simp for fictional characters bc i just love it #musings & descriptions | chiyoko