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You're mentally incapacitated.

No, you're not being unprofessional, stop paying attention to those thoughts, they're just trying to take you down.

You're mentally incapacitated.

You were laughing one second ago and everything seemed to go wrong the next.

No, you're not making things up.

Your head is having a hard time recalibrating and noticing everything is okay.

Your head needs more time to feel that nothing is wrong.

Your head hurts for the sudden shift.

Probably for a lot of unrelated things as well.

But it's just something that happened.

It's not your fault.

You're not boycotting yourself.

Yeah, you fixed all that seemed wrong in two minutes, but your body needs more time to disengage the defensive mode.

Give your head time to establish itself and recover, no matter how long it takes.

You can start working after, but you need to be okay first.

Give yourself time to be okay.

Nothing else is worth yourself.

#talking to myself #mentally exhausted #mentally unstable #mental health #distorted thoughts #breath break

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A brief moment of rationality from the bird place.

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I accidentally follow people so much on this site that i dont know who half the people on my dash are

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“And I don’t think anybody should feel bad if they get diagnosed with a mental illness, ’cause it’s just information about you that helps you to know how to take better care of yourself.

“Being bipolar, there’s nothing wrong with it. Being bipolar is like not knowing how to swim. It might be embarrassing to tell people, and it might be hard to take you certain places. But they have arm floaties. And if you just take your arm floaties, you can go wherever the hell you want.

“And I know some of you are like, ‘But Taylor, what if people judge me for taking arm floaties?’ Well, those people don’t care if you live or die, so maybe who cares? Maybe fuck those people a little. I don’t know.”

Taylor Tomlinson, Look At You (2022)

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Why bother arguing in support of trans people if you’re not trans?

very simple concept called believing in human rights

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I don't want to be the bigger person, I want to be a person in pain.

#bigger person #the bigger person #the biggest person #biggest person #pain #let me choose violence

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Esta puede ser la ilustración más sincera que he hecho en mi vida.

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I woke up feeling disabled.

Hear me out...

I have 10+ years of being disabled. It's not a big thing, I even feel like I'm cheating when I have to say I'm disabled. I'm hard of hearing, the hearing loss suddenly appeared one fine morning and that was it. It has been progressing slowly over all these years, but I have been listening to music practically 24/7 since six months ago due to owning noise-canceling headphones to try to make my life easier and to battle tinnitus. Not the best way, I know, but I have to choose my battles.

I have no proof that my hearing is decaying, but I neither have doubts.

I also have a year and five months with a bent ankle constantly hurting, acting up occasionally, and limiting me. I first bent it twelve years ago and after the treatment I never was asked or suggested to do therapy. I bent it for the third time recently, so after getting accustomed to the pain of the year-and-five-month issue, it rolled over again.

I have a very low pain tolerance and I gave up on fixing or solving my issues, I just want to be pain-free.

So this morning I'm lying in bed feeling disabled for the first time in ten years. And not even because of my hearing, but because of my ankle, hurting so damn much that I didn't wanna move my leg.

I have always wanted those colorful and mismatched tight-height socks and I finally got four pairs, so this is the second day, the first morning I woke up wearing them and though I love them and I get to have a little smile every time I look down to my legs, I felt sad the ankle was hurting when I was having these precious socks on. One thing is nowhere related to the other, but that's how the brain works, right? So well...

I woke up this fine morning, ten years, three months, and one day after being disabled, and felt disabled.

#disability #disabilties #disabled #hearing problems #hard of hearing #hearing loss #bent ankle #pain #chronic pain #pain tolerance

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Do you know how it feels when your spark starts dimming out?

Well, that.

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here’s a tip: if you start dating a depressed person, don’t be surprised if they are still depressed while they are dating you. they’re not depressed because they’re single, and you are not an all-powerful cure for mental illnesses. just be there for them.

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Can someone just genuinely ask me how I feel every now and then? I would like to build a healthy public sharing, but I always believe no one cares.

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I'm built different. like incorrectly i think