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i already have a job and it's called keeping myself alive. why do i have to be employed on top of that

#keeping myself alive has been so hard for going on four years #had a break and enjoyed life for 2 years before that #i feel so lost in who i am and what i want and why i have to keep going #i'm so tired of having to keep myself alive #i keep trying to feel things but i can't #i fail at being a human #i fail at being an adult #i fail at getting a job #i fail at not being depressed #maybe getting these words out of my head will make it easier to sleep tonight

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I got the Top 4.47% on this English Vocabulary test

#28237 #top 0.50 #my french helped tremendously #but some words i had never seen and had no meaning to me #tried in french and it's top 5.63 #it was way harder somehow #words i've never seen either #about me

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#gotta love not getting a job because you refuse to wear make-up #about me

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another dream but always you by you_explode @nobodymoves

Art by @haroldsmoon, written for @onedirectionbigbang

Harry/Louis, 60k, rating M

Harry is a Dreamwalker; he has the ability to visit people in their dreams and help put them on the right path. He’s assigned to Louis, who’s struggling after the break-up of his band. It’s an unusual assignment from the beginning; Harry has a crush on Louis, and Louis’s subconscious immediately decides Harry is the love of his life. When Dreamers cast Harry as their love interest, he can usually redirect them, but Louis is insistent on being Harry’s boyfriend, and despite knowing they have no future, Harry wants to keep up the charade.

Read on ao3 

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⚈ Unbelievers by @isthatyoularry | 136k8

Bloodsport by @isthatyoularry | 172k

⚈ You Can Hear It In The Silence by @imogenleewriter | 234k

⚈ saw some things on the other side by @so-why-let-your-voice-be-tamedlet-you | 61k

⚈ another dream but always you by @nobodymoves | 60k

⚈ Teach Me Your Ways by @elsi-bee | 34k

⚈ elephant juice @aliensingucci | 32k

⚈ 'cause I want you (for the worse and for the better) by @absoloutenonsense | 26k

⚈ Play for Keeps by @all-these-larrythings | 18k

⚈ Single Bells Ring by @absoloutenonsense | 16k

⚈ It Will Always Be You by @phdmama | 15k

⚈ Where All Roads Lead by @all-these-larrythings | 7k

⚈ Rode Hard and Put Away Wet by @kingsofeverything | 6k

⚈ Truth or Drink by @kingsofeverything | 6k

⚈ Running Through A Cloud Of Steam by @allwaswell16 | 5k

⚈ 'Sno(w) joke by @sun-tomato | 5k

⚈ Been Waitin' (After Weekend After Weekend After) by @absoloutenonsense | 3k

⚈ Run To You by @neondiamond | 2k

⚈ Lapful Of Lou by @itsnotreal | 2k

⚈ an honest mistake by @disgruntledkittenface | 2k

#let's hope i read more this year #also maybe i'll finally choose a path because being on the fork is terrifying

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⚈ Unbelievers by @isthatyoularry | 136k8

Bloodsport by @isthatyoularry | 172k

⚈ You Can Hear It In The Silence by @imogenleewriter | 234k

⚈ saw some things on the other side by @so-why-let-your-voice-be-tamedlet-you | 61k

⚈ another dream but always you by @nobodymoves | 60k

⚈ Teach Me Your Ways by @elsi-bee | 34k

⚈ elephant juice @aliensingucci | 32k

⚈ 'cause I want you (for the worse and for the better) by @absoloutenonsense | 26k

⚈ Play for Keeps by @all-these-larrythings | 18k

⚈ Single Bells Ring by @absoloutenonsense | 16k

⚈ It Will Always Be You by @phdmama | 15k

⚈ Where All Roads Lead by @all-these-larrythings | 7k

⚈ Rode Hard and Put Away Wet by @kingsofeverything | 6k

⚈ Truth or Drink by @kingsofeverything | 6k

⚈ Running Through A Cloud Of Steam by @allwaswell16 | 5k

⚈ 'Sno(w) joke by @sun-tomato | 5k

⚈ Been Waitin' (After Weekend After Weekend After) by @absoloutenonsense | 3k

⚈ Run To You by @neondiamond | 2k

⚈ Lapful Of Lou by @itsnotreal | 2k

⚈ an honest mistake by @disgruntledkittenface | 2k

#another year where my brain didn't let me read much #or at all really #i did start another hobby though #small victories and all #hoping next year will be better #hope you all had good years!! #thank you to all the authors and this list and all the authors i didn't get to read yet <333 #fic rec post #2023 fic rec #28th appreciation #larry fic rec #hlficlibrary

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'Sno(w) joke | SunTomato / @sun-tomato Harry/Louis | 5k

The last thing Louis wanted was to get stranded on his birthday. But perhaps it was exactly what he needed. Featuring a snow storm, a library, and a very grumpy Harry Styles.

Okay I'm biased in reccing this one because it was written for me and I LOVE a fic set in a library. But that's just all the MORE reason for you to read it!!

☕️ Pairing Suggestion: Ideally read AT the library, but any shelf of books nearby should do the trick. Pair with some good herbal tea! Something Christmassy, like peppermint or… well. Peppermint.

For more Christmas fic recs: 2022; 2021; 2020;2019;2018;2017

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another dream but always you by you_explode for @onedirectionbigbang

Harry/Louis, 60k, mature / perfect gifs by @haroldsmoon over here

Harry is a Dreamwalker; he has the ability to visit people in their dreams and help put them on the right path. He's assigned to Louis, who's struggling after the break-up of his band. It's an unusual assignment from the beginning; Harry has a crush on Louis, and Louis's subconscious immediately decides Harry is the love of his life. When Dreamers cast Harry as their love interest, he can usually redirect them, but Louis is insistent on being Harry's boyfriend, and despite knowing they have no future, Harry wants to keep up the charade.

#your reply on ao3's lovely and #this fic!!!!!!!! #future readers are so lucky!!!!! to get to read it for the first time!!!!!! #fic rec

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HL FIC OF THE MONTH

＊ N o v e m b e r ＊

saw some things on the other side 

by we_are_the_same / @so-why-let-your-voice-be-tamed

When Louis moves into the mansion he’s inherited from his great grandfather, he has a plan that consists of three things. One, he’s going to finish writing the next novel in his series. Two, he’s finally going to get over his ex-fiancé. And three, while battling writer’s block and having to resist the urge to kill off the main character in his books – the hot detective based on his ex-fiancé – he’s going to restore the mansion to its former glory. Unfortunately, Louis’ plan doesn’t take into account the fact that instead of writing murder mysteries, he will find himself in one.

Mystery au | Mature | 61k

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You Can Hear It In The Silence

You Can Hear It In The Silence - Imogenlee

When Harry Styles received acceptance into a post-grad degree, he knew he could no longer afford his flat leaving him with three options:

1) Moving back into student halls. 2) Becoming homeless. 3) Moving in with his best (and only) friend, Niall, and three of Niall's other friends. He ended up choosing the third option. But it was a close race. Shame one of his new housemates reminded him why he only has one friend. If Louis Tomlinson had to choose one thing couldn't stand, it would be pretentious tossers, having grown up around enough of them. If he had to choose something he couldn't live without, it would be his friends. So he was proper thrilled to move in with his best mates and a couple of other lads. That was until he discovered one of them was the archetype for a pretentious tosser.

In the interest of seeing out the twelve-month lease without killing each other, they both try (debatable) to get along despite believing they were opposite in almost every conceivable way, each having the communication skills of a cucumber, and secrets that had no business be kept secret.

#didn't think i could still read super long fics #this was so so cool #made me Feel #very much needed #fic rec #imogenlee #you can hear it in the silence

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Play for Keeps by Rearviewdreamer (18k)

Aside from being a supportive friend, all Louis expects from being dragged to an annual board game convention is boredom. Then, he meets Harry, and suddenly conventions aren’t as boring as he thought.

Complete :)

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I keep seeing posts that remind me people primarily read fic on laptop which I find ridiculously hard to do most of the time so although this has probably been done before...

(please reblog if you feel like it, I'm curious and have a very small amount of followers ���😅)

#on my kindle #if i don't have it with me then mobile #about me

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endless list of favorite fics: black with autumn rain (93k) by @whimsicule

“Thank you,” Geoff says, taking a sip of his tea. “What did you tell him?”

Louis has a sip as well, lets the tea burn down his throat too quickly, too hot, and he feels it all the way down to his stomach. “The truth. Essentially,” he replies after a moment, licking his lips, relishing the slightly bitter taste of the brew that’s never quite strong enough for Louis’ liking. At least it’s not decaf. “That my dog scented it. That I didn’t touch the body. That I came here first thing.”

Geoff nods pensively. “Did he believe you?”

“Probably not. There’s only so many people who can drown on dry land before it gets fishy.”

or: Harry is a journalist, Louis has lots of secrets and the moors aren’t exactly the ideal place to rekindle a lost romance. (x)

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Visited chapter 8 of Nothing But You On My Mind today

#now i'm tempted to reread it again #fic rec

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I need to be alone for a few hours every day, otherwise I start to spiral. but if I'm alone for too long, I also start to spiral. pretty easy, right?

#yeahhh #been six days of my alone holidays and i've started to spriral yesterday #first it was FINALLY SOME ALONE TIME #and now i no longer understand the point of waiting for 60 years - if i'm like my grandma - to finally die #about me

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LTHQ. FITFWT23: Manchester, 11.11.2023

#my last show #i am already dreading the post show depression that will last until next tour which is in how many years #who knows #louis #my show

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#my existencial crisis having a rest during his show is very nice and needed #had the best time #my show #louis