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Back on board

After 2 months of binging I’ve gained 7kg and I’m back on board to start working it all off mainly because I desperately want to kill myself and I’ve seen a few recent photos of me and I’m pretty sure that if I continue I’m never going to stop

I’m back at the starting weight of 75kg

I know I’ve gained a lot in two months an you probably think it will be easier to just kill myself but I am willing to try and actually not be such a fuxking fat ass

#ana trigger #fat belly #skinnnny #getting skiny #bul1m14 #fat piggy #still fat #i wanna be th1n #tw 4n4 #plateau #4n0r3x14 #4n4r3x1c #notprojusttags #ed fast #fat anime #f4tspo

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Dying really sounds like an option.

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I’m going to kill myself

I’ve got the pills and this time it will kill me

I am so sick of this fucking pain, being at the weight, the voices, the thoughts. I’m fucking over it all

I’m sick of uni, sick of people and relationships and sick of never getting the help I need

Bye everyone and I apologise for every being in your life

#ana trigger #fat belly #skinnnny #getting skiny #bul1m14 #fat piggy #still fat #i wanna be th1n #tw 4n4 #plateau #4n0r3x14 #4n4r3x1c #notprojusttags #tw sui ideation #i wanna kms #overdoz

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Was feeling really hungry today to I waited for dinner and had some squid + veggies with long grain rice (picked most of it off) + beetroot (max of 400 cals)

Also had some fruit salad which was max of (150 cals)

So I’m total I had 550 cals

Not a good day today not a good day at all!

And to top that off I relapsed on self harm after being 3 weeks clean

#ana trigger #fat belly #skinnnny #getting skiny #bul1m14 #fat piggy #still fat #i wanna be th1n #tw 4n4 #plateau #4n0r3x14 #4n4r3x1c #notprojusttags #self h@rm

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I’m not usually scared of liquid calories but today I had 2 McDonald’s coffee frappe (no whipped cream and no chocolate drizzle) but I’m still fuxking scared of how many calories I had today even tho I only ate 200 calories.

I’m not usually this scared of liquid cals, I avoid them where I can but I’ve got my safe drinks which is caramel latte (120 cals wit milk) and McDonald’s coffee frappe (no cream or chocolate) (400 cals) which usually make me happy and not give me a panic attack like they did today. I’ve had so many calories today it’s not funny and I’m positive I’m gonna gain weight!

I just want to throw myself of a bridge for letting myself have this many calories, it’s like I want to stay fat at this point.

I’m so over myself and I just want this to end

#ana trigger #fat belly #skinnnny #getting skiny #bul1m14 #fat piggy #still fat #i wanna be th1n #tw 4n4 #plateau #4n0r3x14 #4n4r3x1c #notprojusttags

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Ed meme dump

#ana trigger #fat belly #tw eating issues #skinnnny #getting skiny #bul1m14 #fat piggy #still fat #i wanna be th1n #tw 4n4 #plateau #4n0r3x14 #4n4r3x1c #notprojusttags #tw ed vent #edmeme

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how many calories do you eat a day?

I fast most of the time but when I eat it’s always under 500 cals + 100 cals for my morning coffee. 🤗

I don’t recommend this as I keep losing my sight and hearing due to malnourishment which is scary but I just can’t eat.

Stay safe x

#ana trigger #fat belly #skinnnny #getting skiny #bul1m14 #fat piggy #still fat #plateau #ana rules #restrictive ed #not pr0 just for myself #notprojusttags #4n4r3x1c #tw 4n4 #4n0r3x14

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HELLO EVERYONE, I HIT MY NEXT GOAL WEIGHT OF 68kg WEIGHING IN AT 67.90kg

In 12 weeks I’ve managed to lose 9.10kg (20lbs) and 17.10kg (37.6lbs) since my high weight.

Current BMI 25.2

Next gw

65kg/143lbs

#ana trigger #fat belly #skinnnny #getting skiny #bul1m14 #fat piggy #i wanna be th1n #still fat #tw 4n4 #plateau #4n4r3x1c #4n0r3x14

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I want to look as sick as my thoughts

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So.. I tried to off myself last week and ended up in the icu.

#ana trigger #fat belly #skinnnny #getting skiny #bul1m14 #fat piggy #still fat #plateau #restrictive ed #tw ed vent #tw 4n4 #4n0r3x14

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"My child is completely fine" your child would do anything to lose 30lbs in a week

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33*

POV: You lost 10lbs but look 10x fatter

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TW // ED , Fatspo

Fatspo is disgusting.

Every other month on my twitter timeline I see women notice that their pics got used for fatspo and it's heartbreaking.

Imagine thinking that you have the right to post other peoples bodies and call them things just for motivation. Believe it or not, some people (no matter what weight they are) love their bodies, have self-esteem and unlike us aren't mentally ill. People who post fatspo are the ones with the problems.

If you post fatspo or publicly shame someone for their weight in order to boost your own ED you are no better than the skinny girls who called you fat behind your back, you are no better than your family members who made comments on your eating habits and you are no better than the guys who asked you out as a dare because of your weight. Being skinny with an ugly personality is not cute. You're bullying.