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This a a reminder to not fall victim to the sunk-cost fallacy. Just because you invested time and energy into something, does not mean you should indefinitely waste more time and energy on it, if you decide it’s not what you want anymore. This goes for anything, from books, to relationships, to jobs, to hobbies, etc.

If it’s not serving you anymore, move on.

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“IF NO ONE ACCEPTS YOU, YOU HAVE ME”

Lately I’ve seen the narrative around Krist shifting from “he’s homophobic” to “he was homophobic, but he got better :)” so!

Let’s go back to a moment in 2017 during a ceremony where Krist and Singto accepted an award from the Thai branch of the gay magazine Attitude (now defunct). That’s the magazine that published this photoshoot:

[Attitude, 2018, promoting SOTUS S] (they also did one in 2016 for SOTUS)

Krist said that a friend of his once came out to his parents, and the parents wouldn’t accept him, so Krist told his friend, “It’s okay. If no one accepts you, you have me, and I accept you for who you are.”

So, yes, Krist was hotheaded when people kept harassing him about his sexuality, but can anyone truly blame him? No one looks at all the times he answered politely. Just the one time he broke.

There are people today who film these guys at the urinal. Who treat them like property because of money and time spent on them. Who hire trucks to drive around their company building making demands. And it’s 2024. GMMTV has legal teams on this stuff now. But you and I can’t imagine what kind of invasiveness Krist and Singto went through in 2016 as one of the first pairs in the BL industry to gain overnight fame and rabid, unprecedented focus from millions. Of course he snapped. It’s widely known that fans and reporters target Krist over Singto to get information even today because Singto never gives anyone the satisfaction of a reaction, but Krist is a people-pleaser and truly struggles with saying no to people. He’s always been the emotional one, the one who overthinks, the one desperate to make people happy. And when fans wanted to force KristSingto to publicly say that they were secretly dating, fans thought they could get Krist to break first, and they were right. (Personally, I always thought the Instagram story was an exaggerated joke that was a barely veiled “drop it.”)

Then interfans came along, marked him as an easy target, and maliciously miscast him as a bigot to wave after wave of new interfans who never bothered to research further after a random person on the internet told them he’s a homophobe.

Krist asked his parents for their blessing to audition for SOTUS when he was still a teenager. He was afraid of what they’d think, but because his parents are lovely people, they supported him. And they still do. Krist’s father has a running joke that he’ll let Krist marry Singto if Singto brings a durian for the dowry.

I never included Singto in my clarification thread because I knew how quickly people would dismiss anything with Singto as conniving, tricksy fanservice. But you really don’t know anything about Krist until you see him with people he considers his safe spaces. That includes people like Mike. Like Gawin. Godji. Oat. These people who love him because he’s earned it.

I know I talk about this a lot. But I won’t ignore it when people try to twist his character, especially with I see them making assumptions about the premise of Ex-Morning. All I believe is that he was angry and afraid and overwhelmed. Then he reacted, apologized, and learned how to handle the fame and the invasiveness better.

Please stop trying to claw marrow out of a past mirage.

#krist perawat

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Tell me whatcha want, babe...be honest.

The so-called "CLiMaTe CriSis" is nothing --- and I mean NOTHING more than a scam to institute communism. That's a fact.

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it really is so uncomfortable being a trans man in cis centric conversations of feminism. I just wonder. do they know about people like me? do they care? if I brought it up to them, how would they react? Do they expect me to be their human shield?

#terfs

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I have to say, I myself don't have many peers in gmmtv, it's always been just KSOGTN. So when we separated, I was quite lonely, because everyone else could still work as a unit, while I was going solo on my own. P'Sing, too, for that matter. So for us to reunite... In our personal lives we still see each other from time to time, but in terms of work I think both of us don't want to be lonely anymore. I feel like now the timing is right. I finally came to the conclusion that I'll need to halt my plan of further studies for now. And if I'm not going abroad to study just yet, working the same old way still makes me happy. I like working where it feels comfortable, and being here makes me comfortable. I don't need to go anywhere else. ❶ ❷ ❸

#krist perawat #singto prachaya

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Even if the abuse didn’t “feel bad” at the time, it was still abuse. And you are still allowed to feel whatever you feel about it. 

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The sick reality is that many of the renowned academics and writers among Gaza's thousands of martyrs will, in twenty years time, be quoted and memorialised by the same universities and institutions that have denigrated them and enabled their slaughter.

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A list of questions and things I've noticed about Phum (because his character fascinates me):

- Is his best friend Fang?

- Does he ever go to class?

- DADDY ISSUES???

- Stuffed animal collection (seen on the bench in his room when he's "pranking" Peem)

- Gets babied my Fang but babies Toey

- Does he have 2 cars?

- Do Fang and him just switch cars?

- Why is he so reluctantly supportive of TanFang?

- Does he know that apparently Tan was a playboy?

- Are he and Fang Irish twins? (since they are both 2nd years)

- Is he just apologizing the only way he knows how to, buying gifts or doing favors, because that's the way his parents apologize to him?

- DADDY ISSUES?!?!

- Does he know he has a crush on Peem (or is this another Pat acting like that with Pran because he didn't realize he liked Pran yet)????

- Will I ever see him in something besides his Engineering uniform (hopefully a ponytail)???

- Did he teach Toey the effectiveness of puppy dog eyes (because you know he's used them as baby of the family)???

- Interrupts Peem telling his "dream" about the dog leaving him -> doesn't want Toey to know about "prank"?

- Lack of social skills apparent

#we are the series #phumpeem

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For reference:

Serif fonts have the hooks on the end (called serifs)

popular fonts include: Garamond, Cambria, Times New Roman, etc.

Sans-serif fonts don't have serifs

popular fonts include: Helvetica, Open Sans, Roboto, etc.

(please RB if you vote!)

#i like slab serifs where the serifs are the serifs have the same line width as the rest of the letter like rockwell or roboto slab #i also like fights where some letters have serifs and some don't like monospace fonts or Atkinson hyperlegible #I've been making a pixel font based on my handwriting and most of the letters don't have serifs but some do so every letter is distinct #letters like p b d q have different serifs so they're not rotations of each other and capital i and L have different serifts #typography

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adrien is acespec, autistic, genderqueer, and arguably not human (sentibeing). he does not realize any of these facts, however, because that would require knowing himself. which he does not

#Serious™ addition: all he knows about himself is the masks he wears #REAL addition: all he knows about himself is that he really likes saying ''meow'' and doing little catgirl poses #''actually there's no way he's—'' thats what HE WANTS YOU TO THINK #<previous tags #one thing i enjoy about miraculous ladybug it's that the canon it's rich with character details that make fans make posts like this #and also rich with stuff that fans ignore because the show creator sucks #miraculous ladybug

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Cults are not just a white people thing. Especially in the US, predatory high control groups actively target disenfranchised people, especially immigrant populations who don't have the best grasp of English, and entered the country with a head full of American exceptionality propaganda.

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I've always had chronic fatigue. I remember being twelve, and an adult mentioned how I couldn't possibly know how tired they felt because adulthood brought levels of exhaustion I couldn't imagine. I thought about that for days in fear, because I couldn't remember the last time I didn't feel tired.

Eventually I came to terms with the fact that I was just tired, and I couldn't do as many things as everyone else. People called me lazy, and I knew that wasn't true, but there's only so many times you can say "I'm tired" before people think it's an excuse. I don't blame them. When a teenager does 20 hours of extracurriculars every week and only says "I'm too tired" when you ask them to do the dishes, it's natural to think it's an excuse. At some point, I started to think the same thing.

It didn't matter that I could barely sit up. It was probably all in my head, and if I really wanted to, I could do it.

When I learned the name for it, chronic fatigue, I thought wow, people that have that must be miserable, because I am always tired and I cannot imagine what it would feel like if it were worse.

Spoiler alert, if you've been tired for a decade, it's probably chronic fatigue.

Once I figured that out though, I thought of my energy as the same as everyone else's, just smaller in quantity. And that might be true for some people, but I've figured out recently that it absolutely isn't true for me.

I used to be like wow I have so much energy today I can do this whole list for sure! And then I'd do the dishes and have to lay down for 2 hours. Then I'd think I must gave misjudged that, I didn't have as much energy as I thought.

But the thing is - I did have enough energy for more tasks, I just didn't go about them properly.

With chronic fatigue, your maximum energy is obviously much smaller than the average person's. Doing the dishes for you might use up the same percentage of energy that it takes to do all the daily chores for someone else.

If someone without chronic fatigue was to do all the daily chores, they would take breaks. Because otherwise, they're sprinting a marathon for no reason and it would take way more energy than necessary. We have to do the same.

Put the cups in the dishwasher, take a break. Put the bowls in, take a break. So on and so forth. This may mean taking breaks every 2-5 minutes but afterwards, you get to not feel like you've run a marathon while carrying 4 people on your back.

Today, I had a moderate amount of energy. Under my old system of go till you drop, I probably could have done most of the dishes and wiped off the counter and then been dead to the world for the rest of the day.

Under the new system, I scooped litter boxes, cleaned out the fridge, took the trash out, cleaned the stove, and wiped off the counter and did all the dishes. And after all that, I still had it in me to make a simple dinner, unload the dishwasher, and tidy the kitchen.

It was complete and utter insanity. Just because I sat down whenever I felt myself getting more tired than I already was.

All this to say, take fucking breaks. It's time to unlearn the ceaseless productivity bullshit that capitalism has shoved down our throats. Its actively counterproductive. Just sit down. Drink some water. Rest your body when it needs to rest.

There will still be days where there is nothing to do but rest, and days where half a load of dishes is absolutely the most I can do. But this method has really helped me minimize those, which is so incredibly relieving.

#disability

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I thought you had already forgotten about me. What about you? Have you forgotten me? What do you think? Looking at your face, it seems like you can't get me out of your head, can you?

MY STAND-IN (2024) | 1.01

#my stand in

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have you ever foraged for mushrooms?

#nope but i know where all the good blackberry briar is

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Ming: on second thought, you can take me anywhere you want

Joe, flustered, internally: I should probably take him out to dinner first

Ming, externally: by anywhere I specifically mean your bed

#and then they went on to eat literal not metaphorical ramyeon #my stand in #my stand-in #my stand in the series

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Aylin saying “I love you” on the first date is the most lesbian thing that has happened in this show

#23.5 #lmao

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23.5 said t4t lesbians in my ql im. giggling kicking my feet,,,

#23.5