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Solo leveling is THE best WEBTOON I’ve read in a while

#it’s SO good #marathoned that shit in 2 days #sung jin woo is the coolest mf out there #but also cannot forget his nerd origin #sung jin woo #solo leveling

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So happy :(

my one and only,

happy valentines day

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I miss my silly lil Gojo :(

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I think my problem is I half ass things too much. Everything is hoping it works out and “we move on” if it doesn’t to the point where I don’t know how to deal with not getting something I really really wanted.

I think somewhere down the line I stopped wanting. Or actually as I write this, im wondering did I ever start?

Have I ever known what I wanted from my future? I avoided questions like “who do you want to become?” “What are your plans?” Like the plague and I tried to never think about it because it’s never in my hands but now I’m here and I’m being tossed around by whatever happens around me and I hate it.

I hate not wanting but I am so so scared of it too. I hope I have a dream I can tell people about someday.

A couple days ago I looked up eating disorders again because I haven’t been eating well and I just feel like shit because I was doing so so good and now I’m back where I started and I don’t feel good and I don’t look good and I just hate how I feel right now and I have this compulsive need in my head that I need to start over somewhere new somewhere better where I can be a better version of myself but such a place doesn’t exist

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A couple days ago I looked up eating disorders again because I haven’t been eating well and I just feel like shit because I was doing so so good and now I’m back where I started and I don’t feel good and I don’t look good and I just hate how I feel right now and I have this compulsive need in my head that I need to start over somewhere new somewhere better where I can be a better version of myself but such a place doesn’t exist

#tw: ed mention #tw: ed #this is not me romanticising it #let me repeat #do NOT romanticise eating disorders #this is a horrible HORRIBLE feeling and even if I don’t feel it right now I over came it before and I know I’ll overcome it again #just sucks though #I feel like I’m in a constant loop of breaking cycles and I am so tired

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I think more and more I’m becoming someone who lives in hopes and expectations that things will just work out for me but at the same time I’m also living in the anxiety of what if they don’t and it is not a sustainable way to live and I am losing my mind

I don’t know how to not care about the smallest things that fall through cracks and oh the things I could have done if id just been more proactive and taken more steps

I think I hate being who I am when i know that I can be the person I actually want to be by making myself uncomfortable by working hard and being in situations where things don’t always work out for me

To be someone I want to become I have to actively be someone I’m not (yet) and I don’t even know if I’m talking complete and utter nonsense and god I don’t know how to be myself anymore or rather I don’t want to be myself the way I currently am

#existentialism #I love feeling like I want to tear apart my existence and my very being #I do not #id much rather lie in an open field but I hate that I care about my place in the world #and that I have actual goals and dreams I’d like to achieve #that I can’t the way I am #but I don’t know how to change #and honestly it makes me feel like I’d rather kms #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

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sasuke: i’m still glad we made up and all but….

naruto: …..but?

sasuke: us killing each other would have been SO romantic

naruto: i was JUST thinking about that—

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I have a crush on a boy 😭😭😭 I’m so AGH

Since overthinking is literally one of my foundational personality traits here goes:

I think we would be so compatible like he’s so sweet and so kind like I think we would be great friends too but tbh we don’t have much in common in terms of like idk stuff we do ig

Everytime I run into him it’s just by pure chance and agh ya tbh I don’t think I’ll do anything with it

Honestly i definitely do like him but I’d love to just be friends too?? Idk what this zone this is tbh and I’m so annoyed about it too

Like he probably doesn’t give a shit or isn’t thinking about me and I don’t wanna be thinking about him if he isn’t thinking about me??

But then I remember his smile and it’s the cutest thing ever and agh

I don’t think this is going to go anywhere like truthfully, idk how we’d even spend time together or anything and I just don’t think I can be the one to ask him out but that is my own flaw

#AAAAAAAAAA #I want to just JAHDHAKSHHD #i’m too tired for this #and too old possibly #and have way too much on my plate #man

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payback

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missing this pouty baby so much 🥺

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going through it (thinking about his undercut)

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:(

i miss you my boy

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he's literally OKAY

⤹ manifesting this reality

credit on twitter to @artistdkt

#jjk #gojo satoru

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I recently connected with a childhood friend and gosh. I can't compare this feeling with anything else.

I miss when we were living life, letting it take its course, instead of analyzing and scrutinizing every second of it.

#they have the most special place in my heart #ever

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boyfriends? boyfriends.

he totally stole them from geto's closet without his permission

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gojo being bullied by 15 year olds

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everyone was there but their presence enough.