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Charles Bukowski, "hurry slowly," from Come On In!

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every time i start to get comfortable, i’m reminded of just how replaceable i am. they’ll always pick someone else first. they all will.

#bpd thoughts #vent

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you ever feel like you were born with something rotten inside you and if people get close enough they’re gonna find out

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I will always be so fucking angry for what they turned me into

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DO I SEEM ANXIOUS TO YOU?

DO I SEEM BACKED INTO A CORNER?

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bpd will really have you daydreaming about someone you’ve spoken to a grand total of 4 times. “omg i think i’m in love with them” no ur not bestie, take ur meds and go lie down <3

#bpd thoughts #just bpd things #🤪

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I think you forgot I was human

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me: i’m not really upset about it, it wasn’t even that bad

also me: full-on sobbing breakdown after finding and sniffing an old bottle of their perfume

#really tho guys it’s fine trust me #bpd thoughts #bpd fp #vent

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i really can’t do ANYTHING right, can i? mistake after mistake after mistake. i just need to be put down.

#bpd thoughts #vent

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i choose to believe in ghosts because the thought of coming back to haunt you is the only thing that motivates me

#bpd thoughts #vent #~✿ letters to jae

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Sylvia Plath, in a letter to Edward Cohen dated 11th September 1950; featured in The Letters of Sylvia Plath: vol. I: 1940 1956

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It gets so old watching people have and get the things you so badly want. I just sit there hoping one day, it'll be me. But I've hoped for so long with so little in return that I'm finally starting to realize that it will never be me. I was born with the promise of being pitiful and undeserving.

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having high-highs so good borderline personality disorder becomes borderline personality enhancement

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Cluster b culture is having an unspoken rule that you can only vent a certain number of times because if you vented every time you needed to, everyone would deem you as a drain on their mental health