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😔Had a dream that I was about to marry a women..my fruity ass has never been happier

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“I had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion.”

— Jack Kerouac

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Is it just me or we'll pretend to not have a tumblr account when are friends ask for our IDs??

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Depression be hurting at random times....I miss Taemin

#kpop #shinee #i miss taemin #why am i like this #taemin #:(

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Me aggressively typing onto my computer, my family thinking what a smart, diligent, academic kid I am.....but me just writing a 40,000 words smut just cause...

#why am i like this #kpop smut #smut

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Me: No one is home I can do anything

Also me: *watches bl on the big tv*

Also Also me: *watches kpop edits on the big tv*

#kpop #bl #why am i like this #kinnporsche #IS MAKING ME CRAZY

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*sighs*

*sighs heavily*

*opens lips to speak but closes*

*mumbles to oneself*

i am hunger..

#lol im going crazy #i want food #why am i like this

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Billy said "I dont talk shit about you on the intrenet" but what if, WHAT IF-

hear me out,

what if I do- and you just dont know it's me and a few strangers on the internet already hate you more than me?

Wont that be interesting?

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No one:

My brain at 1am: riNg DINg DOng! RING DING DONG! RiNG DIng dONg~ RING DIDIDIDIDIDING DONG!! ELASTICCCCCC!!!!

#ring ding disaster #ring ding dong #shinee #shawol #kpop #i cannot sleep again #ring dinggggg dongggghHHhahahahah #i miss taemin #key's blonde eyebrows #lol im going crazy

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I was wrong so many times, but all along I thought I was being the righteous one.

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Life's good ig. Crying, fighting, sadness is a part, it gives it a meaning. I may hate today, but tomorrow is going to be beautiful and so I get up once again to face the morning. Wont trade this for anything, nor will change a thing. It's all a part of me now, it's become me, and I'll cherish it as I wake up to tomorrow..

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Idk why women are deemed as the weaker half of the species...My uterus is tearing itself apart, but if someone tries to talk to me right now; I'll claw their eyeballs out without a single thought..

#period thoughts #i wanna crawl in a hole #and die #help i cant #FOOD #i want food

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why don’t you read a poem about the sunrise written 5 centuries ago and contemplate the fact that we have been writing about the same sun for centuries upon centuries and then maybe you’ll calm down

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Ugh...not again..

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There'll be a moment when you realise you're 27 when yesterday you were just 17; and you wouldn't be able to tell how a decade passed away and your life got divided into before and afters. The fury of youth will subdue and nothing will really change but everything will feel different when you look at old photographs and blurry videos taken on cheap mobile phones. Scents will remind you of childhood and certain friends you don't talk to anymore, hangouts will become reunions and mom's burnt pie will become the best food you ever had. And I know on some days you won't be able to show anything of those 10 years but I hope you remember to breathe, and let go of the knot in your chest. I hope you go out in the sun and live a little, because tomorrow is 37.

Edit- I added the visualizer for this piece on my YT, check it out here

-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The Flesh I Burned

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Good morning, idk what's good about it but I woke up again, yippeee

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Good Morning world, I'm tired once again :')