ireallyamthemaincharacter

[ireallyamthemaincharacter]

😭💀 never beating the psycho allegations

#actually aspd #actually npd #it’s just a silly quiz it wasn’t supposed to be so fucking accurate help #BOTH Hannibal’s???? like girl💀

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i think you should sit down with your therapist and try to uncover some paternal wounds or perhaps lose a sibling or close childhood friend in a freak accident because frankly i don't think you appreciate the prestige behind mommy issues or the responsibilities that come with being mommy's emotionally battered firstborn daughter, object of both rejection and clinging, neglect and obsessive control, like, the whole thing of ruminating about what mommy has done to you when you could be ruminating about how you failed mommy, or also how you're trying to heal the gaping wounds mommy left on your heart and mind when you could be holding on to them for dear life as the sole evidence that she really cared. i don't think you should be going around saying you want mommy's love when you won't even (aside)...am i in trouble? is she mad at me?... (/aside) when you won't even destroy yoursel'f in her image

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I masturbated for so long yesterday that I think I gave myself carpal tunnel 💀

#my wrist hurts so fucking bad!!! #…worth it though #🤭 #tbh masturbation is the only thing getting me through this narc crash #symptoms so bad gotta overdose on orgasms haha #npd tag #actually npd #npd

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#aspd tag #npd tag #narcopath #no bc I literally want this on a tshirt so bad. tattooed into my skin or something like a physical need

[ireallyamthemaincharacter]

I’m fine

[ireallyamthemaincharacter]

nothing in the world makes me more evil than just being kind of annoyed

[ireallyamthemaincharacter]

"you don't have to perform around me" sweetheart i have to perform in front of myself

[ireallyamthemaincharacter]

Seeing people abuse tf outta words like ‘God complex’ ‘Egotistical’ ‘Narcissistic’ ‘Impulsive’ ‘Unsympathetic’ to describe themselves because they get ‘silly’ but they’re also the same people who judge you, ostracise you, and shit talk you for being all of those things due to your personality disorders is an unmatched, enraging feeling

It’s the same people who treat you like absolute garbage when you’re having an episode, and then turn around and say they have a ‘God complex’ because maybe their egos big, but when I can’t be reached, can’t be convinced I’m wrong, can’t be reasoned with, don’t eat, sleep, abuse substances because I think I’m untouchable, do dangerous things to feed my impulses and because I genuinely don’t believe I can be hurt sometimes and can con my way out of everything, have an extensive criminal history and have phases where no, I don’t care about peoples feelings, and every other symptom, then suddenly I’m a horrible person? But it’s just ‘the silly’ for them, right?

#stop because I literally have had to have this argument with multiple people in my life #especially for overusing the term god complex as a fun silly way for them to describe being self confident 💀 #meanwhile I’m sitting here (barbecue sauce on my tiddies) with the actual literal complex wanting to fucking stab them

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the overuse of narcissist, psychopath/sociopath being used as an insult in media makes watching basically anything completely unenjoyable. At first it just made me roll my eyes because it negatively effects me, but now i just look at it as lazy and bad writing. Someone in that show is selfish? They're a narcissist. Someone acted aggressively or violently ? They're obviously a psychopath. It's getting really fucking old and boring

[ireallyamthemaincharacter]

What’s your typical day like?

i wake up. i malfunction. i call it a day

[ireallyamthemaincharacter]

You will be like “I have I Don’t Care About Things or People Disorder” and some NT will say “you know what I think? You’re evil and fucked up and I don’t like you!” Like did you hear what tf I just said, or? 🙄

#and they wonder why we don’t like them #aspd tag #npd tag #i am so so so tired

[ireallyamthemaincharacter]

am I your sexiest psychiatric patient be honest

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Dude this is so me fr

#this is the autistic narcopath rep I wanna see in the world #that’s a joke btw i have no idea if the creator has pd’s lol but this video really sums up my whole deal #it used to really bother my friends in high school when I would just mirror bc they would be like “hey do you like *insert movie here*” #and I would say “Yeah omg it was super good!” and then agree with them about it and everything #and they eventually caught on to the fact that I almost never saw/liked the same films as them. or actors or shows or books or or or #lemme tell you it was SUCH a relief to finally let go of all those friendships with the excuse of “outgrowing each other”. i get to be #totally myself whenever I’m alone and it I get to be alone a lot more now!!! it’s so so so good #i hate masking I hate mirroring imagine being behind the counter of a store 24/7 365 and having to do ur customer service thing always #that’s life for me. utterly exhausting #npd tag #aspd tag #autism

[ireallyamthemaincharacter]

life sucks but at least we can sexualize the horrors

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anybody got any funny examples of a time a prosocial or persotypical attempted to manipulate ur empathy or otherwise pretend to “understand” u or think they “knew the real u” but were wildly off base bc prosocials n persotypicals can never understand ppl like us ?

#OH MY GOD YEAH #this one guy who thought he was in love with me in high school #was sooo sure he knew me and I was just so cute and sweet and quirky to him #and when I would try to explain that I am not really any of those things he would be like ‘but u love bunnies! omg adorable!’ #🤢🤢🤢 it was genuinely so eurgh yucky disgusting etc #i HATE people who assume they know me better than I know myself. i hate it I HATE IT it makes me so fucking livid

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mental illness is so embarassing i’ll literally be like I’m fully aware I’m mentally ill but it’s not mental illness this time. and then it was mental illness